Gonna list the days here and cross them off as I go even though I got a late start! If anyone else wants to join go for it!! This was taken from tumblr, I may also put my pieces up there after I catch up a bit XD

1. Excessive Gashes/Lacerations http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17916416/
2. Extra Limbs/Eyes/Etc http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17916483/
3. Surgery http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17916721/
4. Torture http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17922325/
5. Amputation http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17922905/
6. Cannibalism http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17931934/
7. Gut Spill http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17933355/
8. Ritualistic Sacrifice http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17933918/
9. Monster Form http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17934546/
10. Blood Bath http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17935353/
11. Skewered http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17941194/
12. Fire/Explosion Damage http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17944275/
13. Decay http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17954556/
14. Plant growth in body http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17961303/
15. Emaciation http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17972687/
16. Painful Transformation http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17977795/
17. Backstabbed (literally or figuratively) 17986062
18. Acid burn http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18005208/
19. Toolbox Injuries/Robotic Parts/Prosthetics http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18005208/
20. Parasite http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18034850/
21. Manslaughter/Serial Killer http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18035789/
22. Animal/beast wounds http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18036183/
23. Nosebleed/Bruises/Minor Injury https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18042791/
24. Post-Mortem examination http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18060082/
25. Skeletal/Bones showing http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18063129/
26. Crushed http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18136923/
27. Possession/Corruption http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18142492/
28. Sickness http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18143405/
29. Distorted Body/Broken Bone http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18144162/
30. Stitching http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18144854/
31. You made it! Combine any 2-3 above! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18146955/

ALL DONE

Well obviously I'm back from break. Been back since Tuesday cause there was a hurricane coming straight for home so my mom moved my flight in a panic but it wound up curving off to sea. This did give me an extra few days home to chill with friends but because my school likes to be really stupid sometimes my Thursday afternoon class got switched to Monday mornings which SUCKS. I missed that day of class (teacher says not to worry about the attendance and is aware of why i missed class so its fine just really irritating on my half cause I hate missing class). I only have 2 days of class this quarter, Monday at 8am and Wednesday at about 1pm so looks of free time to do art and school work. :D

Now as we all know it is October so there are art challenges all around and I tried starting 2 while I was still on break but it was eh and now that I'm back and will be on my laptop I have made the decision to do Goretober! Now I'm aware its the 9th already and I have to catch up but I really want to do it. I am already in the process of working on the pictures. So keep your eyes open for my pieces for that. If you're not fond of gore and such I'm sorry and just try to avoid it.

I still want to make adopts before the end of the month with spooky and Halloween themes cause I really like spooky things and I'd love some suggestions!

Also a big thanks to those who recently started watching that I didn't thank cause i was home and replying via phone is absolutely awful.

Yaaaaassssssssssss. Fall break is here and tomorrow I'm heading home to NY for 2 weeks. I'll be back in Pittsburgh October 3. Jazzz hands. I'm so excited.

So I'm not sure how active I'll be here. I might draw stuff, I might make YCH or adopts but we'll see. However, I am planning and in the process of making Halloween themed adopts for October. And I'd love some input and help on that. What kinds of characters should I make and what kinds of color schemes should they have? I already made a stitched zombie saber and I plan on a big werewolf, a bat and probably a spider. I might do candy corn themed but I'll see. So if anyone has any input feel free to tell me. :3

I'm also still selling lots of things so please take a look!!
Dragon Hatchlings OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16895213/
Foo Dog OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17453824/
Antaloupe OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17215120/
Mixed Batch OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16626824/
Reptiles OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17211572/
Unipup Adopts: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17215156/

I really want to make some money and save it up for emergencies since I don't have a job and only get money from my family every 2 weeks.

That's all. I'll see everyone around!

Yeah so I really wanna start making and saving money so in situations where I'm really low on cash I can have some stashed away on my paypal. So I'm just going to put up a big reminded here with all the adopts and OTAs i have going on right now.

Dragon Hatchlings OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16895213/
Foo Dog OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17453824/
Antaloupe OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17215120/
Mixed Batch OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16626824/
Reptiles OTA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17211572/
Unipup Adopts: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17215156/

I'm also open for commissions!! So if you want me to draw something for you note me!! My prices are good and I work really really fast!!
Prices and Terms of Sevice

I decided to jump on this cause I needed a new journal anyway haha
didnt steal this from a specific person, just kept seeing it and decided to do it

Basics

Name: Briana
Nickname: I guess Inferno for furry things and Bri/Bree… but I HATE BEING CALLED THAT
Location: Pittsburgh, PA
Age: 21
Height: 5'3 1/2"
Zodiac sign: Capricorn
Pets: I have two puppies at home in NY! ;w; and a yellow betta fish
Favorite thing about yourself: Mainly my optimistic outlook and my extreme neutrality
Worst habit: Procrastination and how I respond to stress
Fun fact: I have a 2 Ken Barbie dolls in drag on my dresser

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: Female
Sexual preference: Pansexual, female preference
Romantic preference: I guess panromantic?? No real preference here
"Kinsey Scale" score: somewhere between 4 and 5
Relationship status: Taken <3
Myers/Briggs type: INFP-A (the A is VERY important)
Hogwarts house: Gryffindor

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Night Owl
First thought in the morning: “When did I fall asleep last night?” and bathroom
Last thought before falling asleep at night: Usually something with OCs, possible roleplays and stuff haha. Or "when will the darkness take me?"

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: College student!
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Hopefully working in a theater at the least


Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: No
Smoke: No
Do Drugs: NO
Exercise: Haha. If you count walking to the school (less than 10 minutes) other than that I am a potato
Have a go-to comfort food: Either brownies or cookies
Have a nervous habit: Leg bouncing, nail biting and aggressively chewing on pens more than I normally do

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): Black soulless eyes :D and the fact I have muscle under my squish
In Others: Nice haircuts and eyes
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): I guess my optimism and neutral nature. Which I already said
In Others: Not being a dick is a start. Or really annoying/obnoxious. Really just people who have good senses of humor, are friendly and relatively nice
Food: I do love me a good burger
Drink: Vanilla coke
Animal: Doggies, most reptiles, crustaceans and cephalopods
Colors: Red (totally not obvious or anything) purple and I do like seafoam and beach colors
Artist/Band/Group: Currently I have to say Falling in Reverse
TV shows: I like too many things but JJBA IS PRETTY GOOOOOOOOOOOD
Video game: Silent hill, 2 is my fave in the series <3
Movie: Same as tv shows there’s really too many but if I had to pick I’d say Jeepers Creepers I don’t know why I just enjoy it very much

Break and AC are officially over and I just finished class for the week so I can get a look at how my quarter will go.

Break was awesome, I got to see a bunch of friends and hang out with them, my gf and my family. I watched 3 movies: Jurassic World, Magic Mike XXL and Inside Out. All were really great and enjoyable and now you can see my range of interests XD. I did lots of walking and surprisingly enjoyed it most of the time, even the 10.4 mile day for a burrito. I did quite a few traditional doodles of me with my friends from home like and another friend who doesn't have an account. Those will get scanned hopefully sometime soon. For the Fourth of July I went to a drag invasion (love me some drag queens) and had a pretty good time for the most part. Then I finally came back to Pittsburgh early for Anthrocon.

Anthrocon was fantastic! It was my first time attending the full convention so it was an experience. Got to hang with my local friends, my gf, a few guys from FA like and . I bought a small commission and a shirt and the rest of the stuff i got were gifts given to me by awesome people. <3 You know who you are. I was in the fursuit parade and the big photo in my partial too. Keep a look for me I'm the derpy red and black dragon. I'm waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay in the back with my head pulled up high so I could be seen between two tall furs. XD

As for my current quarter I only have 2 days of class. Monday and Tuesday. Hate Tuesday because I literally have class from like 8am-10pm. And even though its only 2 days some of the classes will require me going in on my days off to work on bigger projects so we'll see what happens. Right now I'm still planning on keeping my weekends free so I can draw and stuff cause I have stuff I want to do.

What I want to do:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6797376/
The stuff in this journal.
and the main thing is an updated ref of Inferno.
DID THE THING

That is all for now. I hope everyone has a good day and thanks for reading!

The quarter has ended and I'm currently in the airport waiting for my second flight. Finished all my finals with plenty of time to spare, now I'll be home in NY with friends, family and my gf .

I will be returning to Pittsburgh early for my first full length Anthrocon!! I can't wait!

Also I have lots of OTA's and Adoptables open so if anyone would like to help me out for some AC funds it would really be appreciated ;w; Check 'em out!

Unipup Adopts
Reptile OTA
Dragon Hatchlings OTA
Mixed Batch

Putting this here just to help keep track of things I want to do at some point in the future for myself and my art and what not.

Art Challenges: I've seen them quite a bit and I do want to try them out. These range in degree to how much I WANT to do them. I also won't start any until after Anthrocon because finals and break will have me too busy to work on this much art.

+Gore Challenge- Supposed to be 30 days, but there are 33 themes and I kinda want to do all of them SO... not gonna lie I REALLY want to do this one cause I'm a little twisted freak.

+Palette Challenge- I know these are kinda everywhere but I really want to play around with it. If I find a topic I want to mix with it I will.

+Fursona Challenge- Just drawing Inferno as a bunch of different species like in the "If your fursona had to be..." journal. (there's a proper name for this I just can't think of it at the time)

+Expression Challenge- Just taking an OC or sona and doing a bunch of expressions for them. I think it will serve as pretty good practice.

+Memes- There are lots of interesting memes out there for drawing so there's a bunch I might do/try.


You guys are more then welcome to suggest things like other challenges, memes, characters to put in them.

Tagged by:
RULES :
1. Pick a character you've created.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were that character.
3. Tag at least four people to do this meme
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal



Character picked: Inferno http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14939492/


1. What is your name?
Inferno Sizzion

2. Do you know why you were named that?
Fire and natural appeal of it.

3. Single or taken?
Taken

4. Have any abilities or powers?
I’m a dragon there for fire. And the wiggling neck.

5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
Eh. Whatever.

6. What's your eye color?
Orange

7. How about hair color?
Purple with darker purple tips.

8. Have you any family members?
Haha.. ha. We won't talk about that right now.

9. Oh? How about pets?
Not really.

10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
Dicks, douches... And oranges.

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
I love to draw, play video games, read and all that fun stuff.
And eat.

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Yeah.. just part of life I suppose..

13. Ever… killed anyone before?
Nope. Hopefully it stays that way.

14. What kind of animal are you?
Dragon.

15. Name your worst habits.
Nail biting.

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
Yeah, a lot of my friends, artists I admire, my parents, my one teacher.

17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Pansexual, but with a female preference

18. Do you go to school?
Yup. I’m currently in college.

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
Marry yeah. Kids… fuck that. Filthy creatures. I hate them.

20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
I don't think so and I really hope it stays that way

21. What are you most afraid of?
Sharks.

22. What do you usually wear?
Vests, tanktops, basketball shorts, capris or jeans

23. What's one food that tempts you?
Chocolate cream pie

24. Am I annoying you?
Slightly.

25. Well, it's still not over!
Of course not.

26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
I think middle? Lower middle? I'm not poor put I'm not rich either

27. How many friends do you have?
Lots and lots all over the place

28. What are your thoughts on pie?
Chocolate cream pie all the way. Most fruit pies.. ehh..

30. Favorite drink?
Mtn. Dew Code Red and Vanilla Coke are a pretty even tie. And Mango juice is pretty chill.

31. What's your favorite place?
Kinda hard to say. I’m pretty content when I’m with people I’m close to so I’d say whenever I’m with my girlfriend or close friends.

32. Are you interested in anyone~?
My girlfriend

33. That was a stupid question.
Yes.

34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
I like both, but I say lake just because I get paranoia swimming in the ocean sometimes

35. What's your type?
Short hair, tomboyish, kind, accepting, creative, good sense of humor and understanding

36. Any fetishes?
You know... I reserve the right not to answer this.

37. Seme or uke?
Shrug.

38. Camping or indoors?
Camping

Tag: Only if you care to do it.

I'm at LEAST trying to get enough money to preregister. I'd really appreciate if anyone could help me out by buying some adopts, getting some commissions or bidding on any of the stuff I have up.

These are my Prices and my TOS

These are the OTAs that still have adopts available
Dragon Hatchlings 1
Dragon Hatchlings 2
Reptiles
Mixed Group


Feel free to check them all out and look at all the neat things that you could get!

Since I finally made a price sheet I am now open for commissions! Feel free to comment here or note me if you're interested!
Prices and TOS
If something isn't listed feel free to ask! Examples are all over my gallery
I'm also going to be putting up a bunch of adoptables so keep your eyes open!

Digital:
Headshot Sketch: $3
Flatcolored Headshot: $5
Shaded Headshot: $7

Bust Sketch: $6
Flatcolored Bust: $8
Shaded Bust: $10

Full Body Sketch: $10
Flatcolored Full Body: $12
Shaded Fullbody: $17

Chibi Sketch: $8
Flatcolored Chibi: $10
Shaded Chibi: $12

Traditional:
Headshot Sketch: $2
Bust Sketch: $4
Full Body Sketch: $7
Chibi Sketch: $5

Traditional will be scanned
White, Gray and Tan paper available!
Pencil and Ink options!
**Locals will be able to get physical copies!!


Extra characters are half the original commission price. Ex: $10 commission+$5 for the extra character= $15 Total.

**Check my profile info for commission status!**

See? I'm getting there. It only took a few weeks.

I also recently broke 100 watchers! *throws confetti* Making progress! Slow progress but progress non the less!!

I still need to work on figuring out my feelings on commissions and prices and all that. And adopts. I need to work on that too. What do you guys think? Do you have feed back on the types of adopts you'd want to see? What kind of commissions I should offer and how to go about pricing? I'm but a squish and am very... eh in the brain about it. I never know how to go about it. So feel free to leave suggestions below to help me out ;w;

For the sliiiight spam of traditional works I had to scan stuff for class and just scanned a bunch of things.

WELP

I apologize as I will now talk about my life

Break is long over, I hung with my parents and traveled around Pittsburgh for a week. My gf came and stayed nearly an extra week thanks to so we could all go to the convention together so that was pretty ballin. :D

Prior to the con I basically hung around my dorm with everyone, helped with costumes and played most of Gregory Horror Show: Soul Collector cause I wanted to play and friends wanted to watch. Me and watched some movies, or at least tried to. I was surprised by the news of her staying an extra 6 days though telling me when I first woke up wasn't the best choice as I'm pretty much a potato with eyes at that point.

Then the con was suuuuper fun! I got some commissions from a few awesome artists there, a Silent Hill 2 poster and plushies like mY SEAL PUPPY. I needed it and regret nothing about it. I was a team rocket member with , then we all fursuited and then kigurumi party for the last day. Twas a good time as cons always are. OH. And I raved with a giant plush SNK/ATT fist.

But anyway..

very busy and unactive for the past few weeks because of this, I had lots of fun but now I gotta get back in gear for classes since it's the 3rd week of the quarter and now I'll start getting assignments to do :/

I'll also be drawing again soon so there's that to look forward to!
Provided I'm not garbage and submit nothing here

I swear I do one of these almost every time a quarter is about to end.

Next week is the last week of class before break and then my parents are coming down for a week instead of bringing me home. The week they're here I won't be online much and definitely won't be submitting any art since I'll be in a hotel with them. Spring break is only a week for WHATEVER reason so I'll be back and hopefully drawing again shortly after they leave.

Soon after the quarter starts I'll have some more stuff going on, is visiting and I CANT WAIT ASDFGHKL

Then right after that is a convention. A lot happening in a month but it'll be fun.

Did some spring cleaning on my profile, straightened it up and made it kinda prettier (to me at least) and as you can see I'm thinking about doing some things! Since I did my TOS requests might happen again to warm me up to my tablet after break and then I'll be getting ready to try simple commissions since I want to give it a try and hopefully make some money. If anyone has advice for taking commissions feel free to tell me some things. And recommended prices and such because I suck at that kinda thing haaaaa.

Maybe adotps in the future too?? What kind of animals you guys think would be good? Gimme feedback I want to do things next quarter cause I'll bee loaded with free time~

I think it's about time I actually did this so I can proceed with my life.

Terms of Service

I will draw
Humans, Anthro/Furry, Feral and pretty much any type of character
Gore/Blood
Simple Backgrounds

I will not draw
Adult/NSFW
Fetish (Baby fur, scat, extreme muscle, etc..)
My Little Pony or Sonic characters
Complex Background
Complex Machinery
Copyrighted Characters

Edits
I will edit my art to a certain extent if you are unsatisfied. Minor changes can be done. Major, depending on what type of piece it is, could be done. (if it was a request no major edits will be allowed)
Minor changes: Marking edits, color edit and other small things
Major: Limb movement, pose changes, background change

Wait Time
This can vary based on my work flow at school. I'm in college and sometimes I just have the time to draw. I try to work quickly, but give me at least a week or two before commenting about when your piece will get completed.

Reposting
You can repost my art as long as you give me credit for the piece and you're not trying to make a profit off of my art.

**I have the right to refuse a commission for any reason. Do not push me to do something I say no to.**


This is subject to change. As for my "will not" section, I have nothing against most of the stuff there and there's quite a bit of NSFW/Fetish stuff I have drawn for myself because its stuff I enjoy, I just don't want to post it. Don't try to make me draw it and post it here against my will, I may start posting it and offering it in the future. However, this is not guaranteed.

Look how lively I've been, posting art and actually doing things. It's nice to be alive. And see people actually enjoying the things I waste spend my time on! :D

I apologize for the sort of spam of Mario related things, but sometimes I just like being a nerd. So I dunno how often it will occur or how much fanart might be drawn but it's happening. I'll try to mix in some normal stuff with it like stuff for me and friends and all.

I'm probably gonna redraw my little aquatic dragon things and update their designs since I'm going to sculpt and design one for a class of mine this quarter. So expect to see more of them and probably one that will specifically be mine who will be all over. I gotta think of a pattern for him.. hmm.

As for request stuff, I actually had a lot of fun doing them! So expect more in the future though I'm going to need to make a Terms of Service for them. No one who got one broke any rules, but it was brought to my attention that its very likely someone could ask for stuff I will not draw. I am fairly laid back so most things will be 100% fine, but there are some things that simply will never happen. So expect that sometime soon, probably with the next journal opening requests.

That's all I'm planning for now. Enjoy whatever may come~

Yoooo back in one of my journals Ii mentioned after break I'd do some free requests! So i'm gonna stick to my word and do them. I need to get back into digital art and what better way than random freebies for people?

So simple rules:
1 character
SFW only

I will try to do full color. The type can vary from bust to full-body and depending how into i get it may even be soft shaded.

I will only be taking 4 for now, so who wants one?


1. - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15344450/ DONE
2. - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15510782/ DONE
3. - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10043683/ DONE
4. - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15124549/ DONE

EDIT: These are being done in a kind of random order so I'm not following the list.

I just turned 21 today!! Woot woot!! Time for me to use my age to eat bar food. XD
I'm not the biggest fan of alcohol so that's my only real goal for this lol
Thank you everyone who's already wished me a happy birthday and thank you to those who will in the future! I love you guys!!

And as an added bonus on FlightRising, today in one of the strange chests I got a nocturne scroll!! To those who know about FlightRising you know its pretty great and I've been looking for one since the beginning of the event. It was amazing to get it on my birthday and I couldn't be happier!!

Also, I realized I broke 1000 pageviews and 50 watchers~
Nothing astronomical but still pretty good progress!

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah and great holiday season in general and a Happy New Year!! Onward to 2015!!

In a few days I'll finally be heading home for my winter break! I'm nearly done with my finals for this quarter, just need to finish up and hand them in. I had my wave of panic already and now I'm at the state of just wanting the week to go by already so i can go home and just relax for a while.

A lot's going on this break. We have the big holidays: Christmas and New Years. My birthday on January 3: I'm going to be turning 21! Not that it really means much to me since I hate the taste of alcohol. All it means is I can go into 21+ bars and eat their food.

I have my anniversary coming up with

I'll be home from December 18 to January 10. While there it's rather unclear if I'll get any art done or submit anything.. but I'll try if I get and free time!

After I get back however, I'm thinking of maybe taking some free requests or something. But I don't know. We'll see when I get back.

Well, happy holidays!! Hope everyone has a great winter break and a fantastic holiday season!!


Oh, and as a side note: I'm getting close to the 1000 pageview mark :D
I might try to do something special for that depending on when it happens. Who knows? Maybe just a cute little picture commemorating the event. We shall see~

I don't know how well they'll do but I'm making adopts! They're gonna be space mermaids like my OC Jih. Though unlike him they are color based and have different traits that him.

There will be 6 of them and we'll see how they do. I'll probably sell them for $10 a piece. Just out of curiosity who actually is interested/cares? XD

Edit:

The first batch is up! Red, Orange and Yellow are now available. Let's see how they do!

I expect nothing.

X= yes, / = somewhat/it depends

Are you afraid of:

[/] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[X] giving birth
[/] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[/] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 2.5

[ ] being touched/touching?
[ ] fire
[/] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[/] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's dad
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's mom
[ ] rats
[/] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 4

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[X] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[/] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
Total so far: 5.5

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[X] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[X] ghosts
[/] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[/] growing up
Total so far: 8.5

[/] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets
Total: 9

If you wish to post this journal, it's been requested that you title it, "I'm afraid of __ out of 72 fears"

if you get more than 30, I highly suggest counseling
if you get more than 20, you're paranoid
if you get 10-20, you're normal.
if you get under 10, you're fearless.

I am fearless.




though if we really want to talk about my shark fear, that would have like a million X's next to it

You're beautiful. You're funny. You're everything I could want and more. I love you.

Have I told you this today? Probably not.
Do I say it enough? No.
Am I stupid for it? Of course.
Do I regret it? Everyday.

It's still how I feel though. I never say what I feel when I should. I know its a terrible habit. I'm just a train wreck of issues underneath the calm exterior.

But under it all I will always care. I will always regret my choices. And I will wait as I always have for things to get better.