I've tried pausing videos and looking at several images, but I can't tell for sure if the fox in the game TUNIC is wearing any sort of pants! I'm guessing not.
Of course he/she/it would be smooth under there regardless.

Also hi. It's been a long time.

Walked through the living room to hear my mom listening to a story about 2 sisters getting their father drunk and then sleeping with him with intent to get pregnant. He was too drunk to notice when it began and ended. Then the narrator moved on to Genesis 20.

It's been too long since I've drawn porn. No time for that.
Oh and hi, yeah, I'm still alive.
Okay, back to real-life stuff. See you in a few years maybe.

Apparently it's Raccoon Appreciation Day. Neat!
https://raccoonday.wordpress.com

This reminds me of a few days ago when a co-worker and I were briefly talking about Rocket Raccoon, then "What Would You Do With A Drunken Sailor?" came on the speakers and I instead sang, "What would you do with a drunken Rocket?"... then realized what I might do with a drunken Rocket.

I just realized that if I were to tithe at my mom's church, I'd triple their income. They generally have around $20/week. I'm not sure how they even keep that church running.
Meanwhile, we have another blood moon tonight and my mom is fascinated because she's into the Blood Moon Prophesy. Basically, something significant happens every time there are 4 blood moons. Something significant happens every year, so it's easy to pick and choose something for this blood moon to be indicating.

Lately I left my debit card at home in case I get pickpocketed, but forgot to take the piece of paper with my employer's credit card number out of my pocket. That... is a much more valuable number.
And yes, I did have permission to have that number.

10 months ago a co-worker asked if I believe in Jesus as my Lord and Savior, and I answered "meh"(I'm too honest for my own good). Today, the 2 co-workers that knew, told a third co-worker.
This 3rd co-worker has been a friend of mine for over a decade and was respectful, but very curious. He can't see any point to life if there wasn't any God. I completely understand. When I lost my faith, I had to find a new meaning of life. No eternal life? No sky Grandpa? Eventually I decided that I just needed to enjoy my life as best I can, which doesn't mean hedonism, as sex and drugs can give long-term bad effects that go against that whole "enjoy life" thing. Understandably, he also thinks it gives life less meaning if we evolved from a primordial ooze. Years ago I read a webcomic that I can't even remember the name of where this question was brought up, and the 2nd character said that it's amazing that we even exist, and that's what makes life amazing to them. I was a bit more enthusiastic than I expected when I made this point. It didn't change his mind any, and that's fine. I really don't want to seem like I'm trying to convert anybody, since that could lead to fire-able complaints, and I really don't expect to convert anybody to atheism. It's damn near impossible to convert anybody away from their theological beliefs. Despite this fact, he offered to buy me a copy of C.S. Lewis' book "Mere Christianity", which apparently is a really highly-regarded Christian apologetic book. 227 pages, though. I told him that I really don't have time to read the book and that I have other books that have been gifted to me that I haven't finished, either, and this is 100% TRUE. I feel bad that I haven't finished those books, both gifted directly from the AUTHORS! Considering I have no desire to have somebody try to convert me(I've heard enough "evidence" that doesn't hold water), I really don't expect to get around to that book.
My supervisor still thinks I'm Christian, and I've been friends with him for the same length of time. This third person is also friends with my supervisor. I don't want him to know since I actually do work closely with him everyday, but I have a feeling it's inevitable that he'll find out.

So currently I have 3 co-workers concerned about my salvation... which immediately makes me think of this scene from Nacho Libre:
https://youtu.be/LhtaXzu2kto

...but wait, it's April Fools Day. Does that mean I'm NOT still alive? I don't know WHAT to believe today.

Amazingly, all it takes for me to come out as atheist is somebody asking. I'm absolutely more honest than most Christians I know and too honest for my own good.
A co-worker asked me in front of 2 other co-workers if I believe in God. I tried to weasel(sorry, weasels) my way out of that by mentioning what I do for my church, basically implying that this is a stupid question, like, c'mon, and another co-worker was saying, "Of course he believes in God", also mentioning my church work. But he didn't want weasel words(I love you, weasels! You're all cute and delightfully hyperactive! Unless you prefer different adjectives, of course.), he wanted me to actually say that yes, I believe in God and that Jesus is my savior.
I... couldn't say it. Instead I gave a "meh" hand signal & facial expression(hand horizontal, facing down, rocking back and forth) as well as an actual "meh". Granted, the 100% honest answer would have been "God, no", but I'm trying not to look atheist, which of course means I'm keeping a huge lie. Aren't we all, though? I figure I can at least play it down, just seeming like I have doubts but go to church anyway.
The co-worker didn't make much of it, essentially saying "See?" or "There ya go", I forgot what the conversation was about. I'm not sure that the other co-workers even noticed. They didn't say anything about it. One of them likes to spout scriptures, too. Shortly before, we were all discussing if getting drunk is a sin, and I had to ask him where it says that getting drunk is a sin. I didn't have any doubt that it was, but I certainly didn't recall it actually saying that it is. I didn't want anything vague, either, like the scriptures in 1 Corinthians saying that your body is a temple, I wanted something concrete. He did some searching & found one that said that if you do certain things which included getting drunk, "You will not enter the kingdom of God". Good enough. I don't get drunk anyway, not that it matters. Not being convinced of God is an equal sin, anyway. I wasn't expecting to enter the kingdom of God, in the first place.

So that's 2-4 people that now know my... secret? Seriously, one of these co-workers is one of the people I've specifically wanted to keep this a secret from, due to his evangelistic nature, albeit in a fairly passive nature. If he noticed, I might get some scriptures posted on my desk. Big woop. And yes, he's done that to another employee for some jokingly racist statement about our president. I'm, not sure what the connection was there, maybe an "honor thy leaders" thing or general "be excellent to others" verse. He might discuss God with me more, though I expect him to be friendly about it, and I'll be friendly right back, because we're friends. Either way, I feel that the best way for me to have freedom from religion is just to blend in. That of course sounds like bullshit because I'm actively promoting Christianity at church. *sigh*, I don't think I can win either way. It at least prevents people from trying to ram religion into my skull, and I do enjoy what I do at church even if I don't believe the message.
Main thing is, though, that my mom and church members don't find out. I wouldn't hear the end of that.

Update on my last Guardians of the Galaxy post: Why yes, I have seen it 3 times and the raccoon nudity was even uploaded in one of the promos before the movie came out. It's not particularly arousing, though, since he's so sad and wet. I prefer fluffy and ESPECIALLY happy... or holding guns. Interesting that his crotch was covered, though he did have to hold his clothes somewhere. I suppose seeing him completely naked and fluffy wouldn't be particularly arousing, though, since he really just looks like a regular raccoon... but thinner and with some metal parts showing through. If his musculature showed through(not in a "beefcake" way, but in a "thin & fit" way), that would be arousing. His cute paws, feet, tongue and tail are my favorite parts. Of the movie.

The entire movie was great, and honestly it would still have been great without a raccoon shooting guns(*swoon*), but nowhere near as awesome(even if replaced by a robot with the same personality). I've occasionally succeeded in focusing on the other characters when Rocket is visible, but Rocket was still the most interesting thing in the shot at those points. Even at the beginning of the prison break, Groot is interesting, but you can easily tell what's going on out the corner of your eye with very little lost clarity.

...to one person. A close friend who I can trust to understand and to not tell anybody. Being several states away helps.
This is an old high school friend(I'm 31, so, long time) who has other atheist friends and I knew he was at least skeptical of the Bible and people's interpretations of it, likely closer to atheism. As expected, he was very accepting of the fact that I'm a closet atheist and we had a nice conversation about it. He feels his beliefs are closest to deism, which is atheist enough for me, heh. He grew up as a Christian, like me, but he decided that he just couldn't give himself a label that implies so many beliefs that he completely disagrees with.
I've been wanting to tell him for a while, but I couldn't find the right moment. And then The Skeptics' Guide to the Universe interviewed James Marsters(Spike, from Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel). I have 2 friends who are huge Buffy and Angel fans, this guy being one of them. I considered telling both, but the other one lives close, has friends who are closer, and isn't always sober/tight-lipped. I also don't have any secrets he has confided in me, unlike the first friend, who has an identity similar to the identity I'm speaking as right now. When speaking about his other identity, I told him a little about this identity without saying the name, since there are things I share that NOBODY I am associated with(via my real name) should know. I may one day reveal this name to him, though, with a few notes on things.

And then today I watched the "Leap Of Faith" episode of My Little Pony(I swear this is related, keep reading!). I never thought I would like an Applejack episode as much as this. This ep teaches skepticism, specifically against non-evidence-based medicine. Wow! And... Applejack was the skeptic??? My opinion of her is suddenly in the positive range(no longer tied with Rarity).
I realized tonight that if any Element of Harmony applied to me, it would be honesty. I suddenly feel a bit of kinship to Applejack. In this episode, Applejack's lack of honesty helped support a lie which kept moving in a very realistic way until finally... Applejack had to swallow her pride and her acceptance of the miracle tonic, revealing that the town shouldn't have trusted her approval of it.
This speaks to me on another level. I've been keeping my atheism a secret for 7 years now(Ittmi's 7th birthday is April 25th), meanwhile being a church staff member that helps spread the gospel, all the while not agreeing with the message(Like Silver Shill in that episode). I enjoy what I do there and it has improved my abilities tremendously, but I feel like my outward support of something that only works on the same level as Flim & Flam's miracle tonic might have similar effects. I help promote the idea that faith in God can do amazing things. Our church thanks God for everything, including the work on remodeling our church building from the trash heap it was before. Truth is, it was the church members that did all that. Thank God/tonic for keeping you safe in that car crash? According to the Bible, he could have prevented it altogether. It was the car manufacturer that made the car safe in the first place. Believing that a non-existent force will protect you is a dangerous thing. Protect yourself and the people you love.

Since it took 7 years to gradually lose my faith in God(2000-2007), then another 7 years before I told my closest friend(2014), I mused to him that it might be another 7 years before I tell the world. My what a shitstorm that would cause, though, being a church staff member and having 3 preachers in the family(plus a super-conservative brother-in-law who trusts me around his daughters). My mom is one of those preachers and I still live with her. I wouldn't hear the end of it. I've been over-churched already. I do convey skepticism to my mom sometimes, like when a televangelist was ranting about how evolution is JUST A THEORY, JUST A GUESS(oy, my blood was boiling at the stupidity), but I don't think I could get her to accept an atheist in the house. Even if I wait until both of my preacher parents are dead, I still have everybody else to deal with if I came out.

I feel like I'm in Applejack's place right before she let her real opinion out, consequences be damned.

I just saw the new Guardians Of The Galaxy trailer and for some reason all I could focus on was a cute raccoon shooting big guns. *Ahem* I think I'll be watching this movie.

Rocket is wearing too many clothes, though. I like how tight his suit is, but I wanna see some FUR! I had to do an image search for him and mostly found pictures of him wearing even MORE clothes. After seeing this trailer, I fully expect Rule 34 to run rampant on him. I have a thing for cute characters with guns, and Rocky has some big ones.
I wonder if there will be a scene where he's naked. It wouldn't surprise me, honestly, since it would be funny to embarrass the most dangerous raccoon in the galaxy.

UPDATE(same as later journal): Why yes, I have seen it 3 times and the raccoon nudity was even uploaded in one of the promos before the movie came out. It's not particularly arousing, though, since he's so sad and wet. I prefer fluffy and ESPECIALLY happy... or holding guns. Interesting that his crotch was covered, though he did have to hold his clothes somewhere. I suppose seeing him completely naked and fluffy wouldn't be particularly arousing, though, since he really just looks like a regular raccoon... but thinner and with some metal parts showing through. If his musculature showed through(not in a "beefcake" way, but in a "thin & fit" way), that would be arousing. His cute paws, feet, tongue and tail are my favorite parts. Of the movie.

The entire movie was great, and honestly it would still have been great without a raccoon shooting guns(*swoon*), but nowhere near as awesome(even if replaced by a robot with the same personality). I've occasionally succeeded in focusing on the other characters when Rocket is visible, but Rocket was still the most interesting thing in the shot at those points. Even at the beginning of the prison break, Groot is interesting, but you can easily tell what's going on out the corner of your eye with very little lost clarity.

Apparently there's been gay marriage in My Little Pony, although largely due to there not being any colts in the cartoon back in 1985.
http://afponygroup.blogspot.com/201.....nd-ponies.html

http://www.sandraandwoo.com/2012/12.....hildren-today/

Had to follow up on that last journal with another "Why must this turn me on damnit" post. Woo is a cute raccoon, and panel 2 just has me fixated.

Is this ad targeted at plushophiles like me? Not only am I a plushophile(a person sexually attracted to plushies), but kangaroos are one of my favorite animals. I hate when ads get my attention so easily, but this one made me say, "Damnit, Speedy Cash!". Cute kangaroo.

http://ic.pics.livejournal.com/ittm.....0_original.gif

Considering I don't trust any ads served by Google(due mostly to the amount of "One weird/crazy/peculiar trick..." ads I see on them), and the fact that I don't like cash loan places(I used one ONLY ONCE, and their fees were 50% of the loan), I didn't click the ad to see more of the plushie, but was tempted.

*does image search instead, finds their blog*
Oh dear god, they have a fursuit mascot and he(yes they use "he", ignore the pouch) has a Facebook fan page with 898 fans. If I "like" the page, it'll be a creepy like, heh.

This... this interests me. I THINK she's over 18. I've seen a pic of the costume on the store's website, though, and it's mostly "raccoon inspired". Face mask, striped dress(our hips are NOT striped!), furry tail(not visible in pic, so probably doesn't even go past the butt crack). Still, a tail!

Mikey is kinda cute. Nice touch with the freckles, heh.

A friend of my mom's has cancer, and my mom offered her a CD set of Keith Moore's healing series. My mom was surprised that the friend didn't want them("Mom, some people don't enjoy preaching as much as you do, with your 3 hours a day and such."). Mom said that it's a "surefire way to get healing". I'm thinking, "wtf?" Keith Moore is the cure for cancer?

I saw some ads on Xtube for 3D animated porn. I'm thinking... the facial expressions in live-action porn are dull enough, why would I be interested in even worse facial expressions and cheap body rigging? Unless there's something that absolutely can't be done in real life(they showed unnaturally large breasts, but I prefer naturally normal), it's just a cheap-looking imitation. The screenshots in the ad looked like basic Poser models. I can't fap to that.

I kinda hope Rick Santorum wins the primaries so I know who to vote AGAINST. Don't know much about politics, but I know he scares me. Of course, if he won, he would then actually have a chance at the White House. I don't want that. My mom does, unfortunately.
Also, according to this Forbes article, he's quite against pornography. NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

Mitt Romney, as well, doesn't support gay marriage or civil unions, but he at least supports other gay rights. My mom hates that he's Mormon, but that's not a concern to me. His religion could lead him to make some unpopular decisions, but it seems like I can judge him more on an individual basis instead of a religious basis. Presidents will always make unpopular decisions from time to time anyway. Nature of politics.

Oh, and every time I hear or read the word "Santorum", I think of the sexual act that LGBT supporters named after him to affect his search engine rankings. Thanks, internet. Btw, any comments describing the act will be deleted, just so you know. I don't know the details about the act(I've avoided them), but the fact that it's intended to be disgusting is enough for me. For the record, I don't like seeing anal sex or scat, and I suspect it involves one or both of them.

You already saw the comic, I'm sure, but since I'm referencing it...
http://xkcd.com/1025/
The sex dungeon is simply mentioned, not shown. Don't want to get anybody's hopes up, heh.

I actually heard about today's comic because somebody had tweeted that the Tumblr account mentioned in the comic already exists. You can bet that I'm following it, whether it'll have anything truly interesting or not, heh heh.

I wish I had time to draw something inspired by the comic...

ittmi: Getting into bed with a new plushy tonight. Love Valentine's Day clearance.
WalmartSpecials: ittmi A new plushie and on sale - jackpot!

Walmart Specials is a verified account, and I guess they search & auto-reply to tweets with "sale" and "clearance" even if there's no indication that I didn't get it from Wal-Mart(their clearance discounts are lousy) in hopes that it'll work as advertising. Little do they know that I'm a plushophile and "getting into bed with" my plushie can lead to non family-friendly things. It feels like they're patting me on the back for buying a sex toy at their competitor.

Of course they'd just see it as a person of undetermined age and gender being happy about a new teddy bear.

This makes 2 plushies that are the size of my fursona(3ft). Sweet.

The rules of Kill-Fuck-Marry are thus: You are given 3 names and you must choose which one you would kill, which you would fuck, and which you would marry. Simple enough. My mind automatically drifted into playing the game, and of course the first show I thought of was My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic. Since we have 6 main characters, and it's hard to choose which 3 to play with, I'm just going to double up.

KILL:
Right off, I choose Applejack and Rarity. I seriously don't care for either of them. I don't mind them, and I don't WANT to kill any ponies, but this is required in the game and Rarity does whine. She also has no saving qualities for me. Sorry, Spike. Applejack, I apologize profusely for my opinion on this, but I simply don't like southern accents. This is more like a choice in favorite music genre, not prejudice. Obviously, I also can't stand country music. Applejack does have redeeming qualities, like her strength and business saviness, but I'm more of a big city coon. I'd imagine she'd also put up quite a fight, making the attack more fun. Rarity would have to be killed quickly to limit the whining.

FUCK:
These next two choices are the hard part. Both are basically "Who would you want to have sex with?", but there are key differences. Now, Pinkie Pie. I think she would make for a fun night. Very fun. She has lots of energy, too! And toys! She's also generally not considered to be competent in serious matters, such as taking care of babies, and even though she got a handle on taking care of the baby Cakes, I'm going to consider her simply as somepony you go to for a fun time. Of course, she might follow up the night with, "Hey! Let's do this again! FOR-EVERRRRRRRRRRR...". Thankfully, the game doesn't give her a say in the matter. The other pony I'd choose to fuck is Rainbow Dash because she's so awesome!!! Ever fucked inside a cloud? Me neither! Once again, energy is a selling point. I also have a thing for tomboys. She doesn't seem like she'd pay much attention to children, though, and she seems very self-focused, so I don't see her as wife material. I don't care if she's the element of loyalty. It's been debated that her and Applejack's elements should be switched, so it's a moot point.

MARRY:
Polygamy is legal in Ponyville, right? Well, we now only have 2 ponies remaining and both are definitely who I would consider ponies that would make good wives. Twilight Sparkle and Fluttershy are both caring, responsible, and are my 2 favorite ponies. Twilight has a book for everything, and Fluttershy has a gentle demeanor but can pull out THE STARE if she needs the fillies to behave. Although one of her catchphrases is "...er... but only if you want to...", so that could be an issue(BUT NOT IN BED, HUR HUR HUR!). And even though Twilight has loads of book smarts, she has zero street smarts. Kids can easily pull one past her, as evidenced in Hearts & Hooves Day, where it was OBVIOUS that the Cutie Mark Crusaders wanted the book for the love potion recipe, but Twilight didn't catch that. On the other hand, Rainbow Dash has the street smarts and can catch little fillies in a... um, dash. However, all-in-all, Twilight Sparkle and Fluttershy are the most motherly characters in MLP and the ones I'd choose to sleep with every night. In fact, to help me get to sleep, I imagine I'm in a field where Fluttershy is taking care of animals(including me) and occasionally she sings me a lullaby. Her voice is very soothing. Imagining her telling me, "Now, Ittmi, you really should get to sleep. You need to be well-rested so you can do your job in the morning." And then she would make me some magical tea to help me sleep.

BONUS ROUND:
Spike: FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck....

Mom wanted to print out the user manual. For her Kindle. FOR HER DEVICE THAT READS LIKE PAPER! I showed her how to read it right on the Kindle(it's included on there already). I have never touched a Kindle before. Seriously, I need to take her printer away from her. She prints emails.

I think that Twilight Sparkle has the cutest butt of all the ponies.