I hate to make this types of announcements...But this is a very important announcement.

First of all, tomorrow is my birthday, and I have had to change my plans for tomorrow due to the news that I have to give you, at the moment, Venezuela, the country where I live, is under tension and uncertainty because this January 10, is the day that the new president must take office, However, the dictatorship wants to take office the hard way, in the last hours they have kidnapped relatives of the president elect and other leaders opposing the government, besides they have kidnapped foreign people, among them, people from USA, Israel, Mexico, Argentina and others.

This January 9, the future vice-president of the country, called on the people to take to the streets to demand respect for democracy, however the government has already threatened to kill anyone who demonstrates... In the next hours, the country could enter into a civil war, there will be deaths, kidnappings and who knows what else. Even some former presidents who have already expressed that they will be present for the inauguration of the President elect, have been threatened that if they come to the country their planes will be shot down or they will be arrested.

I don't know how it will end, the only thing I know is that there will be chaos.
I only wish that this dictatorship ends once and for all.
This week will be difficult for me and most likely they will cut the internet nationwide so no one will be able to communicate.

I just have to enjoy my birthday tomorrow.

Don't worry about me, I won't leave my house those days, mostly because I live in a town where almost nothing happens. I will keep you informed anyway.

Thanks for your attention and support.

Hello everyone.

I need to let you know something, unfortunately the last few weeks I have been suffering from frequent power outages, however, this has gotten worse. Now my power is being cut off every day 2 to 3 times a day, I have already lasted 17 hours without power a few days ago. If this sounds bad to you, just wait because this is not all.... It turns out that the problem is only in my area, the rest of the town where I live has electricity, while my area is suffering these failures, if the electricity goes out at night, they will put it back on the next day because the electricians are lazy.

I would like to be exaggerating everything, but unfortunately it is not like that, I want to finish the commissions I have to take December off... But at this rate im not going to be able to do it.

Therefore, I have taken the decision to move from the area where I live, this will not stop the power cuts, but at least there will not be so constant power cuts, and most importantly .... Peace and privacy.

I don't know when I will move, but I'm sure it will be soon, or at least I hope so... I'm not leaving the country at least for now, I'm just moving house. Since I can't work with these electrical problems, much less rest well... Because I can't sleep without a fan since I sweat a lot while I sleep, so when there is a power cut at night, I usually sleep terribly or I can't even sleep at all...

So, all the clients that have commissioned me or have something pending to do, please.... Have patience, it is not easy for me what I am living, I have not slept well lately and my food has been damaged thanks to these power outages...

This will be resolved once I move out, or once this damn government falls, which I smell will be soon, because they are increasingly on their own, and they are killing each other.

If you want to help me, I will put some of my OCs for sale.... Because I will need money for the move.

Thanks for your attention, I love you all.

Lately I haven't said anything about my mood, I wish I could say I'm getting better. But it's only been getting worse and worse thanks to my own family....

Being 26 years old and feeling totally useless is horrible, my spirits are way below the ground, not to mention my self-esteem, which has already reached a point where I don't even care if I go out in the street all unaligned or disheveled, my insomnia has done nothing but stay the same or even worsen... From 4 hours now I can only sleep 2 hours. My mood is very delicate, now anything makes me angry and more and more the thoughts of throwing myself off a bridge are more and more frequent... I can't find a way out of this situation other than to get out of this circus in which I live, everything remains the same, nothing has changed, it has only gotten worse. And they only see that the problem is not them but me.
I am tired of all this... I am looking for a room or apartment where I can move by myself. Although I am 100% sure that they are going to avoid it.... And there would be 3 things that would happen...

1- Nothing will happen.
2- I end up in the hospital or beaten by them.
3- I end up with all this suffering.

It sounds ugly, but I can't find any more solutions.... I'm trying to leave here to improve my life, but the road to that is full of more suffering than hope... And I don't like to be saying this, but this is what has already been shown to me here.

As I said, nothing has changed, only worsened... And thanks to my savings and commissions, I managed to buy a Tablet, just to treat myself to something and improve my mood. But no, now my sister has taken over the tablet. She gets angry when I say that I bought it and she uses it all day long. Plus the lazy bum is not looking for a job yet.... All day here in the house locked up uploading pictures to instagram. It's the only thing she knows how to do, while I go around accepting and accepting more and more commissions because I have no choice, this is my job, it's the job where I can earn more money than any job here.

This never seems to get solved.... I need to get out of here, if this continues like this I really don't think I will be 30 years old... or I will die of something caused by this situation, or I will end it all by myself...

I hope that when I finally find a place to move on my own, everything will at least get better emotionally.

At this moment, I just want to disappear from everybody's life, and start from 0 somewhere else... Away from my family, who are the ones most responsible for me being this way... Anyway.

Thanks for reading.