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Posted 9 years agoHi guys,
I know some of you don't really talk to me but if you do want to know here is an update as to what has been going on last year until today.
So a while ago I was playing league of legends with a group of friends and I was told it was a fun night to hang out with each other online. So when we hung out I was a little aggressive and I will admit that I was kinda harsh to some which isn't an excuse. The leader of the group had told me to calm down or I wouldn't be apart of it anymore (he did this to a few other people) in his defense he understands people have a rough time. So the second week I held back and didn't even talk that night and when I was done playing for the night and said that "Later guys" he came back to me the next day on Skype and while I was in the urgent care facility helping my brother with his medical dilemma the individual contacted me again.
Now when you tell someone "I can't talk right now. This isn't a good time." is a clear statement that THIS ISN'T THE BEST TIME TO TALK ABOUT THIS! Like seriously then he went on saying that I was no longer apart of his group because I was rude to "every single person in the call" I contacted each individual afterwards and apologized. They had absolutely 0 idea why I was apologizing to them. This said individual stated in his arguments that it was no excuse and even if we have bad days that we shouldn't push it on others. I have suffered from minor depression after being bullied through all of my primary education life. This individual has too and this person has almost attempted suicide and goes on to explain this and he does this 2 times to me to guilt me into making feel like crap.
My statement to people who just vomit that kind of information to people is to never do it. That is just a dirty way to make someone listen to you and have no way to talk to you appropriately. I stopped hanging out with that group because there were rules but they were neglected to be given to me and other individuals.
In other news life has continued nicely for me and I'm seriously happier (granted playing games is my happiness when my friends are included. I don't normally harp on stuff like that but the worst part was that this person disregarded and disrespected my brother who was in severe pain and I was more focused on him. Good tip for those who don't know: you disrespect my family I will show ABSOLUTELY 0 RESPECT FOR YOU. I don't care if you are one of the leaders of America you will never receive respect from me from that point on.
I have a job with good pay. I'm working hard to finish my bachelor's now and I'm spending more time with my friends and family. I'm a much much happier person than I have been since I graduated high school. I do hope that you are all doing well. Have a great and make it the best that you can with your own abilities! :D
I know some of you don't really talk to me but if you do want to know here is an update as to what has been going on last year until today.
So a while ago I was playing league of legends with a group of friends and I was told it was a fun night to hang out with each other online. So when we hung out I was a little aggressive and I will admit that I was kinda harsh to some which isn't an excuse. The leader of the group had told me to calm down or I wouldn't be apart of it anymore (he did this to a few other people) in his defense he understands people have a rough time. So the second week I held back and didn't even talk that night and when I was done playing for the night and said that "Later guys" he came back to me the next day on Skype and while I was in the urgent care facility helping my brother with his medical dilemma the individual contacted me again.
Now when you tell someone "I can't talk right now. This isn't a good time." is a clear statement that THIS ISN'T THE BEST TIME TO TALK ABOUT THIS! Like seriously then he went on saying that I was no longer apart of his group because I was rude to "every single person in the call" I contacted each individual afterwards and apologized. They had absolutely 0 idea why I was apologizing to them. This said individual stated in his arguments that it was no excuse and even if we have bad days that we shouldn't push it on others. I have suffered from minor depression after being bullied through all of my primary education life. This individual has too and this person has almost attempted suicide and goes on to explain this and he does this 2 times to me to guilt me into making feel like crap.
My statement to people who just vomit that kind of information to people is to never do it. That is just a dirty way to make someone listen to you and have no way to talk to you appropriately. I stopped hanging out with that group because there were rules but they were neglected to be given to me and other individuals.
In other news life has continued nicely for me and I'm seriously happier (granted playing games is my happiness when my friends are included. I don't normally harp on stuff like that but the worst part was that this person disregarded and disrespected my brother who was in severe pain and I was more focused on him. Good tip for those who don't know: you disrespect my family I will show ABSOLUTELY 0 RESPECT FOR YOU. I don't care if you are one of the leaders of America you will never receive respect from me from that point on.
I have a job with good pay. I'm working hard to finish my bachelor's now and I'm spending more time with my friends and family. I'm a much much happier person than I have been since I graduated high school. I do hope that you are all doing well. Have a great and make it the best that you can with your own abilities! :D
Updating all my buds
Posted 11 years agoYeah it's been a pretty rough year. I have had to deal with my newborn niece being only 2 weeks old had to go back into the hospital for a urinary tract infection that entered the bloodstream and then less than 6 hours after that was diagnosed with spinal menangitis. Btw if you ask she is doing really well next month she is going into surgery to fix the dialated kidney that is causing the issues. Then that same day of all the diagnoses she received a family friend of ours lost her husband that day so that whole week about 2 weeks ago before this journal really hit hard.
Now I'm doing so much better but falling behind in my classes a bit has me somewhat stressed but my teachers are working with me considering my dilemma since you know I'm mostly a straight A student woo. So yeah if any of you want to skype with me Koriinn and the St. Charles one is the one you want considering that I was away from some of the people O.o I'M SOWWY DON'T BEAT ME WITH ummmmm THINGS.
Hope you all are doing great updating myself really soon.
Now I'm doing so much better but falling behind in my classes a bit has me somewhat stressed but my teachers are working with me considering my dilemma since you know I'm mostly a straight A student woo. So yeah if any of you want to skype with me Koriinn and the St. Charles one is the one you want considering that I was away from some of the people O.o I'M SOWWY DON'T BEAT ME WITH ummmmm THINGS.
Hope you all are doing great updating myself really soon.
It's been very rough
Posted 11 years agoSome of you are my good friends and others are just formal friends but I have been meaning to say this for a while now holding it back for no reason it seems. As you all should understand my father just recently discovered that he has Parkinson's now more than ever I am stressed so much to try harder in school and get a well earned job. Frankly that is very hard right now and I have only so much support from my family due to my piss poor school history and such. Also the fact that I haven't had a relationship in almost 5 years is kinda painful for me and it's severely depressing each day I've just grown lonelier and lonelier. I have been trying to reach out for potentials and sometimes that backfires unconventionally. Having to be home alone to help my parents out more has been extremely stressful and my nit pick on hmm potential boyfriends is rather debilitating. I guess you could say at this stage I'm kinda in a semi depression but I don't feel like sharing that with my folks because "meds suck." Anyway I hope you all have a great day I just needed to get this off of my chest as of right now.
Update
Posted 12 years agoAnnoyed but fine and dandy with how school is treating me
Valentines day
Posted 12 years agoIt's kinda lonely this last Valentine's Day when you don't have someone to show appreciation or your love too. Take me for example I have a 37 year old sister and a 34 year old brother who have started families already. my parents have been married for 40 somewhat years and their anniversary was last Friday. As for me well I didn't have anyone to spend Valentine's day with and it's really depressing. I'm 22 years old now with little to no time for a relationship and it's just painful. This piece http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9849540 done by Kuron (who I admire his artistic abilities to the highest degree) relates to my inner feelings greatly when everyone in my family has the love of their life but I don't so I'm gonna shed a few tears and then try to move on. For those of you reading this I am greatly appreciative for you to read this I just felt like expressing these feelings I have and just wanted to get them over with.
