I have learned my lesson about trusting computers to perform simple tasks such as remember that a specific user exists. I've always backed up the stuff that I think is serious, but for some reason I decided against backing up any of my art - or, for that manner, any of my desktop backgrounds, any of my notes, any of my fanfics, fucking anything creative.

And now it's gone, because my archaic computersaur can't perform such simple tasks as remembering how to log a user on - or even that a user exists. -_- I'm lucky that I had all my music and homework saved to my external hard drive, but I should have been a lot more vigilant about not trusting technology.

That's it. This only makes me all the more determined to get a mac. I wouldn't have this goddamn problem on a mac - the worst thing is that I know that all of the lost data is my own fault. I didn't save any of my art externally, I didn't back up my bookmarks, I didn't save my fanfics externally - none of it. -_________-

At least this encourages me to reorganise my iTunes library, though, since windows went and pulled a "YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE A LIBRARY" on me, too.

omg omg cheese & tomato is so fracking delicious...

I'm going to try to practice drawing by hand more, and colouring with Gimp a lot more. I don't really know what to draw, other than to mess around with an otter character I have floating around & with Moro's design. Does anybody have anything that they wouldn't mind me butchering by attempting to draw? :D Inspire me!

I can't believe I'm still changing what I want my fursona to be. It's been months since MiDFur, and I still haven't decided! I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever manage to decide what I want to be . . . I mean, after going through a crisis about what name I wanted to be known by, I went back to Moro for ease's sake, only to have stumbled across another name that I really love! But I'm scared to go by it in case I lose interest soon like all of the other names.

And don't get me started on species, please! ; ____ ; I feel like I've tested every animal in the kindgom: turkish van, leopard, generic rabbit, cape hare, peninsular pronghorn, (blue)black-backed jackal, and now wolf . . . and today, I watched a television show about the Auckland Zoo and they had otters - and I want to be an otter! I had a squidgeroo around dA to see if otters can be anthropormophised prettily, and they certainly can, and despite all of Chatts's arguments (namely, "but you won't have a floofeh tail!"), I'm finding myself drawn to otters.

But where will this lead? ; _ ; More changes, I'll bet. I'm probably just taking this too seriously, but I can't seem to find an animal that's right for me, and at this stage I'm too bloody scared to even try otter out, in case I just get bored of it because it's "not the one". >_< If I change to otter, too, I know I'll want to go by the new name in my head: Shizuka.

It just seems like so much damn fuss, though. I'm probably taking it all way too seriously, and I should just stay with Moro, stay with wolf, no matter how much I feel that I want to change, that they're not "right", because they're here now and ... >_< Aaargh. It's so hard to pick a name and an animal! I don't know how other people do it! Otters are so cute <3 but I've been through so many other animals in this short space of time that I know nobody will take me seriously.

What do you think, guys? Should I give otter a whizz? Am I taking this all too seriously?