Osama Bin Laden is dead...thats what the news says, pretty good eh? Now to see what direction this takes us in.

So ummm....pointless journal basically.
on a related note...
this is the best dated funny I have seen all week.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LqjE.....ure=grec_index

I've only met the thieves...

I've been working on art, fanart for my favourite bands(In Flames), and a abstract.
So I have been seeing signs lately, they seem like it to me anyways, foxes. I used to never see the little buggers but now I have just missed one driving from Wichita, from McPherson, ran on over by McPherson, and a third in McPherson again...these frizzling foxes are literally running across main street.

...but I digress...

I don't think I actually had a point to this journal...I am very tired.

the art wont get out of my head by itself,time to get back to doin.

I have missed so much, my inability to take action has failed me so many times...but, I need a fresh start. I'm isolated and don't know where or what to do exactly, with all my damned free time, maybe I could try to find some peoples, Its still a fresh year, maybe I should attend a con, work on some art, and keep up my writing.

I dunno, just thinkin' and typing, don't normally do this...cuz who the hell would even read this...

Holy shit, to watch Craig Ferguson and William Shatner talk to each other is like to easily exitable retarded children shouting at each other. its the most entertaining thing I have seen in a short while. highly recommended. XDDD
Any ideas where I could get good referencing materials for a Saint Bernard?...

unless you don't want to be...nah, your still a wolf =D

I have many arts to load, I simply have a local problem. My camera is missing and the scanner is nonfunctional at the moment.
So yeah, unfinished doodles, finished works are all waiting for the big upload. =D


On another topic, I saw Resident Evil: Afterlife. Damn fine movie, must watch first three for it to make much sense. I also got the feeling that they almost based it off the game and L4D. good show, good show.

Been listening to Sea Wolf recently, the song "Your a Wolf" it is really mellow, good band jolly good :P

I WILL DO THESE THINGS: recreated using  BlindFox

1. Respond with something random about you.
2. Tell you which colour you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what animal you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you.
6. Tell you my favourite thing about you.
7. Tell you my least favourite thing about you.
8. Challenge you to post this on your journal.

I may then end up randomly barking in public if someone find me offline (the quest is on)

p.s.
I live in Kansas ^-^

please :3 If I do not post my work within the next 5 days, I need some pestering to help my procrastination(because I'm so damned terrible with it)

thanks I hope ^^

...but that will change.

I got a new job, a little sales, moving, and repo XD I plan on spending some time this next week or so, posting some long overdo art...and I have one person in particular or whom I owe the finilized version of what I have been making for O say....the past four months. I posted a few pic during, but all else has been a no go, not motivation. Its time to bring out my dark style again, and possibly make something good ^^ Not that many people will see this...>.>...<.<...>.>...?

O yeah...lol, I still need to post my coloured version of  BlindFox. ^-^ lol, that is seriously an entertaining icon...or is that just me...^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=luVj.....p;feature=fvwp

O yeah, this is...ok

I am a person of passion, I need to do it when I am in the moment. Lately, thank God, I have been getting the greater desires to draw :D Since the last sketch I put up...I have made little to no have notable progress...but now I have become full of fresh ideas, and most supplies and am ready to go again.

By the way, if anyone watching would be interested in a request...I have been thinking of a *derp*retarded fox pushing a big red button(animated gif) I have tried, but am God awefull at computer creations without a tablet, and those cost about a couple hundred $$$

P.S. I just finally got my first paycheck today XDDDD

I feel like shit!

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Damn Kansas, if its not 100 degrees, its windy as hell, if not windy, its sunny...
All three of that today^^
I simply want a few days if cold rain and no wind, for a few days straight :3


So, I have been thinking.
My favourite top bands are "In Flames" "Rammstein" and "Ensiferum" and "modest mouse"
I love the rythom they carry, the beat the echo, the pulse and the landscapes that are painted with the beautifull coordination of the instruments

Rammstein is what is weird, I love the music, very haunting and it reverberates through my shull like a hammer on a bell, especially "Rosenrot"
All the music I listen to is involved with my thought ideas and beliefs, they are what help me understand. So translations help when listening to german lyrics, a song I like by them is as I found out, a very hardcore gay, guy on guy song...So I was like huh...As I still like the song, I thing it would probably not be appropriate to play loudly while driving down a street full of old mennonites that know German, Mann Gegen Mann---It used to sound like some sort of march when I first heard it XDD...

EDIT: Without music, I'm pretty sure I would be more comfused than I am now, music has brought me a sense of understanding, through the lyrics I have had many thoughts that revolve around pretty close to every topic, ok, now I need to find something to do^^
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Anyways, besides that random tidbit of info
I was late for work, and someone got fired, I can't help but feel like it was all my fault.
...DX

Just saw Daybreakers, not too bad of a movie if I do say so^^
Also with, Alice in wonderland, Enemy of the State, Men who stare at Gaots XDDD(Awesum)




My favourite song as of now is "zerstoren"-Rammstein followed by almost any song by In Flames...

I think I might post more....I did this for a reason, I am just not sure the reason is what I have typed...^^;
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....I need a girlfriend...

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But at least I feel something...

I have been thinking a lot, when I don't watch a movie, my mind is always churning, thoughts that quite literally touch on all subjects..

When will they make a good werewolf horror movie? I don't care if he is the hero/villian...I just want a good story, something to scare the crap out of me, few movies do that nowadays...and a good budget and acting. It must be too much too ask, as I have not really seen one that meets this criteria..:(

I still can't get my computer to work straight, I can't get my lats three drivers to install.

Now that the tornadoes are gone(for now) it is quite sunny, warm and freaking windy...I hate it.
I want to live somewhere that is damp, cool, and mostly cloudy, with a large forest XDD. Sure the sun reveals the beauty of the world but here, it is elm trees and wheat, with lots of wind...its always the same.

Lately I have been craving meat...red meat, steak, mostly steak...weird I know(lol it was a full moon couple of nights ago)
I don't know, I am updating my journal now cause I'm bored and it could use a bit of an update...if that what you call this^^

Wouldn't it be cool if we could manipulate our genetic code extensively...I would pay a fortune for that, and I hardly doubt I would be alone...

They would rue the day when werewolves ruled, but that sounds awesome to me ^_^

So I have not posted anything in a while, haven't even been on in hardly the last week.
As a result, I have been trying to reply to all these comments and replies, and posting my comments to peoples journals and submissions(there have been many hundreds ):)

Anyways, some fun happened since though, roommate bought an N64 XD with Super Smash Bros. XDDD
I just moved out from my dormroom, back to my house. I have hardly any room in which to sleep, I am still unpacking...

Just had a hailstorm last night, ran my car to out abandoned mink sheds, it gets real muddy down there...I was running full speed almost ran into a hackberry tree and slid on my knees for about 3-4 feet. dislocating my shoulder all the way :)
I fixed that problem easily, I could be a doctor XD. Shoulder still hurts though...

Also We have been given the gift of 2 new kittens from my cat that doesn't know how to die(9 years old already, and for a farm cat that is a very long time). I may even post some pics, one is white and yellow, named Noodles and the other is grey with dark grey splotches, named Alph.

Howl away!

I have been poushing through the shits that is surrounding my life, and all the while I have noticed I am getting more, not myself...I used to be content, happy...but now I am depressed, my thoughts are incredibly dark, ranging from thoughts that thoroughly question myself in EVERY aspect to some dark horror and mutilation. !^_^!
Anyways, I was at my house doing laundry when I found one of my old books, "First Year Latin" dang thing looks like it is at least 60-70 years old. I totally forgot I had this thing, now I can try to fullfill one of my dreams and break through my depressing and bleak outlook. Now I can try to teach myself Latin!! >.< XD

But yeah I have also had thoughts that bubbled down the complexities of human nature to simple things like desire and depravity...think about it, that seems to be all that powers us.

Myrambling is over, for now...I need to get back to homework now, or drawings, maybe I'll just stay in my little corner and think about things for a few more hours...I also had a neat Idea for a short story, it's horror.. :3

I have run into a snag, as I try to complete some sketch requests, I get struck down.
School is an eternal Bitch, I think I am caught up, then right before class is out I get handed a massive pile of homework, I may end up spending the rest of this weekend working on that damned homework...I have to write about 8 more pages for my inductive, I have no inspiration for it as well, or an idea of how to finish it, it is due in about a day. Then I have a ton of math homework to do, when I try to do then, it's like my mind just...stops...I signed for a tutor about a week and a half ago (I get the formulas but am retarded when applying them into a graph, vice a versa) and I have still not gotten a reply.
FUCK ME! this is building up to the point of devastation, I want to finish this but can't I want to do my sketches, but I can't finish my homework, I only have a half finished sketch that is supposed to be a fox but is starting to look more like a dragon...I am losing my inspiration, and possibly my mind, as I am getting sucked into all this art, and ideas...meh, that wouldn't be too bad.

I had commented on  deja-blu's journal, SO now its my turn at the crank, so to say XD

The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a free sketch.

--this will be the first time I've done a sketch for anyone other than me--

HOWEVER, in return, you must offer 10 free sketches in your own journal. If you've already done 10 Free Sketches (recently!) you still qualify, I don't think you should though if you are still in the middle of getting the previous 10 though ^_^ -- simply link the journal entry in your comment. Here's the thing:

1. In your comment, include a link to reference picture(s) of any character you want me to draw.

2. Only ONE character per person.

1. blindfox http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1300293/
2. CrazedSilverfox N/A
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If you fail to read and/or understand the statement above I will disregard your comment. I'll probably comment back or something but PLEASE READ IT. Times a wasting, well you time is...I have all time in the world. >3

I said yes to koldsteel so here it is, fill it out please and I will try to do the same, if I have not already...^_^

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink, what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain what/where.
09) Worst habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a pessimistic or optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What eye colour do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favorite and least favorite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

So I just came back from the Rocky Mountains, in Colorado. Very nice, spent 3 1/2 days at a cabin high up hiking and watching movies with some friends...Porky's is an amazing movie, if never seen, I would recommend it. Moved back into central Kansas now...-_-, what joy, unpredictable vast mountain ranges with fresh air, to flat prairie land...joy...

I had fun, but what is saddening is that we have spring break about a week before anyone else, ridiculous?

Still haven't been able to put much time into my drawings...more f'ed dreams though.

Anyone ever dream of being chased by a saber toothed tiger through your own house?
...I am not ready for class to start, only have less than 3 days.
*sadness*

I'm so tired, but I have so many more hours of need homework to finish.
Fuck me!
Damn food poisoning fucked me over and cant stannd up straight anymore.
Already almost fully flipped and attacked someone, damn nerves are so frayed...X(
Humanity is so simple, yet complex, yet tribal, imagine changing one detail in humanity, and watch time change. mouth to muzzle--what would be a kiss, a lick? how would we talk, sing, music-what would become of music...the last remnant that is keeping me sane right now.

Wheow, random thought/rant/curiousity...what if...I need to finish homework.

GHAA!!

So, I was involves in a pop bottle duel last night, lost the ability to use my thumb in the right hand and it feels like I broke my nose...We play games rough here...I did some random researching on the internet and started looking up the folklore about the legendary "Black Dogs" Which was something good to research, spirits of such that have large glowing eyes and fangs and claws, right before I go to bed...I slept for about an hour and then kept hearing noises coming from empty rooms, I checked.
Every time I tried to sleep I opened my eyes to the thought that there was going to be see a demon dog staring at me, smiling a "toothy" smile, across the room and face to face...I had this disturbed feeling for about a couple hours before I finally passed out at five-ish.
They were even in my dreams, I remember that much, and that I woke up, my shirt was soaked in sweat and my pillow was covered in drool...I really wish I would record myself one of these time, I am told I talk and fight in my sleep sometimes.
Well, that does it for my ranting for this moment.

At the rate my luck is goin...Ima go nuts. I'm about o finish up on all of my computer programming and guess what? The computer lab is locked, why would it be locked at 7:00, it normally is locked at 12:00...Anyways, I'm had to start from scratch, again, on most of my project, more fun time wasted...

By tomorrow, I hope to finally be caught up with math and computer...if the lab is unlocked, Skiddly Doo! ^/O;

If not, I may just snap, and never be heard from again except for distant rumors of some psycho that mauled his roommate, howled at the moon, and then disappeared into the wilderness...seriously, I have had some creepy dreams as of late...Apparently I have been mumbling and thrashing in my sleep. I really want to record one of these episodes.

I had the 'food poisoning' a couple of weeks ago, it was 3 1/2 days of hell...any ways, since then I have had a ton of built up homework, I work to tears on it nightly, but it just seems that the more I finish, the more homework there is...yesterday I had to skip my last class because I was about to flip, drawing lately has been a great focus for my frustrations, but as you can imagine, homework has taken priority as I don't want to drop out of college.

So what do I do when I take a break from suicidal homework, I either play Oblivion or check out my accounts on DA and here, the fresh work I see is lighthearted, or if not, just plain fascinating...I'm a little crazy I know...well, there's a nice little vent...more later...that's a guarantee. ^^

While I have been trying to get the pieces together for an Eastwood western pic, I have been listening to so much music...I basically draw while listening to music, and as from my last posts...My two last sketches were supposed to be a man pushing a stone up a hill, and the other was some sort of snake...that's not what they are anymore...I like'em for the most part, I just can't seem to draw the desired pic though...one of my posters just fell down...

I saw avatar again yesterday, still wonderfully beautiful to watch...Then I went to bed around 2 this morning and slept till 3 in the afternoon, had a crazy dream, around the lines of avatar, but with wolves, spirits, and werewolves....

I have a part of the dream in a request now. ^^
Thanks Bloodwriter!

Then I wake up to take a shower, I find a dead cat hanging in the shower...<(
Now I cant go around a door without imagining that cat...It was a prank on my floor from the girls in third floor...College...what a place.

I have been trying very hard to draw some artwork, it has been harder than I though so I am going back to what I do better, photos and a sketch pad. I need lots of time to practice on the computer. But today was great for pictures, even if my camera is a piece...I am glad to post something now, it'll be even better once I finish my sketch. So to those looking for my pics, so far they are frosty. More coming soon...I hope.