I recently have got a influx of watchers and I thank all of them

I just got back my account and two weeks off built up journals is a lot of journals. so im back and i don't have any plans to dump 9 years of watcher and art to go to the newest flashy website. i have accounts on weasley, IB, and FN under the same name here. i don't plan on leaving because i don't do business on here and i don't have important information just lying around on here. i just post stuff i draw.

so the last three weeks have been crazy between waiting to hear back from FA rushing to finish my boyfriends and my fursuit heads in time for CaliFur and traveling im glad i can relax.

so im back from CaliFur i had a great time i meet so many awesome people there i didn't catch nearly enough names hung out and fursuited for the first time it was quite fun and i will do it again. i printed a bunch of stickers and handed them out to whom ever wanted one. i will post a pic of them later.

also thanks for the watches even though the lights were off and no one was home.

Of this yeah we start a new with celebrations with family, friends, or people we don't know. We make promises to change or improve our life's to our selfs and others. I don't have any promises to my self but I will be with friends making good food and good memories.

Happy New Year.

I have had to much time off of school I'm glad to be going back Monday. I have just been feeling so unaccomplished and unfulfilled lately. I think I have been stagnating in life and here in the fandom so I think it's time I revamped my fursona. I don't know where I will go with him but it's time. I take my white wolf self and add something to him turn the blank Canvas that he is into something I want to see I might modify the species but I'm not sure. He has been unfinished for 8 years so I think it's time I finished him

It's hard to draw. I do have thoughts and images I want to draw, but the energy the drive to sit there and draw something isn't there right now. I can go outside break out a torch and welder and work on projects all day but when it comes to drawing it seems like a lot more effort to it. I am trying at the moment I hope to have at least one thing soon

So I want able to finish anything I started on this weekend but I have my tablet with me this week so I hope I can draw at least one thing. Maybe a new badge.

That I'm leaving the fandom... There is not enough drama for my Jerry Springer audience member ass to keep me interested. I mean where is all the drama...

Well I don't mean that, drama is fucking retarded. here is a life lesson for some. don't get butt hurt.

Well anyways, what I'm actually posting this about is. it's been a while sense I drew fat cock or what have you. So, this weekend I am going to draw no less then two new pieces and post them by Monday. If it's more then good. I don't know what I will draw but it will be something.


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Well I turned 29 today

well a week ago i pinched a nerve in my back and i could barely get out of bed. now that it has been a week there isn't the sharp pain anymore, there is just a dull ache and a stiffness in my back. i hope in a few days i will be at near 100% because i have to get back to school next week.

i have been busy with school and have not been doing much with my free time hmmm I should quit school so I can draw more ^^

well im going to give you all a up date on my life

school is consuming it mostly the hour drive to and from it, on some days and being in class for 6 hours tends to eat up my week days.

so recently i had my truck repaired, a blown head gasket and some other issues were fixed it cost $2500.

less then three weeks later i got into a car accident nothing serious a broken head light bent fender and sub frame nothing i couldn't fix my self and i did.

now that leads me to the new problem with the truck, as i was going down the freeway last week the oil line that regulates the oil pressure gauge burst witch dumped all my oil out as i was going up hill at 70 so in around a quarter mile of distance the oil came out and tore the motor up and seized it so yeah.

i am borrowing a car right now and i don't know what is going to happen

I really need to draw some more stuff but i have just been so busy with school now. but i will try to draw something soon. no promises XP

when people get what my icon is referencing

i have a goodish computer, a almost mint wacom companion hybrid, a lot of times on my hand, and i haven't draw anything in a good while and i don't know why

its my birthday

should i start streaming again

im not sure if i should

i fell pretty depressed i wish i had more local friends and i had kept up with friends i made though the years

my truck was leaking coolant and i thought it was a hose, because i have a brand new radiator so it couldn't be that. so i drove it to get it to leak and it did and it isn't a hose, it looks to be a crack on the driver side of the engine i know its not coming from the engine block (thank GOD) but higher up from the cylinder head so yeah

new icon. if you get the reference you get a cookie.

I'm expanding i have a weasyl account (i have had one for almost a year now) and a InkBunny account (i have had that one for over three years) and i just made a tumbler account I'm going to be working for the next few days to get them all tricked out and what not and I'm going to try to spread out on all the channels i can instead of restricting myself to just this one. so when i think everything looks good i will post links to my accounts on the other websites

i don't have much to say about it but its new. so i cant wait to see where my feet take me.

that i have been on this website for 6 years. wow that is a long time and im happy with that. thats why im letting Chris Farley dance his hart out

i have i thought this year would be different. i thought i could draw more do more with my creativity then just let it rot like a fat guy at the bottom of a lake. i know as do many creative people know that its not always easy to force your self to create something or when your blocked by something. i have had a lot of that blocking but not enough to make me stop drawing and i have had plenty of times where i was like "fuck yes lets draw something" but i was just to fucking lazy to go threw with it and in doing that im just squander the time away sitting at my computer and letting myself down. i need to be the tough dad in this and say im not mad at my self, im just disappointed. i cant make any promises to my self or you my follower that im going to make more normally. witch is a letdown to me

well its about time i should make a update. its not looking good.

i haven't had luck with the car company I'm trying to get a job with, the only chance i have right now is if the company fuck up, fucks up and gets fired like the guy who wants me to work there would like to happen.

other job prospects? well there are none, i have been pretty depressed and just haven't looked.

speaking of being depressed, i am i don't show it but its there. that's why i have gained quite a few pounds and that doesn't make me feel good about my self. also i have in the past few months (and in my live in general mainly the last few months) i have had some wild mood swings. mainly at work due to aggravation i cause my self over customers. i get quite angry and take my anger out on some boxes or out cooler door at work.

i blame these things on my job. i now see that its probably not all my jobs fault. its probably a chemical imbalance in me. both my mom and sister have a thyroid problems (even though it effects women more then men there still is a chance that i might have a problem there). but it could be a great deal of other things. i don't tend to hypochondriac my self into things but i do need to get a regular doctor and get test run it will be the best thing i can do now.

I do im happy for a few then im angry, then angry and then surprisingly angry.

I dont know. Its just lately I have become so jaded that I see Im not happy with but one thing in my life witch is my boyfriend. Things I'm not happy with?

My education, I should of just went to College right aftet high school. Insteed of going straight into the work force.

My house, its not a shit apartment with billions of people around. its a small trailer with no one around to bug me, but its quite bad off its really hot in the summer and its just so tiny.

My job, really just dont get me started. But I will Usay working graveyard dose no wonders for my social life I cant go to fur meets or hang out with friends or what I want to do.

My car is good

My art, im almost done with the pic I started IN THE MIDDLE OF LAST YEAR! Yes it has been over six months since I started on this pic I should be posting this Wednesday and that depresses the fuck out of me.

In a whole my life sucks right now, besides quiting my job and some how paying for school I cant see much else maybe ill become a whore or a pole dancer and I wont be lieing when I say "im working there to pay for my schooling".

But enough of my sad sack shit. Im off to continue doing my job hear (yes I am at my job typing this) so latter.

JAH