...and a Herpy New Year!

Med andedräkt av fågelben
som legat under fallen gren
kom sorgen spänt ikapp mig på IKEA

Den viskade om ensamhet
med röst av längtan torr och het
när sorgen gick förbi mig på IKEA

Du handlar till dig själv allén
du klamrar fast med spindelben
vid sorgens svarta midja på IKEA

Men sorgen bara gled framåt
med döden gick på friarstråt
och kvar stod jag med vagnen på IKEA

När värken släppt jag kom till sans
och köpte täcke med balans
att hålla värmen hemma från IKEA

I've received news that Snout of SPR, Foople on FA, is dead.

Rest well, old roleplaying companion.

So far, Covid-19 has been a nightmare for me personally. My brother got sick when on a skiing trip to Italy in February. He has, so far, spent seven weeks in an ICU at the Karolinska hospital in Stockholm. He was flown there when his kidneys and his heart started to fail. Of those weeks, four of them has been been spent coupled to an ECMO. Both his lungs have collapsed, the second just a few days ago. Emergency surgery saved him, again.

He's probably among those who have been most sick in Sweden, and survived.

I'm probably coming down with it now. I've got an intense headache that won't just go away. But I've just had a few coughing fits and just a few goes at fever.

I'm afraid.

Her gaze is darkness. Is ash.
Beyond unconcerned mounds of sand.
I and our oldest daughter said yes to donations
and they used her cornea.

Her voice is silence. Is dust.
Under indifferent grass.
I and our youngest daughter gave her electric guitar away
to her best friend's son.

Her touch is nothingness. Is peel.
Lost in endless gravel.
I couldn't stand the house and sold it
and moved away.

Everything is darkness, silence, and nothingness.
Time pushes me brutally forward.
I haven't visited the memorial park even once
for fear of never being able to walk away.

Greetings, all!

I just found E.C. Schwartz tribute to Doug Winger. Now I can die in peace, everything is experienced.
*Grin!*

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16954358/


Regards,
Irwin

I just have to share this:
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?.....e=1&ref=nf

Regards,
Irwin

I haz 13 furries at home at the moment. They are drinking beer. And other stuff. I haz too!

Tomorrow we will visit Sweden's largest fun fair: Liseberg!
http://www.liseberg.com/en/home/

In a few hours I'll be leaving my beloved city for the unknown horrors of Tartu, Estonia. My choir will participate in this:
http://www.tartu2012.eu/

Oh, well. I will get out from inside the walls of my flat. It will be Ok.

Regards,
Irwin

Today, I turn half a century old, hooray! Herpy Burstday to me!

Considering the extremely long life span of dragons, I'm barely out of the egg. But call me a fledgling, and I'll bite your butt! Come to think of it, I may bite your butt anyway.

Regards,
Irwin

So, I've just waved goodbye to
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/swandog/
and
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/sayh/
.

They've been staying two nights at my house, probably the last time anyone slept at it. I'll be moving the guest beds to the flat the coming week.

We've been attending the Gothcon convention and meeting a few other furries there. Gothcon is really more about RPG:s and LARP:ing, but we'll subtly change that!

Safe travel back to Norway, both of you!

Greetings, all!

Life is change, the hard thing is accepting it.

I've been a little more than a year in mourning, but I'm trying hard to pull out of the mood. Lifemate's ash has been grounded, at the same time and place as her mother's. They died only four month's apart.

Life is change, the hard, un-yeilding fact is as simple as that. So I change. So I adapt.


So lets go for the happy, joyful facts!

Both my therapist and my psychiatrist have told me that I've improved marvelously the last months. I really try to force myself to think happy thoughts, and shy away from the dark roads of my complicated mind. Slowly I'm changing for the better, fighting my depression.

My oldest daughter has moved out and shares a flat with friends and her SO. My youngest daughter and I will be moving in about a month's time. I've bought a flat a few Kms from the house, but the sewage and water pipes are being changed and renovated until the end of Mars. The house has been sold to a young couple with a baby child. I hope they will have a happy and good life here.

the company I and Lifemate shared is operative again, and one of my old customers has already started to buy services from it. It's producing a small profit from start.

I've come out as a public furry with some of the swedish furries. I've thrown one big and one small party with furries and associates. It was nice, but I'm so much older than most of the others. Some of them treated me with awe - it felt a bit strange!

Now, I must start looking again. Looking for someone to hug and to kiss, and to change with. Wish me luck!


Regards,
Irwin

Lifemate

1957-04-29 - 2011-02-18

Declared dead at the hospital today at 14:00 after a massive brain haemorrage.

My mate. My love. My life.

My Lifemate is in a neurosurgical emergency ward, fighting for hir life. I've been shedding more tears than I thought was possible the last 12 hours.

We've been a couple for close to 20 years. Our children are both teens. I had a nervous breakdown close to one year ago. Lifemate had to help me close my company down, and take a tremendous load of stress. Then hir mother died. And sie just worked on.

Yesterday evening, after sie finished leading a board meeting in hir scout chapter, sie started feeling ill. The board members called for an ambulance.

Now, sie's beyond my help, perhaps forever. Assisted breathing hissing. So many coloured wires and tubes. I can just stroke hir brow and hold hir hand.

My life. My mate.

Where do that yule man really come from? What strange, distorted place saw him birthed? Well, the answer can be found here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ei69bYwwCvc

And the terrifying sequel:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xkyq.....eature=related


Good Yule! And remember, the Tomten (the garden gnome) is watching you.

Greetings,

My home town's international film festival wants emerging film makers to attend. So how do you push that idea through? By a short film, of course!

D'aww...
http://www.youtube.com/user/gbgfilm...../0/2B5nfEmRd-Y

Regards,
Irwin