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Posted 16 years agoAlright, the short of it is that I have a job now (sorta), I missed going in today (dangit), and I had to reset my passcode on here (yay, I feel even MORE like a retard!). So... yeah.
I'm about tapped for clever things to bump the journal with, so I turn to the random of the internet. Blegh...
Really neat piccy that I'm going to use for a wallpaper later. Yay, lion headbutt of luv. :3
Finland is going to start placing whole aisles of dildos and lubricants in their supermarkets. And I seriously consider moving abroad. :P
And handcrafted wooden toys of recently extinct animals. Go ahead and ponder for a moment that there are no more Stellar Sea Lions in the world anymore... 9.9...
Meh, I'm done here.
I'm about tapped for clever things to bump the journal with, so I turn to the random of the internet. Blegh...
Really neat piccy that I'm going to use for a wallpaper later. Yay, lion headbutt of luv. :3
Finland is going to start placing whole aisles of dildos and lubricants in their supermarkets. And I seriously consider moving abroad. :P
And handcrafted wooden toys of recently extinct animals. Go ahead and ponder for a moment that there are no more Stellar Sea Lions in the world anymore... 9.9...
Meh, I'm done here.
goats with pixie wings
Posted 16 years ago(go on... let it sink in...)
5:33 PM 11/23/2009
Well, It's 5pm, and I have no clue where my brain is. That's either a good or a bad thing. Let's call it good and then call it a day, yes?
*briked for proposing that she go back to bed*
Every time the weather changes or someone changes the way the warmth is distributed through the house, my brain does a weird one and tried to make me sleep more. Everything is exhausting. I can't bring myself to start a project thinking I might screw it up somehow. And i think I lost my will to draw. Again. Damnit.
I must remember to make a calendar for next month. Kinda running out fo space for things...
I should start another Tegaki. I don't know why. It'll get me to draw things again, maybe.
I also keep forgetting to not say things like, I should. It's just silly. No one should really "should do" anything. No one should really say should. It implies a sort of grim determination that makes you link of life as an eternal list of things one absolutely has to do. Which is silly, when you think about it. Yes, we were born out of the constant need to fiddle, fight, feed, and fuck, but don't you all think there's a little more to than it than that?
Well, that's enough philosophy for now...
Thank you, and have a nice day.
5:33 PM 11/23/2009
Well, It's 5pm, and I have no clue where my brain is. That's either a good or a bad thing. Let's call it good and then call it a day, yes?
*briked for proposing that she go back to bed*
Every time the weather changes or someone changes the way the warmth is distributed through the house, my brain does a weird one and tried to make me sleep more. Everything is exhausting. I can't bring myself to start a project thinking I might screw it up somehow. And i think I lost my will to draw. Again. Damnit.
I must remember to make a calendar for next month. Kinda running out fo space for things...
I should start another Tegaki. I don't know why. It'll get me to draw things again, maybe.
I also keep forgetting to not say things like, I should. It's just silly. No one should really "should do" anything. No one should really say should. It implies a sort of grim determination that makes you link of life as an eternal list of things one absolutely has to do. Which is silly, when you think about it. Yes, we were born out of the constant need to fiddle, fight, feed, and fuck, but don't you all think there's a little more to than it than that?
Well, that's enough philosophy for now...
Thank you, and have a nice day.
feigning normalicy... ha!
Posted 16 years agoI've given up trying to keep anything constant. If I log on, I log on. If I don't, I don't. I'm tired of trying to act like I care as to whether I'm interacting with people properly or not.
*Brikd... no reason, just brikd*
Just about the coolest crap I've ever seen in my entire life. It's probably why I've started drawing again. Good, good stuff. Makes me want to play Touhou again, as well.
Between that, Phantasy Star Zero, Job hunting, and trying to relax, I have probably been more busy than I thought I was.
Meh.
*Brikd... no reason, just brikd*
Just about the coolest crap I've ever seen in my entire life. It's probably why I've started drawing again. Good, good stuff. Makes me want to play Touhou again, as well.
Between that, Phantasy Star Zero, Job hunting, and trying to relax, I have probably been more busy than I thought I was.
Meh.
Empending doom
Posted 16 years ago... that is what getting the change from an errand for my mother usually spells. It has to. If she had a catchy phrase it would be "And I want ALL my change." I'm serious... ... ... Don't laugh, this is serious. I have about a buck-twenty in change, and I have no idea what to use it for. o_O
*briked once for the lame opening zing, and briked again for not posting a damned thing in what seems like ages (and is probably just a week or two). An extra brik missed in an attempt to hit her for not answering comments and only logging in for smut*
Another mental crisis avoided, merely by walking outside. I could say, in the spirit of Sunday, that I had finally let Jesus into my heart and put faith into humanity and believed that Bush did his best for our beloved country. But that would be a bald-face lie. Instead, I'm going to go for the scientific cop-out of having soaked up just enough rays of sun through my pasty, off-brown skin to produce just enough melatonin in order to function like a human being again. Yay, proteins, the natural building-blocks of life. Yay, still being a misanthropic, self-centered, society-hating weirdo.
I want to animate. But every time I get an idea, I go more than a little overboard planning. Then the intimidation sets in. So, tells ya what I'm gonna try. Doing the least amount of work possible. You heard me. Minimal effort.
That probably goes double for the writing. No more going about my work with grim grit and determination. What else do I have all these silly Ideas if I didn't think they'd be fun? :(
O carp, writing. O carp, NaNoWriMo. O carp, I'm a whole week behind... -_-;... Great. Need to gnash my head against a wall for a little bit now, thanks.
Meh, back to it, then.
*briked once for the lame opening zing, and briked again for not posting a damned thing in what seems like ages (and is probably just a week or two). An extra brik missed in an attempt to hit her for not answering comments and only logging in for smut*
Another mental crisis avoided, merely by walking outside. I could say, in the spirit of Sunday, that I had finally let Jesus into my heart and put faith into humanity and believed that Bush did his best for our beloved country. But that would be a bald-face lie. Instead, I'm going to go for the scientific cop-out of having soaked up just enough rays of sun through my pasty, off-brown skin to produce just enough melatonin in order to function like a human being again. Yay, proteins, the natural building-blocks of life. Yay, still being a misanthropic, self-centered, society-hating weirdo.
I want to animate. But every time I get an idea, I go more than a little overboard planning. Then the intimidation sets in. So, tells ya what I'm gonna try. Doing the least amount of work possible. You heard me. Minimal effort.
That probably goes double for the writing. No more going about my work with grim grit and determination. What else do I have all these silly Ideas if I didn't think they'd be fun? :(
O carp, writing. O carp, NaNoWriMo. O carp, I'm a whole week behind... -_-;... Great. Need to gnash my head against a wall for a little bit now, thanks.
Meh, back to it, then.
Do tell...
Posted 16 years ago... A million journals? I think that's the least interesting thing on the face of the planet, thanks. >.>...
Hmm... I think I had a point, but I've gone and lost it.
*briked for probably not having a point to begin with*
Meh... Still breathing. More art. Blah, blah, blah...
Hmm... I think I had a point, but I've gone and lost it.
*briked for probably not having a point to begin with*
Meh... Still breathing. More art. Blah, blah, blah...
Commissions (1)
Posted 16 years ago(actual thoughts of the day here)
Things are a touch tight in the wallet area. Actually, it's more of a people problem, but that's not what this entry is for.
Gone a bit gaga for MS Paint again, so I figured I'd stick with it. :3
Examples here (and prices), here, and here, but a bit aged . First two are a better guide: I'm just showing off the third. :P
(EDIT: Sorry about that. links should actually be there now. :P)
Reply or e-mail me the details. *rolls 1d6* ...4 slots to be had at the moment. Mostly for my sanity.
Paypal: chase.jenn[at]yahoo.com
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Things are a touch tight in the wallet area. Actually, it's more of a people problem, but that's not what this entry is for.
Gone a bit gaga for MS Paint again, so I figured I'd stick with it. :3
Examples here (and prices), here, and here, but a bit aged . First two are a better guide: I'm just showing off the third. :P
(EDIT: Sorry about that. links should actually be there now. :P)
Reply or e-mail me the details. *rolls 1d6* ...4 slots to be had at the moment. Mostly for my sanity.
Paypal: chase.jenn[at]yahoo.com
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Backlogged...
Posted 16 years agoYou know... ... ... I'm going to try not to be clever today. It's going to be hard: clever things are second nature to me and it will take all of me to sound as plain as possible. So, here we go...
Woke up all achy and cold today. I think it's officially Fall now. That, and the Sun Festival is going on in Furc. So, yeah, I shoulda known.
Rolled over and spied half-a-box of Brisk and package of instant Thai noodles. While breakfast was taken care of, I was slow on precisely how it got there. I later remembered that I 'dreamed' that Mom came in, plopped the box on the floor, and said what they were. Then she came back and snugged the noodles on top of the box and said that it was some sort of sesame-peanut flavor. Bless that lady, but that's not what you want to hear at actual 4-in-the-ass-crack of morning. >.<
To be honest, it tasted alright. My only gripe with Thai food is that it doesn't stay on one part of your tongue. Sweet, salty, sour, savory, and then sweet again. And all this is usually, more often than not, surrounded in a ball of hot that usually bounces rapidly up and down the Scoville scale depending on how long ago you took a bite. It's more irritating than tasty. You have to constantly ask yourself, "What the hell am I eating?" =_=#
Slogging through FA submissions. Oi, I hate this. A month and a half's worth of 13 watched people, and a dozen or so random comments that were answered and that I have to answer back. Or not. Do I have to? @_@ Ugh... =_=;
Meh, I can look at those later... T_T...
Woke up all achy and cold today. I think it's officially Fall now. That, and the Sun Festival is going on in Furc. So, yeah, I shoulda known.
Rolled over and spied half-a-box of Brisk and package of instant Thai noodles. While breakfast was taken care of, I was slow on precisely how it got there. I later remembered that I 'dreamed' that Mom came in, plopped the box on the floor, and said what they were. Then she came back and snugged the noodles on top of the box and said that it was some sort of sesame-peanut flavor. Bless that lady, but that's not what you want to hear at actual 4-in-the-ass-crack of morning. >.<
To be honest, it tasted alright. My only gripe with Thai food is that it doesn't stay on one part of your tongue. Sweet, salty, sour, savory, and then sweet again. And all this is usually, more often than not, surrounded in a ball of hot that usually bounces rapidly up and down the Scoville scale depending on how long ago you took a bite. It's more irritating than tasty. You have to constantly ask yourself, "What the hell am I eating?" =_=#
Slogging through FA submissions. Oi, I hate this. A month and a half's worth of 13 watched people, and a dozen or so random comments that were answered and that I have to answer back. Or not. Do I have to? @_@ Ugh... =_=;
Meh, I can look at those later... T_T...
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Posted 16 years agoWell, here it is, 2:30 in the afternoon, and I'm just gaining my senses for the day. I don't know whether to be proud or ashamed of that. Let's just gloss that over until someone makes me feel one way or another. Nothing justifies thoughts like the thoughts of others, right?
I think I might join facebook. I might. My little brother is on it, so I wouldn't be completely alone. And if I pop in my schools, I can find all my fellow losers. And then we can... you know, all be losers together or something like that.
Damn, I am really taking this 'lonely' thing to heart. I blame hormones. Nothing as depressing as waking up smelling like your own spunk and not remembering what kind of hot stallion you dreamt about to make your body do that.
As much porn as I faved, I should draw yiff. Wouldn't hurt, only help. I know basic anatomy, I have enough of a porn-pile to copy and practice off of, and I really need something else to fill the time. Something other than MMOs and artsites and looking at yiff.
Ok. Random crap...So um... giraffe dong. Well, LEGO giraffe dong. Stolen off a large LEGO giraffe. By tourists who go to Berlin. I swear, if they're Furries, I'm leaving the fandom for good... -_-;
*smacks self for thinking about humping a giraffe dong..*
*searches for giraffes on FA* >.>... <.<... no one will evar know...
What can I say? I have a weakness for equines... 6_6;
I don't know what it is, but I'm sneezing like crazy. Hope I'm not sick.
And internet: I don't has one. And the "limited to no connection warning" keeps appearing and fading. What the hell? O well. Let's hijack someone else's.
IP conflict. Oh boy... :P
Well. i have a new puzzle for the day. Goddamnit. Everything was going all nice and then, bamph. Meh, whatever. Gives me something to do.
Nevermind. Little bro on the case. Crap, man, he's just good at everything. Even though all he did was unplug and plug the power cord, I still think he's a freakin' genius.
So I think I'll start accumulating friends on StumbleUpon. I'll start with my subscribers and work my way out. If you're on SU, feel free to subscribe, message, and/or friend me. My link is in my profile at the top. PleaseAndThankYou. ;P
I think I might join facebook. I might. My little brother is on it, so I wouldn't be completely alone. And if I pop in my schools, I can find all my fellow losers. And then we can... you know, all be losers together or something like that.
Damn, I am really taking this 'lonely' thing to heart. I blame hormones. Nothing as depressing as waking up smelling like your own spunk and not remembering what kind of hot stallion you dreamt about to make your body do that.
As much porn as I faved, I should draw yiff. Wouldn't hurt, only help. I know basic anatomy, I have enough of a porn-pile to copy and practice off of, and I really need something else to fill the time. Something other than MMOs and artsites and looking at yiff.
Ok. Random crap...So um... giraffe dong. Well, LEGO giraffe dong. Stolen off a large LEGO giraffe. By tourists who go to Berlin. I swear, if they're Furries, I'm leaving the fandom for good... -_-;
*smacks self for thinking about humping a giraffe dong..*
*searches for giraffes on FA* >.>... <.<... no one will evar know...
What can I say? I have a weakness for equines... 6_6;
I don't know what it is, but I'm sneezing like crazy. Hope I'm not sick.
IP conflict. Oh boy... :P
Well. i have a new puzzle for the day. Goddamnit. Everything was going all nice and then, bamph. Meh, whatever. Gives me something to do.
Nevermind. Little bro on the case. Crap, man, he's just good at everything. Even though all he did was unplug and plug the power cord, I still think he's a freakin' genius.
So I think I'll start accumulating friends on StumbleUpon. I'll start with my subscribers and work my way out. If you're on SU, feel free to subscribe, message, and/or friend me. My link is in my profile at the top. PleaseAndThankYou. ;P
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Posted 16 years agoHey, Me again. Things have been nuts and I just thought I'd post a journal to confirm that I'm still alive.
*glances at messages*... woah... THAT's gonna take a while... T_T
Well, I'm off to go help mom participate in legalized lottery gambling... -_-;;;;
*glances at messages*... woah... THAT's gonna take a while... T_T
Well, I'm off to go help mom participate in legalized lottery gambling... -_-;;;;
Quick, how many fingers am I holding up?
Posted 16 years agoJust loosening up my front page with meaningless dribble... (brought to you by StumbleUpon, Flash, Wikipedia, and TVTropes.org)
For some odd reason, this is fun as hell... http://www.colorflip.com/
I'm guessing it has something to do with it being 1am and that my mind has been phasing in and out of reality today.
And this is probably a book everyone should read. I'm not saying the writers of the Daily Show are geniuses. I'm just saying that they usually have excellent points that I wouldn't have thought of OR laughed at. Might be a giggle-worthy read...
And this is the first and last horror game I've ever played to the end. I still get Pyramid Head dreams from time to time. *shudder*
Thank you, and have a nice day.
For some odd reason, this is fun as hell... http://www.colorflip.com/
I'm guessing it has something to do with it being 1am and that my mind has been phasing in and out of reality today.
And this is probably a book everyone should read. I'm not saying the writers of the Daily Show are geniuses. I'm just saying that they usually have excellent points that I wouldn't have thought of OR laughed at. Might be a giggle-worthy read...
And this is the first and last horror game I've ever played to the end. I still get Pyramid Head dreams from time to time. *shudder*
Thank you, and have a nice day.
Please excuse my brain; it's a mess
Posted 16 years agoGood morning, good evening, good afternoon. I find it hard to complain when everything I know, everything that is is usually under my direct control. It's the basic principle of complacency, in a way. "You're so sad/bored/overworked/unappreciated, do something about it." I usually add a 'bitch' at the end, but that's only when I'm angry. No. I'm just mildly fascinated at the moment.
We make friends with people so that we have someone to dump all our frustrations on so that we don't feel alone. More monkey-mind than anything else. No man is an island, but I think we should share more with each other than troubles and woes and complaints. I think that's why I draw to begin with.
Every time I hear someone start off a conversation like that, my eyes take a skyward turn and my stomach jostles a bit. I's not that I can't appreciate the pain of your suffering. It's that I have shit of my own, on my own level, that I'd rather not try to compete with you over.
This. This is why I don't like making friends. People just don't know how to be. Animals can be. They can exist just fine with out this incessant 'I' that feels as though it needs gender and knowledge and happiness. That's what hormones are for.
I resist. I refute. I refuse. There has to be something better. There is always something better. Then again, what is it that I'm looking for? Am I even looking in the right places. People will always be people. They will always have a want for straightening things out and making them into things that they are not. Is my thinking just a new step in this? Seeking to un-straighten everything we made flat and boring? Seeking to destroy and undermine grooming speech? Turning politeness into a nod, a look of a smile and having everyone be happy with it? (Because the world would be so much better if people would just say what they're really thinking... </SarcasmAtOwnExpense>)
If we smiled at each other more, it would be nice. It would be awkward at first, but I think we could get the hang of it. The bearing of teeth is an aggro thing amongst the great apes, so smiling for no reason scares us. I don't mean huge, wide, forced smiles, no. More like small ones. Partially parted lips. Smiling at ones own transgression so that it becomes a barometer of how we feel.
Over the years, i have never smiled when I was sad. Not that I can remember. And this is good, because it might have not made any sense. I've done it when upset, out of confusion, but not when I am truly sad. Visual and personal signifiers just take on a whole new meaning when you stop purposefully seeking people.
Perhaps, with this thing we call an Internets, I have achieved something that no other person could have ever dreamed of grasping. I do believe I have found the me that I want reflected back onto the world. Quiet, pensive, but as still as a deep river. It's no nirvana, but I'll take it. Siddhartha the man went out into the world, experienced every life he could, then found a tree in the middle of the desert, meditated by it's radiance, and became Siddhartha the Buddha, who ferries people across a river and offers his wisdom to whom he feels needs it. I did this, only my tree was probably the Central Library of Philadelphia. I seek nothing but a way to express myself without making others suffer. Or 'suffer', however the case my be.
Maybe I should have went for that masters in philosophy. People would certainly take me seriously if I did. Hah. Equating intelligence to the achievement of wasting 5+ years of your time to receive a paper that basically said that you wasted 5+ years of your time writing papers and giving reports. To do what with? To get a job advising some headstrong CEO about the consequences of running an ad with housewife implications during an action movie? Alright, sounds like fun. </MoreSarcasmAtMyOwnExpense>
Thank you, and have a nice day.
We make friends with people so that we have someone to dump all our frustrations on so that we don't feel alone. More monkey-mind than anything else. No man is an island, but I think we should share more with each other than troubles and woes and complaints. I think that's why I draw to begin with.
Every time I hear someone start off a conversation like that, my eyes take a skyward turn and my stomach jostles a bit. I's not that I can't appreciate the pain of your suffering. It's that I have shit of my own, on my own level, that I'd rather not try to compete with you over.
This. This is why I don't like making friends. People just don't know how to be. Animals can be. They can exist just fine with out this incessant 'I' that feels as though it needs gender and knowledge and happiness. That's what hormones are for.
I resist. I refute. I refuse. There has to be something better. There is always something better. Then again, what is it that I'm looking for? Am I even looking in the right places. People will always be people. They will always have a want for straightening things out and making them into things that they are not. Is my thinking just a new step in this? Seeking to un-straighten everything we made flat and boring? Seeking to destroy and undermine grooming speech? Turning politeness into a nod, a look of a smile and having everyone be happy with it? (Because the world would be so much better if people would just say what they're really thinking... </SarcasmAtOwnExpense>)
If we smiled at each other more, it would be nice. It would be awkward at first, but I think we could get the hang of it. The bearing of teeth is an aggro thing amongst the great apes, so smiling for no reason scares us. I don't mean huge, wide, forced smiles, no. More like small ones. Partially parted lips. Smiling at ones own transgression so that it becomes a barometer of how we feel.
Over the years, i have never smiled when I was sad. Not that I can remember. And this is good, because it might have not made any sense. I've done it when upset, out of confusion, but not when I am truly sad. Visual and personal signifiers just take on a whole new meaning when you stop purposefully seeking people.
Perhaps, with this thing we call an Internets, I have achieved something that no other person could have ever dreamed of grasping. I do believe I have found the me that I want reflected back onto the world. Quiet, pensive, but as still as a deep river. It's no nirvana, but I'll take it. Siddhartha the man went out into the world, experienced every life he could, then found a tree in the middle of the desert, meditated by it's radiance, and became Siddhartha the Buddha, who ferries people across a river and offers his wisdom to whom he feels needs it. I did this, only my tree was probably the Central Library of Philadelphia. I seek nothing but a way to express myself without making others suffer. Or 'suffer', however the case my be.
Maybe I should have went for that masters in philosophy. People would certainly take me seriously if I did. Hah. Equating intelligence to the achievement of wasting 5+ years of your time to receive a paper that basically said that you wasted 5+ years of your time writing papers and giving reports. To do what with? To get a job advising some headstrong CEO about the consequences of running an ad with housewife implications during an action movie? Alright, sounds like fun. </MoreSarcasmAtMyOwnExpense>
Thank you, and have a nice day.
Oh, fret and worry...9_9;
Posted 16 years agoGood morning, good afternoon, good evening. It is quite possible that I nothing really deep to say today. If so, sorry, but you should probably find meaning elsewhere on the net and not on a frivolous, self-pandering blog like mine. :P
I probably should have waited and wrote this at the library instead. Bit i think I've learned my lesson, about the sharp pointy edges of IE8 and all. A horrible, eye-gouging lesson.
I need to draw things. Or maybe I should just post some sketches? I'm trying to get into one of those drawing/secret-Santa groups, and they want recent things. I could upload bunches, but it wouldn't make it recent.
Been worried writing-wise too. I've been estimating word count out to the end and I keep getting around 15,000. So far, I have a possible Novelette ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Novelette ). Somehow, that name doesn't roll off the tongue like the term Novella ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Novella ) does. This is probably ego talking, but I thought that maybe I had more story in me than that...
I need to hold it together. I can't fall apart just because I don't fit neatly in a niche. Or that you don't produce a sketch a day like some machine. Creativity is supposed to flow, silly-head. *smacks herself* X(
Thank you, and have a nice day.
I probably should have waited and wrote this at the library instead. Bit i think I've learned my lesson, about the sharp pointy edges of IE8 and all. A horrible, eye-gouging lesson.
I need to draw things. Or maybe I should just post some sketches? I'm trying to get into one of those drawing/secret-Santa groups, and they want recent things. I could upload bunches, but it wouldn't make it recent.
Been worried writing-wise too. I've been estimating word count out to the end and I keep getting around 15,000. So far, I have a possible Novelette ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Novelette ). Somehow, that name doesn't roll off the tongue like the term Novella ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Novella ) does. This is probably ego talking, but I thought that maybe I had more story in me than that...
I need to hold it together. I can't fall apart just because I don't fit neatly in a niche. Or that you don't produce a sketch a day like some machine. Creativity is supposed to flow, silly-head. *smacks herself* X(
Thank you, and have a nice day.
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Posted 16 years agoThis is not a test. It's just me clearing the angst. And, believe me, There's a lot of it.
I just feel like so much crap today. More crap than one could ever imagine. So I think that should keep it nice and short and sweet on here from now on. Keeps me from taking things too seriously.
What I should do is update my profile. Hmm, Profiles. Oi...
I just feel like so much crap today. More crap than one could ever imagine. So I think that should keep it nice and short and sweet on here from now on. Keeps me from taking things too seriously.
What I should do is update my profile. Hmm, Profiles. Oi...
Oh man, I think I exploded... o.o
Posted 16 years agoExplanation: More intrarnet trouble. Nothing serious, just some sort of... load delay(?) (I blame U.S. Robotics. :P) Hopefully, it's only temporary.
... Also... I pretty much let-er-rip language-wise, today. I get passionate about things, what can I say... Read at your own digression. :P
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10:59 AM 7/12/2009
Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. It's going to be one of those days again, I'm guessing. One of those days where the Internets is starting cold on a digital winter day and needs for me to keep feeding it gas and pulsing the starter so that it'll wake up already and go.
Paragraphs, today. Because I like being able to find my place visually. And I think my memory is a bit fuzzy today.
I keep getting the feeling that searching for a job is a waste of time. Everywhere I go in real life, on foot, claims that I should utilize the career sections on their corporate websites, and half of their corporate websites are either broken or incomplete. It does become a quick and easy way to weed out the idiots from the well-meaning capitalists. The idiots have the broken sites that think that 2008 is next year, and the capitalist sites are the ones that only list Manager jobs and have no other way for me to apply. =_=#
Right then...
Pokemon babbling... Elite Four. They can get their weight up. Somewhat. All I know is that Cynthia used to not be able to read when I was going to spam a move. Now she switches from Spiritomb to Lucario in the face of a Dragon Pulse. Where was all of this intelligence when I was expecting it? o_O That's FAR more than I'm used to out of the game's AI... And then, after I kill Garchomp, it's back to the usual random choices. Lucian and Flint pick up a change, too, but I can't remember what they were... anyone else ever see an NPC trainer pull something like that? Can someone explain to me why that happened? (At least before I go look up their teams and moves on Bulbapedia? XP)
So, I gave up on my Furry hermitting and went back to FurAffinity. Not exactly the main scene, but it's one of them. More Fur-sites may follow. (This is probably another for the links page or profile...)
There's a new random button, great for when I get tired of backlogging through the recent stuff. I do remember why I left, tho; Like deviantArt, there's no judging process for you to get space. (And unlike dA, there's no 'Popular' sorting.) So there's no real bottom to the talent you're looking at.
Art is for fun. Art is to enjoy. But if I have to look at bad anatomy and scrawly finish-work for too long, something starts to snap in my little perfectionist head. I feel so depraved. @_@
On the other hand, I don't have to look at endless pages of art that looks like the Furry Mona Lisa, either. FA was always good for equal representation. That was also dA's drawback; all that hyper-fucking-realistic bullshit that pisses Cartoonist-me off and nearly blows me through the roof. You want real, go take a God-damned photo and stop wasting your wrist strength on rendering light and shadow accurately.
(Life-drawing teachers either hated or loved me. Oh, the blank sarcastic stares I could give at their 'advise'... )
Again, Art is for fun, Art is to enjoy, but after page-after-page of photo-realistic shit, you tend to feel a bit small... Hyper-talented fuckers... ... Only Hispanics and Asians should be that talented. And there's a little hate in my heart for that kind of talent, too...=_=##
Thank you, and have a nice day.
... Also... I pretty much let-er-rip language-wise, today. I get passionate about things, what can I say... Read at your own digression. :P
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10:59 AM 7/12/2009
Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. It's going to be one of those days again, I'm guessing. One of those days where the Internets is starting cold on a digital winter day and needs for me to keep feeding it gas and pulsing the starter so that it'll wake up already and go.
Paragraphs, today. Because I like being able to find my place visually. And I think my memory is a bit fuzzy today.
I keep getting the feeling that searching for a job is a waste of time. Everywhere I go in real life, on foot, claims that I should utilize the career sections on their corporate websites, and half of their corporate websites are either broken or incomplete. It does become a quick and easy way to weed out the idiots from the well-meaning capitalists. The idiots have the broken sites that think that 2008 is next year, and the capitalist sites are the ones that only list Manager jobs and have no other way for me to apply. =_=#
Right then...
Pokemon babbling... Elite Four. They can get their weight up. Somewhat. All I know is that Cynthia used to not be able to read when I was going to spam a move. Now she switches from Spiritomb to Lucario in the face of a Dragon Pulse. Where was all of this intelligence when I was expecting it? o_O That's FAR more than I'm used to out of the game's AI... And then, after I kill Garchomp, it's back to the usual random choices. Lucian and Flint pick up a change, too, but I can't remember what they were... anyone else ever see an NPC trainer pull something like that? Can someone explain to me why that happened? (At least before I go look up their teams and moves on Bulbapedia? XP)
So, I gave up on my Furry hermitting and went back to FurAffinity. Not exactly the main scene, but it's one of them. More Fur-sites may follow. (This is probably another for the links page or profile...)
There's a new random button, great for when I get tired of backlogging through the recent stuff. I do remember why I left, tho; Like deviantArt, there's no judging process for you to get space. (And unlike dA, there's no 'Popular' sorting.) So there's no real bottom to the talent you're looking at.
Art is for fun. Art is to enjoy. But if I have to look at bad anatomy and scrawly finish-work for too long, something starts to snap in my little perfectionist head. I feel so depraved. @_@
On the other hand, I don't have to look at endless pages of art that looks like the Furry Mona Lisa, either. FA was always good for equal representation. That was also dA's drawback; all that hyper-fucking-realistic bullshit that pisses Cartoonist-me off and nearly blows me through the roof. You want real, go take a God-damned photo and stop wasting your wrist strength on rendering light and shadow accurately.
(Life-drawing teachers either hated or loved me. Oh, the blank sarcastic stares I could give at their 'advise'... )
Again, Art is for fun, Art is to enjoy, but after page-after-page of photo-realistic shit, you tend to feel a bit small... Hyper-talented fuckers... ... Only Hispanics and Asians should be that talented. And there's a little hate in my heart for that kind of talent, too...=_=##
Thank you, and have a nice day.
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Posted 16 years agoWell, isn't this a rat-bastard. You know, I think you really can be on too many sites at one time. It just takes a sufficient piling up for you to see. Why else would it be rediculous for me to look at FA and say, "Wait a minute... I think I remember my password..." ... And then have to rifle through two books and a pile of paper to find your bundle of passwords instead. -_-...
So, right then; shortcut to FA on my desktop, now...
So, right then; shortcut to FA on my desktop, now...
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Posted 17 years agoJust when you think I'm gone... I'm back again.
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<spam>
The Mysteriously Fuzzy Art Shop (Gaia Online)
http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/req...../t.43011535_1/
</spam>
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Nothing to report but the bump of a journal and some minor updates.
My art shop is coming along. I'm slowly understanding what it takes to make a living as an artist: Little sleep, hard work, and lots of caffeine. X3
I just put up my comic here and on SmackJeeves. That site flusters me too much to post it here, I'll post it later. If you're on SJ, please search up 'dy-na-mo'(title of said comic). So far, it's about a lioness girl and her ability to see creatures from another world.
Thank you, and have a nice day.
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RaNdOm Quote:
"The more money an American accumulates, the less interesting he becomes."
-Gore Vidal
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<spam>
The Mysteriously Fuzzy Art Shop (Gaia Online)
http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/req...../t.43011535_1/
</spam>
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Nothing to report but the bump of a journal and some minor updates.
My art shop is coming along. I'm slowly understanding what it takes to make a living as an artist: Little sleep, hard work, and lots of caffeine. X3
I just put up my comic here and on SmackJeeves. That site flusters me too much to post it here, I'll post it later. If you're on SJ, please search up 'dy-na-mo'(title of said comic). So far, it's about a lioness girl and her ability to see creatures from another world.
Thank you, and have a nice day.
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RaNdOm Quote:
"The more money an American accumulates, the less interesting he becomes."
-Gore Vidal
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Posted 17 years agoI'm not awake... what you're seeing right now is an illusion if such.
Just dealt with my art shop on Gaia... What you want to see? Well log in and click this, you lucky thing you... ---> http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/req...../t.43011535_1/ </spam>
I'm thinking I should give away some freebies, convieniently link them to my shop, and watch the magic happen...
Thank you, and have a nice day.
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RaNdOm Quote:
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
-Albert Einstein
Just dealt with my art shop on Gaia... What you want to see? Well log in and click this, you lucky thing you... ---> http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/req...../t.43011535_1/ </spam>
I'm thinking I should give away some freebies, convieniently link them to my shop, and watch the magic happen...
Thank you, and have a nice day.
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RaNdOm Quote:
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
-Albert Einstein
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Posted 17 years agoOkay, so I'm late to the party... again. I blame the old FA server. X3
I'm going back to numbering. It just makes more sense to me. And I do it everywhere else, so meh...
Also, I'm probably on GaiaOnline more than I should. And heck knows if I'll remember FA... T_T Yup, it's that serious.
Thank you, and have a nice day.
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RaNdOm Quote:
One may have a blazing hearth in one's soul and yet no one ever came to sit by it. Passers-by see only a wisp of smoke from the chimney and continue on their way. - Vincent van Gogh
I'm going back to numbering. It just makes more sense to me. And I do it everywhere else, so meh...
Also, I'm probably on GaiaOnline more than I should. And heck knows if I'll remember FA... T_T Yup, it's that serious.
Thank you, and have a nice day.
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RaNdOm Quote:
One may have a blazing hearth in one's soul and yet no one ever came to sit by it. Passers-by see only a wisp of smoke from the chimney and continue on their way. - Vincent van Gogh
I has a Darkrai...
Posted 17 years agoAnd it est coooool. :nod: I just wish I didn't have to go so far for it. Epically considering that I have a ToysRUs a block away from my house and I had to take a bus to another of their fine stores because some retard at the closer one didn't set up the access point right... <endrant>
What I did find is that that ToysRUs was hiring. And what a coincidence, I'm not working anywhere. Guess what I came home and did?
After that, dropped by me ebay stuff and dropped some items into auction. (have a looks:
Duel Masters Cards:
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=190226479751
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=380033269636
Books:
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=380033255906
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=190226469694 ) <endshamelessplug>
And that's dirty for today.
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WORK QUE
(b/c hell knows I don't even know what I'm doing sometimes)
[o] Mythology Contest ( http://news.deviantart.com/article/48907/ ) - Seems the holder of the contest has added a subscription as a prize. I better hop to it!
[o] Sonic the Hedgehog: 3 Kings - One more redesign to upload, right now. I JUST got into writing actual script from the plot points. YAY, plot points!
[o] Dynamo - More pre-writing. Boo-hoo. T_T
(Commissions, requests, and trades are open. My own things are nice, but I want to do more. :nod: )
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RaNdOm Quote:
Believe it can be done. When you believe something can be done, really believe, your mind will find the ways to do it. Believing a solution paves the way to solution. - Dr. David Schwartz
What I did find is that that ToysRUs was hiring. And what a coincidence, I'm not working anywhere. Guess what I came home and did?
After that, dropped by me ebay stuff and dropped some items into auction. (have a looks:
Duel Masters Cards:
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=190226479751
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=380033269636
Books:
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=380033255906
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=190226469694 ) <endshamelessplug>
And that's dirty for today.
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WORK QUE
(b/c hell knows I don't even know what I'm doing sometimes)
[o] Mythology Contest ( http://news.deviantart.com/article/48907/ ) - Seems the holder of the contest has added a subscription as a prize. I better hop to it!
[o] Sonic the Hedgehog: 3 Kings - One more redesign to upload, right now. I JUST got into writing actual script from the plot points. YAY, plot points!
[o] Dynamo - More pre-writing. Boo-hoo. T_T
(Commissions, requests, and trades are open. My own things are nice, but I want to do more. :nod: )
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RaNdOm Quote:
Believe it can be done. When you believe something can be done, really believe, your mind will find the ways to do it. Believing a solution paves the way to solution. - Dr. David Schwartz
DigiPort, OPEN!... (AND work que)
Posted 17 years ago... Okay, bad Digimon reference. But that's how I feel when I play an MMO. Like I'm being sucked up into an alternate world.
I just downloaded PSO and did the patch thing so's I can play on the fan-server. Not an important thing to say, but I feel like I should keep this and all my journals updated. Not sure why... >.>... ... (Plus, if I start to disappear from here, you know where to find me. Just look for a JACster or an Aria... X3 )
I was actually stalling until 3pm. Thought I'd go and scare the hell out of my older brother by actually visiting him and playing some Pokemanzs. (His obsession, not mine.) I'll let him win a couple, and I'll be back home before dinner.
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WORK QUE
(b/c hell knows I don't even know what I'm doing sometimes)
[o] Mythology Contest ( http://news.deviantart.com/article/48907/ ) - For a three month on dA, and some nifty coloring books... and some noteriety, of course. ;)
[o] Sonic the Hedgehog: 3 Kings - I should REALLy upload my redesigns. I guess I forgot to do that before. He-heh... oops.
[o] Dynamo - More pre-writing. Boo-hoo. T_T
(Commissions, requests, and trades are open. My own things are nice, but I want to do more. :nod: )
I just downloaded PSO and did the patch thing so's I can play on the fan-server. Not an important thing to say, but I feel like I should keep this and all my journals updated. Not sure why... >.>... ... (Plus, if I start to disappear from here, you know where to find me. Just look for a JACster or an Aria... X3 )
I was actually stalling until 3pm. Thought I'd go and scare the hell out of my older brother by actually visiting him and playing some Pokemanzs. (His obsession, not mine.) I'll let him win a couple, and I'll be back home before dinner.
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WORK QUE
(b/c hell knows I don't even know what I'm doing sometimes)
[o] Mythology Contest ( http://news.deviantart.com/article/48907/ ) - For a three month on dA, and some nifty coloring books... and some noteriety, of course. ;)
[o] Sonic the Hedgehog: 3 Kings - I should REALLy upload my redesigns. I guess I forgot to do that before. He-heh... oops.
[o] Dynamo - More pre-writing. Boo-hoo. T_T
(Commissions, requests, and trades are open. My own things are nice, but I want to do more. :nod: )
