So This account has had a long run, I've favourited a lot of lewd things on here. But this name isn't the name I go by anymore.

I believe I am switching over to this account  Raaru

[Insert Reasons here.]

I'm going to get a commission from strype... Now it's just a matter of actually getting one of his slots....

The anticipation is gonna kill me.

Am wanting a good recommendation for an artist whom is good at drawing females. Along with being decent at drawing males.

price doesn't matter. I prefer digital work at the moment. Though traditional is still lovely. Something not to realistic either if that helps...

Sorry for being so picky.

Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4750497/

http://www.e621.net/data/da/36/da36.....6439ecb9c8.jpg

Two examples that may or may or may not help.

Am debating this one. http://www.furaffinity.net/user/nightfaux/

Is it bad that I want a snake of this size?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFhDhVaGbsY&feature=related

Alright... I talked with her and am a bit confused about this... I messaged her with the stuff with the > next to it.

"> So you will redo the drawing this october?
>
> and you want me to give you easier instructions?
>
> And I don't have to pay you again?
>



Yes.
But I want pay($30~) a little to this if you condone me."

So if I happen to say her name in vain, or say she's a bad artist she wants 30 dollars?

Or before she does the second picture she wants another 30 dollars?

Okay I recently got a commission. And unfortunately she speaks japanese and doesn't speak english that well.

I didn't get the picture I commissioned.... I Bought it for 300 dollars. And I told her on 9/16 that i'd tell her the position of the two characters later. And that if she had any questions to ask me. Well I ended up paying her, and then telling her the position of the characters I wanted to which she responded

"Oh, You have the position's settings!
But I completed your work now....sorry..
I hope you like this."

It's a lovely picture.... But it's not what I wanted...

I'm trying to be as civil about this as I can be.

Is it to much to demand that she redraw it based on the information I've given?

Or should I just suck it up, take the loss, and deal?

Why a spoon? "Because it'll hurt more!!!"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RSUGp9Yz1sk

Alan rickman is fucking awesome. Also... that was the wrong part of that movie... But eh... Close enough.

Sideways...

Nothing more..... Nothing less... Now have a nice day. ^^

damn migrane... headache... whatever the fuck you wanna call it. It hurts....

Alright... I'm in a really grumpy mood... Contrary to me just getting internet. But i'm happy about that... Perhaps work might help me to feel better.... Surprisingly enough it seems to be one of the only things lately that's pulling me out of my funk. And yes... for all those who want to know. i work.. At a place that sells hookahs, grinders, body piercings, swords, tapestries, hippy type of clothing and a whole bunch of other miscellaneous stuff.

But at the moment... I almost feel like I don't wanna talk to anyone.

if you actually stop by this journal and/or read it leave a comment....

It's my test of how many people actually pay attention to these damn things.

So sleepy, and tired... Had a good day... along with a wonderful night last night. Teskine is awesome for doing a littlebit of concept art for me of the vaporeon that is in my Favs..... Still need to think of a name for her.......

So yeah... I'm kinda brainstorming off and on as far as a story goes... I may or may not submit it... Depends on if I ever get around to actually writing the bloody thing...

And also..... Inebriate

I'm just... *sighs* so disoriented and so confused... continuously whiney, pitching fits about random stupid shit, overthinking things on a drastic level... I'm becoming something that I myself absolutely despise... I'm sorry for all of you putting up with me... I'm not gonna do anything stupid, nor drastic. I just.... If you can stop by this journal and tell me how much you care. or show me how much I care to you through any of the various chat methods I have.... that would be appreciated... even if it's a simple hug... Or even the words "It'll be alright." might help...

not only that but i've gotten fat, and i'm a lazy slob...

Alright... so now that i'm out of the house I want to learn how to cook. Yet I feel a bit... Daunted by how many recipes there are out there. Keep in mind i'm a novice chef but i'm willing to learn. So don't give me anything that takes 6 hours to prepare. XD...

but if any of you mind sharing your favourite recipes. Or could give me tips about things, Or even as simple as your favourite type of spice i'd love hearing it. ^^

Hehe.... Baby sergal noises for the win! make sure to roll your r's when you say it. <3

So yeah... in about 6 days is my birthday... not expecting anything if at all, But I dunno... I'm somewhat depressed... i'm going to be 21 living in a fucking homeless shelter. I've done nothing with my life... x.x

Umm.... okay so there is like a fucking outbreak of Scabies at the homeless shelter... But things were somewhat hush hush until I started to think about just how many people I saw in quarantine... the people got scabies from the blankets and the beds. and I think some people got it after their clothes were washed... but i'm kinda at a loss because well... I have nowhere else to go... and for any of you whom don't know what scabies are....

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Scabies

*shudders* I don't know if I can go to sleep there again...

Okay!! if your wanting a fursuit it doesn't have to be uber expensive in order to get it. Hell I know a great fursuit maker whom has absolutely great quality work! And you can even watch as he makes it so that way you can let him know if you like it or not!

It also doesn't take him several months to make it. As long as you tell him what he's needing to here he could get your fursuit done in 3 weeks if he's actively working on it. And the only time that he wouldn't be working on it is if he had another fursuit that had to be done in a set amount of time, or if he wasn't sure where to go as far as details with the one your wanting.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1593308/

that's his journal about it and I believe you won't be disappointed. If you happen to go tell him this jackal sent ya. He might give you even more of a discount but I don't know.

Well... I'm looking at the current avatar that I have. That  aetherfax did for me so long ago. (thank ya very much) and I figure it might be time for an update. So would anyone be upto the task of drawing one?

Even though life is kinda shit right now i'm in a fantastic mood. I have my lovely Markiz which is probably what makes all the difference... I knew him for... a little less then a month before I asked him out. quick yes I know... But we clicked so fast... And it all happened at an infohub on SL. He just happened to randomly hug me one day and it all started from there. All I know is I love him dearly and am more than happy with him... what's even better is he loves me for me... Even with all the weird kinks and stuff. I've never gotten this much acceptance or assurance from someone before... when he tells me he loves me I don't doubt it. Though all i doubt is the fact that he chose someone like me... but i'm not going to question it. I'd have put a profle picture up here but unfortunately FA is being stupid and not letting him create an account... I don't think i've ever felt quite this way about someone especially so quickly. He's my sergal <3<3<3 And yes... I'm more than lucky to have such a wonderful love, mate, boyfriend, Whatever you want to call it. He encourages me to follow my dreams and pursue the things I love. He loves me for me, I don't have to do things I dislike just for the sake of the other person not getting what they want... All I know is i'm what he wants and that's all that matters. Just like he's all I want. <3 you Markiz Ventain

On a second note.... I've gotten a lot more into snakes these past couple of days... I've always loved them but just recently it's kinda slapped me in the face... and have indeed realize it is a bit of an obsession. but even though i'm crazy and wanting one of these little beauties...

http://newenglandreptile.com/cart/4.....x-granite-back

Markiz supports me nonetheless... and yes I am aware at what kinda snake those are, and yes. I know how large they get.... I count on it. *grin* but anyways. if you talk to me and i start sending you videos of snakes.... just bare with it for now. But yeah... *sighs wistfully* I want one of those little guys eventually. though should I say gal? Considering that the females tend to get larger than the males. And i'm wanting a large snake.... anyways... that was a prime example of my rambling on. So thanks for reading about my two biggest loves!

No food... no money... No vehicle, No job, Not even a food stamps card to help with food. And to top it off Roomie's vehicle just broke down tonight... And no time...

nuff said.

For any of those whom think i'm dead this is just to let you know i'm not. I'm waaaay to lazy to take care of all my new messages on FA. 10266 new messages. But every day i'm going to try and get them less and less...

I'm being kicked out. but don't worry.... I asked my dad for help and he is helping us and i'm not going alone or in my truck for that matter. We have a reliable vehicle and all of my stuff (including my truck) is going to be moved down there safely as my dad does know how to drive and he seems to know the route by heart. lol But that took a huge burden off of my shoulders.