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New Year's Resolution
General | Posted 12 years agoIt took me a day, but I finally have my "resolution." I woke up today, and realized that, after 8 years (to the date in a couple of weeks) of being totally alone after all the people I cared about, family and friends alike, turned against me and sided with my ex, I am still as big a self-centered dickhole of a person as I ever was. I mean, my friend Orin has been the only person aside from my mom and my son to actually give me a Christmas present for two years straight now and it never even entered my mind to return the favor until just now.
So, this is my resolution: 2013 was "The Year it Starts Getting Better," so 2014 is "The Year I Start Becoming Better." This will be the year I expand my world beyond the end of my nose and actually try to be the person I should be, if for no other reason than maybe, if I had before, maybe I wouldn't have BEEN alone for 8 years and counting. Yeah, maybe I had a valid excuse this time, maybe I didn't...excuses don't change the fact that, if I died, there would be no one to put me in the ground or even notice it happened until the smell got to them.
We'll see how it goes.
So, this is my resolution: 2013 was "The Year it Starts Getting Better," so 2014 is "The Year I Start Becoming Better." This will be the year I expand my world beyond the end of my nose and actually try to be the person I should be, if for no other reason than maybe, if I had before, maybe I wouldn't have BEEN alone for 8 years and counting. Yeah, maybe I had a valid excuse this time, maybe I didn't...excuses don't change the fact that, if I died, there would be no one to put me in the ground or even notice it happened until the smell got to them.
We'll see how it goes.
New Years Eve
General | Posted 12 years agoKinda weird, spending my New Years Eve scanning shit from decade-plus-old sketchbooks and dicking around Tumblr while MST3K plays on YouTube. I’d say it stands as possibly the most accurate portrayal of my life in general but I’m actually in a pretty good mood so that’s probably not accurate right there. Regardless…
I almost don’t want to show some of this older stuff to anyone, it’s actually way better than I draw nowadays.
I almost don’t want to show some of this older stuff to anyone, it’s actually way better than I draw nowadays.
Happy holidays..?
General | Posted 12 years agoHere I am, humbugging it up all over the fucking place about spending my Christmas alone and my Christmas Eve at work...when all of a sudden my son and his mom show up with a plate of food and a present for me. Apparently, his grandma (her mom) decided to celebrate tonight instead of tomorrow (something they do on and off each year) and they decided to spread the cheer since I was working tonight, and he's going to be coming over to my place tomorrow because of it.
I...am legitimately surprised. I did not expect this at all.
I...guess...Merry Christmas everyone? I hope your holidays have unexpected happiness as well.
I...am legitimately surprised. I did not expect this at all.
I...guess...Merry Christmas everyone? I hope your holidays have unexpected happiness as well.
*facepalm*
General | Posted 12 years agoFA is back.
Everyone posts "FA IS BACK! FUCK FA, FIND ME ON WEASYL!" journals.
I come on after 8 hours to OVER 256 JOURNALS of this shit.
I try to delete them.
"FA IS UNABLE TO PROCESS MASS DELETIONS."
Oy.
...so I add one more useless journal post to EVERYONE ELSE'S queue. My priorities = shit.
Everyone posts "FA IS BACK! FUCK FA, FIND ME ON WEASYL!" journals.
I come on after 8 hours to OVER 256 JOURNALS of this shit.
I try to delete them.
"FA IS UNABLE TO PROCESS MASS DELETIONS."
Oy.
...so I add one more useless journal post to EVERYONE ELSE'S queue. My priorities = shit.
Update
General | Posted 12 years agoOK, calming down and working through the despair (yes, despair, fuck you). I might be able to recover the pieces of writing that I've submitted to classes, since they're still in my Canvas Outbox and discussion boards. As stated, a good chunk of my art is either online or in sketchbooks. I can probably ask friends to re-send me the gift art. A lot of stuff is gone for good, but at least I can recover some of the more important bits.
It's All Gone
General | Posted 12 years agoEverything from the past two years. Every picture, every piece of writing...gone.
My laptop has bee glitchy since the end of September and keep requiring me to System Restore so I moved all my files to a flash drive and somewheere between the end of class last night, my trip to the grocery store, and home it vanished. I have been up since 4am looking for it and its gone. Everything, every story and pic gone. Yeah, I have my sketchbooks and these galleries for the art but the writing was nowhere else. Yeah, who cares, as long as you can still draw titties, right? FUKC YOU, this was my fucking writing and it doesn't exist anymore.
FUCK!
EDIT: Even better, guess what shithole town got it's first heavy snowfall of the season, thus insuring that if the fucking drive DID randomly fall out of my pocket somewhere in my travels, it's now buried in data-corrupting slush and mud?
Everything. EVERYTHING. The CoH character files I had saved and was holding until "City of Titans" launched. Every piece of gift art given to me. Evry one of JP's wonderful pieces. Every saved game, screenshot, and disturbing piece of downloaded hentai (which actually makes me kinda hope, if I don't find it, it IS destroyed). The past two fucking years of my life...no, longer, because it had al the stuff I salvaged from when my previous laptop died in 2011.
Fuck.
My laptop has bee glitchy since the end of September and keep requiring me to System Restore so I moved all my files to a flash drive and somewheere between the end of class last night, my trip to the grocery store, and home it vanished. I have been up since 4am looking for it and its gone. Everything, every story and pic gone. Yeah, I have my sketchbooks and these galleries for the art but the writing was nowhere else. Yeah, who cares, as long as you can still draw titties, right? FUKC YOU, this was my fucking writing and it doesn't exist anymore.
FUCK!
EDIT: Even better, guess what shithole town got it's first heavy snowfall of the season, thus insuring that if the fucking drive DID randomly fall out of my pocket somewhere in my travels, it's now buried in data-corrupting slush and mud?
Everything. EVERYTHING. The CoH character files I had saved and was holding until "City of Titans" launched. Every piece of gift art given to me. Evry one of JP's wonderful pieces. Every saved game, screenshot, and disturbing piece of downloaded hentai (which actually makes me kinda hope, if I don't find it, it IS destroyed). The past two fucking years of my life...no, longer, because it had al the stuff I salvaged from when my previous laptop died in 2011.
Fuck.
Movie Meme
General | Posted 12 years agoJust for the sake of having something new on my journal, I swiped this from 
Sublimate :
1. Name a movie that you have seen more than 10 times:
The Secret of NIMH, the original Star Wars trilogy...I'm pretty sure by now The Last Unicorn and The Last Starfighter as well.
2. Name a movie that you've seen multiple times in a theatre:
The Little Mermaid, Beauty and The Beast...Hell, most of the "Disney Renaissance" films up to Lilo and Stitch, probably...Spider-Man, The Matrix, & The Avengers as well for certain.
3. Name an actor that would make you more inclined to see a movie:
Hmm...I'd be inclined to say Simon Pegg, but since I haven't seen the new Star Trek films or the last Mission: Impossible flick, I guess that's not the case, so...no one, really.
4. Name an actor that would make you less likely to see a movie:
I've gotten kinda iffy about Adam Sandler.
5. Name a movie that you can quote from:
Too many to count.
6. Name a movie musical that you know all the lyrics to all the songs:
Little Shop of Horrors, but that's kind of a cheat because I auditioned for Orin Scrivello, DDS, in college. The Muppet Movie for certain, though.
7. Name a movie musical that you have been known to sing along with:
Most of them, actually. I may apparently be unable to carry a tune in a bucket, but that doesn't stop me from trying.
8. Name a movie that you would recommend everyone see:
Aside from the obvious ones? ParaNorman definitely needs more love, and the original Inherit The Wind with Spencer Tracy and Gene Kelly (and the original Darrin from Bewitched, the old guy in that was in charge for the later seasons of M.A.S.H., and Mr. Roper from Three's Company) is my favorite film, so I can recommend that, too.
9. Name an unusual movie that you own:
I suppose, going off of what people normally know and assume about me, Inherit The Wind probably counts.
10. Name an actor that launched his/her entertainment career in another
Huh...I guess Kevin Smith counts because he was a writer/director before he became an actor.
11. Have you ever seen a movie in a drive-in?:
Yeah, Spider-Man.
12. Ever made out in a movie?:
Nope.
13. Name a movie that you keep meaning to see but just haven't gotten around to it:
Most of the "cinematic classics" like The Godfather or Apocalypse Now for example.
14. Ever walked out of a movie:
Not that I can remember.
15. Name a movie that made you cry:
Moulin Rouge, The Last Unicorn, Transformers: The Movie (I was 12, dammit! Optimus Prime meant more to me than blood relatives then!)
16. Popcorn?:
Nah, can't stand the stuff. Feels like I'm chewing styrofoam.
17. How often do you go to the movies?:
"GO to the movies?" Eh, a couple times a month if there's something interesting.
18. What's the last movie you saw in the theatre?:
Despicable Me 2
19. What is your favorite/preferred genre of movie?:
Not sure, really...probably animated.
20. What was the first movie you remember seeing in the theatre?:
One of the absolute earliest memories I have is being carried by my mom while our family waited in line for Star Wars, so I guess that counts.
Sublimate :1. Name a movie that you have seen more than 10 times:
The Secret of NIMH, the original Star Wars trilogy...I'm pretty sure by now The Last Unicorn and The Last Starfighter as well.
2. Name a movie that you've seen multiple times in a theatre:
The Little Mermaid, Beauty and The Beast...Hell, most of the "Disney Renaissance" films up to Lilo and Stitch, probably...Spider-Man, The Matrix, & The Avengers as well for certain.
3. Name an actor that would make you more inclined to see a movie:
Hmm...I'd be inclined to say Simon Pegg, but since I haven't seen the new Star Trek films or the last Mission: Impossible flick, I guess that's not the case, so...no one, really.
4. Name an actor that would make you less likely to see a movie:
I've gotten kinda iffy about Adam Sandler.
5. Name a movie that you can quote from:
Too many to count.
6. Name a movie musical that you know all the lyrics to all the songs:
Little Shop of Horrors, but that's kind of a cheat because I auditioned for Orin Scrivello, DDS, in college. The Muppet Movie for certain, though.
7. Name a movie musical that you have been known to sing along with:
Most of them, actually. I may apparently be unable to carry a tune in a bucket, but that doesn't stop me from trying.
8. Name a movie that you would recommend everyone see:
Aside from the obvious ones? ParaNorman definitely needs more love, and the original Inherit The Wind with Spencer Tracy and Gene Kelly (and the original Darrin from Bewitched, the old guy in that was in charge for the later seasons of M.A.S.H., and Mr. Roper from Three's Company) is my favorite film, so I can recommend that, too.
9. Name an unusual movie that you own:
I suppose, going off of what people normally know and assume about me, Inherit The Wind probably counts.
10. Name an actor that launched his/her entertainment career in another
Huh...I guess Kevin Smith counts because he was a writer/director before he became an actor.
11. Have you ever seen a movie in a drive-in?:
Yeah, Spider-Man.
12. Ever made out in a movie?:
Nope.
13. Name a movie that you keep meaning to see but just haven't gotten around to it:
Most of the "cinematic classics" like The Godfather or Apocalypse Now for example.
14. Ever walked out of a movie:
Not that I can remember.
15. Name a movie that made you cry:
Moulin Rouge, The Last Unicorn, Transformers: The Movie (I was 12, dammit! Optimus Prime meant more to me than blood relatives then!)
16. Popcorn?:
Nah, can't stand the stuff. Feels like I'm chewing styrofoam.
17. How often do you go to the movies?:
"GO to the movies?" Eh, a couple times a month if there's something interesting.
18. What's the last movie you saw in the theatre?:
Despicable Me 2
19. What is your favorite/preferred genre of movie?:
Not sure, really...probably animated.
20. What was the first movie you remember seeing in the theatre?:
One of the absolute earliest memories I have is being carried by my mom while our family waited in line for Star Wars, so I guess that counts.
Starting to think being good doesn't work
General | Posted 12 years agoI’m starting to get a complex about my Monday shifts, I swear…
So, these two gentlemen come into my lobby and ask if they can use the phone to see if one of the local bars is open. I tell them only guests can use the phone, and one of the guys starts getting snippy about it until I tell them they CAN use the wi-fi, which he uses his laptop to contact the bar and call a taxi, apologizing for getting angry when he leaves.
Jump ahead two hours, the both of them return obviously drunk, but stay only long enough to use the wi-fi to call a friend to pick them up. No big.
About an hour, hour and a half later it starts raining HARD. I have the lobby locked up like normal, but I hear someone go into the vending room. It turns out to be the guy with the laptop, so I do like I normally do when a drunken local comes in out of the weather, let him stay until it stops raining then go, wake him up, and politely tell him he needs to move along. He starts slurring about having “nowhere to go” to which I tell him I’m sorry, but this is a place of business and, even though I let him wait out the storm, he needs to go. He says okay, starts gathering his stuff, and I return to the office.
After a few minutes of not hearing or seeing anyone leave, I check and he’s asleep again. I tell him more sternly that he needs to go, and he yells at me that he will only go if I tell him where TO go. Standard procedure now, belligerent local drunk, call the cops. They arrive and tell him to leave, he gathers up his stuff and leaves, they leave, he returns and starts typing on his laptop in the vending room, I call the cops back. A HALF HOUR later, they finally get him to leave, this time warning him if he returns he will be arrested for trespassing…then they come and tell me that he returned to FILE A REPORT TO BEST WESTERN CENTRAL about me being a “abusive racist who threatened his life” (he was a black guy, like it matters).
On the private wi-fi connection I let him use. In the vending room I let him sit out the storm in.
I fucking give up. I try to be a decent person, especially during the stormy months, but this is still a place of business and I don’t want to lose my damn job. If one of the local drunks or homeless people come here, I let them warm up a while and have some of the leftover coffee from earlier in the day before I send them on their way…Hell, I even did that BEFORE one of them ended up freezing to death a day later when I wasn’t on shift, something I still feel like I should have done more about. I don’t let them use the phone because the last time I did, they called fucking Albuquerque and started a yelling match with their ex-girlfriend and I got written up and the long distance fees deducted from my paycheck. I don’t do this for recognition…Hell, if anyone knew, I WOULD lose my job (says the person crossposting this to his two journals...).
And this isn’t the first time something like this has happened, either.
Night like this, I really fucking wonder why I bother. What would you guys have done?
So, these two gentlemen come into my lobby and ask if they can use the phone to see if one of the local bars is open. I tell them only guests can use the phone, and one of the guys starts getting snippy about it until I tell them they CAN use the wi-fi, which he uses his laptop to contact the bar and call a taxi, apologizing for getting angry when he leaves.
Jump ahead two hours, the both of them return obviously drunk, but stay only long enough to use the wi-fi to call a friend to pick them up. No big.
About an hour, hour and a half later it starts raining HARD. I have the lobby locked up like normal, but I hear someone go into the vending room. It turns out to be the guy with the laptop, so I do like I normally do when a drunken local comes in out of the weather, let him stay until it stops raining then go, wake him up, and politely tell him he needs to move along. He starts slurring about having “nowhere to go” to which I tell him I’m sorry, but this is a place of business and, even though I let him wait out the storm, he needs to go. He says okay, starts gathering his stuff, and I return to the office.
After a few minutes of not hearing or seeing anyone leave, I check and he’s asleep again. I tell him more sternly that he needs to go, and he yells at me that he will only go if I tell him where TO go. Standard procedure now, belligerent local drunk, call the cops. They arrive and tell him to leave, he gathers up his stuff and leaves, they leave, he returns and starts typing on his laptop in the vending room, I call the cops back. A HALF HOUR later, they finally get him to leave, this time warning him if he returns he will be arrested for trespassing…then they come and tell me that he returned to FILE A REPORT TO BEST WESTERN CENTRAL about me being a “abusive racist who threatened his life” (he was a black guy, like it matters).
On the private wi-fi connection I let him use. In the vending room I let him sit out the storm in.
I fucking give up. I try to be a decent person, especially during the stormy months, but this is still a place of business and I don’t want to lose my damn job. If one of the local drunks or homeless people come here, I let them warm up a while and have some of the leftover coffee from earlier in the day before I send them on their way…Hell, I even did that BEFORE one of them ended up freezing to death a day later when I wasn’t on shift, something I still feel like I should have done more about. I don’t let them use the phone because the last time I did, they called fucking Albuquerque and started a yelling match with their ex-girlfriend and I got written up and the long distance fees deducted from my paycheck. I don’t do this for recognition…Hell, if anyone knew, I WOULD lose my job (says the person crossposting this to his two journals...).
And this isn’t the first time something like this has happened, either.
Night like this, I really fucking wonder why I bother. What would you guys have done?
"Pencils = Bad"
General | Posted 12 years agoSO, yet again, I'm told that pics that I spend an hour+ drawing by hand are "lazy" and "show no effort" while pics people shit out of MS Paint in 5 minutes are superior.
Fuck this shit. Why do I even fucking bother anymore?
Fuck this shit. Why do I even fucking bother anymore?
Question about 30 Day Monstergirl Challenge
General | Posted 12 years agoDo you have to create a new girl each day, or, if you already have a monstergirl of that day's type, can you draw a new pic of them instead?
What DOES the fox say?
General | Posted 12 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jofNR_WkoCE
=O.O=
...so, is this what furry conventions are actually like?
...and was that actually footage from "Antichrist" in there..?
=O.O=
...so, is this what furry conventions are actually like?
...and was that actually footage from "Antichrist" in there..?
An actual happy birthday
General | Posted 12 years agoAfter stressing and fretting about turning forty, I ended up having a pretty good, if very low-key birthday. Nothing earth-shaking or grand, just home-made tacos and a marathon of the original "Star Wars" trilogy (my son mentioned that he hadn't seen it since he was 5 or 6 and couldn't remember any of it...all we could find was the Special Editions, but it was better than nothing), followed by a trip to the closest city (90 minutes into another state) for the only showing of "Pacific Rim" in the area, which he LOVED...we didn't get back here until almost 1am, though, so he's still out like a light.
Also, for those who were concerned (like me), I also finally got my grades for the "Intro to Psychology" class as well, and despite my worries I managed to maintain my "A" average after all.
So, all in all, it was the first actually happy birthday I've had in years.
Also, for those who were concerned (like me), I also finally got my grades for the "Intro to Psychology" class as well, and despite my worries I managed to maintain my "A" average after all.
So, all in all, it was the first actually happy birthday I've had in years.
Robot-Girls
General | Posted 12 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1uM2BW6Y5cA
Apparently Toei Animation finally caught up to me…so, the question is which is truer to Go Nagai’s creative “vision," their moe-blobs or my war-machine-turned-stripper and her sister, the pre-teen Larry Flynt?
…no, seriously, why DID they make Great-tan a narcoleptic? I legitimately want to know.
Apparently Toei Animation finally caught up to me…so, the question is which is truer to Go Nagai’s creative “vision," their moe-blobs or my war-machine-turned-stripper and her sister, the pre-teen Larry Flynt?
…no, seriously, why DID they make Great-tan a narcoleptic? I legitimately want to know.
Recommend some "New 52" comics to me please
General | Posted 12 years ago…fine. It’s not going away any time soon. I can either stand here holding my breath futilely like a spoiled little brat, or I can try and see if there’s a place for me in the new DCU. I started reading comics as a grubling during the Giffen/DeMateis/Hughes period of Justice League and I count them, the original run of Young Justice, and the Morrison and Waid runs on JLA as some of my favorite comics of all time, as well as the Wolman/Perez Titans that I went back and read later.. By the same token, I DO have a high tolerance for bullshit; I mean, I collected Supes during the Triangle years, after all, and count Superboy and The Ravers as one of my guilty pleasures.
HOWEVER…no Titans, no Red Hood and The Outlaws, no Superboy. I’m not ready to forgive them yet, if ever. Please, don’t argue with me on this, I’m trying to find some positives in a situation I don’t like, and the discarding wholesale of some of my favorite comics and characters still hurts. It’s immature, stupid, and I’m a lame-brained doo-doo head. I get it.
I’ve heard good things about, well, anything with “Bat-" somewhere in the title, and several of the cancelled titles have pinged positive on my radar so I might scrounge some dough for the trades.
Does anyone have any recommendations for someone looking to get back into the successor to his favorite universe?
HOWEVER…no Titans, no Red Hood and The Outlaws, no Superboy. I’m not ready to forgive them yet, if ever. Please, don’t argue with me on this, I’m trying to find some positives in a situation I don’t like, and the discarding wholesale of some of my favorite comics and characters still hurts. It’s immature, stupid, and I’m a lame-brained doo-doo head. I get it.
I’ve heard good things about, well, anything with “Bat-" somewhere in the title, and several of the cancelled titles have pinged positive on my radar so I might scrounge some dough for the trades.
Does anyone have any recommendations for someone looking to get back into the successor to his favorite universe?
Horns of a Dillema
General | Posted 12 years agoI am LEGENDARY for my willpower and my rigid moral code. I mean, yeah, I waffle about online with this and that, but IRL I don't drink, don't smoke, don't do drugs, and I stayed monogamously loyal to a woman who'd have sex with me once every few years if I was lucky.
And, despite that, people who knew me for years still believed the stories spread about me at the separation about me having gay lovers and trying to force her into threeways, including my own fucking FAMILY.
Earlier than that, back in college, I was set up to be the revenge fuck of a girl I'd been crushing on for a few semesters whose boyfriend took off for the weekend with his buddies instead of staying for their anniversary.
Instead, I was a total gentleman, never once taking advantage of the situation, which earned both of their gratitude...and made me the boyfriend's confidante when he started cheating on her.
Now, one of my online buddies has become the fuckbuddy of a neglected married woman, and every bit of that moral code is SCREAMING at me that this is WRONG...but they're both happy and satisfied, and meanwhile, all that moral code has gotten me is pain, depression, and loneliness.
Am I wrong?
EDIT: OK, it seems there is some confusion as to WHAT I'm asking if I'm wrong about.
It's NOT about the situation with my buddy and his ladyfriend, it's about me spending my adult life adhering to an apparently archaic and non-beneficial personal code of conduct for the past 25+ fucking years. I'm having a crisis of faith (which is REALLY fucking weird since I'm practically agnostic) and I'm looking for some kind of outside perspective to help me figure my shit out.
And, despite that, people who knew me for years still believed the stories spread about me at the separation about me having gay lovers and trying to force her into threeways, including my own fucking FAMILY.
Earlier than that, back in college, I was set up to be the revenge fuck of a girl I'd been crushing on for a few semesters whose boyfriend took off for the weekend with his buddies instead of staying for their anniversary.
Instead, I was a total gentleman, never once taking advantage of the situation, which earned both of their gratitude...and made me the boyfriend's confidante when he started cheating on her.
Now, one of my online buddies has become the fuckbuddy of a neglected married woman, and every bit of that moral code is SCREAMING at me that this is WRONG...but they're both happy and satisfied, and meanwhile, all that moral code has gotten me is pain, depression, and loneliness.
Am I wrong?
EDIT: OK, it seems there is some confusion as to WHAT I'm asking if I'm wrong about.
It's NOT about the situation with my buddy and his ladyfriend, it's about me spending my adult life adhering to an apparently archaic and non-beneficial personal code of conduct for the past 25+ fucking years. I'm having a crisis of faith (which is REALLY fucking weird since I'm practically agnostic) and I'm looking for some kind of outside perspective to help me figure my shit out.
Because I Know Talking to Me is Hard
General | Posted 12 years agoMaisy Tumblr.
General | Posted 12 years agohttp://wardollmaisy.tumblr.com/
Yeah, just in time for TMI Tuesday. I'm debating opening it up to anonymous questions or not...guess we'll just see how it goes at first.
Yeah, just in time for TMI Tuesday. I'm debating opening it up to anonymous questions or not...guess we'll just see how it goes at first.
Maisy Tumblr?
General | Posted 12 years agoOK, so, pretty much everywhere I go, Maisy is stuck being all-ages friendly. She looks too young for most sites, too human for Inkbunny, and too poorly drawn for Hentai Foundry. Of course, the little silver brat isn't content to keep her damn clothes on in public either, so I was thinking of opening a Tumblr as both a half-assed gallery of her bannable artwork and as a possible "Ask A Character" kind of thing since, for some reason, my art block doesn't seem to affect her...maybe her silver skin is teflon coating or something.
Of the two or three people who still come around here, would this be something worth doing?
Of the two or three people who still come around here, would this be something worth doing?
Only 5000 Friends allowed?
General | Posted 12 years agoI honestly don't know which is more pathetic, the fact that deviantArt actually has a cap on how many galleries you're allowed to watch...or the fact that I've actually HIT that cap.
I'm gonna have to go through my Friends list and start deleting a few that are dead accounts or that I'm just not interested in anymore...ugh.
I'm gonna have to go through my Friends list and start deleting a few that are dead accounts or that I'm just not interested in anymore...ugh.
Frustration
General | Posted 12 years agoI don't know which is more frustrating, being totally unable to draw at all or being unable to use this MOTHERFUCKING TABLET to do ANYTHING. I can draw with it, I can't color with it, and, frankly, I am getting legitimately PISSED at the fact that NOBODY will respond to a picture unless it's done up digitally WHICH I AM APPARENTLY TOO MENTALLY DEFICIENT TO FIGURE OUT! I feel like I'm trying to reteach myself how to do ANYTHING and, considering it's taken almost four decades to get to the remedial levels of skill I had with pencils and paper, I figure I'll have this goddamn thing figured out ABOUT THE TIME I"M READY FOR FUCKING SOCIAL SECURITY.
FUCK.
FUCK.
R.I.P. Ray Harryhausen
General | Posted 12 years ago...weird. The morning I post over at Inkbunny about resurrecting my old Academy setting, the guy I named it for dies. Would this classify as some kind of omen..?
I've followed his career since I was a kid, before I even knew there was anyone who HAD a career to follow. I was big into the special effects scene as a kid, tho', and soon I saw this long-ass name popping up EVERYWHERE, almost always connected to the stuff I loved. When I learned as an adult that the crux of my tokusatsu love, Godzilla himself, was DIRECTLY INSPIRED by Harryhausen's "Beast From 30,000 Fathoms," it just seemed like kismet...although I seriously doubt he would be as honored by my attempt at tribute, a fictional school for teenage monsters named after him...or maybe he would. I never claimed to know him.
He wasn't an idol, but he was someone I deeply admired and who was intrinsically tied to some of the few bright spots in my horrible life. Rest in peace.
I've followed his career since I was a kid, before I even knew there was anyone who HAD a career to follow. I was big into the special effects scene as a kid, tho', and soon I saw this long-ass name popping up EVERYWHERE, almost always connected to the stuff I loved. When I learned as an adult that the crux of my tokusatsu love, Godzilla himself, was DIRECTLY INSPIRED by Harryhausen's "Beast From 30,000 Fathoms," it just seemed like kismet...although I seriously doubt he would be as honored by my attempt at tribute, a fictional school for teenage monsters named after him...or maybe he would. I never claimed to know him.
He wasn't an idol, but he was someone I deeply admired and who was intrinsically tied to some of the few bright spots in my horrible life. Rest in peace.
One Semester down...
General | Posted 12 years agoAnd, with the turning in of my research paper on the benefits of horror in children's literature, my first semester back to college is over. I won't lie, I deliberately took it easy on myself for this first semester, but I wasn't sure, considering the state I've been in since the LAST time I was in college. Oddly enough, I may not have needed to be as gentle on myself as I thought, considering when I (FINALLY!) took my Accuplacer test a week ago, I tested into the same level Math class as my ex is currently in while she's working on her Master's degree (and, according to her, scored the highest Maths score on that test in the Unlimited Learning Center's history)...on the opther hand, I tested lower in English than I did originally, so apparently all this Internet is having a detrimental effect on me...
I also emerged from the semester with an unexpected literary dividend: a children's book. So far, it seems to be fairly well-regarded by those who've read the text, and I've been working on the pictures here and there. We'll see if anything comes from it...although I admit, in light of my past creative efforts, it'd probably be the height of irony if, God/Allah/Buhdda/Primus forbid, my first published work ends up being a kids' picture book...
I also emerged from the semester with an unexpected literary dividend: a children's book. So far, it seems to be fairly well-regarded by those who've read the text, and I've been working on the pictures here and there. We'll see if anything comes from it...although I admit, in light of my past creative efforts, it'd probably be the height of irony if, God/Allah/Buhdda/Primus forbid, my first published work ends up being a kids' picture book...
Quick kink question (just to prove I'm not dead)
General | Posted 12 years agoHave you ever been turned on by something that would normally wouldn't or would even totally repulse you normally?
Yes, I have a Weasyl gallery too
General | Posted 13 years agoJust like my deviantArt gallery, I don't plan on cutting off this gallery in favor of it, but I haven't done anything with it YET (and, considering it seems to have stricter AUP on submissions than FA, it will probably have LESS in it than either of my current active galleries), but it's there and activated.
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/heckfire
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/heckfire
Over-heard but under-listened?
General | Posted 13 years agoConsidering all the times I posted lyrics in these journals the past few years, I gotta ask if anyone else has ever had a song you hear so many freaking times you kinda tune it out by now and then, when you actually sat and read the lyrics, actually realized all the times you'd heard the song you never ACTUALLY knew what the fuck you were humming along to?
