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Rollin' slow
Posted a month agoLike a steamroller
I'll roll my posts out slow
And they will flatten folks with their weight
Thanks for sticking around and supporting my smutty art through my insanity. Alot of time this year has been spent refocusing tightly on the bonds with my friends. The power of intentful communication, reciprocated love and understanding, and respectful roleplay and artistic collaboration has guided me back here.
I feel ok enough to handle myself, and my problems with posting smut now. Just gonna handle it alot slower.
I'll roll my posts out slow
And they will flatten folks with their weight
Thanks for sticking around and supporting my smutty art through my insanity. Alot of time this year has been spent refocusing tightly on the bonds with my friends. The power of intentful communication, reciprocated love and understanding, and respectful roleplay and artistic collaboration has guided me back here.
I feel ok enough to handle myself, and my problems with posting smut now. Just gonna handle it alot slower.
My Relationship with Porn
Posted 2 months agoI really friggin' like drawing smut. I love drawing it, and it's one of the things I'm absolutely the best at when it comes to my visualisation skillset.
I'm still drawing it, in fact, I'm animating and drawing it more than ever before nowadays. I'm also not ashamed of my engagement with the craft and culture. I'll still draw it for others, even.
I just really, really dislike my public experience with the pornographic toon community, and the overall kind of attention it has brought into my life. And my trust with it has been obliterated by admiring people who truly never could give a single shit about me as a person.
I'd like to return to making porn, but I honestly have this terrible feeling of: I don't want to give what I make to the public, because of how hurt I've been by the kinds of people and attention it brought into my life in the past.
And that is my own responsibility to take care of. If I'm being a bitch about my feelings and need time away, that's just who I am and what I am right now.
I still draw porn and talk kinky ideas with folks, and share things with them, but the trust in the public has been eroded by own my foolish mistakes. By my own foolish heart giving itself to people who only sought to use me.
And now I've got to mend and deal with those tale ends.
When I asked if it's alright if I drew porn and shared it as a ritualistic method to shed my soul and prepare myself for suicide? That was me asking: "Is it okay to quietly kill my soul, by drawing for the sake of other people's pleasure when I enjoy it, but I don't believe I'm being respected?"
The answer is clearly no, it's not alright, and nobody should do that, or commit to such behavior.
Maybe one day I'll share my porn again. There are a handful of folks who I trust around these topics who are warming me back up, but it'll take time if I get around to it.
If you wanna see the porn I've been making, I dunno.
Sucks. Wait 'til my friends and commissioners post it?
Anyway, that's me.
Therapy didn't work out so well with the lady I saw, but it helped.
I'm still drawing it, in fact, I'm animating and drawing it more than ever before nowadays. I'm also not ashamed of my engagement with the craft and culture. I'll still draw it for others, even.
I just really, really dislike my public experience with the pornographic toon community, and the overall kind of attention it has brought into my life. And my trust with it has been obliterated by admiring people who truly never could give a single shit about me as a person.
I'd like to return to making porn, but I honestly have this terrible feeling of: I don't want to give what I make to the public, because of how hurt I've been by the kinds of people and attention it brought into my life in the past.
And that is my own responsibility to take care of. If I'm being a bitch about my feelings and need time away, that's just who I am and what I am right now.
I still draw porn and talk kinky ideas with folks, and share things with them, but the trust in the public has been eroded by own my foolish mistakes. By my own foolish heart giving itself to people who only sought to use me.
And now I've got to mend and deal with those tale ends.
When I asked if it's alright if I drew porn and shared it as a ritualistic method to shed my soul and prepare myself for suicide? That was me asking: "Is it okay to quietly kill my soul, by drawing for the sake of other people's pleasure when I enjoy it, but I don't believe I'm being respected?"
The answer is clearly no, it's not alright, and nobody should do that, or commit to such behavior.
Maybe one day I'll share my porn again. There are a handful of folks who I trust around these topics who are warming me back up, but it'll take time if I get around to it.
If you wanna see the porn I've been making, I dunno.
Sucks. Wait 'til my friends and commissioners post it?
Anyway, that's me.
Therapy didn't work out so well with the lady I saw, but it helped.
It's over again
Posted 6 months agoI'm not deleting it, because that would be even more self-destructive than continuing to post smut.
I live with this undying desire to gain sexual attention, as well as find a way to make money off of it. BUT, when it actually crosses into the realms of genuine sexuality and physicality, even in my art, the entire ritual of engaging with kinks subtly becomes self-destructive.
Every single time I begin starting up on drawing, sharing, and posting smut, I end up spiralling into self destructive insanity.
The way that undying desire expresses itself from me has been a self-destructive ritual from the very beginning.
Let me ask you a horrible question.
Is is wrong, if an artist is drawing porn as a form of spiritualistic suicide, to push themselves mentally closer to the brink of self-termination?
Because that's what my entire life of drawing smut has been.
And it's why I have to leave it behind, and why I keep going insane everytime "I return" with a healthier attitude.
My attempts to draw porn are slow suicide of the soul, I've come to understand.
So I genuinely am asking the world here.
Is it wrong if an artist who shares porn for others to enjoy, if they do it out of a sense of suicide?
Anyway, that's me.
Sayonara. I'm going to therapy.
I live with this undying desire to gain sexual attention, as well as find a way to make money off of it. BUT, when it actually crosses into the realms of genuine sexuality and physicality, even in my art, the entire ritual of engaging with kinks subtly becomes self-destructive.
Every single time I begin starting up on drawing, sharing, and posting smut, I end up spiralling into self destructive insanity.
The way that undying desire expresses itself from me has been a self-destructive ritual from the very beginning.
Let me ask you a horrible question.
Is is wrong, if an artist is drawing porn as a form of spiritualistic suicide, to push themselves mentally closer to the brink of self-termination?
Because that's what my entire life of drawing smut has been.
And it's why I have to leave it behind, and why I keep going insane everytime "I return" with a healthier attitude.
My attempts to draw porn are slow suicide of the soul, I've come to understand.
So I genuinely am asking the world here.
Is it wrong if an artist who shares porn for others to enjoy, if they do it out of a sense of suicide?
Anyway, that's me.
Sayonara. I'm going to therapy.
bluesky my guy
Posted 6 months agohttps://bsky.app/profile/tantrictoons.bsky.social
Maybe I'll do the mental mauvements and flippy dip the script and resume posting here one day. But for now, I'm active here.
Ask yourself if you're a traumagenic kinkomancer, or an endogenic kink wizard
Maybe I'll do the mental mauvements and flippy dip the script and resume posting here one day. But for now, I'm active here.
Ask yourself if you're a traumagenic kinkomancer, or an endogenic kink wizard
Kink Etiquette and Trauma
Posted 8 months agoPeople want to talk to me about kinky stuff? (Pasting this from my main)
I wanna talk about traumagenic kinks, ya'll! But I don't know how! I also want to talk about Endogenic kinks, and the relationship between them, and the overall etiquette?? of roleplay? But to key things in, let's focus on these elements:
Antagonism, sadism, and qualities like permanence send shivers down the spine. Negatively! Positively?? Ambivalently!?! All in varying quantities, too. So how do we handle the boundaries around this?
I don't know, I'm not offering solutions, really. Like I said, I'm here to talk, not reveal the new order. I'd love to hear others' thoughts <3! I personally just really like thinking and talking about these things.
But I am somebody who came into the online space packed full of Traumagenic Kinks. Traumagenic, meaning: I developed it as a response to trauma.
....So what? Right? A kink's a kink, don't make a stink, don't make me think! Right? Yyeaaahhhhh....wellll.....I was a teenager when I started out on DA. Not trying to make this about me, illustrating a point: I was young, naive, and trauma-centric entering the kink realm as an artist who wanted to contribute to a community(and get attentionplzpl0xthanks).
So what this means is: I had a traumagenic attitude about my kinks. ....This was a complex, most often horrible thing for me, and for the people who therefore began to encounter me on my journey across life as a toon artist, because the boundaries I had constructed around a traumagenic attitude were hurting others and myself whenever we engaged in kinkplay. The boundaries I'd subconsciously built were designed to essentially recreate the way my traumatic experience made me feel, in a kinky way: In a secure, trusted, safe environment? Right??
SURE? MAAAYYYBEEE??? But is it a actually safe, secure, and trusted environment if I myself am operating under a traumagenic intention and am essentially Seeking Any Actors Out For My Kinky Stageplay Where I'm The Director and Main Star?. Is it a safe environment between me and my roleplay partner on a 1 on 1 DM Session to roleplay something erotic together under that intention, and I haven't communicated my intention to them because I myself don't even understand it yet?? I really don't know, life is life??
What if it's not erotic, and what if it's actually a large, shared server and I'm just being antagonistic like a cartoon bully? Am I creating a fun, encouraging, playful environment if all I'm doing when I engage with it is twist every picture shared and joke made into something about me? Or if when others were goofing around, I always interjected to be a bully and insult others as a joke? And never quite extended past the boundaries of my little, little game?
After all, every cartoon slapstick needs an antag, and it's the only role I fit into y'know? Lemme just stomp on you some more, please~
Am I....having good etiquette if I do all of that? I did it most of my life, I'm ashamed to say, and happy to laugh at and share for the sake of wisdoms and insights, and the chance that others can take a crack at me and reveal something more maybe.
So what am I even trying to get at?
I'm not trying to create fear and apprehension around social banter and kinky roleplay, rather I am trying to promote more mindfulness about it. Because I really believe a tremendous deal of unnecessary pain, dread, and confusion is caused when people don't pay attention to themselves, the way I didn't.
And I believe a great deal of young artists who enter a kink community often are packed full of traumagenic kinks that they're still in the midst of trying to work through and understand how to express healthily with one another.
Which is why I'm writing this journal, to plead with everyone to be more mindful with themselves, and towards others. Because I would like to discourage the chances of more young artists being encouraged down an uncontrolled self-destructive path of kink-expression just because they meet people who like their art..
And if you want me to offer my solution to this whole etiquette problem?
I EVENTUALLY BEGAN TO practice sharing my feelings and speaking the truth of my desires as kindly as I could while remaining sincere to my personal boundaries, and then waiting for and responding to the response.
MY PERSONAL RULE OF THUMB If a toon can't show me some real feels, or at least make a genuine wildtake at the world news, then I will never share my kinks or playfulness with them.
Across most of my time online I feel like I've caused a tremendous deal of pointless minor and major sufferings... and incurred a great deal of them to myself as well, but perhaps those ones were necessary.
So why do I share this all now? Because I've started DMing D&D, as I call it for myself, Dandy Toons, and in the future that might grow into something much larger, and if it does....I'd like to have at least started encouraging the kind of roleplay environment around myself that I'd like to be within.
And these are thoughts that I believe are supremely important, as a person who has fucked around and found out and now wants to share the wisdom of pain.
Thanks for reading, thanks for being around and dealing with my clownin'.
I wanna talk about traumagenic kinks, ya'll! But I don't know how! I also want to talk about Endogenic kinks, and the relationship between them, and the overall etiquette?? of roleplay? But to key things in, let's focus on these elements:
Antagonism, sadism, and qualities like permanence send shivers down the spine. Negatively! Positively?? Ambivalently!?! All in varying quantities, too. So how do we handle the boundaries around this?
I don't know, I'm not offering solutions, really. Like I said, I'm here to talk, not reveal the new order. I'd love to hear others' thoughts <3! I personally just really like thinking and talking about these things.
But I am somebody who came into the online space packed full of Traumagenic Kinks. Traumagenic, meaning: I developed it as a response to trauma.
....So what? Right? A kink's a kink, don't make a stink, don't make me think! Right? Yyeaaahhhhh....wellll.....I was a teenager when I started out on DA. Not trying to make this about me, illustrating a point: I was young, naive, and trauma-centric entering the kink realm as an artist who wanted to contribute to a community(and get attentionplzpl0xthanks).
So what this means is: I had a traumagenic attitude about my kinks. ....This was a complex, most often horrible thing for me, and for the people who therefore began to encounter me on my journey across life as a toon artist, because the boundaries I had constructed around a traumagenic attitude were hurting others and myself whenever we engaged in kinkplay. The boundaries I'd subconsciously built were designed to essentially recreate the way my traumatic experience made me feel, in a kinky way: In a secure, trusted, safe environment? Right??
SURE? MAAAYYYBEEE??? But is it a actually safe, secure, and trusted environment if I myself am operating under a traumagenic intention and am essentially Seeking Any Actors Out For My Kinky Stageplay Where I'm The Director and Main Star?. Is it a safe environment between me and my roleplay partner on a 1 on 1 DM Session to roleplay something erotic together under that intention, and I haven't communicated my intention to them because I myself don't even understand it yet?? I really don't know, life is life??
What if it's not erotic, and what if it's actually a large, shared server and I'm just being antagonistic like a cartoon bully? Am I creating a fun, encouraging, playful environment if all I'm doing when I engage with it is twist every picture shared and joke made into something about me? Or if when others were goofing around, I always interjected to be a bully and insult others as a joke? And never quite extended past the boundaries of my little, little game?
After all, every cartoon slapstick needs an antag, and it's the only role I fit into y'know? Lemme just stomp on you some more, please~
Am I....having good etiquette if I do all of that? I did it most of my life, I'm ashamed to say, and happy to laugh at and share for the sake of wisdoms and insights, and the chance that others can take a crack at me and reveal something more maybe.
So what am I even trying to get at?
I'm not trying to create fear and apprehension around social banter and kinky roleplay, rather I am trying to promote more mindfulness about it. Because I really believe a tremendous deal of unnecessary pain, dread, and confusion is caused when people don't pay attention to themselves, the way I didn't.
And I believe a great deal of young artists who enter a kink community often are packed full of traumagenic kinks that they're still in the midst of trying to work through and understand how to express healthily with one another.
Which is why I'm writing this journal, to plead with everyone to be more mindful with themselves, and towards others. Because I would like to discourage the chances of more young artists being encouraged down an uncontrolled self-destructive path of kink-expression just because they meet people who like their art..
And if you want me to offer my solution to this whole etiquette problem?
I EVENTUALLY BEGAN TO practice sharing my feelings and speaking the truth of my desires as kindly as I could while remaining sincere to my personal boundaries, and then waiting for and responding to the response.
MY PERSONAL RULE OF THUMB If a toon can't show me some real feels, or at least make a genuine wildtake at the world news, then I will never share my kinks or playfulness with them.
Across most of my time online I feel like I've caused a tremendous deal of pointless minor and major sufferings... and incurred a great deal of them to myself as well, but perhaps those ones were necessary.
So why do I share this all now? Because I've started DMing D&D, as I call it for myself, Dandy Toons, and in the future that might grow into something much larger, and if it does....I'd like to have at least started encouraging the kind of roleplay environment around myself that I'd like to be within.
And these are thoughts that I believe are supremely important, as a person who has fucked around and found out and now wants to share the wisdom of pain.
Thanks for reading, thanks for being around and dealing with my clownin'.
My Guy at Bluesky
Posted 11 months agoHot Dog Hee Haw
https://bsky.app/profile/tantrictoo...../3lb36g6ufh22q
This is going to kind of suck re-uploading my smut here, but it will find and take a unique life on its own, in an environment that is far more alive and interactive compared to here. That genuinely terrifies me.
But I kind of genuinely hate how it feels to post to this site now.
It fucking sucks posting to FA now. It just feels awful. Everywhere feels awful, Bluesky included, but it's the best right now, and it's the only other place I feel even remotely comfortable sharing this smut after everything awful that went down with FA.
I barely even want to post my smut to this site anymore, because I was posting it here as a "this is the only comfortable place where I can share it and let others enjoy it, maybe."
And that's just...genuinely gone. So if I'm gonna post to bluesky, why even continue posting here? I guess because I have numbers here ah I don't give a shit about that.
I'm done posting here.
I will post the last four comics I have been working on this year for my YCH event. Afterward, I will refuse to post anything new to this account until I change my mind.
Everything really sucks for artists in the world right now. I'm just...so glad that art is more accessible than ever in terms of tools and knowledge, and how much artists want others to learn the craft.
https://bsky.app/profile/tantrictoo...../3lb36g6ufh22q
This is going to kind of suck re-uploading my smut here, but it will find and take a unique life on its own, in an environment that is far more alive and interactive compared to here. That genuinely terrifies me.
But I kind of genuinely hate how it feels to post to this site now.
It fucking sucks posting to FA now. It just feels awful. Everywhere feels awful, Bluesky included, but it's the best right now, and it's the only other place I feel even remotely comfortable sharing this smut after everything awful that went down with FA.
I barely even want to post my smut to this site anymore, because I was posting it here as a "this is the only comfortable place where I can share it and let others enjoy it, maybe."
And that's just...genuinely gone. So if I'm gonna post to bluesky, why even continue posting here? I guess because I have numbers here ah I don't give a shit about that.
I'm done posting here.
I will post the last four comics I have been working on this year for my YCH event. Afterward, I will refuse to post anything new to this account until I change my mind.
Everything really sucks for artists in the world right now. I'm just...so glad that art is more accessible than ever in terms of tools and knowledge, and how much artists want others to learn the craft.
Ehhh
Posted 11 months agoMaybe I should post this garbage to bluesky or something I dunno.
To be clear I don't mean I'm stopping here. But this place just feels so thoroughly soured.
To be clear I don't mean I'm stopping here. But this place just feels so thoroughly soured.
I'm not gonna block minors
Posted 12 months agoJust sayin'
Everything in my gallery is 18 rated.
Not gonna block minors
Anyway come ban me
Everything in my gallery is 18 rated.
Not gonna block minors
Anyway come ban me
Oh no, it's happening again
Posted 12 months agoMy gallery is gonna disappear!!!!
Because this place isn't gonna last another decade probably. Better download my junk as I dump it
Because this place isn't gonna last another decade probably. Better download my junk as I dump it
This Place Continues To Suck
Posted a year agoSlurp slurp slurp EW GROSS WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SUCK UP
UGH GOD WHAT THE HELL IS WITH THIS PLACE *SPIT* EW FUGGIN GAWD this place sucks so much, friggin GHUHHH
UGH GOD WHAT THE HELL IS WITH THIS PLACE *SPIT* EW FUGGIN GAWD this place sucks so much, friggin GHUHHH
This is the only place
Posted a year agoThis is the only place where I ever want to hear about sexual ideas or kinky topics or to hear about my porn/smut. Sorry folks, I never want to be talked to about it outside of furaffinity notes or comments, and no guarantee I'll ever want to reply to those notes or comments. It's just not interesting like that to me.
Love that you love it, hope you all enjoy it, but please do not approach me outside of this furaffinity account to talk about the stuff I've drawn here. Thanks
Love that you love it, hope you all enjoy it, but please do not approach me outside of this furaffinity account to talk about the stuff I've drawn here. Thanks
I just wanna say...
Posted a year agoSomething really awkward and discouraging and weird about this account, the art on it, and the people who follow and watch and engage with it, and myself.
Thanks for 2100 followers, my fellow clowns. I'll doodle a scene from the Dusty Dodgeball story as a celebration.
Thanks for 2100 followers, my fellow clowns. I'll doodle a scene from the Dusty Dodgeball story as a celebration.
Lol wtf
Posted a year agoThis place is so friggin' dumb as hell sometimes. I'm just gonna make this journal, to make a fool of myself, and hope I'm wrong.
I expect to get banned for some ridiculous reasons before I finish uploading all of my porn here.
I started posting it here with the intention to let this be the resting site of my porn, since this was the place it was welcome in. Things are sliding down a slippery slope, and I'm predicting I'll get smeared away as things heavily crash down that slope.
Obsessive perverts are the worst kinds of perverts. They can't just enjoy their own sexuality, they have to twist their dicks in a knot over the petty, imagined sexualities of others.
I expect to get banned for some ridiculous reasons before I finish uploading all of my porn here.
I started posting it here with the intention to let this be the resting site of my porn, since this was the place it was welcome in. Things are sliding down a slippery slope, and I'm predicting I'll get smeared away as things heavily crash down that slope.
Obsessive perverts are the worst kinds of perverts. They can't just enjoy their own sexuality, they have to twist their dicks in a knot over the petty, imagined sexualities of others.
I'm gonna post a lewd story
Posted a year agoAnd if I don't get any comments about what someone's favourite scene was and why, I'm gonna like...never draw any art of the story.
So I better get some comments, it's a good, however stupid and pointlessly lewd story, dang it.
I'll post it tomorrow. Niju and Kairune get into some hijinks.
So I better get some comments, it's a good, however stupid and pointlessly lewd story, dang it.
I'll post it tomorrow. Niju and Kairune get into some hijinks.
Uughghh Pornloading Sucks
Posted a year agobluhghghgh
It's so hard uploading old pooorrrnnnnnn....It's just sitting there in my computer, not in these stupid friggin' galleries. What the fuck is this absurdity, why did I keep deleting everything AAAAAAaaaaaaaa
I just wanted to whine about my very absurd plight of "I'm tired of posting my porn, please continue to enjoy it."
I've mostly uploaded alot of the old personal stuff, and a handful of commissions. I think I'll start uploading commissions next.
Going to try to keep the upload pace to once a day. I've got like...I dunno...literally another 300 aaaaaaa
I'll repeat it, because I confuse my audience with my dourness so often: I'm grateful that all of you enjoy the art I've poured my time and mind into, however silly and absurd its themes and sexuality is. Thank you
It's so hard uploading old pooorrrnnnnnn....It's just sitting there in my computer, not in these stupid friggin' galleries. What the fuck is this absurdity, why did I keep deleting everything AAAAAAaaaaaaaa
I just wanted to whine about my very absurd plight of "I'm tired of posting my porn, please continue to enjoy it."
I've mostly uploaded alot of the old personal stuff, and a handful of commissions. I think I'll start uploading commissions next.
Going to try to keep the upload pace to once a day. I've got like...I dunno...literally another 300 aaaaaaa
I'll repeat it, because I confuse my audience with my dourness so often: I'm grateful that all of you enjoy the art I've poured my time and mind into, however silly and absurd its themes and sexuality is. Thank you
Expressing Support(Ko-Fi)
Posted a year agoI read every comment I receive on this webpage, but choose not to reply to most for the sake of my mental health, unless I can find something amusing, or sincere but awkward to say in response. I really do appreciate them, but because of my somewhat unique, asexual disposition as an artist and former full time pornographer, I simply cannot regularly interact with people over this work without losing myself and my will to create.
My choice to avoid most interactions as an artist is so that I upkeep the spirit and attitude that is willing to share my work with others.
If you wish to express your support for my work beyond comments, I've opened up a Ko-Fi account to accept any tips and donations.
https://ko-fi.com/idunijurune
I am not promising to draw more smutty kink art in the future. I am not promising to give people rewards of any sort for expressing their support financially.
This is sincerely only so that people who want to express their joy and gratitude for my art may do so in a way that might better satisfy them, given that I don't have the personality and spirit, and willingness to cultivate those things, in order to satisfy and please those who express their enjoyment of my work.
Please do not donate if you do not have the excess funds. Take care of yourself first.
That's all.
My choice to avoid most interactions as an artist is so that I upkeep the spirit and attitude that is willing to share my work with others.
If you wish to express your support for my work beyond comments, I've opened up a Ko-Fi account to accept any tips and donations.
https://ko-fi.com/idunijurune
I am not promising to draw more smutty kink art in the future. I am not promising to give people rewards of any sort for expressing their support financially.
This is sincerely only so that people who want to express their joy and gratitude for my art may do so in a way that might better satisfy them, given that I don't have the personality and spirit, and willingness to cultivate those things, in order to satisfy and please those who express their enjoyment of my work.
Please do not donate if you do not have the excess funds. Take care of yourself first.
That's all.
IF FA ever disappears
Posted a year agoIf FA ever disappears completely, I just want you all to know...It was my intention from the very beginning, when I first started re-uploading my porn, to let it burn with this site.
Download my uploads here, because the chance I will ever choose to share it publicly again is very low.
And if I ever do publicly upload it again, I'll do it in a stupid way that makes me feel real clever and good about myself, but informs absolutely nobody about its existence. Because that's how I be.
So please download it while it's around, while I'm around.
Take care.
Download my uploads here, because the chance I will ever choose to share it publicly again is very low.
And if I ever do publicly upload it again, I'll do it in a stupid way that makes me feel real clever and good about myself, but informs absolutely nobody about its existence. Because that's how I be.
So please download it while it's around, while I'm around.
Take care.
Dildo YCH Comics Extension
Posted a year agoBecause of the hack. We done got hacked.
Because of this, I'm extending the auction by 3 days, now ending Monday night, August 26th & 11:59 PM CST.
Please bid here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57756357/
Because of this, I'm extending the auction by 3 days, now ending Monday night, August 26th & 11:59 PM CST.
Please bid here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57756357/
Thank you for 2K Followers!
Posted a year agoGenuinely thank you. I might not invest any of my soul in this account like I used to, but the pieces of my soul I'd once placed within it, and within the ridiculous amounts of porn I'd drawn across the years, are still things that I'm glad others can now enjoy without my personal interest being involved.
Sincerely, this account and the porn on it are simply artifacts of a life I tried to live, and died trying. And me sharing it all is nothing more than a memorial service, in order to acknowledge that despite how confusing, traumatic, and horrific my time focused entirely as a pornographer was...It was still good to have lived, and there are so many amazing people I've met and kept in my life as a result of my fumbling around.
So, I hope everyone continues to enjoy the memorial service, up until I start sharing the porn I'd started drawing 5 years ago and keeping entirely to myself and my closest friends. Once you guys start seeing a purple panther getting pounded and pulverized, the memorial service is officially over, and then...
And then we will see what happens. It might simply stop when I've run out of old porn, and secret porn to upload, because I don't expect myself to want to make any more porn, let alone share it at the end of this little song and dance, y'know?
Anyway, let's celebrate!
Please give me toony ideas and scenarios as suggestions for what to draw of Niju and Kairune tomorrow.
No promises, but the less words you use per suggestion, the more likely I will draw your idea because I'll have more leeway to perverse and twist your idea into something I'll actually want to draw. I'm a pervert after all, just like you all who are here. So give me some short sweet words to perversely twist for my own amusement to your own shock and surprise.
Also, that comic YCH is still up.
Sincerely, this account and the porn on it are simply artifacts of a life I tried to live, and died trying. And me sharing it all is nothing more than a memorial service, in order to acknowledge that despite how confusing, traumatic, and horrific my time focused entirely as a pornographer was...It was still good to have lived, and there are so many amazing people I've met and kept in my life as a result of my fumbling around.
So, I hope everyone continues to enjoy the memorial service, up until I start sharing the porn I'd started drawing 5 years ago and keeping entirely to myself and my closest friends. Once you guys start seeing a purple panther getting pounded and pulverized, the memorial service is officially over, and then...
And then we will see what happens. It might simply stop when I've run out of old porn, and secret porn to upload, because I don't expect myself to want to make any more porn, let alone share it at the end of this little song and dance, y'know?
Anyway, let's celebrate!
Please give me toony ideas and scenarios as suggestions for what to draw of Niju and Kairune tomorrow.
No promises, but the less words you use per suggestion, the more likely I will draw your idea because I'll have more leeway to perverse and twist your idea into something I'll actually want to draw. I'm a pervert after all, just like you all who are here. So give me some short sweet words to perversely twist for my own amusement to your own shock and surprise.
Also, that comic YCH is still up.
Dildo YCH Comics Auction
Posted a year agoTrauma and Kinks
Posted a year agoHeehee hoohoo, just how related are they? Depends on the person, but you don't wanna know. Heehee hoohoo
Awh fuck, really
Posted a year agoI knew it. I'm gonna hit 2k on this old smut dumpster account before I hit it on my main.
I guess I'll celebrate when I hit it.
Perhaps I can do a stream event, with a poll, to build a smutty picture idea to draw of Niju and Kairune. We can crush them by community and I'll just doodle a bunch of toony ideas involving them based on audience input at the time.
Something like that, because I'd rather not draw someone else's character in smut to celebrate this account. So dream up some Niju and Kairune ideas if ya wanna participate when it happens. Which will happen pretty soon I imagine, since I'll continue to post daily for quite some time.
I guess I'll celebrate when I hit it.
Perhaps I can do a stream event, with a poll, to build a smutty picture idea to draw of Niju and Kairune. We can crush them by community and I'll just doodle a bunch of toony ideas involving them based on audience input at the time.
Something like that, because I'd rather not draw someone else's character in smut to celebrate this account. So dream up some Niju and Kairune ideas if ya wanna participate when it happens. Which will happen pretty soon I imagine, since I'll continue to post daily for quite some time.
Kinky Ideas & Sharing Them(NSFW)
Posted a year agoAnybody else get that innate anxiety and fear whenever they share a kinky idea that strikes them powerfully?
I had that response when I first thought up to myself the whole "Fleshlight/Onahole" squashing transformation idea in my toony thoughts. But eventually, online I discovered that, even though people didn't draw that idea and come to it it in the same, malleable and toony way I did, other people still came to the whole "Person as a sextoy" idea, usually just through simple Transformation. So ever since then I've piggybacked on that tag, as I think a good handful of flattenings and whatnot are a sub-genre of transformation, though not necessarily all of them are.
I had that same response when I then later thought up to myself, in the middle of roleplaying in the Space Station 13 medbay, the idea of toons squashed and turned into a sextoy dildo, using their own genitals as the "mould" and their bodies as the stuffing. Terrified to share it, draw it for a year and roleplayed it before sharing it publicly. Terrifyingly fun stuff to think of, and that made me terrified to share with others.
And then eventually my brain took these two favourite sexually themed toony ideas of mine and simply combined them at their most obvious points and orientations...And now I'm sharing some of that art publicly, finally.
I genuinely am sharing these ideas because I want to infect the minds of others with my kinks. I don't really intend to draw it much or focus on it much like I used to. I didn't enjoy turning into Calicorvus all those years of focusing PURELY on smut. But I play with it enough to want to share my ideas on it, and hope that the terrifying weirdness I feel about my own kinks being blasted out publicly, bound up and dangling in suspension in the nude, flapping about in the wind like a flag....I hope that gesture of sharing my weirdness plainly and sincerely messes with everyone's heads.
Toons can be toys with the right kind of tweaking, tinkering, and teasing.
Also, I still get genuinely nervous about just how sadistic and masochistic some of my smut can be. Please understand that this is just in good fun, and that all of the sadistic interactions are performed in what is essentially the in-world equivalent of the context of roleplaying together. I just never draw them saying the safety-word, alright? Whatever awful, twisted shit happens to Niju and Kairune, I promise you...Niju is 100% into it every time. Kairune is 100% pissed off every time, but she's into it.
I had that response when I first thought up to myself the whole "Fleshlight/Onahole" squashing transformation idea in my toony thoughts. But eventually, online I discovered that, even though people didn't draw that idea and come to it it in the same, malleable and toony way I did, other people still came to the whole "Person as a sextoy" idea, usually just through simple Transformation. So ever since then I've piggybacked on that tag, as I think a good handful of flattenings and whatnot are a sub-genre of transformation, though not necessarily all of them are.
I had that same response when I then later thought up to myself, in the middle of roleplaying in the Space Station 13 medbay, the idea of toons squashed and turned into a sextoy dildo, using their own genitals as the "mould" and their bodies as the stuffing. Terrified to share it, draw it for a year and roleplayed it before sharing it publicly. Terrifyingly fun stuff to think of, and that made me terrified to share with others.
And then eventually my brain took these two favourite sexually themed toony ideas of mine and simply combined them at their most obvious points and orientations...And now I'm sharing some of that art publicly, finally.
I genuinely am sharing these ideas because I want to infect the minds of others with my kinks. I don't really intend to draw it much or focus on it much like I used to. I didn't enjoy turning into Calicorvus all those years of focusing PURELY on smut. But I play with it enough to want to share my ideas on it, and hope that the terrifying weirdness I feel about my own kinks being blasted out publicly, bound up and dangling in suspension in the nude, flapping about in the wind like a flag....I hope that gesture of sharing my weirdness plainly and sincerely messes with everyone's heads.
Toons can be toys with the right kind of tweaking, tinkering, and teasing.
Also, I still get genuinely nervous about just how sadistic and masochistic some of my smut can be. Please understand that this is just in good fun, and that all of the sadistic interactions are performed in what is essentially the in-world equivalent of the context of roleplaying together. I just never draw them saying the safety-word, alright? Whatever awful, twisted shit happens to Niju and Kairune, I promise you...Niju is 100% into it every time. Kairune is 100% pissed off every time, but she's into it.
Modus Operandimmer
Posted a year agoI'm going to post so much smut of Niju, and Kairune.
Then I"ll post so much smut of Scamp.
Maybe I'll repost some smut of Nairth, from his old Sona design. That one's kind of a personally complicated thing for me, but I'd like to share as much of it as I possibly can. We'll see.
Old Commissions are a last priority.
Once I've gone through the entirety of my old library, so maybe a year from now? Maybe sooner if I'm really, really strict about my smutty standards. But once that happens, then and only then will I inflict newly drawn smut involving my OCs Creszen, Gold, and King. Because for the last half a decade I'd started drawing porn that was entirely meant for my eyes only, and the few friends I deemed trustworthy and horny enough. But it's high time Creszen was humiliated publicly for his hubris. So....soon.
I am not going to open for pornographic commissions, unless I change my mind in the future. If you wish to see me draw your dongs getting squashed, you'll simply need to wait for a YCH opportunity from me. Because for reasons illustrated in my Tantric Toons journal about sexuality, I can't take smut commissions.
I read and appreciate every single comment I receive, but I am making an active effort to avoid interacting with people's comments on this account for the sake of my mental health.
So please enjoy, but don't be discouraged by my overall lack of response here.
Then I"ll post so much smut of Scamp.
Maybe I'll repost some smut of Nairth, from his old Sona design. That one's kind of a personally complicated thing for me, but I'd like to share as much of it as I possibly can. We'll see.
Old Commissions are a last priority.
Once I've gone through the entirety of my old library, so maybe a year from now? Maybe sooner if I'm really, really strict about my smutty standards. But once that happens, then and only then will I inflict newly drawn smut involving my OCs Creszen, Gold, and King. Because for the last half a decade I'd started drawing porn that was entirely meant for my eyes only, and the few friends I deemed trustworthy and horny enough. But it's high time Creszen was humiliated publicly for his hubris. So....soon.
I am not going to open for pornographic commissions, unless I change my mind in the future. If you wish to see me draw your dongs getting squashed, you'll simply need to wait for a YCH opportunity from me. Because for reasons illustrated in my Tantric Toons journal about sexuality, I can't take smut commissions.
I read and appreciate every single comment I receive, but I am making an active effort to avoid interacting with people's comments on this account for the sake of my mental health.
So please enjoy, but don't be discouraged by my overall lack of response here.
