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Go check out Vtza's work and enter for a chance at a free art piece!

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  Araivis-Edelveys is offering some free art to those who enter here! She does amazing stuff, guys <3

SFW/NSFW allowed!

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Basics

Name: If you know me, you already know it 😘
Nickname: Tig, Gypsy
Location: Winnipeg, Canada
Age: 38
Height: 5'6"
Zodiac sign: Capricorn
Pets: 1 cat
Favorite thing about yourself: My ability to bounce back after shit goes south
Worst habit: Overthinking/overanalyzing, thanks to past traumas
Fun facts: I love swing dancing and want to get back into it; I used to weigh 330lbs (currently at 250, and sloooowly dropping 😁); I am a Class 3 CDL driver (Class B in the US)

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: female, genderfluid; she/they
Sexual preference: Yes 😏
Romantic preference: Male
"Kinsey Scale" score: 3 (bisexual, but I actually identify as Pansexual)
Relationship status: Polyamorous and partnered

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": A bit of both, depending if I'm working or not; early bird if I'm working, night owl the rest of the time
First thought in the morning: "I don't wanna"
Last thought before falling asleep at night: Usually something that happened that day, an ongoing situation I'm involved in, or if I spent a significant amount of time on the phone with a partner.... Them :3

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: I drive a 5-ton tandem end dump
What do you do well: Honestly? I excel at customer service, but I'm finding I'm thriving in a manual labor position!
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Less debt, a savings account, in a stable career, and the ability to travel more frequently

Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: Socially
Smoke: Occasionally vape, but never smoked
Do Drugs: No
Exercise: Sometimes. Does my job count?
Have a go-to comfort food: chips, Goldfish crackers, air popped popcorn with melted butter
Have a nervous habit: Clicking my tongue, fidgeting if I'm bored

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): My eyes, because they're tri-color; also my freckles ^^
In Others: Their eyes and smile.
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): I get gut feelings, and they're often right
Food: Pizza, Steak, sushi, shrimp, potato soup, chicken
Drink: Sweet tea, hot brewed tea
Animal: Wolf, Fox, Tiger, Dolphin, Dragon
Colors: Aqua, Blue, Red, Purple, Neon Green
Artists/Bands/Groups: Coheed and Cambria, Bryan White, Glass Tiger, Tears for Fears, most 90s country, most 80s music
Author/Poet: Karen Marie Moning
Actor/Actress: Jason Momoa, John Barrowman, David Tennant, Stephen Amell, Matthew Gray Gubler, Shemar Moore
Blogger: Charlotte Dobre

Go show this amazing artist some love! They're raffling off a FREE YCH! :D

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Hey guys! I know it's been a while, but my writing commissions are back open!

Unfortunately I lost my government contract last week, so money is a little tight until my temporary unemployment kicks in.

You can find my details here:

https://www.furaffinity.net/commiss.....ns/icetigress/

And you can find my uploaded commissions here:

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....ry-Commissions

Thanks in advance! ^_^

Hey guys.

So for those that are on Telegram, you likely know me on there as @MadamGypsy, but many of you know I started out as icetigress.

Recently, I outed (not doxxed, outed) a fur for being a convicted pedophile (I have legal and documented proof out the wazoo for this). In doing so, he blames me for his jailbait no longer wanting to associate with him (this is the girl he was arrested over having sex with in Sept 2018; she was 15....he was 30; she literally JUST turned 17).

Since then, he's had a vendetta against me. Since I now go by MadamGypsy on Telegram, he's stolen my old icetigress handle, along with the icon headshot I had commissioned from  Mirtilo , and is now pretending to be me in order to tarnish and discredit me.

This is the photo that's being used on the fake profile:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29493531/

I have screencaps of E V E R Y T H I N G, and they've been given to Telegram admins. Including a screencap where he openly threatens me and tells me "you won't get away with what you did; you can leave Canada and we'll still find you."

I am not posting their name here, as I don't need to get reported for call-outs. However, if you wanna find me on Telegram, or note me here, I will tell you if I feel you're not going to run back to this person. I reserve the right to decline disclosure on a per-person basis.

If ANYONE sees the name icetigress in any questionable groups or chats, PLEASE advise me immediately, and include screencaps for my records.

Thanks in advance.

Heyo!

SO uh....I'm trying my hand out at writing commissions for peeps (details under Commissions tab; this will be updated and edited as I go along): http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/icetigress/

If you're interested in commissioning me, I have ONE story example that I posted in 2018:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27382506/ (NSFW; straight sex)

If you like this, please consider commissioning me! :3

Thanks! ^^

So....once again I'm raising money for the Terry Fox Run here in Winnipeg, and it's right around the corner! :O As in...omg it's on the 15th! @_@

I'm still along ways off my fundraising goal, so any and all donations are wecot and greatly appreciated!

http://secure.terryfox.ca/registran.....langPref=en-CA

Thank y'all in advance! <3

Coheed has some wicked shit. This particular song speaks to me on so many levels, and it's got me feeling some kinda way.

I kinda like it.

Enjoy.

You, you keep screaming from the top of your lungs
Mister Who-gives-a-shit, just shut up
The podium is all yours, go right ahead
The plastic king of castle polyethylene
Go on time to be a good little pig
You're worth it, or you're so, so

'Cause when the rug gets pulled out from underneath
Just embrace the fall
Oh you got spirit, kid
You're number one
Go on living that farce
'Cause nobody gives a fuck who you are

You, I'll never have the chance that you got
No, I won't dwell, I'll just accept I'll be, I'll be forgotten

'Cause when the rug gets pulled out from underneath
Just embrace the fall
Oh you got spirit, kid
You're number one
Go on living that farce
'Cause nobody gives a fuck who you are

So why are you crying?
So why are you crying?
You’ve got the world
You’ve got the world
To command

'Cause when the rug gets pulled out from underneath
Just embrace the fall
Oh you got spirit, kid
You're number one
Go on living that farce
'Cause nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody, no-o-o
Nobody gives a fuck
Nobody gives
Nobody gives a fuck
'Cause nobody gives a fuck who you are

https://youtu.be/Ydkfdq0Xggo

I love the Nightcore version of this, but it's originally done by Hot Chelle Rae.

And holy shit, has this ever been my mood lately.


See I can't wake up I'm living a nightmare
That keeps playing over again
Locked in a room so hung up on you
And you're cool with just being friends

Left on the sidelines
Stuck at a red light
Waiting for my time
And I can't see

Why don't you love me
Touch me, tell me I'm your everything
The air you breathe
And why don't you love me, baby
Open up your heart tonight
'cause I could be all that you need
Why don't you love me
Why don't you love me

See I'm just too scared to tell you the truth
Cause my heart ache can't take anymore
Broken and bruised longing for you
And I don't know what I'm waiting for

Left on the sidelines
Stuck at a red light
Waiting for my time
So just tell me

Why don't you love me
Touch me, tell me I'm your everything
The air you breathe
And why don't you love me, baby
Open up your heart tonight
I could be all that you need
Why don't you love me
Why don't you love me

Why don't you give me a reason
Please tell me the truth
You know that I'll keep believing
Till I'm with you

Why don't you love me
Kiss me, I could feel your heart tonight
It's killing me so

Why don't you love me
Touch me, tell me I'm your everything
The air you breathe
And why don't you love me, baby
Open up your heart tonight
I could be all that you need
Why don't you love me
Why don't you love me
Why don't you love me

https://youtu.be/-bNxzdXEX90

Today's mood brought to you by Bryan White. This has been my song for as long as I can remember, and lately it rings more true then ever. Everyone else always gets the things I wish for.

Alone again tonight
Without someone to love
The stars are shining bright
So one more wish goes up
Oh I wish I may,
and I wish with all my might
For the love I'm dreaming of
And missing in my life

You'd think that I could find
A true love of my own
It happens all the time to people that I know
Their wishes all come true
So I've got to believe
That there's still someone out there who
Is meant for only me

I guess I must be wishing on someone else's star
Seems like someone else
Keeps getting what I'm wishing for
Why can't I be as lucky as those other people are
I guess I must be wishing
on someone else's star

I sit here in the dark
And stare up at the sky
And I can't give my heart
One good reason why
Everywhere I look
It's lovers that I see
Seems like everyone's in love
With everyone but me

I guess I must be wishing on someone else's star
Seems like someone else
Keeps getting what I'm wishing for
Why can't I be as lucky as those other people are
I guess I must be wishing
On someone else's star

Why can't I be as lucky as those other people are
Oh I guess I must be wishing
On someone else's star

https://youtu.be/FosNAPJBoIk

I love Three Days Grace lately. Dunno why... 😒


Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand

This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me, and take my hand
When the lights go out, you'll understand

Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony are better than misery
Trust me, I've got a plan
When the lights go up, you'll understand

Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know, I know, I know, I know, I know
That you're wounded
(You know, you know, you know, you know)
That I'm here to save you
(You know, you know, you know, you know)
I'm always here for you
(I know, I know, I know, I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

https://youtu.be/Ud4HuAzHEUc

What's wrong with me?

What did I do wrong?

Why am I never good enough?

Why do I keep getting pushed away?

Why does no one ever want me?

Why do I keep loving people that don't love me back?

Why do people always break their promises and expect me to be okay with it?

Why am I scolded and given shit for being hurt?


Why me?


I have never felt more isolated and alone than I do right now.


Why am I even still around?

Would anyone notice my absence or even care?



I guess I'll never know.

Three Days Grace just says it so well...

If you feel so empty
So used up, so let down
If you feel so angry
So ripped off, so stepped on

You're not the only one
Refusing to back down
You're not the only one
So get up

Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot
Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot

If you feel so filthy
So dirty, so fucked up
If you feel so walked on
So painful, so pissed off

You're not the only one
Refusing to go down
You're not the only one
So get up

Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot
Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot

If you feel so empty
So used up, so let down
If you feel so angry
Just get up

Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot
Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot
Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot
Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot
Let's start a riot, a riot
Let's start a riot


https://youtu.be/ixZDTiXiHsc

K guys. Need your help. My good friend Jay has to go for his 3rd eye surgery soon, & the glasses he'll need after are stupid pricey! :(

He's a great traditional artist so you should go commission him to help him save up! :D

He's  JessieNova

And he's freaking amazing!! :D

Please share to spread the word!!

...and it's no one's fault but mine.

No matter what, every time I find something or someone that makes me happy, it's not long before it gets ripped away from me somehow. And it's almost always because of something I've said and/or done. And I loathe myself for it.

I WANT to be happy, but part of me feels like I don't deserve it; I find I often go out of my way, be it consciously or subconsciously, to sabotage everything that's making me smile.

Because why should -I- be allowed to be happy? All I ever seem to do is complain about everything and get frustrated about things that are out of my control (even though I always tell others that if something is out of their control and they can't do anything about it, there's no point in getting angry over it; hi, nice to meet you, I'm a hypocrite). I'd like to have just ONE conversation with someone where I'm not complaining about SOMETHING, but my mind has yet to allow that to happen.

I had two wonderful things end this year, and it hurt so much, because I was happy with both of them. The first ended due to distance, and the memory of someone who briefly preceded me, and the second (more recent) ended because I couldn't be patient enough to let them work through their issues. I kept pushing them to change things for ME. I hurt them because I didn't actively listen when they told me multiple times "I'll deal with it when the time comes, please stop pushing and bringing it up". I hurt the first person by falling for the second person after I promised the first person I'd wait for them while they healed from the hurt inflicted by the person before me.

The previous person and I eventually talked things out, and we became friends again, even though I knew they were still hurt over what I done. And they have every right to be. I would never fault them for it.

When things recently ended with the local person, the previous person is the one I went to to vent (stupid and selfish on my part yet again, but I trust them, which is why I went to them; I didn't even consider how it would affect THEM). I lamented being alone once again for Christmas and NYE, and they unselfishly offered to possibly video chat with me those days. Of course I accepted.

We talked continuously throughout this past week, and they even vented to me about someone they were chatting with. I offered my opinion, and they went with it and put their foot down with this person. I was happy things worked out, but I became jealous of this person and the way they were chatting together. I was reassured that nobody was in "competition" with me to begin with, so that kinda made me feel a bit better, and gave me a little hope that maybe the previous person would want to give things another try down the road when things quieted down. (They know my feelings for them are still strong, and always have been.)

Welp, yesterday I was supposed to have an in-depth conversation with the second person when they came to collect their things, and that never ended up happening (and currently won't for yet another two weeks; but they aren't feeling well so that's not their fault). I vented yet again to the first person, and they were gracious enough to hear me out. We then went back to our usual playful mannerisms with each other, which made me smile like crazy. But they were publicly and flirtatiously RP'ing with the person they were originally upset with, so of course...stupid me got jealous again.

I made this known, and got a little passive-aggressive with the first person. And I got abruptly reminded that being passive-aggressive will only push them away, and it's no one else's business how and what kind of affection they show to other people.

And they're right. They're not tied to anyone, and they don't have to answer to anyone. Least of all someone who's already hurt them once.


TO BOTH OF YOU......I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO PUT INTO WORDS HOW SORRY I AM FOR HOW I'VE BEEN TO YOU BOTH THIS YEAR.



So this is me, ladies and gentlemen. Selfish...jealous...paranoid...petty...angry...resentful...and salty (as one person put it).

And I fucking hate that I always end up pushing away people I love for selfish fucking reasons.



The other thing that bothers me, is that everyone always worries about the other person, and how they're feeling, and how they're dealing with things, and that they always like to emphasize how hard that person has things right now.

Yet my feelings get fleetingly acknowledged at best, but that I'M the one that has to change my ways.

So fuck MY feelings I guess...?


But yeah.

This is why I'm not allowed to be happy.

This is why I can't have nice things.

Because I'm selfish and I don't deserve them. At least not at this point.


Merry fucking Christmas and Happy fucking New Years to me.

Again.

....so here's a nice little morbid piece for y'all:


MORPHINE

Contemplation
Sweet sedation
I think I've had
A revelation

Broken heart
Torn apart
I lie here crying
In the dark

Always try
Want to die
Just look away
Don't watch me cry

Numbing peace
Sweet release
Will this pain
Ever cease?

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You can contact her on Telegram @BooplesnootCatwolf, SkarthSiren on FA, or by email: thayerhaley7[at]gmail.com

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One of my favorite songs by a wonderful artist. May he RIP. This song always speaks to me. And music is the easiest way for me to express myself.

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Nobody Knows
Kevin Sharp


I pretend that I'm glad you went away
But these four walls close in more every day
And I'm dying inside and nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around

The nighsgt are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
Just like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now, you know, I'll be loving you still

The night are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me

The night are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me
.

https://youtu.be/O6sPUo09jWk

That moment when you can't breathe because you don't know what's happening...

I can't stop shaking.

I feel sick.

I really hope this is temporary.

😭😭😭

Interesting. Not surprised how this turned out ;)

== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==

89% Experimentalist
75% Bondage Receiver
74% Primal (Prey)
70% Voyeur
64% Girl/Boy
64% Primal (Predator)
64% Switch
63% Submissive
58% Brat
58% Exhibitionist
54% Bondage Giver
45% Vanilla
40% Brat Tamer
40% Masochist
38% Non-monogamist
38% Sadist
35% Dominant
33% Slave
21% Daddy/Mommy
17% All-Rounder
16% Degradation Giver
15% Degradation Receiver
13% Master/Mistress
6% Pervert

See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=71888

So I'm going to this....

https://www.facebook.com/events/457346367739579/

Should be good times! :D Pics most likely to follow!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! ^_^