Instead of waiting here for the grass to grow i spend some time looking up some alternatives to post stuff. It's pretty obvious that staying on this site is a dead end. Way to many old ppl in charge here that are way to dense beyond any comprehension, unprofessional and everything else. Sad to see a site that is considered to have the biggest Furry community is such a shit show.

Really don't want to do this, but things here is going nowhere. I'm really sorry for the ppl that followed me all this years, even in my more posting nothing at all times ( which can easily happen again ). I won't delete anything here for the time being ( what is left of it ) but it's maybe a good choice to grab what you can. I personally save everything i like , which is also the reason i don't fav things here. So many things that i would never find again if i haven't saved that stuff several years ago.
Still recovering from my little hospital adventure so at least i have some free time to get everything in order as much as possible.

I went to Discord for now even though i have no idea what i'm doing ( not sure if that is how to link stuff )... Seems to be an invite or something, but i actually want everything to be open, so not sure how to do that. Believe me i know how inconvenient it is, but i see no other choice atm.

https://discord.gg/VUkb4yaeZM

Depending on how much time i get i will probably try to Stream at some point ( could take awhile ). All that artwork stuff isn't my main thing and not my job. It's a passion and a way to relax, so i don't depend on success, exposure or money ( unless it's a ludicrous amount ) for that matter, so streaming would be a 1 time thing in 10 years. Stuff that brings me them moneyz and is paying my bills is my main focus, so artwork and everything else will always be my least focus.

There is a lot to figure out atm, both what and how do bring my art to interested ppl and how my RL is going, so plz bare with me.

Thought that shit is not trendy or whatever anymore but seems i was wrong. Didn't dispute the first few images that got removed i posted after my 2 year abstinence from FA 'cause i usually don't like to argue via internet with ppl since arguing is pretty much useless anyway. I saw, when i came back, it was the wrong time to change the way i create images or the subjects 'cause it was an abrupt change ( not for me, just didn't post anything here in 2 years ) so it almost was a given that this would lead to ppl reporting me for using AI in this time and age.

Got FA+ so i can post higher res pictures and show a little support for a the site that which i joined several years back and since i was planing to be a bit more active. Tried to avoid using an external side.

Opened a Ticked to get the stuff back up. Depending on the decision ( even positive one ) i will probably switch to a personal site 'cause like i said in my first journal i did when i came back, i won't change anything on how i do my pictures atm 'cause i like how they turn out. I don't care which wannabe artistic brainiac reports me for whatever reason they pulled out of their ass, admins that lost their grip on reality a long time ago or a broken system that doesn't work. I spend quite some time with some of those pictures and how to approach them.

If what i create is what AI creates nowadays than you better shut that shit down 'cause it's either hopelessly drunk or on drugs.

Sry to say this but i guess i can't finish most of the stuff that was requested . After a lot of trail and error i found out it would restrict me a little bit ATM 'cause of certain circumstances. The ideas itself where interesting and believe me i did a lot of conceptions , but in the end it went nowhere. Wrapping my head around some of the things suggested really got me into try-hard mode ( especially the fursona stuff )

Point is ( and excuse me for sounding like i'm broken record here) but it is always the same for me. I like to pretty much "please" ppl , be it in RL or online. As much as i wish to see how some folks perceive the stuff i do as "consistent, i can't see it myself ever doing' something like that ever. I think the main force that drives me personally is in fact "Inconsistency" be it in art "style" or whatever. As much as i try to copy ppl with a certain style because it's "trending" or whatever i just can't do it do it to the extend that would convey emotions. Given that, i never was a emotional person.

Depression is pretty much all i have right now that drives me. Taking pills to suppress depression, but getting even more depressed 'cause of not having emotions. People who have the same problem should know that even if you have everything in your live you could wish for by social standards ( fame, money, loving families and whatever) it doesn't matter. One wrong move and you're six feet under. I drive an expensive car, have a house and so on.... meaningless shit. If you gave me enough money to never worry again i wouldn't even know what to do with it. Drinking Alcohol and knowing to 100% it will make me miserable and still doing it.

If you know you reach for an unreachable goal and try to make artwork out of it it's kinda strange. Almost feels like a cry for help that will never be answered. It's not even the way how you do it. I saw so many artwork that by any "standard" wouldn't be recognized as artwork cause the execution itself doesn't match social status quo or artistic "standard", but in the end it still conveys emotion or believes. I could look at a stick figure and still see something in it that moves me, at least to some point

Maybe it sounds a bit stereotypical, but i just listen to the "new" oldish song from Linkin Park "Lost" ( even though i knew it was a bad idea.) and that song really hits hard in so many ways. Growing up with Linkin Park and never understood anything.... now a few years later a lot of it makes sense. It's really surreal to listen to a person that had pretty much everything but still passed away in such a way.

Maybe once things settle a bit down and i found a center somewhere i will continue whit a few things that I've started.

I envy all of you that don't give a fuck and life they're live however you want and be happy, no matter how strange it is to other ppl.

24h over.

Thx for posting your suggestions.

I think a lot of it should be doable to some extend... and a few things would melt my brain. Not so much because of the idea itself but the execution would take quite a lot of preparation and studying a few things i don't know anything about. I'm not 100% sure but i think i should have a few models that could fit the bill in some cases.
Will try my best but work is already calling and i don't know how much time is left. Guess this month should be quiet. Also renovating my house atm and fighting against dust and ridiculous high prices for construction material, if it's even available.

I will either go a bit experimental with some stuff or fall back to my old ways. Don't expect to much thou.


PS: A lot of stuff gave me some inspiration i din't know about before. I kinda like the diversity which some people have. I think i said this before, but i'm anything but consistent. I don't have an art style and i don't think i will ever have one. I like so many things at once that it's pretty much impossible to chose, 'cause i get bored pretty fast. Just going with the flow and look where the journey will take me.

I'm kinda in crazy mode right now, so if you like give me something you to do. I don't care the subject as long as it is nothing to of my limits, ( like childlike or cub stuff ) ... everything else goes, no matter your fetish or whatever. Could take awhile depending on what the subject is. Plz mind that i will post everything here in scraps or normally depends on how much time i spend on it or if it falls in line with my normal stuff.

Keep it simple, cause i wanna try new things and knowing me it could go from masterpiece to utter terrible mess.