okay so my Christmas present this year from my mother is a STL Ocarina (it's just the basic 12 hole)
it came with a case and 2 songbooks and when I opened to one of the songs it seemed more like math homework than music

at least in the Zelda songbook they had a couple songs laid out in the beginning showing what holes to cover for each note

later I need to memorize the notes by number instead of fingers


it took me forever to get the breathing right for each note
less for lower more for higher
occasionally the still screw up the high notes


it will take a while till I get the hang of everything

but at least I can start with what I know and work from there

okay so my Christmas present this year from my mother is a STL Ocarina (it's just the basic 12 hole)
it came with a case and 2 songbooks and when I opened to one of the songs it seemed more like math homework than music

at least in the Zelda songbook they had a couple songs laid out in the beginning showing what holes to cover for each note

later I need to memorize the notes by number instead of fingers


it took me forever to get the breathing right for each note
less for lower more for higher
occasionally the still screw up the high notes


it will take a while till I get the hang of everything

but at least I can start with what I know and work from there

So in one of the recent updates it updated my browser
which now whenever I hover over a thumbnail on FA it tries to find shopping results for the pictures......
one even said "you have found the best price"
what the hell.....

So as a few may have heard I have a task to do, although the parameters are esoteric and the solutions are biased.
Part 1: developing a visual form for a being that has only physical not visual
Part 2: finding a name although it may have never had one
Part 3: finding out what it is when it remembers nothing up until recently
Part 4: contemplate whether what I have found is what it really is and not what I want it to be

as for part 1 for what I have felt it needs to encompass animal plant and human
which is more complex than it seems seeing as my thoughts are geared towards my interests not theirs
part 2 without form I cannot guess as to what it is or ever was called and whether it has a name that it does not remember
part 3 even if it has form and a name it does not exactly mean it is what it appears to be since appearance may be vague or misleading


it is not me, even though it is linked with me, it does not mean I can choose for it
I want it to be satisfied as well as me but I don't want to force it to compromise just for my sake
it is like a riddle with no pattern or a blank sheet of music
I can feel it but not hear nor see it
it can not speak yet it can communicate
But I know that if I can help it I can discover more about myself

maybe later I will look for a way to craft a being to my liking from a blank slate
that way it will fit my personal liking or maybe find a being similar to my desire
but that is of little to no importance


and that has been a short glimpse into my mind now it's time to get some sleep

So I had a dream last night where I was at some sort of school where they allowed students to keep dogs
and I had 2 dogs
the first one was a long haired golden retriever that knew how to work the TV and DVD player
now the second one is the one that was my favorite overall
It was a large short coated black dog with two heads and blood red eyes
he was always horning after one of the teachers dogs and rarely got caught in the act
which happened to be my least favorite teacher
every time she let her dog out when I was playing outside with mine (whose names I can not remember) he would go straight for her dog (which I never got a glance at)
and when she came looking for her dog he would always trot back to me with his two heads grinning
and he would sit on my lap which was awkward since he was larger than a Saint Bernard
while the golden retriever would go put on a movie (don't ask why there was a TV outside I don't know)

although the teacher hated the thought of my dog messing with the electronics

my big black dog which I want to call Cerberus but I know it's not right
which for having short fur it always was soft and felt extremely fluffy
I would always put my head between his for a great hug and he would chuckle
he couldn't speak but he could laugh
if I had a guess I would say he was some sort of hellhound but not inherently evil
more of a neutral party
In the dream it was obvious that he was the one who chose to stand by me
while the golden retriever was always staying back from us although would come to me if I called to him but would always be weary of my other "dog"
one thing I am uncertain of is if people noticed that he had two heads or not
seeing as most of it was outside and very vague
Although the two-headed canine seemed to be built similar to a Shepard

Bacon wrapped chicken breasts
and we started moving yesterday and are going to finish up tomorrow

and then on sunday I turn 19

so moving into a house from a (3rd floor)apartment
with my jeep a truck and 2 cars
tomorrow morning we grab our uhaul
to get everything else it's only a 14' though
we are going to pick up furnishings from my moms coworker

my mom is preparing snake cages for us to move them

and i'm still waiting to hear if I got the job


lots going on
I should get back to packing up my room

the 2 main rules
1) smile
in other cultures smiling at strangers is a sign you are easy or are sexually interested in them
2) eye contact
in other cultures eye contact is a sign of intimacy that is only for lovers or close friends

other countries must think we are slutty pervs

So I applied for a job at a local business 13 days ago and today they called and scheduled an interview for tomorrow morning at 9AM

so tonight before bed I have to shower and shave and remember to take my lip rings out before I go
if I get the job at the same hours as my alpha then I will be able to drive her to and from work

if everything goes well I will finally have my own income and be able to afford to do things on my own

well I woke up this morning and found out that a 6 foot and 8 foot Burmese python were loose in the apartment
at least they ate last weekend
but I don't know how they got out they haven't been able to open the door to their cage in years
but it was open just enough for them to escape this morning
which is a bad idea because it's too cold for them to be getting loose for too long

Im planning on spending a decent portion if not all of my birthday money on Christmas gifts
unless I can get some extra from my dad who usually gives $25 (i already have plans for $50 of my b-day money)
im going to see if he will pitch in an extra 20 for "gas"

one person is getting something that is around 30 while the other is getting one thing for around 20
although the price does not matter it's the fact it's something they want
depending on how much i get i may get more gifts for other people but it is up to how much i get

im not telling the people what i got them until i give it to them and they see what it is
it's better to be a surprise than just a withheld item that they know about

how dead are you?
and yes there are only two options

you get a hug if you know what I am talking about
possibly more if you know more about what I am talking about
possibly more than that for absolutely no reason at all

[Warning] Ninja Waffles are out of stock.

So onto the majorly awesome raffle that  KrisPup is doing

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5259913/

Contortionist

join here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5253151/

the art looks amazing so join to get your shot

with this faux fur....
I ordered a swatch of it and it came in the mail today
it is soft and much better than a solid purple
I didn't notice what the black in it was until I ordered the swatch it's pretty much spots of black added to darken and give a dual tone effect
if I ever get the chance I will have this purple for my suit

it's not cheap but it's what the drama queer in my head wants

I have a black in mind to go with it if I can ever find the black again
my issue is most faux fur is solid color where I prefer natural fur where it is multicolor
which with the black it will need to be minimal color variations maybe some white blending in
to give it depth instead of a solid chunk of color that lays flat instead of pops

so I found my moms old Harvey Danger cd Where have all the merrymakers gone?
and I listened to one of my favorites Flagpole Sitta then I decided to see what Wrecking Ball was...

it's just so... so.... morbid

tonight I get to load up my jeep to see if everything will fit
if not then I have to make either 2 trips or have someone come pick up the rest

........... because i was clubbing all night long
got to see some eye candy
everyone probably thought i was a chick in the lightig
it dudnt help that the shirt i was wearing showed off more curves
than a contortionist in bed

had fun it was a gaybar/nightclub

I have seen a shadow the size and shape of a bird dart across the apartment
i see it once and i dont see it again till the next week
it never darts the same way twice

one of my friends was warned not to go by something
one was sick and needed rest
so I settled with going on a walk with the vamp
found who/what I was looking for but they/it can only talk during the witching hour
but it is the center for my path who came to me in a truck once before as an introduction
they/it are/is with me now but without being able to communicate I can't really find out what they/it want(s)


even though it wasn't the witching hour I did see and smell a few more "residents" than before weakened but still there
the vamp was freaking out because apparently he had a few things after him

well although im not going to sleep tonight since I would oversleep im going to cut this short for now

me and a few friends are going to the most avoided part of campus
well during the day people go there for sex but at night everyone is afraid to go there
I want to know why so why not go during the witching hour?

people really are idiots about it though.....
I spent the night there during camp and it's really not creepy at night when there are others around and a nice bonfire but checking it out in a small group with only 1 or 2 flashlights will be more interesting seeing as in numbers the grounds are safe but in small numbers the "residents" of the grounds are not as shy

with the witching hour everything will be full strength
lets just say I have an ally or two who will also be full strength
fear is irrational so why not go where other fear to tread at the time where it will be the strongest

with the Halloween sales darksiders is 4$ and darksiders 2 is $10
I want to play both but im broke lol


shot in the dark if anyone would be kind enough to get me atleast the first game my steam account is hellishwolf5

So in my previous journal I mentioned wanting to drop out
half an hour after I posted it I get pulled aside by the instructor
he says that although my academic work is on par my shop work
takes longer than it should and if I am unable to speed it up I will
get switched into parts specialist next term which consists of 2 major principles
Customer Service (which I loathe) and Retail Marketing (which is about as interesting as custodial work to me) which I know my test scores are dropping rapidly and I have issues with shop work
I even told him I was considering stopping after this term and possibly getting a job
(although It will probably be something like stocking at target)
if I am already behind this far I might as well cut my losses and get a job
I wanted to be a technician but it doesn't seem to work out


I need to get a job and make some money school has been my reason for not getting a job and
since school is not working out I might as well get a job things would be much easier I could
afford to have fun and go out along with obtain some independence
it would save a lot in gas and cut back on the extra groceries for the dorm

acquaint your face with a rectangular building material repeatedly....

I have 5 or 6 tests to do for class that need to be done by the 8th
I have tons of in shop work to do by the 8th
I worry day and night about my best friend
and I also have a picky bitch as a customer service teacher who will mark you down for using 1 wrong word and keeps hounding me about homework I have no time to do
hell I don't even have time to fill out paperwork for shop work

every hour I spend in class is time I want to spend at home with my best friend
every hour of work I do is not enough
every test I take I fail by 3% (85% minimum to pass)

I have enough on my plate and school just adds more
I need to get away

I may even take Thursday after lunch off that way I can get home early
and spend more time with my best friend

I forgot to upload the recolor of my commission
I also forgot to link to the original but both are fixed now