Commissions
Posted 4 years agoYep; finally decided to hope into doing story commissions, and made a sheet for it.
0.030 per word, or $30USD for every 1000 words.
Paypal: aedenbalfour[at]accesscomm.ca
1,000 ($30) Word Story
This would likely be a quick story with minimal dialogue, involving rapid scenes.
2,000 ($60) Word Story
Scene story with more dialogue and more in-depth description. Story may be minimal though
3,000 ($90) Word Story
This is good for stories with lengthy scene or moderately complex story. This can also allow for a decent amount of dialogue and description between 2-3 characters.
4,000 ($120) Word Story
This length of a story can accomplish even greater detail or more complex themes/plots.
5,000+ ($150+) Word Story
for complex plots coupled with plenty of detail, dialogue, themes and interactions between characters. Stories of these lengths might be broken into two parts, or multiple parts if the idea is intricate or a time constraint is in place.
We would discuss pricing, and you would provide me a general but clear idea of what you want in your story. I would finish the story within 30 days. The amount of time it’ll take would depend on the school life since I’m a part-time student. If I can't finish the story before the 30-day deadline, I will contact you to let you know. Once I finish the story; I would contact you so that I can send you a copy of the story via Google Drives and you can pay me for the story, and once I receive the payment, I'll post it on here and Deviantart/Furaffinity. (If you don't want it posted, do let me know.)
For stories above 3,000 words, it’s a little different, as it would require me making an outline. I would provide you with one, and if it’s to your liking, you’d pay me half of the cost, and I would try to get it done. Both would be within the 30–60-day window. If I can’t complete the story but provide you the outline, I would contact you if you wish to have a refund or want me to continue working on it. Alternatively, if you already have a detailed idea on how the story should go, you can provide me with your own outline if you so desire. This would allow me to finish the story much more quickly.
Outline example: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
Update: Due to my recent mental health struggles and my recent experiences with doing commissions, I decided to make a couple of changes. The big one being that I will limit myself to working on one story for commissions that are above 3000 words, due to the amount of time it takes me to finish them, and with other commitments. For stories less then 3k, I'll be limiting them to three maximum.
What I will write:
-Weight Gain (Stuffing, Force Feeding, Snuggling)
-Inflation (Air, Slime, Liquid)
-Soft/Nonfatal Vore
-Hard Vore
-Transformation
-Macro/Micro
-Cumflation
-Bondage
-Hyper
-Butt Play (Inflation, Vore, Sexual Things)
-Moob/Boob Play (Lactaction, Piercings, etc.)
-Most sexual acts. Specifics can be discussed in private.
-Preg/MPreg
-Slob (To a point, I’m not going to do the live in their own filth type)
*If what you want isn’t listed in the will or won’t, note me to discuss it.
What I won’t write:
-Scat/watersports of any kind (And yes, that includes the usage of catheters for any reason. Don't ask why I have to include this)
-Adult and fetish situations involving minors
-Torture, Rape, hard gore
-Diapers
-Hyper Anus/Cock/Balls
- Fatal Vore
-Unbirthing
-QUEUE-
Between 1k and 3k
1.
2.
3.
Over 3K
1.
0.030 per word, or $30USD for every 1000 words.
Paypal: aedenbalfour[at]accesscomm.ca
1,000 ($30) Word Story
This would likely be a quick story with minimal dialogue, involving rapid scenes.
2,000 ($60) Word Story
Scene story with more dialogue and more in-depth description. Story may be minimal though
3,000 ($90) Word Story
This is good for stories with lengthy scene or moderately complex story. This can also allow for a decent amount of dialogue and description between 2-3 characters.
4,000 ($120) Word Story
This length of a story can accomplish even greater detail or more complex themes/plots.
5,000+ ($150+) Word Story
for complex plots coupled with plenty of detail, dialogue, themes and interactions between characters. Stories of these lengths might be broken into two parts, or multiple parts if the idea is intricate or a time constraint is in place.
We would discuss pricing, and you would provide me a general but clear idea of what you want in your story. I would finish the story within 30 days. The amount of time it’ll take would depend on the school life since I’m a part-time student. If I can't finish the story before the 30-day deadline, I will contact you to let you know. Once I finish the story; I would contact you so that I can send you a copy of the story via Google Drives and you can pay me for the story, and once I receive the payment, I'll post it on here and Deviantart/Furaffinity. (If you don't want it posted, do let me know.)
For stories above 3,000 words, it’s a little different, as it would require me making an outline. I would provide you with one, and if it’s to your liking, you’d pay me half of the cost, and I would try to get it done. Both would be within the 30–60-day window. If I can’t complete the story but provide you the outline, I would contact you if you wish to have a refund or want me to continue working on it. Alternatively, if you already have a detailed idea on how the story should go, you can provide me with your own outline if you so desire. This would allow me to finish the story much more quickly.
Outline example: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
Update: Due to my recent mental health struggles and my recent experiences with doing commissions, I decided to make a couple of changes. The big one being that I will limit myself to working on one story for commissions that are above 3000 words, due to the amount of time it takes me to finish them, and with other commitments. For stories less then 3k, I'll be limiting them to three maximum.
What I will write:
-Weight Gain (Stuffing, Force Feeding, Snuggling)
-Inflation (Air, Slime, Liquid)
-Soft/Nonfatal Vore
-Hard Vore
-Transformation
-Macro/Micro
-Cumflation
-Bondage
-Hyper
-Butt Play (Inflation, Vore, Sexual Things)
-Moob/Boob Play (Lactaction, Piercings, etc.)
-Most sexual acts. Specifics can be discussed in private.
-Preg/MPreg
-Slob (To a point, I’m not going to do the live in their own filth type)
*If what you want isn’t listed in the will or won’t, note me to discuss it.
What I won’t write:
-Scat/watersports of any kind (And yes, that includes the usage of catheters for any reason. Don't ask why I have to include this)
-Adult and fetish situations involving minors
-Torture, Rape, hard gore
-Diapers
-Hyper Anus/Cock/Balls
- Fatal Vore
-Unbirthing
-QUEUE-
Between 1k and 3k
1.
2.
3.
Over 3K
1.
Super Furry Sentai
Posted 6 years agoSo, I decided on trying out a collab project of sorts for FA, inspired by
gottastuffemall . https://www.furaffinity.net/user/superfurrysentai/ Anyone's welcome to join if they so desire.

27
Posted 6 years agoYep, I turned 27 years old back on Tuesday xD Huzzah for me~
Back and in recovery
Posted 7 years agoYeah I should have probably mentioned that I've been home since Monday. Surprisingly the stay at the hospital was only about 4 days. I actually expected to stay there for over a week, but I was making much quicker progress than I was expected so I was discharged.
Right now I'm just at home and in recovery of sorts x3
Right now I'm just at home and in recovery of sorts x3
Surgery date
Posted 7 years agoYep, I'll be finally getting surgery to get rid of this stoma that I have for over 2 years now.
It'll be on the 20th of September.
It'll be on the 20th of September.
About CJ's characters
Posted 7 years agoYes, if you've come here from
cjshadorunner , then yes it is true, I officially own all of CJ's extra characters with the exception of Aeris, Titannia, and Tigris. Now why is that? Let me explain.
CJ really wants to start over with his art and work by focusing on his core four, and he felt with all the extra characters (including some of his earliest ones like the Gigaton Cats and Inflatermouse) he has, it was impossible. He never wanted to sell them so much as to get rid of them completely, but he went with selling them because (and this is just me speculating), many of his followers would have complained. Now where do I fit into this? Well I found about this a day later, and needless to say I wasn't happy in the slightest; admittedly I was downright angry. I've been close friends with him for over a decade now, and helped him conceptualize and create many of the extra OC's, in particular the behemoths (Aeris, LeKayla and Rachel) and the Dragonesses (Argonus, which was my OC to begin with, Titannia and Quakeisha), so even though technically he owned them, I felt a special connection to them and thought of them as our OC's and our children. Soooo yeah, I acted really whiny and bratty when I found out about this. None of this was CJ's fault, nor the buyers faults, the fault lies with me for not talking to him about this sooner and only found out about this when the selling began.
I already talked to the buyers of the three characters, and admittedly, while I still feel like Aeris and Titannia are characters that I should own because I helped create them, I also realize they love these characters and wanted to keep them, so I allowed them. But I also asked them to allow me to make my own characters based on theirs, and they agreed. For Aeris, I will admit this will be problematic, mainly because I don't want any part of her design to change, not even her name, so for now she'll remain the same. Would this be considered character theft? Honestly, I just don't know, as I really love the behemoth's and helped conceptualize them. The only design aspect I can think of changing for Aeris is her hair highlights (originally it's red), but even that would be difficult for me. Yes, I'm aware that I'm emotionally immature, but this is honestly how I feel.
As for Titannia, I actually think this will be easier for me, mostly because I haven't been with her as long as Aeris. She still will have her first name, but I've actually been thinking on some alterations to her design, and change her surname from Silverheart to another one. And then there's Tigris, I admit this one I don't feel as bad that I lost to get because I haven't hanged out with her much, but I still want to create a character that's based on her because I don't want Grace to be alone. If anything I'll be making a character that'll be based on this design CJ did ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914365/ )
Now with all that said, admittedly I'm still wondering if this was the right thing to do because even though they are officially my characters (with the exception of the forementioned three), I still think of them as CJ's characters and OC's, so it'll be a long while before this will all sink in. As for what I'll be doing with them, obviously I'll be incorporating them into my world building with my OC's (the island nation of Ke'Guabasa), and make stories, and who knows, maybe this will finally make me practice my drawing skills more. Well hopefully anyway.
Anyway this is all I can think of saying on the subject matter.
Your loveable cheetah
Ace Kenshader~

CJ really wants to start over with his art and work by focusing on his core four, and he felt with all the extra characters (including some of his earliest ones like the Gigaton Cats and Inflatermouse) he has, it was impossible. He never wanted to sell them so much as to get rid of them completely, but he went with selling them because (and this is just me speculating), many of his followers would have complained. Now where do I fit into this? Well I found about this a day later, and needless to say I wasn't happy in the slightest; admittedly I was downright angry. I've been close friends with him for over a decade now, and helped him conceptualize and create many of the extra OC's, in particular the behemoths (Aeris, LeKayla and Rachel) and the Dragonesses (Argonus, which was my OC to begin with, Titannia and Quakeisha), so even though technically he owned them, I felt a special connection to them and thought of them as our OC's and our children. Soooo yeah, I acted really whiny and bratty when I found out about this. None of this was CJ's fault, nor the buyers faults, the fault lies with me for not talking to him about this sooner and only found out about this when the selling began.
I already talked to the buyers of the three characters, and admittedly, while I still feel like Aeris and Titannia are characters that I should own because I helped create them, I also realize they love these characters and wanted to keep them, so I allowed them. But I also asked them to allow me to make my own characters based on theirs, and they agreed. For Aeris, I will admit this will be problematic, mainly because I don't want any part of her design to change, not even her name, so for now she'll remain the same. Would this be considered character theft? Honestly, I just don't know, as I really love the behemoth's and helped conceptualize them. The only design aspect I can think of changing for Aeris is her hair highlights (originally it's red), but even that would be difficult for me. Yes, I'm aware that I'm emotionally immature, but this is honestly how I feel.
As for Titannia, I actually think this will be easier for me, mostly because I haven't been with her as long as Aeris. She still will have her first name, but I've actually been thinking on some alterations to her design, and change her surname from Silverheart to another one. And then there's Tigris, I admit this one I don't feel as bad that I lost to get because I haven't hanged out with her much, but I still want to create a character that's based on her because I don't want Grace to be alone. If anything I'll be making a character that'll be based on this design CJ did ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914365/ )
Now with all that said, admittedly I'm still wondering if this was the right thing to do because even though they are officially my characters (with the exception of the forementioned three), I still think of them as CJ's characters and OC's, so it'll be a long while before this will all sink in. As for what I'll be doing with them, obviously I'll be incorporating them into my world building with my OC's (the island nation of Ke'Guabasa), and make stories, and who knows, maybe this will finally make me practice my drawing skills more. Well hopefully anyway.
Anyway this is all I can think of saying on the subject matter.
Your loveable cheetah
Ace Kenshader~
A bit of a pet project I've been working on
Posted 7 years agoEssentially it's country building to make the nation my characters live in (and whether it'll be extended to the world, as the world in this reality is 25% bigger, I can't say). Anyways, I'll leave a link here. https://imgur.com/a/TpAgyxi
Some ADVERTISEMENT for a friend in need
Posted 8 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8474558
Essentially, what's going on is that
dralffeine needs to get some money by the 5th of November so that he can pay his monthly internet bill. If he doesn't get it in time, the internet will be cut off for him. So if anyone who has money is willing to purchase a commission from him, that will be awesome.
Essentially, what's going on is that

Quarter of a century old now
Posted 8 years agoYep, turned 25 back on Sunday. Huzzah \o/
2017 New years resolution
Posted 9 years ago I would still love to be an artist as I have stories in my head that I believe would translate better as comics or manga. But in order to do that I would need to practice; that’s why for my New Years resolution i would attempt to make a half-hour doodle everyday for 2017. No doubt I would probably forget bout this soon XD, but my tumblr is where I would post my doodles. I’ll post them on my FA (in the scraps of course) and DA, and other art sites I am on as well if you guys want
Stronger Than You- Flowey Version
Posted 9 years agoWell howdy there, human
I see you’ve killed the king
Now that we are here
I request one thing
And that’s your SOUL
Let’s be frank now
You don’t deserve it
You may think you have been a saint up till now
But that’s a bald-faced lie
I know you had a really good time
Kids like you never play by the rules
Don’t play me
You should never take me a fool
Let’s go
Have our blood get chiller
Let’s go
Just a perfect killer
Go ahead
And end it
If your able
But remember your sins are forever
So even if I lose and just end up dying
You can’t burn your pasts no point in trying
We will never win
We’ll be here together
Repeating the same battle forever
I know you just reset to atone for your sins
But slaying me will only enshrine your wins
We are made of
Lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove
Lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove
I have no control
But neither do you
You keep correcting mistakes
To avoid consequences
But your pasts will always haunt you
So just give up your attack
And just learn to embrace
On giving up your SOUL to me
Go ahead
And end it
If your able
Just know that pacifism is unreachable
But if you law down your guard and surrender
I can show your SOUL true DETERMINATION
Remember you made all your friends disappear
We are both the same it is oh so clear
I am the nothing
You are the plaything
We are meant for devastation
We are made of
Lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove
Lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove
But I know I’m Stronger Than You
Yeah I know, was late on the Undertale themed stronger then you bandwagon, and no doubt this is not good since I’m not a songwriter, but hey if people like it, that’s awesome to hear.
Obvious inspirations:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4TzVOLOROkM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQ3z6oxNheo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=co5Zo6Ng9-c
I see you’ve killed the king
Now that we are here
I request one thing
And that’s your SOUL
Let’s be frank now
You don’t deserve it
You may think you have been a saint up till now
But that’s a bald-faced lie
I know you had a really good time
Kids like you never play by the rules
Don’t play me
You should never take me a fool
Let’s go
Have our blood get chiller
Let’s go
Just a perfect killer
Go ahead
And end it
If your able
But remember your sins are forever
So even if I lose and just end up dying
You can’t burn your pasts no point in trying
We will never win
We’ll be here together
Repeating the same battle forever
I know you just reset to atone for your sins
But slaying me will only enshrine your wins
We are made of
Lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove
Lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove
I have no control
But neither do you
You keep correcting mistakes
To avoid consequences
But your pasts will always haunt you
So just give up your attack
And just learn to embrace
On giving up your SOUL to me
Go ahead
And end it
If your able
Just know that pacifism is unreachable
But if you law down your guard and surrender
I can show your SOUL true DETERMINATION
Remember you made all your friends disappear
We are both the same it is oh so clear
I am the nothing
You are the plaything
We are meant for devastation
We are made of
Lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove
Lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove, lo-o-o-o-ooove
But I know I’m Stronger Than You
Yeah I know, was late on the Undertale themed stronger then you bandwagon, and no doubt this is not good since I’m not a songwriter, but hey if people like it, that’s awesome to hear.
Obvious inspirations:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4TzVOLOROkM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQ3z6oxNheo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=co5Zo6Ng9-c
I'M BAAAACK
Posted 9 years agoYour all probably wondering what I mean by that. Well to be blunt, been in the hospital since last Monday (Aug 8th), and I just got the go-ahead to go home. I know I should have made a journal to state I'll be disappearing for a while, but in my defense:
A) My first day was due to an emergency visit, in which they discovered through x-rays and a CT Scan that my colon had a nasty blockage (likely due to inflammation from my Crohn's) that needed to be removed stat.
And B) I don't have a tablet, so I would not have been able to make this journal. Unless I used my smartphone, but texting sucks balls >:c
Anyways, not only they had to remove the blockage, but since they had to remove over a foot of colon, they also performed an ileostomy, so now I have a stoma. (I'm not going to describe what those two are, so you're more than welcome to Google it)
So, yeah, it is so good to be back home, and eating as well. I wasn't allowed to eat ANYTHING during most of my stay there and was only allowed to three days ago.
A) My first day was due to an emergency visit, in which they discovered through x-rays and a CT Scan that my colon had a nasty blockage (likely due to inflammation from my Crohn's) that needed to be removed stat.
And B) I don't have a tablet, so I would not have been able to make this journal. Unless I used my smartphone, but texting sucks balls >:c
Anyways, not only they had to remove the blockage, but since they had to remove over a foot of colon, they also performed an ileostomy, so now I have a stoma. (I'm not going to describe what those two are, so you're more than welcome to Google it)
So, yeah, it is so good to be back home, and eating as well. I wasn't allowed to eat ANYTHING during most of my stay there and was only allowed to three days ago.
An eventful summer!
Posted 9 years agoBeen quite an eventful summer.
First, got something that made me sick for a few weeks, which mainly consisted of me vomiting non-stop for two days, and after that I only vomited periodically. So naturally I went to the family doctor, and when I described the contents of the last vomit before the visit, she suggested I go to the emergency room and get an endoscopy asap. Needless to say, I spent an entire day two Wednesday's ago at the hospital having bloodwork checked, and after they found nothing wrong, they sent me home.
Of course, I got my endoscopy this past Monday, though I still haven't gotten the results. Hopefully it isn't serious, but unfortunately I still feel queasy and have a slight urge to vomit when I eat foods, so my appetite has been greatly diminished.
But other than that, my summer has been fantastic so far :D
First, got something that made me sick for a few weeks, which mainly consisted of me vomiting non-stop for two days, and after that I only vomited periodically. So naturally I went to the family doctor, and when I described the contents of the last vomit before the visit, she suggested I go to the emergency room and get an endoscopy asap. Needless to say, I spent an entire day two Wednesday's ago at the hospital having bloodwork checked, and after they found nothing wrong, they sent me home.
Of course, I got my endoscopy this past Monday, though I still haven't gotten the results. Hopefully it isn't serious, but unfortunately I still feel queasy and have a slight urge to vomit when I eat foods, so my appetite has been greatly diminished.
But other than that, my summer has been fantastic so far :D
Happy birthday to me
Posted 9 years agoYep, I turned 24 today, huzzah :D
Super Mario Maker Levels
Posted 10 years agoWell, I might as well make an official listing of my Mario Maker Levels if anyone wants to play them, will update this as I make new ones.
My Mario Maker Levels
Hop Scotch= 89F9-0000-0078-F25E
Waluigi’s Money Problems= F7A6-0000-00D1-35BF
Where Koopas Go When They Die? = 7523-0000-0095-A442
My Mario Maker 2 Levels
Sky Hop: 80C-M3M-XXG
My Mario Maker Levels
Hop Scotch= 89F9-0000-0078-F25E
Waluigi’s Money Problems= F7A6-0000-00D1-35BF
Where Koopas Go When They Die? = 7523-0000-0095-A442
My Mario Maker 2 Levels
Sky Hop: 80C-M3M-XXG
Been thinking on making a major change on my fursona.
Posted 10 years agoYeah, my friends have been talking to me about this for quite a while now. Basically; the discussion is ditching the shapeshifting aspect of Ace Kenshader and having him stick to one form.
I already decided that I consider my human form to be my main form, and would prefer to be that from now on. But I have also been getting a lot of comments from other friends suggesting that I should go with my other forms. There's also the idea of having my other forms be made into completely new characters, which is a possibility.
The reason why many think I should ditch the shapeshifting aspect is simple: It wouldn't give people a familiar face to grow on. With shapeshifting I would be unable to develop an identity that my friends and everyone else would recognize, like switching fursonas/characters on a regular basis.
Either way, what do you all think of this?
I already decided that I consider my human form to be my main form, and would prefer to be that from now on. But I have also been getting a lot of comments from other friends suggesting that I should go with my other forms. There's also the idea of having my other forms be made into completely new characters, which is a possibility.
The reason why many think I should ditch the shapeshifting aspect is simple: It wouldn't give people a familiar face to grow on. With shapeshifting I would be unable to develop an identity that my friends and everyone else would recognize, like switching fursonas/characters on a regular basis.
Either way, what do you all think of this?
Happy birthday to me
Posted 10 years agoYay, I'm now 23. Huzzah :D
R.I.P.
Posted 11 years agoFuck... Where do I begin. I found out through
arthro that our good friend
sebastiannightingale has passed away, he crashed into an oak tree after being cut off by some teenage twats and died instantaneously. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6180597/
I know I haven't chatted to him in a long while since I have just started university, but still this... This really hurts.... But I don't want you to give me condolences, as I don't need them as much as
kisach , Sebastian's girlfriend and also a good friend of mine.
She needs the support to get through this, so give all your love and support to her as she will need it to get through this.
R.I.P. Sebastian
You were taken away too soon, you damn bastard .-.;


I know I haven't chatted to him in a long while since I have just started university, but still this... This really hurts.... But I don't want you to give me condolences, as I don't need them as much as

She needs the support to get through this, so give all your love and support to her as she will need it to get through this.
R.I.P. Sebastian
You were taken away too soon, you damn bastard .-.;
Officially 22 now
Posted 11 years agoYeah; today is my birthday, huzzah 'c'.
Well this is nice
Posted 12 years agoNot nice in the positive sense. After some blood work, my gastroenterologist and I now finally realize why the Remicade has been doing squat; and the simple answer is... Me.
Seems as though my body has been making huge quantities of anti bodies that are basically destroying the Remicade before it has any effect on my Crohn's. In fact my physician said he has never seen levels this high before. Hooray? So now basically we are back at square one on getting new medication; what he perscribed for me are essentially two things, Humira and Methotrixate (or however it is spelled.) The Humira is basically another variation of the Remicade; I'm sure many of you have seen the commercials for this stuff on TV, but to sum it up unlike the Remicade I can get the stuff by home, it's sort of like insulin where you basically stick a needle in yourself and inject the required dosage into your body. I am pretty sure I can handle stabbing myself every two weeks from now since I've gotten use to being poked and prodded; but many of you are likely asking "What if the anti-bodies destroy the Humira as well?", well that's where the Methotrixate comes in. Essentially I'm going to be taking this stuff weekly to make sure my body doesn't produce anymore anti-bodies; so I do hope this combo works because this is now reaching frustration levels.
Seems as though my body has been making huge quantities of anti bodies that are basically destroying the Remicade before it has any effect on my Crohn's. In fact my physician said he has never seen levels this high before. Hooray? So now basically we are back at square one on getting new medication; what he perscribed for me are essentially two things, Humira and Methotrixate (or however it is spelled.) The Humira is basically another variation of the Remicade; I'm sure many of you have seen the commercials for this stuff on TV, but to sum it up unlike the Remicade I can get the stuff by home, it's sort of like insulin where you basically stick a needle in yourself and inject the required dosage into your body. I am pretty sure I can handle stabbing myself every two weeks from now since I've gotten use to being poked and prodded; but many of you are likely asking "What if the anti-bodies destroy the Humira as well?", well that's where the Methotrixate comes in. Essentially I'm going to be taking this stuff weekly to make sure my body doesn't produce anymore anti-bodies; so I do hope this combo works because this is now reaching frustration levels.
Well the colonoscopy results came back (Update)
Posted 12 years agoYeah, I had to get one over a week ago, let me tell you the preparation is much worse then the procedure itself. Anyways, the gist of the result is this: It's very bad.
Over half of my colon is inflamed, so my Remicade treatment is not working for some reason anymore; and getting surgery to remove the inflamed parts is -according to my Gastroenterologist- one of the worst options on the table, because since they will be basically be removing about close to 60% of it, I would basically be required to get an Ileostomy. And for those that don't know, trust me it is not something many people would want. So right now they are going to be increasing the Remicade dosage and add some more medication that requires a strict procedure of taking six tablets once a week on a single day, and that it's critical that it has to be on the same day as my doctor told me. Right now I'm taking antibiotics for two weeks, but on thursday I'll be on the new strict medication.
So with all that for me to go through, it would make sense for me to feel pretty damn helpless and hopeless all bundled up into one depressing package. I am quite mentally at the end of my rope with my Crohn's, I just feel like that my body does not want to get better and wants me to die at a very early age. Very harsh, but this is how I honestly feel about all this right now, and myself.
Update: Oh you got to be kidding me---- Well, you would think that getting news like this, something good was going to happen in the end... But in this case, I think god really wants to spite me with utter bad luck, and on the same day no doubt. First off, one of my dogs, a Bouvier De Flanders named Ruby, is currently at a 24 hour animal care centre being forced to vomit, because somehow she managed to get her paws on very deadly rat poison that act like blood thinners. I don't know how someone left it out in the open since it was kept in a container with some other stuff, but she potentially might have eaten some of the poison cubes, and we have to pay 375 bucks for the entire thing. And on top of that, the motherboard of my laptop officially went kaput, so I have to send it off to the manufacturer to have my laptop get repaired, so it'll cost another 375 bucks. So because of this, our family has to dish out over half of a $1,000 for this week alone. It just boggles my mind how I managed to get all of this happen to me in one week alone, a month I can understand, but this... Ugh, I can't help but think I might have done something in a past life that really pissed off god in some way, and now he's taking his vengeance out on me.
Over half of my colon is inflamed, so my Remicade treatment is not working for some reason anymore; and getting surgery to remove the inflamed parts is -according to my Gastroenterologist- one of the worst options on the table, because since they will be basically be removing about close to 60% of it, I would basically be required to get an Ileostomy. And for those that don't know, trust me it is not something many people would want. So right now they are going to be increasing the Remicade dosage and add some more medication that requires a strict procedure of taking six tablets once a week on a single day, and that it's critical that it has to be on the same day as my doctor told me. Right now I'm taking antibiotics for two weeks, but on thursday I'll be on the new strict medication.
So with all that for me to go through, it would make sense for me to feel pretty damn helpless and hopeless all bundled up into one depressing package. I am quite mentally at the end of my rope with my Crohn's, I just feel like that my body does not want to get better and wants me to die at a very early age. Very harsh, but this is how I honestly feel about all this right now, and myself.
Update: Oh you got to be kidding me---- Well, you would think that getting news like this, something good was going to happen in the end... But in this case, I think god really wants to spite me with utter bad luck, and on the same day no doubt. First off, one of my dogs, a Bouvier De Flanders named Ruby, is currently at a 24 hour animal care centre being forced to vomit, because somehow she managed to get her paws on very deadly rat poison that act like blood thinners. I don't know how someone left it out in the open since it was kept in a container with some other stuff, but she potentially might have eaten some of the poison cubes, and we have to pay 375 bucks for the entire thing. And on top of that, the motherboard of my laptop officially went kaput, so I have to send it off to the manufacturer to have my laptop get repaired, so it'll cost another 375 bucks. So because of this, our family has to dish out over half of a $1,000 for this week alone. It just boggles my mind how I managed to get all of this happen to me in one week alone, a month I can understand, but this... Ugh, I can't help but think I might have done something in a past life that really pissed off god in some way, and now he's taking his vengeance out on me.
God damn this x-x
Posted 12 years agoI think it is safe to say that this year has been quite the shittiest for me based on the last few months. My Crohn's has basically gone the downward spiral route, with my scar tissue feeling a lot more inflamed then usual and giving me bad cramps, not to mention having a lot of trouble doing business in the bathroom. And if that was wasn't bad enough, now I got this awful super bug that made me sick all week, which includes vomiting, diarrhea, high fevers and not being able to eat much because I'm worried that will just come back up.
On Monday I'm going to see my gastroenterologist to talk about what I have been going through these last few months, and in all honesty I won't be surprised if I have to get surgery to remove the scar tissue, as I'm starting to think this bug has officially attached itself to that.
On Monday I'm going to see my gastroenterologist to talk about what I have been going through these last few months, and in all honesty I won't be surprised if I have to get surgery to remove the scar tissue, as I'm starting to think this bug has officially attached itself to that.
Now I'm officially 21
Posted 12 years agoHuzzah \o/
So now I'm back in school
Posted 12 years agoYes, I am fully aware that once again, I haven't even updated my journal for god knows how long, so sorry D:. So I should probably explain what in gods name happened since my last update? -except for that small journal update back in Sept bout my laptop's fan kicking the can-
Well, my grandpa passed away back in June. For the first few months back in 2012 his health was really starting to deteriate so in May whe he was starting to bleed from his rectum, we called an ambulance and have him be sent to the Pasqua hospital, where basically he passed away a month or so later. I can't say that I was really sad about him passing him away, as he was suffering in the final year before his death: not being able to see, too weak to get up and take a few steps to go to the bathroom, that sort of thing. I guess you can say that I am happy he is in a better place now as he is no longer suffering . Of course the same can't be said for grandma; while her physical health was doing alright, her mental health was basicaly spiralling out of control; she called me a thief for stealing money from her and grandpa based on bank records she had with her that are nearly TEN YEARS OLD XD. Not only that, with her teaching her pet dog Sammy all the wrong things and being rather abusive towards him, yet also loving him and doting him, the dog was really becoming a hassle and was wearing my dad's patience thin. The straw that broke the camel's back happened around September. Ruby and Sammy got into a fight with grandma in the crossfire, and had her finger severely cut from the teeth of one of the dogs; which I'm still not sure who managed to do that. A couple of days later, Dad caught Sammy peeing on the floor and was not very happy; so he grabbed Sammy while he was in the middle of his peeing session and severely bit Dad's hand. Of course this resulted in a nasty spat between Grandma and Dad, and seeing as she has become too much for us to care for her, we called an ambulance to have her be treated, as that cut was really infected now. As for Sammy, well since Dad never liked Sammy to begin with; we were really close to sending him to the humane society to have somebody else take care of him, but we -mainly me, mom and my older sister Justine- managed to convince him to allow us to keep him. In return though, he have to refom him to be a properly behaved dog. So far, it has been an uphill battle, but thankfully we are making progress, and since we now found a retirement home for Grandma to stay in that can treat her Alzheimer's, her bad influence won't effect Sammy anymore o:
As for anything else going on, well I am now officially went back to school in Sept after nearly two years on a sick leave. This sort of public school is basically an "Adult School", where adults who had to miss school due to a variety come to get the credits they need to graduate and get their high school diploma, and it's also for just recent immigrants who are too old to go to public high school. Right now I finished four out of the five classes needed for me to get my high school diploma and go to university, so it'll only be a couple of months left till I'm finally done O:.
As for anything else; well the christmas holiday was a blast, got a Wii U and a brand new smartphone; the Samsung Galaxy S III.~ I just love this thing.
Well, my grandpa passed away back in June. For the first few months back in 2012 his health was really starting to deteriate so in May whe he was starting to bleed from his rectum, we called an ambulance and have him be sent to the Pasqua hospital, where basically he passed away a month or so later. I can't say that I was really sad about him passing him away, as he was suffering in the final year before his death: not being able to see, too weak to get up and take a few steps to go to the bathroom, that sort of thing. I guess you can say that I am happy he is in a better place now as he is no longer suffering . Of course the same can't be said for grandma; while her physical health was doing alright, her mental health was basicaly spiralling out of control; she called me a thief for stealing money from her and grandpa based on bank records she had with her that are nearly TEN YEARS OLD XD. Not only that, with her teaching her pet dog Sammy all the wrong things and being rather abusive towards him, yet also loving him and doting him, the dog was really becoming a hassle and was wearing my dad's patience thin. The straw that broke the camel's back happened around September. Ruby and Sammy got into a fight with grandma in the crossfire, and had her finger severely cut from the teeth of one of the dogs; which I'm still not sure who managed to do that. A couple of days later, Dad caught Sammy peeing on the floor and was not very happy; so he grabbed Sammy while he was in the middle of his peeing session and severely bit Dad's hand. Of course this resulted in a nasty spat between Grandma and Dad, and seeing as she has become too much for us to care for her, we called an ambulance to have her be treated, as that cut was really infected now. As for Sammy, well since Dad never liked Sammy to begin with; we were really close to sending him to the humane society to have somebody else take care of him, but we -mainly me, mom and my older sister Justine- managed to convince him to allow us to keep him. In return though, he have to refom him to be a properly behaved dog. So far, it has been an uphill battle, but thankfully we are making progress, and since we now found a retirement home for Grandma to stay in that can treat her Alzheimer's, her bad influence won't effect Sammy anymore o:
As for anything else going on, well I am now officially went back to school in Sept after nearly two years on a sick leave. This sort of public school is basically an "Adult School", where adults who had to miss school due to a variety come to get the credits they need to graduate and get their high school diploma, and it's also for just recent immigrants who are too old to go to public high school. Right now I finished four out of the five classes needed for me to get my high school diploma and go to university, so it'll only be a couple of months left till I'm finally done O:.
As for anything else; well the christmas holiday was a blast, got a Wii U and a brand new smartphone; the Samsung Galaxy S III.~ I just love this thing.
May not be on much for most of September
Posted 13 years agoMy laptop's cooling fan is broken, and now Geek Squad has to send it back to the manufacturer to replace it and get it fixed.
... I'm starting to think there's something wrong with my laptop, my parents -which I am using right now- and my sisters are of the same model, yet they are working perfectly. What gives tech gods? :/
... I'm starting to think there's something wrong with my laptop, my parents -which I am using right now- and my sisters are of the same model, yet they are working perfectly. What gives tech gods? :/