Something interesting happened a few days ago. I was approached by someone who saw a lot of my old art on FurAffinity. They contacted me on Telegram and they asked me if I was still drawing. I told them yes and showed them several pieces of work that I haven't posted anywhere. It was mostly NSFW Kamal art, but they were made this year and last year.

Then they wondered, why didn't I ever start taking commissions? Why didn't I show people that I was getting better as an artist?

There are two... three... four problems. These are "me problems".

1st Problem: Why me? There are nigh millions of other artists out there who are better than I am and ever will ever be. I just... don't see the point in putting myself out there when I know my art is only "good enough" and there's too many people who are objectively better than I am. I don't believe I am good enough to be paid for. My art skills aren't "great", I'm not in that category of artists. I've brought this up to many people. No one refutes me on this, so it must be true.

2nd Problem: Knowing that most of the NSFW art I make is purely for its own sake. Not making a story. Not making a point. It feels so empty. What's the point in showing it?

3rd Problem: When I seriously thought about it, I don't want to be known as a furry artist. I don't want to be known as *just* a NSFW artist. What made me take learning art more seriously was other furry artists, but I didn't want to go in that direction. Every time I tried and still try, I get unhappy because I'm not doing what I want to be doing.

I started making art because I wanted to make comics. I wanted to tell a story. Mainly about stuff no one wants to talk about.

I am 100% willing to make a NSFW comic. This is fine by me. It's got a story. It's meaningful. It's not just a disconnected picture. I get to tell people something. I want to tell a story. Working on that Innomination comic and completing it was one of the most fulfilling things I've ever done with my own art skills. It took me 6 months to make it, working on-and-off. I want to go back to that, but making comics is really freaking hard. A lot of time on that comic was surprisingly spent storyboarding and fitting/squishing dialogue. A lot of intent went into every frame.

4th Problem: I am working on a card game that is taking a lot of my free time and especially a lot of money. Art isn't free. Artists deserve to get paid. But I don't see that for myself. Ironic, isn't it?

Maybe next year after the card game is done, I will come back to posting stuff online... but I still feel like shit because my skills are not where I wish I was. I am not as good as I want to be. I have a vision in my mind of what I would be happy with in skill and art expression. I'm currently nowhere close to that goal and I struggle to find out how the hell I'm going to get there. So much of art to me feels nebulous and unstructured. I have so much difficulty grasping something that I desperately want to be grounded, yet isn't because it's up to me on how I get there. I am so envious of artists who I think, have found their way there.

First of all, I'd like to thank everyone who has viewed or supported my artwork in any capacity. If you've looked at my channel recently, I deleted almost everything on it. Why?

I've been meaning to do a rebranding for this FA account for a few years now. Years have gone by... I kind of forgot about FurAffinity. During all of that time, I've been doing a lot of things IRL. Socializing online just... isn't enough for me. I wanted to be around people physically (fat chance of that happening right now). I wanted to make new things. Try a business venture. Be an entrepreneur... and pray I'll have something to my name that can actually pay off my student loans. lol

For the past few years, I've been thinking about making a card game. I'm both brave and stupid for wanting to create a customizable card game *this* ambitious. I didn't go into this nilly willy and I have a ton of reservations about making the financial push to actually do it, but I've been developing the prototype for two years now. I'll... figure out something. If you've stayed in contact with me for the last two years, it's one of the only things I've been talking about consistently. Must be annoying. I'm sorry! But, this is important to me.

Some of these new things are still furry-related. I want to share that part of them here.

If you're concerned about Kamal, don't be. He is still very much alive. He's one of the only things I still draw for myself personally. Aside from anything I make for personal work. Most of his art can be found on his own FA account and his Twitter. I don't remember how to link accounts, go find it! I think it's on the front page of my profile.

Now then, about the big sore spot in the world right now: the COVID-19 pandemic. No doubt we've all gotten our ears yelled off on this, but it's a real concern and I lost my job because of it. I have a new job thankfully, but it's difficult to plan ahead right now. I was supposed to go to local game shows and conventions (Portland, OR) so I can get local support for my card game idea, but that's not happening this year. We're all hopeful on next year's shows, but there's a real possibility that may not happen and we'll have to wait until 2022. I just don't know enough about what's going to happen in future right now. I think I'm going to be okay, though. I'm worried about so many other people, especially a lot of my previous coworkers.

I understand the pandemic has upended a lot of peoples' lives, but I swear. You all better stay safe.

My internet presence has died pretty much everywhere.

I am no longer posting on DeviantArt. I don't like DA for some substantial reasons. I blame them for it, no matter what they say about their search algorithms.

I have been drawing, I just haven't been posting anything. I may not post anything for the rest of the year. I'm focusing on drawing for now, but it has nothing to do with the holidays and I don't want to spoil any of it until it's actually DONE done. If anyone's been expecting any work from me, you'll have to keep waiting. I like to draw, but it doesn't pay my bills. Unfortunately, getting a paycheck comes first. :x

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Thanks to everyone who entered! There will be more Guys Nights in the future, so even if you didn't get in this time, keep trying!

I know I didn't say it before, but... You'll all be wearing clothes.

I'm almost at 5k views. Almost!

I might hit this goal before I get out of college. The term is over in about 30 days. I have two 22-page comics I need to do for my final projects, so I don't know if I will be able to fulfill my obligation until Spring term is over. With college out've the way, I'll finally have time to work on my web comic regularly.

What do you guys want to see for the giveaway? It most likely will be SFW. I think I want to do a group picture, because I also want to get Me and Him started again.

Have to create an 8 page webcomic about essentially anything. Must be posted online in a place where anyone can see it. No limits otherwise. Probably can't be anything sexually explicit. My instructor will most likely totally hate me. lol

HMMMM no idea what it should be about... It's due in a week.

Hello, everybody. I've been quiet for awhile due to college classes. One more term left! Then I'm done.

For the final two classes, I'm allowed to take anything I want, so long as they're 300+ courses. One class is about writing for comics and the other is utilizing that knowledge to create a comic in collaboration with someone else in the class. We will be making two 20-24 page comics over ten weeks. Each student draws one comic and writes the other.

Will I learn anything? No idea. Hoping to meet some cool people, though. Once that's over... I don't know what the hell it is I'm going to do. I can start doing other things, like going back to doing my comics and getting a Patreon started because I will have the time to finally do it and stay on a schedule. I also have a lot of other things I want to draw and write about. Maybe continue writing something I've been wanting to make into a real book.

Oh yeah. Gotta get a better paying job, too.

Kamal wants me to do more illustrations of him. And only him. Like drawing you for one of my comics isn't enough, already...?

The classes I'm taking don't give me a lot of assignments. It's the sheer amount of READING I have to do every day to stay caught up in order to answer important questions in class every day and to complete the weeklong assignments due at the end of every week.

I don't have time to draw anything until Spring Break.

In a bit of a rut. This term's classes require me to do a lot of reading. Doesn't even get into the homework or projects!

I'm also quickly running into financial situations. Comics, art, and going to college don't necessarily make money.

Also, 4k views. I will probably end up doing a free YCH once I hit 5k views.

I want you all to know I appreciate all of the views, watches, and comments. Sincerely. Sometimes I look back at what people have written to me. Knowing I'm being noticed, even if just a little, helps me keep going with this. I have members of my family who are also concerned about me, wondering why I keep doing art and "wasting" my time not getting money that I actually need. I have reservations about selling my art. Many artists I know IRL have told me to turn to Patreon. I have reservations about that.

Oh, and how could I forget. Kamal likes all of the attention, too. He wants more. Lots more! He keeps telling me to get off my lazy butt and draw more sexy pics of him. xD

On top of school getting more busy, what I want to post next is a series of pictures using Kamal's ref sheet. And since it'll be done as actions in sequence, I want to post them all together. There's a lot of them.

Thanks for being patient with me. I know I'm not the fastest artist in the world. Still slow. @_@

I've been using a Bamboo Splash for about 5-6 years, now. I'm surprised it's even lived that long since it doesn't look like the hardest of drawing tablets... Since a Bamboo is definitely on the lower end, some digital artists gave me advice: I need a better drawing tablet since well.. like I wrote down earlier, I'm surprised mine isn't broken yet. xD

I finally decided to buckle down, search, and purchase a medium Intuos Pro. Thanks to for helping me out on which size I should get.

Of course I still have a ton of learning to do. Still so shaky on so many techniques.

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I can't believe I missed on something so good. xDDD

Geebus, when people were telling me it was good, DAMN they weren't kidding!

Downloading now.

For people who have played it, what do you think?

The demo has already been datamined to hell and back. Search for it at your own peril if you don't want to be spoiled.

I've been playing a lot of Final Fantasy 14 for the last five months or so.

I am very, very tempted to start pulling out some FF14 art. It sounds very challenging, but I think I am ready to meet that challenge.

I don't have enough of my own characters to fill them in and I want to have fun with it, so it's likely they will be YCHs or something. I also desire more practice drawing different furries, so it will be a mish-mash of my likes. Haha.

Anyone playing? Anyone else finished?

All I gotta say: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Can't wait until next one. xD

Not kidding.

http://www.siliconera.com/2016/09/1.....ht-evolutions/

I don't know how busy I'm going to be when Fall term starts. I'm doing a senior capstone project and am closer to graduating, after all.

That being written, I would like to get a few commissions done before the next two weeks. As I settle back into school, my work days are gradually being lowered.

I deleted my commission submission. I did that so long ago, it's now irrelevant and I need to make a new one. Or maybe not yet, since I only have one example of the style I would like to do. I've just been thinking about the shading every day since I worked on it.
This one: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21018529/

Thank you for reading.

So I've been thinking about Power Rangers, Sailor Moon, and Kamen Rider recently and I realized something... I don't think I've see any furry super sentai at all. I did a quick look through the search at FA, but there's nothing great.

Why is that? I just think it would be absolutely incredible and hilarious.

Playing this game and playing around with all of the outfits gives me something to work off of.

I want to draw them! HMMMM... Expect another update soon.

Maybe he shouldn't be some random person I made up just for practice. Hmm... Needs a good name. Might go Chinese or Japanese.

Currently working a piece.

Hello, to the people who read what I write on FurAffinity, among other places.

I haven't posted anything in awhile. Three things are happening: First, I was working on my presentation for my senior capstone project. It got approved a few weeks ago and it made me very happy. So long as things work out for college as I hope it will, I will graduate early next year.

Second, I'm catching up on all of the video games I am interested in that are coming out this Summer, as well as playing the games I didn't have time for while school was in.

Third, I've been sort of depressed. For reasons I won't write about on the Internet. I appreciate concern from people I am internet-quainted with, but... I will talk about it with friends. As soon as I find the words.

I know, it's bad when webcomic updates are terribly sporadic. This is a huge No-No for serious webcomics. I appreciate anyone with a webcomic that does this. They're very dedicated.

Hey, look! Final exams are over and it's Summer Break. I haven't said or done anything in awhile. I was occupied doing other things. And unfortunately, when it comes between choosing hobbies and obligations... Well. Yeah.

It's just... too bad that there's a heatwave going over the Pacific Northwest right now. It will be this way for the next two days or so. Yesterday was the hottest day. I don't do well in the heat. Portlanders usually don't, because heat waves for us are considered pretty extreme.

Also, I don't like drawing when it's very hot. Having my computer on raises the temperature in my room. My PC is pretty old, it's definitely not a gaming PC, and it isn't exactly built to stay cool. The potential for overheating is highly possible and I don't want to lose my computer, so it stays off.

I'll finally be drawing, again. Soon, soon.

Games Playing Soon or Am Currently Playing:
Fire Emblem Fates
Odin Sphere: Leifdrasir
Atelier Sophie
Final Fantasy 14

I'm gonna need some help oh how to do this in a way that makes both me and everyone else who wants to participate happy. Your participation in this is very important because it will affect how I end up doing cameo and guest appearances in the short term and in the long term.

We will be talking about two things: Cameo appearances and Guest appearances.

I want these in Me and Him to be enjoyable. Something I will have a personal amount of fun doing. Usually it's gonna be me, Kamal, Lisha, and Meow Meow. But what if we need extra background characters? I want that space filled by someone or a group who have a recognizable face. Or at least an avatar, you know? I don't want them to be faceless randoms. In this case, we have a Cameo. I'd say more than half of the time, characters who come in as cameos won't be saying anything at all. They'll probably be doing something in the background and will only appear for a single panel. The cameo's significance is mostly small. That's why it's called a cameo.

Then we have Guests. As a Guest, you'll have a bigger role. This means your character will be drawn more than once. Guests will stick around for an entire gag. I'll do what I can to make sure the Guest is always part of a punchline. What your character is doing/saying must be relevant to what's happening in the current skit/gag. It would be really dumb if I want a guest to participate in a punchline, but someone wants me to write, "I was here," or "Hi Mom, hi Dad," instead. A non-sequitur has a time and place, but not here. That's not funny and that's not original.

I might end up putting a paywall on Guests. I can easily see a Guest appearance spanning multiple pages. These take a lot of time and I don't want to be adding a Guest to the comic for free. Either that or I'm going to keep Guests only to friends I know well or people I personally want in the comic to appear.

As for actual character portrayal: I want any characters I borrow as close to how they're supposed to be as possible. I'm a purist in that respect. But how to do it, actually? I was thinking of doing YCH-like openings.

When I finish my second draft, I'll start with a YCH-like submission. It'll be a messy preview of the next page and advertises where the YCH character will go. I may need multiple characters on occasion. Then it comes down to people actually submitting their characters to be in. Those interested in taking up a spot will have to fill in the blanks. Who am I drawing? Do I need to do anything specific and would be in-character of them to do? If they're gonna talk, what will they say?

Here's the hardest part: How do I choose who ultimately ends up getting in? I assume I'm gonna pick the person who has the best punchline, but that could be the same person over and over again who gets my sense of humor better than anyone else. And how are we going to explain how that same person has a dozen different jobs? There needs to be variety, because I certainly want more than one person participating or a small group, so... it'll be a little random?

I know Me and Him is still very tiny and I'm still basically a nobody, but I was wondering how people who watch what I do feel if I opened positions to have their own OCs or an avatar of themselves appearing for quick cameo appearances. Most of the time your characters will simply be featuring in one panel.

You'll mostly be appearing when I need more than my four main characters when I want to do video-game related content. I plan to use this in interesting ways, of course. And I will make sure you know what you or your character is doing.

I think it's fun when I can get readers to be part of my comic. So for everyone right now, what do you think? I'd really appreciate comments and feedback.

I'm still a crocodilian lover, but I needed an actual avatar image that wasn't any of the characters in my comics. So I came up with this white wolf dude. He's part of a new picture I'm finishing up and I hope to post it later today (it's 12:45 AM right now).

I also like to think of it as a start of me broadening my horizons. It's about time I start drawing things other than gators and crocs.