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Posted 6 years agoSuta Still - Facebook - $80 fullbody
https://www.facebook.com/Digitalart92 $15 halfbody
https://www.facebook.com/Digitalart92 $15 halfbody
IM BACK! (Commissions Open too!)
Posted 6 years agoHey guys!!!!!
HOLY EFF what a wild ride!!
IM BACK, AND COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN FOR THE MONTH OF NOVEMBER!
HERES MY NEW PRICE GUIDE. >>> https://jackalsota.wixsite.com/boop <<<
I hope you all had an amazing halloween!
I'm so excited to start drawin for you homies again.
!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH BITCHES
HOLY EFF what a wild ride!!
IM BACK, AND COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN FOR THE MONTH OF NOVEMBER!
HERES MY NEW PRICE GUIDE. >>> https://jackalsota.wixsite.com/boop <<<
I hope you all had an amazing halloween!
I'm so excited to start drawin for you homies again.
!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH BITCHES
life update (suicide trigger warning)
Posted 6 years agoI have Gotten no commissions completed since I took on the commissions from March - Now... I feel terrible and horrible about it. I've been trying to stay off my phone, stay away from social media.. stay away from technology in general and even basic conversation.
I have been dealing with suicidal thoughts and paranoia and anxiety and depression. I went missing, because I drove 3 hrs from home and parked my car in the middle of a train track.
I truly wanted to die. The voices in my head were getting too loud ... I came to my senses eventually and called my boyfriend.
Police were involved and I went to the hospital. I saw my family doctor to get much needed help. Thank you all for your understanding and patience.
I understand If any of you would like a refund that's tottally acceptable and I won't hold anything against you for it.
I will complete them, because I love drawing furry stuffs, I would just love to do it on a non stress basis and take my time and not overwhelm myself.
If anyone could please pass this message forward to my f.a. or any groups, my wall, my posts, or anyone else u know that has purchased a commission from me last few months, that would be incredible.
I apologize for the long long delay. Art is my entire life.
As a tattoo artist I still have to draw tattoo designs every single night, so it leaves me no time to work on these until Saturdays and Sundays, which are usually left for cleaning and spending time with my son.
That - in itself- is overwhelming.
the boyfriend (of 7 years , my childs father) and I have been going through some hard times and arguing and fighting a lot because of this..
At this point he feels like its his fault and blames himself. My mental disorders are hereditary and pass on through several generations.
I am trying my hardest to stitch close an open wound ive left on everyone.
I am now on new medication ( Quetiapine Fumarate ) and it takes a few weeks to work , I am back to myself but still have buttloads of Anxiety and Paranoia.
I'm sorry if i havent answered some of you. I hate talking about it and I dont like spending a lot of time on my phone now. Hell i havent been on FA since i took on those sketches.
I am okay. I am recovering. I just need some time.
Thank you all so much for being there. <3
I have been dealing with suicidal thoughts and paranoia and anxiety and depression. I went missing, because I drove 3 hrs from home and parked my car in the middle of a train track.
I truly wanted to die. The voices in my head were getting too loud ... I came to my senses eventually and called my boyfriend.
Police were involved and I went to the hospital. I saw my family doctor to get much needed help. Thank you all for your understanding and patience.
I understand If any of you would like a refund that's tottally acceptable and I won't hold anything against you for it.
I will complete them, because I love drawing furry stuffs, I would just love to do it on a non stress basis and take my time and not overwhelm myself.
If anyone could please pass this message forward to my f.a. or any groups, my wall, my posts, or anyone else u know that has purchased a commission from me last few months, that would be incredible.
I apologize for the long long delay. Art is my entire life.
As a tattoo artist I still have to draw tattoo designs every single night, so it leaves me no time to work on these until Saturdays and Sundays, which are usually left for cleaning and spending time with my son.
That - in itself- is overwhelming.
the boyfriend (of 7 years , my childs father) and I have been going through some hard times and arguing and fighting a lot because of this..
At this point he feels like its his fault and blames himself. My mental disorders are hereditary and pass on through several generations.
I am trying my hardest to stitch close an open wound ive left on everyone.
I am now on new medication ( Quetiapine Fumarate ) and it takes a few weeks to work , I am back to myself but still have buttloads of Anxiety and Paranoia.
I'm sorry if i havent answered some of you. I hate talking about it and I dont like spending a lot of time on my phone now. Hell i havent been on FA since i took on those sketches.
I am okay. I am recovering. I just need some time.
Thank you all so much for being there. <3
OPEN FOR SKETCHES!!! Only $25!!
Posted 6 years agoSTREAMING IN 20 MINS!!!
Posted 6 years agoTaking In stream commissions tonight, starting in 20 MINUTES
In-stream Prices: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29906463/
Stream Link: https://picarto.tv/jackalsota
1 SLOT per Option !
Please claim the spot IN STREAM <3
see u in 20!
In-stream Prices: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29906463/
Stream Link: https://picarto.tv/jackalsota
1 SLOT per Option !
Please claim the spot IN STREAM <3
see u in 20!
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Posted 6 years agoStream tonight or nah?
COMMENT IF U WAN ME TO STREM. <3
COMMENT IF U WAN ME TO STREM. <3
GRRR
Posted 6 years agoMAN FUCKUNG FURRY DREAMS
HAD a dream last night someone on FA stole my sona Nox, and like changed his colors slightly a few shades darker , named him like Knix or someshit and got like so much animated expensive art of him and I snapped !! Lmao went and flew to the person's house and freaked out made them delete the account ... Oh man I was so mad. No wonder why I had a terrible sleep XD !!
FRIGGIN FURRY DREAMS
HAD a dream last night someone on FA stole my sona Nox, and like changed his colors slightly a few shades darker , named him like Knix or someshit and got like so much animated expensive art of him and I snapped !! Lmao went and flew to the person's house and freaked out made them delete the account ... Oh man I was so mad. No wonder why I had a terrible sleep XD !!
FRIGGIN FURRY DREAMS
FUTURE ART STATUS & UPDATES~!
Posted 6 years agoHey there guuythththth
whats up!
I just wanted to give you all some very exciting news!!
So as you all know, I've stopped taking commissions all together, due to the busy busy nature of my work & lifestyle
Sometimes every once in a while out of the blue ill open something small, but as for now I no longer want to take commissions on an "owed" queue basis, if that makes any sense?
BUT!!!
From JANUARY 3RD and on-wards, I will be offering IN STREAM commissions, done on the spot, and completed the same day.
I feel like the fact of OWING someone for a long period of time is stressful for me, not only because im making them wait but because i have to dig around my schedule to FIND TIME to get the queue completed. I cannot express the amount of stress it causes me knowing people are waiting.
There will be no "set" day for my streams, it will just be when I have free time and got nothin to do. :)
I will not be offering large commissions through streams (multiple characters, fully lined pieces, complicated scenarios)
Just simple things like, a sketched&colored full-body-nsfw, or like a 2 character bust sketch. Things that wont take me over 3 hours to draw.
So if ya catch one of my streams, make sure to secure that spot as soon as you get in there! cause they go fast.
I'll be making a separate price sheet based on my in-stream commissions. It will all be brand new!!!
WELL HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING YOU IN FUTURE STREAMS!!! <3 <3
whats up!
I just wanted to give you all some very exciting news!!
So as you all know, I've stopped taking commissions all together, due to the busy busy nature of my work & lifestyle
Sometimes every once in a while out of the blue ill open something small, but as for now I no longer want to take commissions on an "owed" queue basis, if that makes any sense?
BUT!!!
From JANUARY 3RD and on-wards, I will be offering IN STREAM commissions, done on the spot, and completed the same day.
I feel like the fact of OWING someone for a long period of time is stressful for me, not only because im making them wait but because i have to dig around my schedule to FIND TIME to get the queue completed. I cannot express the amount of stress it causes me knowing people are waiting.
There will be no "set" day for my streams, it will just be when I have free time and got nothin to do. :)
I will not be offering large commissions through streams (multiple characters, fully lined pieces, complicated scenarios)
Just simple things like, a sketched&colored full-body-nsfw, or like a 2 character bust sketch. Things that wont take me over 3 hours to draw.
So if ya catch one of my streams, make sure to secure that spot as soon as you get in there! cause they go fast.
I'll be making a separate price sheet based on my in-stream commissions. It will all be brand new!!!
WELL HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING YOU IN FUTURE STREAMS!!! <3 <3
<3 People I need to buy art from <3
Posted 6 years agoUPDATES/HI EERRYYBUDDY
Posted 7 years agoHayyy guys!!!
Omg long time no talk/see/stream/draw/life lmfao
JUST deciding to give an update to those of you i owe art to!
( Crisaron, Nouyorus, Jtron117, AngelTeer )
So i am still slowly picking away at these when i can!
work for me has been busier than ever, and my tattoos have gotten a lot more popularity since ive joined this studio!
So now im booked up for tattoos until mid October!!! Holy shit haha
its a pretty amazing feeling
that being said ive been so busy with tattoo art that Furry art has been postponed and put to the side (not by choice)
But when im home by myself and have nothing to do, thats right, im furrying it the fuck up and drawing these AMAZING characters!!! <3
If any of you havent seen your reference sheet sketches, please do so in my trello!
Lining and editing takes the most time out of my reference sheets , i also like to finish one piece at a time, so that i dont get stressed with multiple pieces.
if ANY of you would like a refund or anything please dont hesitate to say so!!! i know some people are really eager to get thier pieces and the waiting is quite a pain in the fucking ball sack ( i would be pretty mad at this point if i was waiting this long )
BUT im so greatful for those of you who are willing to wait and understand my position!!! you know i would never do anything to hurt any of you or screw ya over. i love u guys to death!!! :D <3 for those of you who waited this long i have a small suprise/gift for each person willing to take the wait!
U GUYS ARE INCREDIBLE AND I MISS U SO MUCH HOPEFULLY I CAN STREAM ON MONDAYYYY
-noxxerrzz
Omg long time no talk/see/stream/draw/life lmfao
JUST deciding to give an update to those of you i owe art to!
( Crisaron, Nouyorus, Jtron117, AngelTeer )
So i am still slowly picking away at these when i can!
work for me has been busier than ever, and my tattoos have gotten a lot more popularity since ive joined this studio!
So now im booked up for tattoos until mid October!!! Holy shit haha
its a pretty amazing feeling
that being said ive been so busy with tattoo art that Furry art has been postponed and put to the side (not by choice)
But when im home by myself and have nothing to do, thats right, im furrying it the fuck up and drawing these AMAZING characters!!! <3
If any of you havent seen your reference sheet sketches, please do so in my trello!
Lining and editing takes the most time out of my reference sheets , i also like to finish one piece at a time, so that i dont get stressed with multiple pieces.
if ANY of you would like a refund or anything please dont hesitate to say so!!! i know some people are really eager to get thier pieces and the waiting is quite a pain in the fucking ball sack ( i would be pretty mad at this point if i was waiting this long )
BUT im so greatful for those of you who are willing to wait and understand my position!!! you know i would never do anything to hurt any of you or screw ya over. i love u guys to death!!! :D <3 for those of you who waited this long i have a small suprise/gift for each person willing to take the wait!
U GUYS ARE INCREDIBLE AND I MISS U SO MUCH HOPEFULLY I CAN STREAM ON MONDAYYYY
-noxxerrzz
OWED REF SHEET COMMISSIONS! (updates!)
Posted 7 years agoTO EVERYONE WHO IS OWED REF SHEET COMMISSIONS!
I post UPDATES and WIP sketches on my trello here:
https://trello.com/b/rR4FDz7z/jacka.....ota-comissions
To check out your sketch, go under "reference sheets" , and find your username! All WIPS will be posted there. ^_^
I post UPDATES and WIP sketches on my trello here:
https://trello.com/b/rR4FDz7z/jacka.....ota-comissions
To check out your sketch, go under "reference sheets" , and find your username! All WIPS will be posted there. ^_^
VENT
Posted 7 years ago👏if 👏 you 👏 cant 👏 draw,
👏dont 👏 draw 👏 porn .
👏period.
XD
(in reality, i see this all the time. furries just figuring out the fandom, still young, still new to the art scene, dont have any experience drawing whatsoever, and go STRAIGHT for pornography. Like, at least learn anatomy? color theory? lighting and shadowing? perspective? BASICS?
And then they expect people to purchase commissions from them. I'm sorry, but if people want good porn, they will pay for good porn. I dont care if your YCH is $5, its still poorly drawn. I am ALL for people learning about the fandom, learning to draw, getting into art, but dont get into it for the sake of money. Not all porn sells. 👍)
rant over.
👏dont 👏 draw 👏 porn .
👏period.
XD
(in reality, i see this all the time. furries just figuring out the fandom, still young, still new to the art scene, dont have any experience drawing whatsoever, and go STRAIGHT for pornography. Like, at least learn anatomy? color theory? lighting and shadowing? perspective? BASICS?
And then they expect people to purchase commissions from them. I'm sorry, but if people want good porn, they will pay for good porn. I dont care if your YCH is $5, its still poorly drawn. I am ALL for people learning about the fandom, learning to draw, getting into art, but dont get into it for the sake of money. Not all porn sells. 👍)
rant over.
>>ANYONE LIVING IN SALT LAKE CITY, UTAH.<<
Posted 7 years agoI am posting this for someone who desperately needs help!
Any shares on this are appreciated! Lets help this person!
POST: >> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/276.....#cid:130140094
Any shares on this are appreciated! Lets help this person!
POST: >> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/276.....#cid:130140094
KINDA SOME BAD NEWS
Posted 7 years agoHey guys!!! Long time no chat!
I know I've been EXTREMELY INACTIVE. My new job is sucking up ALL of my time. But this is a good thing because it means that I'm finally able to financially support myself and my family ^_^
Over the weekend my Wacom Tablet finally shit the bed. Kicked the bucket. Totally doesn't work anymore.
That being said the reference sheets I have on my queue will be delayed quite a lot. (Probably by about a month or so) this also means that I won't have my tablet for work now, so I have to do all pen-to-paper drawings.
OH and the transmission on my car is now failing, so probably gotta purchase a new vehicle soon.
I'm still looking up!! I'm not letting depression get the best of me this time. Shit fucking happens and curve balls get thrown at you, I'm not gonna let it affect me. PMA
there are quite a lot of things I still need to do.
I need to fix up some stuff for Akygat (fix footpads) and redo the lamination and printing for my most recent badges that I completed. (Lamination screwed up the photo and made it wrinkle. Have to redo it)
I'm still just trying to find the TIME for all of this. Like I said, work is just sucking up my time.
I am in NO WAY just taking anyone's money and running away with it. I would never ever ever ever ever do that to u guys. U guys have helped me thru some hard shit, and I owe u so much for helping me out.
All I need is just some patience and consideration during this time. I appreciate and love every single one of you. ^_^
I will try and do a stream dedicated to those who are on my queue and have waited a long time for thier art. "Free drawings for Queue Clients"
Just so I can give back and say a massive thank you for being so patient.
ANYWAY. OFF TO WORK I GO NOW
-Nox 💖
I know I've been EXTREMELY INACTIVE. My new job is sucking up ALL of my time. But this is a good thing because it means that I'm finally able to financially support myself and my family ^_^
Over the weekend my Wacom Tablet finally shit the bed. Kicked the bucket. Totally doesn't work anymore.
That being said the reference sheets I have on my queue will be delayed quite a lot. (Probably by about a month or so) this also means that I won't have my tablet for work now, so I have to do all pen-to-paper drawings.
OH and the transmission on my car is now failing, so probably gotta purchase a new vehicle soon.
I'm still looking up!! I'm not letting depression get the best of me this time. Shit fucking happens and curve balls get thrown at you, I'm not gonna let it affect me. PMA
there are quite a lot of things I still need to do.
I need to fix up some stuff for Akygat (fix footpads) and redo the lamination and printing for my most recent badges that I completed. (Lamination screwed up the photo and made it wrinkle. Have to redo it)
I'm still just trying to find the TIME for all of this. Like I said, work is just sucking up my time.
I am in NO WAY just taking anyone's money and running away with it. I would never ever ever ever ever do that to u guys. U guys have helped me thru some hard shit, and I owe u so much for helping me out.
All I need is just some patience and consideration during this time. I appreciate and love every single one of you. ^_^
I will try and do a stream dedicated to those who are on my queue and have waited a long time for thier art. "Free drawings for Queue Clients"
Just so I can give back and say a massive thank you for being so patient.
ANYWAY. OFF TO WORK I GO NOW
-Nox 💖
Some News.
Posted 7 years agoHi guys! Hows everyone been!?
I know its been a long time since ive uploaded, or even streamed anything.
The truth is, I just dont have time.
My job is taking off and really putting me in the correct path for my career.
As i said in an earlier journal, I am a tattoo artist, and theres nothing in this world that I would rather do.
I started working at this new studio a few months ago and I have been so backed up and so busy with tattoo art and clients
that I havent really had time to work on this furry stuff, like *at all*.
Of course those I owe a commission to on my queue will get their art. That will never be an issue <3
Well the main important part of this journal is..
After I am completed and done drawing what is owed to you guys on my queue,
I will no longer be accepting commissions for furry art.
My career just doesnt allow me to have the time anymore to create this stuff for you guys. Literally all of my time is sucked up from my job.
From 9am to 8PM i am so solid busy, when i get home I just want to crawl into a corner and die. I have no motivation to work on art after that. (And of course Im usually rammed with the owed tattoo art I have to draw, So any time i DO draw when i get home, its tattoo art for my clients)
I am still struggling with my sleeping. I know im low on vitamins and I know that its a problem due to my health, but because of all of that Im *constantly* exhausted.
The good news is:
After ive completed all that I owe to everyone, I will no longer be doing this furry art as a job!
It will now be a fun little hobby
So any time I stream: it will be cool little freebies and fan art and doodles for u guys and for myself.
Mind you it wont be often but - - It will still be fun to do on the off day.
So will I be taking commissions? nope not anymore!
But will I be doing cool free stuff every time i stream? hells yea!
2018 is the year of change. And I feel like I have grown so much as a person, and learned A LOT this year, that my life is really heading in the correct direction, FINALLY.
But juggling 2 tottally different art related jobs right now is a pain in the asshole and SUPER exhausting.
Well, anyways.
Thats the news for today folks
<3
I know its been a long time since ive uploaded, or even streamed anything.
The truth is, I just dont have time.
My job is taking off and really putting me in the correct path for my career.
As i said in an earlier journal, I am a tattoo artist, and theres nothing in this world that I would rather do.
I started working at this new studio a few months ago and I have been so backed up and so busy with tattoo art and clients
that I havent really had time to work on this furry stuff, like *at all*.
Of course those I owe a commission to on my queue will get their art. That will never be an issue <3
Well the main important part of this journal is..
After I am completed and done drawing what is owed to you guys on my queue,
I will no longer be accepting commissions for furry art.
My career just doesnt allow me to have the time anymore to create this stuff for you guys. Literally all of my time is sucked up from my job.
From 9am to 8PM i am so solid busy, when i get home I just want to crawl into a corner and die. I have no motivation to work on art after that. (And of course Im usually rammed with the owed tattoo art I have to draw, So any time i DO draw when i get home, its tattoo art for my clients)
I am still struggling with my sleeping. I know im low on vitamins and I know that its a problem due to my health, but because of all of that Im *constantly* exhausted.
The good news is:
After ive completed all that I owe to everyone, I will no longer be doing this furry art as a job!
It will now be a fun little hobby
So any time I stream: it will be cool little freebies and fan art and doodles for u guys and for myself.
Mind you it wont be often but - - It will still be fun to do on the off day.
So will I be taking commissions? nope not anymore!
But will I be doing cool free stuff every time i stream? hells yea!
2018 is the year of change. And I feel like I have grown so much as a person, and learned A LOT this year, that my life is really heading in the correct direction, FINALLY.
But juggling 2 tottally different art related jobs right now is a pain in the asshole and SUPER exhausting.
Well, anyways.
Thats the news for today folks
<3
$25USD FLAT COLORED HEADSHOTS TOMORROW IN STREAM!
Posted 7 years agoIm gonna be streaming tomorrow ! ill be taking $25 dollar flat colored headshots tomorrow :D
join me in some awesomeness and fun <3
Some can be made into badges, i will put your name at the bottom for free <3
JOIN US TOMORROW <3 https://picarto.tv/JackalSota
join me in some awesomeness and fun <3
Some can be made into badges, i will put your name at the bottom for free <3
JOIN US TOMORROW <3 https://picarto.tv/JackalSota
d e p r e s s i o n .
Posted 7 years agoI am depressed
No, its not my cry for help. No, I'm not suicidal.
I'm depressed.
Its an emotional overwhealming dark cloud that blocks my vision.
Its the brick wall standing in the way of my path.
As an average person I should be able to wake up to my alarm with ease,
throw on my pyjamas for the morning, grab a shower, brush out my hair,
brush my teeth, get ready for the day and make myself look presentable.
But.
I can't.
See, depression stands in the way of all of that.
I will turn off my alarm 5-6 times before I can actually find the "motivation" to wake up.
I am groggy eyed and find it difficult to move. Just simply sitting up in the bed is hard.
I have to force myself to chug a bottle of water so I can simply make my mind awake.
Then i stumble out of bed and try to find pyjamas, 7 dirty pairs are scattered across the bedroom floor, that I havent picked up in over 2 months.
I pick up the same pair I always use and go to the washroom.
I dont look in the mirror before taking my son to school at 9am.. I simply don't care.
I am so unmotivated and tired from getting my son ready, that I dont have energy to get myself ready, or make myself food.
So i get fastfood-
as always.
I sit back home and I eat the fast food as if I've never eaten before. I over eat. As always.
I want as much possible time to myself as I can possibly get before heading to work.
"15 minutes, then I'll get ready."
"20 minutes, then I'll get ready."
"ok.. 30 more minutes, then I'll get ready."
"just 5 more minutes"
Before you know it, Its 11:40, and I have 20 minutes to get to work, although its an hour drive.
My mind is scattered and forgetful. Forgetting vital things like passports, t4 slips, even silly things like the lighter and cigarette i was just holding. I take an extremely rushed 5 minutes of my day to get myself dressed, spray the cologne, deoderant, pack bag, and leave.
Again, not caring about my appearence.
I'm late, again.
I walk into work as if I havent had a shower in a week. And , they're probably right.
I sit down and work, and I work hard. I keep my mind busy. I do what I love to do. I keep my mind so busy I forget to eat. Sometimes I simply can't afford to eat, but most of the time, I forget.
At the end of the day I sit in my car and light a cigarette.
I over eat. Getting fast food on the way home.
I drive an hour home.
I want time to myself.
I need to work and keep myself busy - or sit in my own thoughts.
"I'll work for an hour, and then do laundry."
"Ahh just another 20 minutes, then I should probably shower"
"ah 1 more hour, I'm almost done this piece"
"I wont have time for laundry, but maybe I can brush my hair before bed"
I tie up my hair and stumble to bed at 3am.
Depression for me, is... a constant cycle of "I dont have time"
The time I'm so desperate for, is simply just me trying to re-collect myself over what other people call -everyday tasks- I call -Mountains of Work-
Simply getting up and putting on nice clean clothes and getting your hair ready and smelling nice and making sure you are well kept, is an incredibly hard job for someone with depression. (well, for me anyway. theres different types..)
INCREDIBLY HARD.
Making sure daily tasks like :
-tidy up garbage
-clean up clothing off floor
-organize paperwork
-eat healthy lunch
is not something a depressed person can do with ease.
Being depressed is like a 20 THOUSAND FOOT black brick wall in your path,
and in order to do the task,
you must first climb 20 thousand feet up this wall,
once you get to the other side,
after spending 6 months climbing,
you are way too tired and unmotivated, exhausted and short of breath to do the task you wanted.
"Its so easy, just stop being lazy"
"Stop procrastinating , you always procrastinate"
"Always leaving everything until last minute *shakes head*"
"Hows that diet going?"
"You have to drink more water"
"Work out every single day"
I know you wont understand.
I don't expect you to.
But if someone out there does,
anyone...
I hope this impacts you in some way.
I'm sorry.
No, its not my cry for help. No, I'm not suicidal.
I'm depressed.
Its an emotional overwhealming dark cloud that blocks my vision.
Its the brick wall standing in the way of my path.
As an average person I should be able to wake up to my alarm with ease,
throw on my pyjamas for the morning, grab a shower, brush out my hair,
brush my teeth, get ready for the day and make myself look presentable.
But.
I can't.
See, depression stands in the way of all of that.
I will turn off my alarm 5-6 times before I can actually find the "motivation" to wake up.
I am groggy eyed and find it difficult to move. Just simply sitting up in the bed is hard.
I have to force myself to chug a bottle of water so I can simply make my mind awake.
Then i stumble out of bed and try to find pyjamas, 7 dirty pairs are scattered across the bedroom floor, that I havent picked up in over 2 months.
I pick up the same pair I always use and go to the washroom.
I dont look in the mirror before taking my son to school at 9am.. I simply don't care.
I am so unmotivated and tired from getting my son ready, that I dont have energy to get myself ready, or make myself food.
So i get fastfood-
as always.
I sit back home and I eat the fast food as if I've never eaten before. I over eat. As always.
I want as much possible time to myself as I can possibly get before heading to work.
"15 minutes, then I'll get ready."
"20 minutes, then I'll get ready."
"ok.. 30 more minutes, then I'll get ready."
"just 5 more minutes"
Before you know it, Its 11:40, and I have 20 minutes to get to work, although its an hour drive.
My mind is scattered and forgetful. Forgetting vital things like passports, t4 slips, even silly things like the lighter and cigarette i was just holding. I take an extremely rushed 5 minutes of my day to get myself dressed, spray the cologne, deoderant, pack bag, and leave.
Again, not caring about my appearence.
I'm late, again.
I walk into work as if I havent had a shower in a week. And , they're probably right.
I sit down and work, and I work hard. I keep my mind busy. I do what I love to do. I keep my mind so busy I forget to eat. Sometimes I simply can't afford to eat, but most of the time, I forget.
At the end of the day I sit in my car and light a cigarette.
I over eat. Getting fast food on the way home.
I drive an hour home.
I want time to myself.
I need to work and keep myself busy - or sit in my own thoughts.
"I'll work for an hour, and then do laundry."
"Ahh just another 20 minutes, then I should probably shower"
"ah 1 more hour, I'm almost done this piece"
"I wont have time for laundry, but maybe I can brush my hair before bed"
I tie up my hair and stumble to bed at 3am.
Depression for me, is... a constant cycle of "I dont have time"
The time I'm so desperate for, is simply just me trying to re-collect myself over what other people call -everyday tasks- I call -Mountains of Work-
Simply getting up and putting on nice clean clothes and getting your hair ready and smelling nice and making sure you are well kept, is an incredibly hard job for someone with depression. (well, for me anyway. theres different types..)
INCREDIBLY HARD.
Making sure daily tasks like :
-tidy up garbage
-clean up clothing off floor
-organize paperwork
-eat healthy lunch
is not something a depressed person can do with ease.
Being depressed is like a 20 THOUSAND FOOT black brick wall in your path,
and in order to do the task,
you must first climb 20 thousand feet up this wall,
once you get to the other side,
after spending 6 months climbing,
you are way too tired and unmotivated, exhausted and short of breath to do the task you wanted.
"Its so easy, just stop being lazy"
"Stop procrastinating , you always procrastinate"
"Always leaving everything until last minute *shakes head*"
"Hows that diet going?"
"You have to drink more water"
"Work out every single day"
I know you wont understand.
I don't expect you to.
But if someone out there does,
anyone...
I hope this impacts you in some way.
I'm sorry.
[CLOSED]REFERENCE SHEET COMMISSIONS (FOR MAY COMPLETION)
Posted 7 years agoHeyyy Guys!!
YES THATS RIGHT , AS I PROMISED i am opening for Reference Sheet Commissions today!
I will be starting these Reference Sheet commissions in APRIL, for completion for MAY. (March is simply just a very busy month for me)
ALL PAYMENTS MUST BE MADE BEFORE MARCH 15TH.
EXAMPLES:
3 POSE +ADDONS: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26511835/
3 POSE + ADDONS: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23982310/
1 POSE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25073629/
2 POSE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26302306/
I am opening for 9 slots
PRICING FOR REFERENCE SHEETS: http://jackalsota.wixsite.com/jacka.....ssions/pricing
IF YOU WANT A REFERENCE SHEET COMMISSION, PLEASE FILL OUT THE FORM HERE! : http://jackalsota.wixsite.com/jacka.....r-a-commission
SLOT 1:
[unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 2:
[unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 3:
[unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 4: Lake @ Telegram [unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 5:
[unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 6:
[unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 7:
[unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 8:
[unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 9:
[unpaid, form sent]
If you have any questions, please comment below or message me on Telegram NoxKangaroo :)
YES THATS RIGHT , AS I PROMISED i am opening for Reference Sheet Commissions today!
I will be starting these Reference Sheet commissions in APRIL, for completion for MAY. (March is simply just a very busy month for me)
ALL PAYMENTS MUST BE MADE BEFORE MARCH 15TH.
EXAMPLES:
3 POSE +ADDONS: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26511835/
3 POSE + ADDONS: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23982310/
1 POSE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25073629/
2 POSE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26302306/
I am opening for 9 slots
PRICING FOR REFERENCE SHEETS: http://jackalsota.wixsite.com/jacka.....ssions/pricing
IF YOU WANT A REFERENCE SHEET COMMISSION, PLEASE FILL OUT THE FORM HERE! : http://jackalsota.wixsite.com/jacka.....r-a-commission
SLOT 1:

SLOT 2:

SLOT 3:

SLOT 4: Lake @ Telegram [unpaid, form sent]
SLOT 5:

SLOT 6:

SLOT 7:

SLOT 8:

SLOT 9:

If you have any questions, please comment below or message me on Telegram NoxKangaroo :)
FURNAL EQUINOX MEME 2018
Posted 7 years ago(redoing this because I found a longer version :D)
1. Where are you staying?
Westin Harbor Castle~! Home of the Annual Furnal Equinox mutha fuckas.
2. What day are you getting there?
Friday March 16th :D
3. Who will you be rooming with?
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4. Who will you be traveling with?
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5. Who will you hang out with during the convention?
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6. Are there any panels you might be attending?
nooooo haha
7. Are you attending any stage or public performances?
I'll be competing in the 2018 Dance Competition!
8. Will you be suiting?
Yes! Pictures coming soon ;D
9. Which suit(s) will you be bringing?
NOX 2.0
10. How can I find you?
You can find me by messaging me on Telegram : NoxKangaroo , or just Yelling "Nox" until someone answers lmfao.
11. Do you draw?
DUH
12. What are your limits to drawing?
Love ALMOST anything, wont do Babyfur, wont do scat/pee, wont do vore, micro/macro, inflation, and other gross things lol.
13. How old are you?
24!
14. How tall are you?
5"3
15. Are you taken? Are you looking for a mate?
I am taken. <3 But I'd be happy to cuddle or snuggle. anyday. ;)
16. Can I talk to you?
DUH
17. Can I touch you?
I DONT KNOW, CAN YOU? lmfao
18. Can I visit your room?
No, thats PRIVATE! Sarry <3
19. Can I buy you drinks?
Fuck yeah lets get drunk together.
20. Can I give you stuff?
U CAN GIVE ME EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING IF U WANT TO <3
21. Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Yes omg all the love please.
22. Are you nice?
Nah im an asshole.
23. How long are you going?
March 16th-19th.
24. If I see you, how should I get your attention?
yell: NOX HEY LOOK OVER HERE I GOT PIZZA.
25. Where will you be most of the time during the days?
Jerking off in a bathroom. (just kidding, for real tho, probably everywhere.O.O )
26. What/where will you be eating?
Tim Hortons cus im fat.
27. Can I come with you for food/fun etc?
Fuck yeah, just ask first. I dont like the people that tag along and assume they're included in plans.
28. Can I look in your sketchbook?
SURE XD
29. Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Fuck yeah dude!
30. Can I take your picture?
Yesssss please.
31. What’s your goal for the con this year?
Get fucked up and party with my buddos.
1. Where are you staying?
Westin Harbor Castle~! Home of the Annual Furnal Equinox mutha fuckas.
2. What day are you getting there?
Friday March 16th :D
3. Who will you be rooming with?
★



4. Who will you be traveling with?
★



5. Who will you hang out with during the convention?
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6. Are there any panels you might be attending?
nooooo haha
7. Are you attending any stage or public performances?
I'll be competing in the 2018 Dance Competition!
8. Will you be suiting?
Yes! Pictures coming soon ;D
9. Which suit(s) will you be bringing?
NOX 2.0
10. How can I find you?
You can find me by messaging me on Telegram : NoxKangaroo , or just Yelling "Nox" until someone answers lmfao.
11. Do you draw?
DUH
12. What are your limits to drawing?
Love ALMOST anything, wont do Babyfur, wont do scat/pee, wont do vore, micro/macro, inflation, and other gross things lol.
13. How old are you?
24!
14. How tall are you?
5"3
15. Are you taken? Are you looking for a mate?
I am taken. <3 But I'd be happy to cuddle or snuggle. anyday. ;)
16. Can I talk to you?
DUH
17. Can I touch you?
I DONT KNOW, CAN YOU? lmfao
18. Can I visit your room?
No, thats PRIVATE! Sarry <3
19. Can I buy you drinks?
Fuck yeah lets get drunk together.
20. Can I give you stuff?
U CAN GIVE ME EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING IF U WANT TO <3
21. Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Yes omg all the love please.
22. Are you nice?
Nah im an asshole.
23. How long are you going?
March 16th-19th.
24. If I see you, how should I get your attention?
yell: NOX HEY LOOK OVER HERE I GOT PIZZA.
25. Where will you be most of the time during the days?
Jerking off in a bathroom. (just kidding, for real tho, probably everywhere.O.O )
26. What/where will you be eating?
Tim Hortons cus im fat.
27. Can I come with you for food/fun etc?
Fuck yeah, just ask first. I dont like the people that tag along and assume they're included in plans.
28. Can I look in your sketchbook?
SURE XD
29. Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Fuck yeah dude!
30. Can I take your picture?
Yesssss please.
31. What’s your goal for the con this year?
Get fucked up and party with my buddos.
STREAM FUCK STREAM SHIT
Posted 7 years agoEDIT: I FORGOT MY TABLET PEN AT WORK. ;___; FML NEVERMIND. STREAM STARTS TOMORROW LOL
STREAMING <3 @ 10PM EST
https://picarto.tv/JackalSota
https://picarto.tv/JackalSota
Working thru my queue , only 7 days left to finish everyones pieces! :D those who are expecting commissions can expect your completed works this week. <3
https://picarto.tv/JackalSota
https://picarto.tv/JackalSota
Working thru my queue , only 7 days left to finish everyones pieces! :D those who are expecting commissions can expect your completed works this week. <3
IN STREAM COMMISSION OPENINGS TONIGHT!
Posted 7 years agoAHH YES im doing in stream commission openings today at 8:00PM EST
ill be doing COLORED MESSY SKETCH BUSTS FOR $15 !!
example of messy sketch (not a bust)>>> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26283706/
TUNE IN TONIGHT!
Will be drawing until 12MIDNIGHT EST
https://picarto.tv/JackalSota
ill be doing COLORED MESSY SKETCH BUSTS FOR $15 !!
example of messy sketch (not a bust)>>> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26283706/
TUNE IN TONIGHT!
Will be drawing until 12MIDNIGHT EST
https://picarto.tv/JackalSota
BACK FROM MEXICO :D
Posted 7 years agoHey!!! I am back from Mexico !
Had a wonderful trip and got a lil tan ;D
Work will resume as normal tonight at 9:30 PM EST streaming on www.picarto.tv/jackalsota
Join us for some amazing fun :D
Not sure what im gonna work on BUT im gonna need to warm up my game after not drawing for a week or so
MIGHT do some freebies to warm up a little :D [EXCLUSIVE TO MY WATCHERS ONLY]
SO YEAH tune in tonight !!!!!!!
LOVE U HOMIES
Had a wonderful trip and got a lil tan ;D
Work will resume as normal tonight at 9:30 PM EST streaming on www.picarto.tv/jackalsota
Join us for some amazing fun :D
Not sure what im gonna work on BUT im gonna need to warm up my game after not drawing for a week or so
MIGHT do some freebies to warm up a little :D [EXCLUSIVE TO MY WATCHERS ONLY]
SO YEAH tune in tonight !!!!!!!
LOVE U HOMIES
ERMAGERSH (life updates)
Posted 7 years agoHEY GUYS
SO A LOT OF CRAAAZY life stuff has been happening
all great life stuff
2018 has been so much better for me!!!!!!!!! like FINALLY
Im sorry i havent been arting at all its just that I've been trying to get my life together recently and its taken a LOT of energy out of me
I've also been REALLY focusing on tattoo art and its for good reason.
First of all, i want to say : Thanks for being awesome and not anal about the commissions. seriously i havent heard 1 complaint from any of u guys and its SUCH a stress reliever to know i have such amazing followers ;____;
Secondly, Ive been trying to get into this really high end tattoo studio and I had a chat with the owner this week, and it looks like I'll be starting there in March!!!
I couldn't be more excited, because its all very high end and really famous tattoo artists there, So I am soooo grateful that I get the opportunity to work beside them and learn from them and take in all of the great artistic atmosphere. I even showed him my furry art and he loved it!!! he said I should be tattooing it! So I'll be making more furry-esk tattoo flash.
I've also been trying to run around finding clothes and outfits that fit me cause ill be going to Mexico for my birthday on the 25th!!!!!!! (my birthday is on the 27th but WHATEVER ITS NOT IMPORTANT) SO ill be in Mexico for a week and will be back in business by the 2nd of Feb.
IN THE MEANTIME i recently purchased a really high end microphone and I'm going to start working on some music covers and guitar covers and exciting shit like that.
I'll also be working on commissions TOMORROW night and TUESDAY night (stream) -usual time-
BUT YA THANK U FOR ALL OF THE LOVE AND ALL OF THE AMAZINGNESS THAT U ALL BRING TO MY LIFE AND IM SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE U ALL <3 <3
FUCKIN BEAUTIFUL BEINGS
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFRICK! <3 <3
THIS YEAR HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME. AND SO HAVE U GUYS. JUST AH
:3 ur all fucking wonderful and i hope ur having just as good as a year as me !!!!!!!!!
SEE U IN TOMORROWS STREAM!!!!
SO A LOT OF CRAAAZY life stuff has been happening
all great life stuff
2018 has been so much better for me!!!!!!!!! like FINALLY
Im sorry i havent been arting at all its just that I've been trying to get my life together recently and its taken a LOT of energy out of me
I've also been REALLY focusing on tattoo art and its for good reason.
First of all, i want to say : Thanks for being awesome and not anal about the commissions. seriously i havent heard 1 complaint from any of u guys and its SUCH a stress reliever to know i have such amazing followers ;____;
Secondly, Ive been trying to get into this really high end tattoo studio and I had a chat with the owner this week, and it looks like I'll be starting there in March!!!
I couldn't be more excited, because its all very high end and really famous tattoo artists there, So I am soooo grateful that I get the opportunity to work beside them and learn from them and take in all of the great artistic atmosphere. I even showed him my furry art and he loved it!!! he said I should be tattooing it! So I'll be making more furry-esk tattoo flash.
I've also been trying to run around finding clothes and outfits that fit me cause ill be going to Mexico for my birthday on the 25th!!!!!!! (my birthday is on the 27th but WHATEVER ITS NOT IMPORTANT) SO ill be in Mexico for a week and will be back in business by the 2nd of Feb.
IN THE MEANTIME i recently purchased a really high end microphone and I'm going to start working on some music covers and guitar covers and exciting shit like that.
I'll also be working on commissions TOMORROW night and TUESDAY night (stream) -usual time-
BUT YA THANK U FOR ALL OF THE LOVE AND ALL OF THE AMAZINGNESS THAT U ALL BRING TO MY LIFE AND IM SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE U ALL <3 <3
FUCKIN BEAUTIFUL BEINGS
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFRICK! <3 <3
THIS YEAR HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME. AND SO HAVE U GUYS. JUST AH
:3 ur all fucking wonderful and i hope ur having just as good as a year as me !!!!!!!!!
SEE U IN TOMORROWS STREAM!!!!