As usual, today got off to a later start than I wanted it to. Life is like a pitching machine, and I'm always doing my best to avoid the curveballs that get lobbed my way. Regardless, something always seems to come up, no matter what I'm doing and no matter what my plans are.

Either way, I did manage to get some more lovely art posts uploaded, and I'm glad for that. Still got quite a bit of backlog to go, but I gotta deal with it one tile at a time. I was reluctant to upload a few of the pieces to my gallery, but I'm still glad I did that, too. I haven't seen them in a long time, but I still think about them and I still miss them.

So, now that THAT'S out of the way, I'd like to address some of the projects I've been tinkering with this past year.
Despite my lack of story uploads, I AM still writing. Just...a lot less frequently than before, due to increasingly stressful work issues and other personal matters.


Of my numerous little projects, I'm trying to work on some amateur radio broadcast scripts for a character of mine set in a post-apoc zombie survival setting. Many of them are going fairly well, but one of my major holdups is something I'd planned on doing with some volunteers: interviews. Basically, the character in question is a radio DJ, and given his current situation (dealing with zeds, raiders, etc), doing live interviews is incredibly risky. However, I thought it would be neat if he did some anyways, and it seemed like an interesting experiment to get some opinions and feedback from those who (in the setting) had survived the initial outbreak, and to kinda paint more of the world/setting for the audience.
The issue, however, is that I really wanted to do these interviews with actual people. Sure, I could technically write up my own NPCs and say the things I want them to say, but I feel like there's something more interesting about not knowing what will be said by the folks I'm interviewing, and that it'd feel more organic, in a sense.

But I haven't really had any volunteers to help me with my project yet. So if you're interested, or you know someone who might be, lemme know. The "rules" are relatively simple. It'll all be in character, but from that of a regular human (no Hollywood action heroes, please). You can go with almost any kind of past career you want, and almost any kind of personality that you want, provided it stays generally along the PG-13 scale at most. Your character can lie if they want, but know that my DJ may grill them on said lies. Ideally, I'd like to go with something more realistic and a bit down to earth, but I'm not against interviewing UFO chasers, conspiracy theory guys, and generally fun loonies, too. The lore we'd work with is that of 7DtD (if you know, you know), but I'm willing to be a bit flexible on that, depending on the discussion.

Feel free to drop a comment in here if you wanna help out, and we can go from there.


As for some of my other projects, I still have my fantasy air force story, my Pokemon OC origin stories and misadventures, the various nature expeditions with Claude, Noel's college romance saga, and several others. I'd also like to get back to my old amateur novel someday, once I get the right mood to rework it, and perhaps even expand on the tales of my old fox samurai, but those are very big and far off projects at the moment...

Still, if anyone is interested in any of those, feel free to ask about 'em in the comments. I miss being able to engage with the folks still watching me for more than just my art sprees. X3

Provided I don't have to work this Monday, I'mma try to get a few more pieces out. I'm also looking to get more art pieces drawn up soon, but I don't know if I'll be able to get 'em or when they'll be ready. I'm hoping for some more wholesome pieces, though. Sometimes it's nice to not be lewd, ya know? Though there WILL be some lewds incoming, for sure.

Not sure who else still pays attention to these, but I'm still willing to answer some questions about my characters or upcoming content if anyone wants to ask.

Day of days, 'tis here once again! Today 'tis a special day, one that me buckos and I have been celebratin' fer years.
I can't remember whence we first startin' appreciating and sharin' such a momentous day, but I hold it near and dear to me heart, more than almost any other booty I've found in me worldly travels. So celebrate it however ye like, provided ye don't actually keelhaul anyone and such.

I want to get some more uploads done this month so I have some good vibes and sexy temptation to share.
Work has been draining, more so than usual. Mood has also been all over the place due to all kinds of events since my last journal. I try to keep a cool temper and open mind when I can, but there are a lot of stupid people on the internet that make it increasingly difficult to maintain. Not impossible, though. They aren't capable of breaking my spirit. Of course there's more than just the internet fools that make things frustrating, but it's mostly them lately. So many people with horrible and evil opinions and behavior...and I just don't understand why they so openly embrace it, or even publicly celebrate it. It's very sad and unfortunate, but...more than just that. Much more.

...anyways, I'll do my best to get some more skunk art posted in my gallery this month. I've got a lot of fun additions I'd like to share, in the hopes that others out there also enjoy them, and also because I just want to be able to have some more nice stuff to look back on.

Unfortunately, not a whole lot to update on at the moment. Still working, still gaming, still trying to help keep other folks' spirits up as well as my own. The well of temptation is almost overflowing again, though. Frustrations are also running high, but I'm doing my best to just focus on work, my good friends, and little projects here and there.

Be kind, be well, be safe. Don't go throwing bricks or starting trouble or anything. There's no need for any of that, ya know.
The world needs more love, more generosity, and more levelheadedness.

Also, feel free to ask me or my characters stuff if ya want. Keep it civil, of course. I'll try to reply to anything I can whenever I have the time for it (hopefully not missing anything this time).

So, today, I noticed that FA implemented a content filtering system, which I feel was long overdue (along with other much needed features that will hopefully be implemented soon). However, seeing that made me realize that I had neglected updating my gallery, as I wanted to use the folder system they added, so...oddly enough, it has me wanting to finish that. Eventually. Same with my art uploads: a few at a time, when focus and energy allow.

Going back through some of my older submissions has me rather stunned at just how many characters/character concepts I have. My mind tends to focus on like...ten or twelve at most, and though I'd love to have more art of some of the older characters, either I just didn't have the money for it at the time, I couldn't find available artists that I preferred, or I just plain forgot like a big dummy. Still, I would like to clean some of these up and maybe find a proper home for some of 'em (I already have for the demon twins).

Either way, I just thought I'd mention in here that I'm gonna be trying to clean up my gallery somewhat by way of folders. I can't really do much for the upload order itself, unfortunately. Anyways, keep an eye out for new arts on the way, and feel free to ask me anything again (within reason), whether it's about me and my projects or questions to my characters.

"At this time of year, at this time of day, in this part of the country, localized entirely within your FurAffinity gallery!?"

"Yes!"

"...may I see them?"

"...yes!"


Yep, since I have today off, I'm gonna try to get some more stuff uploaded throughout the day. It might be a slow process, considering the distractions I'm dealing with, but I'll have a mix of older comms and newer comms before the ball(s) drop.

I meant to post this earlier in the afternoon, but here it is. More artwork on the way, but I'm at least glad I could upload what I did recently. Things have a way of...not turning out as I intend, and things also get kinda complicated at times, so even little goals and successes mean a lot. I'm still waiting to hear back from some folks regarding certain artwork and projects going forward, but...well, I hope to be able to give everyone watching something else nice to see in the future.

As with one of my previous journals, I'm up for anyone asking me pretty much anything again, whether it pertains to my characters or me (within reason).

I'm very happy to announce that I have some new birb art coming soon; not just of my giant gryphon mama, but a new birb that I'll be adding to my roster. Not only that, but I have some other stuff I'll try to upload as well, both new and old. Stay tuned. Not sure exactly when I'll have the time and focus for all of it, but I'll try to get it on here before Crimmus. Work has kept me consistently busy and tired, so even on my days off, I sometimes lack the energy to do a lot of things I wanna do. Still, I do want to get more art up here and keep in touch with those who are following me or just recently came across the stuff in my gallery.

In the meantime, I guess I'd be willing to answer almost any questions you all might have. They can be questions for me or my characters, and I'll try to answer them as best I can.

Better late than never, eh? I kinda wish I'd had the energy to upload earlier in the month, but I wanted to at least get SOME stuff uploaded. Work keeps me busy when I'm working and tired when I'm not, so even on my days off, it's difficult to muster up the energy to do...well, lots of things, really. Regardless, I'm trying what I can and sharing my love and joy when I can.

Soon, it'll be time for spooky month, and I have some more fun stuff planned, both online and offline. Probably gonna dress up as a skeleton pirate this year. How about the rest of you? Do you have any Halloween costume plans or Halloween-themed art commissions you hope to get? If so, what do you have in mind for either?

Apparently August has been the month for strange happenings, both online and offline. I'm glad that things are back to normal-ish, at least on here. I've been around a few image hosting sites over the years, but this tends to be the one I see the most traffic in, and the one that I get the most interaction from. It felt kinda weird not knowing what the fate of this place was gonna be, and if I'd be able to backup my stuff here if it ever went down for good.

Speaking of stuff, I'm gonna try to post some more stuff again during Skunktember. I have some really nice things in the works, too, so keep an eye out for more birb mama and general skunk shenanigans. I'm also kinda curious what you folks might be interested in seeing more from my page here, if anything. I know I'm still under most peoples' radars, but it is nice to hear feedback from others from time to time.

For now, I'm just gonna be focusing on work and taking time for games when I can. Not much else to report, but I felt like putting something new in here now that we're back online at FA.

I never got to play Fallout 4 for very long, and at the time it came out, I didn't see much that really wowed me.
Most of the folks I talked to about it, for the longest time, said they were underwhelmed by it.
It's only recently (and because of a massive sale on it) that I decided to give it a proper try.
And no, the terrible show had nothing to do with this decision. This was planned for a while now.
What DID have something to do with the decision was seeing my roomie play through some of it (particularly the DLC with Nick), and my loverskunkie also playing through it and seemingly having a good time with it.
So now...it's my turn to venture through the game and see what I think of it.
I have my experience from 2, 3 and NV backing me, but I've heard 4's setup is different (no skills, for one), so this should be...interesting.

I'm leaving this journal here in case you all don't hear from me for a while. This will be why.
Well, that, and work and stuff.

Feel free to offer some helpful hints and cool stories of your experiences, but please try not to spoil anything for me.

I'll try to get some more uploaded at a decent time later this week (if I can). Gotta say, it feels so stressful trying to get the deed STARTED, but after I manage to upload some pieces, it feels sooooo much better~ Thank you to those who favorited some of these, and also thank you to those who still watch me, despite the bouts of "silence". Work makes it harder to do much else, and most of my time away from work is either chatting with friends and acquaintances on Discord, gaming, or doing random chores and supply runs, so to speak. Regardless, I haven't forgotten about what I've said and what I want/need to do here. Or at least I try not to forget, ya know?

So...here's an idea for something. Does anyone have any questions they'd like to ask about some of my newly featured characters, or really any of my characters in general?

It really depends on how bad things are after work, but I have some new additions (and many old additions) that I really would love to show some proper love to (in addition to giving the artists a bit more love, too).

Stay tuned. I'mma try to make it happen this time.

I can't believe it's been about fifteen years since I first joined on here. But yeah, another year passes with me thwarting the grim reaper's attempts, and even though I don't have anything really planned for celebration, I'm happy with the few gifts and birthday wishes I have received lately. It makes me feel good knowing that some people still like me and still wanna play games and share lengthy conversations with me about nerdy stuff. It's also nice that there are folks who still think my skunk is cute and/or hunky. Some things may have changed over the years, but I'm still me, and I try to be a good me everyday.

Thank you all.

Some say that Halloween ends on midnight of November 1st.
Some say it ends before that.
But those people are cowards, for the spooky scary celebrations are year-round!
So long as you keep it in your hearts, the tricks, treats, shrieks and laughs will never end!

Sometimes I'm glad that I'm not some big-name user that has hundreds of thousands of people watching me.
Oh sure, I'd still like to be known and stuff, but I think it's better to have small, friendly and trusted groups of people to talk to rather than huge followings that can potentially invite lots of trouble.
I keep trying to tell others that the world isn't all bad, which it isn't, but it can't be denied that there are some crazy people out there who are prone to flying off the handle and starting fires, so to speak.
That kind of thing isn't something I really wanna deal with, ya know?
So I'm glad that I have some decent friends and acquaintances in my little dens, and the liberty of choosing which ones to visit and when. I'm also glad that I have some folks there who accept me for who I am, even if we may not always agree on everything.
Being under the radar most of the time suits me just fine. I'll poke my head above ground when I wanna, and take my leisurely trips wherever I wanna go, but sometimes it's nice not to constantly walk around in the fire or have to worry about tiptoeing over eggshells and all that.
I'm not sure why I decided to type this up, but sometimes it's good to just get one's thoughts and feelings out there, ya know?

Time and work got away from me again. It's been much harder to maintain my focus these days...
I know all of the things I have to do, but I've had a lot of trouble getting them done or even started, it seems. Still, I'm at least doing a bit better in a lot of places and things than I have been in a while. That's what I'll tell myself, anyways. Doing better with the job and money, though, so there's that.

But before I forget, I wanted to wish you all a Merry Skunkmas again. If you're newly following me, I thank you (though I haven't gotten around to uploading things in a while again). And if you've been following me for a while, I still thank you for at least sticking around and sometimes commenting on my journals and things. If I haven't said hello to you in a while, it isn't because I've forgotten about you or anything. I still remember many of the friends and acquaintances that I've met a long time ago, and I still cherish those that I've made connections with. But as I said before, it's been much harder to keep focused and such, or to get the push I need to reach out.

In any case, I hope everyone has a good one this year. I know things have gone downhill in the past couple of years, but I have hope that things will improve soon, at least in some measure. Try to stay safe, stay warm, and stay happy and loved. Be kind to others and offer your generosity and friendship to those around you. The world needs to remember and hang on to love, now more than ever.

...and now, back to one of my annual traditions of playing Parasite Eve during Christmas Eve~

I've been trying various places and groups of people for this, but I haven't had any real luck yet. As such, I figured I'd try asking here, in the hopes that someone who can help me finds this journal.

Recently, I decided to go back to playing Pokemon X again in the hopes of expanding upon and refining my "Dream Team", mostly for the sake of making more Pokemilf characters and getting them drawn, one by one. However, part of that process involves getting a hold of the actual Pokemon in the game. I was very fortunate with the ones I came across during my first run of Pokemon X, which started this whole thing. And even though I technically have some of the ones I'm looking for, I'm hoping to find ones with certain conditions, like hidden abilities and such.

As such, I'm currently looking for someone who happens to have a Dragon-type Friend Safari associated with their Friend Code, or access to one on their save file, since I'm looking for a Sliggoo with its hidden ability, Gooey.
Alternatively, I'm hoping to find someone who would be willing to trade me a Goomy/Sliggoo/Goodra with its hidden ability instead. The details of such a trade can be discussed through notes or perhaps Discord.

I know that some folks have issues with Pokemon X, and there also aren't a lot of folks who play it anymore, but I could really use some help with my odd request. I'd also be happy to have access to other Friend Safari types to assist with future goals, but for now, the one listed above is all I really need. I would have ordinarily attempted GTS, but it seems like it's bogged down with bots or dupe accounts or something that only really have the intent to troll other players who legitimately want to trade in the game. Regardless, any help is appreciated here. Feel free to leave a comment below if you're able to help or know someone who can.

For anyone that still checks these, I appreciate your time here.
As for new updates, well...I'm more or less back on my feet after a long period of struggling.
It's been an issue of financial recovery, various stresses, and a bunch of other little things that have piled up over time, but I think I'm at least on much better footing since my last job. Given, the one I have now isn't that great, but it's been oddly rewarding in its own right.

And on that note, one of the biggest updates I've been able to mention in a long while is that I got a promotion and, with it, more knowledge and responsibilities that I've been wanting to take on for a long time now. It's one step forward on my eventual, clumsy path to more of the things I want in life.

Speaking of things I want, I still plan on getting more art and- yes, eventually- uploading a good portion of it here soon. I say a good portion because there are certain pieces of art that I've received, either as commissions or gifts, that I'm not as comfortable posting online due to various personal reasons. It's not so much a matter of the content as it is the events that led up to the art itself, whether or not it was even finished. Still, there's a lot of stuff I'd really love to share with others and to show more of the kind artists' talent that went into it. I'd also like to post more of my colorings and try to improve on that while also having fun with it (as was always the big focus there).


So, as for the squee... Lately, I've been getting into (and getting back into) a number of different games which I've really enjoyed or really been enjoying. One of the more notable ones, in my opinion, is Star Ocean: The Second Story, which was originally released for the PSX. I think I'll make a big journal about that one soon, if I haven't rambled on about it lately.

As for more recent games, my friend introduced me to one called Streets of Rogue, and...my goodness, that one gets crazy! I'm always kinda iffy when it comes to roguelikes and such, but this is one that gives you many options for how to play through it, and it's generally a wild and funny game that knows how to not take itself too seriously; everything from the dialogue and descriptions down to the items and abilities that you can use. All in all, worth it.

For other games, I've been enjoying being able to play several tabletop roleplaying games over the past while, and using different formats. There's been an Aliens themed one, which makes me think of an old GURPS setup, and several of the other ones have been played in D&D 5e which...honestly, I'm still kinda iffy on. Compared to something like Pathfinder, it feels a lot more restrictive in what you can be and do, but at the same time, there's a bit of wiggle room to make some potentially fun and useful characters. It also seems to streamline a fair bit of the combat aspect so most combat encounters don't usually take an average of several hous...or at least that's been the feeling from most of the sessions I've had so far. I know, I know, that's more of a player and DM issue than a game issue, but at the same time...yeah.

And then there's the other stuff I've been passing the time with, such as recently finishing the last episode of the Shaman King remake on Netflix. HIGHLY recommending that one, by the way. Shaman King was such a fun story for me to dive into back in high school, and the characters were very enjoyable. I'm also looking forward to getting to watch the newest season of Stranger Things with Em when we can get some decent free time to devote to it. There's also been the plethora of various horror-related stuff that I've been able to watch/rewatch with my buddy Aqua; everything from old slasher flicks and creepshow stuff to the old black-and-white Addams Family television show. He's a great dude to chill with, by the way.


Anyways, so...yeah, things have mostly gotten better, I think. Still some downs to go with those ups, of course, but I'm finding my groove and doing my best to stick with it. I'll try not to make the next journal post take so long.
Until then, feel free to drop any comments in here if you want, and I'll see you all in the next one~

Well, "nuts" isn't exactly what I'd call it, but the beginning of 2022 has not been off to a good start for me.

I found out that I'd gotten the Wu Flu right towards the beginning, and even though it was the Omicron Persei 8 variant or whatever, it's been a rough ordeal; mostly because, when it comes to me and these sorts of things, it's never just something simple and singular. At first, I thought it was just a sinus infection, since I usually get those around winter time, and I hadn't been showing any of the other common symptoms of the thing. After I found out one of my roommates got tested and was positive, I went in to get my own test...and that's when it started really hitting me. Plus, I'd also apparently developed a peptic ulcer along the way, which made the recovery process that much worse because of an overly sensitive stomach lining making it near impossible for me to eat or drink much of anything without setting THAT off, and all the while having immense difficulty falling asleep and staying asleep...which was partly attributed to dehydration. Who'd have thought, eh?

I'm finally starting to feel "better", as I've been able to eat and drink more things (and more frequently), and I haven't been suffering through the symptoms of the other stuff nearly as badly (save for the morning clearing rituals). I still feel them, though; namely the occasional difficulty breathing/strained coughing. I really hope that clears up VERY soon, because it's all been more annoying than anything.

Still, all the while, I've been floating in a weird mental place both online and offline. Maybe it was the lack of energy to get into much social interaction, or maybe it was just the realization that a lot of the people I'd considered friends don't really see me in the same light anymore. Or then again, maybe it's just my depression gripping me at the end of this, just to add insult to injury. Hell, it could be any combination of things. I dunno. I still greatly appreciate the people that check in on me when they can, talk with me, and keep me company. Honestly, I cherish them all, since it feels like there have been fewer of them over time. Otherwise, I tend to feel alone, awkward, and adrift, even in the company of familiar faces/names. Mind you, I've always been a bit of a socially awkward person sometimes, over the years, but then again...who isn't, when it comes to nerd/furry communities like these, eh? Anyone that tries to say otherwise is a fool or a liar.

Anyways, I suppose it helps my improvement just a bit more this year by getting this stuff out there in a way that I can somewhat properly convey without stumbling over my own verbal nervousness or locking up. Sometimes I feel bad about doing that stuff on here when I'd rather be reporting new, good, or interesting things instead...but I think the few people that come floating up to my tiny little island here would understand. Even if nobody else reads this or replies, part of me is okay with that. I mean, it'd certainly be nice to have more people willing to reach out to me from time to time, but...I know that a lot of people are busy these days, or not really feeling as apt to talk as they used to.

Keep the wind beneath your sails out there, and keep floating on. Wherever you're going, you'll get there eventually.

And make sure to drop the anchor every now and then when you see a kind face or someone in need of some company.

I know I haven't said or done much on here again, but I wanted to wish everyone a merry one this year, regardless.
It's important to find and cling to the little things that make you happy and share the feelings and kindness that make others happy, especially nowadays. Know that you are all loved, one way or another, and that you should strive to support others and let them know they are loved as well.

I know, it sounds kinda sappy and corny and stuff...but I'd rather endure the sappiness than be deprived of the happiness.

These past few months at the new job have been tiring, but thankfully I've been able to slowly recover from most of the strain of the year. It's still nowhere near the comfort barrier I had before the whole Covid thing hit, though.
For now, I've just been trying to keep things stable and try to get back up towards where I was until better opportunities become available. I've also been trying out different game experiences, like Dead By Daylight.

Overall, I can't say that DBD is a fantastic game, but it's also not a horrible game, either. Then again, this thing has been out for several years and has developed a.....certain kind of community, we'll say. Fortunately, most of my experience with matchmaking have been okay, with only very few rare instances of scummy gameplay happening. Most of the scummier side of things tends to happen whenever I encounter console players in a match, usually on the Xbox side of things. Stuff like players purposely sabotaging my movements or actions, actively alerting the killer to my presence, and just intentionally not being of any help. However, I do have to say that "not all" applies here, since I've had quite a few matches with players on both console AND PC that were very enjoyable and even funny, ranging from survivors all chasing after the killer as he tries to escape to just genuinely challenging yet fair encounters that, whether win or loss, everyone ends up feeling satisfied with in the end.

Been getting back into Dead Frontier 2, on and off, as well. I picked the game up early on when it was still being worked on, because I was actually fairly fond of the first game, back when you played it on browser. The game has gone through several...interesting updates since the last time I played it. I'll give credit where credit is due, though, by saying that my level of enjoyment with it now is much higher than those first few months with it. There's outpost attacks again, quests are much more frequently available now and more easily found on the map- aah, and the map itself, even... The place feels much bigger now, and with the only real load screen transitions taking place between doorways and not different zones on the map, it's actually kinda nice to just explore the area. They even added in something kinda similar to those random event encounters like in FFXIV, and group progress is definitely a thing there. It still suffers from some of the big issues from before, what with it being fairly grindy and being one of those games that is usually only fun for a few hours with friends, but all in all, it's not too bad. Maybe one day, I can reopen Gabriel Hunter's Discount Shop again...

But yeah, sadly not a lot to update on, other than that I've been watching some different shows and playing some different games than the usual. I'm just trying to relax when I can while I do the day-to-day. Unfortunately, I still haven't been able to get to that point where I can comfortably write for long periods of time again, but I think I'll be able to slowly work towards that soon.

In the meantime, Happy Spooktober and all that. Make sure to give your skunkie friends many hugs and much love, for they need it; some more than others.

I used to talk a lot about these. I still talk a lot about them, when the topic comes up.
There are so many older games that I love, even if I have yet to play some of them, personally.
I've been searching for a while for the proper means to play them all, both ones I currently own and ones I haven't had an opportunity to own/play, but I've noticed that it's been harder to pull it off in the past decade or so...or at least it seems harder to me.

Some of the PSX emulators I've come across are okay at best and janky at worst. The real issue, though, seems to be finding roms that are not only decently functional, but also compatible with said emulators.

Mostly, I just really want a proper way to catalog many of my beloved games in digital format, in the event that something happens to my physical copies. Worse yet, I'm worried that something may happen in the near future that will cause many of these games to simply vanish and become lost, especially the ones I hold dear to my heart and the ones that I haven't been able to experience.

Does anyone reading this have any suggestions for really good emulators and places for roms? I know it's considered a faux pas to suggest this stuff because "oh no, that's illegal stuff" and "piracy is bad", even though a lot of these companies have basically forgotten many of these IPs exist anymore or have no real plans for them, and there's no real profit to be gained. Hell, some of these games would be impossible to re-release or remake in any modern format because of various reasons. That's the way I've seen things, at least. I dunno...

I can't help but think about this stuff lately and worry about it, because video games were a big part of my life. Many of them have been like my friends that I can go to when I'm not doing well and can't bring myself to reach out to other people, or help improve my mood in unique ways that other people can't quite do, despite their efforts. So yeah, if anyone has any recommendations or wants to talk about it, I'd really appreciate it, and I'll be keeping an eye on this journal.

The number is dwindling.
The pressure is rising.
The stability is breaking down.
It's getting quieter, and harder to hold onto a smile.
Where did it all go so wrong?
When did I become a monster? Or was I ever?
I swear I wasn't always one, if I was...
I miss the old times.
I feel like such a stranger in this place.
And I don't know what to do about it.
I don't know if I CAN do anything about it.