After 2+ years of not even touching my profile, I revamped it with new artwork of my updated sona, and a new updated pic of me! (and changed info around a bit to be more accurate :D So now I can actually show off my profile now and not be ashamed of the old outdated info and artwork i had on here previously xD

Well, I haven't really touched my profile on here in over a year, and its been so long that my fursona hasn't even been fully changed over to female since I came out as transgender. sooo now I REALLY need to find someone who can re-draw my ref-sheet, and possibly some new art of my fursona as female. It really sucks seeing my old male ref-sheet on my page, since it doesnt match who I am anymore >.< so if theres anyone out there that watches me, and is willing too, I'd GREATLY appreciate if one of you could help me out :) Thanks!!

Well, To totally contrast my previous journal, recently, things are starting to get better for me, and I'm feeling a lot better. I had a fur friend that admitted to me that he has been smoking pot for the last 4 years, and it devastated me. I'm against ANY use of drugs, or any type of smoking. I overreacted and tried scaring him out of it, which apparently backfired and made him smoke more. But now, he is happily working with me to get him over it, and hopefully quit it sometime in the near future :) ALSO, I've talked with my friend that got to go to FC, and if everything goes as planned, I will be able to go to AC With him and my GF This year! :D
Also, This Saturday (The 28th) I'm going to move in with my dad, so that means no more annoying parents, no more chores all the time, more time to myself, and other great things!...AND I'll finally be able to work at getting things ready to move into my own place with my GF! :D

First off, I'm not one to usually admit I'm jealous of something. But when you look at your life as one big picture, you realize the situation you're in. Currently I still live with my parents, in a small town with about 600 people. I have 2 Real-life friends, and that's it. I don't socialize with anyone else. I feel like I'm living in a cave, and somewhat I am. My bedroom is a small 1-windowed extension to my house off the kitchen. I have 3 outside walls and no insulation, so it gets VERY cold in the winter. So basically the room is cold and dark, like a cave.
Anyways, continuing on about my depressing life, I've never had a real-life mate. (Girlfriend or Boyfriend) I do have a girlfriend currently, but she lives all the way in Cali, and the only way I can interact with her is through Skype. Mentally I'm still a virgin. I've had sex once, but because of some things, I have no memory of it. I've never been to any parties, events, conventions, etc. with friends. I'm a DJ but I've never been to a dance club, or any event that has even ever had electronic music. Basically, I've been forced to be anti-social, and live a boring life. Even now, I seem like I'm ignored whenever I try and be noticed. I see, on many sites including this one, people going to events, hanging out with friends, partying, and having fun. And i've never got to experience that. All i do everyday is the same thing. Get up, grab some food, sit my ass in front of my laptop, browse the net for hours, go to my friends to do the same boring thing, come home, eat something else, and sit on the laptop for hours again, then go to sleep. This is what i do every day.
And now finally to what I made this journal about. I have a friend online who I'm very close to. He doesn't really realize how much I feel connected to him, but hes one of the few people ive met online that i can say that about. Anyways, hes basically been in the same situation as me, and we could identify with each other. But just this last week, he was able to go to FurCon, and he was super nervous about it. seeing him being able to go to FC struck me more then I expected. We were 2 people who shared the same situations, were basically in this together, and now he was able to have the time of his life, living out many fantasies, and overall having fun, while all i got to do is the everyday schedule, sitting on my ass in front of my laptop in my cold ass room freezing and feeling lonely. I see myself sitting in my little cave, watching my life go by, while all these other lucky people in the world get to go out and have the greatest time. This may just be an emotional phase, but im very depressed because of this. I wish i can go back in time and relive my life, because so far it seems ive wasted 20 years.

Well, what an eventful last few months it's been. Between finding a wonderful girlfriend, planning on moving into my own place with her, and many other small challenges, it's been pretty hectic. Over the last few days, I finally, after MANY years, have an artist finishing my fursona and making me a ref sheet. He isn't on FA yet, but you can follow him on DA here: http://lorddominic.deviantart.com/gallery/

Last night I got a couple freebies from

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They're both amazing. thanks a bunch!

Later on today, The gaming community I'm in, were publicly launching our Minecraft server that we've been working on for months, so if you play Minecraft, com join us! Many furries other then myself are members on the server also! here's the IP: mc.westcoastgaming.net:1337