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General | Posted a year agoHello sinners~
There's been something I've been meaning to say and I'm finally taking the time to do it. The following journal was uploaded to my Discord server. I am simply copy and pasting what was already said. Additionally, in this journal entry I make a reference to a previous journal that was uploaded in May. That particular journal entry was never uploaded elsewhere besides my Discord server. You do not need to read that journal for context. Thank you and have a great weekend!
This year has been a roller-coaster of emotions for me. Going through a breakup, relationship issues, having to move, depression, lack of unemployment, just to name a few. Despite all the negatives, I’ve been making strides in discovering myself, trying to understand who I am and why I feel the way I do about certain aspects of my life. One of these aspects I’ve been thinking about was my artwork. More specifically, what I draw.
I uploaded a journal entry in late May of this year that went into depth about what I was experiencing at the time and what some of my new goals were. There was one subject that I briefly mentioned without going into too much detail and I would like to take the time to explain what I meant by it. In that journal, I mentioned that I was beginning to get bored with creating pornographic artwork. A few nights ago I did some reflecting on the matter and I’ve come to realize that being bored wasn’t the right word to use. The truth is that it makes me unhappy. Drawing pornographic artwork isn’t giving me the same satisfaction as it did before.
The reason why I’m even still drawing it at this moment of time is because of money. In case you don’t know, I’m a full-time student and the only days where I could reasonably work are the weekends. Who would ever be interested in hiring someone who can only work two days, maybe three? Believe me, I tried applying to many different places and nobody, besides one employer that turned out to be a fluke and a huge waste of time, called me back. I was getting frustrated with job hunting and decided to just dedicate the free-time I had to doing art commissions, something I’m decent at.
I am well aware that commissions are not a reliable source of income, but what else am I supposed to do? I figured I’d cut my losses and just take any commission work that I could. Even if it’s unreliable, at the very least I would have some money. Boy was that a mistake! This was the first time I was accepting orders again since February this year. July was a great month! I received eight orders and I was able to meet my monthly financial goal thanks to the wonderful people who decided to commission me.
Yes, I pulled through and managed to make enough money to cover my expenses, but at the cost of my mental health, which is BAD! Truthfully, I’m not cut-out for the art grind. This is something I learned last year, where after four months of non-stop commission action, I (along with depression) burned myself out. Despite knowing that doing these things is not good for me, I did it anyway. I am making the same mistake again and I’m just not going to do it anymore.
I don’t want to spend all my free-time doing commissions. I want to draw what I want, and I’m tired of drawing pornographic artwork all the time. It was fun at first, but I’ve changed. I don’t find enjoyment in drawing this stuff like I did a year ago, or even 4 years ago. I do occasionally enjoy it, but what I’m trying to say is that I want to try something new. Instead of drawing characters getting every single one of their orifices stuffed full of chorizo, I want to draw characters interacting with their environment, doing a cool pose, or maybe even something spicy (like a fox in lingerie). Sometimes I don’t even want to draw a character and instead would rather draw a landscape, try new art techniques, and perform studies to gain more knowledge.
To further drive the point home, some of my favorite drawings that I’ve made this past year are drawings that don’t involve someone getting railed or having their face full of bro-gurt. I know what I want, but there’s a few concerns I have. The first concern is money. Not doing commissions means I have no way of earning money, which means I have to look for work elsewhere, if any. The second concern is my audience, the fans. We both know you follow me because you too enjoy seeing naked furry women. Once I change directions and start drawing things that aren’t that, some of you will leave, and maybe some will stay.
I’ve spent so much time and effort earning what I have now, which is all of you. For years I have dedicated myself to this. I’ve had ups and downs, and over time people found me and stuck by my side. I’m scared of this change. There’s something about letting go of something you’ve spent so much time building that makes me anxious. It almost feels as if all of this, the journey I had, was a waste of time…at least that’s what I used to think.
The ups and downs that I’ve experienced throughout my art career, and even my life, are what made me who I am today, and who I am today is not who I was yesterday. There’s nothing wrong with letting something go if it’s for the betterment of your own well-being. Change is uncomfortable, but without change, nothing changes.
So what does this all mean? What am I going to do now and what can you expect from me in the future? No, I’m not going to quit being an artist. I love drawing and I can’t ever see myself letting go of that, especially with how far I’ve come in bettering my skills. Will I be attempting to draw less furries in order to discover new avenues? Yes, yes I will. I love drawing furries and this community has given me so much that, again, I could never see myself NOT being a furry artist. I just want to try new things, that’s all. What you can expect is for me to draw less pornographic artwork. At most, I’ll draw something tasteful, or maybe sometimes I’ll draw someone naked, presenting themselves. Like I mentioned before, there are times where I enjoy that kind of work and there are times where I don’t. Whether or not I’ll draw something pornographic again will just depend on my mood at any given moment.
In regards to my frequency of uploads, nothing really changed. I’m still going to school and I still have less time to draw, not to mention that sometimes depression keeps me from drawing even if I wanted to. I still don’t know for sure if I want to quit commissions all together, or to occasionally accept a few here and there whenever I feel like it. If that last part is the case, I will definitely be making changes for what people can order. I’m still unsure of how else I’m going to make money, but I have a few ideas. If all else fails, I’ll just come back and do my best to grind out commissions. At the very least, I wouldn't have to subject myself to that grind forever.
If you’ve made it to the end of this journal, thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to do so. I know some of you will be disappointed with this news, but I’m only doing what’s best for me and I hope you can understand. Thank you for sticking by my side for as long as you have.
There's been something I've been meaning to say and I'm finally taking the time to do it. The following journal was uploaded to my Discord server. I am simply copy and pasting what was already said. Additionally, in this journal entry I make a reference to a previous journal that was uploaded in May. That particular journal entry was never uploaded elsewhere besides my Discord server. You do not need to read that journal for context. Thank you and have a great weekend!
This year has been a roller-coaster of emotions for me. Going through a breakup, relationship issues, having to move, depression, lack of unemployment, just to name a few. Despite all the negatives, I’ve been making strides in discovering myself, trying to understand who I am and why I feel the way I do about certain aspects of my life. One of these aspects I’ve been thinking about was my artwork. More specifically, what I draw.
I uploaded a journal entry in late May of this year that went into depth about what I was experiencing at the time and what some of my new goals were. There was one subject that I briefly mentioned without going into too much detail and I would like to take the time to explain what I meant by it. In that journal, I mentioned that I was beginning to get bored with creating pornographic artwork. A few nights ago I did some reflecting on the matter and I’ve come to realize that being bored wasn’t the right word to use. The truth is that it makes me unhappy. Drawing pornographic artwork isn’t giving me the same satisfaction as it did before.
The reason why I’m even still drawing it at this moment of time is because of money. In case you don’t know, I’m a full-time student and the only days where I could reasonably work are the weekends. Who would ever be interested in hiring someone who can only work two days, maybe three? Believe me, I tried applying to many different places and nobody, besides one employer that turned out to be a fluke and a huge waste of time, called me back. I was getting frustrated with job hunting and decided to just dedicate the free-time I had to doing art commissions, something I’m decent at.
I am well aware that commissions are not a reliable source of income, but what else am I supposed to do? I figured I’d cut my losses and just take any commission work that I could. Even if it’s unreliable, at the very least I would have some money. Boy was that a mistake! This was the first time I was accepting orders again since February this year. July was a great month! I received eight orders and I was able to meet my monthly financial goal thanks to the wonderful people who decided to commission me.
Yes, I pulled through and managed to make enough money to cover my expenses, but at the cost of my mental health, which is BAD! Truthfully, I’m not cut-out for the art grind. This is something I learned last year, where after four months of non-stop commission action, I (along with depression) burned myself out. Despite knowing that doing these things is not good for me, I did it anyway. I am making the same mistake again and I’m just not going to do it anymore.
I don’t want to spend all my free-time doing commissions. I want to draw what I want, and I’m tired of drawing pornographic artwork all the time. It was fun at first, but I’ve changed. I don’t find enjoyment in drawing this stuff like I did a year ago, or even 4 years ago. I do occasionally enjoy it, but what I’m trying to say is that I want to try something new. Instead of drawing characters getting every single one of their orifices stuffed full of chorizo, I want to draw characters interacting with their environment, doing a cool pose, or maybe even something spicy (like a fox in lingerie). Sometimes I don’t even want to draw a character and instead would rather draw a landscape, try new art techniques, and perform studies to gain more knowledge.
To further drive the point home, some of my favorite drawings that I’ve made this past year are drawings that don’t involve someone getting railed or having their face full of bro-gurt. I know what I want, but there’s a few concerns I have. The first concern is money. Not doing commissions means I have no way of earning money, which means I have to look for work elsewhere, if any. The second concern is my audience, the fans. We both know you follow me because you too enjoy seeing naked furry women. Once I change directions and start drawing things that aren’t that, some of you will leave, and maybe some will stay.
I’ve spent so much time and effort earning what I have now, which is all of you. For years I have dedicated myself to this. I’ve had ups and downs, and over time people found me and stuck by my side. I’m scared of this change. There’s something about letting go of something you’ve spent so much time building that makes me anxious. It almost feels as if all of this, the journey I had, was a waste of time…at least that’s what I used to think.
The ups and downs that I’ve experienced throughout my art career, and even my life, are what made me who I am today, and who I am today is not who I was yesterday. There’s nothing wrong with letting something go if it’s for the betterment of your own well-being. Change is uncomfortable, but without change, nothing changes.
So what does this all mean? What am I going to do now and what can you expect from me in the future? No, I’m not going to quit being an artist. I love drawing and I can’t ever see myself letting go of that, especially with how far I’ve come in bettering my skills. Will I be attempting to draw less furries in order to discover new avenues? Yes, yes I will. I love drawing furries and this community has given me so much that, again, I could never see myself NOT being a furry artist. I just want to try new things, that’s all. What you can expect is for me to draw less pornographic artwork. At most, I’ll draw something tasteful, or maybe sometimes I’ll draw someone naked, presenting themselves. Like I mentioned before, there are times where I enjoy that kind of work and there are times where I don’t. Whether or not I’ll draw something pornographic again will just depend on my mood at any given moment.
In regards to my frequency of uploads, nothing really changed. I’m still going to school and I still have less time to draw, not to mention that sometimes depression keeps me from drawing even if I wanted to. I still don’t know for sure if I want to quit commissions all together, or to occasionally accept a few here and there whenever I feel like it. If that last part is the case, I will definitely be making changes for what people can order. I’m still unsure of how else I’m going to make money, but I have a few ideas. If all else fails, I’ll just come back and do my best to grind out commissions. At the very least, I wouldn't have to subject myself to that grind forever.
If you’ve made it to the end of this journal, thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to do so. I know some of you will be disappointed with this news, but I’m only doing what’s best for me and I hope you can understand. Thank you for sticking by my side for as long as you have.
💰 Commissions are Open 💰
General | Posted a year agoHello sinners~
I am open for business! If you're interested in getting a drawing from me, please checkout my commissions page. There are a few things worth noting in regards to commissions, so if you'd like to give them a read, you can do so bellow. Thanks!
The following has been copied and pasted from my Discord server:
Hello sinners! Happy Saturday! I've got a bit to say today in regards to commissions.
🔸 Open for Commissions 🔸
I am open for commissions once again! However, this time I will be doing things a bit differently. In the past, I would only accept 3-5 orders at a time. Things are a bit different now and I would like to get as many orders as I can at any given time. With that being said, my commissions are no longer slot based (for now). You can order a drawing from me at any time!
Of course, if you have any questions, please reach out to me.
I have created a Wait List for anyone to come and see where their position is in queue.
Wait List: https://trello.com/b/L37taN6W/wait-lists
My terms of service have also been updated, so I encourage you to take a look!
Terms of Service: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
If you want to order something, you can do so by using the order form. Thank you very much!
Order Form: https://tinyurl.com/34e9dnwj
If you'd like to support me financially without ordering something, I do in-fact have a Patreon.
My Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/iniquity_arts
🔸 New Stuff 🔸
You can now pay an extra $6 to add lighting to a sketch. ☀️
🔸 Pricing Updates 🔸
My prices have been updated. Below, you can see the price increases. (old price ---> new price)
Tiers
> Sketch: $13 ---> $15
> Lines: $26 ---> $30
> Color: $39 ---> $45
> Render: $65 ---> $75
Extras
> Color (sketch): $5 ---> $6
> Extra character (sketch): $5 ---> $8
> Detailed background (sketch): $8 ---> $9
>
> Extra character (lines): $10 ---> $15
> Detailed background (lines): $16 ---> $18
>
> Extra character (color): $16 ---> $23
> Detailed background (color): $23 ---> $27
>
> Extra character (render): $26 ---> $38
> Detailed background (render): $39 ---> $45
🔸 An Apology 🔸
I want to apologize to those of you who have tried to commission me before. I understand how frustrating it is to have been waiting very patiently to get a drawing from me, only for it to be accepted and than ultimately ignored or turned down. This is a trend I have noticed with myself and I want to get better at that.
I've been battling depression and sometimes there are moments in my life where I shutdown and nothing gets done. If that ever happens again, which is anticipated, I will be more upfront with you and hopefully together we can come to an agreement.
I am open for business! If you're interested in getting a drawing from me, please checkout my commissions page. There are a few things worth noting in regards to commissions, so if you'd like to give them a read, you can do so bellow. Thanks!
The following has been copied and pasted from my Discord server:
Hello sinners! Happy Saturday! I've got a bit to say today in regards to commissions.
🔸 Open for Commissions 🔸
I am open for commissions once again! However, this time I will be doing things a bit differently. In the past, I would only accept 3-5 orders at a time. Things are a bit different now and I would like to get as many orders as I can at any given time. With that being said, my commissions are no longer slot based (for now). You can order a drawing from me at any time!
Of course, if you have any questions, please reach out to me.
I have created a Wait List for anyone to come and see where their position is in queue.
Wait List: https://trello.com/b/L37taN6W/wait-lists
My terms of service have also been updated, so I encourage you to take a look!
Terms of Service: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
If you want to order something, you can do so by using the order form. Thank you very much!
Order Form: https://tinyurl.com/34e9dnwj
If you'd like to support me financially without ordering something, I do in-fact have a Patreon.
My Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/iniquity_arts
🔸 New Stuff 🔸
You can now pay an extra $6 to add lighting to a sketch. ☀️
🔸 Pricing Updates 🔸
My prices have been updated. Below, you can see the price increases. (old price ---> new price)
Tiers
> Sketch: $13 ---> $15
> Lines: $26 ---> $30
> Color: $39 ---> $45
> Render: $65 ---> $75
Extras
> Color (sketch): $5 ---> $6
> Extra character (sketch): $5 ---> $8
> Detailed background (sketch): $8 ---> $9
>
> Extra character (lines): $10 ---> $15
> Detailed background (lines): $16 ---> $18
>
> Extra character (color): $16 ---> $23
> Detailed background (color): $23 ---> $27
>
> Extra character (render): $26 ---> $38
> Detailed background (render): $39 ---> $45
🔸 An Apology 🔸
I want to apologize to those of you who have tried to commission me before. I understand how frustrating it is to have been waiting very patiently to get a drawing from me, only for it to be accepted and than ultimately ignored or turned down. This is a trend I have noticed with myself and I want to get better at that.
I've been battling depression and sometimes there are moments in my life where I shutdown and nothing gets done. If that ever happens again, which is anticipated, I will be more upfront with you and hopefully together we can come to an agreement.
No Subject
General | Posted a year agoIf the Lord loves me, why do I keep waking up to this nightmare?
Commissions Open
General | Posted a year agoHello! I got caught up with life this afternoon, so I'm a bit late with this announcement. Regardless, I am now open for commissions! If you want a drawing, please fill out the form. Thank you very much!
💲 Prices: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
📝 Form: https://form.jotform.com/230458681559063
📄 ToS: https://tinyurl.com/46aj3aax
💲 Prices: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
📝 Form: https://form.jotform.com/230458681559063
📄 ToS: https://tinyurl.com/46aj3aax
Commission Open Friday, March 22nd
General | Posted a year agoHello sinners! Just wanted to let you know that I will be opening for commissions this Friday, March 22nd. I will be posting a link to the form around 12:30pm PST. Orders are first come, first serve and I am only accepting three at a time. You can see my prices and terms of service with the following link. Thank you for considering! 😁
Additionally, you will get 15% off (round to nearest dollar) if your order features two or more characters.
Prices and Terms: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
Additionally, you will get 15% off (round to nearest dollar) if your order features two or more characters.
Prices and Terms: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
Instagram & Commissions
General | Posted 2 years agoThe following has been copied and pasted from my Discord server.
📷 I'm on Instagram 📷
For a while I've been meaning to branch out to other social media, and one of those was Instagram. The potential for reach on Instagram is HUGE and it would be foolish to not attempt to post there. Obviously, posting on Instagram is not as simple for an artist like me who primarily creates adult content. I cannot just blatantly post pornographic content without consequences, even though I have seen some gnarly stuff being posted during my month of being on Instagram.
Instead of posting pornographic content, I am uploading ‘tasteful’ artwork. There are no nipples, penis, vagina, no fun stuff. Everything is featureless, but that is okay. If anything, I love the idea of not having to draw adult content for a change. It is refreshing to draw something that I can actually show to normies. I am hoping that by investing my time into Instagram, it would help people notice me.
I began posting on Instagram six weeks ago and things have been going great, minus the first day I uploaded and IMMEDIATELY got my account suspended. My confidence took a hit that day but I refused to give up that easily. Since then, I have close to two-hundred followers and I was able to reach my first milestone in less than two weeks. Needless to say, Instagram has been great!
If you want to follow me, you can do so with the following link: https://www.instagram.com/iniquity559/
Following is completely optional and you are not missing out on any content by not doing so. Everything that I ever draw is shared online for everyone to see!
💰 Commissions 💰
Over the past month I’ve been getting a lot of questions about when I plan on opening for commissions. First of all, thank you so much for your interest! It’s nice to know that you like my work enough to purchase something for yourself.
I’ve been taking some private work in an effort to help myself get back into the 'business' mindset. As of right now, I have three projects left to do before I can start accepting work from the public. I’m hoping to be able to do so sometime in March. As time progresses, I will keep you updated.
For now, I will leave you with my price sheet so that you can plan something for yourself and get an idea of what you want- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
📷 I'm on Instagram 📷
For a while I've been meaning to branch out to other social media, and one of those was Instagram. The potential for reach on Instagram is HUGE and it would be foolish to not attempt to post there. Obviously, posting on Instagram is not as simple for an artist like me who primarily creates adult content. I cannot just blatantly post pornographic content without consequences, even though I have seen some gnarly stuff being posted during my month of being on Instagram.
Instead of posting pornographic content, I am uploading ‘tasteful’ artwork. There are no nipples, penis, vagina, no fun stuff. Everything is featureless, but that is okay. If anything, I love the idea of not having to draw adult content for a change. It is refreshing to draw something that I can actually show to normies. I am hoping that by investing my time into Instagram, it would help people notice me.
I began posting on Instagram six weeks ago and things have been going great, minus the first day I uploaded and IMMEDIATELY got my account suspended. My confidence took a hit that day but I refused to give up that easily. Since then, I have close to two-hundred followers and I was able to reach my first milestone in less than two weeks. Needless to say, Instagram has been great!
If you want to follow me, you can do so with the following link: https://www.instagram.com/iniquity559/
Following is completely optional and you are not missing out on any content by not doing so. Everything that I ever draw is shared online for everyone to see!
💰 Commissions 💰
Over the past month I’ve been getting a lot of questions about when I plan on opening for commissions. First of all, thank you so much for your interest! It’s nice to know that you like my work enough to purchase something for yourself.
I’ve been taking some private work in an effort to help myself get back into the 'business' mindset. As of right now, I have three projects left to do before I can start accepting work from the public. I’m hoping to be able to do so sometime in March. As time progresses, I will keep you updated.
For now, I will leave you with my price sheet so that you can plan something for yourself and get an idea of what you want- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
2-14-24
General | Posted 2 years agoHello my sinners~
It’s been two months since I last spoke to you and a lot has happened in my life since then. This year has been very impactful for me so far, for better or for worse. I’ve been meaning to type this sooner, but I’m just so tired… In this entry, I will be discussing my current situation and the impact it will have on my artistic endeavors.
Currently, I am in the middle of a break-up. I do not want to delve into the details, but I will say the whole thing has left me feeling drained. You might have noticed that ever since the beginning of the new year, my output of content has been very very minimal, more than usual. Throughout January, I have been thinking about me and my significant other's relationship, and about a week ago, I made the decision to leave.
This decision has put me in an uncomfortable situation, since me and my ex still live together. We’ve been together for seven years, and in those seven years I never thought I’d have to scramble around for a way out anytime soon. There’s been so much I’ve been having to do, such as looking for a full-time job, preparing to move, looking for an apartment, etc… Everything has been super tiresome, and naturally, it’s impacted my art.
I never pride myself on being an artist who can upload artwork every day, but I have always done my best to keep some level of consistency. I know myself, I like to take things slow and go at my own pace. I’m telling you this to let you know that things are going to change around here. My upload consistency has already been slow as is, but it is going to get much slower. Not to mention how much this situation has impacted my motivation to draw in general.
As I mentioned earlier, one of the things I’ve been doing is looking for full-time work. I need a better job in order to sustain myself on my own, and currently I only work part-time. To anyone who has ever looked for a job here in the states, you know first hand just how much of a pain in the ass the whole process can be. That on top of worrying about where I am going to live and what my future might be has me stressed, worried, and tired. I’ve been doing my best to keep myself busy, but it still pains me.
I can’t predict the future, so who knows when I’ll be able to leave or when things will get better. As I focus on my personal life, I just want you to know that content will be slow. Once I finally have a full-time job, I’ll have less time to draw, but that does not mean I’m quitting art. I love drawing and it’s part of who I am. Despite working full-time, I’ll find a way to continue to make art, so don't worry. I’m not going anywhere!
As always, thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to read what I have to say. This whole situation sucks, but please do not worry about me. I am not alone in this chapter of my life. I have friends and family who love me, and I also have you, so thank you for being by my side all this time. From the bottom of my heart, I love you!
P.S. I will be making another announcement later this week in regards to my new Instagram account, commissions, and what the status is on my acrylic charms.
It’s been two months since I last spoke to you and a lot has happened in my life since then. This year has been very impactful for me so far, for better or for worse. I’ve been meaning to type this sooner, but I’m just so tired… In this entry, I will be discussing my current situation and the impact it will have on my artistic endeavors.
Currently, I am in the middle of a break-up. I do not want to delve into the details, but I will say the whole thing has left me feeling drained. You might have noticed that ever since the beginning of the new year, my output of content has been very very minimal, more than usual. Throughout January, I have been thinking about me and my significant other's relationship, and about a week ago, I made the decision to leave.
This decision has put me in an uncomfortable situation, since me and my ex still live together. We’ve been together for seven years, and in those seven years I never thought I’d have to scramble around for a way out anytime soon. There’s been so much I’ve been having to do, such as looking for a full-time job, preparing to move, looking for an apartment, etc… Everything has been super tiresome, and naturally, it’s impacted my art.
I never pride myself on being an artist who can upload artwork every day, but I have always done my best to keep some level of consistency. I know myself, I like to take things slow and go at my own pace. I’m telling you this to let you know that things are going to change around here. My upload consistency has already been slow as is, but it is going to get much slower. Not to mention how much this situation has impacted my motivation to draw in general.
As I mentioned earlier, one of the things I’ve been doing is looking for full-time work. I need a better job in order to sustain myself on my own, and currently I only work part-time. To anyone who has ever looked for a job here in the states, you know first hand just how much of a pain in the ass the whole process can be. That on top of worrying about where I am going to live and what my future might be has me stressed, worried, and tired. I’ve been doing my best to keep myself busy, but it still pains me.
I can’t predict the future, so who knows when I’ll be able to leave or when things will get better. As I focus on my personal life, I just want you to know that content will be slow. Once I finally have a full-time job, I’ll have less time to draw, but that does not mean I’m quitting art. I love drawing and it’s part of who I am. Despite working full-time, I’ll find a way to continue to make art, so don't worry. I’m not going anywhere!
As always, thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to read what I have to say. This whole situation sucks, but please do not worry about me. I am not alone in this chapter of my life. I have friends and family who love me, and I also have you, so thank you for being by my side all this time. From the bottom of my heart, I love you!
P.S. I will be making another announcement later this week in regards to my new Instagram account, commissions, and what the status is on my acrylic charms.
Reflection
General | Posted 2 years agoHello my sinners~
Lately I've been having some things on my mind and I wanted to take the time to talk about them. It's a long read, but it's something I want to get off of my chest. If you decide to delve into the depths of my mind and read what I have to say, thank you. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to do so.
If you asked me one year ago what my goals were, I’d tell you that I want to open a business and do art full time. Living off of my own work, having a bigger presence online, going to conventions and selling original work, that was my dream. Most importantly, I wanted to inspire others to pursue their own dreams, because if you saw that I could, you can too.
My ambition was so strong that I was able to make difficult decisions in order to pursue my dream. I quit my full time job and put everything I had into my artistic endeavors. I told myself that from then on, the only place left to go was up. I opened up a business and got myself registered in California. I remember being so proud of myself when I received my letter of approval from the Secretary of State.
Without thought, I immediately got to work. I began doing commissions non-stop and continued this for about four months before I hit a wall, and that wall was myself. I ended up getting depressed and all my work came to a halt. I remember being so confused about it all. Why was I sad? I was pursuing my dream! That’s nothing to be sad about. ‘Pull yourself together and keep moving,’ is what I used to tell myself. I couldn’t bring myself to move any further and for the rest of the year it was a constant battle with myself.
The feelings I felt and the words my mind would say to me were terrible. ‘Why’d you quit your job? You had a stable life, and you threw it away for what? Art? Just give up. You will never make it. You’re not good enough. No one cares about you. Your art sucks. Stop trying.’ No matter how much I reassure myself that I could, this wasn’t a battle I could win on my own. I knew I couldn’t make any progress without fixing myself first.
I would listen to motivational podcasts, read mental health books, watch videos, anything to help myself get out of this terrible place in my mind. Things have gotten so bad by the end of this year that I decided to finally seek out professional help. I scheduled a meeting with my doctor and was told I had to wait months before I could see them. Months? I have to wait months? There’s no way I could make it that long. Who knows what would have happened between now and then. I was afraid of what I might do to myself if I couldn’t hold out until then.
Knowing that I had to wait a few months before I could see my doctor about my mental health is what pushed me harder to fix myself. I hated being depressed and I was sick of it. After a month or two I somehow managed to free myself before I even met my doctor. I’m thankful that I even managed to do so knowing that there are many people in this world who can’t or could not do the same. Gone were sleepless nights and terrible thoughts. Gone were the days of sitting in my chair barely holding on. Gone were the days of feeling like I was nobody.
You might be wondering why I’m telling you this. None of this information is new and if you’ve followed me along on my journey you’d know about all this already. I’m talking about this again because I’m not the same person I was a year ago. I’m not the same man who decided it was best to put everything they had into one specific thing without seeing the bigger picture.
Vanquishing my depression gave me an important life lesson. I learned that I should move slowly and appreciate the small things. There’s more to life than just ambition and dreams. Learning this has pushed myself to focus more on my health and well being and spending more time with friends and family, even if that means taking small steps. That’s great and all, but what about my art?
Most people see art as a hobby, but for me it has always been more than that. Making art of silly fictional anthropomorphic characters is important to me, even if all I do is draw pornogrophy. These silly drawings are what helped me get friends when I had none. I’ve met more people and made more connections than I ever did through art alone, and that’s my point. There’s more to this than just making art for the sake of making it.
There’s a sense of pride and progression I feel when I look back at my old artwork. It’s a timeline of my ups and downs which lead to where I am now. In the beginning, I made art because it was fun. An old friend of mine inspired me to give it a try and I’ve loved it ever since. For years I never truly had a legitimate direction I wanted to take my art. I was content with just drawing whatever I or others wanted.
It wasn’t until last year when I began to take things more seriously. I would still love to be able to open up a shop and go to conventions to sell original work and merchandise, but the reality is I’m not ‘big enough’ to justify that sort of thing. There isn’t really a demand for it, so that tells me I shouldn’t focus so much on that. Instead, I’ll take things slow. I plan to open an Etsy store where I’ll sell a few things and if it proves to be successful, I’ll do more. If not, I’ll just focus on something else.
Personally, I don’t like the idea of having to do commissions for the rest of my life. I love the business aspect and being able to work with clients, but I know my limits. I can only do so much before I start to get burnout and that’s not something I want. If anything, I want to find a nice balance between being able to work on my own projects but also being able to work for others.
Lately I’ve been contemplating what I want to do. Do I want to make a comic? Do I want to join someone else's projects? Do I want to focus on developing my characters and stories or do I simply just draw without any real direction? These are some of the questions that I’m always asking myself. There’s so much that I want to do but I know I can’t do it all. I need a goal or purpose in order to get anywhere. Like I mentioned earlier, I’m not the same person I was a year ago and subsequently neither are my goals.
I want to take some time to reflect on what it is that I want. Once I figure that out I can continue full sail towards the future. I’ll be spending the next few days, or however long it takes, reflecting. Content will be slow until I return. I’d like to end my thoughts by saying how much I appreciate every single one of you who takes the time out of their day to read what I have to say. Thank you so much for making the decision to follow me on my journey. I will always love and appreciate you dearly!
Lately I've been having some things on my mind and I wanted to take the time to talk about them. It's a long read, but it's something I want to get off of my chest. If you decide to delve into the depths of my mind and read what I have to say, thank you. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to do so.
If you asked me one year ago what my goals were, I’d tell you that I want to open a business and do art full time. Living off of my own work, having a bigger presence online, going to conventions and selling original work, that was my dream. Most importantly, I wanted to inspire others to pursue their own dreams, because if you saw that I could, you can too.
My ambition was so strong that I was able to make difficult decisions in order to pursue my dream. I quit my full time job and put everything I had into my artistic endeavors. I told myself that from then on, the only place left to go was up. I opened up a business and got myself registered in California. I remember being so proud of myself when I received my letter of approval from the Secretary of State.
Without thought, I immediately got to work. I began doing commissions non-stop and continued this for about four months before I hit a wall, and that wall was myself. I ended up getting depressed and all my work came to a halt. I remember being so confused about it all. Why was I sad? I was pursuing my dream! That’s nothing to be sad about. ‘Pull yourself together and keep moving,’ is what I used to tell myself. I couldn’t bring myself to move any further and for the rest of the year it was a constant battle with myself.
The feelings I felt and the words my mind would say to me were terrible. ‘Why’d you quit your job? You had a stable life, and you threw it away for what? Art? Just give up. You will never make it. You’re not good enough. No one cares about you. Your art sucks. Stop trying.’ No matter how much I reassure myself that I could, this wasn’t a battle I could win on my own. I knew I couldn’t make any progress without fixing myself first.
I would listen to motivational podcasts, read mental health books, watch videos, anything to help myself get out of this terrible place in my mind. Things have gotten so bad by the end of this year that I decided to finally seek out professional help. I scheduled a meeting with my doctor and was told I had to wait months before I could see them. Months? I have to wait months? There’s no way I could make it that long. Who knows what would have happened between now and then. I was afraid of what I might do to myself if I couldn’t hold out until then.
Knowing that I had to wait a few months before I could see my doctor about my mental health is what pushed me harder to fix myself. I hated being depressed and I was sick of it. After a month or two I somehow managed to free myself before I even met my doctor. I’m thankful that I even managed to do so knowing that there are many people in this world who can’t or could not do the same. Gone were sleepless nights and terrible thoughts. Gone were the days of sitting in my chair barely holding on. Gone were the days of feeling like I was nobody.
You might be wondering why I’m telling you this. None of this information is new and if you’ve followed me along on my journey you’d know about all this already. I’m talking about this again because I’m not the same person I was a year ago. I’m not the same man who decided it was best to put everything they had into one specific thing without seeing the bigger picture.
Vanquishing my depression gave me an important life lesson. I learned that I should move slowly and appreciate the small things. There’s more to life than just ambition and dreams. Learning this has pushed myself to focus more on my health and well being and spending more time with friends and family, even if that means taking small steps. That’s great and all, but what about my art?
Most people see art as a hobby, but for me it has always been more than that. Making art of silly fictional anthropomorphic characters is important to me, even if all I do is draw pornogrophy. These silly drawings are what helped me get friends when I had none. I’ve met more people and made more connections than I ever did through art alone, and that’s my point. There’s more to this than just making art for the sake of making it.
There’s a sense of pride and progression I feel when I look back at my old artwork. It’s a timeline of my ups and downs which lead to where I am now. In the beginning, I made art because it was fun. An old friend of mine inspired me to give it a try and I’ve loved it ever since. For years I never truly had a legitimate direction I wanted to take my art. I was content with just drawing whatever I or others wanted.
It wasn’t until last year when I began to take things more seriously. I would still love to be able to open up a shop and go to conventions to sell original work and merchandise, but the reality is I’m not ‘big enough’ to justify that sort of thing. There isn’t really a demand for it, so that tells me I shouldn’t focus so much on that. Instead, I’ll take things slow. I plan to open an Etsy store where I’ll sell a few things and if it proves to be successful, I’ll do more. If not, I’ll just focus on something else.
Personally, I don’t like the idea of having to do commissions for the rest of my life. I love the business aspect and being able to work with clients, but I know my limits. I can only do so much before I start to get burnout and that’s not something I want. If anything, I want to find a nice balance between being able to work on my own projects but also being able to work for others.
Lately I’ve been contemplating what I want to do. Do I want to make a comic? Do I want to join someone else's projects? Do I want to focus on developing my characters and stories or do I simply just draw without any real direction? These are some of the questions that I’m always asking myself. There’s so much that I want to do but I know I can’t do it all. I need a goal or purpose in order to get anywhere. Like I mentioned earlier, I’m not the same person I was a year ago and subsequently neither are my goals.
I want to take some time to reflect on what it is that I want. Once I figure that out I can continue full sail towards the future. I’ll be spending the next few days, or however long it takes, reflecting. Content will be slow until I return. I’d like to end my thoughts by saying how much I appreciate every single one of you who takes the time out of their day to read what I have to say. Thank you so much for making the decision to follow me on my journey. I will always love and appreciate you dearly!
Away for the holiday!
General | Posted 2 years agoHello my sinners~
I will be away from home visiting family for the next few days, so content will be extra slow. Things will pick up again when I return. Until then, I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving! 💖🦃
I will be away from home visiting family for the next few days, so content will be extra slow. Things will pick up again when I return. Until then, I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving! 💖🦃
Some Announcements
General | Posted 2 years agoHello my sinners~
It’s been a while since I last had an announcement. Today I will be going over some updates regarding my artwork and future prospects. The following has been copied and pasted from my Discord server.
My Growth
I’d like to start by giving thanks to every single one of you who've stuck by my side since the beginning. This year has been rough for me mentally, but I persevere and continue to move forward. I am thankful for all of you who continue to support me and my work. Without you, I would not have made it this far. Thank you so much for all the love for what I do!
Furthermore, it goes without saying, but I am growing! Earlier this year I reached my first milestone of 500 watchers on Fur Affinity and last month I reached 500 followers on Twitter. These are big milestones and I am so happy to know that hundreds of people take an interest in what I do. Again, thank you so much for sticking around as I continue through my artistic journey.
Shoutout to all the sinners who recently discovered me and decide to stick around.
Online Store
I’m happy and excited to say that my ventures into the digital storefront are going well! I’ve already begun the process of getting merchandise made. On my store's grand opening there will be two types of merchandise available, stickers and acrylic charms. The selection will be small on launch, but over time I will continue to add more things for you to browse and purchase. I am venturing into uncharted territory so I’m taking things slow.
It’s looking like my store will open sometime early next year. Ideally I would like to have things ready to go by January. I’m still deciding where I want to set up shop and more information will be provided at a later date.
As for the merchandise that I’m selling, I am putting a huge focus on original content. The majority of what I will be selling will be centered around my characters and the worlds that they live in. If my store proves to be successful, I would love to do partnerships with other creators in the community, but for now I will ride solo.
Commissions
A lot of my time has been put towards getting my online store together. I’m reaching a point where I’m able to shift focus back onto commissions. I will be doing things differently this time, however. In the past I would only accept five orders at a time, but now I will only accept three. After all three orders have been fulfilled, I will reopen for more once I am ready. I am doing this to help prevent burnout.
My prices will be getting an update as well. There will be no drastic increase in price and the only tiers that would be getting any significant changes are my line arts and full renders. My new prices are currently a work in progress and I am unable to provide any insight on them until later.
At one point in time I used to offer sketch pages as an option for purchase. These consisted of three different sketches on one canvas. Pricing these will be a little tricky but I am looking into possibly bringing those back.
Content Going Forward
For a long time my content would vary between original characters, commissions, and fan art. I would like to start focusing more on the beautiful characters that I’ve made over the years and spending more time developing their stories and worlds. I will admit it is a bit tough for me to focus on one thing but I will do my best.
So what does this all mean? It means more demon babes!
Patreon
For those of you who don’t already know or simply forgot, I do in-fact have a Patreon. By far the best way to support me is to like and share my artwork with others, but for those of you who would like to do more, my Patreon is another option. If you’re interested in subscribing, you can do so by visiting the following link- https://www.patreon.com/iniquity_arts
It’s been a while since I last had an announcement. Today I will be going over some updates regarding my artwork and future prospects. The following has been copied and pasted from my Discord server.
My Growth
I’d like to start by giving thanks to every single one of you who've stuck by my side since the beginning. This year has been rough for me mentally, but I persevere and continue to move forward. I am thankful for all of you who continue to support me and my work. Without you, I would not have made it this far. Thank you so much for all the love for what I do!
Furthermore, it goes without saying, but I am growing! Earlier this year I reached my first milestone of 500 watchers on Fur Affinity and last month I reached 500 followers on Twitter. These are big milestones and I am so happy to know that hundreds of people take an interest in what I do. Again, thank you so much for sticking around as I continue through my artistic journey.
Shoutout to all the sinners who recently discovered me and decide to stick around.
Online Store
I’m happy and excited to say that my ventures into the digital storefront are going well! I’ve already begun the process of getting merchandise made. On my store's grand opening there will be two types of merchandise available, stickers and acrylic charms. The selection will be small on launch, but over time I will continue to add more things for you to browse and purchase. I am venturing into uncharted territory so I’m taking things slow.
It’s looking like my store will open sometime early next year. Ideally I would like to have things ready to go by January. I’m still deciding where I want to set up shop and more information will be provided at a later date.
As for the merchandise that I’m selling, I am putting a huge focus on original content. The majority of what I will be selling will be centered around my characters and the worlds that they live in. If my store proves to be successful, I would love to do partnerships with other creators in the community, but for now I will ride solo.
Commissions
A lot of my time has been put towards getting my online store together. I’m reaching a point where I’m able to shift focus back onto commissions. I will be doing things differently this time, however. In the past I would only accept five orders at a time, but now I will only accept three. After all three orders have been fulfilled, I will reopen for more once I am ready. I am doing this to help prevent burnout.
My prices will be getting an update as well. There will be no drastic increase in price and the only tiers that would be getting any significant changes are my line arts and full renders. My new prices are currently a work in progress and I am unable to provide any insight on them until later.
At one point in time I used to offer sketch pages as an option for purchase. These consisted of three different sketches on one canvas. Pricing these will be a little tricky but I am looking into possibly bringing those back.
Content Going Forward
For a long time my content would vary between original characters, commissions, and fan art. I would like to start focusing more on the beautiful characters that I’ve made over the years and spending more time developing their stories and worlds. I will admit it is a bit tough for me to focus on one thing but I will do my best.
So what does this all mean? It means more demon babes!
Patreon
For those of you who don’t already know or simply forgot, I do in-fact have a Patreon. By far the best way to support me is to like and share my artwork with others, but for those of you who would like to do more, my Patreon is another option. If you’re interested in subscribing, you can do so by visiting the following link- https://www.patreon.com/iniquity_arts
No Subject
General | Posted 2 years agoAnyone else wish they could just disappear? No traces? Just gone? As if nothing ever happened?
Be Back Soon
General | Posted 2 years ago——————
I’m typing this to say that I’m struggling. For almost a week I’ve been fighting with myself. I’m tired, I can’t get anything done, I struggle to stay positive, and my mind is doing everything it can to keep me that way. I don't know when I will feel better.
I’m going to disappear for a while until I can pull myself together. I hope you can understand. Patrons will not be charged for however long I’m gone and I will be refunding those of you who have commissioned me. Thank you and see you soon.
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I’m typing this to say that I’m struggling. For almost a week I’ve been fighting with myself. I’m tired, I can’t get anything done, I struggle to stay positive, and my mind is doing everything it can to keep me that way. I don't know when I will feel better.
I’m going to disappear for a while until I can pull myself together. I hope you can understand. Patrons will not be charged for however long I’m gone and I will be refunding those of you who have commissioned me. Thank you and see you soon.
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Art Hiatus & Digital Store Update
General | Posted 2 years agoGreetings mortals~
I've got a few announcements today. The following has been copied and pasted from my Discord server.
Art Hiatus
This Friday I will be getting oral surgery to remove my wisdom teeth. I was told by my surgeon that recovery can take anywhere up to a week. With that being said, it’s going to be a little dry around here when it comes to content starting this Friday, July 28th, until Friday, August 4th. This is my first time getting surgery, so I have no clue as to how quickly I will recover. Maybe it’ll take me four days, maybe it’ll take seven. I will have to wait and see. If I find that I’m able to function as normal, I’ll go back to drawing.
There have been some folks who have been submitting orders. If you’re one of them and I haven’t taken money from you yet, your order is going to have to wait until I recover. For anyone else, you’re more than welcome to submit an order, but know that I won’t be able to get back to you until later.
Digital Store Update
If you can remember, I once talked about how I want to open a digital store. I still very much do, but it’s been put on hold for multiple reasons. One reason being the mental rut I had found myself in for the past couple of months. Needless to say, things are getting better. There are a few things I must do before I can finally start putting some focus into my store. It **WILL** happen and it **IS** coming!
I've got a few announcements today. The following has been copied and pasted from my Discord server.
Art Hiatus
This Friday I will be getting oral surgery to remove my wisdom teeth. I was told by my surgeon that recovery can take anywhere up to a week. With that being said, it’s going to be a little dry around here when it comes to content starting this Friday, July 28th, until Friday, August 4th. This is my first time getting surgery, so I have no clue as to how quickly I will recover. Maybe it’ll take me four days, maybe it’ll take seven. I will have to wait and see. If I find that I’m able to function as normal, I’ll go back to drawing.
There have been some folks who have been submitting orders. If you’re one of them and I haven’t taken money from you yet, your order is going to have to wait until I recover. For anyone else, you’re more than welcome to submit an order, but know that I won’t be able to get back to you until later.
Digital Store Update
If you can remember, I once talked about how I want to open a digital store. I still very much do, but it’s been put on hold for multiple reasons. One reason being the mental rut I had found myself in for the past couple of months. Needless to say, things are getting better. There are a few things I must do before I can finally start putting some focus into my store. It **WILL** happen and it **IS** coming!
I'm on Itaku!
General | Posted 2 years agoGreetings mortals~
It’s been a while since I made an announcement. This one comes straight from my Discord server, originally posted on July 6th. I am going to copy and paste what was said, as I feel like it needs no revision.
As of late, Twitter has found itself submerged in issues, some of which require no explanation. It is no surprise that subsequently, people in our community have begun to look for alternatives for all their artistic/ranting needs. One such site that most have turned to is Itaku. Some of you might have already heard about this site, but in case you haven't, my friend Marc can explain it best.
"Itaku is like Twitter, Deviant Art, and Tumblr, all mixed into one convenient site. There's a standard timeline/feed like Twitter, but no algorithm. There is also a proper tagging system similar to e621. Galleries have folders to keep things organized and the site makes it easy for users to find new artists."
Thank you Marc! The site is still in its infancy but continues to grow. Just the other day the site reached a new milestone of 100,000 users. How many of those are actually active? I haven't a clue! If you're skeptical about the site or if it happened to peak your interest, I HIGHLY encourage you to make an account and check it out for yourself. Who knows, you might like it! Think about it. If everyone starts using this site, we don't have to use Twitter. Isn't that a good thing?
I will begin to post on Itaku starting today. This does not mean I'm ditching Twitter or any other website I post on. I will continue to use Twitter until something beyond my control prevents me from doing so. You can find my Itaku here: https://itaku.ee/profile/iniquity
That's all for now. Cya!
It’s been a while since I made an announcement. This one comes straight from my Discord server, originally posted on July 6th. I am going to copy and paste what was said, as I feel like it needs no revision.
As of late, Twitter has found itself submerged in issues, some of which require no explanation. It is no surprise that subsequently, people in our community have begun to look for alternatives for all their artistic/ranting needs. One such site that most have turned to is Itaku. Some of you might have already heard about this site, but in case you haven't, my friend Marc can explain it best.
"Itaku is like Twitter, Deviant Art, and Tumblr, all mixed into one convenient site. There's a standard timeline/feed like Twitter, but no algorithm. There is also a proper tagging system similar to e621. Galleries have folders to keep things organized and the site makes it easy for users to find new artists."
Thank you Marc! The site is still in its infancy but continues to grow. Just the other day the site reached a new milestone of 100,000 users. How many of those are actually active? I haven't a clue! If you're skeptical about the site or if it happened to peak your interest, I HIGHLY encourage you to make an account and check it out for yourself. Who knows, you might like it! Think about it. If everyone starts using this site, we don't have to use Twitter. Isn't that a good thing?
I will begin to post on Itaku starting today. This does not mean I'm ditching Twitter or any other website I post on. I will continue to use Twitter until something beyond my control prevents me from doing so. You can find my Itaku here: https://itaku.ee/profile/iniquity
That's all for now. Cya!
I Don't Understand
General | Posted 2 years ago——————
Since last November, I’ve done everything that I could to improve my life. I was inspired by people to pursue what made me happy, and so I did. I quit my full-time job in exchange for part-time work so that I could spend more time doing what made me happy. The pay is shit and I have no benefits, but the job is cozy and I barely make enough to get by, which is all I care about. I dropped out of college because I realized that for the past five years I have been lying to myself thinking that college was for me and it was something that I had to do.
I don’t need some degree to feel fulfillment and happiness. Looking back, I realize how pathetic my life was. I was just some fool doing whatever my parents told me to do. I was so focused on making my parents proud that I failed to see what I was doing to myself. I neglected my own feelings for a very long time and I finally decided to do something about it.
Ever since those big changes I made last year, life was good, for a while. Ever since April this year, things have changed. I was hit with depression. It came out of nowhere and I have been struggling ever since. I’ve done everything. Reading mental health books, listening to motivational speeches, talking about my feelings with friends, etc… Despite it all, I feel as broken as I did back then.
I don’t understand. I just want to be happy. Why is it so hard to stay happy? The pain never goes away. I have been spending the past two weeks playing games to distract myself, but the moment I step away, I get bombarded with negative thoughts. I can’t keep living like this. I don’t know what to do. Is this my life now? An endless struggle in the pursuit of happiness?
I have thought about seeing a professional, but I don’t like the idea of spending so much for only one session a month. I have thought about taking medication, but I am afraid of what it will do to me. I knew someone who took medication and it never seemed to work for them. Not only that, but they got addicted to it too. Will I have the same outcome?
The only solace I have is when I finally manage to fall asleep, and for a brief moment, my pain goes away.
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Since last November, I’ve done everything that I could to improve my life. I was inspired by people to pursue what made me happy, and so I did. I quit my full-time job in exchange for part-time work so that I could spend more time doing what made me happy. The pay is shit and I have no benefits, but the job is cozy and I barely make enough to get by, which is all I care about. I dropped out of college because I realized that for the past five years I have been lying to myself thinking that college was for me and it was something that I had to do.
I don’t need some degree to feel fulfillment and happiness. Looking back, I realize how pathetic my life was. I was just some fool doing whatever my parents told me to do. I was so focused on making my parents proud that I failed to see what I was doing to myself. I neglected my own feelings for a very long time and I finally decided to do something about it.
Ever since those big changes I made last year, life was good, for a while. Ever since April this year, things have changed. I was hit with depression. It came out of nowhere and I have been struggling ever since. I’ve done everything. Reading mental health books, listening to motivational speeches, talking about my feelings with friends, etc… Despite it all, I feel as broken as I did back then.
I don’t understand. I just want to be happy. Why is it so hard to stay happy? The pain never goes away. I have been spending the past two weeks playing games to distract myself, but the moment I step away, I get bombarded with negative thoughts. I can’t keep living like this. I don’t know what to do. Is this my life now? An endless struggle in the pursuit of happiness?
I have thought about seeing a professional, but I don’t like the idea of spending so much for only one session a month. I have thought about taking medication, but I am afraid of what it will do to me. I knew someone who took medication and it never seemed to work for them. Not only that, but they got addicted to it too. Will I have the same outcome?
The only solace I have is when I finally manage to fall asleep, and for a brief moment, my pain goes away.
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🎉 500 Watchers Milestone 🎉
General | Posted 2 years agoHello there! As the title suggests, recently I reached my first milestone here on FA. I have a few ideas for what I can do to celebrate, but I would very much appreciate your input. If you'd like, you can do so by visiting the link below and choosing something that you'd be interested in. Thanks!
Poll: https://strawpoll.com/polls/XmZRxVWKwnd
Poll: https://strawpoll.com/polls/XmZRxVWKwnd
4-20-23
General | Posted 2 years agoHello there! I hope this week has been treating you well. I have some matters I want to discuss as it greatly impacts the future of my content. I wish to also convey some of my thoughts. In advance, thank you for taking the time out of your day to read what I have to say. I am grateful!
If you read my last announcement you remember that I was discussing the investment of opening my own digital store. This prospect is very exciting, but there are some uncertainties. Originally, I was interested in primarily selling derivative work, a work based on or derived from one or more already existing works, based on well established intellectual properties. A great example is the countless waves of fan art you see being sold on digital store fronts such as Etsy or Redbubble.
It may seem cool at first, but that kind of business has restrictions, and most importantly, consequences. Before I begin I would like to state that not everyone is doing this illegally, but there are those who do. When the idea of opening my own store came into fruition, I already knew that I was getting into some murky waters. Common sense says that yes, selling derivative work of intellectual properties is wrong if you do not have permission to do so.
Some intellectual property owners have policies or guidelines that establish these kinds of matters, but it varies. Some owners make this information readily available and some do not. For example, miHoYo, the Chinese video game studio behind Genshin Impact, has guidelines for individuals selling derivative work. They allow individuals to sell a certain amount, but once the limit is reached, the individual would have to apply for a license to continue to do so.
I am not going to get into the legalities of selling derivative work. If this sort of thing interests you, I encourage you to conduct your own research on the matter. Long story short, I do not wish to do business with a blade hanging over my head. I already have my own issues and I do not need the stress that comes with selling derivative work illegally. So what does this mean? It means that instead of selling merchandise of characters like Krystal, Renamon, Loona, etc… I will be prioritizing my own original works.
This does not also mean that I won’t draw fan art, I still very much do, but rather it means I want to pursue my own ideas. Not only is this safer, but it is ultimately better for me in the long run. I love the idea of having my own brand and making characters that people enjoy to the point of wanting to buy merchandise. Building your own brand is not easy and it takes time, but I am dedicated to seeing this become a reality.
I personally feel that I am not popular enough to justify producing merchandise of my own characters. I can do it, but what is the point if no one knows about my characters? I am going to continue doing what I’ve been doing for now, which is focusing on getting myself out there and building an audience. Once I feel like enough people are interested, I will then look into opening a store.
As of right now, my content primarily consists of commissions with the occasional fan art sprinkled in. I am going to start focusing on my own ideas and get that ball rolling, so you can expect more original work from me in the not so distant future. You can support me by following me, sharing my work, leaving comments, commissioning me, or even donating through Patreon. Whichever you decide to do, thank you so much!
I’d like to take this opportunity to discuss something that has been bothering me as of late. Since last November, I’ve felt like I have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone when it comes to being social. This has never been an issue for me growing up, but it definitely has become one now that I am older. I am human and humans need to socialize. That is just how our world works. At some point, everyone has to do some kind of socializing whether it be for work, school, personal reasons, etc…
I primarily want to discuss the subject of meeting new people and making friends. I have no issue with meeting new people. In fact, I love meeting new people! I love getting to know others and hearing about their lives. The truth is that I do not feel comfortable making new friends, particularly close friends. I have been blessed to meet the beautiful people I can call my friends.
Ever since I began to pursue my dream of doing art for a living, I have been super busy. So busy that I do not have the time to make new friends. This is just one of many sacrifices that I made in order to pursue my dream. Making dreams come true takes a lot of dedication and sacrifice. I am thankful for the great friends I already have and I love them dearly. The truth is that I can not prioritize making new ones.
I don’t want to offend anyone or be disrespectful, but I just don’t feel comfortable when people come to me with the intent to be friends. Making friends takes time that I simply cannot spare right now. I am sure these people are great and nice, but I just don’t want to be friends. I have my own friends already. I guess what I am trying to say is that I want space. I just want to focus on me and my work.
I love my fans and I greatly appreciate them, but please understand if I wish to not be friends.
If you read my last announcement you remember that I was discussing the investment of opening my own digital store. This prospect is very exciting, but there are some uncertainties. Originally, I was interested in primarily selling derivative work, a work based on or derived from one or more already existing works, based on well established intellectual properties. A great example is the countless waves of fan art you see being sold on digital store fronts such as Etsy or Redbubble.
It may seem cool at first, but that kind of business has restrictions, and most importantly, consequences. Before I begin I would like to state that not everyone is doing this illegally, but there are those who do. When the idea of opening my own store came into fruition, I already knew that I was getting into some murky waters. Common sense says that yes, selling derivative work of intellectual properties is wrong if you do not have permission to do so.
Some intellectual property owners have policies or guidelines that establish these kinds of matters, but it varies. Some owners make this information readily available and some do not. For example, miHoYo, the Chinese video game studio behind Genshin Impact, has guidelines for individuals selling derivative work. They allow individuals to sell a certain amount, but once the limit is reached, the individual would have to apply for a license to continue to do so.
I am not going to get into the legalities of selling derivative work. If this sort of thing interests you, I encourage you to conduct your own research on the matter. Long story short, I do not wish to do business with a blade hanging over my head. I already have my own issues and I do not need the stress that comes with selling derivative work illegally. So what does this mean? It means that instead of selling merchandise of characters like Krystal, Renamon, Loona, etc… I will be prioritizing my own original works.
This does not also mean that I won’t draw fan art, I still very much do, but rather it means I want to pursue my own ideas. Not only is this safer, but it is ultimately better for me in the long run. I love the idea of having my own brand and making characters that people enjoy to the point of wanting to buy merchandise. Building your own brand is not easy and it takes time, but I am dedicated to seeing this become a reality.
I personally feel that I am not popular enough to justify producing merchandise of my own characters. I can do it, but what is the point if no one knows about my characters? I am going to continue doing what I’ve been doing for now, which is focusing on getting myself out there and building an audience. Once I feel like enough people are interested, I will then look into opening a store.
As of right now, my content primarily consists of commissions with the occasional fan art sprinkled in. I am going to start focusing on my own ideas and get that ball rolling, so you can expect more original work from me in the not so distant future. You can support me by following me, sharing my work, leaving comments, commissioning me, or even donating through Patreon. Whichever you decide to do, thank you so much!
I’d like to take this opportunity to discuss something that has been bothering me as of late. Since last November, I’ve felt like I have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone when it comes to being social. This has never been an issue for me growing up, but it definitely has become one now that I am older. I am human and humans need to socialize. That is just how our world works. At some point, everyone has to do some kind of socializing whether it be for work, school, personal reasons, etc…
I primarily want to discuss the subject of meeting new people and making friends. I have no issue with meeting new people. In fact, I love meeting new people! I love getting to know others and hearing about their lives. The truth is that I do not feel comfortable making new friends, particularly close friends. I have been blessed to meet the beautiful people I can call my friends.
Ever since I began to pursue my dream of doing art for a living, I have been super busy. So busy that I do not have the time to make new friends. This is just one of many sacrifices that I made in order to pursue my dream. Making dreams come true takes a lot of dedication and sacrifice. I am thankful for the great friends I already have and I love them dearly. The truth is that I can not prioritize making new ones.
I don’t want to offend anyone or be disrespectful, but I just don’t feel comfortable when people come to me with the intent to be friends. Making friends takes time that I simply cannot spare right now. I am sure these people are great and nice, but I just don’t want to be friends. I have my own friends already. I guess what I am trying to say is that I want space. I just want to focus on me and my work.
I love my fans and I greatly appreciate them, but please understand if I wish to not be friends.
Some Bad News, Some Good News - Announcement
General | Posted 2 years agoGreetings mortals~
I hope your week has been off to a good start. I've got a few things to say in regards to my content and future prospects. First, I'll give some bad news, then the good news.
You may have noticed that things have been a little slow as far as content goes. Largely to blame is my butchered sleep schedule, along with some negative emotions I have been experiencing. I bring this up because I am not sure how long I am going to be like this. Lately I've just been keeping to myself and I am currently at a point where I just want to be left alone to my work.
There is a chance that I will no longer be making streams a priority. I liked the idea of streaming since it allowed me to put myself out there while giving some of you the opportunity to interact with me where you couldn't otherwise. Needless to say, I've been feeling indifferent towards streaming. I am going to go the rest of this week without streaming to see how I feel. If I feel like things work best for me without streaming, then I will stop. If I feel like streaming is something I want to continue, then I will do so.
I ask that you please do not worry about me. Things are going to be okay and I will get through this like I always do. Furthermore, for anyone who speaks with me and I come off as not being interested in speaking to you, please do not take it personally. I would like to keep my social interactions to a minimum unless it is necessary to do so otherwise. Just because I do not speak to you does not mean that I do not appreciate you.
I would like to take this opportunity to say that I am growing! I am close to reaching my first Fur Affinity milestone of achieving 500 watchers. I have already began to think of what I will be doing to celebrate. I won't discuss it further until the time is right, but I believe a lot of you will come to appreciate what I have in store. 😉
Speaking of stores, I have plans to open one. That's right, I will be having my own little slice of capitalism! You may have noticed the cute little chibis I have been making recently. These chibis were made with a purpose and that purpose is the fact that you will be able to purchase and love them. As of right now, I'm primarily prioritizing in making stickers, but I do also want to get into making little charms or keychains.
Again, I do not want to get into too much detail until the time is right. It is hard to say when my shop will open, but I am looking to do so sometime this year, maybe in a month or two. The biggest thing is that I don't have a lot to sell at the moment. I have to spend some time making product and handling some legal stuff before I can begin.
I'd like to end this announcement by giving a shoutout to my recent watchers, followers, and server members. Thank you so much for your support and thank you for taking an interest in my work. I have some big things coming your way soon, so stick around.
Thank you!
I hope your week has been off to a good start. I've got a few things to say in regards to my content and future prospects. First, I'll give some bad news, then the good news.
The Fate of Art Streams
You may have noticed that things have been a little slow as far as content goes. Largely to blame is my butchered sleep schedule, along with some negative emotions I have been experiencing. I bring this up because I am not sure how long I am going to be like this. Lately I've just been keeping to myself and I am currently at a point where I just want to be left alone to my work.
There is a chance that I will no longer be making streams a priority. I liked the idea of streaming since it allowed me to put myself out there while giving some of you the opportunity to interact with me where you couldn't otherwise. Needless to say, I've been feeling indifferent towards streaming. I am going to go the rest of this week without streaming to see how I feel. If I feel like things work best for me without streaming, then I will stop. If I feel like streaming is something I want to continue, then I will do so.
I ask that you please do not worry about me. Things are going to be okay and I will get through this like I always do. Furthermore, for anyone who speaks with me and I come off as not being interested in speaking to you, please do not take it personally. I would like to keep my social interactions to a minimum unless it is necessary to do so otherwise. Just because I do not speak to you does not mean that I do not appreciate you.
My Own Digital Store
I would like to take this opportunity to say that I am growing! I am close to reaching my first Fur Affinity milestone of achieving 500 watchers. I have already began to think of what I will be doing to celebrate. I won't discuss it further until the time is right, but I believe a lot of you will come to appreciate what I have in store. 😉
Speaking of stores, I have plans to open one. That's right, I will be having my own little slice of capitalism! You may have noticed the cute little chibis I have been making recently. These chibis were made with a purpose and that purpose is the fact that you will be able to purchase and love them. As of right now, I'm primarily prioritizing in making stickers, but I do also want to get into making little charms or keychains.
Again, I do not want to get into too much detail until the time is right. It is hard to say when my shop will open, but I am looking to do so sometime this year, maybe in a month or two. The biggest thing is that I don't have a lot to sell at the moment. I have to spend some time making product and handling some legal stuff before I can begin.
I'd like to end this announcement by giving a shoutout to my recent watchers, followers, and server members. Thank you so much for your support and thank you for taking an interest in my work. I have some big things coming your way soon, so stick around.
Thank you!
April 3rd, 2023
General | Posted 2 years ago——————
For the past few weeks I have been hesitant on uploading another one of my “entries,” such as this one, where I sit at my computer late into the night reflecting on my feelings towards whatever particular subject that troubles me. “What is stopping you now?” you may ask? One night I sat here preparing to transcribe my thoughts into writing when I asked myself, “Who cares? Who cares what I have to say? Who cares how I feel? Why am I wasting my time talking about my feelings online? No one cares.”
I believed that. I believed that no one cared what I had to say. No one wants to read my rambling nonsense. Here I am a few weeks later doing it anyway, but why? I have a strong belief that everyone on Earth has a purpose. It is never something that is immediately clear to you. It is hard to describe, but when you find it, you will know. When you find that purpose, you can feel it in your soul.
My purpose is to inspire. I want to show others that it can be done. That if you set your mind to something, you can do it. It is possible! Years from now when I am living my dream, I want people to know that it took a lot of hard work to get there and that my dreams were not simply handed to me on a silver platter.
I want people to know that I am not perfect. That I have my own flaws and hardships. I do not want people to feel like they are alone in their struggles, whatever it may be. The truth is that I struggle just like you. Everyone struggles and sometimes we just need to be reminded of that fact.
A few weeks ago, my heart was damaged. I had a friend who I had known for a few years that I have grown to love very much. Our relationship was confusing and uncertain at first, but over time, we made it work. In an effort to keep things clear, I will be referring to this friend as Thomas.
When I first met Thomas, I did not like him. His personality clashed with mine and it was often difficult to relate with him. Thomas never liked talking about himself. You could not have a passionate conversation with him, since he would either avoid the conversation altogether or would show disinterest. If the conversation was about him, he wanted nothing to do with it.
There are individuals that, for their own personal reasons, do not wish to be open about their feelings and personal troubles. There is nothing wrong with this, but at some point you have to realize that not everyone is out to hurt you. There are people who genuinely care for you, and would love nothing more than to help.
I never overstepped boundaries with Thomas. I respected their wish to not have their personal life pried into and left it at that. For years I knew little to nothing about Thomas, but Thomas knew a lot about me. There were nights where I stayed up with Thomas and I would ramble on about things that troubled me. He often never really cared about what I had to say. Despite that, his company was enough to make me feel better.
This weird relationship I had with Thomas began to change when last year, I found myself in one of the lowest points in my life. A time where I felt like my life was falling apart and nothing I did could fix it. A time where I was completely alone. A terrible time. One person in particular helped me get back on my feet. That person was Thomas. The very same Thomas that never seemed to care.
This is not to say that there were not others who helped me along the way. I did have friends who gave me their support, but Thomas was the one who had left the biggest impact. Once I got through that rough chapter of my life, my perspective of Thomas had changed. It just so turned out that I loved Thomas. Not in a romantic way, but in an appreciative sort of way.
He helped me get through a rough spot in my life and I loved him for it. His willingness to help me proved to me that, despite his mysterious ways, he cared about me. From then on, every chance that I had, I would remind him that I too cared about him and that I loved him very much. Overtime, Thomas would begin to tell me things about his life.
Remember, this is something that Thomas never does to anyone. Hearing him talk about his feelings for the first time made me feel special. It told me that he trusted me. One day he told me he loved me. I will never forget it. Our relationship continued to grow and grow and we became best friends.
This all changed a few weeks ago. I do not wish to get into the specific details, but I will summarize. One night Thomas got upset with me over something I consider to be minor. Despite me feeling like his emotions were uncalled for, I understood them. I understood that he was upset and I wanted to do my best to fix it.
Needless to say, things got out of hand and I myself ended up getting upset with him too. Thomas said things that were untrue and did not make any sense. Things that I did not agree with. When I attempted to reinforce this, he ignored me. The next day he would pretend as if nothing had happened.
One thing that I can not stand is when someone clearly has a problem with you and when you try to reason with them, they want nothing to do with it, and come the next day they pretend like nothing ever happened. My parents would do this to me all the time and it became something I despised. I have always been a strong believer in that if you ever have a problem with someone, you should speak to them directly and attempt to resolve it. There is no point in pretending like nothing happened because that only makes things worse.
This happened for a few days between me and Thomas and one night I had enough. Not having an explanation for why he was treating me this way was beginning to bother me and distract me from life. I needed to know what his deal was and I needed to know now. No more beating around the bush. I wanted to fix this once and for all.
That night, Thomas was spending time with some of his friends. I felt bad for having to send him such a serious message at a time where he clearly just wanted to relax, but I needed to get it off my chest. I sent him a message where I told him how I felt about the situation and that if things were going to get better, he needed to stop what he was doing and come speak to me.
In my mind I figured that if Thomas really cared about our relationship, he would stop what he was doing and come speak to me. Just as I began to think he would not reply back, he did. However his response was insincere, and it told me everything I needed to know. I got really upset and I ended up blocking him.
I thought Thomas loved me. How could he suddenly do a one-eighty and treat me differently? I was confused, mad, and sad. I did not know what to believe. Me and Thomas share a few friends. Since this whole incident began, a few of our friends have reached out to me and have told me that Thomas wants to speak to me and that he has been trying to get a hold of me with no success.
My friends tell me that Thomas can not speak to me since I have him blocked. This is true, yet it is also untrue. Thomas has not done all that he can do, and I am not going to make it easy for him. This is my way of knowing whether he is being sincere or not. I do not like it when a couple has an issue and again, instead of reaching out to the person they have trouble with, they start getting others involved.
These next words are for you, Thomas. I just want you to know that I love you. You mean a lot to me, but that night you really hurt my feelings. I am not upset with you anymore. Despite this, I am not going to bend myself backwards for you. If you really love me back, you will come to me and stop using our friends to speak for you.
You are a smart guy. Much smarter than I am. You know how to get a hold of me. You know where to find me. I will be here waiting for you.
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For the past few weeks I have been hesitant on uploading another one of my “entries,” such as this one, where I sit at my computer late into the night reflecting on my feelings towards whatever particular subject that troubles me. “What is stopping you now?” you may ask? One night I sat here preparing to transcribe my thoughts into writing when I asked myself, “Who cares? Who cares what I have to say? Who cares how I feel? Why am I wasting my time talking about my feelings online? No one cares.”
I believed that. I believed that no one cared what I had to say. No one wants to read my rambling nonsense. Here I am a few weeks later doing it anyway, but why? I have a strong belief that everyone on Earth has a purpose. It is never something that is immediately clear to you. It is hard to describe, but when you find it, you will know. When you find that purpose, you can feel it in your soul.
My purpose is to inspire. I want to show others that it can be done. That if you set your mind to something, you can do it. It is possible! Years from now when I am living my dream, I want people to know that it took a lot of hard work to get there and that my dreams were not simply handed to me on a silver platter.
I want people to know that I am not perfect. That I have my own flaws and hardships. I do not want people to feel like they are alone in their struggles, whatever it may be. The truth is that I struggle just like you. Everyone struggles and sometimes we just need to be reminded of that fact.
A few weeks ago, my heart was damaged. I had a friend who I had known for a few years that I have grown to love very much. Our relationship was confusing and uncertain at first, but over time, we made it work. In an effort to keep things clear, I will be referring to this friend as Thomas.
When I first met Thomas, I did not like him. His personality clashed with mine and it was often difficult to relate with him. Thomas never liked talking about himself. You could not have a passionate conversation with him, since he would either avoid the conversation altogether or would show disinterest. If the conversation was about him, he wanted nothing to do with it.
There are individuals that, for their own personal reasons, do not wish to be open about their feelings and personal troubles. There is nothing wrong with this, but at some point you have to realize that not everyone is out to hurt you. There are people who genuinely care for you, and would love nothing more than to help.
I never overstepped boundaries with Thomas. I respected their wish to not have their personal life pried into and left it at that. For years I knew little to nothing about Thomas, but Thomas knew a lot about me. There were nights where I stayed up with Thomas and I would ramble on about things that troubled me. He often never really cared about what I had to say. Despite that, his company was enough to make me feel better.
This weird relationship I had with Thomas began to change when last year, I found myself in one of the lowest points in my life. A time where I felt like my life was falling apart and nothing I did could fix it. A time where I was completely alone. A terrible time. One person in particular helped me get back on my feet. That person was Thomas. The very same Thomas that never seemed to care.
This is not to say that there were not others who helped me along the way. I did have friends who gave me their support, but Thomas was the one who had left the biggest impact. Once I got through that rough chapter of my life, my perspective of Thomas had changed. It just so turned out that I loved Thomas. Not in a romantic way, but in an appreciative sort of way.
He helped me get through a rough spot in my life and I loved him for it. His willingness to help me proved to me that, despite his mysterious ways, he cared about me. From then on, every chance that I had, I would remind him that I too cared about him and that I loved him very much. Overtime, Thomas would begin to tell me things about his life.
Remember, this is something that Thomas never does to anyone. Hearing him talk about his feelings for the first time made me feel special. It told me that he trusted me. One day he told me he loved me. I will never forget it. Our relationship continued to grow and grow and we became best friends.
This all changed a few weeks ago. I do not wish to get into the specific details, but I will summarize. One night Thomas got upset with me over something I consider to be minor. Despite me feeling like his emotions were uncalled for, I understood them. I understood that he was upset and I wanted to do my best to fix it.
Needless to say, things got out of hand and I myself ended up getting upset with him too. Thomas said things that were untrue and did not make any sense. Things that I did not agree with. When I attempted to reinforce this, he ignored me. The next day he would pretend as if nothing had happened.
One thing that I can not stand is when someone clearly has a problem with you and when you try to reason with them, they want nothing to do with it, and come the next day they pretend like nothing ever happened. My parents would do this to me all the time and it became something I despised. I have always been a strong believer in that if you ever have a problem with someone, you should speak to them directly and attempt to resolve it. There is no point in pretending like nothing happened because that only makes things worse.
This happened for a few days between me and Thomas and one night I had enough. Not having an explanation for why he was treating me this way was beginning to bother me and distract me from life. I needed to know what his deal was and I needed to know now. No more beating around the bush. I wanted to fix this once and for all.
That night, Thomas was spending time with some of his friends. I felt bad for having to send him such a serious message at a time where he clearly just wanted to relax, but I needed to get it off my chest. I sent him a message where I told him how I felt about the situation and that if things were going to get better, he needed to stop what he was doing and come speak to me.
In my mind I figured that if Thomas really cared about our relationship, he would stop what he was doing and come speak to me. Just as I began to think he would not reply back, he did. However his response was insincere, and it told me everything I needed to know. I got really upset and I ended up blocking him.
I thought Thomas loved me. How could he suddenly do a one-eighty and treat me differently? I was confused, mad, and sad. I did not know what to believe. Me and Thomas share a few friends. Since this whole incident began, a few of our friends have reached out to me and have told me that Thomas wants to speak to me and that he has been trying to get a hold of me with no success.
My friends tell me that Thomas can not speak to me since I have him blocked. This is true, yet it is also untrue. Thomas has not done all that he can do, and I am not going to make it easy for him. This is my way of knowing whether he is being sincere or not. I do not like it when a couple has an issue and again, instead of reaching out to the person they have trouble with, they start getting others involved.
These next words are for you, Thomas. I just want you to know that I love you. You mean a lot to me, but that night you really hurt my feelings. I am not upset with you anymore. Despite this, I am not going to bend myself backwards for you. If you really love me back, you will come to me and stop using our friends to speak for you.
You are a smart guy. Much smarter than I am. You know how to get a hold of me. You know where to find me. I will be here waiting for you.
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March 4th, 2023
General | Posted 3 years ago——————
There is nothing that I hate more in life than my own self-deprecation. A never ending cycle of abuse that yearns for my own destruction. It strikes me at my best, and leaves me at my worst. It is unavoidable suffering. It is my struggle.
I have seen the light, as it illuminates my path. With every fiber of my being, I must continue. There is nothing in life that can stop me from reaching my goals, not even myself. I will make it. I must.
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There is nothing that I hate more in life than my own self-deprecation. A never ending cycle of abuse that yearns for my own destruction. It strikes me at my best, and leaves me at my worst. It is unavoidable suffering. It is my struggle.
I have seen the light, as it illuminates my path. With every fiber of my being, I must continue. There is nothing in life that can stop me from reaching my goals, not even myself. I will make it. I must.
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Opening for Commissions Tomorrow, Mar 3rd
General | Posted 3 years agoGreetings mortals~
I will be opening for commissions tomorrow, Friday, March 3rd. The order form will open at 11am PST. Five slots only. First come, first serve!
You can find my prices and additional information by visiting the link below. Thank you and I look forward to doing business with you!
Commission Sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
I will be opening for commissions tomorrow, Friday, March 3rd. The order form will open at 11am PST. Five slots only. First come, first serve!
You can find my prices and additional information by visiting the link below. Thank you and I look forward to doing business with you!
Commission Sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
Opening for Commissions, Feb 19th
General | Posted 3 years agoGreetings mortals~
I will be opening for commissions this Sunday, February 19th. The order form will open at 11am PST. Five slots only. First come, first serve!
You can find my prices and additional information by visiting the link below. Thank you and I look forward to doing business with you!
Got a friend looking to get artwork? Send them my way. I will take good care of them!
Commission Sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
I will be opening for commissions this Sunday, February 19th. The order form will open at 11am PST. Five slots only. First come, first serve!
You can find my prices and additional information by visiting the link below. Thank you and I look forward to doing business with you!
Got a friend looking to get artwork? Send them my way. I will take good care of them!
Commission Sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
Do you commission often? - Discussion
General | Posted 3 years agoGreetings mortal~
I was going through some of the old artwork I've purchased from others throughout the years and it made me realize I haven't commissioned someone in a while. Technically, I commissioned something within the past week, but that purchase was made with marketing in mind, so I won't count that one. I'm talking genuine self indulgent artwork. Back when I still had a full-time job, I would make enough to have extra spending money, so I would often go on mass commissioning sprees. Now, not so much.
For one, I don't make a lot of money like I use to. Two, I often don't commission anyway, since I myself can draw whatever I want, granted that I don't feel lazy to do so. What about you? Do you find yourself purchasing artwork all the time, or once in a while? Feel free to add to the discussion!
Speaking of commissions, did you know that I do them too? If you or someone you know is interested in getting some artwork, send them over! You can find all the information you need on my price sheet. Thank you!
Commission Sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
I was going through some of the old artwork I've purchased from others throughout the years and it made me realize I haven't commissioned someone in a while. Technically, I commissioned something within the past week, but that purchase was made with marketing in mind, so I won't count that one. I'm talking genuine self indulgent artwork. Back when I still had a full-time job, I would make enough to have extra spending money, so I would often go on mass commissioning sprees. Now, not so much.
For one, I don't make a lot of money like I use to. Two, I often don't commission anyway, since I myself can draw whatever I want, granted that I don't feel lazy to do so. What about you? Do you find yourself purchasing artwork all the time, or once in a while? Feel free to add to the discussion!
Speaking of commissions, did you know that I do them too? If you or someone you know is interested in getting some artwork, send them over! You can find all the information you need on my price sheet. Thank you!
Commission Sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49584410
Janurary 14th, 2023
General | Posted 3 years ago——————
Dear friend,
It has only been two weeks since I last wrote to you, and already, I have so much to talk about. So far, the new year has been great. On New Year's Eve, I went to a party with some friends. It was only a house party, nothing fancy. This party had the same familiar festivities as any other, but with a great abundance of alcohol.
I was unable to drink as much as I wanted to, as I was the “designated driver.” That did not stop me from having a few drinks here and there. This party was unlike other New Years parties I have been to. This one was special. I had invited a good friend of mine to visit me, and to my surprise, he came!
When he arrived, we spoke about different subjects and genuinely had a good time. I even took him out to dinner, where I was able to enlighten his taste buds to some authentic sushi. Good times were had, and his company is dearly missed.
Business has been great this year. I have managed to find work consistently without having to wait too long. It is a good sign, as it tells me I’m doing something right. It seems I have also managed to find a consistent work schedule, so as to not overwhelm myself. I could not be more happy about my business!
Despite the good fortune I have had thus far, I currently find myself suffering from my own thoughts. It is odd, throughout my adolescence, I have never had these feelings towards myself. Only recently, in the past two years, have I noticed that my mind attempts to bring me harm. Why? Is it for not speaking to my family, friends? Is it for all the wrongs I have done in my life?
They say your greatest enemy is yourself, and after these past few days, no truer words have ever been spoken. The things my mind says to me are enough to make me cry. “Give up, you will never make it. You are not lucky enough. No one cares about you. Go to sleep, you have nothing better to do.”
These words hurt me greatly, but I must endure them if I am to reach my goals. I must be resilient! These are only tests, laid before me to prove if I have what it takes to be who I want to be, and that is myself.
As I write this, I grow hungry. My letter will have to end here, but before I go, I have some words to share with you. Thank you for speaking to me after all this time. Throughout my life, I had always kept my feelings to myself, rarely expressing them to others. Writing to you has given me the freedom to express myself. It is because of you that I manage to keep pacing forward.
Thank you so much, friend. I love you dearly. May the warmth of life keep you sane, until we speak again.
Sincerely,
Noctis
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Dear friend,
It has only been two weeks since I last wrote to you, and already, I have so much to talk about. So far, the new year has been great. On New Year's Eve, I went to a party with some friends. It was only a house party, nothing fancy. This party had the same familiar festivities as any other, but with a great abundance of alcohol.
I was unable to drink as much as I wanted to, as I was the “designated driver.” That did not stop me from having a few drinks here and there. This party was unlike other New Years parties I have been to. This one was special. I had invited a good friend of mine to visit me, and to my surprise, he came!
When he arrived, we spoke about different subjects and genuinely had a good time. I even took him out to dinner, where I was able to enlighten his taste buds to some authentic sushi. Good times were had, and his company is dearly missed.
Business has been great this year. I have managed to find work consistently without having to wait too long. It is a good sign, as it tells me I’m doing something right. It seems I have also managed to find a consistent work schedule, so as to not overwhelm myself. I could not be more happy about my business!
Despite the good fortune I have had thus far, I currently find myself suffering from my own thoughts. It is odd, throughout my adolescence, I have never had these feelings towards myself. Only recently, in the past two years, have I noticed that my mind attempts to bring me harm. Why? Is it for not speaking to my family, friends? Is it for all the wrongs I have done in my life?
They say your greatest enemy is yourself, and after these past few days, no truer words have ever been spoken. The things my mind says to me are enough to make me cry. “Give up, you will never make it. You are not lucky enough. No one cares about you. Go to sleep, you have nothing better to do.”
These words hurt me greatly, but I must endure them if I am to reach my goals. I must be resilient! These are only tests, laid before me to prove if I have what it takes to be who I want to be, and that is myself.
As I write this, I grow hungry. My letter will have to end here, but before I go, I have some words to share with you. Thank you for speaking to me after all this time. Throughout my life, I had always kept my feelings to myself, rarely expressing them to others. Writing to you has given me the freedom to express myself. It is because of you that I manage to keep pacing forward.
Thank you so much, friend. I love you dearly. May the warmth of life keep you sane, until we speak again.
Sincerely,
Noctis
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Merry Christmas & Happy New Year
General | Posted 3 years ago——————
Dear friends, fans, and acquaintances,
As I type this, Christmas Day comes to an end. This Christmas was different for me. Unlike the rest, this was the first time I spent Christmas home alone. There was no tree. There was no family. Only silence.
One might feel mournful about such an experience, but not me. My life changed drastically a few months ago. Since my epiphany, I have learned to cherish the silence. I have found the silence to be rejuvenating. I am free from the worries of the world, if only for a moment.
Naturally, when a man finds time to be alone, he thinks. He begins to ponder the choices he has made, leading up to this very moment. It is no surprise that I too do the same. I found myself thinking about my future. The winding road that lies before me.
Every corner will unravel something new, good or bad. It is the way of life. I wonder what new experiences wait for me, for I am fearful. I have recently stepped into the unknown. I wonder if my choices have been the right ones. Am I venturing to a life of happiness and prosperity, or am I venturing into my own demise?
Time holds the answer. The best I can do now is to keep moving forward, and I will do just that. As the year comes to an end, I question myself. Have I been doing all that is necessary? Have I done all that I can do? The truth is that I have not done all that I can do. All I can do, is all I can do. My feelings have proven to me that I have not done all that I can do.
I look towards next year with dread and excitement. I aim to make sacrifices. I aim for happiness. I aim to prosper. I aim to guide. I aim to do all that I can do.
Sincerely,
Noctis
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Dear friends, fans, and acquaintances,
As I type this, Christmas Day comes to an end. This Christmas was different for me. Unlike the rest, this was the first time I spent Christmas home alone. There was no tree. There was no family. Only silence.
One might feel mournful about such an experience, but not me. My life changed drastically a few months ago. Since my epiphany, I have learned to cherish the silence. I have found the silence to be rejuvenating. I am free from the worries of the world, if only for a moment.
Naturally, when a man finds time to be alone, he thinks. He begins to ponder the choices he has made, leading up to this very moment. It is no surprise that I too do the same. I found myself thinking about my future. The winding road that lies before me.
Every corner will unravel something new, good or bad. It is the way of life. I wonder what new experiences wait for me, for I am fearful. I have recently stepped into the unknown. I wonder if my choices have been the right ones. Am I venturing to a life of happiness and prosperity, or am I venturing into my own demise?
Time holds the answer. The best I can do now is to keep moving forward, and I will do just that. As the year comes to an end, I question myself. Have I been doing all that is necessary? Have I done all that I can do? The truth is that I have not done all that I can do. All I can do, is all I can do. My feelings have proven to me that I have not done all that I can do.
I look towards next year with dread and excitement. I aim to make sacrifices. I aim for happiness. I aim to prosper. I aim to guide. I aim to do all that I can do.
Sincerely,
Noctis
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