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Posted 4 years agoI'll post a journal detailing my absence soon. Take care, stay safe.
2020....
Posted 5 years ago .....that was really all I had to say. What a terrible year for many different reasons both abroad and at home. It was a year that found me coming off a severe depression from 2019 and offered me hope. My ex and I moved into a much better nicer home which has helped tremendously. I fell in love and tried so very very hard to improve my life and rise above the festering rut my life has been for so long. I tried for a very long time to get my job back at Walmart and after many long months of being strung along and given false hope after false hope......I have nothing to show for it. I also wound up getting my heart broken, but that was entirely my fault and I have no one but myself to blame. I blinded myself into thinking and hoping that there was more to something when there was not. I slipped into another depression where admittedly I found myself contemplating suicide once again as I had back in 2019 albeit not on as serious of a note as it was then. I then managed to fall in love once again, and was introduced to a group of furries that live locally here in my state. It seemed as if I had finally found some people to interact with and belong to. Predictably, it turned out to be the opposite and so far I seem to be on the road towards heartbreak once more. However I would not change any of this if I could because I am deeply grateful for knowing the fur I fell in love with earlier this year and I would not have met a certain someone else that I hold very dear to my heart if it were not for being introduced into that particular group. I have so much that I need to do and work on personally next year. Hopefully I can make it a better year for myself and for those I care deeply about. I have a back log of art that I have yet to upload. I would do it today but these pieces deserve some extra care and attention to them as far as coming up with a nice description to go along with them and I certainly do not feel up to that right now.
I also want to say that I deeply appreciate all the close friends I have gained this year. You all know who you are and you know that mommy loves ya <3.
I hope next year will be better for myself, those I love, and for anyone reading this. Try not to give up hope and keep following your heart.
Touch that fennec butt.
Posted 5 years ago
OwO
https://youtu.be/m7SPhxUZoxE
UwU
Meaning of a Name
Posted 5 years ago
When I finally stumbled upon the name Anen I had already gone through two other names for my fursona neither of which really worked for him. Anen sounded short simple and sweet and so I was extremely happy to settle upon it. However I did not know the meaning of the name and found my searches online to discover it rather fruitless. Ultimately, I decided to inquire about its meaning and origins from the highest authority that I as a member of the Kemetic Orthodoxy could think of: the Nisut (Pharaoh) herself. She told me that sadly the name actually is not Kemetic in origin. It is actually Mittanian in origin and Mitanni was an ancient nation in the region we now know as Turkey.
Sadly the true meaning of the name was somewhat uncertain because where it is written in hieroglyphs it is written strangely and is actually grammatically incorrect (typos X3). The name roughly translated means "Bringing Greatness To Us". I had also added -sunhotep at the end of the name which VERY roughly (or VERY loosely) translated means through peace (literal translation most likely is of or from peace). So Anen's name finally has a (again VERY loosely translated) meaning: "Bringing Greatness To Us Through Peace".
The correct pronunciation of the name is ah-NEN with an emphasis on the second syllable and the pronunciation of the later part is soon hotep. So ah-NEN soon hotep. However I have become used and accustomed to pronouncing it as A nen with an emphasis on the A as well as altering it from a short A to a long A sound so I don't mind how it is actually pronounced :3.
Thanks to Hekatawy Alexandros (Rev. Dr. Tamara L. Siuda) {AUS} for this information. It was greatly appreciated!
Social Media Breaks Extended Indefinitely
Posted 5 years ago On June 26th I went on a break on Telegram to try to clear my head and focus on personal matters. Unfortunately due to circumstances I had been pulled back on Telegram several times to provide assistance when it was needed as well as starting up my old Discord account. I feel as if my break was no break at all and so I am extending this to not only Telegram but Facebook, FA and potentially Discord as well. All but Discord will be indefinite and I will only respond to notes here or messages on Telegram from the artists I have commissioned.
I feel stretched thin, and honestly feel as if the help I have provided has helped or done very little. I do not know what else to say or do and I feel as if listening is not enough (even for ears as big as these *soft giggle*). I do not know when I will return, I just know I am tired, lonely and struggling with feeling useless right now.
I wish the best for all of you still. Mommy loves you and that will never change <3. Break From Telegram
Posted 5 years ago
This is to anyone who follows me and I talk with on Telegram. I have tried the best I can to be there for whomever needs it and I am sorry that I have to do this. I am not used to speaking with so many people on a daily basis nor am I used to people actually wanting my help. I have been a loner for such a long time that I had gotten comfortable being alone I guess. I love you all and wish the best for all of you. Some of you, the ones I am closest to call me Mommy. I thank you for it because that is what I strive to be, someone who will love you and be there for you through anything. Right now however I am not strong and I need to be for all of you. So I need some time alone to think and to get life straightened out. I love you all and only want you to be happy. <3 Telegram is going to be shut off on my pc and all notifications are going to be muted. No exceptions. Those of you who know me on FB can communicate with me there.
I am deeply sorry for this.
Mercury-King Cheap NSFW YCH.
Posted 5 years agoAn excellent YCH from an excellent artist. Only 6 dollars and comes with a variety of options to choose from!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36.....#cid:147529509
Check out the other open YCH's they have on their profile too! I have many examples of these in my own gallery.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36.....#cid:147529509
Check out the other open YCH's they have on their profile too! I have many examples of these in my own gallery.
Almost 100!
Posted 5 years agoWell well well. I never thought I would reach my first milestone but here I am! I may not be able to get art ready to celebrate it in time but I want to take this moment to thank all of you that have helped me get to this point. First and foremost I want to thank 
Rekkz for giving me the desire to even have a fursona in the first place and helping me with his design. Secondly 
MoodyFerret for my first high quality reference sheet and piece of art. Next I want to thank 
Blakenfen for my first piece establishing Anen as the mare he is *blushes*. Of course I wouldn't be this close at all if it weren't for every one of you that have watched me very recently. I have seen my watchers explode from like 40 or something to 70 only just a month ago and now I am sitting past 95. Thank you all!
Lastly but certainly not any less important, I want to thank my dear close friend
dragonzeye for helping me in my greatest time of need, picking me up where you found me and showing me all the places I could go and giving me the drive to actually GO there. I would not be here at all without you Bero <3.
Here's to the future! Here's to more content of Anensunhotep! And here's to all of you!
Thank you. <3
Rekkz for giving me the desire to even have a fursona in the first place and helping me with his design. Secondly 
MoodyFerret for my first high quality reference sheet and piece of art. Next I want to thank 
Blakenfen for my first piece establishing Anen as the mare he is *blushes*. Of course I wouldn't be this close at all if it weren't for every one of you that have watched me very recently. I have seen my watchers explode from like 40 or something to 70 only just a month ago and now I am sitting past 95. Thank you all!Lastly but certainly not any less important, I want to thank my dear close friend
dragonzeye for helping me in my greatest time of need, picking me up where you found me and showing me all the places I could go and giving me the drive to actually GO there. I would not be here at all without you Bero <3.Here's to the future! Here's to more content of Anensunhotep! And here's to all of you!
Thank you. <3
Don't let them go......
Posted 5 years agoFor many of us our fursona is either an extension of ourselves or a role model to look up to and try to achieve in some fashion. Anyway you slice it it all boils down to one thing: we identify with them and that identification resonates through every fiber of our being. Maybe mine feels to me as if he has his own palpable personality and makes his own decisions. Maybe you feel the same or differ entirely. Either way they are important to us.
But life kicks you around sometimes just a little too much and depression can set in and poison what once gave you hope or solace. This was my state of affairs in 2019 after I had lost my job in December the previous year. I had become depressed to the point of contemplating suicide; wanting to just put on my collar and hang myself by my leash, but happily somehow I made it out of that phase......yet another one just as bad followed.
Anen means the world to me. I couldn't now imagine getting rid of him for any reason save one (of which I know he would understand), but in my depressed state I considered that very thing and almost did so as well as deleting my FA account. I wasn't even going to give him away, just delete him from existence until one day after dragging myself out of bed and past all the beer bottles I ran across a song on YouTube that pierced right through me because it was as if Anen was speaking to me. The song was "We Are the People" by Empire of the Sun:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hN5X4kGhAtU
These words especially struck home:
"I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave me
But I know I try
Are you gonna leave me now
Can't you be believing now"
I could not stop crying when I heard this song and although it did not help me out of my depression entirely I did swear to never abandon him or forsake him. I ask anyone who reads this that has felt the same way or is feeling this currently, please give this song a listen and just hold on.
Don't let them go....
But life kicks you around sometimes just a little too much and depression can set in and poison what once gave you hope or solace. This was my state of affairs in 2019 after I had lost my job in December the previous year. I had become depressed to the point of contemplating suicide; wanting to just put on my collar and hang myself by my leash, but happily somehow I made it out of that phase......yet another one just as bad followed.
Anen means the world to me. I couldn't now imagine getting rid of him for any reason save one (of which I know he would understand), but in my depressed state I considered that very thing and almost did so as well as deleting my FA account. I wasn't even going to give him away, just delete him from existence until one day after dragging myself out of bed and past all the beer bottles I ran across a song on YouTube that pierced right through me because it was as if Anen was speaking to me. The song was "We Are the People" by Empire of the Sun:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hN5X4kGhAtU
These words especially struck home:
"I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave me
But I know I try
Are you gonna leave me now
Can't you be believing now"
I could not stop crying when I heard this song and although it did not help me out of my depression entirely I did swear to never abandon him or forsake him. I ask anyone who reads this that has felt the same way or is feeling this currently, please give this song a listen and just hold on.
Don't let them go....
Moving!
Posted 5 years agoMoving to a better house after the 15th! Real happy and excited but oh so stressed with packing. At least the house is literally next door, makes moving way easier ya think? ;P :3
Amunet Sunfire Sound Track (Youtube Playlist)
Posted 6 years ago I don't have the songs organized as I want them to be yet but I finally got around to putting this all together. Ever since I have had my fursona, there have been so many songs some I have loved for awhile and some new favorites that I feel I have listened to through his ears (some pretty big ears eh? heh :3) and that feel as if they have resonated and connected with him in a deep and profound manner. In effect this is a collection of songs that have had an impact on him throughout the more recent decades and centuries of his long life OR for songs like Vanilla Queen from Golden Earring describe him to a T or songs like Burn In Hell by Judas Priest greatly or single handedly inspired entire personas or story ideas for existing personas for him. I hope these songs have as much of an impact on you as they have for us.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....5sRvsDPMuOkvJ6
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....5sRvsDPMuOkvJ6
Back
Posted 6 years agoWell I'm back and at least out of my depression more or less. Just have to focus on getting my job back and just life stuff in general.
As for Amunet Sunfire, I will be working on redesigning him and will finally put some kind of rough draft story together for his backstory and set the stage for other characters within his universe. I don't know when I will be able to get any honest to goodness art going for him aside from a new ref sheet but I'll just have to see what this new year holds for myself and for him.
As for Amunet Sunfire, I will be working on redesigning him and will finally put some kind of rough draft story together for his backstory and set the stage for other characters within his universe. I don't know when I will be able to get any honest to goodness art going for him aside from a new ref sheet but I'll just have to see what this new year holds for myself and for him.
HIATUS
Posted 6 years agoEm Hotep all!
Unfortunately this character is on hold for the time being. I am in a very low rough spot in my life, am unemployed and am pretty much just depressed out of my mind. I just need time to get things in order and get back on track.
This character WILL come back tho I promise. He will be slightly redesigned but will remain practically the same.
-Senebty
Unfortunately this character is on hold for the time being. I am in a very low rough spot in my life, am unemployed and am pretty much just depressed out of my mind. I just need time to get things in order and get back on track.
This character WILL come back tho I promise. He will be slightly redesigned but will remain practically the same.
-Senebty
ETERNAL VIGILANT COMPANION
Posted 7 years agoBy Chris Ezell
I live in a world where nothing changes
No effort may slay the beast within.
There is no hope from above
Nor any promise from below.
Arms reach out from within
Reach out above and strangle hope
Reach out below and stumble resolve
Reach out betwixt and shackle strength.
Tears fall dry and silent from hollow eyes
Upon voiceless whispers whimpered into the night.
Does no one listen or can no one hear?
Look out upon this vast barren valley
Breathe in the vapors
Taste the rain.
Take a perilous step with broken sandals
Bask in the sun
Feel the pain.
Feel the crunch of sand beneath cracked weathered toes
Wander the desert
Circles again and again.
There is not much left within this hollow tomb
The candle of this soul gutters and shall burn no more.
A life wasted in remorse a future ruined with regret.
Body ravaged by gluttony
Mind starved by neglect
Fingers crushed without creativity
Heart putrefied by hate and anger.
I wander blind and fatigued
With a madness that silently and gleefully eviscerates.
All passion has bled from me
All joy has rotted away
Look out upon this vast barren valley
Breathe in the vapors
Taste the rain.
Take a perilous step with broken sandals
Bask in the sun
Feel the pain.
Feel the crunch of sand beneath cracked weathered toes
Wander the desert
Circles again and again.
I hear a voice calling out to me from ages bygone
A presence felt: ethereal, regal.
Faintly carried upon airless winds cold and stabbing
A voice that says:
Breathe a gentle sigh of relief
And carry your burden no more
Cast it upon my broad black back
And hoist yourself into my arms
Whisper your worries into my jackals ears
And let me bear you towards the light.
My child shall never be alone shall never be afraid shall never be naked
My child shall never be unloved shall never be thirsty shall never be cold
My child shall be free shall be whole shall be pure
My child shall be nourished shall be strong shall be vindicated
My child shall be
Reborn
I live in a world where nothing changes
No effort may slay the beast within.
There is no hope from above
Nor any promise from below.
Arms reach out from within
Reach out above and strangle hope
Reach out below and stumble resolve
Reach out betwixt and shackle strength.
Tears fall dry and silent from hollow eyes
Upon voiceless whispers whimpered into the night.
Does no one listen or can no one hear?
Look out upon this vast barren valley
Breathe in the vapors
Taste the rain.
Take a perilous step with broken sandals
Bask in the sun
Feel the pain.
Feel the crunch of sand beneath cracked weathered toes
Wander the desert
Circles again and again.
There is not much left within this hollow tomb
The candle of this soul gutters and shall burn no more.
A life wasted in remorse a future ruined with regret.
Body ravaged by gluttony
Mind starved by neglect
Fingers crushed without creativity
Heart putrefied by hate and anger.
I wander blind and fatigued
With a madness that silently and gleefully eviscerates.
All passion has bled from me
All joy has rotted away
Look out upon this vast barren valley
Breathe in the vapors
Taste the rain.
Take a perilous step with broken sandals
Bask in the sun
Feel the pain.
Feel the crunch of sand beneath cracked weathered toes
Wander the desert
Circles again and again.
I hear a voice calling out to me from ages bygone
A presence felt: ethereal, regal.
Faintly carried upon airless winds cold and stabbing
A voice that says:
Breathe a gentle sigh of relief
And carry your burden no more
Cast it upon my broad black back
And hoist yourself into my arms
Whisper your worries into my jackals ears
And let me bear you towards the light.
My child shall never be alone shall never be afraid shall never be naked
My child shall never be unloved shall never be thirsty shall never be cold
My child shall be free shall be whole shall be pure
My child shall be nourished shall be strong shall be vindicated
My child shall be
Reborn
BLAZE - Chris Ezell
Posted 8 years agoI have seen all that I shall ever need to see
In your eyes
I see a passion that smolders in their depths
One that never dies
I need only what you can give
From your heart
So give me a sunrise a glorious new day
And let this dream start
But let it be true
A dream set in reality
Of just me and you
Of the world in our hands and the stars at our feet
Laughing without a care
We have all we need
Right here in our hearts
We hold in our hands what is to us so precious
And when we let go
It all crumbles away
Now crying helplessly
Searching for what weve lost
Only to find it’s so far away
Observe now the worlds set between us
See the many paths that lead one astray
Follow them all day
Going in circles
We need to wake up now
From this dream turned lurid
But to wake from life is to die
And then forever apart will we be
Come now and find me
Take me far away
To a place new and free
I gaze into your eyes so deep
And I see verdant fields with flowers abundant
Running barefoot through early morning dew
Two kindred spirits
That blaze
Look to the sky!
We need to outshine the sun
Hurry now before the night falls
Hard and heavy.
Make me sing songs unwritten
Make me speak words unsung.
Just hold me tightly
Let the dream continue.
Carry on for eternity
Two kindred spirits
That blaze.
A single sun
Two now as one
Follow the horizon with your gaze.
Count the stars
And wander this maze
Together we are now
And as one we travel
We open our minds to higher understanding
What was without meaning
Now motivates us towards future bright
Let us build this world of ours
Observe our power observe our might
But forget not from where it all began
Years now have passed
And weve triumphed and weve failed
Weve known victory weve known defeat
Now our fire grows cool and wanes
Old and wrinkled
Tired but satisfied
Its time now to wake from this dream
And in a final blaze of glory
Shine brighter than any star ever born
One sun
Two as one
Disperse and expand
Into eternity
Hand in hand.
In your eyes
I see a passion that smolders in their depths
One that never dies
I need only what you can give
From your heart
So give me a sunrise a glorious new day
And let this dream start
But let it be true
A dream set in reality
Of just me and you
Of the world in our hands and the stars at our feet
Laughing without a care
We have all we need
Right here in our hearts
We hold in our hands what is to us so precious
And when we let go
It all crumbles away
Now crying helplessly
Searching for what weve lost
Only to find it’s so far away
Observe now the worlds set between us
See the many paths that lead one astray
Follow them all day
Going in circles
We need to wake up now
From this dream turned lurid
But to wake from life is to die
And then forever apart will we be
Come now and find me
Take me far away
To a place new and free
I gaze into your eyes so deep
And I see verdant fields with flowers abundant
Running barefoot through early morning dew
Two kindred spirits
That blaze
Look to the sky!
We need to outshine the sun
Hurry now before the night falls
Hard and heavy.
Make me sing songs unwritten
Make me speak words unsung.
Just hold me tightly
Let the dream continue.
Carry on for eternity
Two kindred spirits
That blaze.
A single sun
Two now as one
Follow the horizon with your gaze.
Count the stars
And wander this maze
Together we are now
And as one we travel
We open our minds to higher understanding
What was without meaning
Now motivates us towards future bright
Let us build this world of ours
Observe our power observe our might
But forget not from where it all began
Years now have passed
And weve triumphed and weve failed
Weve known victory weve known defeat
Now our fire grows cool and wanes
Old and wrinkled
Tired but satisfied
Its time now to wake from this dream
And in a final blaze of glory
Shine brighter than any star ever born
One sun
Two as one
Disperse and expand
Into eternity
Hand in hand.
