well im fully opening commissions now! .w.; ever sense i got this art pad ive really been in the mood to draw as of lately, heck even done some stuff with freinds and it was fast!

so if anyone wishes to commission me they can, although there really is only 2 methods of commissioning me and they are

steam gift cards/steam card codes: a 20$ steam card gives you a full colored shaded pic with a color basic backround with almost anything you want
a 50$ steam card, gives you a 3 panel comic colored and shaded~!
a 60$ steam card (3 20$ ones) a 4 panel comic thats colored and shaded
a 100$ steam card. 2, 4 panel comics (or a big 8 panel one)+ a free drawing colored and shaded.
(dont think anyone will do this one, but might as well put it on there) ^

and tf2 items... this is abit tricky as some people have no idea how to price them, so usally im the one to price the stuff
and pretty much the same goes for all of the prices above, other then instead of money replace that with "$"amount in tf2 items. and thats it.

welp, hope you guys are having a good day! .w.

hello any fan/artist/who ever it is reading this!

as you can read the title ofthis journal i am rather bored as of today and im in a massive mood to do some rps with freinds as of today >w<;
also if you are going to rp with me send a note and dont do it here ^^' just dont want it all clogged up here.

for stuff im minaly in the mood to rp for today is (CV, samesize vore, smallish preds vore, and any fun related stuff x//3~)

sorry for being random as well, i know i usally dont do rps but im so bored! and some people do really intresting rps ;w;

anyway hope your day goes well!

Well sorry guys I haven't really done any new art, I've been doing drawings for friends lately and I'm not really posting them till the end of December, as there Christmas drawings~ (if you go to bluthelizards account you will see one of my newest NSFW drawings)

as for now though I'm rather lost with what to draw, so of you guys want you can suggest some things for me to draw~

Also hope you guys are doing OK today

So ive recived the most commissions this month then i have any other month or my drawing history and man i feel exausted doing all of them. @-@'
so when i finish all of the commissions ive recived im going to take december off on comic commissions and some normal commissons (might do 1 or 2 normal commissions)

as for other updates~
by the end of next year i MIGHT increase the price of my comic commissions to 60$'s a comic rather then 50$'s as ive been getting them frequently and although i do like the price, they take so long to do to where at times i dont feel like its worth it, but that could just be me complaining =^=' but tell me if this sounds a good price or not.

i will (hopefully) do a thanksgiving drawings this november, so expect some thing vore related on that date >:3

for social things, im starting to loose the urdge to rp now even with close friends, just so many people want to do rps with me to where it just gets boring, so when you wish to talk to me from now on please ask if you want to rp rather then jumping into one, its just starting to get rather old to do the same stuff over and over again .~.'

and last thing, and this is with gaming, i am willing to play games like team fortress 2, battle fleet gothic, and the upcoming deathwing game with fans~ so if you wish to play a game with me heres a link to my steam account~
http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/.....61198123146104
(you can also do stuff like donations and what not too~ helps support me on continuing art :D )

well cya on the next update~ ^^

well... uhh the title says it all, does anyone want to be my friend and what not? I might not talk that much due to me drawing alot but i'm going to do my best to talk to fans/other artist more... as I noticed that is what is causing me to get sad and i need to be more social to others >~<'

that and i should also try and do other stuff like gaming with my fans and maybe even do a art stream at one point, but only if you guys think its a good idea o.o'

As for the other part (updates on FA) I plan on doing daily talks and what not on FA like QandA's or big rp moments or other stuff.
but i hope i can do better in the future of my art carer as i want to also make many friends as well...

well i hope your guys days are doing well and hope that nothing bad happens~

So I notice that a good portion of people on this site ignore what I do/say and there only silent, I just don't understand why they do it.
I joined DA and FA so I could meet people with similar intrest that I have and so i can have new freinds.
But now I feel like I'm no longer wanted on this site anymore. .

Do you guys know why I could be unwanted?
Is it that I don't draw a pic for every friend?
Is it that im not the most creative or being funny at stuff?
Or is it that I do not have the most fame on this site?

Anyway I just feel lonely on this site and I just want some people to injoy what I draw and that...

It might also be my depression to....

anyway I just want more people to talk and be friends with >~<"

so after reciving a note that a admin sent deciding that i didnt have a "18" in my age even though im "17" (which isnt a big diffrence, as i do like adult stuff and 18 shouldnt be the OFFICIAL ADULT age). and they "mature lock" me for 11 months, dispite me being able to make a NEW account for veiwing that stuff =n=;'

so i guess i wont be posting any adult stuff for the next 3 days-11 months because this site is fucked up when you wanna do something =n=.
anf FUCK THEM they removed my adult stuff as well, you gotta love how they dont even warn you before doing it so you can save them for another time when the "mature lock" ends but nope, i guess its a dictator ship -n-

sorry guys but im just too pissed off now to think right, as i am damn tired that the number 18 means your a mature/adult =n= even if your 17 that means to others that your not a "mature" person

well im crap with titles but anyway

im planning on doing some sketch request for when ever i am out of ideas as when im at school i get a really strong drawing urdge when i got nothing to do.
so if you ever have a idea you might wanna see me sketch, put it below~ just know that its a "REQUEST!!!" so im not forced to do any idea you give me, as ill only choose ones i like.~

also uhh, i wanna meet new people as well O3O; so if you ever wanna meet me as well you can send me a note to~

hey guys? i was thinking when i finish all of my trades/small art projects i start to make a long vore series comic about my oc as his "scolipede" form and hes going threw a village swallowing people to were he gets pushed to his limit and hes got a really large belly, but big enough to were he can still move~ x3
also ive been drawing more mature stuff now, though you will only see mature related art now on FA~ (yes, im even starting to give cocks a try o///o' though you will see it in a later pic) as for DA its going to have all of my clean related art on it.
so i bring the "mature" part up incase if the comic should be clean vore? or mature vore in it? (by that im meaning if anal and cock vore should be in it or not?) ://P
ill let you guys decide~

also MEEAH!

well i finally turn 17 today... on the 17th <w>;'

ehhh! my bday is in 10 more days and i cant wait till i turn 17 >w<';
i hope it goes alot better then last years

So I've been looking around at old and new art of pokemon vore and saw that there quite a bit of this "pokemon vs pokemon" vore battles to were people in the chat vote on who wins?

Only reason II bring this up is because I feel like it would bring more people into my account, make really cool ideas, and make it to were if I have no commissions I don't have to worry about art blocks uwu.
The only problem about me wanting to do these is because there's 1 person who's been doing these a lot as of lately (even though they constantly keep recycling the evee lutions and it's gotten really boring :v ) and i feel people will go out of there way to say " YOUR COPYING PEOPLE >:C".
though this has been done a lot and I wanna give it a try.

now tell me below if this is a good idea or not.

(Ps. I'm not gonna do any of the over ratrd eveelutions .3.)

well im planning on making some new characters and here are some ideas i can up with~

horse/snake hybrid.

a small 5 ft giratina.

a really thick blue snake character.

and some sort of deer like character hehe -w-

also happy vore day i guess, this is a normal day really for me as i dont got anything for this day or anything planned .3.;
so this isnt that much for me
also a warning, dont press the "enter" button on the title, it makes the journal get posted instantly -w-'

sorry guys about making you worry from the last journal o~o;
i was having really bad emotinal problems and i should not have made it public, but sadly no one was only late at night and i decided to make it public >~<'

after awhile of talking to freinds and thinking i found out why i was really sad, i was focasing on drawing for what the people wanted and fame rather then trying also drawing stuff to make me happy as well.
i also need to stop comparing my self to other artist and focas on my self most of the time, as it has been making me become depressed and sad o~o

so sorry if i made people worry alot from the last journal and that, i was just going threw a lot and wanted to talk to someone about it >~<

so after more realization that people on this site usally dont give a crap about me or most people avoid me from the "winder" drama that happened back then or some of the mistakes ive made and its been making me almost not wanna be on this site anymore.

i keep getting so depressed from this site, seeing how other artist get so much love and attention and then i look at how abandoned and forgotten my account is and its been making me so depressed to were ive been lightly getting suidicidal over it >,~,<

ive been so lonely on this site dispite my last time i was gonna leave FA every one did support me... but then right after the just disapeared ;n;

im only gonna be here for a while to see if anyone actully cares for me, not to say "oh i care for you, stay cuss i like your art" and then go away after that p~p

and reason im feeling like leaving FA is because i notice that some people (wont mention names, but lets just say one of them starts with a "W") do really lazy art, or get like 2 people to always have them slave on there art for no reason and chug out some of the laziest crap ive seen get like 1000+ views and many fav's, then my art only get like 100-200 views and like 20 fav's, and even to were i do it all by my self, then see my work get tossed out the side. ;n;
so im getting really sad how people like that get so much attention/complements and all i get is "this looks decent" and how i work so hard for nothing.... >,M,<

i dont know if ill stay on FA any longer or just use it as a talking site now or just posting mature art..... i dont know im just so sad from how this site is to me ;~;

well im open to do any art trades and that if anyone wants to do them? ;-;
ive been kinda out of ideas to draw and after the last drawings ive done i wanted to do art trades now ;w;

also i dont draw anything mature/adult so nothing bad like that qwp

So I've been trying to do ideas for drawings and I've also tried and get inspired to digitalize something but I seem to be in a art block..

I haven't been doing well with dissicions, my emotions are getting to a unstable limit, and everyone seems to have just left me on this site....
I don't know if I should just continue going on or just quitting FA and see if that would make it better.
Ive lost a lot of hope on making friends on this site as people are usually against me for what I've done in the past and just ignore me.
I attempted to draw my best to make it to were other people like it or try and make it pleasing to look at. Now it seems to be forgotten and ignored and only a few friends actually say anything about it.

I notice I don't really have any talents on anything other then art.. I'm terrible at socializing, i cant do anything physical at all, and I can't even make my own damn food at times... I can only do labor work correctly....

Also I guess congrats on 350 watchers.... but it's not much as a friend of mine has 300 just by talking to others so that sure makes me feel happy....

so I guess bye for now... this sad latiphin is gonna try and feel better if he can.. *sighs, and lays on a pillow*

So after a lot of crap has happened I'm finally done with my break, and I'll like to put some stuff about some drama and a lot of changes that have happened lately,
(Drama stuff)
so I've lost a friend who I don't want to remember him as a "friend" anymore as he was a horrible friend.
I've exploded badly on a artist who I shouldn't have because someone pressured him into a art trade and I got really sad and called him out publicly that he lied about doing my trade even though he said he would do it earlier but then he uses the "I forgot excuse".
Then people started to get mad at me saying I'm a "jerk" yet I've been waiting for 3-4 months for my promised part of the trade, and then some one else gets there trade done within 3 days....
Then my dad makes me feel like crap with my future and how "he" wants me to grow up.
Then everyone seeming to avoid me because I don't do money commissions or draw for the popular art beggars.
And finally I was discovered to have anxiety problems ><
(End of drama/rant/bad stuff))

Now for some good news,
I do accept commissions but there only in team fortress 2 keys/items and they must be around 3/4 keys a drawing and comics are even more (I will price check items so it will be hard to scam me.)
Im also dealing with my stress problems and learning to control them more.
And finally I'm open for rps on notes~ so feel free to ask me if you ever wanna rp with me on notes. (Also if I don't respond it's because I'm either busy or am taking a break or I'm gone/asleep, so don't invest rps with me at all, usually I do simple ones ^^)
And I'll be posting any new art I did as soon as I can~
Hope you guys have a good day/night ^^

so i deactivated my FA for abit, theres a reason why, ive been having some terrible times with the 2 art sites im on (Deviant Art, and Furaffinity)
and so i was going to take a break from them.
i need to relax on some of the stuff ive been going threw as i have been bottling up emotions for about months now and have been exploding on some people lately that i shouldnt have done that to.
so sorry for randomly going away all of a sudden, ive made a journal on DA that explains it more here http://jacobgord12345.deviantart.co.....ated-615320079
so im gonna be gone for abit, and still sorry for not saying anything before deactivating my FA account, i did it from being really sad/emtional about a problem i was going threw and i had to get out as fast as i can ><'

well im doing tf2 items for commisons, if your intrested note me~

heres the prices for the commisons for tf2

a gray/no colored pic, 1 key or 3 mvm tickets or 1 key in items

a fully colored pic for 2 keys or 5 mvm tickets, or 2 keys worth of items

a comic is gonna be priced on what it is and how much i both like the idea, and what your offering

also if you wish to commision me or add me on steam heres my profile
http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/.....1198123146104/

(also, ima just trow a wish list right here <3~
stuff as for a wish list for tf2 items would be a australium minigun, a robo sandvich, a soldier/heavy unusual, to do a big unboxing spree, and a intire pro killsreak spy set .w.; )
(just something dumn i added, no need to really see it ^^' )

So finals are here and there probably gonna be quite stressful o~of so today-thursday i wont be doing rps or art till there over, so if you're wondering why I'm afk most of the day, that's why.

Also another thing.
I heard people are leaving/not able to get in to FA if this is true, we'll, I'm gonna stay of it is true, I still like this site and I don't plan on leaving for a long time ^^

Also I'm going to experiment with new ideas for art over the summer as I would have a vary long time to think/do stuff with art~
to anyone who's also gonna do finals good luck~

well i MIGHT! draw mature vore 1 day, ive been kinda doing some vore types like "cock vore, and some others" in rps and i kinda wanna draw it... the problem with it is that i dont really wanna draw any genitalia at all. i dont wanna become a sexuial artist at all >3<'
i do actully like mature vore in rps and looking at it but i dont wanna become a mature artist, b..but at times i get the urdge to draw something like cvore and that .~.; but i dont wanna draw the "cock" part or genitals. i kinda like the cvore when the balls get filled up b..but i dont wanna do the other parts o~o'
s..so im wondering if you guys would be ok if i ever did draw somewhat stuff like cvore? not the cock part like i said but i kinda like seeing the balls being filled up so.. i may draw that

i dont really know guys, i dont wanna be known as a mature artist but at the same time i like to see stuff like that p3p' so im gonna let you guys decide if i should draw that stuff "with out genitals" .~.'
(sorry if this seems random.. just i wanna ask cuss im worried ono' )

Today I've been really depressed/mad today with my emotions ono
a lot of stuff has been happening with me and thoughts are going threw my head ><

I've recently gotten back together with my friend winder from a fight back then but he seems to not have much intrest in what I do on anymore unu, we use to be good friends but he seemed to care for others more than he did with me, so that hasn't been helping either with my depression .n.

I have been doing less in drawing from loosing moral and trying to stay happy but I've been failing lately ono,
So sorry if I hadn't been drawing much guys... ;~; just a lot of shit lately
*gently hugs*

so when it gets to summer i can finally get a job, the problem with that is that it cant be any good job as i am only 16 .n.'

so im hoping to buy a animation program so i can actully learn on how to animate my art (simple animation, not super advance stuff)
i would mainly just use SAI to do the drawing, then i would make it do some stuff or what evz .w.

if you know any animation programs you may tell me about it, thought i wont beable to get it till probly half way during summer .n.'

and im just letting you guys know, so if you wish to try and help me you may >w<'
*hugs all*

Well months and months of looking for a lover to have I've had no success at finding anyone and I'm giving up on looking for one.
I've been told countless times over and over to wait and you may find a lover but I can't listen to that anymore as the people who say that already have girl friends and have found them really fast.

I've had guys try and be my "lover" but they usually wanted my art or wanted something from me, I've yet to see any female try and talk to me or even attempt to try and get to know me :c

While when I look for anyone to be in love with there either to old, or already have a boyfriend .

so I'm done looking for love for now.... I've had shit luck on finding love so I'm done.

I am still open to being in love but I'm just done searching for it :c

*hugs*