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Posted 12 years agoOk so my good friend 
wolf256 is hosting an auction.
Go check it out it'll be well worth it
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10640512/
wolf256 is hosting an auction. Go check it out it'll be well worth it
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10640512/
How interesting
Posted 13 years agoSo yes ive had a few things no go as planned the last few weeks and its seems ive pissed off a few people because of it.
Seems a few friends are abandoning me and i must appologise for what ive done. sure i may lash a little when hurt and i may miss what people are trying to say and im sorry.
Inever meant to hurt feelings and ruin froendshipsx. i do hope you can accept my appologies and in time forgive me.
Seems a few friends are abandoning me and i must appologise for what ive done. sure i may lash a little when hurt and i may miss what people are trying to say and im sorry.
Inever meant to hurt feelings and ruin froendshipsx. i do hope you can accept my appologies and in time forgive me.
Free to good home......
Posted 13 years agoOne damaged and hurt taiekin. love and care needed
Preferable to loving caring mistress with a good heart and warmdominant personality.
Preferable to loving caring mistress with a good heart and warmdominant personality.
Lets see what happens
Posted 13 years agoStolen from 
comico
WOULD YOU.....
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] miss me if we went out then broke up?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tap me on the a**?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] caress my body?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] let me wear your pants?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?
DO YOU...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle with me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
ARE WE...
[_] acquaintances?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?
AM I...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] lovable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?
[_] perverted?
HAVE YOU EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin' up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?
ARE YOU...
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinkin' bout me?
(AND BE TRUTHFUL D<) :3
can x out more then one if you want in one category xP
comicoWOULD YOU.....
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] miss me if we went out then broke up?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tap me on the a**?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] caress my body?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] let me wear your pants?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?
DO YOU...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle with me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
ARE WE...
[_] acquaintances?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?
AM I...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] lovable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?
[_] perverted?
HAVE YOU EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin' up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?
ARE YOU...
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinkin' bout me?
(AND BE TRUTHFUL D<) :3
can x out more then one if you want in one category xP
[I should be dead]
Posted 13 years agoStolen from comico
If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I've got a ticket to Hell]
HAVE YOU...
[x] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[x] tried drugs
TOTAL SO FAR: 10
[x] taken painkillers
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die
TOTAL SO FAR: 19
[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar
TOTAL SO FAR: 28
[x] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[ ] sniffed anything
[x] wore black nail polish
[ ] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD
TOTAL SO FAR: 33
[x] dressed gothic
[x] dressed girly
[ ] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[ ] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbour
TOTAL SO FAR: 38
[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[x] installed speakers in a car ( whole sound system to be precise)
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[x] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
TOTAL SO FAR: 47
[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[ ] gone to court
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire ( home made fireworks ^^)
[x] lied about your age
TOTAL SO FAR: 55 ( ahh crap)
[x] owned/rented an apartment/house
[ ] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[x] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed
TOTAL SO FAR: 64
[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[ ] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[x] drank and drove ( didnt realise i was still drunk till i got home )
[x] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test
TOTAL: 73
comicoIf you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I've got a ticket to Hell]
HAVE YOU...
[x] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[x] tried drugs
TOTAL SO FAR: 10
[x] taken painkillers
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die
TOTAL SO FAR: 19
[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar
TOTAL SO FAR: 28
[x] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[ ] sniffed anything
[x] wore black nail polish
[ ] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD
TOTAL SO FAR: 33
[x] dressed gothic
[x] dressed girly
[ ] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[ ] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbour
TOTAL SO FAR: 38
[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[x] installed speakers in a car ( whole sound system to be precise)
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[x] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
TOTAL SO FAR: 47
[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[ ] gone to court
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire ( home made fireworks ^^)
[x] lied about your age
TOTAL SO FAR: 55 ( ahh crap)
[x] owned/rented an apartment/house
[ ] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[x] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed
TOTAL SO FAR: 64
[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[ ] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[x] drank and drove ( didnt realise i was still drunk till i got home )
[x] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test
TOTAL: 73
Awesome new artist and free art contest
Posted 13 years agotake a look at 
KigurumiUnicorn an awesome artist
and the competition
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4030911/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4030911/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4030911/
KigurumiUnicorn an awesome artistand the competition
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4030911/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4030911/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4030911/
Since ive seen everyone doing these.....
Posted 13 years agoIs there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
More than likely
Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
usually night as it can add to the mood of things with some candles yet im good for most any time
What side of the bed do you sleep on?
usually sprawled out yet usually on the left side of the bed
Do you masturbate?
Im sure you already know the answer if you've gotten to know me
5. How often? Lately?
Well yes lately just had a shower, but if anything maybe every second day
Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
No but im sure i would have to be very drunk for it and itd have to be quite a sufficient amoun......OOOH 5cents
Do you prefer showers or baths?
Showers are my prefered but i do love a nice hot aromatic bath
Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath?
Shower was quite interesting but still fun
Do you watch/read pornography?
sometimes depends on my mood
Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
Dominant is good yet im still to find someone to sufficiently hold the dominance in the bedroom
Do you love someone on your friends list?
Sad to say no
Do you know all the people on your friends list?
Most of them yes but im sure ill get to know the rest
Would you choose love or money?
Love would have to top it i mean yea money can buy strippers but hell love is more meaningful
Your top three favorite turn ons in bed?
Being restrained or pinned down
teasing
biting
Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
once or twice i was quite drunk but they didn't get too far
Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
Sadly none to list thus far but once i eventually get the bed i want and silken bedsheets im sure ill have somewhere ^^
Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
sadly another i dont have to list
Have you ever been caught having sex?
yes on a few occassions, swift reaction time and bedsheets help hide the show
Have you ever been to a strip club?
No and i dont see the point
Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
No dont see the point when the next morning they will likely just go WTF BYE
Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
No.
Ever been picked up in a bar?
Yes i have, started a relationship strangely enough, sadly ended a few months later
Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
Yes i found it somewhat enjoyable , for both sides
What's your sexuality?
Predominantly straight yet i do like to try entice cute guys
Had sex in a movie theater?
no way in hell, seriously the seats are cramped enough HOW ARE YOU MEANT TO FUCK IN THEM!!!!
Had sex in a bathroom?
yes
Have you ever had sex at work?
A few times i wish i had taken the chance XP
Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
Yup got whipped a fair bit was quite fun, tore owner didn't say a thing
Bought something from an adult store?
ive had my eyes on a few items collars cuffs restraints and whips all the fun things
Do you own any sex toys?
yes only a few bondage items
If yes, how many and what are they?
custom leather cuffs , collar and chain leash
Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
Hmmmm * thinks * not too sur....* shudders* ok someone out there has girly pics of me
Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
nope never have
Have you ever had phone sex?
Yes due to the other persons request, kinda odd
Have you ever had cybersex?
Somewhat yes
Do you think oral sex constitutes as a form of intercourse?
No no its all just a bit of fun before the main course
What's your favorite sexual position?
Good question..... no idea
What's your favorite sex act?
Hmmmm well i do like to tease and please orally
Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
no, although ive had a fair few offers surprisingly
So now you know some darker secrets of mine
Small update....
Posted 13 years agoSo im slowly getting my creativity streak back so hopefully there will soon be some activity in this space soon
Furjam meme
Posted 13 years agostolen from 
Where are you staying?
My place in my Double bed
What day are you getting there?
saturday, maybe friday
Who will you be with?
Not going to be arriving with anyone so far, but ill be floating around chatting to anyone
What is your gender?
Last time i checked im a cookie
Can I talk to you?
Of course. im not going to eat you , your fur would get stuck in my teeth
Can I touch you?
Sounds creepy but sure, im an affectionate cuddly person, i just dont like being insta-glomped....seriously......dont unless i get to know you
Can I hang out with you?
Definately, im not gonna say no unless you annoy me
How can I find you?
Thats a hard one, try look for red and black streaked hair and a flashing collar
Can I give you stuff?
What sort of stuff? cause theres the good and the "OK.....Im running away now " sorta stuff
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
HUg sure, snuggles only if i know you well
Are you nice?
Very, it takes a lot to make me an un-nice person
How long are you going?
Well its a saturday for sure other days maybe
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Come over say hi or just yell out my name. " a sure fire way is to call me "Chester".......
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Friday - pub, wandering around talking with people.
Saturday - All over the park and glowing at the dance night
What/where will you be eating?
No specifics, food is always a good option, likely gonna try pack a homemade batch of sushi
Can I take your picture?
WHy not? long as its not to blackmail me, and not a really embarrassing shot
Can I get your e-mail/FA name/number?
Speak to me first then yes sure you can if i think it safe
What's your goal(s) at FurJAM this year?
Enjoy the insanity and GLOW !!!!!
Where are you staying?
My place in my Double bed
What day are you getting there?
saturday, maybe friday
Who will you be with?
Not going to be arriving with anyone so far, but ill be floating around chatting to anyone
What is your gender?
Last time i checked im a cookie
Can I talk to you?
Of course. im not going to eat you , your fur would get stuck in my teeth
Can I touch you?
Sounds creepy but sure, im an affectionate cuddly person, i just dont like being insta-glomped....seriously......dont unless i get to know you
Can I hang out with you?
Definately, im not gonna say no unless you annoy me
How can I find you?
Thats a hard one, try look for red and black streaked hair and a flashing collar
Can I give you stuff?
What sort of stuff? cause theres the good and the "OK.....Im running away now " sorta stuff
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
HUg sure, snuggles only if i know you well
Are you nice?
Very, it takes a lot to make me an un-nice person
How long are you going?
Well its a saturday for sure other days maybe
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Come over say hi or just yell out my name. " a sure fire way is to call me "Chester".......
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Friday - pub, wandering around talking with people.
Saturday - All over the park and glowing at the dance night
What/where will you be eating?
No specifics, food is always a good option, likely gonna try pack a homemade batch of sushi
Can I take your picture?
WHy not? long as its not to blackmail me, and not a really embarrassing shot
Can I get your e-mail/FA name/number?
Speak to me first then yes sure you can if i think it safe
What's your goal(s) at FurJAM this year?
Enjoy the insanity and GLOW !!!!!
Small update
Posted 13 years agoFinally fixed my f-list. links on my profileif curious
My biggest fear revealed
Posted 13 years agoSo its only just presented itself and i dont like it. sad to say but i feel helpless and useless as i slowly loose my family. i know in time it has to happen but who do i turn to once i have noone left to turn to?
Family are there to support each other but the way im watching things go in a few years ill have nothing....... My fathers very ill in hospital. his gf has cancer. my mums killing herself with drinking and alcohol. my nans getting on in years and my uncle has a heart condition.
I really dont like this feeling but i cant avoid it.
Im scared......and i want out of this ensuing nightmare.
Some say im happy and i dont look worried but if i wasnt wearing the happy mask i wouldnt be much of the strong willed person i am. i wint give up but if i break noone can tell me im weak without knowing what im dealing with first.
Noone sees the tears i cry because theyve soaked into my pillow. noone know the pain ii feel as its locked deep inside. noone knows how alone i feel as i dont have a shoulder
Family are there to support each other but the way im watching things go in a few years ill have nothing....... My fathers very ill in hospital. his gf has cancer. my mums killing herself with drinking and alcohol. my nans getting on in years and my uncle has a heart condition.
I really dont like this feeling but i cant avoid it.
Im scared......and i want out of this ensuing nightmare.
Some say im happy and i dont look worried but if i wasnt wearing the happy mask i wouldnt be much of the strong willed person i am. i wint give up but if i break noone can tell me im weak without knowing what im dealing with first.
Noone sees the tears i cry because theyve soaked into my pillow. noone know the pain ii feel as its locked deep inside. noone knows how alone i feel as i dont have a shoulder
So life wont stop bitchin at me
Posted 13 years agoYea as simple as it sounds is as simple as it is.
Jobless. carless. and my dads in hospital with acute pneumonia.
I just hope things pick up for me soon
Jobless. carless. and my dads in hospital with acute pneumonia.
I just hope things pick up for me soon
Free raffle go look
Posted 13 years agoTaken from ashra and asked to pass on. epic artist
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3283274/
on phone so cant link peeps
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3283274/
on phone so cant link peeps
venty venty venty vent
Posted 13 years agoOk so in honesty ive been masking these feelings for a while n well best i get them out before i spitefully abuse a few people in person.
First things first. I am who i am like it and come to love me fir who i am or fuck off. ill change only so far before it gets too much. i know im not perfect but fuck me look in the mirror yourself. your not top shit like you act at times.
Secondly. yea i might seem like im unhurt and all but ive realised im not going to move forward tilli get this out. you hurt me and i cant forgive you any time soon. i changed so much of me to make this work and i looked past things you did to try be happy and in the end you turned tail and ran.
whats moreso hurtful is you spent 3/4 of our time together on your phone. showed little care or interest in me and cared more for your art and other friends than me. that was the killer not to mention you caused a good friend of mine to chase you and try get with you while we were dating. even made him thibk you wanted gim to the point he tried pashing you whust he knew we were dating. and now thats 2 friends ill be hard pressed to forguve. he should know better n you shouldnt have lead him on. im pissed at him as much as i am you.
i loved you and tried hard but you had no urge to even try yourself. and to see you care more about art commissions than me was pitiful.
It just enrages me more to look back and see how pathetic and spinless you acted whem i needed you to show compassion. i broke down in tears and you told me i was second best.
im happy to see you moving on and i wish you the best but for now i dobt think i could interact with you in person with your new bf just yet
im
First things first. I am who i am like it and come to love me fir who i am or fuck off. ill change only so far before it gets too much. i know im not perfect but fuck me look in the mirror yourself. your not top shit like you act at times.
Secondly. yea i might seem like im unhurt and all but ive realised im not going to move forward tilli get this out. you hurt me and i cant forgive you any time soon. i changed so much of me to make this work and i looked past things you did to try be happy and in the end you turned tail and ran.
whats moreso hurtful is you spent 3/4 of our time together on your phone. showed little care or interest in me and cared more for your art and other friends than me. that was the killer not to mention you caused a good friend of mine to chase you and try get with you while we were dating. even made him thibk you wanted gim to the point he tried pashing you whust he knew we were dating. and now thats 2 friends ill be hard pressed to forguve. he should know better n you shouldnt have lead him on. im pissed at him as much as i am you.
i loved you and tried hard but you had no urge to even try yourself. and to see you care more about art commissions than me was pitiful.
It just enrages me more to look back and see how pathetic and spinless you acted whem i needed you to show compassion. i broke down in tears and you told me i was second best.
im happy to see you moving on and i wish you the best but for now i dobt think i could interact with you in person with your new bf just yet
im
I am who i am
Posted 13 years agoLove me or hate me that is the answer
LOVE YOU GUYS<3<3
P.S V makes for a good sugar high specially the berry ones
LOVE YOU GUYS<3<3
P.S V makes for a good sugar high specially the berry ones
A formal apology
Posted 13 years agoSo ive spent the last few days thinking and have come to the conclussion that when scared and worried i can be such an asshole.
The one i love wanted to be single because i didnt see ehat i was doing until it was far too late. i was jealous and felt threatened and was worried about being second best that i didnt see thst i wsd being controlling and opressive to the one i love.
My actions therefore caused her to feel hurt and as tho she couldnt do anything withough getting in trouble and this therefore caused her to become furthermore depressed.
So yes i am the biggest asshole because my worry sbout being second best blinded me to the fact that i was crushing my loves spirit.
I know you likely wont read this and i know you likely dont want to speak to me. but i am so god damn sorry for what i did. I made thing horrible for you and your family and i am sorry.
If i ever manage to work my way from the dirt i am to have another chance i will never treat you or anyone else that way again.
Your freedom is what makes you eho you are and i was hurting thst freedom snd hapiness. i should never have let it get as far as it did i love you and never wanted to hurt you how i did so now all i have left is to try find forgiveness
The one i love wanted to be single because i didnt see ehat i was doing until it was far too late. i was jealous and felt threatened and was worried about being second best that i didnt see thst i wsd being controlling and opressive to the one i love.
My actions therefore caused her to feel hurt and as tho she couldnt do anything withough getting in trouble and this therefore caused her to become furthermore depressed.
So yes i am the biggest asshole because my worry sbout being second best blinded me to the fact that i was crushing my loves spirit.
I know you likely wont read this and i know you likely dont want to speak to me. but i am so god damn sorry for what i did. I made thing horrible for you and your family and i am sorry.
If i ever manage to work my way from the dirt i am to have another chance i will never treat you or anyone else that way again.
Your freedom is what makes you eho you are and i was hurting thst freedom snd hapiness. i should never have let it get as far as it did i love you and never wanted to hurt you how i did so now all i have left is to try find forgiveness
So yea single
Posted 13 years agowell thats really all there is to this journal
Take care
Take care
So i feel like a douche
Posted 14 years agoYup true story but needs more ninjas.
I feel shit cause im just trying to seek a little more emotion and interest but just seem to screw up and cause a Fight.
and eorst is i dont want to push this person away but i feel i am when trying to just try sort thingd out.
I feel shit cause im just trying to seek a little more emotion and interest but just seem to screw up and cause a Fight.
and eorst is i dont want to push this person away but i feel i am when trying to just try sort thingd out.
Death to housesitting
Posted 14 years agoYea ok so last few days been housesitting for my dads GF and well yea so far so its been pretty shitty,
no fridge as it died the day BEFORE i started house sitting and then last night i took a shower to find the plumbing was fucked then had a small incident with a badly wrapped pallet that dropped 8 cartons of alcohol and damaged them so thats going to be interesting tomorrow. and then got back to where i am house sitting to the plumber jsut to find out oh i cant flush toilet paper as the water flow it too shit WTF lol
So yea i'me donig daily runs to fee d the cat as i cant stay somewhere with stupid plumbing oh well
no fridge as it died the day BEFORE i started house sitting and then last night i took a shower to find the plumbing was fucked then had a small incident with a badly wrapped pallet that dropped 8 cartons of alcohol and damaged them so thats going to be interesting tomorrow. and then got back to where i am house sitting to the plumber jsut to find out oh i cant flush toilet paper as the water flow it too shit WTF lol
So yea i'me donig daily runs to fee d the cat as i cant stay somewhere with stupid plumbing oh well
Nothing sever i'm ok
Posted 14 years agoYea so i went to the doctors and well yea nothing severely wrong just a small tear back there was all, surprising for all the blood x.x so yea cream and high fibre diet for a few weeks and it should all heal
The problem with blood...
Posted 14 years ago...when its where its not meant to be you know somethings up.
Thus i am off to the doctors tomorrow to find the reason why its where it is
Thus i am off to the doctors tomorrow to find the reason why its where it is
Even the right choice can hurt
Posted 14 years agoSo yea long story short is i had someone, i really liked them and it took me to hear it over and over again to find out that there was another guy that was better than me and i was going to end up second best and on my own anyway.
sometimes letting someone go even though you know its the right choice still leaves you hurt and damaged, i jsut find it amazing that even thoguh you put everything you have into making something work it still messes up, for once i was ignoring what everyone said to try make it work but in the end i made the right decision by listening to my friends.
Oh well for now i've totally thrown the idea of a relationship out the window as it seems everyone has their own perfect person and i really dont seem to ever fit that criteria for any of them in the end
sometimes letting someone go even though you know its the right choice still leaves you hurt and damaged, i jsut find it amazing that even thoguh you put everything you have into making something work it still messes up, for once i was ignoring what everyone said to try make it work but in the end i made the right decision by listening to my friends.
Oh well for now i've totally thrown the idea of a relationship out the window as it seems everyone has their own perfect person and i really dont seem to ever fit that criteria for any of them in the end
So furjam eh?
Posted 14 years agoYup tomorrow is the day, so what are my plans ? drive in there in my new noisy car, too bad the stereo is a bit iffy, i'm going to enjoy myself , meet new friends and hopefully get to laugh at trolls ,
I hope to see you all there, i'll be attending the night aswell
I hope to see you all there, i'll be attending the night aswell
Fuck yea, i got my supra
Posted 14 years agoSo as of yesterday afternoon i am now the proud owner of a 94 toyota supra.
Lucky find too, 3L twin turbo 6speed manuals are a rare find and omg its friggin quick. and it sounds amazing.
Few small things tho. aircon fuse is gone. raidio is stock jap so raidio frequency is only 70 - 90 which doesnt cover australian radio stations x.x.
Also the aerial doesnt pop up but meh cd player works on 1 cd out of 5 i tried. happens tobe a skrillex cd ^^
and lastly the boost gague isn't working but all these are minor issues.
I'll upload pics n vid links when i get time to in this awful weather
And if interested at furjam i might over a few runs round the block hehe.
oh n also back seats pretty useless theres no real legroom XD
Lucky find too, 3L twin turbo 6speed manuals are a rare find and omg its friggin quick. and it sounds amazing.
Few small things tho. aircon fuse is gone. raidio is stock jap so raidio frequency is only 70 - 90 which doesnt cover australian radio stations x.x.
Also the aerial doesnt pop up but meh cd player works on 1 cd out of 5 i tried. happens tobe a skrillex cd ^^
and lastly the boost gague isn't working but all these are minor issues.
I'll upload pics n vid links when i get time to in this awful weather
And if interested at furjam i might over a few runs round the block hehe.
oh n also back seats pretty useless theres no real legroom XD
personality test thingy
Posted 14 years agoSo i finally tracked it down and took it and these are my results
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Arbitrary
You believe life can be fairly random, and trying to impose a tight little grid on it is a waste of time - your conclusion: relax. Things will work out (or not). No need to get ultra-logical about everything.
You do not believe that everything has a logical explanation or that every problem has a logical solution.
Cool-Headed
You stay cool under pressure. When the world around you is erupting in chaos, you're the one who keeps it together.
You don't fall apart under pressure or lose your composure when all hell is breaking loose.
Friendly
You would rather hang out with others than spend time alone, and you'd far rather be doing something with your friends than just sitting around. You're happy in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.
You're not a private person who is ill at ease in a group; you don't view excessive socializing as a waste of time.
Upbeat
You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.
Empathetic
You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.
You don't buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else's because unless you're happy you're incapable of making anyone else happy.
Sociable
You are a people person. You're much more likely to be found in the middle of a crowd than home alone. When there's a good time to be had, you're likely to be having it.
You are not necessarily happier when you're by yourself, and would not choose to be home alone rather than, say, in a crowded club with your friends.
Sympathetic
You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.
You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.
Carefree
You do what you need to do, without demanding that you be perfect. The world isn't flawless and you don't feel the need to pretend that you can make it flawless in your own little way. Therefore, you don't examine everything with a microscope and are comfortable cutting yourself and others a lot of slack.
You don't need for everything you touch to turn out perfectly. You don't go looking for errors, omissions, shoddy work, or bad taste.
Loose
You feel that a clean, orderly desk is the sign of a person who doesn't have enough to do. Schedules and "to do" lists feel stifling; you thrive on a sense that anything goes, and know that the world won't end if you don't clean up after finishing a job.
You don't need to know that everything is in its place; it is not empowering to you to feel that the world around you is neat and organized. Mowing down every item on your "to do" list, every day, does not bring you joy.
Curious
You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.
You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.
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Arbitrary
You believe life can be fairly random, and trying to impose a tight little grid on it is a waste of time - your conclusion: relax. Things will work out (or not). No need to get ultra-logical about everything.
You do not believe that everything has a logical explanation or that every problem has a logical solution.
Cool-Headed
You stay cool under pressure. When the world around you is erupting in chaos, you're the one who keeps it together.
You don't fall apart under pressure or lose your composure when all hell is breaking loose.
Friendly
You would rather hang out with others than spend time alone, and you'd far rather be doing something with your friends than just sitting around. You're happy in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.
You're not a private person who is ill at ease in a group; you don't view excessive socializing as a waste of time.
Upbeat
You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.
Empathetic
You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.
You don't buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else's because unless you're happy you're incapable of making anyone else happy.
Sociable
You are a people person. You're much more likely to be found in the middle of a crowd than home alone. When there's a good time to be had, you're likely to be having it.
You are not necessarily happier when you're by yourself, and would not choose to be home alone rather than, say, in a crowded club with your friends.
Sympathetic
You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.
You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.
Carefree
You do what you need to do, without demanding that you be perfect. The world isn't flawless and you don't feel the need to pretend that you can make it flawless in your own little way. Therefore, you don't examine everything with a microscope and are comfortable cutting yourself and others a lot of slack.
You don't need for everything you touch to turn out perfectly. You don't go looking for errors, omissions, shoddy work, or bad taste.
Loose
You feel that a clean, orderly desk is the sign of a person who doesn't have enough to do. Schedules and "to do" lists feel stifling; you thrive on a sense that anything goes, and know that the world won't end if you don't clean up after finishing a job.
You don't need to know that everything is in its place; it is not empowering to you to feel that the world around you is neat and organized. Mowing down every item on your "to do" list, every day, does not bring you joy.
Curious
You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.
You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.
