Very Late Update - Testicular Cancer
Posted a year agoHey all,
Been a minute, hasn't it? I do apologize for my quietness over the last few months...even with me peppering a few art uploads here and there, much hasn't been said.
Previously, on Alan's medical journey! The last you all heard from me, I was prepping for surgery. I had discovered a mass on my right testicle. Got that checked, which led to an ultrasound, and landed in the office with a urologist. Right then and there, a week before the surgery, they told me they had to consider the mass cancerous and remove my testicle...so I did that.
The biopsy came back a few days later, and I had a "malignant mixed germ cell tumor." We caught the cancer before it could get more aggressive than it already was. The margins came back negative, which meant that most of the cancer remained in the tumor and hadn't spread...at least a lot. Because some cancer had been discovered in my CT scan and my bloodwork.
So off I went to chemotherapy. which went from mid-January to mid-March. Let me tell you, this was rough. I'm used to getting meds all the time because I've always been the problem child, but this was a big challenge. Each cycle lasted 21 days, with the first Monday-Friday having back-to-back chemo infusions. Most infusion sessions were 4 or more hours long. Then the following Tuesday, and then the next Tuesday, I would get another infusion...luckily this only lasted an hour to two hours.
I had to do three cycles of that shit. On top of it, one of the chemo drugs, Bleomycin, has been known to cause lung toxicity. So, my lungs were monitored throughout chemo. Everything was fine until the very last infusion, which seems to be when the lung damage began.
Unfortunately, my lungs have taken a bit of a hit. My function is a little less functional, although I can still breathe just fine and do normal activities on my own. When I do more strenuous tasks, I do have to be very careful.
Now, I am currently on two months of Prednisone. Corticosteroids that should help heal the damage to my lungs. Here's hoping it all works out come August....
Now for the good news! I had a CT scan in May and got some bloodwork as well. Bloodwork came back normal/undetectable! The cancer is seemingly gone. The single lymph node the cancer spread to had shrunk in size...a normal one. Right now, my lungs are the only concern, with a few surveillance check-ups every two months for the next 6 months (I think?).
Despite the challenging nature of...whatever the fuck all this is, I had so much support, which is still very present as I settle down from all this excitement.
My wonderful boyfriend,
Nostson, has kept me grounded, along with too many friends to mention here. As I write this through welled-up tears, I realize that I am where I am supposed to be: surrounded by my furry family. Each and every one of you know who you are, and please know, that I love you all dearly. Whether you checked in on me every day or wished me well, you kept me going. You KEEP me going.
Anyway, this ended up a little longer than I was expecting. Please remember to take care of yourselves and hold your loved ones a lot closer. Please do not be afraid to get things looked at if you think something is up with your body. It could save your life.
Now, where did I put that rogaine...
-HG
Been a minute, hasn't it? I do apologize for my quietness over the last few months...even with me peppering a few art uploads here and there, much hasn't been said.
Previously, on Alan's medical journey! The last you all heard from me, I was prepping for surgery. I had discovered a mass on my right testicle. Got that checked, which led to an ultrasound, and landed in the office with a urologist. Right then and there, a week before the surgery, they told me they had to consider the mass cancerous and remove my testicle...so I did that.
The biopsy came back a few days later, and I had a "malignant mixed germ cell tumor." We caught the cancer before it could get more aggressive than it already was. The margins came back negative, which meant that most of the cancer remained in the tumor and hadn't spread...at least a lot. Because some cancer had been discovered in my CT scan and my bloodwork.
So off I went to chemotherapy. which went from mid-January to mid-March. Let me tell you, this was rough. I'm used to getting meds all the time because I've always been the problem child, but this was a big challenge. Each cycle lasted 21 days, with the first Monday-Friday having back-to-back chemo infusions. Most infusion sessions were 4 or more hours long. Then the following Tuesday, and then the next Tuesday, I would get another infusion...luckily this only lasted an hour to two hours.
I had to do three cycles of that shit. On top of it, one of the chemo drugs, Bleomycin, has been known to cause lung toxicity. So, my lungs were monitored throughout chemo. Everything was fine until the very last infusion, which seems to be when the lung damage began.
Unfortunately, my lungs have taken a bit of a hit. My function is a little less functional, although I can still breathe just fine and do normal activities on my own. When I do more strenuous tasks, I do have to be very careful.
Now, I am currently on two months of Prednisone. Corticosteroids that should help heal the damage to my lungs. Here's hoping it all works out come August....
Now for the good news! I had a CT scan in May and got some bloodwork as well. Bloodwork came back normal/undetectable! The cancer is seemingly gone. The single lymph node the cancer spread to had shrunk in size...a normal one. Right now, my lungs are the only concern, with a few surveillance check-ups every two months for the next 6 months (I think?).
Despite the challenging nature of...whatever the fuck all this is, I had so much support, which is still very present as I settle down from all this excitement.
My wonderful boyfriend,

Anyway, this ended up a little longer than I was expecting. Please remember to take care of yourselves and hold your loved ones a lot closer. Please do not be afraid to get things looked at if you think something is up with your body. It could save your life.
Now, where did I put that rogaine...
-HG
Life Update: Surgery
Posted 2 years agoHey everyone,
First off, I apologize for my quietness here on FA; I've been having some personal problems I've been dealing with, mental health-wise, that have kept me from being too active online. This is not what this journal is about.
I discovered there was a mass on my right testicle after a shower one day and got it checked with my general doc. He referred me to get an ultrasound, and when those results came back, I was referred to a urologist. She took a look at my scans and said that the mass is concerningly large that they have to remove it. They don't know if it's cancerous, but it has to be considered as such.
Sooooo, the surgery is on Thursday. My testicle will be removed permanently.
I'm doing my best to stay positive, but you can only be so positive when you are getting an organ removed. Still, though, I know I am a resilient Woosk, and I will be better in the end.
Thank you all for your support, especially my friends. Love you all 💙
First off, I apologize for my quietness here on FA; I've been having some personal problems I've been dealing with, mental health-wise, that have kept me from being too active online. This is not what this journal is about.
I discovered there was a mass on my right testicle after a shower one day and got it checked with my general doc. He referred me to get an ultrasound, and when those results came back, I was referred to a urologist. She took a look at my scans and said that the mass is concerningly large that they have to remove it. They don't know if it's cancerous, but it has to be considered as such.
Sooooo, the surgery is on Thursday. My testicle will be removed permanently.
I'm doing my best to stay positive, but you can only be so positive when you are getting an organ removed. Still, though, I know I am a resilient Woosk, and I will be better in the end.
Thank you all for your support, especially my friends. Love you all 💙
Is my birfday!
Posted 3 years agoI’ve leveled up today! Have work off and going to chill the heck out this weekend -3-
Love you all!!
Love you all!!
Check out Nostson’s Patreon!
Posted 3 years agoThis is honestly long overdue, but my wonderful boyfriend created a Patreon page!
He’ll be showcasing his writing there and you guys get to see all kinds of progress as stories are written! Better yet, you get all kinds of neat rewards, including access to finished stories before they are published publicly!
You can check him out here!
Much love,
-HG
He’ll be showcasing his writing there and you guys get to see all kinds of progress as stories are written! Better yet, you get all kinds of neat rewards, including access to finished stories before they are published publicly!
You can check him out here!
Much love,
-HG
My Itaku!
Posted 3 years agoHey y’all!
I joined Itaku. Still figuring it out and not entirely sure when I’m going to upload stuff there. But if you want to follow me in the meantime, go right ahead!
https://itaku.ee/profile/huskygym
Much love!
-HG
I joined Itaku. Still figuring it out and not entirely sure when I’m going to upload stuff there. But if you want to follow me in the meantime, go right ahead!
https://itaku.ee/profile/huskygym
Much love!
-HG
The Mass Exodus Has Begun
Posted 3 years agoObligatory journal entry about the migration from the bird app.
Hey y’all! Been a long while since I’ve posted any updates, since I’ve been posting more often on Twitter these days.
With the mass exodus that’s been going on, I feel I should become more active on here, or at least until the bird app completely sinks.
I’ll be uploading more content soon, so stay tuned for that! Might get into a little writing, so be on the lookout!
Personally, still hitting some bumps in the road along the way, but I’m starting to take the reins and start steering myself in a positive direction. It’s going to take a while, but I’ll get there eventually!
Sorry to end this so abruptly, just wanted to let y’all know I’m alive and will be making my way back!
Much love, Woosky out~💙
Hey y’all! Been a long while since I’ve posted any updates, since I’ve been posting more often on Twitter these days.
With the mass exodus that’s been going on, I feel I should become more active on here, or at least until the bird app completely sinks.
I’ll be uploading more content soon, so stay tuned for that! Might get into a little writing, so be on the lookout!
Personally, still hitting some bumps in the road along the way, but I’m starting to take the reins and start steering myself in a positive direction. It’s going to take a while, but I’ll get there eventually!
Sorry to end this so abruptly, just wanted to let y’all know I’m alive and will be making my way back!
Much love, Woosky out~💙
Figured I’d give an update
Posted 4 years agoHey everyone, it’s been a while since I communicated with y’all and gave an update.
I apologize if that last journal was a bit worrying. I have been feeling the same still, though I lot of it is now easily ignored. I do still suffer from mental health crises every now and again, but overall I’m still not all right.
I’m all done with school until I start up again in the fall of this year and I’m working right now. Luckily, I have a possible new position that will pay more, which will mean more art. This will mean I will have less free time if I get the job.
I’m slowly trying to improve myself and hopefully I will see it this year, but I guess I’m still in a bad mental rut for now.
Have a good one everybody and thanks to all my recent watchers. You all mean a lot to me ^^
- HG
I apologize if that last journal was a bit worrying. I have been feeling the same still, though I lot of it is now easily ignored. I do still suffer from mental health crises every now and again, but overall I’m still not all right.
I’m all done with school until I start up again in the fall of this year and I’m working right now. Luckily, I have a possible new position that will pay more, which will mean more art. This will mean I will have less free time if I get the job.
I’m slowly trying to improve myself and hopefully I will see it this year, but I guess I’m still in a bad mental rut for now.
Have a good one everybody and thanks to all my recent watchers. You all mean a lot to me ^^
- HG
Just a Quick Mental Health Update
Posted 4 years agoHey everyone, thank you for reading this journal, I really appreciate it. I recently hit 1,000 watchers and I am so grateful for every one of you. I hope you’re all safe and doing well.
Unfortunately, I seem to be hitting a bit of a rough patch regarding my mental health. School has been a drag, work is just getting stressful and my supervisor is noting I’m declining in performance. I dunno, just being locked down, working at home, not having many people to talk with, and doing a lot of school work has been taking a toll on me. Don’t even get me started on my sleep schedule...I’ll just say that it’s bad.
My irl friends don’t visit much anymore since I’m more at risk for the virus. It’s good they’re doing that to look out for me and make sure I’m safe. Unfortunately a lot of people don’t talk to me on Telegram or just leave me on read and I just kinda sit there in silence awaiting a response.
I’m not doing well. I’m trying to work on it...life sucks.
Unfortunately, I seem to be hitting a bit of a rough patch regarding my mental health. School has been a drag, work is just getting stressful and my supervisor is noting I’m declining in performance. I dunno, just being locked down, working at home, not having many people to talk with, and doing a lot of school work has been taking a toll on me. Don’t even get me started on my sleep schedule...I’ll just say that it’s bad.
My irl friends don’t visit much anymore since I’m more at risk for the virus. It’s good they’re doing that to look out for me and make sure I’m safe. Unfortunately a lot of people don’t talk to me on Telegram or just leave me on read and I just kinda sit there in silence awaiting a response.
I’m not doing well. I’m trying to work on it...life sucks.
About Notes
Posted 5 years agoHey all
So I've recently gotten a few notes from people and kinda want to make things clear. I don't use notes for communication that does not have anything to do with art. Simple "hi" messages or asking if I rp don't get any responses from me. My notes are only art related for commissions I do, commissions I get, or people who would like to art-trade (I'm closed for those atm). Please do not note me and refer to my Twitter or Telegram.
So I've recently gotten a few notes from people and kinda want to make things clear. I don't use notes for communication that does not have anything to do with art. Simple "hi" messages or asking if I rp don't get any responses from me. My notes are only art related for commissions I do, commissions I get, or people who would like to art-trade (I'm closed for those atm). Please do not note me and refer to my Twitter or Telegram.
Please unwatch me if...
Posted 5 years ago....you are a:
Racist
Homophobe
Xenophobe
Sexist
Misogynist
A Nazi or a Nazi sympathizer
and/or A Fascist.
Y'all should not be here either. Please leave.
Yes, I support the Black Lives Matter movement. If you have a problem with that too, you can leave.
Best,
HG
Racist
Homophobe
Xenophobe
Sexist
Misogynist
A Nazi or a Nazi sympathizer
and/or A Fascist.
Y'all should not be here either. Please leave.
Yes, I support the Black Lives Matter movement. If you have a problem with that too, you can leave.
Best,
HG
Health Update!!
Posted 5 years agoHey y'all! Long time, no see! Been about 6 months since I gave you all an update on my health! Last time I wrote a journal, I told you all that's been going on with me. I'm happy to report that I am MUCH better! Joint pain is GONE! Severe pains GONE! Constant bathroom breaks GONE! Basically my ulcerative colitis symptoms are non-existent. All thanks to Entyvio!
Since getting better, I have slowly started taking steps to resume doing art! Mostly been doing tracings (of my own art and commissions I've bought) to re-familiarize myself with drawing as it's been 2 years!
That's all from me. Have a great 2020 and stay safe out there!!!
HG
Since getting better, I have slowly started taking steps to resume doing art! Mostly been doing tracings (of my own art and commissions I've bought) to re-familiarize myself with drawing as it's been 2 years!
That's all from me. Have a great 2020 and stay safe out there!!!
HG
Quick Update
Posted 6 years agoHey all! I hope you guys are doing well. It's been like, nine months since I last updated you on how I'm doing and what I'm planning on doing.
Recovery
I haven't spoken too much about this but, as some of you know, I have a chronic illness known as ulcerative colitis. Basically it's a disease that can cause inflammation and ulcers in my colon that bleed and cause extreme pain/discomfort. Last October, it flared up after I ate a bunch of popcorn. The kernels scratched me up inside. This lead to me passing a lot of blood, which made me anemic, gave me a seriously bad fever, and made me bed/couch bound for months. I've been trying a bunch of medication, some not working at all. I tried a biologic called Humira, a steroid called Budesonide, another steroid called Prednisone, and one more biologic (which I'm on currently) called Entyvio. Prednisone has been making me feel better though, I cannot stay on it too long or it'll cause bad side effects in the long term. My ulcerative colitis has also caused awful joint pain, which is why I'm also on Prednisone while on Entyvio. I'm hoping to get off of prednisone and just stay on Entyvio, which will hopefully heal me. I'm getting better and hopefully it'll just get better and better.
Art and Life
I'm hopefully going to return to art this year. I'll start commissions if I return to art. I've been busy with this recovery, but also work and school. My work has been working with me while I recover and has put me on a temporary leave of absence. School is going a little rocky, because of this disease.
I also hit 800 watchers, so thank you all for that!
That's pretty much it. I hope you guys are having a wonderful year!
HG
Recovery
I haven't spoken too much about this but, as some of you know, I have a chronic illness known as ulcerative colitis. Basically it's a disease that can cause inflammation and ulcers in my colon that bleed and cause extreme pain/discomfort. Last October, it flared up after I ate a bunch of popcorn. The kernels scratched me up inside. This lead to me passing a lot of blood, which made me anemic, gave me a seriously bad fever, and made me bed/couch bound for months. I've been trying a bunch of medication, some not working at all. I tried a biologic called Humira, a steroid called Budesonide, another steroid called Prednisone, and one more biologic (which I'm on currently) called Entyvio. Prednisone has been making me feel better though, I cannot stay on it too long or it'll cause bad side effects in the long term. My ulcerative colitis has also caused awful joint pain, which is why I'm also on Prednisone while on Entyvio. I'm hoping to get off of prednisone and just stay on Entyvio, which will hopefully heal me. I'm getting better and hopefully it'll just get better and better.
Art and Life
I'm hopefully going to return to art this year. I'll start commissions if I return to art. I've been busy with this recovery, but also work and school. My work has been working with me while I recover and has put me on a temporary leave of absence. School is going a little rocky, because of this disease.
I also hit 800 watchers, so thank you all for that!
That's pretty much it. I hope you guys are having a wonderful year!
HG
Happy 2019
Posted 6 years agoI’m...well, a little late on this but uuuuhhh, happy 2019 y’all! I’m sorry for being so quiet these last few months. For those of you who don’t know, I have been dealing with a disease for the last few months. I have an autoimmune disease known as ulcerative colitis, which is inflammation inside the colon that can be triggered by food, stress/anxiety, medication, and many more. This disease has left me anemic, fatigued, sick, and weak. Luckily, my GI doctor has started me on some medications that seem to be helping, as I have started to feel my energy come back and my abdominal pains subside.
There isn’t much new with me that’s happened in the last few months, just that I’ve been going to school and working. I did have my birthday on the 7th of January, so I guess that’s one big change.
I’m not sure about drawing either as it’s been kinda hard to find the time and motivation to do so. I hope I can get something in this year since I didn’t do any art last year. I do plan on getting more commissions and pictures of Alan this year, so stay tuned for that ^^
Thanks for reading y’all!
There isn’t much new with me that’s happened in the last few months, just that I’ve been going to school and working. I did have my birthday on the 7th of January, so I guess that’s one big change.
I’m not sure about drawing either as it’s been kinda hard to find the time and motivation to do so. I hope I can get something in this year since I didn’t do any art last year. I do plan on getting more commissions and pictures of Alan this year, so stay tuned for that ^^
Thanks for reading y’all!
Depressed, tired, busy
Posted 7 years agoHey All,
I apologize for not getting any art of my own out this year. I’ve been very busy with this new job and now I have started another semester at school. I’ve been severely depressed these last few months and have had no motivation to do art whatsoever. The job and now school has just made me more tired, more busy, and even more depressed. I apologize again for not getting anything out this year...
Thanks to all that still stick around and enjoy my mediocre profile~
Peace,
HuskyGym
Edit: I apologize for being an unresponsive person on things like telegram and skype. I’ll try to do better...
I apologize for not getting any art of my own out this year. I’ve been very busy with this new job and now I have started another semester at school. I’ve been severely depressed these last few months and have had no motivation to do art whatsoever. The job and now school has just made me more tired, more busy, and even more depressed. I apologize again for not getting anything out this year...
Thanks to all that still stick around and enjoy my mediocre profile~
Peace,
HuskyGym
Edit: I apologize for being an unresponsive person on things like telegram and skype. I’ll try to do better...
Big & Muscular Anthros Telegram now has RP!
Posted 7 years agoHello all! My telegram group chat now allows RP! If anyone would be interested in joining, you may do so here! https://t.me/BigAndMuscularAnthros
New Job
Posted 7 years agoHey all! I apologize for being very quiet these last few months! I finished my spring 2018 semester and things got pretty busy because of finals. Since then, I have been job hunting for quite some time. I finally found one and got the job. My first day of training is tomorrow, so expect me to be pretty absent from things such as Telegram and Skype. The training goes all week, so I’ll be offline for the majority of the week, mostly during the first half of the day. I’ll be available for chatting at around 5:30 PM MDT, just in case y’all were curious.
As for progress on art...I haven’t done much. I’m hoping to get out some things during the summer since I have more free time. I might open up commissions again, when I feel I can handle them correctly because I haven’t been the best when it comes to drawing art in a reasonable amount of time for customers. Since I am getting this job, I will have money to get more commissions; pictures for myself, my boyfriend and I together, and maybe some with friends.
Thanks to all for sticking around. I apologize for being so quiet these last few months. I promise that I am alive XD
~HuskyGym
As for progress on art...I haven’t done much. I’m hoping to get out some things during the summer since I have more free time. I might open up commissions again, when I feel I can handle them correctly because I haven’t been the best when it comes to drawing art in a reasonable amount of time for customers. Since I am getting this job, I will have money to get more commissions; pictures for myself, my boyfriend and I together, and maybe some with friends.
Thanks to all for sticking around. I apologize for being so quiet these last few months. I promise that I am alive XD
~HuskyGym
Telegram Group Chat!
Posted 7 years agoJust posting another journal about my group chat: Big & Muscular Anthros
It’s an NSFW, 18+ group chat where you can share pictures, and chat with others all about muscular anthros.
Here is the join link, all you have to do is click it and you’re in!
https://t.me/BigAndMuscularAnthros
Rules are posted in the chat!
It’s an NSFW, 18+ group chat where you can share pictures, and chat with others all about muscular anthros.
Here is the join link, all you have to do is click it and you’re in!
https://t.me/BigAndMuscularAnthros
Rules are posted in the chat!
Another Year Older
Posted 8 years agoYup, today is my birthday. Kinda funny I get to celebrate it the day before I go back to University XD
I’ll try to make the best of it I guess x3
~HG
I’ll try to make the best of it I guess x3
~HG
New Year, New Updates
Posted 8 years agoHey everyone, I hope you all had a wonderful holiday break. I apologize for being really quiet for the past few months. I’ve been busy with school and...well, school really. I haven’t had much time to draw and hope I can get something done in 2018. I’m on winter break, so I should have some free time to draw. I’m also making some changes to Alan, as you’ll see soon, hopefully. He isn’t going through a major redesign but I like what I’m adding to him. He’s also a bit bigger, which is always good.
I don’t really have much more to say. I hope you’re all doing well and wish y’all a great 2018.
~HG
I don’t really have much more to say. I hope you’re all doing well and wish y’all a great 2018.
~HG
600 Watchers!
Posted 8 years agoI just noticed I hit 600! Thank you all so much for enjoying the stuff I post! I’m glad you like it!
New Telegram!
Posted 8 years agoToo many family members have been joining Telegram as of late. So I had to get a new number from a free texting app that gives you a number for free. I’ve already told a bunch of my contacts about the switch and most have added me back.
If you’d like to add me from now on, add HuskyGym
If you’d like to add me from now on, add HuskyGym
Coloring Commissions~
Posted 8 years agoI am now opening coloring commissions! If you need something colored, inked in or both, I can do it for you!
Inking, coloring, and shading - $15
Coloring and shading - $10
Coloring only - $8
Lines only - $5
Hit me up in notes if you’d like some art colored!
Inking, coloring, and shading - $15
Coloring and shading - $10
Coloring only - $8
Lines only - $5
Hit me up in notes if you’d like some art colored!
College tomorrow!
Posted 8 years agoHey all! Just a little update! I head off to college tomorrow! I’m a little nervous and stressed but, also very excited! I hope to get some personal art and commissions done soon! I’ll be a little busy but, I’m still accepting commissions. Those will really help me out in college because I’m...well...a college student and pretty much broke xD
I’ll still be active on Telegram and Skype. Classes end before 1 PM MDT so you may shoot me a message then...or any time, I’ll just take a while to respond if you message in the morning!
Anyways, love ya all and wish me luck!
HG
I’ll still be active on Telegram and Skype. Classes end before 1 PM MDT so you may shoot me a message then...or any time, I’ll just take a while to respond if you message in the morning!
Anyways, love ya all and wish me luck!
HG
Role Play Telegram Group Chat Open!
Posted 8 years agoI’ve started up a group that is a subgroup to my Big&MuscularAnthros group.
This one has a NSFW RP focus~
Here are the rules, read them before joining:
• Must be 18 and over to join this group. If younger, you will be removed
• No Political Arguments
• No Arguments in General
• No Excessive Image Posting. Only post reference pictures if asked
• English Only
• Males Only
• No Drama
• Please use grammar that is understandable to the users
• NSFW pictures of yourself are strictly prohibited
• Keep personal issues with other members private, we DO NOT want it here
• Anyone may join as long as they can follow these rules listed above
Role Play Rules:
• English only
• Casual RP is okay but, try to save it for the main chat
• Proper Grammar Required
• 2-4 (or more) sentences when engaging in role playing sessions
• No one word role play replies (unless you are greeting someone)
Invite link:
https://t.me/BigAndMuscularAnthrosRP
This one has a NSFW RP focus~
Here are the rules, read them before joining:
• Must be 18 and over to join this group. If younger, you will be removed
• No Political Arguments
• No Arguments in General
• No Excessive Image Posting. Only post reference pictures if asked
• English Only
• Males Only
• No Drama
• Please use grammar that is understandable to the users
• NSFW pictures of yourself are strictly prohibited
• Keep personal issues with other members private, we DO NOT want it here
• Anyone may join as long as they can follow these rules listed above
Role Play Rules:
• English only
• Casual RP is okay but, try to save it for the main chat
• Proper Grammar Required
• 2-4 (or more) sentences when engaging in role playing sessions
• No one word role play replies (unless you are greeting someone)
Invite link:
https://t.me/BigAndMuscularAnthrosRP
Commissions Opened~
Posted 8 years agoNow that I have a new iPad to draw on, I’m open to do some commissions~