Im taking a few commissions as rents due soon and I need extra money <3
Please fill out the form if interested and If I select your commission I will dm you! I'm only taking 3!!! <3
https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....WsVJA/viewform

Would anyone be interested in commissioning me for a painting with a flat buy of 300?

Just sort of gauging interest. If so please comment!
here's some examples of my painting: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery...../all-paintings

I really need to go see a doctor soon, I've been doing my best to put it off but the allergic reaction I've been dealing with has just getting worse and worse and I dont know what to do.



I'm going to be taking offers on all my characters to try and get some money to go, as I live in america and healthcare isnt free ( hate it here)

Please take a look if you can or share. I'll also try to do some adopts soon.
https://toyhou.se/Heartspark/characters

If you can spare anything you can donate to my ko-fi but it's not expected
https://ko-fi.com/heartspark

So if you can't tell by all the uploads lately, I've been working super hard to finish my entire commission queue lately and I'm finally done. for the first time in years I've cleared my queue! I Made the mistake of letting an abusive living situation get the better of me when I was younger and bit off way more than I can chew to try to keep myself family afloat and burnt myself out in a way I've never had happen before, the abusive relationships I was in the past few years didn't help either! It was absolutely awful! I'm never letting myself get so behind on commissions ever again you can count on that. I'm really proud of myself for pulling myself out of that with the thanks of some of my friends and the endless patience and support you guys have given me here <3

I've re-written my T.O.S ( terms of service) , which you can find here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....WsVJA/viewform
and updated my trello: https://trello.com/b/dIyeKiT1/kamimaru

From now on I'll only be accepting 2, maybe 3 commissions at MAX. No more than that. and I'm only going to be doing YCH's ( your character here's) for the most part as I know I can pump those out fairly quickly, and all commissions from here on out will be done in a week or two at max, if I take any longer than that on a commission ever again I'm refunding it. I don't like making people wait! Everything I do will be updated and recorded on my trello and I'm going to be much more stict with commissions and myself.

And finally, if I've missed your commission somehow or forgotten about something, please dm me and I'll finish it this week for you!

I gotta help my family out with some finances so Im gonna be doing some adopts today and I'm going to open offers on all my characters to test the waters: https://toyhou.se/Heartspark/characters

Selling some characters I adore but simply don't use enough, money offers are preferred rn but I'm also open to looking at trades!
https://toyhou.se/Heartspark/charac...../folder:174935

Hello! It my birthday! I'm 24!!! woaw!!! <3

I hope everyone has had a happy holidays and has a Happy new years tonight!
I wanted to do a quick journal update as it's been quite a while since my last no?

Anyways, I got out of an abusive relationship earlier this year and I currently live with my best friend and service dog and I'm doing much better mentally. I helped my friend get out of an abusive household and I'm the one who covers most of the rent and bills and such on my own currently ( I'm fine with this by the way). One of my biggest goals for 2020 is to complete my commission queue entirely! Last year I let my Bad living situation with my ex get the better of me mentally and that greatly affected my work flow, I'm not used to being so slow! I don't think I've ever taken this long on commissions before and for that I apologize, I'm genuinely incredibly grateful to how kind and patient my commissioners are. The past few years were alot for me, I lived with abusive family members who would yell and scream at me, etc. then finally earlier this year, I got out of that only to end up living with my ex who was abusive as hell on top of that, Honestly 2019 was exhausting and beat the shit out of me.

I still made great progress on my queue due to the help of one of my best friends sunneflyer over on twitter ( their account: https://twitter.com/sunneflyer) and I'm so thankful for her help this year, I'm lucky to have them as such a great friend. I have a much smaller queue then when I started 2019. I still have a bit left though that I'm slowly but surely working through, and aside from the occasional YCH I'm not taking any commissions until my current queue is finished. My prices and T.O.S are not up to date currently, they will be updated when eventually I start taking commissions. I survived most of last year on adopts and will continue to do so until my queue is done. I ask if you would still like your commission to be completed be patient if you see me post adoptables, it does not mean I've forgotten your commission. Adoptables are a great way for me to make rent, pay bills, and feed myself and my dog without adding anything more to my commission queue! Adopts help me out alot and make it so that I can, you know, live, I promise I'm not ignoring or forgetting anyone when I post them, so please try not to be insecure by me posting adoptables. I also ask that people please be patient and keep in mind I'm not glued to my computer 24/7, if I don't answer your note right away I promise I am never ignoring you, I may just be with family or something! I will get to your message I promise, but I am one human being and I do not have any assistants or anything haha.

If you would like to support me in some other way you can always check out my sellfy, while I have a holiday sale going on: https://sellfy.com/kamimaru
or support me via patreon: https://www.patreon.com/Heartspark
and of course, kofi: https://ko-fi.com/heartspark

I'm also considering maybe making a ZIP full of all the art and doodles, maye some design process things and such and selling it for maybe like, 10 or 20? let me know if you would be interested in that.


As for my current customers, if you want a refund you are absolutely entitled to it for me taking so long and don't worry if you want to tell me you would like one, and I will refund you as soon as I possibly can, do keep in mind that my priority is feeding myself, my roomate, pets, and keeping the lights on in my apartment, but I have no problem putting you on the refund list if you would like! If not then I will finish working on them and finishing them and you can check my trello here for updates: https://trello.com/b/dIyeKiT1/kamimaru , you can also dm me for updates and I will get to you when I can. I have weekends off though and I need those for my mental health just like anyone else so please be patient with me on weekends.
I'm also most active on twitter if you want to see art from me more often : https://twitter.com/_heartspark

In other news I'm going to Canada in a few days to visit my friends and boyfriend, I'm incredibly excited, I won't be available or online much from Jan 2nd to the 5th but I'll still do my best to reply to stuff. I hope everyone has a great 2020, heres to a better year <3

Im still going through messages on the last journal I made so no worries. Will probably delete this one soon enough. But, Not generally one to do this but uh. If anyone wants to buy me one of these I would do them art in return for equal value!

Or possibly trade a character etc.

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07H9SJB8....._55iSDbNSVS84E
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07RWJDSM....._B6iSDbE3KF5DB

Let me know if anoyones interested in supporting my dragon dreams lol.

I want to do this again cause its fun, offer money, art, other characters, etc <3
https://toyhou.se/Heartspark/characters

More flowery feral auctions will be done throughout october by my friends and I, and probably past then to. So don't worry if you havent been able to nab one yet. we try and only do one at a time so we can work quickly and not be overwhelmed because they are alot of work. As collabs they tend to come out fairly quickly though which is wonderful.

I'm also still working on many other commissions outside of flowery ferals! Don't fret they dont take up all my time.

Flowery ferals are fun and quick collaborations with my friends that benefit both of us alot💖

The move on Sunday went well. Though the electric company can't set up electricity in the house until wenesday, my phone was dead till just now and we're staying at my partner's mums house for the night to get out of the heat. We're still in the middle of unpacking, but i'll send out any files by wenesday at the latest! As soon as the electric is on. Thankyou for being patient♥

My boyfriend and I just got back from the hospital a bit ago, we went in because he hasn't been able to feel his legs very well, hes not really in pain, hes just very stiff and numb so its hard to walk and work and such for him. They found out his back muscles are very contracted/super tight and spasming but don't know what the cause is, they've done MRI's and CT scans, bloodwork and many other things, everything seems to be coming back normal, he is walking better now though, though it's still a struggle and still not perfect. They gave him a few weeks off work and told him if things don't improve to come back and get an EMG, we're also waiting on the results of a few more tests but they could take a few weeks. It's frustrating we still don't know whats going on but at least we're making progress, slowly but surely, hes going to see a neurologist soon and getting some treatments done at the chiropractor in the meantime to help.

Anyways, I'm home now, I believe I've sent out any files, thankyou for being patient with us while I was in the hospital and I didn't have my work stuff! It's incredibly appreciated. I' still moving this sunday and I will still be doing many adopts in the meantime to help afford the move and be able to feed myself and live and stuff lol. Normal work will return once I've gotten settled in next week though I will still likely be putting out many adoptables to make sure everything stays afloat and I can build up more of a savings!

I'm rather exhausted after all this so please be patient with me, and thankyou all for the kind well wishes on my last journal <3

Thankyou guys for being so very patient and supportive!

So my partner has had trouble feeling his legs recently and hes in the hospital. Hes in no pain its just been a struggle to walk and get up for him
So far we've found out his muscles are spasming and super contracted but we don't know why. All his tests and MRI's are coming back normal and hes o muscle relaxers to help out. But we still don't know and until we do im arfraid we will be in the hospital.

I'm doing my best to keep up with auctions from my phone but I might not be able to send files out until I get home this week.
I'm also moving this sunday and I need to make as much as possible for the move, which I can't really do very well from a hospital with no access to a computer. My lovely friends have volunteered to help out with a few adopts though and I can at least post those from my phone.
Any support with those is super incredibly appriciated!!! If you can't buy please share, it would help me out kore than you guys know♥

Thankyou so much!

I'm moving really soon and I'd like to put some extra money in my savings, so I'm going to take offers on just about all my characters again, money is my priority but it doesn't mean I wont look at character trades to. but money comes first, I hope you understand. any characters in sonas or comofort sonas will be very hard to get and I'd probably need at least 100 USD to consider offers on most of them. anyways, here we go:

https://toyhou.se/Kamimaru/characters

You can comment or dm me to leave offers, comments preferred though as I try to keep my dms fairly clean.

If you're not interested in any of these guys no worries, I have plenty of adopts coming soon <3
thankyou!

I gotta buy a bunch of furniture and pay a deposit on an apartment soon so I'm gonna put out mad adopts, if you can't afford to buy any RT's on twitter are incredibly appreciated + just sharing the word, I love and appreciate you thankyou <3

I wish I could change my username to heartspark on FA, I might make a new one soon!! kinda give myself a chance to start fresh!
if I did it would be a very slow move! I would still tak to customers here till all my comms were finished.

I have way to much old art from when I was in highschool here!

I'm trying to not have so many characters

these are kinda tentative but please make some offers, looking primarily for money.
https://toyhou.se/Kamimaru/characte...../folder:228367

ITS MY BIRTHDAY♥
I am 23 yay♥♥
Im going to the zoo eith my mum today and wont be working. But tomorrow I will. Saturday is also going to be an off day because thats my birthday party and I'm going to see captain marvel with a friend♥

https://trello.com/b/dIyeKiT1/kamimaru
Heres my trello as theres a few new updateds to commissions. I've bern working really hard♥

If you wanna tip the birthday girl so she can get something at the zoo its appriciated. Not expected at all though dont worry LOL.
https://ko-fi.com/kangarooqueen

Working through commissions and I've got help from my dear friend Sunny <3 https://twitter.com/sunneflyer
She'll be helping me out with linework and such so I can get things done more quickly! I'm really satisfied with how well we work together and how fast I can get things done with her!
Anyways I'm going to be revamping my trello and giving everyone an update with their commissions here very soon! <3
have a wonderful march <3

Still slowely chugging away at commissions, I'm doing at least one a day aside from on the weekends, Everything is slowley but surely getting finished!! ]
When I'm finished with everything I'm probably going to open up my patreon again <3

expect lots of adopts cause thats how I make an income lol <3

Howdy! I hope the holidays and new years went well for everyone!!
I haven't posted an update journal here in a long while and thought it'd be good to throw another one up real quick, if you have any questions or concerns don't hesitate to message me!

2018 was actual hell for me and probably the worst year I've ever had, with mental health struggles and living in a stressful and abusive environment, But I also started working out, lost 47 pounds, started a regular skin care routine, started learning korean and french, and started applying to colleges all over. among other things, so theres Definitely been some good with the bad, But I'm learning that if I can't control my outside circumstances all of the time, at the very least I can control myself, my body, my workout habits, how I interact with people, etc.
Here are some of my goals for this year so I can get even better at doing that.

- Keep up with working out regularly
- keep up on my French and korean studies
- start college
- move away
- Finish my Queue

I'm normally very fast with commissions but this past year has really slowed me down, If you have any overdue commissions from me, please know I haven't forgotten about you! I'm working very hard to get through my queue , My goal is to finish at least one commission everyday. The weekends are my off days and when I don't answer dms ( I've learned I need to set boundaries for myself and my mental wellbeing) , and Wednesdays when I work on putting out adoptables. Adoptables are basically what I'm surviving on, paying bills with/rent/food, etc, so please don't take me putting out adoptables as me not working on your commission. Adopts are a way for me to make money without adding anything to my queue and super helpful for me! Artists need to have a steady flow of income somehow.
If your wanting a commission from me , I'm sorry but I will be closed indefinitely, hopefully only for a few months, but I won't take any commissions this year unless I finish my queue first. However, when I do eventually open for commissions again it will be through a journal here or more likely on twitter, my twitter is where I am most active and where I post adoptables first. If you want to reach me quickly thats the place to do it, my twitter handle is kamimmaru . I will have the occasional mental health day here and there and when I do I'll announce it on twitter. I try not to take them often, its just for when I get incredibly stressed or my anxiety gets the best of me. If you see me putting out many commissions, it doesn't mean I'm not working on yours, or have forgotten about you, it means I'm working through my queue and will most likely be getting to yours soon! But I don't mind giving updates at all when asked for, and feel free to poke me if you feel I've forgotten something, I'd rather be asked then have you bottle it up and explode on me later. That being said, please don't spam me, or be rude to me, your just going to stress me out, I am human which means I have obligations outside of the internet, like family and friends, I have bad days, etc, and I'm not a human computer hybrid monster, as cool as that might sound.

I'm also looking into getting my Patreon up and running here soon, which I need to completely revamp, I had one previously but there simply wasn't enough interest to to keep it running, I feel as If I have more people interested in me having a patreon though this year especially. If you'd be interested in supporting me there let me know! it wouldn't be a paywall for my work, as I upload majoirty of it to FA and twitter, but there are also a TON of sketches that never see the daylight, and concept and comic work that I have just collecting dust that I would love to share. Patreons would get to see all of my sketches, concept work, comic stuff, adoptables before they went up, get first dibs on them, there might even be patreon exclusive adopts, works in progress, patreon only streams, discounts on future comms, and free bases! If this sounds appealing at all to you, let me know!
I think Patreon might be a good way for me to keep myself afloat while giving me more time to focus on commissions.

Thanks for taking the time to give this a read if you made it this far! I hope everyone has a wonderful year and 2019 is better for everyone <3
I'm going to be working very hard all day to get some more commissions done! phew!
~Kami

I have a ton of Cheap Bases for sale over here on Sellfy!
https://sellfy.com/kamimaru

Check it out if interested , it would help me out alot, thankyou <3

It's hard for me to talk about mental health issues here because I feel like I'm making excuses but I need to be honest and open about what I'm going through because it's been effecting my work flow! Mental health problems are just as important and valid as physical problems and I wish people would take it more seriously. But anyways here goes,

So I moved back in with my parents after living with roomates for a year to save money for college. I want to be a geologist and I'm not going to a local college for many reasons. As soon as I moved back in, both of my parents both quit their jobs, not that I blame them, the job they had before was really shitty and had no healthcare despite being very physical and run by our family. But they quit without letting me know or having a backup plan and it put myself and my stepbrother in charge of taking care of four large untrained dogs and a house on top of my German Shepard. I really just wasn't prepared for that to happen, I came in fully expecting to be able to save money until next fall.

This drained my savings for college pretty quickly, I am more then capable of taking care of myself and my dog when living with roomates and I had no issues helping my parents out but I was doing much more then I could afford or was comfortable with.
At the beginning of the year I had more then 3,000 in savings, now I've got 0.

So with my saving draining I was stuck in a place where I kept taking more commissions in order to make money to take care of my parents house and dogs instead of myself or saving money as I had planned to. I've was focusing so much on making money to help out I haven't been able to finish old commissions as quickly as I used to, which makes me feel absolutely terrible because I hate keeping people waiting, last year I could finish 30 sketch commissions in one month and this year I'm struggling to finish half as many per month.

Both my parents finally got jobs , it took a while for my step dad as he had to find something that wouldn't strain his heart as he suffers from heart problems. When they both got jobs, This took some of the strain off of my shoulders but not much, I'm slowly but surely catching up with commissions but I still need to make money to eat and take care of some things around the house, which is why I've been putting out so many adoptables as of late. I haven't been taking my normal amount of commissions at all and have largely been surviving off of adoptables.

My household is okay most of the time but can be abusive , My parents can be , alot at times, though I love them very much, they trigger my anxiety and panic attacks very very often, I had an old step dad, my mother's ex husband who was a super abusive alcoholic and as such I have alot of left over anxiety issues because of that that I'm working on to overcome. and its becoming really stressful for me to be here but I don't have much options as these animals that aren't mine rely on me to feed them.
just the other day my step dad chased me around screaming at me about how I don't deserve space in this household, etc, which terrifies me, I really really can't stand yelling from those I love, it turns me into a shaking crying mess. and they know this. I don't super want to go into this but its an example of what I deal with fairly often.
I also have a basement room that wasn't built properly by a guy in like, the 60s , so bugs get in and I have an absolutely terrible phobia, which makes it hard to sleep sometimes.

The stress at home is causing me to withdraw from my friends a bit more then i'm comfortable with and I'm not being as productive or taking care of myself like I should be doing, but I'm working hard to pull myself out of this and I'm forcing myself to face these issues.

I'm working on alot of lifestyle changes currently to try and be more healthy! I think this will help me out to cope better when things go wrong at home. I can' feel good mentally if I don't physically. I usually work primarily at night to avoid stress during the day but I often end up with 2 or 3 hours of sleep as a result because I also get up early. ' and that's just not healthy for me, doesn't feel great. I realize I need to treat myself and body better in order to cope with things more healthily and that means I need to sleep. The same goes for eating because I haven't been getting nearly enough food to sustain myself and as a result I have less energy. Stress makes me loose my appetite sometimes but I know I need to force myself to eat in order to be a healthy functioning human being.

I also have an Iron deficiency from not eating enough spinach and egg and that's not really helping me either, I've started taking Iron pills to help out with that , but if you have any recipes ( that are pescatarian as I don't eat red meat or poultry), it would be super appreciated.

I think over all trying and working on improving my health will help greatly. things might still go wrong at home but at least then I'll have the energy to cope.
I also go to the gym once or twice a week so I do work out, and I've noticed thats already helped a bunch.


I'm also considering revamping my Patreon ( which is currently closed) where you guys could see my works in progress and sketches I never upload here, and maybe get a first shot or preview at some of my adoptables.
the lowest tier would be around 2 dollars a month and the highest being 10 where you get the chance of winning a sketch or design from me once a month.
It would help me catch up I think and not be to a point where I constantly feel as if I need to make new adoptables to stay afloat.
I think ideally , in the best scenario here I might be able to get to a point where actually work on my supernatural comic I've had planned for a while.
If your interested in it please let me know and I'll put work into making this happen.

I'm also working towards going to college, not just as an escape from my current situation but I've always wanted to study geology and possibly become a paleontologist, archaeologist or environmental geologist one day. Currently I've got several colleges I'm working on applying to in California, Washington, hawaii , and so on. I love to travel and getting out of my state will be wonderful. I'm very very aware no place I go is perfect but anything is better then my current living conditions.


Stuff like this is really hard to talk about but I think you guys need to be aware of what I'm dealing with and why I've been so slow to respond and not being on top of things as I usually am. this is all on me and I need to dig myself out of this situation, if you want to talk more about it feel free to reach out to me, I'm slowly making the changes in my life that I need to to get better.
I don't want everyone to take pity on me, I'm very strong and I'm going to survive and get out of here, I love my parents but there not good for me to live with.
This isn't an excuse but moreso of an explanation of why I've been the way I've been and what I'm doing to change things and get better and stay on top of things. If you would like a refund thas totally understandable given how long of a wait theres been, just know with how hard I've been struggling mentally and financially there will be a wait.
Any self care tips while I'm going through this are super appreciated <3




I don't expect anything but if you want to help out but can't commission me rn or do patreon, literally anything on Kofi is a huge help: https://ko-fi.com/kangarooqueen

it's come to my attention that some of ya'll think dragonroos are a closed species...
i've come to tell you they are not, they never have, they never will be, I can't own the concept of slapping two creatures together LOL. if you wanna make your own go for it, I won't be upset at all, in fact I encourage it.
hybrids can't be a closed species!
I don't have any closed species.
that is all, thankyou!!!


there will be an update journal soon btw <3