Happy Easter, Jesus <3 <3

Let's all count our blessings and dwell on the innumerable blessings we've been giving, while being thankful for this day.

My fans, my freinds== you are all such an incredible, phenomenal gift, and I love ya. You help me keep on living.

Truly thank you for all the support during my dark times. It means a lot to me, and helps me feel the dark cloud lifting some.

Be safe, take care, be loved <3

Don't wanna go into details. Family thing happened, horrible stress and pain and illness.

I am gonna take a while longer to recover from shit. Notes are off cause my mental illness is BAD from things as well as body feeling like death. If I draw, I'll post; if I feel like chatting, I'll chat, who fucking knows at this point.

I am very tired. I'm going into super-survivor-if-I-can-mode now. Got to heal. Take care of yourselves and your bodies.

Due to the nightmare rollercoaster of my physical and emotional and psychological health and the horrendous issues it's caused me, the stupid things its caused me to do, and for the sake of trying to salvage what's left of my 'sanity', I'm doing another Clean Sweep and cancelling every free gift art I have taken on to the date of this journal, 1-15-2022.

There is nothing personal in any of this, and I apologize with all I've got for letting everyone down. I got myself overwhelmed again, and in my current state, it's vitally important that I take any and all pressure off of myself.

This time, at least, I'm learning from my mistakes and from the way things always go. From now on, I won't take anything on until I've finished the last gift I was doing. One at a time, whether I -- or anyone else-- likes it or not.
And I'll force myself to do less gifts, though that sucks because it's fun to.

I've got to make changes in myself now. I can't keep falling into the same cycle again and again, so it's time to do what I have to do, no matter how much I hate to.

Sorry for all the dismal crap. Sorry for letting people down. I don't think I realized just how bad of condition I'm actually in, until it crashed into my face like a tidal wave.

I'm going to do better, no matter what it takes....

Be safe out there, and put your health first; don't end up like me.

Please have a very safe and lovely Christmas, everyone. Remember to count your blessings and gifts; you are all one of the greatest blessings I've been given <3.

Thanks for all the support through my weird, dark, rough times, on my art and otherwise. I know I've been a mess and still am xDc. But, this mess named Hungo appreciates you, a lot.
I'm sorry for my failings and my mistakes, and I'll keep on trying to do better and better.

with love, Hungo~

Just wanted to apologize for the total flop of a stream I tried to do today, a bit ago.

I'm sorry for being grouchy and my snappiness, I really apologize deeply; that was NOT what I meant to be like or do; it swept over me like a tidal wave and now, everything is back into super darkness mode. I swear, before I started I was raring to go, I felt good and friendly and it truly felt like it was going to be a fun, good stream. THAT is what I wanted to give everyone....

But, my f'd up mind decided to throw its bipolar shift switch in the middle of it, and I went downhill fast.

I do not know why it happened. I have some suspicions, due to something really bad weighing heavily, heavily on my mind all morning. It didn't seem like it was having an affect on me, but of course, stream starts and KABOOM.

I expect I'll descend into garbage mood for a while now, so, probably back to isolation for me, soon. My life's been chaos and hell and more pain than I knew could exist for a few months now, and I am just recovering from an entire week of insomnia, where I didn't sleep at all. I want this all to stop so badly, I'm trying harder than I am capable of to fix myself, but... it's always super complicated and never works.

Again, I am sorry for the flop stream and my foul, grouchy mood. I'm going to strive to not let this happen again.

Man am I so weary of all this constant chaos and misery.......

My health , body and mind, is in much better shape now. Not perfect or great, but much better than it was, that's for sure x-x;.

I'm making changes to ensure my continued health. It's the way it has to be, I was being destroyed before. Even if it means cutting some people from my life or removing some from messengers, I'm not going to take bullshit treatment from people anymore.

I finally got over my PTSD enough and saw a Psychiatrist again, and I thank God that He gave me the courage to do so, as the medication she gave me is actually making a very large difference. It's not some instant miracle cure, but the benefits of it are extraordinary and FINALLY GAVE ME HOPE, after fifteen plus years of hopelessness.

I mostly only mention that part because I want to encourage anyone who is struggling with mental illness, depression, extreme anxiety attacks, racing thoughts and panic, insomnia, intrusive thoughts constantly in your mind continuing abuse that was done to you in the past, or just tearing you down however it can---- I VERY MUCH ENCOURAGE YOU TO SEEK PROPER HELP. There is no shame in it, and once you find the right psych and therapist for you, your life can completely change for the better. Even if it's scary and gives you panic and anxiety, just like it did me, to see one, they should understand that and be able to help you with it.

So, back to furryness: I'm trying to return to my usual nonstop artist self, make some changes, and am drawing a lot again. I've got a lot of plans in the works for comics that should prove quite fun.
I'll also be trying to stream a lot more often. I really enjoy it, it's fun to chill and hang out with people, all around just a good time.

I sincerely appreciate all the support I've been given by all of you, it means the world and helps me keep on going. I'm a broken record, but I don't care to repeat it again and again: Hungo loves you and values your support on my silly derpy artwork and my insane, messed up self <3
So thank you, from the depths of my heart.

I'll be around more! Be safe and care about eachother out there, and always count your blessings <3
---Hungo

My health is flaring up due to some personal reasons, and it is forcing me to avoid DIRECT social interaction. AGAIN.

Since the pain affects my mind and personality, I will be trying to not talk much until I'm feeling better.

So on messengers, notes (currently disabled them again until this spell is passed), streams I watch, don't expect much communication if any.
Remember, it's only because of my health; nobody did anything bad, or whatever. It's just my personal struggles and suffering, and I don't want to say anything out of line that hurts someone because of said struggles etc.

I'll still be trying to draw and post art. I do not know how it'll go. I managed to draw some today, but it is painful and slow going. I have to keep my mind occupied somehow, and drawing is pretty good for that.

SO. I'm being distant due to health reasons, but am not completely GONE or vanishing. Hopefully it won't take as long to recover this time.

Thanks always for the support <3 God Bless, be safe out there, and be kind to eachother!

--Hungo

I'm recovering now, feeling a bit better, so my "semi-hiatus" is ending. I'm not going to jump headfirst wildly into everything right away lol, but I'm easing back into it all.

So, there shall be more art and stuff.

Thanks for all the support <3 Be safe n take care!

Due to my health and pain, I am going to be kind-of taking a week or so off. I will probably still post art, if I'm able to make any, because drawing is quite literally 80% of every single day for me, and it helps keep my mind occupied.

Just in case-- DO NOT WORRY about me, it's nothing fatal, it's my chronic stuff massively flaring up.

I'm not going to be on messengers much or very talkative anywhere, on streams etc. I have to keep my stress levels as low as possible, and my stupid severe social anxiety means I need to isolate a lot.

So, that is what's going on with me right now. Thanks tons for all the support on my artwork and otherwise, it means a LOT to me; it helps keep me going, especially through the rough times.

Love you, God Bless, be safe out there!

--Hungo

Today, September 2nd, is my 34th birthday. And, as this month is my birthday month, I have dubbed it Jon Talbain Fan Month for a few years now. This is the month to make art of the sexy woofer, and just enjoy his kung-fu werewolf studly self!

AND The ultimate joke, once in my lifetime.... I'm 34 now, and Rule34 of Jon Talbain is my biggest thing.... xDc <3

Things are still very rough for me, but I am trying hard, and determined to get better. I'm still having to be distant and quiet most of the time; please know it is only because of my health and stress issues. I much appreciate and love all of you for your kindness and support throughout these years and tough times. It means the world to me, and it helps me keep going <3 THANK YOU!

I'm getting back into drawing regularly again, and have a lot to post if I can remember it all... as well as a lot of ideas to still create.

I'm choosing to be optimistic and hopeful instead of despairing now, and I'm going to hold onto this with all I've got. Focus on good things, blessings and happiness, from the tiniest thing to the largest. The more good you feed into your mind and soul, the less room there is for the bad. <3

Please stay safe out there, and know you are loved and appreciated!
God Bless,
Hungo

It is 8-8-2021, which is apparently Vore Day!!

So have a lovely noms-tastic day 83! Try vore for the first time, try drawing it! Vore your favorite wuff like Jon Talbain!

FILL THE BELLIES AND THE BALLSIES <3

So yeah, have fun and a great day :3

Things went good, a miracle, at an important appointment of mine today. So at least a few of my major problems should finally, FINALLY, be easing up. I feel like I can finally breathe again.

I've been distant and pretty vanished for a couple weeks; that was due to survival reasons, as a lot of serious stuff has been going on IRL for me, and I absolutely had to take time off/away. I am sorry to those who have worried about me, and I absolutely appreciate all of the caring, all of the support that people have given me, sometimes without even knowing it-- during my crisis time.

I should be able to start making and posting art again, and easing back into the social areas. I've finally learned that I absolutely *MUST* listen to my mental and physical health before anything else, which will actually cause everything social to get better. I won't be online as much on messengers, but I don't care, it's better than me going insane and making everyone else miserable as well as myself :D

There are a lot of terrible inevitables ahead of me particularly regarding my parents' health and how I will be impacted by it, but at least my life will be easier when the time comes to face them. I just have to stay strong.


In summary: I'm going to start doing the Hungo things again, but don't expect me to be an infinite energy art machine or a social butterfly :D. I'll be doing what I am comfortable doing <3.

Hungo loves you, God Bless, Be Safe
---J

Wishing everyone a very happy Easter~ Be safe and take care <3

After days and days of insomnia, last night at around 9pm or so, I finally fell asleep. I slept 7 to 8 hours at one time, which I never do. I feel a lot better.

Thank you all so much for all the support, prayers, and kind words. I appreciate all the art support too, so very much, it helps me keep going, to know that I create art that people enjoy <3

Thank you for everything. Stay strong, stay safe; things will get better.
God Bless <3
--Hungo

I was going to write it all out, all the details, but for now I have decided not to, and to keep it short.

Some extremely serious personal life issues and things I do not want to go into are happening now, involving my health and family, and just happened a few hours ago. I'm in extremely bad shape, and will have to be more distant still.

I'm going to keep TRYING. I'm going to try to draw and post things, I will go to streams, and if possible, I may try to stream again-- but a lot of 'somethings' are going on with me now, and I'm very messed up, in the most sugar coated, vague, nowhere-near-as-bad-as-the-truth way of saying it.

I just wanted to explain why I'm not responding to notes and messages, why I seem like I am 'ignoring' people; it's not my intention at all. There is just... a lot wrong with me and my life now, and I can't handle much; I'm always overwhelmed.

I'm sorry. I appreciate very greatly, all of the support and kindness and generosity from everyone. Please stay safe.

Just wanted to wish everyone a very safe and happy and amazingly delicious Christmas <3.
Thank you all so much for the priceless gift of your friendship, support, and kindness. Never forget that each and every one of you is a gift in yourself.

Take care, and God Bless --
Hungo

I just wanted to wish everyone a very happy, and very SAFE Thanksgiving, whether you celebrate it or not, please have a wonderful day.

I'm thankful for you all, for all the love and support you have given, and continue to give, me and my silly artwork <3. I've been going through some really tough times these past few months, so the support and love is extra EXTRA appreciated.
Thank you for being a reason for me to keep on going.

God Bless, and Hungo loves you lots~ <3

--Hungo.

Due to my mental and physical health problems, I unfortunately cannot take on any more Commissions, or anything that will cause me stress, until the end of the month. I really hate doing this, but I have to for my own wellbeing and sanity.

I'll still try to draw and post things, at least as much as I can manage. The big thing here is avoiding any and all forms of stress. Personal art and gift art don't cause me stress.

I really wanted to do a bunch of coms/ych's for Halloween, but it's just not going to happen. What I think I'll do instead, is in November, I'll do my Halloween stuff. Better late than never....

I very much appreciate everyone's support; every view, fave, comment, kind word, it all means a lot and helps me keep going, so thank you all very very much <3.
Hopefully this will be the last time I get this bad.

Love you all
---Hungo

Today, 9-2-2020, is my birthday. I am now 33 years old.

I never thought I'd live this long. But, in spite of all the innumerable struggles and catastrophes in my life this past year, I am glad, and thankful, that I'm still living.

I know I've been distant and not replying much, due to the struggles and problems in my personal life and health-- but I do want you all to know, that I love ya, and I really appreciate everything. Every view, comment, favorite, shout, every encouragement, and the patience with me and my psychotic problems.

I'm going to give it my all to make the next year better. I'll keep drawing as much as I can, and try to solve the issues that have been plaguing me for so long.

Thank you for everything. It means the world that you all like my silly, derpy artwork. <3

Be safe, stay awesome, God bless~
---Hungo.

I want it plainly known that I will NEVER, EVER allow ANYONE to use my creations, artwork, characters, or anything else in random writing, or in artwork without written permission.

I never allow my characters and creations and art to be used in writing that I don't create myself.

I only allow my characters to be drawn in commissions I personally purchase, art trades I do, or gift art -if- the person runs the idea by me first to make sure I'm okay with said picture's content, but even then it will only be of themes I am clearly alright with, based off my personal art gallery and its contents.

Please be aware that some people might try to use my characters and artwork in writing, art, or other things I am against, against my will and against my permission, illegally. I try my hardest to prevent this from happening, but in the end I can only control my own actions.

Thank you for reading, I felt the need to address this.

It came to my attention that someone was spreading lies that they used to render pictures for me/ be an "editor" for me.

This never has been and never will be true. I do all my work MYSELF, just as I always have.

So please be wary if anyone claims something like this.

I've also seen a lot of people ripping off my ideas, copying my work, etc., such as my Dumplings and Elemental Pinups. This is not okay, and I'm aware of you.

I'm tired of this crap.

I've had some awful things going on in my life, online and offline, and I have to sort them out. That's why I have been/am distant from social stuff like messengers, notes.

It's something extremely vital that I must do. And it's not going to be solved very soon, so until then, I won't be chatting too much.

I'll still be doing some art, because, well I don't really do much else and it is a coping mechanism and my biggest hobby.

I know some people have been worried, so I thought that I should say what's up, even though yes, I am being very vague for now.


Thank you for the love and support; I'm not up to replying much, but it does mean a lot to me.

Please stay safe and well.

Thanks to my evil family, I finally hit my true breaking point, and I'm in a really bad way psychologically, on top of getting really sick, so I'm turning some things off temporarily.

I might still post art if I draw it. I have to do something.

I do not know what else to say. Don't ask me for anything right now, please. I'm going to try to fix myself, but it's going to take some time.

Since this seems to be a common thing happening to a lot of people I know lately, I just want to say this: !!! Be wary of Impersonators/Fakes, Art theft, and even them selling it!! Some people have also been editing my art into things without my permission.

I know people on Instagram have been posting my work without permission and covering up the watermark aka Signature, already.

IN CASE OF AN IMPERSONATOR:

***Please note, I may add more to this list.***
The Places I Actively Use for my Art and Am:

1. # https://www.furaffinity.net/user/hungothenomster/ (obviously)
2. Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/HungotheNomster
3. Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/hungothenomster (mostly as a viewer atm)
4. Safe for Work Twitter: https://twitter.com/JJWolfofPain

The Places I Am but do not use very much:

1. Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~hungothenomster
2. Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/notime4fear
3. SoFurry: https://notime4fear.sofurry.com/
4. Deviantart: http://hungothenomster.deviantart.com/
5. Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/profile.ph.....00009307582403
6. F List: https://www.f-list.net/c/j%20callen/
7. Inkbunny: https://inkbunny.net/HungotheNomster
8. Furry Network: hungothenomster (I'm not sure exactly how to link my userpage from there or whatever yet)
9. Gurglr: https://gurglrvore.com/user/HungoTheNomster
10. Mugen Bara Treehouse: I'm HungotheNomster on here.
11. e621: I am HungotheNomster on here.
12. Pixiv: https://pixiv.me/user_ujee5235


***I do -NOT- use Instagram!!!!!***




If you see HungotheNomster somewhere not on this list, and are unsure if it's really me or not, please leave a comment on this Journal or note me here on FA and I can clarify if it's me or a fake.


I'm going to put a section at the bottom of this Journal to help others who are being impersonated, too. If I find out and get confirmation from the person directly that an issue is happening, I will put links they provide here, to help spread awareness and get it stopped.

I super appreciate everyone's support, knowing you guys have my back! It means the world to me, thank you<3~!

TO SPREAD AWARENESS/OTHER PEOPLE BEING IMPERSONATED:

1. My friend  xilver Read the details on his journal, here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9405064/

Last night, I ended up in such a dark emotional and psychological state that it got very terrifying and serious.

I realized a few things then, things that I had known for a long time, but that I had ignored, buried, and put off.

My physical health and chronic conditions and my extreme mental illness and psychological problems can't be ignored anymore. I have got to do some self care. I have got to listen to myself, and actually give a damn from now on. Even if it makes some people unhappy, disappointed, or even upset and angry. Why should I care about people like that, anyway?

In 2020, I'm going to have to make some big changes. I have to, so I'm going to. Whether those changes are visible or not, I can't really say; just know that they must, and are, going to be happening.


2019 was one of the worst years of my life so far, and trust me, that's REALLY saying something with my past. Almost nothing has worked out, and every day has seemed to bring some new horror, tragedy, mountain of stress, doubt, and fear. I've tried very hard to keep drawing, keep my chin up, stay positive, but that's just not possible now. I've got to face the truth and do something about it, about myself.

Due to my conditions and things that kept happening, I was barely able to touch the RGP Christmas Journal, and that really really bothered me. I feel like I let everyone down, and since something always happens when I try to do one, I have decided that I'm not going to do another one. At least not for a while. I might go to people privately and offer a Random Gift Pic now and then, but I'm sick of letting everyone down. That, and I actually heard that some people say I "rigged" my RGP Journals, which is literally impossible considering the whole idea is that I pick ideas I like and draw them.... like really, wtf xD?

Back on topic. To everyone who has enjoyed my artwork, supported me, listened to me rant and vent, been there for me, been a REAL friend: THANK YOU. It means the world to me and helps me keep going.


So in short, what does all this text mean?

* I'm still going to draw when I can and feel like it, will still post. It's too big a part of my daily life for me to stop, and I do not WANT to stop.

* I'll still try to do YCH's and a few Commissions when I feel up to it/can, because honestly, I need to. But I don't have any idea how often or when those things will happen.

* I'm probably not going to read many of my notes. Don't expect a reply. Notes stress me the hell out. If it's important, I'll bother, but otherwise I'm just too stressed and tired.

* There's a good chance I won't hang around messengers all that much. I will when I feel like it, when I feel like I can handle it.




So yeah. I had to get this out of me, needed to put it into words. I'm going to do my best to improve things, no matter what it takes.

Thank you for all the love and support. I hope you all have a lovely New Years, and that 2020 is a better year for us all.