http://imgur.com/GKDcydx

It took a year to get this due to some problems the artist I went through was having. But luckily I am a patient person ^~^. SAPH LOOKS SO ADORABLE *w*

So, i seem to have this really interesting luck with picking artists to bring my fursona to life >`<. The first artist i commissioned from i went through a good friend of mine, but right now that artist is struggling with a fresh move into a new apartment.
So i found another artist to go through, but imagine my surprise when this artist is starting to doubt their artwork, so this artist is taking a hiaitus with my fursona in a sketch.
This wouldn't bother me normally, but between the two artists i paid $95 dollars between the two of them for the art >`<. I feel like i'm never gonna actually have someone bring my Fursona to life QwQ

This coming Friday, I am moving out to Oregon to go and live with my Boyfriend <3. This means that I will finally be able to spend time with the person that makes me smile and feel happy. He is also one of the people that introduced me to the Furry community ^~^ so YAAAY i cant wait to get there.

Char name(s): Saph

Reference(s): http://i.imgur.com/WT1EqrC.png

Personality: Shy but really sweet

Ideas you have: Standing kinda shy and leaning http://gelbooru.com/index.php?page=.....amp;id=1798151 like this)

Type preference: Full-body shaded


but anyway, its a catboy (obviously is a crossdresser), black fur with little tufts on the tips of the ears, the tufts are a blue (kinda near turquoise color), a blue diamond surrounding the navel with a jade green naval piercing. Tail is long/slender with the blue around the tip. (its the best i got for right now >~< )

There are alot of things and stuff i wish i could do, there are also alot of thing and stuff that i wish i never had to deal with. Then there are the things and stuff that are part of me that i wish weren't

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I wish i didn't have.....

Fear of large crowds (anymore than 10 people near me and i start to have a panic attack and immediately start looking for the nearest exit)
No self worth (tons of verbal abuse as a kid, really hard to fix)
Social phobias (really shy when talking to new people, takes me awhile to actually somewhat open up to new people.)
Manic Depression (when i'm not depressed life is REALLY REALLY good; when i am depressed living becomes a question, not an act)
Low self-esteem (I always feel as if i'm bad at everything i do, even if i'm okay at it)

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I wish i was better at.....

Making friends (i only have 2 True friends (known them both for 10+ years now))
Being able to talk to strangers
Drawing (i can only draw stick figures and symbols)
Expressing my feelings (sometimes i wonder if i am emotionally dead)
Being able to describe myself

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I wish i could do.....

Learn about computers and coding (i am terrible at anything that isn't hands on)
((did i mention that i am bad at describing myself? ill fill this out more when i think of more things))