Hay, been gone for quite a while now... things have been... hard, to say the least...
But I'm gonna try to come back online a bit more again, and perhaps start making art more frequently again...
Luckily I do have a bit of a backlog of pics, as you probably saw from me uploading several just now, so there's at least some content for you. At least for those not on my discord anyway...
So, yeah... gonna try to start producing stuff again.

Here is a link to join my discord server if you're interested, since I guess the last one went bad?
Not sure how long they last before they expire...

Anyway, you can hop on my discord server and hang out with some pervs and get news and such.
Just make sure to check the rules.

https://discord.gg/6mjQVG5E

Yup, I'm still alive.

For those who haven't been on my Discord, shit got pretty bad...

I may do a more detailed journal about it later, but some highlights are:
-an increasingly toxic work environment
-someone used my SSN to commit tax fraud
-a massive fraudulent lawsuit filed against me
-people I considered as friends turned against me

So, yeah, things have not been good.

But for now, I'm gonna try to start doing art again, and start uploading stuff here again.

Holqy shit,
100 proof burbon hitz hard! XDDD
I'm drunk XP

I shod do like I did last year,l and do a drunk deawing.
so, uh, I donno, gimme somtin to draw.
Somethin easy, obviously. It probably won't bee to gud, cuz Im drunk, like a male character from mlp dong a lewd to me, or jus showing off his bum XP

Ya guys know what I likew to draw!~
So Im gonna pour myself another drink, and watch a youtube vid, and come back to see what peeple put.
If no answer, I'll jus pick a sexy stallion to draw.

hopefully bi dont pass out frst. XD

Ill make a comment., or edirt this when I decieed what to draw.
Now shoot me som shiz to do!

[EDIT]
Forgot to post my desoign. Went with a random satallion. Kinda wanterd to d=rAW Him anyhoo, so what ther hwell?
I probably won't upload it until toniogt anyway see ingh that its almost 3. so look forsd to thAT. ;3

Hay guys,

It's been quite a while since I've been on.
Sorry for the inactivity, but my life has been an absolute hell. Things had gotten so bad that I got to the point that I was having suicidal thoughts multiple times a day. And unfortunately, only having people who hate me in my day to day life made it rather difficult to get out of that mindset.
As of now, I've gotten the suicidal thoughts down to about three or four days out of the week. And I've started to not give a shit at work at all.

Most of my misery has come from my work, seeing as that's pretty much all I do these days. My boss going on one mission after another to try to make me look bad so he can fire me, and has even resorted to outright lying about me. And when I went to HIS boss, and challenged these lies, I found that she is just as corrupt and conceded as he is. I even tried to carry a recording device to prove my innocence, and the conspiracy against me, and they promptly shut that down, my bosses boss telling me that if I had video and audio evidence to support my case, that she wouldn't even look at it. However, she accepted my bosses testimony that he saw me working as proof that I was refusing to work. Don't think I need to explain why that is absolutely ludicrous. Ironically, she has no problems with putting cameras all over to record employees, and GPS tracking devices in all the work vehicles, where only they have access to the recordings.
And then of course my coworkers are pretty much all hypocrites, and all hate me, and have almost all made attacks against me.
So, yeah, basically everyone in my life hates me, and is more or less out to get me.

Then, I've talked to a few people who said they were interested in meeting me, and was seriously talking about making it happen, only to have them back out.
With one guy, we fully made a plan for a visit, and he was giving me grief the entire time about backing out, even when he made me book and pay for the $560 flight, and promise to cover all costs of the visit, only for him to back out two days before the flight. I of course lost the money, and have absolutely no trust left in anyone who say they want to actually meet me.
If any of you ever do have an interest in meeting me, you can tell me, we could set a date, but I won't actually believe you until you show up at my house, or at the very least in the city of Fresno.
Of course, based on previous experience, there isn't anyone who seriously want to meet.

And there have been a bunch of other things building my stress, brakes going out on my truck, struggling with money, having two fingernails rip off in two separate injuries... lots of "fun"


I haven't done much artwork over the last several months, though I do have a few pics I'll try uploading tomorrow.
I'll try to start coming on here again, and hopefully feel up to getting back into artwork.

Okay, went a little latter than I said, got lazy... ^^;
and I'm getting a bit drunk agen. ;3

Anyway, the number generated from the randomizer was 74!
Which means the closest one was  cheery314

Now, I have absolutely no experience drawing these turian guys, so this should be interesting.. XD
Guess I'll pour me another shot, and give it my best! (my drunked best anyway XD )

Not sure if I'll get it done tonight or not, like I said, this is totally new terratoiry for me, but I'll try! ;3

Hay, I'm drunk right now, so I'm gonna do a thing.

I wanna draw a pic of my OC eating someones dirty ass! So if you want me to eAT your ass, throw me a reply! And give a ref to your character....

I'm gonna write a number down between 1 and 100. So put a number with your comment, and theb cl;osest one gets to have me eat ypour dirty ass!

Also, you can tell me what quirtrlk.. c what you gonnna say to ,me as you make me eat your ass!

I plan to draew me tied up, but you can suggest form of bondage too, and your ass gonna be dirty!

I'll have this go to tomorrow nigt. probably get drunk agen.

so, uh.. say 6 oklock pAcific? or when I get to it? I donno..

So. comment with oc ref,erence, what you say to me, and method of bondage if you have idea for that (if not I can do it), and a number between 1 and 100

good luk


Fr the record, I used a random number gernerator to get the nunmer, so I no cheet. Wrote it down too, but also keep number tab open on browser.
Not sure if I'm making sense now. I reallyu drunk...
Uh... I''ll cxan answer questions tomorrow when not so drunk i gess. fuck.

I wanna eet someones ass.. for realzies,.,. :_(


[EDIT]
Okay so this is closed! My number was 74! and so the closest person was  cheery314
Thanks everyone for their interest!

Hay peeps
Is there anyone out there willing to love me? Been feeln lonely lately.
I would seriously be will I'm ng to support someone, if they would love me

Sorry guys. Im drunk again, but seriously, would someone be willing to love me? Im starting to believe that I'll never be loved, and die alone. I'm fucking 30 years old, and have never bbeen with anyone. And it doesn't help qhen everyone around me hates me.
Is there something wrong with me? Th here must be, if noone will love me, but I just don't know what i dud wrong. Why do people hate me?
Whatever i did, im sorry. I'm truly sorry for being me.
Juat tell me what you want me ti be, and I'll try to change. I'll take care of you. You could live in my house fir free if you want, just, please, i need someone to lovr me or i may not make it much further.

Im sorry. Please tell me what i need to do. Im sorry . Im aorry for being such a worthless, hateful fuck.
Im sorry

Hay, does anyone give a fuck about me at all? I mean actually give a fuck? I know I'm pretty shitty at doing my art and shit, but I kinda feel like noone really gives a shit if I get hit by a truck or some shit and disappear.

Sorry for being a whiny bitch, but it seems that noone gives a single shit about me. Everyone at my work fucking hates me, my family couldn't care less about me, and I don't have any friends to spend time with. It's like my company is just an burden to everyone. It's like everyone in my life can't stand me.

Hay guys,

sorry for the severe inactivity recently, life's been a bitch.

I've been having a bit of a hard time keeping up with my schooling recently, and pretty much everyone at my job have been acting excessively shitty to me, especially my boss. Due to this, I've been incredibly stressed out for quite a while, like contemplating putting a bullet in my skull stressed.

I am thinking most of my stress is coming from my job, being paid diddly-shit working for arrogant assholes who seem to blame literally every negative thing on me while taking credit, or giving credit to someone else for everything good that I accomplish. So, I started looking for a new job, one where maybe I won't get treated like disease-riddled shit for being enrolled in college. (that's right, my boss literally gives me grief for attending school... on my own time... outside of the work schedule... what a dick).
Anyway, I've thrown my resume out on the internet and applied for a few companies, and got a response from a pretty good looking one! In order to proceed with application, I had to take an initial test, which I passed, and then had to go to the company to take another exam. I was pretty nervous about it, and I really had to think back to stuff I learned about when I was going to ITT Tech, and use intuitive leaps on some things we didn't really cover, but apparently I managed to pass that test as well! yay
Now, the next step is the actual job interview! Which is scheduled for this Friday.

I am REALLY hoping I can land this job, as I suspect it may improve my life greatly. It looks like the work environment will be much more sophisticated, (my current work environment is like a run down shed filled with garbage and electrical hazards), the location is still very close to my house, (about a 15 min drive), and if the job website is at all accurate, the pay will be MUCH higher than my current pay, like $10 per hour higher! Oh how nice would that be!

So, wish me luck! I can really use some luck about now

Sorry again for the inactivity, life's been a bit hectic. There's been a gargantuanly larger amount of drama and BS at my work since they hired a complete arrogant asshole into my department, and my boss has just been getting bitchier and bitchier because of a bunch of legal bullshit going on, due to the company being sued, as if it's my fault. (I seriously need to get a new job)

School is school, having a little trouble keeping up, but I'm doing fairly well still as far as that's concerned.

Oh, and I had minor back surgery this last week! There was a sore spot on my back for about a week and a half that was just getting worse and worse, so I had to go in to have a solid, yucky mass cut out, and now I have a hole in my back. Apparently it's going to take something like two more weeks to fully heal.
Don't worry, it wasn't cancer or anything like that, and luckily it wasn't in my spine, it was about an inch to the left of it, well, IS an inch to the left, since I still have an open wound there. The good news is today is the first day I didn't need to take a ton of Ibuprofen to get through the day! Though I didn't move around much.

Maybe I'll actually be able to do some drawing tonight? That would certainly be nice. I've been itching to do art for a while now, and I know there's a few of you who have been itching for that as well... ^^;

I'm drunk in the Nerry Punch room, and I need to draw someone's oc beimg lewd with my oc in the sketchbook!
First come!

Give me a link to your oc ref!


[EDIT]
Bah, we ran outta time. Damn, I wanted to do a lewd of someone's oc eith mine... oh well. I did plenty of other lewds! >;3

I'll upload them at end of con

Hay guys, just thought I'd give you all a little update on what I've been up to.

As some of you may know, I have been looking to buy a home (in between work and school that is). And, well, I've pretty much been doing that and not much else.

It's been quite a bit of an emotional roller-coaster looking for houses, going between things looking pretty promising and it looking like a lost cause, sometimes transitioning between the two multiple times within the same hour. It's really bloody exhausting!

I've been going around looking at quite a few houses with my agent every weekend, finding that most of them are complete garbage in need of demolition while being outrageously priced. Also, as it turns out, the city is quite a crappy place, no matter where you go, and if I want to get a house in one of the few nicer neighborhoods, I'd have to spend around half a million dollars to get it! And I simply can't afford that.

So anyway, after looking at several houses, having the ones I was interested in run into problems making them impossible for me to purchase, and the others simply being pathetic, we actually found a house today that shows potential! Sure it's in a relatively shitty part of the city, but it has lots of living space, plenty of room for a roommate or even two, it has a decent yard with plenty of space for my dog, and it even has a shop! There is quite a bit of work to be done to it, the biggest thing being the roof needs to be rebuilt, but to be honest, that's actually not as bad as some of the other houses I've seen. (they've seriously been that bad)

With everything considered, I've decided to go ahead and put an offer on the house! I'm gonna meet with my agent tomorrow to go through the paperwork and compose my offer to submit to the seller.
Now, I'm gonna try not to get my hopes up, as I will require the seller to do some repairs so the house can make it through escrow, as well as any repairs that the appraiser might demand done, so that I don't end up with tens of thousands of dollars of repair costs. Because of that, there is a good chance the seller will tell me to screw myself. However if the seller DOES accept my offer, then hopefully in a few months, I'll be living in a house of my very own! (seriously, the process to buy a house nowadays is complicated as hell, and a royal pain in the ass!)

In the meantime, I'm gonna continue to look for other potential homes, and ask my agent to do the same, just in case this one falls through, or we come across something even better.


Aside form that, I've been slowly getting things together for my Sunburst cosplay for this year's BABS Con. Not sure if I told you guys about that.
So far, I got the glasses, and some white gauntlet gloves and fabric for a cloak and shirt. Hopefully this weekend, I will be able to get started on actually making my garments, as the convention is approaching fast. basically, I was gonna make Sunburst's cloak, and then make a renaissance style shirt (like this one) that will match Sunburst's coat color, then have the white gauntles style gloves and glasses to look a little more like him. Althought I'm not sure what to do about my leggings. (can't exactly do bluejeans). Perhaps a renaissance style trousers? But I'm not sure what color. Maybe have the trousers match the cape? I donno, but I'm gonna try getting the shirt and cloak done first, and then I'll worry about the trousers. I got too much to think about right now as it is!
Perhaps when I get the cosplay done, I'll upload a picture of it so you guys can see?


Anyway, that's all the news I got for now. Wish me luck on the house hunt, and also on my cosplay, but mostly the house hunt. I'm definitely gonna need it. ^^;

Hay peeps!

Sorry for the inactivity again. As many of you know, I am trying to go back to school to get my Bachelor degree, and this last week was the first week of the new quarter.
This quarter, I decided to be a bit ambitious, and signed up for three classes amounting to five nights a week, after work. Now, as I said, this last week was the first week, and I went to every single class. What I found out from doing this, is that I would literally have no spare time for the next three months, and even though we have not had any homework yet, I was so exhausted by the end of the week, I could hardly stand. I even came extremely close to being in a serious car accident because I was so tired while driving in broad daylight.
Because of this, I decided that taking college classes every night after work was just too much. I mean, I haven't even started studying yet, and it managed to kick my ass in a single week! Not to mention that it gave me literally no time nor energy to do things like draw or play on my piano. I would get through school faster if I could take three classes, but it just isn't worth the hassle. Plus, I doubt that I would end up with very good grades if I was overly exhausted all the time.

Moral of the story: Know your limitations, and don't try to take on more than you can handle, like me.

Now, like I said, I decided to drop one of my classes, which will free up two evenings, so hopefully I'll have energy enough to do things like art and practice on my piano.

Hay peeps!

My life's been kinda busy lately (what else is new?)
I just finished my finals at school, which wasn't really hard, since I kick ass at math and only had one other class. The final for my guitar class was a live performance in front of a captive audience. The performance was... well... imagine the sound of a train hauling a bunch of guitars jumping the tracks, rolling down a mountain and crashing into a nuclear power plant. That would pretty much sum up how the concert went. Yeah, it wasn't pretty. It was so bad that the highlight of the concert was when one of the girls fell off the stage... like I said; train-wreak...
Despite our horrible performance, however, we apparently all got good grades in the class! Literally an 'A' for effort XP
I really should practice more on my guitar...

Speaking of practicing, I have been practicing on my piano quite a bit. I freakin' LOVE that I can use headphones on it! Surprisingly my family hasn't tried to screw with me when I practice on it. So far, I have learned something like four songs on it? All Christmas songs of course, and simple versions of them. Although I have been practicing with the more advanced version of 'Silent Night', which is still pretty darn simple. One other song I have been working on learning that isn't X-mas related is 'Once Upon a Time' from Undertale, which I'm actually making decent progress at. (there's a play button in the upper-left of the screen in that link if you wanna listen to what it sounds like, or you can hit your space key).

Now as far as the condition of my eye goes, I'm still taking medication for my eye, though the condition of my eye is relatively unchanged. It seems that my eye just randomly decides to be hyper-sensitive sometimes, and other times is just fine. Unfortunately it never seems to be hypersensitive when I'm actually with the doctor, so all he's been having me do is continue to put medicated drops in my eye.
Hopefully the problem will just eventually go away. I really don't like the idea of having random hypersensitivity in my eye for the rest of my life, nor do I want to keep paying for doctor visits only to have him prescribe the same thing. Although, the first time I went to the doctor, he said I had an abrasion on my eyeball, and the last time he said it just looked inflamed, so maybe it is getting better, it's just taking forever? Here's hoping!

In other news, I was able to sign up for classes for next semester. The good news is that I was able to get into a few classes that I was actually needing for my degree, aside from the math class. The bad news about this is, I will have class every day of the work week (Monday thru Friday) so I'm gonna be SUPER swamped with the school work. I may even have to end up dropping one of the classes if it ends up being too much of a work load to handle. Here's hoping I don't end up getting overwhelmed from the extra classes, so I might be able to move forward with my degree.

Now I've saved the best bit of news for last. Yesterday, I received an inheritance check from my grandpa, who passed away a few years ago (rest his soul). The amount I received was a little more than $28,000. (seriously Grandpa, thank you!).
Of course, even though the check is for that amount, I won't be actually receiving the full amount since the government wants to take their unfair share in taxes. So I need to speak with a tax adviser before I do anything so I can try to minimalize the amount the government will try to take from me. (kudos to my aunt for dealing with the legal nightmares and tax headaches involved with carrying out my grandpa's will)
But, after I deal with the tax issue, I think it's safe to assume I will still have over $20,000, which will be more than enough to make a down payment on a house! Unfortunately, I still can't qualify for a home loan until August, when I reach my two years in my current trade. So my plan is to put my inheritance in a savings account, and try to save up even more money before August, and then try to find myself a house to buy.
I was actually already planning on saving money to try to get enough for a down payment on a house in August, so my plan hasn't actually changed much, the only difference is now I won't just have enough to make the down payment, but I'll also have enough to have a financial cushion as well! (probably keep at least $10,000 for my cushion).
Unfortunately that means that I'll be stuck in my current living situation at least until after August. I've pretty much given up on trying to find a place to rent since people don't tend to move in the winter, and by the time it IS moving season, it will probably be after August. (plus I can actually save up more money this way).

Well, that's it for now. Lotta stuff going on. Hopefully I can squeeze in some time to draw before next semester starts...

Hay peeps, I'm still alive...

Nothing really exciting has been going on in my life, I've just been super busy with school and work, work being especially stressful with my boss and coworkers acting like real bitches to me for some reason, and my family at home being total cunts, adding to the stress. And between the stress of work and home, I have just been exhausted at the end of each day.

Oh, and remember that incident with the chicken I had a month ago? Yeah, well apparently it's not over. My eye had been bothering me off and on since then, and then it got really bad last weekend, causing me to wake up at 5:00 in the morning from the pain. So I went to see a optometrist, and apparently there is a pretty bad abrasion on my eyeball that got infected with a virus. The doc said it was like a cold sore that was on my eyeball. SO I guess the pain on the weekend was the sore bursting in my eye, releasing the infection.
So now I'm on some pretty hardcore anti-viral eye-drops to fight the infection, along with another eye-drop medication that is supposed to help my eyeball heal.
Super fun.


In other news, I'm trying to get my own rental again. There is one house that will be available at the end of the month that I'm shooting for. It's decently sized, decently priced, and it's really close to my work and school! I'm trying not to get my hopes up on it too much, cuz there are also other people competing for it, but if I do get it, I'll finally be able to set up my drafting table to have a proper art station, as well as about two more hours of free time each day since I wouldn't have to commute all the way down and up the mountain every day!
Not to mention if I had my own place, I might be able to invite friends over... if I have any that is.

Hay guys

Sorry for being quiet as of late, I've just been under a lot of stress lately.
I've been looking to finally try to get a house of my own (to rent) for the past couple weeks, and it has put me in a really bad mood. One reason is because some jackass piece of shit has been trying to scam me by posting fake ads, posing as a reverend, a deaf old lady, and a person with a dying mom in the hospital. truly a grade "S" bastard. It infuriates me that I can't track him down and slit his throat.
the second reason it has been putting me in a bad mood is the fact that despite being employed in a supposedly special field that I had to get a $30K degree for, I can't even afford to rent a home of my own! It is reminding me again that I am severely under-paid, and my employer is trying to make it like he is doing me a favor as he is screwing me. I mean, I make less money than a burger-flipper at In-n-Out for god's sake, and they aren't working a job with a high risk of getting killed! (oh yeah, I was almost killed on Monday too, when a steel pipe came loose from a pole and nearly crushed my skull. I barely jumped out of the way in time).

So yeah, a little on edge...

In other news, I have a meeting with a mortgage lender to discuss what I should do to start planning to try and actually purchase a house. As it turns out, buying a house is actually generally cheaper then renting. Unfortunately, I need to be working in the same field for at least two years in order to qualify for a loan, so I won't be able to qualify for at least another year and three months. But, I suppose now is a perfect time to start planning. I REALLY don't want to be tied to California, but after thinking about it, I realized that when I think I am ready to leave, I will have the option to rent my house out, turning it into a potential source of income. That is, if I am even able to ever purchase a house. That will depend entirely on my financial state when the time comes, and whether or not I am able to save up a down payment by then.

Something else I'm gonna have to deal with soon is school. It is finally the time for me to sign up for college classes in order to try to get a new degree. Of course I have to go through getting my associate degree again, since no schools accept the degree I got from ITT, so it will probably be another five years before I can attain my goal of a bachelor degree.
However, I am starting to have second thoughts about my career choice again. My current job is absolutely miserable, and is supposedly in my field, and I am beginning to wonder if ALL jobs in this field will be like this, working for some rich bastard in a retarded company forced to follow retarded instructions to work on shotty systems.
I want to be able to work on fun things, cool things, like electronic toys and robotics. But, I'm starting to feel that that dream is completely unattainable and farfetched. I'm hoping that if I am able to get my own place, and work on my own projects, it might rekindle my passion for electronic technology, but I'm having little faith that it will.
I remember meeting someone at BABS Con who was shooting for the same degree I am, and he wound up changing his field of work to work on things like animation and videogame development instead, and I am starting to wonder if I should try doing that myself. The problem is, I'm getting older. I'm getting close to 30 now. I always pictured myself at 30 as having my career well on its way, being a home owner, and raising a family. But here I am, merely two years from 30, and I'm still single, my life is in shambles, my career nonexistent, and living in an 18 foot camper trailer in my mom's front yard.
I thought that working hard and staying in school would make me successful, but somehow, I still wound up being a fucking looser.
Now, I'm stuck working hard and trying to go through school, just because I literally have no idea of what else to do.


So yeah.... stressed

I just got settled in at the hotel for BABS Con! yay!

Now I'm just sittin here watchin ponies and getting ready to have a blast over the weekend!

Hay guys, got some bad news...

As many of you may know, my life has been pretty hectic as of late, and unfortunately, it seems to be only getting more chaotic.
I'm always tired, frustrated, and overwhelmed with all the things on my plate, and I never seem to have enough time.
And now, with me trying to get back into college, I'm gonna have a ton more work on my hands.

Because of this, I've decided that I am gonna stop trying to do artwork, so that I can concentrate more on my work and school, and hopefully get my life on track. I haven't really been that productive anyway.

In addition to that, I'm going to delete my galleries, and probably my account altogether. That way I will pretty much have to focus entirely on my schooling and work.

It's been fun while it lasted, but I really need to get my life together, and move forward.

I know this will probably upset a lot of you, and make many of you sad, but you might find some solace if you just consider one thing: today's date...





















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APRIL FOOLS!!!! XP
Oh man, that was evil!
As if I'd ever give up drawing my pornz! Or you guys! ;3

Hay peeps;

Sorry for becoming inactive yet again. I seem to be having quite a bit of trouble in my fight with depression and stress. It has gotten to the point that I am becoming more and more stressed by the day, and am becoming more easily irritated by all of the stupid little things (such as politics and traffic).

Of course, there are plenty of big things that have been stressing me out as well, like my college degree being discredited, learning of how much the government is screwing me with my student loans for my useless degree, getting an infection in my eye from my job, learning how much my job is screwing me in my wages (I make less than a burger flipper at In n Out), finding out that literally everyone else at my work are paid a shit ton more than me, even the new-hires, and other things.

So yeah, my life is pretty shitty right now.
I'm planning on trying to do school again though, even though I still have no faith in the education system. I guess I just don't see anything else I CAN do.
I just applied at a community college, so perhaps I can get the ball rolling again, and get a new college plan set up. This time I'm shooting to go to an actual university, so perhaps my degree won't end up being useless again. Also, I'm going to try avoiding any more loans, at all costs. So pretty much, I'm going to have to try paying for school completely out of pocket. It looks like the community college will only be about $1000 for each semester, so I can probably handle that with little problem. I'll have to see about having my student loans put on hold or something. University will likely cost a shit ton more than that, but I'll figure that one out when the time comes.

As for my work, I'm going to try having a talk with my employer sometime this week, and try to get a raise. I looked it up online, and a person in my position should be making around $45,000 - $50,000 a year ($21.50 - $24 per hour) and I'm only getting $28,000 a year ($13.50 per hour). I can't even afford to rent a house on this pay! So I'm gonna try to ask for $16 an hour. That's still rather low for my position (especially when there are hundreds of ways I can be killed at this job!), but I might actually be able to FINALLY get my own place again.


Anyway, that's been my life. It fucking sucks...

Hay guys,

Well, my MRSA infection seems to be improving, and since I have made sure to eat with every dose of my antibiotics, it hasn't made me crazy sick again. Although, it does seem to be wearing me out more than usual, I've been tired all week (not sure if it is the medication or not though). Luckily I only have three more pills to take, so I'll be taking the last one on Tuesday morning. Hopefully my sore will be completely healed by then.

Speaking of my sore; The opening of my sore did get a bit bigger, probably about a centimeter in diameter, although the swelling has gone down. It only hurts slightly every now and then, and for the most part I can ignore it, though there were a couple times I needed to take ibuprofen when it got bothersome.

At this point, I'd say that I'm pretty much done with this infection, and it should heal up any day now.
It was a bit of a scare at first, but luckily, I was able to catch it early enough, before it became a serious problem.

Hay guys.

Well, the soreness of my infecton seems to have gone down, thank goodness. But those antibiotics I got are freaking brutal! I made the mistake of taking one this morning without eating first, and it messed me up all freaking day! I had to call in sick to work again because I was so bad. It made me puke almost immediately after I took it, though I didn't seem to throw up much of any pill, so I kept most of it down.
But then I felt super weak, and could hardly stand and my entire body was trembling.
There was a moment that I thought I had got it under control, and got in my car, but as soon as I put it into gear, I got tunnel vision, and felt faint. That's when I decided that it was way too risky to try driving to work, not that I would have been able to do much there anyway in my condition, and I texted my boss that I wasn't coming in.

I then drank two bottles of water, and tried to sleep it off. Although I felt better when I first woke up, I found that if I moved around too quickly, I would start feeling sick again. I don't think it was until about 1:30 in the afternoon that I managed to cook myself some food and eat it. Then, finally after eating I felt a little better, but I still had to go lay down again at about 4:00, and slept until 9:00 when I finally felt normal again.

So that one pill knocked me out of commission for pretty much the whole day, just because I didn't take it with food! (and I was probably a bit dehydrated). SO from now on, I REALLY need to make sure I eat some food before I take my antibiotic pill. And also to drink plenty of water...

Okay, so I got back from the clinic (and doing stuff in town), and they verified that it is indeed MRSA. But instead of cutting me open and cleaning out the wound, they basically just put me on antibiotics and pain killers.
They also advised that I use a heat-compress on my sore to draw out the infection. As for the pains in my head and back, they told me that it was likely the pressure of the sore pressing on the nerves in my neck rather than the infection burrowing, and I'm hoping that to be true. The practitioner didn't look at it very closely at all, basically she just took one look at it and said "yeah, that looks like a staph infection" (which is what MRSA is).
Although all of my vitals seem normal, so let's hope it hasn't started burrowing yet...

I'll start doing a hot-compress each night, with a rag soaked in Epsom Salt water, to try pulling out the infection, and continue with the hydrogen peroxide cleaning, and ointment. And obviously, I'll be staying on top of my antibiotics, two a day every day for the next week.

I'll also be keeping a close eye on it, to make sure it doesn't get any worse.


So let's all hope that this MRSA outbreak just goes away without too much issue over the next few days.
I'll try to keep you guys updated on the status along the way ;3

Hay guys, sorry I fell off the internet again, stress and depression kinda took me down again.

Anyway, it seems that I may have to go to the clinic tomorrow, since I have a fairly serious infection in the back of my neck.
I was trying to deal with it myself, using antibacterial ointment, and cleaning it with hydrogen peroxide, but over the course of today, the sore on my neck was hurting quite a bit, and the pain only seemed to grow throughout the day.
After I got home, I used my phone to take a picture of the sore so I could look at it, and I'm pretty sure it is another MRSA outbreak.

In case you don't know what MRSA is, it is a really nasty, flesh eating infection that has a tendency to burrow down into the body, and since the sore is in my neck, at the base of my skull, this can be a very serious problem, and can even be fatal if I don't deal with it now.
Fortunately, I have health insurance now that should cover pretty much my entire visit, (at least I'm hoping it does)

These MRSA sores are something I have dealt with in the past, but admittedly, I haven't had one that hurt this much, and the pain seems to be spreading beyond the sore, and I am having pains down my spine and in my head, which I am hoping is just in my imagination (or because of my crappy mattress).

The whole thing has got me a little concerned about my well being. My stepdad had a MRSA sore that burrowed over an inch into his leg. With it being in my neck, an inch can kill me...

*sigh* Right after finally paying off my credit card, again, I go and rack up $2k on it... dammit...

Well, anyway, I finally ordered a new laptop, and it should be getting here latter this week (I got express shipping).
If your wondering what I got, I decided to go with this Acer laptop
After doing some looking around, that looked like the biggest bang for my buck, and that was in my price range. I was looking at the Metabox computers, and even though they looked really nice, and had a lot more power, I just couldn't afford them. The base prices looked affordable, but after adding the essentials, like a hard drive and operating system, they were coming to $3k to $4k, and that was BEFORE shipping and tax! They would be nice to have, but I would need a much better paying job in order to afford them. Heck, the $2k that I spent is a lot more than I should be spending, but I'm hoping that this new computer will be able to last for several years... I'm hoping anyway...

Anyway, I just thought I'd let you guys know. I'll try to test out the laptop once I get it, to see if it will work for the things I want to do on it, and if it does, then I'll be able to add the option for digital color in my commissions.
I know I may be stupidly slow with my art, but I think I'm gonna try to do the commissioning thing. Goodness knows that I could use the extra money...