Genuine question: When you all decided to follow/watch my profile, what were you here for mostly? The art? Or the stories?

Here are more characters I have never used and probably never will.

Huxley the Model: SOLD

Tuck the Athlete: SOLD

Theesen the Butler: SOLD

Comms are still open, people!

Everything you need to know is right HERE

Small reminder that COMMS are open indefinitely now, folks!

Everything you need to know is right here~!

Some characters I've had for a long time now, but haven't used for ANYTHING and don't think I will.
So I'll be putting them up for sale to give them a proper home.

Mystic Bird: 10

Pred-Wrecker: 10

GoblinDroid: SOLD

Big Wolf: SOLD

Beaver Daddy: SOLD

Bad Bird 15

Alien: 10

Short King Rabbit: SOLD

Beefy Macaw: SOLD

All prices are in USD. Paypal or Ko-Fi. DM me to claim.

So, figured I'd try opening them here, again.

I'm sure you all know how commissioning goes, but here are some rules for me
-You give me a summery of the story you want, including characters and scenario.
-All the information you can give is appreciated upfront, If you decide to 'surprise' me with more things to write, then keep it short and simple please.
-If you can't pay all of the money in one go, then I'll accept payment in installments. But I will not accept any new commissions from you until the payment is completed.

With those out of the way, lets get into the actual thing.
-One-shots only.
-$20 per 1000 words

Most kinks and fetishes are up for debate.
However, I will NOT write about:
-Straight porn (Not that good at it. XP)
-Cub/Shota/Loli
-Scat
-Diapers
-Filth
-Extreme kinks
-Hyper Growth
-Macro/Micro

If you have any questions, feel free to ask~!

Well now.
Apparently, my time and effort means nothing and I doubt I'll be getting anything for wasting either. Good to know.

In that regard, I'm gonna stop doing 'free works', period.
Friend or stranger, I don't care. Sick and tired of my so-called 'friends' taking me for fucking granted, only for me to waste my time, effort, and parts of my soul to make sure they get the 'perfect' story and not get SHIT in return.

So yeah, no more requests. No more favors.

This just happened way too many times. Someone I know slides into my DM, drag me in with an interesting story idea, say a few sweet words, I trust them like the dumbass I am, and get on writing, wasting time and effort I could've been putting into actual commissions or personal works, do everything in my power to give them the story they hoped for without butchering a single detail.

And what do I get in return for all of that? Nothing. Not even noteworthy praise.
And when I ask about some compensation, they conveniently forget all about me or just tossing empty promises my way like 'soon' or 'this day or that', and once again like the no-brained idiot that I am, I keep believing (in) them and waiting.

Guess this is what it feels like when you try to be the good person, huh?
No wonder there are more bad and horrible people in the world than good and nice.

If I decide to remove all of the art in my profile or deactivate this account and make a new one, making it a story and writing exclusive one...
Would anyone still be following/watching me?

And don't you DARE lie to me. I can easily pull up multiple pages and know if you're lying or not.
I'm sick and tired of the lies and the flights of fancy that you were on when you followed/watched me.

Full, 100% honesty, no bullshit. I repeat, I WILL know if your are spouting bullshit.

I wouldn't write something like this if I was on Twitter or a similar website, but not here. And I honestly don't give a fuck who gets their little touchy-feelys hurt here.

As everyone who, supposedly, knows about my work, should know that this is a writer's profile, the art in here is owned by me, but I'm not the original creator of it.
So... if you, my 'watchers', are only here strictly for the art in my profile, the commissions I got from other people then please... *gestures to the door* try not to let it hit you on the way out.

If you truly enjoy the art in my gallery, then I have linked the creators of said art in the description, so please, piss off and go over there if you enjoy it so much and get the hell out of my watcher's list.

I know someone will come to me and say 'Well, no one should be forced to view your work.' True, I agree, no one is forced to what I put all of my soul, effort, and time into creating, but again, if you are here STRICTLY and SPECIFCALLY for the art only, then I honestly don't want you here. You don't have to look at EVERY story that I write, even if you truly read and enjoyed ONE I'd be fine and happy with that.
I repeat: this is, originally, a writer's gallery, my true work is the stories I create and share here. And I know the people who truly stuck around with me and truly enjoyed the work I put a lot of effort and time into, just like any content creator in this community.

'What about the view count?' Yeah, that doesn't do it for me anymore. That number simply says that a person clicked on my story, doesn't mean that they read it, let alone liked it. So yeah, I don't really trust that number anymore.

Sure someone else is gonna come and be like 'What about the watcher count? Don't you want it to be high?' I don't care! I honestly don't give a fuck. I mean sure, what content creator doesn't want their work to do numbers like that, but here are the two keywords in this sentence: 'Their work' the content they themselves created and shared. I know the people who truly enjoy my work are only a small handful, but honestly, those are the people that I appreciate and I'm very grateful for their continued support. Those are the people who genuinely came for the stories and stayed for the stories.

Now then... to those who truly stuck around for my stories and enjoyed my work: You guys are awesome. I love you all and I appreciate the love and support you keep sending my way during the good times and the bad.

The rest of you... gestures to the door again... get the fuck out! >:C

I... seem to have developed a real, genuine fear of commissioning.
Even if it's an artist I know and trust. :C

Just three more years to the big three-o! XD

Got these adopts and characters a looooong time ago but didn't do anything with. And I highly doubt I ever will.
So, I'm putting them up for sale in hopes that they find better homes and better people to care for them.

1. Mammoth = SOLD!

2. Bull = SOLD!

3. Buck = SOLD

4. Alien = $30

5. Party Wolf = $30

6. Himbotter = SOLD!

7. Bad Dog = $20x2 (has both sfw and nsfw versions)

8. Buff Bun = $20

9. Small Bunny = $30x2 (has another piece of art)

10. Big Bunny = SOLD!

Paypal ONLY

Okay... so, first of: This isn't one of my usual dark and depressed tantrums that I, unfortunately, tend to throw wherever I can. This will be just me going on a bit of a rant about some personal, and recent, pet peeves regarding, you guessed it: Commissions. Also, just to be clear, I'm not gonna go dropping names, this is JUST ME going on a rant and getting this off my chest before I end up punching something. XC

So, if you don't wanna read through this, no worries, and if you stay to read, be sure to strap in and keep your tea, coffee, or whatever drink you like in hand.

With that being said, let's get into it!

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1: Willingly Ignoring (potential) customers:-
This one is a VERY recent one that keeps growing and growing by the day.

So... I've tried contacting... 2 artists that I TRULY love and admire the work of, asking about commissions. And just to be clear: YES, I made sure that both actually do commissions every now and then. So here I was, hopping over into their DMs to ask about their commission prices and such, CLEARLY expressing my willingness to commission them.

What do I get in response? Silence. Absolute, ghosting silence.
How do I know it's ghosting/willingly ignoring me? Because I can clearly see both of them being pretty ACTIVE on Twitter, sharing new art every few days and reacting to comments and tweets about them, their characters, etc. Now, Twitter's DMs ALWAYS notify you if there was a message, so after seeing that, I'm not really buying the whole bullshit of 'Maybe they didn't see it' spiel.

2: Taking your Time:-
Okay, so this one I totally get. I used to do commissions too, some years ago, and I know first-hand how life just LOVE to throw those curve balls at ya just to mess up your very comfortable and organized pace.
But I'm not gonna sit here and wait for TWO-FUCKING-YEARS+ for a commission that I know, deep down, I'm never gonna get after a certain point of waiting.

Not to toot my own horn here, but I am/can be a pretty patient guy. I mean, I once commissioned an artist and gave them a LOT of space, to the point that we BOTH forgot about the commission! XD
Neither of us remembered the commission until I went back to the same artist for a new one. But, I ended up getting the old ones first, which turned out amazing btw, before sitting in the proper queue and waiting for the new ones to get done, which also turned out amazing.

So, yeah, not gonna sit my ass down and watch you pump out piece after piece, commission after commission, while mine is nowhere to be found and I know, for a fact, that my turn was supposed to come way before about 98% of those people who do get their art.

And this is the perfect segway to my next topic.

3: Favoritism and Queues:-
I get it, in your heart, you always want to prioritize your dear friends, loved ones, and even those very loyal followers that have been around for a while, I get it. But actively ignoring everyone else or always prioritizing that certain group of people? Especially if you have a proper queue in place? Nah uh, highly unethical.
And no one dare come to me talking about 'ethics'. I'm a business major, so I know bad business ethics when I see them and this is a VERY clear example of it.

As I'm sure a lot of those who read my, um... previous journals (again, sorry for putting y'all through that ugly mess), know my take/stand on this whole favoritism bullshit and I have talked, on great lengths, about my experiences with certain artists who clearly did such a thing. So I'm not gonna repeat all of that again here.

So... if you have a proper queue system in place it's your OBLIGATION as an artist and a businessman (yes what y'all are doing here is a business) to obey that queue. Pumping and pushing people up and/or down the queue willy-nilly and whenever you wish? Yeah, you can say whatever you fucking want, but that's the most unethical thing I've seen. Don't go giving me that bullshit speech of 'Oh, sorry, I missed your place in the queue' or 'Sorry, I have so many people I can't keep track of everyone', first of all: that's a needless flex, right there, and second: A queue is used to keep all the commissions, requests, trades, whatever else in a proper orderly and well-organized manner, so I'm not buying the whole 'Can't keep track' excuse.

So yeah, I'm pretty sure the artists who I had those experiences with, IF they read this by some strange chance, realize that they lost me as a customer, period.
Then again, not like they care, I am but a tiny drop in a huge ocean of other, willing customers, no?

Also, don't give me the bullshit promise of 'Not gonna happen again' when it already happened many times before.
As they say: Once is Chance, Twice is Coincidence, Thrice is a Pattern. A very disgusting and highly unethical pattern.

4: Paywalls:-
I get it: You're free to handle and dish out commissions how you wish, it's your business, and so is going over to places like Patreon and Subscribstar is also within your very own business conduct.
But... pulling all your commissioning business back and making it exclusive to those places? Yeah, I have some issues with that.

This way, you are only giving the rich folk access to your skills and services, which to me stinks of elitism a tiiiiiny little bit. I get it though, sometimes you need the money for something urgent, like upgrading/fixing your home, medical bills, bills in general, etc, etc. But... isn't making your services, regardless of price, accessible to the rich, handful few only counter-productive in the long run? You are literally slamming the door in the face of everyone else who loves your art and had the very high hopes of commissioning you, someday, while giving those with a lot of money to spare, all of your time and effort.

I mean, sure, there are those who will gladly toss their very life savings at your feet with the snap of a finger, at times regardless of their financial state.
But to have myself strapped to a milking machine and get pumped for a monthly payment just for the sniff of a chance to commission you? Yeah, not buying that. badum-tiss

And... I believe this is the end of my 'little' tirade here. Again, sorry for going off, just needed to get all of this off my chest real fast.
Those who do commissions can do whatever the fuck they want, I don't give a shit, but I hope they know that there is gonna be some backlash/consequences to such conduct(s) sooner or later.

Aside from all this bullshit, hope y'all have a great day and thank you for taking the time to read through my little ranting spree here~!

I hate it here.
I hate this world, I hate this fandom, I hate my fucking, miserable life! I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it! I HATE IT ALL!!!

Nothing but fake friendships! One-time, one-sided relationships! And bonds of fucking convenience!

I just can't take this anymore...
I just want some clarity in this disgusting life of mine! Is that too much to fucking ask!? I just want one, solid thing that I can hang on to without slipping away from my grasp somewhere down the line.

GOD! I know, I'm destined to live my life, and die, miserable and alone, and I already accepted that fate! Isn't that enough!? What more do I have to go through!?

I hate it here... I just hate it...
I just want this to end... Someone help me, please...

I noticed a lot of artists putting a lot of great details in the character biographies. I think maybe I should start doing that, but I usually don't like writing too much detail(s).

But should I make the effort and write proper biographies for the characters that I share? I feel like I should, but still not sure.

Do Artistbeware posts work?

Like, I've been seeing a lot of those here and there, but all of the called-out artists, that I know of, are still going about their merry lives like nothing happened.
Maybe lose a handful of followers, but they gain double or triple that a few days later.

So... why bother with them when they're pointless and, to an extent, useless?

Hey there, everyone!

A friend of mine is doing some awesome MLP adopt sales. Go check 'em out and if they aren't to your liking, then at least try to offer/show your support~!
Thank y'all~!

Pony batch 01 [https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46470414/ ]

Pony batch 02 [https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46503304/ ]

How to know who your true friends are:
1: They are the ones who clearly want you in their lives
2: They come to your aid when you ask for it.
3: They let you know that your existence matters to them.
4: They come to you when they get the feeling, even an inkling of one, that you're not well and lend an ear.

How do you know who your FAKE friends are:
1: They frequently ghost and ignore you.
2: Don't give a shit about what you want or have to say.
3: Blatantly prioritize others over you at every turn.
4: Only come to you when THEY want something from you.

I have met a looooot of people over the years... but only a very small handful of them I can truly call my friends.
Others... I just have half a mind to just go on a blocking spree. Even those who I know are good people.

But... I guess I'm a bit too much of a good person. I just want to see the good in people, even when I totally can't...
I start making mental excuses for THEM for how/why they're acting the way they are. 'They're busy', 'They forgot', 'Life caught up to them', 'Family/Personal matters', and whatever bullshit the sickeningly good heart can come up with.

A lot of people I know I truly want to call a friend... but I keep noticing how our relationships are only one way.
And I am just sick and tired of these one-sided attempts, of being the only one who cares about these relationships I wish we truly had in the first place.

I just... don't have the energy to be upset or angry anymore... I just don't...

To each and everyone who came to me to offer their support in my dark hour(s): I deeply thank you all.

I try to portray myself as this strong-willed person, most of the time, but I'm still weak, weak enough for something like this to affect me, greatly. And I HATE it! Yet I cannot do anything drastic about it, surely can't shut off my emotions like a robot. That would've been handy.

But now, I'm past it, mostly, and again, thank you to all who came to me and supported me when I felt alone~

Surely don't feel like I am, at the moment.



I have this... friend, let's say, coolest guy you'll ever meet and an artist to boot! Purest heart of gold as well.

Or... so I thought.



Recently I've been talking with him about some commissions that he owes me, spanning back to... a year and some months, 2 years maybe, I don't know, it's been a VERY long time.

And he replies with the same, tired lines. 'I'll get to them, don't worry' or 'I have not forgotten'.



Well, I recently joined his art streams and even before that, I keep noticing all of those people getting their commissions done, on time, and then the queues that he lists up in his streams... my name is not there, NEVER there, and I'm owed art WAY before half of those people. It's like my name keeps going down, down, and further down the list with each new commission



So... I made it clear that he shouldn't worry about those, cause I actually just gave up on waiting, didn't even want a refund, and he goes pelting me with the same, empty, promises.



So... before all of that he would regularly PM me cute greetings like 'hugs', 'boops', the usual 'good mornings' and 'how are yous'.

But after a recent... talk, he realized that he lost me as a customer, so... all of that stopped.



I kept being told by others that he's 'busy' be it with work, art, life, etc.

But... didn't he have time before for all those sweet and cute greetings? Where did the time for those go? What happened?



So... I came to realize that I only meant anything for him when I was a customer of his, a willing and paying customer.

Now that he lost me as one, I'm, apparently, not worth his time.



So... I ask again: Am I worth anything, to anyone? If this is how someone who's supposed to be my friend has become... then what about other people?

Happy Birthday to me! XD

Looking for artists who can draw Beerus from DBS (Dragon Ball Super) or characters with a similar design.
If you are one or know someone who can, feel free to reply to this Journal in comments or DM me.

Thanks in advance~!

I recently started taking/doing story commissions. First for a circle of close friends, but I figured it's about time to broaden my horizons.

For those who are interested, DM me and I'll link you to the place where I post my works and you can see if my style is to your liking or not. I'm not opening up to taking commissions at this time but will state so when I do, so keep yours open and heads up.

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Brief disclaimer:-

There are certain things that I will NOT write about, which include but are not limited to:

Cub
Snuff/Death
Vore (might be persuaded, depending on context)
Necrophilia
Scat (or filth stuff, in general

Those are the main ones, others might pop out at a later date. Other ones are negotiable.

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So, again, for those who are interested, just DM me with any questions you might have.

Can we please stop with the random blocking?

Instead of sneaking around and blocking someone like that, perhaps you can try and be a decent person about it and mention it to the person your blocking.
Perhaps whatever they did that warranted the block was done by accident, so if you don't tell them about it, they won't know and can't fix their mistake.

This is... a 'response' to my previous journal. I have been in a pretty dark place at the time, a very dark place.

But, I'm doing better now, mostly thanks to some great people who gave some encouraging and quite uplifting words. I can't express my thanks enough for that, because, I'm not sure that my coping methods would have worked this time. I mean, I've almost gave up the one thing that I truly love doing.

So again, to those who came over, thank you so much for your kind words and for helping me up when I was really down.