Om my goodness you guys. Thank you so much for your support and prayers. We need every ounce of them. Thank you for all the comments and stuff of the like. You all are amazing.

My brothers fever has come down and they've started to lower the percentage of pure oxygen he's breathing with the ventilator. He's still in a medically induced coma, though and no word on the antibiotics yet. One of his lungs is completely taken over by the infection, as well as part of the other. Please keep praying. He is still very far from getting better. This is our last hope. Keep praying for a miracle.

Thank you
With all my heart

~Haz

I'm going to see him this morning. He's stable right now, but still sedated, so he won't be aware that I'm there. Hopefull the drs will bring some kind of good news.

Guys,

He's dying. Nothing is working. The only thing tht's keeping him alive is machines now. I need a miracle. He needs a miracle. I'm not strong enough to do this. I don't want to lose him. He means so much to me. He's one of very few people that I would sit up at 3am writing an online journal about asking for prayer from a group of fiftyfive people, only a handful of which will probably ever read. He's only 26. He doesn't deserve this.

Why is life so unfair?!

God bless him. He may not come home again.


~Haz

My brother is significantly worse today. They're going to put him on a ventilator and try to drain the fluid from his lungs. If that doesn't work, they're going to send him to UVA (University of Virginia) for a lung biopsy. He is now in very very critical condition. If these things don't work, there's not much else they can do for him. I'm really scared now, guys. I don't want to lose him :'(

Please pray extra hard, everyone. His life is on the line now.


~Haz

I'm feeling much better now ^^ Yay! I'm still a little under it, but I'm doing alright. :3

My brother's fever still hasn't broken and he is continually getting worse. I can't go to the hospital to see him because I'm still sick. :'( The Pneumonia has spread to his other lung and is making it harder for him to get the proper oxygen he needs and the antibiotics aren't working yet. Please pray they'll work. We're running out of options. Continued prayers are appreciated.

Also, this is just a shot in the dark, but I have the ref for my Zipper Cat, Hoxie, sketched out and ready to be colored. I can't color it traditionally, because I don't have the right colors. I was wondering if somebody would be interested in maybe helping me out and coloring it for me. I already have the color pallete ready and his markings a pretty easy to see on the page, plus if anything needs to be edited, I can do that myself later when I get my tablet back and running again. I know it might be a bit much to ask and I can't pay any money for it to be done, but I can offer some art as a trade if willing. It doesn't have to be complicated. Just flat colored and spiffed up to look like a nice simple ref. if you're interested in helping out, please let me know. I greatly appreciate it. If not, I understand

The ref as it currently is- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12431720/


Thanks!
~Haz

My brother is now in ICU and not doing well. They said that if he isn't any better by morning, they'll have to do a lung biopsy.please continue to keep him in your prayers

So I'm sick, half miserable, and I have no tablet. Anyone want a free pencil sketch?

Just post one or two refs (must be your own ocs and/or a friend's) and I'll pick a few of them to doodle up on paper to get my mind off things. Sketch prompt words would be nice too, but aren't required. No NSFW refs please.

Ok, ya'll! Have fun!

Go!!

Well, turns out I'm officially sick. Head/chest cold with some terribly achy muscles. ;n;

Also, my older brother has been in the hospital for almost a week now with pneumonia. The dr.s just called this morning to inform us that he has gotten worse and is now on oxygen and they are monitoring his heart. Please keep him in your prayers. He is in so much pain :'(


~Haz

... you have this awful tag on the back of your bra that itches like hell and you can't reach it to tear it off but you try to anyway and look like a complete idiot/human pretzel.

yup.







I know.... TMI

I have no fucking tablet.


I hope you guys like traditional art
'Cause that's all you're gonna get for little while

*flips a table* >:(

It's currently very cold and snowy out and I think I'm getting sick.....

Also, I'm having some tablet/digital art setbacks, so you might be seeing some traditional art for a little while until I can get everything sorted out -.- Sorry

I don't understand. D': Please tell me why you're unwatching meeeee. I'm a very understanding person, really. I judt want to know why so I can change or at least apologize. Every single one of you mean so much to me! Please, just have the courteousy to at least tell me you're leaving :'(

So I just lost a watcher. It kinda bothers me because FA doesn't show who it was and I'm concerned. Did they delete/lose their account? Did I post something offensive? Was my art not as good as they expected? Idk... They had been watching me for about a month :( I shall mourn my loss and only pray that I can do better for those of you still watching me

So I made my new icon/avatar :D It's my first animated one. ^^ How'd I do? Any suggestions?

:P Yay

Sometimes I seriously feel like I am the only person around that has only had one main fursona/fursona design (aside from hairdo and art style changes). I mean, seriously... Khande is the first fursona I ever drew and has been my only fursona all this time since I decided on designing one. I can understand one or two different funsonas and I'm perfectly ok with alternate sonas (like pokesonas, ponysonas, or maybe another fur etc. along with your main fur), but six or seven complete switches of fursonas? What?? How can you do that? <.<

Yes, tastes change over the years....

But

Just make up your mind and stick with it for a while.

So school is almost out for Christmas break, and I have a ton to do before Thursday. I'm pretty sure I have to stay up all night. What the hell? I am not happy. So anyway, anybody up for a late night conversation? -.-

Also, sorry about the decreased flow of art. I've been very busy with school. However, I have been working on quite a few traditional things ^^ So prepare for traditional headshot badges, pencil sketches, the introduction of a new OC, and other fun things.

Lots of Love
~Haz

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12152774/

Go and try it out ^^ You might get somethin'!

Haz needs a hug ;n;

And watch this persom :O SO AMAZING AND JUST ASDDFGHLJHGFDSAASDFGHJJHGFD
GO NOW!!!

 Atroquine

So I've been under the weather lately, as you all know. However, I think it's safe to say that I will be able to post new art every Wednesday morning/noon. I hope to maybe open up commissions soon. They will be pretty cheap since my art isn't too much to admire, but I really need the money. Even though I won't get to spend the holidays with my friends, I still want to get them gifts and all. I also currently offer cheap point coms on my Deviantart account. Every little bit helps.

~Haz

I'm depressed. I had a good day in art today and everything has been alright today in general, but things are really weighing me down. The holidays are coming up soon (they're already playing Christmas music, WTF?) and there's not much I can be happy about except maybe the food. I've always felt like the best thing about the holidays is being with your friends and family and the ones you love. But this year, it doesn't look like I'll have that. Sure, I'll be with my family, but I get EVERY holiday EVERY year with them. I was really hoping to have a happy Thanksgiving, and Birthday, and Christmas, and New Year with everyone I love, especially my four best friends, who mean everything to me. They ARE my family. But I won't get to be with them. I won't get to see them very much, if at all. And heaven forbid I try to talk to any of them. I'm not allowed.

It feels so unfair. I wish I could go back in time. Back to when everything was still fine, and I was still happy. Now I'm only depressed and angry. Everything is so complicated...

I guess all I can do now is learn to be lonely and embrace the upcoming empty holiday season

I'm sorry to vent at you all. I just don't have anyone else to talk to


~Haz

Raffle here! Go join it for a chance to win :D
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11941980/

Sorry everyone.... But I am about to spam you with a bunch of ref sheets XD Sorry. I just wanna get them all posted and over with! That way it won't happen again anytime soon lol

Lots of Love,
~Haz

Go check it out ^^ Great prizes!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:36683344

... you look at other people's amazing art and then feel greatly inadequate :/ I try so hard and turn out a picture that's maybe half the quality of the good artists. Maybe. I don't know how they can be so perfect so easily.

Idk... I'll keep on trying as long as I still have breath I suppose.

Thanks to all my watchers. I appreciate every single one of you so much. Thanks for considering me good enough to endure watching my art.
Also, a special thanks to my buddy  Ziggy-Zerda You're the best friend I've got here. I appreciate everything you've said and done for me.

Lots of Love,
~Haz