...I got fired this past Saturday. -_- *BOOOOOOOOOM*

Yep. Crazy right? The reason given? "Rule #5: Complete Honesty", which is a load of bull.

Basically, for months now, I've been having trouble staying awake during the day, especially at work. Almost everyday, at LEAST 1 person(coworkers) asked "How ya doing?" or "Why do you look so tired?" I've always said the same thing, even to the managers: "I don't know why but I'm always sleepy when I'm here." "Well, did you sleep at all?" "Yes, only the 6 hours my body will allow me to."

During these same months, I would randomly pass out somewhere in the store for about an hour, mostly in the bathroom, as embarrassing as that is to admit. It wasn't a frequent thing. As tired as I was, I managed to stay awake most of the times. So, this past Thursday, I was to bring out some stock. I did was almost done too, but *flomp!*, I passed out again. This time, however, someone was looking for me during this time frame and who else it could have been but the GM himself. >_> I was found in that room by a coworker, who I'm sure told the GM where they found me. I woke up to my name being blasted on the intercom. I tried to get up, but could barely think, move, or anything.

Eventually I did, and the GM called me to his office. You could tell in his face he knew. As always, I told him everything I tell everyone else including him. 100% honesty. He said ok, "I'll deal with you next time you come to work." Rest of the day was a haze 'cause, again, I couldn't really think straight. Off that Friday & came in Saturday. 1st half of the day, never heard anything from the GM, then he randomly called me to his office in the middle of dealing w/ a customer w/ alot of crap. Called him and told him I'm w/ a customer, give me a sec. He agreed and hung up.

I knew something was gonna go down, but I would never have thought it would be this major. Most people in the store if there was a problem(unless it was theft) just had hours cut or something. It happened to a coworker/friend alot, being as he was late alot. But no, I get canned. I asked all 3 managers b4 I signed that paper what can I do to correct this being as this is(SERIOUSLY) the very 1st time I screwed up. Not one of them gave me an answer. I was walked out by the stock manager(the one I usually work with) and asked him one more time b4 I clocked out. "Mr. [name here], are you sure there isn't anything I could do? How many other times everyone else messed up and I'm getting fired for something I've been letting you guys know about for months now?" ...all he said was sorry & that it wasn't left up to him to decide it.

All I did for the rest of the day was sit in that parking lot for an hour or 2, went home, and started cleaning my room; trying to stay as calm as possible. And that was that.

Stuff on the side:

-- Fortunately, VERY fortunately, I was already thinking about leaving this job for better pay and cover my bills & in the application process w/ AT&T and passed the 1st test. Have another interview this coming Thursday.

-- No, Madre does NOT know yet. She will eventually. If I come back around w/ a bloody face or not at all....yea. >_>

-- Mentally, still can't believe how much bullshit this is.
-- Psychically, still always tired. Funny thing, I've been trying 5hour Energy to help me stay awake. Doesn't work for shit. ^^ I bought some Myio Energy as well so gonna try that. If it doesn't work, guess I'm immune to energy drinks. Lovely ain't it?
-- Emotionally, so ready to destroy something and not care what it is. Too much, too much shit try my limits and sanity & I fear what comes of when I finally break...

-- Everything else, fuck me. Some bills are coming up and I doubt they'll wait 2 weeks(if I land this job) for the payment. More depressed than usual. >_> ...but there is a slight motivation to it.

-- Imma open commissions again(but not today, although, it would be preferable). I feel a drive now to get shit done. And hey, I'm home alot now right? I can do this. I KNOW I can. Today, as well as the rest of the week, will consist of posting some doodles & such, working on comics & commission examples, and mentally preparing myself to ace this job screening. AT&T pay way more than my previous jobs so I MUST land this one.
--- 1st test, btw, was some easy math crap. I Aced+ all my math classes. If there is more like that, Iz as good as gold. Seriously, it wasn't that hard, yet half the people testing that day failed. ._.


That's all for now. Sunday, I didn't do anything. Just trying to get over it. You may continue w/ your lives and such, for I hope they are better than mine right now... Oh, and sorry for upload spamming today...which I haven't done yet so let's say I'm warning you of it. Alright? Good.

She getting her raffle on, a Ms  neko-maya she is. :D

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3509010/

Just 'cause I feel like sharing. Join if you will. :)

https://join.me/106-848-951

Hey what it do folk? Me? I'm fine. :)

I was wondering folk: I see plenty of Ask-Blogs for differently characters and such. Like alot of them recently. I swear they look fun and have been on my mind so I 'twas wondering if I made one, who to make it for & would anyone follow and such.

Basically, what I'm looking at is making one for(all drawn):

Daemon Blitz/Krieg(where Daemon and Krieg answers everything)
D'Blitz League(where you'll be able to ask a question to anyone in DBL)
or D'Bunny(where you can ask different things to Daemon, Krieg, Neidiki, and Lynn in D'B forme. Also, likely to be in comic form.)

Not only do I think these will be a fun, but it also get everyone the chance to know the characters more: past lives, likes/dislikes, etc.

I think its definitely a sweet idea and can definitely get me back into my art flow(which I seem to have lost in recent months... [i am ashamed]). What do you guys think?

So here' my deal:

-- 1st, yes, I'm calm and thinking straight again. Thank the madness. XD

-- 2nd, I'm changing the plan a bit and taking some advice from my good friend  ginpu on how to budget my food intake and such. So that will help with keeping up w/ every bill...almost. 'cause --

-- 3rd, even w/ the changes and I seriously don't wanna wanna do this, I may have to back out of Tommy's Kickstarter funding thing, being as I need to keep up w/ Madre's demands again. I may swallow whatever pride I have left and ask her to give me another week on it so I can 'cause really the Kickstarter is really important to me, more than w/e w/ Madre. So wish me luck on that one...

-- 3rd B, and yes I know Tommy's KS is INFINITELY over funded right now but I'm still proud to be apart of it. So thar! XP

-- 4th, Since I'm changing it around, I'll back off on finding a roommate for now, FOR NOW! I'm seriously still in the market for one so if you know anyone in the (West)Houston, Texas area that needs one, let me know! But with these extra cutbacks on spendage, I should still be able to meet all demands. (Car Note, Cell, Internet[which is used by everyone but so under-appreciated], Gas, Food, Madre's Demands)

-- 5th, So now I'm focusing on getting back into college and finding a new job. I love my coworkers and their strange ways, but I need more dinero. So once I find it, I'll have to say peace out to them. I'm already registered into HCC(Houston Community College), but I still need to enroll in some classes and such so I may make a stop over there by the campus and talk to everyone there so I can get some help w/ classes, financial aid, and a meningitis test. ...no seriously, they making us take a vaccine b4 enrolling. lol XD

-- 6th, Off day tomorrow but sorry, no streaming or anything. Gonna take the whole day to clean my room, head to HCC, and job search. With games in between to help my brain focus. (I still get distracted way too easily. -_-)

That's about everything so stay pwnage everyone and get'er done. XD

Stolen from  wrytergirl


Your Existing Situation

"Is stubborn and strong-willed, once his mind is made up it is impossible to change it. He does not ask for much, so he feels when he does ask his needs should be met."

Your Stress Sources

"Looking to stand out in the crowd and wanting to keep his rank and status. His current situation is irritating him because he can't seem to find anybody out there who values the same high standards he does. He is feeling isolated and wants to give in to his carnal urges, but can't bring himself to appear weak in the eyes of others. Wants others to see his unique qualities and character but can't stand to come off as needy, so instead he has an ""I don't care"" attitude and pushing people away. He turns his back on those who criticizes his behavior, but beneath his indifference is a person who is in desperate need of approval."

Your Restrained Characteristics

"His desire to avoid open conflict and tension forces him to put his desires on hold, even though he is feeling restrained and uneasy."

Current situations force him into compromise and placing his own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

Is bothered when his needs and desires are misunderstood and he feels there is no one to turn to or rely on. His self-centered attitude can cause him to be easily offended.

Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

"Wishes to live in a calm, peaceful, relaxing environment, where everyone gets along and there is a strong sense of belonging."

Your Actual Problem

"Wants to be valued and respected, seeks a close and peaceful relationship with a shared respect of each other."

Your Actual Problem #2

Disappointed because his hopes have not come to pass and he fears coming up with new goals will only lead to further disappointment. These conflicting emotions lead to a feeling of anxiety and depression. He tries to escape into a peaceful and calm relationship which offers encouragement and protection from further disappointment.

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.......this quiz makes me wanna say 'FU' and "Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity." makes me laugh. XD

.....but for the most part...yea, that's pretty much me. >_> (Black and Blue has betrayed me...)

Take la Color Quiz and see if a computer can figure you out. http://www.colorquiz.com/

coming your way. :) Join the fun.

Thanks to those who came. ^^

http://iamdablitz.deviantart.com/jo.....rted-301215374

Linked 'cause i used way too much HTML in it to convert it to FA HTML. ._. (and I'm being lazy XD)

Seriously, do it!! :D

That's right, pun and all. /shot

As the title says, I'm taking the day off of work. Whyz? I swear the reason is so random. I'm not sure what it is, but sometimes(not as of late months) when I 1st get up in the morning, my left leg would seriously start cramping up. I mean literally just as I'm waking up. Tumbling around in your bed in pain in not the best way to start your morning. :< After the 'WTF? AGAIN?!!' shock wore off and calmed down, I was able to force the pain away. (yes, there is a way to make cramps go away faster. :))

So now I have 1 bum leg right? Wrong. After I'm able to stand up again, my right arm/shoulder just 'AH FUCK!'. Now I'm down both 1 arm and a leg. ...where have I heard that b4?

Normally, I wouldn't call in, but I'd be useless w/ both an arm and a leg out of action. So here I am, watching Twitter and Tumblr be their crazy selves when I could be making pancakes.

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...WTF PANCAKES?!! O_O;; See ya losers!! XP *dashes off*

Today's stream will go forward as planned. Hope to see you guys thar. :)


Done for now, may continue later.

I've decided to cancel the stream for today, seeing as that:

1 -- After 2 hours, no one showed at the last.
2 -- No new commissions.
3 -- My depression is at an all time high.

I'll still be working on stuff, just in a very bored way. If anyone WANTS to see a stream, let me know and I may, if I'm on the 360 by then.

FFFirst off, The Avengers were fucking awesome!! :D Ze madness it had so much action in it, the edge of thine seat could barely hold thee!! XD (and b4 I spoil anything)Mark it, The Avengers is Blitz-Approved and a must see, with YOUR eyes, turn the damn volumes & surround sound up to max and let it suck you in worse than (spoiler censor).

....erhmm, this is so why I don't like to talk about anything. -.- ^^;

Anyway, I'm still planning on streaming and all that tomorrow. I really hope to see people there keeping me on track and such. If not for that reason, stick around anyway. You may learn something. :)


Current News:

Livestream Weekend - Click for more Details - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3425768/

Free Longitech CoD gear code up for grabs - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3417501/

I actually have another code from Raptr, for a game called Pandora Saga. Never heard of the game, but its a free new character code so yea. Want it, just ask.

I literally have a 4-day weekend with NOTHING to do (..well, I do have the car to clean out, room to clean, and projects to finish...) and I don't like to sit around just being bored.

Well, 1st, GO ME!! I completely need the R&R...although I doubt I'll be getting much of any. :(

Next, I plan on Livestreaming these next few days, cept tomorrow, Friday. Gonna be cleaning, gaming, and watching the Avengers!! :D So Saturday, Sunday, and Monday I will be streaming different things so be there to check to. Likely to be around 12 noon CST(1 EST and 10 PST).

Now, to add to the fun and to make sure I don't get too distracted, how about we make it so I get distracted in a productive way, hmm? You guys saw those new icons I submitted a while ago, right? of course ya did. ^^ Would you like one? That's right. I'll make you one for just $5(shaded and colored, the works). Sweet deal right? I'll even make you a chibi of any character you want for $5 as well. :D Yep, I will either make you an Iconic or a Chibi-fied cutie for just 5 bucks.

So, important-stuff recap:

-- The Avengers, going to see.
-- Livestreaming this entire weekend, I will be.
-- $5 Iconics or Chibi Comissions, I will be selling until the weekend is over.
-- (Iconics and Chibis will be 500x500, colored, shaded, and color-lined[if requested] & given a random background)
-- Send notes now if you wanna place your order ahead of time or you can during the livestream.
-- Payments only through Paypal.
-- All Icons and Chibis will be done in between current projects and all during livestreams.
-- There ARE other goodies, but you have to be at the livestream to find out. ;)

See you guys there Saturday and go watch the damn Avengers, why don't cha?!! :D

(Final Note: If you guys would spread this around, I would totally appreciate it. :3)

to anyone who wants it.

I won some kind of code from Raptr that gets me 60% off of some CoD gear from Longitech, a keyboard and/or a mouse. I really have no use for the code so I'm just giving it away. Depending on how many people actually want the thing, I'll either make a quick contest or find a random generator site and go from there.

The CoD Gear: http://www.logitech.com/en-us/searc.....modern+warfare

You MUST comment if you want the code. It expires at the end of June(long times away) but I'd rather give it away b4 then.

Good luck.

1st:

Couples raffle by  messymutt http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3382204/ Free, yes.


2nd:

DaemonXNeidiki forever!!! >:D .....erhmm, I mean, you like eggs, right? ^^;;  wrytergirl has plenty and selling them for $5 + more(stuff she's selling, that is)! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3376847/


3rd:

....wait, what was the 3rd? O_o ...o ya, my man,  mastergodai is 'freed' from employment and could use some 'stabilization' until he finds another, IF ya know what I mean? *nudge nudge* /shot
Anyway, he does both clean and adult art & is the genius artist behind the webcomic Rascals! :D If you wish not to commission him atm, he has donation driven comics as well! Check this dude out!!

Commission info: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3380212/
Rascals: http://rascals.petitesymphony.com/


4th:

I make such an excellent pimp. NOW WHERE'S MAH HAT?! >:C

Really journal that is. Sorry I haven't been answering anybody for a while. Stupid internet co. had an outage for a while, and thanks to that, lost sometime doing stuff. I'll be drilling through all these things today.

In other news:

1 more request left
Got bills to pay
Gotta get my car in for a check up today
and I'm not feeling so terrible today so hopefully the day is good throughout. Peace it.

Alright enough of that. I initiated the plan so...hopefully this works. As far as the rest of my requesters:

1:  giga-xisbass - Coloring - 85% done
2:  ktararamee - Inking - Starting soon
3:  akkeresu - Sketching - ASAP

See? Even w/ all this crap storming mah head, I still getz me work done! ;P

How is it...like remotely possible...to move on?

When the person you loved(not a fam member, bf/gf) breaks it off with you, wishing to be friends?
When the person they found another person to be with?
When the person's new bf/gf rubs it in your face that they stole what was once yours?
When that new bf/gf yells it publicly I was dumped by this person?
When that new bf/gf isn't sorry in the least?

How is it remotely FUCKING POSSIBLE to move on?!?!!!

...when you lost this person b4 you could even touch them?


...I've been trying for nearly a year now, about 9 months if you backwards, and I can't seem to. Nothing I try works. Nothing. It wasn't as bad at 1st. I mean I couldn't really breathe for the rest of that day 9 months ago, but I was fine that 1st month. Then this other person came into the picture and it just got worse. Worse to the point that what was just hate towards the new person, it evolved to hatred of the loved one, which they don't even deserve.

What am I supposed to do? I /see/ this loved one everyday, but they don't talk to me. Everything has been about this new person for a long time and I'm not sure how more mental torture I can take. Recently, this loved one tried to calm me down and told me "I need to move on." I know...I know this is true. I see and hear it all the damn time!! DX But how...how can I? I need to know how the hell can I move on when EVERYTHING REMINDS ME OF WHAT WE USED TO BE?! EVERYTHING REMINDS ME OF HIM!! *punches a table through a wall*

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...

...

...feh. I guess all I can do is keep hating, being jealous. My smart ass brain can't come up with anything else except what I refuse to do:


Completely cut myself off....from this loved one.

...I need answer quickly...before...I just can't take it anymore...and do something completely stupid...

.....a pointless fuss, argument, and fight. IMO yes, but the truth as well.

Earlier today I found a submission(now deleted) about the differences between Furry and Anthro body types. Normally, this is like 'whatever' to anyone or 'cool, i didn't know that. Thanks. :)' but the said reason the poster submitted the pic...is to prove the point that their(no name to be given) art/creations are solely Anthro, not Furry.

Now, to test their claim, I dug through their gallery, scraps too. What I found was what I thought. All types of art, primarily, BOTH Furry and Anthro art. This person was(likely still is) is raising the argument of this when they oblivious art on both 'sides of this spectrum. Why bring this up if you art both? Why deny what you draw? WHY waste your time even making this an argument? It is a pointless waste of your time, everyone who comment's time, even the people(like me) just passing by's time when you clear do both.

My only possible reasoning to even try to validate the point of this would be the argument(question really) that is "Are you Furry or Not?" which, many people, DO NOT wish and blatantly REFUSE to even to be considered a furry 'cause they don't accept them nor/or are afraid(IMO on the afraid part) and some people think what they draw is what they are(which is complete bullshit. I draw Pokemon, Anthros, Furries, Chibis, etc. Am I a chimera of all these things put together? HELL NO!! I am me! That's it.). Similar to this, people are scared to be considered gay/lesbian. People deny themselves 'cause they are afraid of what comes with it.

That's my take on the pointless argument and I close with this:

All Furries are Anthros. All Anthros are Furries. Why is this? Because, at the core of both types of art(which they are, TYPES of Art), they BOTH have a bit of HUMAN to them. No matter you try to deny, no matter what you say, no matter how many changes to the art you make to make it look different: IT. IS. ALL. THE. FUCKING. SAME! GET. OVER. IT!

I Thank You for your time.

~Blitzy

..wait that's not right...

Anyway, Haps Easter one more time I hope whatever your doing is very fun.

I know I'm having fun...

trolling DN w/ a Bunny Rabbit deck...

That somehow beat the Blue-Eyes White Dragon in a duel. XD

http://i.imgur.com/3OfSY.jpg http://i.imgur.com/SYjDS.jpg

Deck: http://i.imgur.com/xopEq.jpg

Happy Trolling Noobs-On-The-Interwebs, Easter Style!! XD

I will be on XBL pretty much all night. Been game deprived heavily since my TV burned out on me so I REALLY need some competitively fun gameage in thee b4 I freaky go crazy. If you have any of these games and feel like showing thee a good time or "kicking my butt(yea right)", leave me your GamerTag and I'll add you when I get home in about ...30 min to an hour. Cya online guys.


Super Street Fighter 4 (AE edition I have also)
Ultimate Marvel vs Capcom 3
Street Fighter X Tekken(renting this one again for a night or 2)
Gears of War 3
Call of Duty: Black Ops(...actually, I still need to find this one. :/)
BulletStorm