Now please before you think this is just a "WAA WAA" journal about being lonely or if I'm gonna curse people who have someone -DON'T-.

First of I want to say happy valentine's day to everyone and to those with a mate please show each other the love you both deserve and live a happy life. :3

Now to me...*sigh* this will most likely be a bore fest -__-

I'll start of by saying that I have had girlfirends in my life but they never lasted long and one just ended suddenly, mostly due to the fact I was a tosser when I was younger, a dumbfuck and weird as hell. I may sound like I'm putting myself down but its the truth I was a pretty weird kid and I sometimes wonder how I got girlfriends XD.

But when I see couples in on FA and with today being V-day it really hits me hard that I have no one to be with. Of course I don't mean I'm completely alone, I have my parents, sister and firends but theres times where I wish I could be with a significant other to really show love.

Being in the furry community is one of the things that I feel jeopardizes my chance of finding someone unless by some luck they are in the community as well but from what I can tell theres no one in the area where I live who is into the fandom as much as I am and I fear that telling people I'm in a community that features anthro animals in porn (yes I know theres more to it but its the general image its been given) it would throw them off and could have unfortunate consequences.
(other reasons: appearance, lousy soical life, body -_-)

My point is: I would more prefere to be with someone who is either into the fandom or is ok with it, if I met someone from FA and a bond started from that then I would be overjoyed whether its with a male or female.


Ok so mabey this was a little bit of a WAA WAA journal but it was something I wanted to let out.

All the cool kids are doing it >.>

1.Are you single or taken?
Single.....unsurprisingly

2. Chocolate or flowers?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_WZicr3xjk

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Well if playing Bioshock 2 counts as special then yes, if not then......no.

4.Do you like anyone?
Theres a few. >.>

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
No....I'm a lonely depre.....oh shit I'm going emo.

6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
A nice dinner at a restaurant, followed by a late night movie togehter.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
No I really don't sometimes I even forget about it completely :/

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
I'd be surprised if I did to be honest.

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
I couldn't write a love letter to save my life, what whit crappy spelling of all things xD

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
That little bugger? Nope

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
lol no I'd find it kinda weird :P

12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
I used to in primary school.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Who doesn't? :>

14. Flowers or chocolate?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_WZicr3xjk

15. Is Valentines day depressing?
No, not really

16. How do you feel about PDA (public displays of affection)?
If people wanna make love in the street that none of my business :P

17. How is your love life?
Bleh I say BLEH

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nope

19. How many roses would you want?
Meh a few would be fine.

20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next year?
If I'm lucky and thats a BIG if

 chaoman16 is offering slots for a lesbian orgy pic and for only $19 you can get your character in the pic, see the journal for more info --->http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1177649/#cid:9988085

Only 3 slots left HURRY PEOPLE.

to look for a job.

I mean ever since I finished my christmas job at the end of december I've been looking for anything: part-time, full-time ANYTHING so I can earn some fucking money but now we're in february I have yet to find one yet.

I've applied for several jobs but the assholes have yet to reply back and what pisses me off is that when I go to where I applied I see some faggot who just started and it truns out they never bothered to tell me I didin't get the job, I really hate this.

I'm so desperate I'm having to take a volentary at my local charity shop but of course I'm not getting paid and if I can't find anything soon I may have to try and get back into college.

God I hate my life just now. ;_;

when they freak out and cry on online games?

I'm asking because I was recently playing Modern Warfare 2 and was in team deathmatch and apparently I had a 10 year old on my team (he openly said he was 10) and during the match he yelled out "OHMYGHAD! I KILLED HIM!!!" "HAHA YOU SUCK" "I'M THE BEST" etc basically being an annoying ass.

I muted him but other players on my team began laghung at him so I unmuted and found out he was crying, after that I noticed he was getting killed alot and the more he got killed the more he cryed and freaked out and I'll be honest I found it absolutly hilarious.

He constantly moaned about the other team not playing fair and cheating and was basically being a sore loser and he even screamed at his team to stop laughing at him, then at the end he said the most unexpected insult I ever heard: "YOU GUYS WHO LAUGH AT ME WILL WAKE UP WITH MY BALLS IN YOUR MOUTH, YOUR MOM WILL EAT MY POO (yes he actually said poo) AND YOUR DAD WILL...SOMETHING, *some unintelegble screaming* and I HATE YOU ALL" then he left.

Ugh k, now I have that of my chest I'm gonna listin to Dope.

Ok I'm abit late but who cares, I never thought I would reach this amount so thanks alot to everyone especially  Crossbow for being my 400th watcher.

I do feel that I should do a reward or something but since I don't draw thats whats been keeping me from doing anything :/

Ok I'll tell you what, IF I get to 500 watchers (thats a big if) then I'll pay for a commission for the 500th watcher. I'm still trying to figure how it would work but I'm sure I'll have plenty of time till then to think :P

But anyway thanks alot everyone ^_^

that is taking icon commissions, preferably animated icons.

Just felt like getting a new icon and I like having ones that move, I know I have that boob squish avvy from but I fancy something new.

I've had a look around myself but most people I found were either closed or not taking them at all.

So if anyone who reads this knows anyone taking icon commission please let me know, thanks

I mean JEEEEZ its been snowing non stop for weeks now and apparently its been the worst snow Britain has faced since the last snow storm 30 years ago ( or was it longer? I don't know *shrugs*)

Warning: links lead to LARGE PHOTOS.

I mean just take a look at these photos to see what its like:
Outside my front door
Under one of my windows
My dads car and let me tell you there was alot more, ALOT more snow than what it has right now.
And just to top it all off look at what happened to a can of Cola I left in a seperate fridge that I keep in a shed in the garden
*note there were other cans that ended up like this and left a nasty mess :<

Anyone in the UK who reads this will no doubt know what its like and I'm pretty sure this is happening to people elsewhere but the conditions here are making things tough with a scare of resources getting low and a rise of deaths caused by the ice.

For once I never thought I'd want the snow to be gone :<

Tagged by  MikomiStar damnit >:(

Soft:

How many people have you had a crush on?
Quite a few to be honest but my extream shyness keeps it at a crush :<

How many people have you hugged?
To many to count.

How many people have you kissed?
Quite a few but they were mostly a quick smooch

How many people have you daydreamed about?
OMG I think I'd triple the size of my home page if I list who I daydream about :P

How many people of the above questions are on FA?
A couple :3

Medium:

How many people have you made out with?
Only one U_U

How many have you thought about naked?
Just a few

How many people have you thought about having sex with?
No names needed? Good then a few people :P

How many serious relationships have you been in?
Only one and its been a while since it ended.

How many times have you thought about having sex?
All the time, hey everyone does don't deny it >:D

How many people on the questions above are on FA?
Ok again no names but a few people have caught my....shall we say "interests" :P

Hard:

Have you ever masturbated?
Well duh. Seriously, who hasn't?

If so how often?
Whenever I have time to myself which is.....ALL THE TIME :D

If so what type was it?
The type how every guy does it O.o

How many times have you had sex?
A couple of times, can't say I left a good imprssion xD

What is your favorite position?
I'm really not sure :/

Have you ever been interested in the same sex?
Yes, I have and still am. :3

Have you ever had an orgasm?
Oooooooooooooh YEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAH :P

Now tag five people to put this on their page

I SO CAN'T FUCKING WAIT FOR THIS GAME :D

I've been playing the demo non stop and honestly every time I play it I find new combos, its just incredibly fun and if I'm finding so many move in the demo I can't imagine how many will be in the full game.

Also another reason I'm so excited for the game is because of the art style, the game looks absolutly beautiful with incredible looking enemys and I'm gonna come out and say it "Bayonetta is FUCKING HOT AS HELL"

I really love her design the most, I mean her friggin outfit is her own hair and her personality is nothing short of loveable.

So yeah, I can't wait to get this game :D

I'm 10 minutes to late :<

Aww well still, i wish everyone the best for 2010, HUGS ALROUND ^.^

Time to look and see what I'm gonna do with my lousy life and since a new year is about 3 days away I'm gonna have to look pretty hard.

First and foremost is that I'm gonna need to get another job, I'm still doing good with my last pay from my previous job but theres no way I can survive for long with it so I'll be job hunting for a bit at the start of the new year.

Second, I'm gonna have to finish Assassins Creed 2, I'm only 2-3 hours in the game and I'm just getting started and with all the extra "stuff" I heard the game will have means I'll be plaing it for some time and I'm happy with that.

Thirdly, I'm thinking more of seeing Avatar since my sister has just seen it and said is really good but I just don't know if I should, I mean it looks cool but I just don't feel that interested in it :/

Fourthly, I'm hoping to do more commissions at some point but I still have some commishes yet to receive (see below) so once a few of these are done and received I'll look for more artists.

That seems about it just now, if anything else come to mind then......bah its not like anyone would be reading this :P

....you furfags :P

Hope you have a good one and a great new year and I wish for the best for everyone in 2010.

Any bah-humbuging from you'll get a fistful of coal up yer backside.

I'm gonna be getting either Left 4 Dead or L4D2 pretty soon for the 360 (I only have enough for one game) and I'm just curious with which game is played more by people here as I'll be looking for people to play co-op with.

I'll be making another journal asking if anyone wants to play when I get the game but which one should I get? Help me decide please.

• Pick your Artist:
The Killers

• Are you a male or female?
On Top

• Describe yourself:
Everything Will Be Alright

• How do you feel:
Losing Touch

• Describe where you currently live:
The World We Live In

• If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Sam's Town

• Your favorite form of transportation:
Joy Ride

• What did you get on your last Birthday?
Bones

• Your best friend is:
Jenny Was a Friend of Mine

• You and your best friends are:
Human

• What's the weather like:
This River Is Wild

• Favorite moment:
Midnight Show

• If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
This Is Your Life

• What is life to you:
A Dustland Fairytale

• Your last relationship:
Why Do I Keep Counting?

• Your fear:
All These Things That I've Done

• What is the best advice you have to give:
Leave the Bourbon on the Shelf

• Thought for the Day:
Enterlude

• How I would like to die:
Under the Gun

• My soul's condition:
Tranquilize

• Most Faithful Companion:
Neon Tiger

• My motto:
Move Away

lolwut?

Also I have an Xbox and an Xbox LIVE account, I haven't got any good multiplayer games just now but still if you want to add me go ahead.

Gamertag: jackojock101

Its so fucking cold here I could see my own breath while at work :O
Ok so I may be working in the store room and it tends to get cold in there but still I was shocked with just how cold it was.

And thats not all, I had a headache from a party I was at last night which was bugging the hell outta me at work and cause it was so cold it was affecting my skin which gets real dry and makes it almost impossible for me to bend my fingers and they still hurt DX

And just as I finish typing this journal I'm getting a runny nose now.....someone shoot me -_-

Caps to catch attention :V

Anyway I'd like to know what people named their pokemon in their team whether it is a team for the story or for online.

Heres my team and their names (its the story team)

-Infernape: Fuckitburn
-Luxray: FzzZzzouch
-Floatzel: Wet Dream (I like Floatzel alot ok? shut up >.>)
-Gardevoir: aoGdroivr (I was struggling)
-Crobat: Quadwing

My head hurts, my back aches, my coughing hurts and my skin is dry as hell...jeez I haven't felt like shit this much for a while now.

And now my chest is feeling sore T.T PLEASE SOMEONE KILL MEEEEEEEEE, MAKE MY PAIN END ;_;

*shitty journal, small whining and some bad words.

I've just had my 3rd day at work and now I'm not back till Saturday so I have 4 days of free time and already I'm bored to death.

I'm basically broke at the moment and don't get more money till friday which sucks since I was hoping to mabey go for more commissions

I guess I'll just waste time of my miserable week playing Modern Warfare 2 and FUCK SAKE I SO FUCKING WANT ASSASSINS CREED II..........the 20th get come any slower MOTHER FUCKER D:<

end of shitty journal