Uh. Not entirely sure what this is about!? I haven't even been hanging out in picarto of late, posted absolutely nothing that could be in any way construed as a slur of any kind.. haven't watched any "questionable" artists, or questionable content.

It's genuinely bewildering to me. I should have nothing that picarto would want to punish with a block, so there must be some sort of mistake.

But if I had the power to charge whatever I wanted, and the ability to make a Will Not Draw list of themed, I think I'd have three categories.
Basic Category: Average prices for my stuff. You can expect a normal amount of the cost for what I'd produce and draw. A reasonable cost for an art commission. Kinks and fetishes I'll draw, subjects and themes that are A-OK.

The, 'I don't like this, so you're going to pay out your nose' category: This is stuff that costs anywhere from two, to one hundred times as much as a normal commission. This is the open, "I am abusing your business" tier, where I'll draw shit I don't want to, but it's going to cost you. Buyer beware. The quality of the art will be the same, what you're buying is my willingness to draw whatever sick shit I don't want to draw but you're loosening up my inhibitions to do. Under normal circumstances, I would not draw stuff like scat or genital mutilation for $30 on an art commission. For $3,000, I might consider it.

The, "no way in hell, unless you're a greater demon" tier.
This category is stuff you cannot pay me to draw and I will not accept payment to draw.
The exception to this is if you're paying millions of times the cost of basic art. Then I'll consider it. The rationalization being, this sort of shit would ruin your reputation forever, whether it was illustrations or not. For $30.00 I won't consider it. For $30,000,000 I just might.
And why would I make that stipulation when other artists exist to do that subject matter for more cheap? Well, because clearly they want that subject matter from me. If what you give me sets me up for the rest of my life, I don't have to worry too awful much about losing career and being stigmatized for my art, if being paid to draw macro Vanilla the Rabbit farting on a giant pie, or whatever the fuck some degenerate wants me specifically to draw. I just have to put a burlap sack on my head and deal with the social ostracism all the way to the bank. The breeze from the window of my economy electric car, paid for on ridiculous smut, would dry my tears.

And then live off the interest until the day they toss me into a grave.

I wouldn't have a Will Not Draw list. I'd have a "Fuck you, pay me" list.

The too long; didn't read: FA is a business. FA depends on tight assed, terrified finance management systems that do not want legal controversy and want to cover their asses against both the legal retaliation of above-the-board punishments, and the beneath-the-board disdain of the culture of the industry itself among creditors and finance management. They do not want to be penalized in a legal sense or an Old Boys Club sense among their peers because one of their sources of revenue gets uncomfortably close to Cub Porn.

You can still have art of unbirth related stuff; Just, instead of age regression, guess it'd have to involve shrinking. Or growth of the host. Or same-size. Just make it clear no minor is involved.
You can still have art of birth.
You can still have art of pregnancy.
You can still have art of pregnant sex.
You can still have art of folks playing with lactating breasts, breastfeeding, etc.

You just can't have art of someone fucking a pregnant woman while she's got a head pushing out of her box (or he), or masturbating around a newborn baby, or a bunch of people hanging out with erections flopped out during a very exhibitionary birth, I'd imagine.
You can't have vore that involves reconstituting people into a prenatal form to rebirth them; that still involves age regression and in the context, kink.
You can't involve pregnancy fetishism art where the fetus, new person or unbirthed/regressed, is aware of the dicks slamming their house with cutaways of them being self-aware, and thus, participating in the act for the purposes of narrative kink.
And I'd imagine that the dialogue in your written stories probably has to conform to this, as well. Depending on what the characters say, do, or intone that could enter the domain of sexualizing a fetus, baby or age-regressed person as part of a sexual act, even as a prop. With a grey line between two people fucking eagerly anticipating their child and two people fucking and talking about getting Jr. in on the act, or something.
And your milky tiddy play just can't feature someone wearing baby bonnets and diapers. It's.. it's not hard. Just don't make smooth brained vapid faces and make "goo goo gaga" dialogue, and you'll be fine.

FA has to come at this from the perspective that a bunch of yall think you're slick and still want to keep doing whatever you want and use technicalities to skirt the intentions of the rules that say, "no kink or fetish content that involves minors, circumstantial or natural."
"They aren't TECHNICALLY a baby, because despite being age regressed, they're over 18." No. You know the intention of the piece is they've become a minor, that's kind of the whole attraction to many people. That thar be a baby, by intention and design, and you know it.

Is it kind of stupid? Oh god yes, undoubtedly. Is it cowtowing to obscenity laws, both domestic to the United States of America, and controlled speech laws internationally, that should by all rights be abolished as abominations against the freedom of speech? Oh hell to the FUCK yes. Is it a form of censorship not related to the government? Why yes, yes it is.

And just like when the lot of you hooted about how Twitter had the right to ban and censure whom it pleased because it was a privately owned company acting in the interests of the public good, that same freedom to censure is applied here. With a heavy hand that errs on the side of, "just don't make depictions of sex or kink involving underaged characters on our platform."

It's not unreasonable. It's just pedantic and a complication. The vast majority of you are safe, because the vast majority of you whom draw breastfeeding for the wholesome mother/child dynamic aren't even close to the risk. The vast majority of you that draw birth are likely not trying to make it erotic. The vast majority of you that draw unbirth probably won't like that there's no 'safe' form of age regression anymore, but, well.. the emphasis of unbirth only circumstantially involves becoming a minor. You'll adapt and deal with it and be fine, if you want to post content on FA.

And there's always Inkbunny for the material you can't post here..

Please check FA's policies regarding birth/breasfeeding. If you have any pieces in your gallery that feature a cub being born in the presence of things that are not their mother's own body, or features elements of age regression/unbirth, you're pretty much in a grace period before they gotta go bye-bye, or they'll consider your account in violation of the rules.

You may want to delete such pieces, if you have any. Or, head to inkbunny, I guess.

Yeah, inflammatory personal opinion, but, like, this is just a fandom. If you "came out" as a Disney Fan and started cosplaying as Robin Hood the Fox, not just at conventions but walking around every day like that to work, school and social events, that'd be stupid. Outside of a costume party or something, I mean. Or Halloween. Stupid as cosplaying as Alan Rickman outside of being some sort of Snape Impersonator as a job or something.

It's not a religion, it's just a sentiment. It's a nice warm fuzzy corner of interests in fiction and fantasy that involves a heaping helping of liberal sexuality and aesthetic. It's.. it's really just not something to walk around in and advertise, like wearing a fursuit/mascot costume casually. That's just needlessly weird.

Coming out as a furry would be like coming out as a, "Snapewife." Just.... why would you share this? There is no justifiable reason to include other people in your particular interest, outside wanting them to enter that bubble you're in and validate you about it, and force their participation in that via validation. And over something as meaningless as a private pleasure. Not even something like a sexuality. Furry is entirely unnecessary for life, and unless you're also in the little fandom club, there's no reason to even encounter it in your families, immediate or extended.

All being a furry is, is effectively just a statement you roleplay on the internet or like fictional funny cartoon animal people. It shouldn't be your personality or a religion, and it shouldn't be a society. It's a hobby and an interest. That's it. It's where you go to write cheesy fanfiction about your favorite corporate products and the appropriate place to post that.

Your immediate or extended fam no more need to know this about you, than they need to know your videogame subcultures. If it's your career, that's one thing. "I pull in 40K+ a year drawing smut art or niche special club art," is something else.

Grandpa and Grandma/Memaw and Pepaw don't need to know you dress up as a funny woodland creature and dry hump another pal at a convention. Or casually drop "yiffy" or "everypony" into every other sentence. Just.. stop it. They don't need to know your Fursona to look that stuff up online and trace you back to find your smut accounts.

Working on something. It's not the overdue Halloween story I've been planning for years, but it's certainly something.

The problem is it's a story premise that I might abandon in the future as a prototype for something better and bigger and I'm not sure how much other people would appreciate "retreading" over existing stories and themes just in a different way. So, if that sort of thing bores or upsets you, sorry.

As always my work is shameless fetish fodder, and hard fetish stuff at that, so if such topics and concept displease you, please do not read them. And, preferably, don't hold them against me in polite conversation or interactions. My work remains sequestered off in its own little corner of the internet for a reason, and I'd never imagine foisting it off on people that are not also into what I like.

Hahaha by this I mean I'm going to try and upload a spirit-of-the-season horror story and it's already passed Halloween, so we're going to just pretend I uploaded it on Halloween.
cool? Cool.
Happy [30th of October], everybody!

Also it's a horror story and it will involve problematic themes. So. If you don't like violence and some bad people doing bad things to good people that don't deserve it and possible tragedy, please, uh... don't.... read?
Just pretend it doesn't exist. It is in its own little bubble, and if it's not something you like, clearly it's not intended for you, nor should it be changed or be judged by the standards of whether you like the subject matter or not.
It will involve some body horror and sexual violence. So, fair warning now, and fair warnings will be had then.

Alright so I've been having inspiration to do a thing, but. It's a questionable idea. Questionable how? Well, I liken it to.. a supermarket bag.

You know you want a supermarket bag, 'cause you wanna go to market. Paper? Plastic? Reusable canvas or nylon bags? You're not 100% sure the kind of bag, or the store you want to shop at, but you do know it'll be a bag. Just not exactly where you'll go with it, what you'll put in it, what you want in it. And you could use the bag for any combination of those things.

You don't know where you're going, what you're buying or how much, just that it'll be a bag.

It's an idea that has many possible applications and once I settle on one, the superposition of potential, all these other things it could simultaneously be, collapses and it becomes that one thing.

If I tried to make multiple versions of the same thing, people might get upset that it's all so samey. That would suck. And even if you LIKED the weird variations, you might get confused because many of the same characters, or at least, niches, would exist between these different expressions of the same ideas done differently. And that might take the experience away for many people.

But yeah spoilers it's more pregnophilia fetish type stuff, if only background and low key. Sorry, I've a flavor and I like it. Not for everybody, thank goodness, and I don't grudge you being uninterested in my work whether it's due to the fetish stuff or the content hinging on it.

Vague vague vague.
I am so tired of seeing the uninspired drek of somebody whenever I look up new editions to my favorite fetish subject of choice. Just, endless same-pose recolors and disproportionate bodies where about the only difference is a fucking head and splash tool color scheme.
Someone that absolutely will not take, "You fucking moron, no one wants to see your single-note crap spammed over and over again, stop making new FA accounts just to re-upload the shit nobody cared about the first time you uploaded it, you're not sneaky, you're not stealthy, you're not clever" for an answer.

And I can only pity the FA server keepers because by this point.. imagine running a bank. You pay obscene amounts of money for the real estate for this bank, and the security deposits, and the legal rights, and the property tax.
And one of your clients wastes good property space by storing glass bottles they fill with dog pee. Just, endless acres. Of dog pee. Because they like the color. "It's the same color as gold..!" they offer, as though that makes a god damned difference.

As opposed to the people storing gold and silver.. fuck, even copper, or.. fucking aluminum. Even storing BONES for the fucking CARBON would be of more value than glass bottles full of piss. But no. They just waste more and more space with the same worthless pissbottles, utterly proud of their endless Olympic swimming pool sized collections of excreta to show people.

I imagine if I ran that bank I'd be upset about the wasted space requiring the purchasing of more land, more real estate, more taxes, etc. analogous to buying another server, just because some assholes upload copies of the same shit that really is made too frequently and too low effort to even be worth sharing, much less posting.

Other art sites have a, "hide and block this idiot and all their garbage" button. Maybe someday FA will get one, and I won't ever have to climb over a pile of this shit to get to art I actually want to see.

When you accidentally fave when you meant to press Previous.

I'm doing some whimsical pornographic musing and writing and storysmithing and ideacrafting, and I have a problem.

I don't know enough about the (U.S.) military in order to really make this idea pop.

Would any of you whom are currently in or used to be in care to talk to me about this? I'm just looking for the reality so I can bullshit with greater accuracy, honestly. I'm not trying to do stolen valor shit, or anything like that. There are just really technical and finer point nuance things to military life, structure and education that I do not possess and would like to understand more of.

And, I must emphasize again: This is only for whimsical fantasy/fetish writing, not criticism of the military (real or fantasy or abstract concept) as an institution. I could technically just do whatever I wanted but that'd be less fun than writing between some reasonable, rational lines.

I'll take whatever I can get as far as guidance goes. Recommended books, manuals, documents- anything. But I'd really prefer some wisened military fur that knows the structure and how decisions are made and standards decided upon/adopted/reached. All that technical shit.

So I've been getting the bug to do a new story. This one with.. substantially less hyper niche fetishism than my last muse.

I mean, it's still going to involve lactation and stuff like that. But uh. That's practically vanilla for me.

Your streams are for your enjoyment and employment. I enjoy watching artists stream, and I usually don't request things unless I'm 100% sure you wouldn't be afraid of what I request giving you a bad reputation for the things you draw. I do not want to inflict that on most artists unless they're advertising free requests and also happen to have my weird niche fetishes. So I just hang with artists while they play games and watch movies and talk about stuff and draw.

You are 100% in the right if my presence is ever grating or uncomfortable, to ask me to leave. Either for the day, or not to come back. You don't want to seem rude, either because of the possible reputation hit or judging of yourself, but you are 100% in the right if it'd make you happier or less anxious or in any way more comfortable.

I'm a big boy. I watch a lot of streamers. It's legitimate to worry about the mental and emotional stability of people being told to go away and get lost, but I'm the sort of person to move along without feeling slighted in the least for it.

It'd just be a shame to think I show up enough in some streamers' streams that they dread even coming online because they might have to deal with me, or people like me. So you have the carte blanche. Nothing personal, no grudges, no disappointment, no drama.

(b ^.^)b

Unfortunately, while I have many irons on the fire, the content of most of the ones that can be completed in any reasonable time scale, fun for me, involve unbirth.

I say that's a problem because I'm almost 100% positive you folks don't follow me to read about THAT stuff. Which is absolutely valid. I'm not trying to bait and switch anybody. I'm a weird, kinky dude with incredibly niche bizarre tastes.

So I'd understand if some of you find that sort of thing intolerable. But, over the next few months I might upload ONE unbirth related story or two. I work on other story premises and plots, I promise. It's just, when you make a story, writing something and getting ALL THE WAY TO THE END is important. You want to maintain good consistency to the world, setting and characters and premise throughout.

And it just so happens simple niche smut stories are very easy to give beginnings, middles and ends. If a person's gallery is evidence of what they really care about, then, well, it'd lead to the impression I like unbirth stuff more than preg. That's not true, but it seems that way.

Soo. Hope yall aren't put off TOO much by me writing what I like. My interests are more varied than what I upload, even if it doesn't seem that way. I just don't upload anything that isn't mostly finished.

I don't approach with in-character posts anymore, and I'll explain why:

It's an unfortunate habit that a lot of people playing high-interest characters picked up. I say high-interest characters, but if you've ever roleplayed in forums or in chatrooms for longer than three months, you know exactly how visible and in-demand you are as a partner hinges on your sex and orientation. Bi/pan females being the most in demand, with straight men being least priority.

I'm not complaining about that last bit, by the way. "Weh weh no one wants straight men." Well duh. Most internet roleplayers are other straight men, looking for a fantasy across from a woman. Then there's the gay roleplayers; straight men are kinda useless to them. It's just how it is. Folks want the wimmins. Other dudes don't want to sexually roleplay with other dudes, unless they're gay or bi. So if you're a straight guy, you are both the least in demand by others who're going out of their way to find a partner, and the most expected to go hunting. Which means it's a seller's market, not a buyer's.

This in turn gives female characters (not necessarily female players. Huge distinction!) waaaaaaaaaaay more demand in potential offers to roleplay. Offers and compromise go in their direction, from partners the more straight or cis male that they are. That's just how it is.

Well, if you play straight, bi or lesbian female characters, you'll inevitably be propositioned by people who aren't what you're looking for, talk things out, and learn you aren't compatible. So it feels like a big waste of time to have those conversations and get nothing out of them in the end.

So, they reason, they need a way to minimize contact and maximize enjoyment. But they ALSO need a way to be more indirect and subtle about what they're looking for, without just saying, "I WANNA PLAY AS BELLE SWAN THAT MEANS YOU'RE OBLIGATED TO PLAY AS JAEKOB OR EDWARD CULLEN! IT'S A WASTE OF BOTH OUR TIME IF YOU COME AS ANYONE ELSE!" Because they don't want a negative reputation to hold water based on things they have actually, proactively said. "I never said that/you're putting words in my mouth" is a strong denial and defense for being a selfish prick.

So the profiles will often feature little hints that are indirect. "I want to RP with a vampire"/ "I want romance"/ "I want BDSM." / "These very specific things" but also, "Vague more things." And, "Things that, by their very nature, indicate a positive of something and also a negative to others. Yes to squares pegs, (no to circles.) Narrowing down exactly what they're looking for without out and out saying, "I want to play as this canon and I want you to play as this other canon." Some things, they want you to come to the conclusion yourself, bright boy. Come to the conclusion yourself without being proactively prompted and come to them. Because then it's you deciding to just become what they desire with a minimum of effort or prompting on their part.

Also,

"Don't contact me without art!" Because when you want to pigeonhole someone into playing a canon or being wealthy enough to buy commissions for their character (and, conveniently, be potentially willing to buy art for them), you mandate they have character art for their typed character in an imagination based medium.

Now they set themselves as looking, demand IC openers, and wait. By demanding IC openers, it gives them the power to say, "I am not looking for and will simply ignore correspondence that is not exactly what I'm looking for, without even gracing you with a response."

Not having the ability to communicate and ask questions, you're left with being forced to exert the effort into a roleplaying opener pitch with whatever character and scenario you'd like to proposition. For better or worse, because as previously established, you're supposed to infer, "I'm not going to even bother considering anything but exclusively and exactly what I'm vaguing at. Take responsibility and make yourself exactly what I want, or you deserve to be ignored." Exercise caution and, when in doubt, give them what they want with as little compromise on their side as possible. All ambiguities go in their favor, or will disqualify you.

And your punishment for not providing exactly what they're looking for is the risk you take of them simply ignoring it, as if it were never there. Even worse, by ignoring it, it leaves the pitcher waiting, sometimes hours, to see if they'll get a response of any kind. That imposes both an effort and time penalty on the pitcher for not being 100% of what the person receiving wants. That gives the receiver 100% of the power. That forces the pitcher to try and maximize themselves for the success of the pitch, pigeon holing them so as not to have their time and effort wasted.

So if you don't give them 100% of what they want, in addition to optimizing everything about yourself and your character to appeal to them, you may as well be being told to leave the candy, flowers and box of chocolate in the attached mailbox of the Magical Tower of Ambiguity. Is someone inside this tower, waiting to receive you? Did they receive your package? Are they even home and at the keyboard when you sent the message? It's impossible to know! They have a million ways to duck responsibility and claim they just, "never received it!" It's never their fault for not getting your message! They weren't DELIBERATELY trying to waste your time, clearly! The chocolates and flowers might be rejected or just eaten and the proposition ignored, though. It's nice to feel wanted, if you don't get anything out of it, I suppose. Kind of leaves the dude that bought the flowers and chocolates and wasted time and effort in a spot, though.

And if you disconnect or do something else, odds are they won't even register you as worth a response, even if they liked your post. So if you want a response, you wait. You can't even switch to DND and go do something else, because they want immediate gratification when they tap you, and don't want to be left waiting. Unless your character and pitch is 100-120% of what they want, don't even hope for an offline message or note or email (or whatever medium to reach offline people), because you simply aren't even in their peripheral vision anymore.

And some of you have the audacity to go, "Where are all the straight cis human dudes in roleplay anymore!? I just never see them in RP chats! It's like they all died off!"

Well they're kind of stuck in a sort of limbo where what they want to play is irrelevant, since we basically have to make these weird niche custom characters that are so proprietary that some other woman won't be interested in them and they have no "replay value." Because some people reasoned they could get and demand commitment by doing this and convince someone to commit to them without actually asking them to commit.

Yes, you got what you wanted without having to ask for it and burn precious social capital. You don't have to take aaaaaaany responsibility for what you want. But you know whom does?

Why would I make a character that's essentially what someone else is looking for, but also not only compromises everything I'm seeking but removes it from the conversation that isn't allowed to happen, whatsoever? I may as well just make what I'm looking for wholesale and look for people that aren't narcissistic selfish assholes to play with, and are willing to talk to me as more than a magic imaginary fantasy land provider.

"Just send me an IC post/opener!" has become synonymous with, "I want you to feed me like a baby bird, or I will waste your time. Our time together is all about meeeeeeeeeeee! Me me me me meeee!"

Something that's been bugging me for the past 20 someodd years (technically 23):

People who use character art as a watermark and acid test as to whether someone is worth playing with. But, in a really odd way

People that want you to either A.) have the money to buy yourself, and theoretically, THEM character art for playing with you, or, B.) "Why not play a canon, which has loads of character art already?"

So that's the expectation, then? You won't roleplay with someone that lacks character art, so my choices are fucking Edward Cullen or fork over $20-$100 for you to even consider roleplay with me?

Fuck you. From the bottom of my heart.

I got into chat roleplay because it was something that was in my budget. Which is perpetually near to nill. Words are free. Text is a dime a million. And I'm really fucking sick of the people that think they're slick trying to pigeon hole people into playing a fucking canon they like by saying if you aren't rocking personalized character art, then you aren't worth considering for play.

And then you get the people that act like because they have a gallery full of art for a character that isn't theirs, that makes their character, skills and profile so much better than yours. Uhm. Sorry, but you have an aesthetically good profile. That doesn't make someone a satisfying RP partner. It's a paper plate mask, at best.

Some of the most frustrating and worthless people I ever RPed with were people that had someone else ghost-write their profiles or they shamelessly cut&pasted wikipedia, and they exclusively roleplayed characters that already had lots of art. I cannot imagine that, "raided e621.net" is a very high watermark for quality among roleplayers, and I absolutely cannot fathom this ridiculous idea that those without character art are somehow, "telltale sign of bad roleplayers because they don't put effort into their characters."

Jenny you robbed a fucking art gallery. You put in no effort. That character isn't yours, you pilfered it from the public domain. You didn't put effort in unless you personally drew the god damned art.

So the only reason I can imagine why they are so adamant about this absolutely worthless, meaningless gesture of demanding you have a gallery full of personal art or maybe consider playing a canon, is because they believe they have the power and the clout to "convince" someone to do so. IE, they know they can hold out.

That forks playmates into one of two categories. Technically three.
A.) Simps that'll buy them character art. Since, clearly, the person is buying themselves art for their character, and "it'd be really nice if we could appear together in art. uwu"
B.) People they can sucker into roleplaying as whatever flavor of the month is on their minds.

Or option C.) Fuck off and go back to being irrelevant.

Folks have gotten much too comfortable thinking others are patsies.

You people ain't shit. Seriously.

Point of order: You ain't shit just because you A.) play a canon that has an entire internet full of character art for your gallery. B.) Play someone elses OC.

You want to act like you're a 7 out of 10, and how dare somebody that you view is a 1-5 even LOOK in your direction, much less cordially try and speak to you despite the, "vast differences," in your profiles?

You ain't shit.

Okay, here's where you rank.

At the top of this ridiculous vanity scale, we have:

Original Characters, whom have their own original art. They even drew it, perhaps even had it gifted to them because people liked their character or them as a player so much. They have filled out profiles that say exactly what they need to to paint a good picture of the character, what they're about and the stories they want to share with other people. They have custom kinks that describe and clarify, saving readers of the profile hours of conversation. They have inlines of their own art and graphics, they have dropdowns, they have their own EICONS and clean use of justification on the text in their bios.

Original Characters whom only have art they commissioned of their OC, and beautiful profiles. Maybe gifts and freebies. Still well written, still got icons. Still got graphics. etc. Only difference is their OC isn't self-drawn.

Canon characters, who wrote every piece of their profile, instead of copy&pasting it from elsewhere. They DREW THEIR OWN character art for their CANON character, like Lobo, or Superman, or etc. They have an engaging sense of the character and can play in both AUs for crossovers and straight canon as if they were writing an issue.

Original Characters, without art. They lack art that they've drawn, they lack art that other artists have gifted them, they lack art they've commissioned. They still have a great profile, just a lack of visuals. Because no art for their character exists in the universe, and won't, until they get commissions, gift art, or find an artist offering freebies.

Canon Characters and their players; Only have art from artists that drew the canon from across the internet.
Yes, you are down here. The best of you are still forth place. So you play Raven of Teen Titans, or Twilight Sparkle, or Superman. Your profile could be the equal of the first guy, and you will always be second banana to them.
Because it's not your character. By default, you are leaning on someone elses reputation and recognition and characterization and franchise.
You think your profile looks fuckin' swank, and that having all that art, available graphics, fodder for eicons, means you're somehow a better roleplayer? No. Haha, hell no.
You're nothing without your stolen art and eicons, and you know it. Which is why you play canons, you Limosine chasing hack. You depend on that name recognition and cultural penetration and free publicity of characters people are already familiar with, already have interpersonal relationships, already have franchise, in order to have what you make already endeared to people.
This means under no circumstances do you have the right to peacock or strut over someone that actually has a character they invented, put thought into and wrote. You don't have that. You're using a loaner. Without permission to use it.
You could have everything that the guy at the top has and you'd still be a wanna-be, poser, hack. Because divorced from your precious canons, you'd just be that which you despise. Someone with, "a lackluster profile. Not even any profile pics! Not even REFERENCE pictures!"

Original Characters with lackluster profiles come next.

Then Original Characters with minimalist profiles.

Then Canon Characters with lackluster profiles and few good pieces of character art.

Then Canon Characters with minimal profile information and no art. They couldn't even fulfill the bare minimum and they had a dearth of opportunity to do so.

That's right. When it comes to crumb spitting losers with telltale, no talent, no effort profiles that no one wants to play with, your 'im mewtwo lol' profile ranks beneath fucking Sonichu. A bare Sonichu profile with no art vs. a bare Red Ranger profile, the Sonichu is still gonna get it over you.

You want to pull 'rank,' and act cocky and entitled, as if someone is committing a big social faux pas by daring to contact you without character art, or animated .gifs, or that having these things somehow makes you a better roleplayer than a person without these things? Then know your place, bitch. Out of 8 places in the hierarchy, you can hope at best to rank 4th. That is the greatest height of, "great profile, great roleplayer," that you can achieve. And you have no rights copping attitude at anyone above you.

And for that matter, no one should be, "pulling rank" over anyone else. You claiming your profile is SooOOoO Much More Gooder, sO MuCh mOrE EfFoRt PuT iN, is defeated by the fact most of the work was done for you. Some of you dumb motherfuckers had the audacity to even cut&paste shit from wikis and quotes from existing properties, and you act like that stuff being good reflects on you as a roleplayer.
You didn't write that shit. You didn't draw that shit.

Media that already pre-existed says absolutely nothing about your skills as a typist, roleplayer, or profile constructor. You were literally handed premium grade building materials that refresh and update every year. It's not hard to attract roleplayers when you can just browse and get ten different obscure niche fetish pictures. It doesn't give you the right to disparage artless OCs as thoughtless or uninspired.

So. What brought all this on?

Some bitch with a pretty profile and a completely asinine sense of self-worth took me messaging them with a polite greeting as, "entitlement." Informed me they weren't interested, which I said, "Alright," to. That was fine. Saying hello and getting shot down because they didn't like the contents of your profile is fine. Perfectly natural, nothing to fret about.

However, this person wasn't content at just going our separate ways, they made a snide comment about how I, "clearly didn't bother to READ their profile, else they'd know I committed a faux pas just saying hello."

So I read their profile (Again, cannot link it, would not like it either. Terms of Service. No shaming and naming individuals, etc.) And the only faux pas I could've possibly committed was violating their, "Don't even bother messaging me unless you're making a roleplay pitch and possibly contacting me IC."

So I explained: "Yes, people that play characters designed to be approached would say that such a thing is preferable, because they don't spend all their time looking for roleplay approaching other people. They rely on people coming to them and asking. And naturally, they don't want to interact with or acknowledge some people, because being approached and talking about propositioned RP that doesn't pan out feels like a waste of their time. But those people that just sit there and let the RP come to them tend to also be blind as to how frustrating it is to approach people for roleplay, only to have them judge your profile as insufficient due to being an OC, disregard your worth as a typist or roleplayer because of it, and then simply ghost you.

What is, "Ghosting?" Ghosting is when you adopt Schroedinger's Presence At the Keyboard. Many enterprising women use Schroedinger's Presence At the Keyboard to both be there and capable of reading the proposition or greeting and/or the persons profile. If they like it, they're there, they can respond, they MIGHT do you the 'honor' of bothering to click your profile and read about your character before politely telling you yes or no, that you're compatible, lets discuss possible RP.
If they don't like you, they reserve the right to, "not be at the keyboard," or, "just didn't want to talk to you." With the added bonus of making prospective partners waste their time on the approach. You being forced to sit there in limbo, waiting, hoping that they bother to grace you with a definitive yes or no for 10 minutes, 30 minutes, maybe 6 hours to never, just waiting to see if they'll respond. Since god forbid they apologize for missing your messages and getting back to you.

Ghosting is the option you use when you're a spoiled, privileged brat with an abundance of options and you wouldn't feel bad losing a few of them.

So I explained, "I like to message prospective partners with an informal greeting first, rather than just drop down an IC post or put big effort into a roleplay proposition before I even know the persons at the keyboard or conveniently missing." Because, y'see, I know many people like to sit there and sift through propositions based by how much effort the other person is willing to put into it to "stand out" from their peers.

However, if you respected me, you'd understand giving you the power to make me exert extrenuous effort AS WELL as potential to waste my time waiting for a response you may or may not feel obliged to even give me, is giving you too much power. It is YOU that are entitled for thinking someone is supposed to do a mating dance outside of your duckblinded cave and let you choose whether or not you will even give the in-process dance an audience, whether or not you're even there. Like we're just supposed to dance for you without even knowing if you can see it, or whether we have to repeat it. Like you're entitled to leave us hanging with no resolution.

So she called me an entitled shit and hit ignore.

Not gonna lie. Had half a mind to contact the artist, inform them someone was using art of their art OC and see if that'd get them to buzz F-list and get them to DNP art by the artist. See how that asshole likes their profile gallery and their character icons becoming Do Not Post. But, I didn't. Because I'm not a complete dick.

But, for real: You phony asses that think you're hot because all your characters were made by someone else, and all your art came from e621, deviantart or fandom sites? You ain't shit. Thinking you can judge the worth of a roleplay partner by the organization of their profile and the number of pieces of character art they have.

Entitled. Fuck you. I expect a minimum of civility and etiquette. And if you expect attention and proposition, I expect you to be courteous enough to know the difference between a, "hi," that is simply begging you to respond, and a "Hello there. You busy?" I'm not going to propose to the wind and hope a ghost is listening, and if you respected people propositioning you, you'd respect that.

I say, 'planning,' because I do world building, character creation and meticulously do everything for the stories I want to tell long before I actually start writing the novel.

Before I ever write the first chapter, I lay out the A to Z in a way that satisfies ME. If I can't imagine the structure and format, the conflict, before it gets to a single chapter, then I can't trust myself to not get confused, unsure and walk away before finishing.

I hate running out of material and inspiration and hitting a block. So, I make sure all blocks are removed and I have an open path before starting the journey.

It's a lot to ask, but would anybody be willing or interested in being my sounding board for this project? Just someone to blahblah ideas at and get their thoughts.

You don't have to like it. Just, someone I can talk to about it. I don't like blahblahing at it to just anybody because I hate burdening people with blasts of my creative diarrhea all the time.

I had to unfollow someone whom will not be named, because they were literally advocating for government to treat human beings ("society") like actual children, under the idea of keeping them "safe."

I just..
no.

we are not "progressing" towards an "inevitable utopian society" where "society" and automation frees us from being functional responsible adults and replaces it with "society" and overlords. We are not god damned subjects or serfs or peasants or niknaks. We are not being "freed" from that.

No guns, no freedom. No this, no that, no nothin'. Paradise, maybe. For castrated sheep.

The same people advocating for this kinds of shit are the same people gleefully advocating for the elimination of jobs that can't sustain a $15.00/hour minimum wage. Because, "if a business can't afford to exist, it shouldn't." Right before they regulate and policy break a private business to where it can't sustain itself. The same people that think automation will "phase out work and force equitable wages, whatever the job."

Miss me with that.

It's like this whole season was designed to break my heart and salt the earth of G4. Bittersweet in the worst ways that both make me disappointed in the worst ways and heartwrenched in others.

Unless they pull something out of their hat to give closure to G4, that's it. All potential futures, all questions unanswered remain unanswered. And questions you never wanted to know the answer to get plunked down, and they're not really the answers you want.

I'm trying to be non-specific. I never considered myself a brony, but as an aspiring writer myself, I really appreciated what MLP:FIM tried to do, and succeeded at most of the time. And even when it was bad, it was still decent.

I guess it just has to do with being a nine year old franchise that was never meant to last this long. Whether you're 20 years old or 30, if you've been in since the beginning, you've sunk either half or a third your life into it by now. That's commitment to a franchise.

I don't ever want to feel this disappointed over a piece of children's media again.

I won't elaborate any further here. I don't want to spoil specifics.

Just so yall know, no, don't take this journal to be some sorta depressive cry for help or anything. It really, really is not like that. I'm just a little bummed out. But I'm 100% safe, sane and hunky dorey living and do not want to change that.

I lost two molars last year and gained some health problems due to infection. I felt like an old man. I'm only in my 30s, but well, in human terms, that's old enough.

I'm old enough to have been an adult for 17 years. There's a seventeen year old walking around that has been alive as long as I've been an adult. (Just a hypothetical, I'm not referring to any kids. I don't have any.)

Death is never a fun part of life. It's a tragedy that's sudden and unexpected when you're young, but when you're old, it's a loss from the shared history. Like when a 120+ year old tortoise just up and croaks. Yeah, animals die every day, but there's history there. There's venerability. Most everybody that turtle knew when they were a hatchling are gone, now.

Whether that ending comes from a sudden life that puffs out, or something like the ending of a story. Or a phenomenon.

I don't mind being alone, but I don't consider myself alone if the people I care about are still alive. But every day I think about the inevitable, if I naturally live long enough. One day, if I'm able to live that long, everyone and everything that comprises what I grew up in, knowing, doing, is going to not exist anymore. And there's nothing that can be done about it.

I guess it boils down to, we all just want more time to exist and be. Sudden endings are an uprooting of the world we like to live in.

"Wow! You know I never really had any positive feelings towards [fetish], but then you wrote that thing and I liked that thing and holy hell that was hot!"

Well geez, don't let it go to my head.

I love writin' stuff that awakens things in people they never even knew they had. Like, they may never have known they were all about the romantic fantasy of pregnancy or lactation stuffs until they nibbled my work and stood in my headspace. It's a great feeling.

Especially when the person is a lady! 'Cause lets face it. The subject matter is a little like BDSM stuff. To the layman, it seems entirely degrading and misogynistic- even if it's predominantly women into the thing and loving every second of it.

Just the biggest compliment I can get as a writer of the kind of smut that by and large is really a special or acquired taste. "You made me love this sort of thing!"

Love it lots.

I just bring it up because recently I had about three people contact me and say such. Felt good.

Okay.

For those of ya that don't know, here's the controversy. So Pokemon introduced a new, dark skinned pokemon trainer in the Totally-Not-UK area.

Is she African Black? Is she Indian? Is she Pakistani? Is she Desi or Arab? She could even just be Spanish or Moroccan. Or, by the blue eyes and straight hair, be anything, really. She just has darker skin than the average person of that region. She's pretty, she's spunky, she's a water type trainer.

She's a generic darker skinned Pokemon character. Vaguely Dark Skinned. Outside the purview of specifically African, or Asian, or European.

Well, people made the "mistake" of drawing Nessa lighter skinned than she's "supposed to be." And that made the usual crowd of overly zealous afrocentrists upset.

It should be stated, yes, there are people who have, in the past, deliberately drawn African or black people with more caucasoid features. Straighter hair. More long and pointed European noses, to make them "more handsome/beautiful." As of black features are not. That stigma in the beauty industry has been dead, dying and called out for what it is since I was a baby, back in the 80s.

However, many people who supposedly advocate "against this racism," are also of the opinion that it's not just the work of particular racists working in industries or institutions. That their existence in them makes the whole institution to be white supremacist. They say, "You are part of a White Supremacist SOCIETY, therefore you subconsciously can't NOT be racist/white supremacist." Judging everybody they view inside that umbrella of culture by the judgements of the industries. That racism is this invisible energy circulating through culture and society that is everpresent and inherent unless and until counteracted and killed in culture. So as a white person you can't NOT be racist if they're determined "your culture" to be racist. Any racist they can attribute to being "your culture?" Then your society and culture is racist.

It's really just "acceptable racism and prejudice" to do so, but that doesn't stop them. And they cite the historical racism as proof that modern day racism is inherently steeped in that. Any individual racist who deliberately chooses to be racist therefore is drawing their cup from this "historical societal racism." They can't just be guilty of it on their own. It has to be because of "white supremacist society." Making YOU a victim of the broad brushstrokes they put on "your society."

With that logic in mind, that's how they interpret people not making nessa as dark a skin pallet as possible in every light in every situation. To them, Nessa is the righteous African/Black character. And to not draw her dark skin is to "lighten her, in traditional European light skinned supremacy." No excuses allowed. If you draw her any other way, you're clearly a victim of your own society's "white supremacist racism." And you "need to unlearn it."

When I was a young man, and yes, I was a young white man, the "advocates" against "racism," whom weren't honest advocates against racism at all but went the extra mile to focus-fire and overpolice any white boy's interactions as inherently prejudiced, they'd wait until you did something SUBJECTIVELY "problematic." Like, for example, something as simple and apparently "harmful" as.. drawing a darker skinned character in a way that could be subjectively interpreted as offensive. That was their subjective opportunity to pounce and MAKE a problem and MAKE a spectacle.

At that point, you'd become part of a "teachable moment" as people got on soap boxes and harangued you to a crowd they played too, while others notarized the event, witnessed and cheered them on. For attacking "racism in SOCIETY." Making a great big histrionic public spectacle of it. A humiliating, social pressure pushing event and ordeal.

All it amounted to was a bunch of LARPers trying to pick you up and "live out" a moment of "progressive social change," where you become the effigy of "the past society" that they hope to stamp out and fix and replace with enlightenment. What you did could've been utterly harmless and benign, if questionable. Not because of what you drew, objectively, but because you did it while being white. Bagaged with "your own history and culture" being used to interpret the intentions of what you drew. You couldn't have just made an unintentional little booboo. Anything you did based on whom you are/were made the offense so much more grievous than if a white woman, an Asian of either sex, a Hispanic or another black person did it. Even being gay gave you a pass in the 80s and 90s as a minority. As a white man, if you did it, it was because you were taught racism. And they had to let you know who was boss and tell you why it wasn't just bad, but unacceptable.

They didn't go after female artists this passionately. If they bothered noticing the potential problematic art of female artists at all in the 80s, it was to gently inform them of "what they did wrong," or gently dissuade them to better things while informing them of how that could be misinterpreted. Boys were not afforded that. Boys were accused of hurtful if unintended bigotry and drawn and quartered socially with haughty tones, allowed to dig their own holes for resistance and denial what they were doing was wrong, or really kicking them in the guts if they exposed their bellies and confessed to their "crimes." Girls were invited to be feminist "sisters." Can't do that if they feel like there's a sword dangling above their heads by grinning moral crusaders hoping to carve a reputation in their own minds and in their friends experiences out of your actions.

And then there was American Asians of this equation. PoC solidarity existed even back then. The offense of Asians was omitted, both because of how quiet they tend to make themselves, and how they were not on the radar for policing their, "problematic behavior." It wasn't like with white men, where they just sorta lurk and stare hoping you fuck up so they can create a scene and socially alienate you from the group for it. Not even to make a fool of you, but to play to the crowd and reinforce the "social values" of what they were saying. To reinforce this acting mentality that a white person was inherently racist until taught better. American Asians got the same gentle gloves treatment as white women. Not as much as black artists of either gender, but PoC solidarity. They weren't considered inherently racist. Any racism of theirs was chalked up to the innocence of being a first generation immigrant, second generation raised by immigrants, or, if naturalized and 3rd, to've been brainwashed by White Supremacism "of America." Always an out. It was never their culture, it was never deliberate malevolence. It was always white peoples fault or not a big enough deal to have a pow-wow and pull out their guts. Never a big grandstand to make them double-down and embarrass themselves like a Fox News audience member, or have that "come to Jesus" moment
and admit all the horrible accusatory shit they said about white people and America and "American society."

Well. That was then, this is now.

These people can't see you over the internet. In my youth, these people picked their targets to be offended by their actions based on what they looked like. If you were white and male, you were fair game. If you were white and female, you were only fair game if you were an egregiously racist person. Anything else, kid gloves and gentle teachable moments. As much a grooming ritual as anything.

So when they decide to dogpile on Asian artists for not drawing Nessa as black as a 70s action hero, helpfully "redrawing" them to "be correct" and doing their little peacock dance about how lightening dark characters skin is "historical white supremacy," they make fools of themselves. They get caught bullying people in ways that aren't 100% justified or called for, and aren't chalkable to being absolutely in the name of combatting racism.

These are not people subservient to Europe or Europeans. These are Asians. In Asia. You can't use the same philosophical toolbox to harass and lecture and harangue Asians for their "unforgivable racism" of using pastel light colors on darker characters. You cannot chalk their culture to white supremacism. You have to come out of that shell and you have to accuse them of anti-blackness, directly. You have to assault and assail their home respective cultures of Asian Supremacism. You have to say their cultures are supremacist. You have to accuse them of all manner of hatreds explicitly. You can't just say what they're doing is racist and white supremacist, under the guise that all racism comes from white supremacy.

But they don't want to do that. Because that would make enemies of Asians in Asia. They don't want to accuse people of specifically anti-blackness, because that makes them sound like they have too much skin in the game and are biased, perhaps even.. disingenuous with their accusatory beatstick, presumptive and uncalled for. Like the only kind of racism they care about is anti-black racism. They want PoC solidarity and for racism to explicitly and exclusively be a thing that white people and Europeans have imposed on black and Asian people. So, they use the same toolbox. They say they've committed a racist action due to White Supremacy culture. That it's not their fault they did something racist, it's white peoples fault.

As a result, Asian pokemon fans have started drawing Nessa as an Aryan ivory goddess just to spite western "artists" who tried to "correct" the color pallets of darker skinned characters, by calling them white supremacists for not doing as they were told and apologizing for "what they did wrong."

EVEN WORSE. They are just hunky-dorey and turn a blind eye to the double standard, entirely. These people so keen on being intolerant of darker characters being lightened even a little bit by art pallets and see it as unconscious or malevolent racism will APPLAUD when artists draw white or Asian characters as black people. Because, "representation and diversity." Because, "black people are under-represented." Thus even drawing black characters with a slightly lighter pallet is unacceptable, but pro-black artists can draw Goku, Deku, All Might and anybody else as black people. They don't accuse people who do that of racism, at all. It's totally not stigmatized to racechange someone to be black, specifically an Asian character in Asia, outside the caucasian/black dichotomy. But oh, you best not even lighten the skin of a darker character. That's white supremacy.

These people have managed to expose their whole crocodile tears operation to Asia and given them firsthand experience with how cruel, rude, extortionist and socially violent they can be with peer pressure and threats and insults and accusations.

And I gotta be honest, I'm very satisfied. Not just with their method of protest but with how utterly damaged SJW's branding of the social issue is to Asians. They've wound a supposed ally who will remember this forever.

So I'm working on a novel. Right now, it's just the outline and characters and names and locations and structure. Interactions. Small plots. Making sure everything fits in and there's no plotholes and everything that's there, is character driven, entertaining and fun.

But I also kinda just want to get some stuff that's non-canon out of my system. Fetishy smut. It won't be in the actual story, but many themes, characters and things that happen will be in the story in some capacity.

I guess we can consider it an attempt to taste-test and see how many read it, like it, and are interested in more. Even though, knowing the actual book won't be as semen drenched and smutty.

What yall think?

Either way, I'm testing the waters with some smut of my characters.

Big ole high set 18 year old whoppers whose ligaments and skin defy gravity more than any unbelievable anime boobies.
Hangy saggy many-times-nursed 40+ something boobs, fulla veins and wrinkles.

All tiddies are good tiddies! Whether they hold their shape like balloons or hang like fried eggs on nails. Small tiddies, medium tiddies, mismatched tiddies. Flat tiddies!

There's no such thing as a bad tiddy, just underutilization of such.