I don't want to take away from Kage's speech, and I certainly don't want to ride on the back of a name such as Lemonade Coyote for my own gain. I had the pleasure of meeting him once, at FC 13, not too long before the accident, but I never knew he was this much of a giant. That is what I want to talk about. Kage is talking not just about Lemonade Coyote in this, but he is hinting at a deeper subtext, of being a Furry being something more than a fan. We have giants sleeping in this Fandom. We have men and women in this Fandom who have the capacity to change the world and turn it on its face, and they are Furries. So long as this Fandom continues to be the nursery of thought, experimentation, and learning as it is we as a Fandom could become a giant altogether. Given a catalyst we could become something that gains the respect and admiration of the world, not just another goofy Fandom. I intend to give the efforts of my life in pursuit of this goal. I want to tack on something to Kage's speech that I think needs to be said. Furries can be very self hating. We can put each other down because for some reason we believe our own stereotypes. We believe in the things put on TV about us. There is too much of this and I have never cared for it. Next time you hear one of our own going off about "This Fandom sucks. Its going down hill, and is so terrible I can't be in it anymore" or "Furries are so creepy, I'm not one of THOSE ones. " tell them this story. Tell them they don't know what they are talking about. Tell them that they will never feel better about themselves until they have pride in the name and the culture that they have adopted. Good parts and bad.

Also, a lot of you have been skeptical about the way I talk about this Fandom, Because of the way I look at it, and how seriously I take it. Well now look at Kage starting to talk about it the same way.

Furries Aeterna.

Now that I have your attention, I would like to share that Klisoura's Furry Poll of 2013 is now available!

Klisoura has been running this Poll since 2008, of which I am proud to own a hard copy. It has become very widely respected, and now is done in participation with the Furry scientists over at Adjective Species. These surveys are integral to the Fandom as they not only tell us how things have changed, but give us the ability to lay out a course for the future. It asks basic questions about demographics, and also goes very in depth into asking just what Furries think about our own Fandom. Everything is Anonymous. This is our survey, and our chance to learn about ourselves. I always complete this survey every year, and I ask that you do it too.

The link can be found Here

The Fandom has been around long enough for it to have some decent history. I think it is time to draw some of these scenes from history into our art. Works commemorating the founding of Anthrocon, portraits of important Furries of the past, that kind of thing.

But I don't know what to write.

Tomorrow I wake up to find out if I will forever be a second class citizen, or inherit my right as a human being to be equal under the rule of law.

I feel like I have lost all gentle compassion, ambition, and hope. I feel like I have lost my drive, and I feel like I have lost my overwhelming self confidence. What happened a month ago doesn't even register to me. I float day to day. I feel like I lost all direction, and you know what? It started when I got a job. I feel guilty. I feel guilty working there, and that 500$ a month paycheck has turned me into a greedy jerk. I see everything in dollar signs now and all I do is want want want. I got by fine before on what I had but now want has consumed my compassion. I don't give money to the beggars on the street anymore because I get attached to my money, even though I have much more now than I had when I was giving it to them. I used to care more about others than myself, but now it is only me and my wallet I can think about. Looking back, if I were in this position a few months ago I wouldn't have done what I did for Wild because I would have been too scared for my paycheck. My work has overtaken, and become more important than my Fandom and my people, and my efforts go to making sure a paper shelf gets stocked each night so rich people in coto de caza can buy buy buy to print their whatevers, instead of that effort going to bettering the people and the Fandom that saved my life. Selling useless trinkets has been forced upon me to become more important than people. Things, and money, have become more important than people. I feel utterly disgusted with myself because I became the very thing I hate. I tell myself that it is only temporary, but I know it is a trap, and I can't see my way out. I need people to make sure I stay on the right track.

1. Did you complete the mandatory issued viral chain letter about yourself that serves as a measuring tool for your intra-Fandom popularity based on how many comments and views it receives? Yes or No?

Yes.

Which I doubt, I would like to know.

I can't figure out what I am missing. I loose weight, I am productive and I work, and I contribute to this Fandom. I have friends, but I can't remember the last time I got a random text asking if I wanted to go anywhere. It is pretty much assumed that on my days off I will spend them productively working at home, but working none the less, alone. I have no lover, and no prospective lover, and I can't figure out what I am doing wrong and why I don't have one.

I am reading Circles for the first time, and every night after I put it down I realize that I don't have any of what any character has in that book, let alone anything like Marty and Taye or Paulie and Doug have. I mean I know it is fiction, and it doesn't just happen like that, and when love does happen it takes a ton of work. But I have done a TON of work. I scream out all the time for someone, but I guess people just don't hear? I am told it is just supposed to happen. That you go somewhere one day, like to a party, and there is someone there who outshines everyone and you just can't help but try to talk too, even though you can't form words. But I have been going to Furry events for two years. I just don't know if it will happen. I don't want to become a crazy old unmarried cat lady.

Maybe its because I don't want sex? ...Well I want sex with not just for its own sake. I don't want a Boyfriend to have sex with, I want a boyfriend to have a life with. I want those problems and I want to work at them. As usual I am 5 or 10 years ahead of my time in this area, I suppose, or maybe I am 5 or 10 years behind? Maybe it is because I don't like Dubstep, or take too much of an interest in the world's problems. Maybe it is because I don't draw Yiff. I don't know, but I don't want to change any core part of myself to find someone to love me, because they won't be loving me.

That's it for now. I want to keep reading Circles but I have a feeling that by the end I am going to regret it.

Hey you Furs! You guys should all go check out  igirith cause he did an awesome reference sheet! He does *brace for it* FREE ART! He really is good. He does a nice watercolor style.

It is time that I start really giving back to my Fandom in not just actions but words. This Califur I seriously going to consider volunteering for Califur Animal Control. This is comparable to Security but it functions more as Guest Services. I would be extending my helping hand to Furries which is exactly what I have been aspiring to do from the beginning. Califur is my local con with my local people, and there are only so many times one can go to a convention for fun, especially a smaller one, and not have done everything twice allready. Volunteering for CFAC gives me the opportunity to effect the lives of other Furries like I have always wanted to and at the same time build my political credit. I'll see you all there at the end of the month!

Would anyone believe me?


















_{cause I am....}

They rock. If any of you out there are gay and a deer, note me up.

Yup.

Y U BREAK? It took me TWO HOURS just to dry my work shirt. I had to call in an hour late for work... >.>

At least my house hasn't burned down from the faulty electric yet.

I'm hands off from here on out. The situation has been handed over to professionals, and they agree that although it wasn't handled exactly perfectly, I didn't do too bad. Either way, he is going to get a lot of help, not just for himself, but for his whole family. I've done the best I can, and so did he.

He was never a burden, or a leech, though it did get very frustrating at times about how hard it was to work with him. That frustration came out, but he interpreted it him to be a moral value judgement against him; he thought I was saying he was bad, or evil, or a waste of space. I never said any of that. I am more frustrated with myself for not being able to do more for him.

What am I doing going for this English degree? THIS is what I should be doing for a living.

Today I made my final move, and got  wildshot out of his abusive home situation. We were in and out. We went in, grabbed his stuff, loaded up my car, and left. He left his keys to the house, his car in his dad's name, and emptied his bank account. All while his father was at work. His father never met me, and has no way of finding where Wild went. His note detailed his reasons for leaving, and that he was going somewhere safe, and would contact them in the future. He is safe, living with me for the time being until he is fully enrolled in the county social services agencies. It has been a long three months of work, I have nearly exhausted myself, and I have put myself in potential danger, but to give him a chance at life anything is worth it for him, and for me.

When I was in my darkest place this Fandom came out of nowhere and picked me up and carried me for years on the promise that it would make my life better. In every abusive and discouraging moment I clutched my Fandom close like one would their cross in the faith that it would protect me. I have since seen the power of this culture and I have been touched by it. Since this Fandom rescued me I made a vow to do the same for any other Furry that petitioned my help. I went to the ends of the Earth for him, because he is a Furry, and he is my friend, and in my mind, my countryman. Today, more than any other day, I have made true on that promise.

I do not say this to gloat. I say this to make a proclamation that my words, the posts on Facebook, the journals here, the speeches in real life at Furmeets and Conventions, the conversation with Furries in passing hallways and crowded rooms, are not empty. They carry weight, for today I have proven them true, I have proven them capable of being brought to fruition, and I have proven this Fandom to be the saving grace I have always held it to be. Unity among the Fandom is not a lost cause. It is not an empty road to nowhere, and our ideals of personal liberty, of the breaking down of social barriers, and the power of our Fandom to lift itself up is not gone. On the statue of liberty it reads "Give me your hungry, your poor, your huddled masses." This Fandom echoes back "Give me your downtrodden, your outcast, your confined and chained" and together we will breath free. The ideals which I have preached I have practiced, and now they have weight. I have proven that we as a Fandom do not stand alone, so long as we stand with each other. Join hands and lift each other up. I hope that now, with my action, people may now listen and take some of it to heart.

Furries Aeterna

Today I made my final move, and got  wildshot out of his abusive home situation. We were in and out. We went in, grabbed his stuff, loaded up my car, and left. He left his keys to the house, his car in his dad's name, and emptied his bank account. All while his father was at work. His father never met me, and has no way of finding where Wild went. His note detailed his reasons for leaving, and that he was going somewhere safe, and would contact them in the future. He is safe, living with me for the time being until he is fully enrolled in the county social services agencies. It has been a long three months of work, I have nearly exhausted myself, and I have put myself in potential danger, but to give him a chance at life anything is worth it for him, and for me.

When I was in my darkest place this Fandom came out of nowhere and picked me up and carried me for years on the promise that it would make my life better. In every abusive and discouraging moment I clutched my Fandom close like one would their cross in th faith that it would protect me. I have since seen the power of this culture and I have been touched by it. Since this Fandom rescued me I made a vow to do the same for any other Furry that petitioned my help. I went to the ends of the Earth for him, because he is a Furry, and he is my friend, and in my mind, my countryman. Today, more than any other day, I have made true on hat promise.

I do not say this to gloat. I say this to make a proclamation that my words, the posts on Facebook, the journals here, the speeches in real life at Furmeets and Conventions, the conversation with Furries in passing hallways and crowded rooms, are not empty. They carry weight, for today I have proven them true, I have proven them capable of being brought to fluition, and I have proven this Fandom to be the saving grace I have always held it to be. Unity among the Fandom is not a lost cause. It is not an empty road to nowhere, and our ideals of personal liberty, of the breaking down of social barriers, and the power of our Fandom to lift itself up is not gone. On the statue of liberty it reads "Give me your hungry, your poor, your huddled masses." This Fandom echoes back "Give me your downtrodden, your outcast, your confined and chained" and together we will breath free. The ideals which I have preached I have practiced, and now they have weight. I have proven that we as a Fandom do not stand alone, so long as we stand with each other. Join hands and lift each other up. I hope that now, with my action, people may now listen and take some of it to heart.

Furries Aeterna

I saw  question-mark 's car on Reddit today, and people are tearing him apart as a "Bad fur" for displaying such openness about his Fandom. They are generalizing him, (and all Furries) as just a yiff crazed pathetic "one of THOSE" Furries which I am not even sure what"one of THOSE" Furries would actually be. I understand the motivation. Because of the media attacks of the years past we fear that any Furry acting remotely out of the ordinary will rain hell down on the Fandom. But we victimize other furs, and create a stratification between each other when we go around denoting who is more of a proper fur. Meanwhile no one on there even knows  question-mark or that he is nothing like these people they are attributing him too. If those people even really exist in the Fandom to the extent everyone likes to think. They just see someone proud of being a Furry and go "OH BAD BAD BAD! SILENCE! BEFORE IT REFLECTS ON ME!" And that is the problem. We are so concerned with how the actions of others will reflect on us and the Fandom, but that is not our job. People are too concerned with what other people do, and how that will look bad on them rather than how their OWN actions will look bad on them. Furries increasingly treat Furry like it is something to be ashamed of. If you are not proud of what you do or who you are then no one else will ever be. No amount of ostracizing other Furries will ever make you, or the Fandom look any better.

I came across an old post I made on Reddit some 3 months ago. I was responding to some incident I either observed, or that happened to me. I forget the exact cause. It's really had to think about how much I have changed in JUST 3 months. So much I have read, and so much I have seen, and the impact I am having on other people's lives continues to shape my vision for this Fandom, and my thoughts about the world. In all it's radical-ness here is an example of how inflammatory I used to be (with spelling corrections):

"This Fandom is being consumed by Hate. Hate for the babyfurs, Hate for the Bronies, Hate your fellow fur who doesn't think like you, act like you, speak like you. The same poisons that we established this Fandom to be exempt from have found their way in. Where once was kindness and gentleness there is malice and disdain. Furries blame their fellow Furries for their unhappiness, citing others indecent behavior as the source for their personal misery. When that fails the Bronies serve as a scapegoat and are subjected to the very same flaming demonization we have endured, fought never to endure again, and swore never to impose upon another. We have lost the way. Instead of tradition, we upheld popularity. Values took a back seat to personal gratification. Fursuits became a measure of wealth not a measure of happiness. Artists stopped helping other artists, and the idea of by the fan for the fan crumbled and fell. We worried so much about impressions on the world that we forgot to uphold the good traditions of love, friendliness, and kinship that we founded ourselves on. More than good impressions we need expression, more than popularity we need fraternity. More than progress we need humanity, and unity. The former do not make you happy! Being conceited and above everyone, more important than anyone does not make you happy! Being together makes you happy! Being loved makes you happy! And when loved you will share that love. When accepted for what you are you will accept others for what they are, their indecency and their shortcomings. Fandom, don't give into Hate! Don't separate yourself from your fellow Furry because they are foolish! Don't spite them for being young and eager and mostly inappropriate! Accept them and help them grow into this Fandom, and you will find we will have all grown! This Fandom is immortal no matter what form it takes, but the content of its character is up to you. You the individual! Not the mass of what others do! Don't Hate from the dark corners, dont stick your snout higher than the clouds! We are all Furries. We are all here together. We have the power to make this Furry life a grand and wonderful adventure! Don't let it get mired down in the Hate. Love! Love your fellow Furry with all your heart and unite!"

This was, of course, before I read Xydexx's Axioms Of Fandom Enjoyability that said that these people have always been around, and have never had the effect on the Fandom that I had attributed to them. I advise everyone to read them as I think they are the most important piece of writing this Fandom has produced on itself.

Xydexx's Axioms appear HERE

From  wildshot

"Ok so I was going around hearing that certain species have certain traits and specialties, I was curious on digging into it deeper. I looked into the Wikifur definitions AND the local furry areas (straight opinions from groups of furries) This is what I got:

Wikifur:

- Dragons are pretentious, attempt to appear wise and cultured, and often follow a wonky form of mysticism. More recently, they've been perceived as being "derpy" If female, they are fangirls of Anne McCaffrey's Pern.
- Equines are "size queens", into bondage and pony play.
- Male foxes (species) are frequently gay or bi, overly sexualized and submissive, and are an overexposed choice of character.
- Female foxes and vixens are usually male players, even more overly sexualized, and not bright.
- Gryphons are obsessed fans of Mercedes Lackey fiction and can be capricious.
- Rabbit (species)s are neurotic and paranoid, or are sexually promiscuous, and often enjoy being edible.
- Wolves behave like alpha males, arrogant and expecting to be treated as leaders. Alternately, they are sometimes purported to act like big foxes.
- Huskies are the new foxes, but more submissive.[citation needed]
- Raccoons are seen as antisocial and bi-sexual. Some see raccoons as sneaky thieves who steal at every chance they get.
- Cats are seen as clean and sometimes prissy, bordering on the noble class.
- Squirrels are jittery and hyperactive.
- Hyenas are seen as insane, loud, aggressive, overtly sexual.
- Kangaroos are always foot fetishists who have pouches on both genders.


My furry survey from furs I talked to (NOT MY OPINIONS!!!):

- Dragons are into vore, have violent behaviors, never gentle in sex, and are usually cold hearted.
- Equines are mostly MLP fans, love ponyplay, are usually straight (heterosexual), and tend to be overly manly (drink beer, have sex with women etc).
- Male foxes are sluts, mostly and typically gay, sexual in everything they do, really really love cocks.
- Vixens (female foxes) are sluttier than the male foxes, typically straight and prefer men all the time, have huge boobs.
- Gyphons are fantasy book worms, they love reading and playing fantasy RPGs, are VERY wise, typcially asexual and not fun in bed anyway.
- Rabbits are shy cuddle lovers, always submissive in sex, always frikken adorable, usually quiet and timid, and they're always hot and sexy.
- Wolves are always big bossy dominant heterosexuals who fight and kill for females, usually atheist and science addicts, Abusive in relationships to their female partners, a very cold and heartless attitude, love having hard painful sex with females.
- Wolfesses are the same but female, they fight the males constantly but end up being in relationships with other species where -they- can be the dom, very VERY sexy and hot, everyone wants to tap a wolfess but always get hurt and unlucky to get no sex from them.
- Huskies are just like foxes. No different.
- Female huskies are just like vixens.
- Raccoons are sneaky, sly, sexy, hot, overly flirty and yiff really really good.
- Cats are hot sexy but usually teasing and hard to get in bed with, mostly OCD over cleanliness and running things one certain way.
- Squirrels are annoying.
- Hyenas are rude, loud, sexually awkward at times but quite sexy, but typically sleazy and lazy.
- Kangaroos love paw and foot related sex, really hot and sexy and everyone wants to bang a roo."

Put on "The Good Feeling Music Of The 60's." I had not listened to it for a *long* time. And all except for California Dreaming were Motown songs. ....Why not just call it the best of Motown then?

I am continually amazed not only at how openly sexual Fandom is, and how much we actually KNOW about it! We know more about sex and the psychology of it just from experience than actual psychologists do. We know how to do it right, and do it safe. We know a lot about how to please each other, and with no shame (No one needs shame). But how much does Fandom actually know about love? I see a lot of other Furries who are sexually compatible, and really know how to go to town on one another, but once it moves beyond that it falls apart. I know a lot of older Furries who, naturally, have the wisdom that comes along with age and experience, but in the young Fandom (the majority) relationships seem to revolve around sex and not involve much else. People get together sexually, then move beyond that into a relationship, and I see it fall apart over and over. This is natural though as Furries are young and being young is about living. It comes with taking stupid risks, and blowing up over stupid small problems. But it does make those of us who look for love, not just sex, have to look harder to find someone to last and help us carry the burden of our inner ideals. I think more than knowledge, we need maturity, not that we aren't doing ok the way we are. Go have fun, be young. We lovers will be here when you burn out and grow into yourselves.

No, mine wasn't, but  karmelofuzz had his stolen. I don't know him but still? Who steals a Fursuit? Thats just dumb. They are all unique. Yeah, the thief has a fursuit now but he can't wear it cause people will recognize it!

Y'ALL FURRIES NEED SOME SMARTS!

This man on the right:

http://i.imgur.com/wysN6fq.jpg

is who I am looking for. I don't know where he is nowadays. That photo is from the PS in 2006. Last tome I spoke to him was around 2008. I'd like to talk to him again. Anyone got any leads?