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Posted 12 months agoI don't make these very often. In lue of everything happening I feel I should tell anyone that may care enough to read this what's been going on.
A month ago I was in the hospital for a lung related injury called EVALI. Which is something that happened as a result of vaping.
Basically gave me lung damage with a side of pneumonia, I was on oxygen and at the hospital for an entire week and remained on the oxygen another 3 weeks.
I got off of it last Wednesday but I still use the oxygen tank to help with sleep apnea while waiting to get that treated in the next few days especially since I'm covered for it for another month or so. All the treatments have also been without insurance to cover anything. Working on that too though. Long as I don't vape or smoke anymore I'll be fine otherwise.
In the meantime the worries stay the same. The vaping was to deal with being so worried about everyone that I care about. Now I have nothing to stop the worrying and I can't handle the pain of feeling like I'm losing everyone I care about.
It feel like anytime I try to get my better. Everything else falls apart and I die on the inside watching everyone give up on each other. Here in three days will be one year since I lost a friend to suicide right in front of me. I haven't been ok since and I've destroyed myself these past few years just trying to be here and give everyone a reason to stick around for each other.
There's only so much one little wyvern can do though, I want to live to see everyone come home but it's not a day I believe I'll live to see. The holidays certainly are not the same without.
I just don't feel like picking myself up these days if this is all I'm living for, it feels like nothing short of my demise will bring anyone home at this point. Not suicidal myself just really feeling these things. It physically hurts to miss everyone the way I have to but I can't just leave myself cause I don't want to make anyone else feel that way and there are many I wish to protect.
I think that's all I got for now, hope those following me are doing well and those that see this at some point do good as well.
Take care of each other. Tell those you care about how much they matter to you cause you never know when the day may come when you can't.
Thank you.
A month ago I was in the hospital for a lung related injury called EVALI. Which is something that happened as a result of vaping.
Basically gave me lung damage with a side of pneumonia, I was on oxygen and at the hospital for an entire week and remained on the oxygen another 3 weeks.
I got off of it last Wednesday but I still use the oxygen tank to help with sleep apnea while waiting to get that treated in the next few days especially since I'm covered for it for another month or so. All the treatments have also been without insurance to cover anything. Working on that too though. Long as I don't vape or smoke anymore I'll be fine otherwise.
In the meantime the worries stay the same. The vaping was to deal with being so worried about everyone that I care about. Now I have nothing to stop the worrying and I can't handle the pain of feeling like I'm losing everyone I care about.
It feel like anytime I try to get my better. Everything else falls apart and I die on the inside watching everyone give up on each other. Here in three days will be one year since I lost a friend to suicide right in front of me. I haven't been ok since and I've destroyed myself these past few years just trying to be here and give everyone a reason to stick around for each other.
There's only so much one little wyvern can do though, I want to live to see everyone come home but it's not a day I believe I'll live to see. The holidays certainly are not the same without.
I just don't feel like picking myself up these days if this is all I'm living for, it feels like nothing short of my demise will bring anyone home at this point. Not suicidal myself just really feeling these things. It physically hurts to miss everyone the way I have to but I can't just leave myself cause I don't want to make anyone else feel that way and there are many I wish to protect.
I think that's all I got for now, hope those following me are doing well and those that see this at some point do good as well.
Take care of each other. Tell those you care about how much they matter to you cause you never know when the day may come when you can't.
Thank you.
Update with paypal.
Posted 4 years agoSo I again ran into the same issue as before though was able to get through, after words I decided to dig on the matter and it may have something to do with paypal itself. According to their user agreement which I just read in my inbox may explain why suddenly I and perhaps others may be having issues sending internationally.
"Discontinuation of the Digital Goods Micropayments Purchases Agreement
Effective: June 9, 2021
The Digital Goods Micropayments Purchases Agreement is being discontinued and will no longer be available and is therefore being removed from the U.S. Legal Hub."
This is what I think is the reason for sudden inability to get commissions internationally through paypal unless there are shinies or some other donation system set up. That seems to be the only way around this error so far from what I can see. If anyone else is having this issues or has any ideas as to what may be happening I'd love to hear what y'all think.
"Discontinuation of the Digital Goods Micropayments Purchases Agreement
Effective: June 9, 2021
The Digital Goods Micropayments Purchases Agreement is being discontinued and will no longer be available and is therefore being removed from the U.S. Legal Hub."
This is what I think is the reason for sudden inability to get commissions internationally through paypal unless there are shinies or some other donation system set up. That seems to be the only way around this error so far from what I can see. If anyone else is having this issues or has any ideas as to what may be happening I'd love to hear what y'all think.
Unable to send money internationally anymore. Not sure wh...
Posted 4 years agoSo I was trying to commission someone and went to pay them but trying to send either directly or by invoice doesn't seem to work if I'm commissioning someone not using US currency anymore and I'm not really sure how to fix it because the error message is saying that the sending was denied by my card's issuer so because of that I had to cancel a commission cause I couldn't figure out how to send it otherwise, anyone else have this issue or know how to fix it?
I seem to be able to send it internationally if they have shinies set up, otherwise I don't have a way to pay them. What can I do? lol
I seem to be able to send it internationally if they have shinies set up, otherwise I don't have a way to pay them. What can I do? lol
Free Art raffle.
Posted 5 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9725785/
Here is a link to a free art raffle from a friend good till Jan 8.
Here is a link to a free art raffle from a friend good till Jan 8.
Chance at free dragon art for word of mouth!
Posted 5 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9705896/
Check out this journal and follow the instructions and might get some cool dragon art!
Check out this journal and follow the instructions and might get some cool dragon art!
Art for 1,000 words
Posted 5 years agoSo I'm not much of an artist but I know how to write a good story. So if there's any artists who don't care to or can't write much. I wouldn't mind coming up with a story for a commission. I don't have much of a drawing talent as I said so I'd be able to work out a trade or going towards a commission. A pictures worth a thousand words as they say. I will write all 1,000 of them! :)
