another busy week ahead, and probably my last one in italy.
I want to take a break from my computer to spend more time with my little brothers and work out more often, but I don't want to come back to 100+ submissions and countless journals =_=
ah well, C'est la vie as I always say.

take it as the week comes, we'll see how this goes...

I want to begin by saying that yall shouldn't read too much into my journals. Unless someone dies or I'm finally caught and taken to a nut house nothing life changing is going to happen to me. Thank you for your concern, but lighten up, there are enough extreme cases in the furry fandom, so far I think I'm an exception to that sort of thing. note how I said "I think" >.> that being said, random thoughts and updates.

I love being in a different time zone, definitely lets me easily avoid any sort of major drama from people who are wide awake when I go to bed and fast asleep when I'm wide awake.
pretty awesome.

started working on a sketch of IAF marine squad. I've got myself, and so far, but I'm still missing one more marine. Those of you who read this and play Alien Swarm feel free to drop me a message today and you can come play and get the last spot in this piece!
as for everything else, I'm still writing, but lately I've been reading lots of books, so writing is going slow. I still take requests for free pencil sketches, so feel free to drop those my way.

I'm not a malicious person. If I say something to you I'm being as reasonable as possible. If I find that my reason is being met with resistance, I find that there is no reason to be reasonable XD
sure I care, but like I've specified, my tolerance for it is just slim to none.

song of the day:
https://youtu.be/WcEPdTy7_uE

get over it.

yeah, I play with gif animation sometimes

it's another of those nights, I've got a six pack of cream soda in front of me, a pack of oreoes and an empty bottle of mead here, what's up?

people having a shitty time, not enjoying life in the least.
For me, however, it is one of those weeks where I've been making sandwiches out of the same bread bag every day for a week and it's not until -now- that someone walks by and mentions they saw mold on a piece of that same bread a couple days ago...

mmmmm... mold...

I keep forgetting what I was doing, so now I'm sitting here writing this down.

must be because I haven't gotten much sleep, yeah... that's it...

update:
doing some writing, got inspired to create a character or two, gonna work on my first AS story and a poem or two I started a while back.
as for drawing, well, I haven't really had the motivation to do that lately, but fear not! I was given a task by someone that is forcing me to work on armour, so the next thing will surely be IAF marines DtS division facing down the swarm XD

um... damn I forgot again... sleep time I think...

oh yeah, went tagging the other night, gonna go out and get pictures of it later. That was a blast, and bugger off those of you who don't like it. I'm no anarchist, I just wanted to do some public art. sure I feel slightly bad about it, but shit, that was some awesome fun

aaaand... there it goes again... forgot what I was doing....

aaah... sun feels good, pouring on my fur like molten happiness, baking me to just the right temperature...

Enough about that, let's talk about something depressing x_X

Summer is quickly coming to an end, meaning school is starting back up and I'll be even less active than I usually am.
This year I'm taking a much different approach to my lifestyle. Balance.
I used to have something like balance in my life before I went to college, but the college life seemed to truly bring out the extreme side of me, leading to my failing grades and lack of enthusiasm for the military life I was going for.
That changes this semester.
I'm getting involved with classes. I want to pass, and, more importantly I want my scholarship back so I'm not in debt up to my eyeballs come commissioning time.
So that's that.

As for my furry side, i.e. here mostly, I'll be doing art here and there, maybe a live stream of my drawings when I get the chance, working on my electronic music as well. Going to seriously try and get my DJ stuff off the ground but I'm not getting my hopes up. I picked up a violin the other day and I love the way it feels, might be taking the family one with me to school to strum away on until I get the feel for it. Maybe cure myself of my tone-deafness XD

I'll still be in contact as much as I can, I hate to let friends, even internet and new found friends, go by the wayside. Feel free to drop me a shout or a note any time, but please don't hold it against me if I don't respond right away or don't drop the same to you. I'll try, ok? ~_~

As for Steam and gaming, well, I'm a gamer, I'll most likely have Steam up no matter what I'm doing anyway, just as a habit, so if you want to game go ahead and let me know and I'll see if I have some free time. More than likely though, my gaming free time will be filled with Halo:Reach and Assassin's Creed:Brotherhood on Xbox live, so if you have those and want to play with me feel free to add me on there too.

I think that just about covers it. Have a great rest of the summer!

I hate when I forget that everyone in this world is different
one second I'm doing find, then out of the blue I come across someone who just hates unconditionally
sometimes it's hard to wrap my mind around, sometimes it catches me by surprise
I wish that I could just accept this fact and always be aware of it... or maybe I am...
I assume good intentions, but get pissed when people are openly malicious... which, in a way, is hypocritical of me considering I harbour malicious thoughts a lot of times.
I really don't know how to react at times, so I'll just go about my day as usual

It's that time again!
everyone I usually play with is probably asleep, so I'm shouting out to anyone who loves to play to come play with me! ^^
I'm taking a new approach to the game as well. I found some fun console commands, one of which let's me customize the characters skills, so now I'm going to play through a campaign called The Beginning (maybe, although more than likely I'll just do a play through of the default campaign to level up my marines) and besides taking breaks to draw and work out I'll be on AS all day, so feel free to drop me a line and we can slaughter space aliens together!

add me on Steam: jakspica (alias The Silent Cartographer)
here is the most recent mappack torrent: http://www.mediafire.com/?b7pod79a25fb7e0
here is an awesome mp3 made by just for this game: http://www.mediafire.com/?t01bfg14l05us1u

also, I need one more person for my AS project. I'm doing a portrait of a team of marines and I need one more furry/person to fill in the place! I'll more than likely do multiple pictures of this, so if you miss this one, there will be others! the only requirement to get into the picture is that you come play with me!
on a semi-related side note, I've started writing AS stories, should be pretty interesting ^^

once again, Alien killing.
sure, some may have the right to live, but I strongly stand firm in my belief that if someone or something threatens someone elses right to live, that entity must be stopped at all costs.
hence, alien slaughter ^^

feel free to join in the fun!

This.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/621...../#cid:45157651
This right here, folks, is innate talent and inherent skill.
This sort of thing is what should be funded in a place such as this.
starving and suffering artists need commissions, but instead all the denizens ask for is stick figure porn.
makes me sick.
This is why I support indep artists and game developers, because there is still skill in this world, sad part is they fade away into obscurity.
don't know why that is, or, at least, I can't put it into words, but if any of you have expendable income and want some quality art, look around you, beyond the cocks and vaginas, and see talent for what it is and support it any way you can.

Nothing to see here, move along.

I've got a whole bunch of requests lined up, I'll note each of them as they days go by for details and post them as I finish them.

Alien Swarm is the order of the day, feel free to add me on steam and join me, I always have a great time

august is the month I'll be heading back stateside, so there will be a long bout of downtime more than likely during this time.

got my livestream this morning, so now I can do that sort of thing in the future, however, I will be doing personal requests via tinychat simply because it allows face to face communication.

um... besides that, sleep _-_...zzzZZZZ

This is my last post regarding this.

No more live pencil drawing sessions.
so far only one person expressed any interest in coming tonight, so I'm going to take that as "no thanks, it's kinda boring, maybe later, I'm done for the say, blah blah blah..." don't let me put words in your mouth XD
anyways, I'm willing to do requests still, on my own time of course (donations accepted >.>) and I am also willing to do them live for those that want me to, but for the most part, this short-lived tinychat live pencil drawing bonanza has drawn to a close (see what I did there?)

If you are interested, any time after this, please do not hesitate to let me know. I love to hear from people, but it irks me when I know there are some who are too shy or whatever to say anything. It's a missed opportunity, and it's a bummer for all involved to be honest -_-

But I digress. Summer is waning which means school is coming up again. I go to a military school and I haven't had my head in my studies as much as I should have these last two years, so I won't have time to be messing around with things that I like XD
I'll still be doing requests, and writing, and music, and yadda yadda, just not as often.

Thanks for all of yalls support over the last week, it is much appreciated.
Stay awesome yall!

I'm thinking of holding one last tinychat session today/tonight.
I've realized some of the issues that I've run into are caused by timezone differences, and that is the main reason I'm taking a break from doing them.
However, I'd like to get one more session in before I stop completely, so here is my request from those of you who actually read these things:
post a comment if you want a tinychat live pencil drawing session to happen, and, if so, any requests you might have.
These can be what you'd want me to draw for you now, or in the future.
Let me know, I'd want to go live sometime after 1600EST (2200european) but definitely before 2300EST (0500european)

as I said earlier I've been playing alien swarm all day.
I've been inspired to draw a team of marines with my fursona and some others, but I've got no one to fill the black faces of the other three...
reference

I've been itching to play this awesome top down shooter with people, but no one has stepped up yet, which saddens me but I understand.

If anyone wants to be featured in this project, however, I urge you to add me on steam and play a game or two with me so I can get an idea of how you play and add you in my marine team picture.

It'll give me a good long practice of weapons, characters, facial expressions, armour and gear, all of which are things I want to practice.

I am also going to be writing a story or three based on the adventures of some of the marines, should be pretty interesting.

did I mention the game is free? that should perk some peoples ears ^^

Stay awesome yall.

I think I'm going to play this game all day.
anyone want to come join me add me on steam
Steam ID: jakspica
current alias: The Silent Cartographer

now if you'll excuse me, I've got to go scrape some alien face off my boots

well here is the deal. I've hit the metaphorical brick wall in regards to my art. I'm going to go back to writing and maybe working on music.
tinychat was fun for a good while, but sadly being in a different time zone has its issues, on top of that I just don't know how interesting it is to watch someone draw, so there you have it.
I'll do it again some time in the future, but I don't want to burn myself out, so a break is being taken.

however, if you are interested in my work and want something drawn I'd love the practice, but it's not something I'm going to put an incredible amount of time into.

Summertime is drawing to an end, so I want to take advantage of my freedom while I still can because this semester is going to be killer.

stay awesome everybody, and thanks for all of you who support me in my ventures.

Sometimes my culture really irks me...

It's like I scare people away by being forward, friendly, completely honest, up front, blah blah blah...
What's that all about? What are you, scared? Come on, seriously...
Sure you take a lot of risk trusting someone a lot on the internet, but I have found it doesn't hurt to be a little trusting, I mean seriously
If you aren't ignorant, there really isn't anything for you to worry about is there? If you don't like being called stupid then remedy the problem (unless, of course, you are being called stupid by an ignorant person, then by all means, rip them a new one)

Well anyways, that bottle of mead is looking nicer and nicer every day...

On a side note, I love chatting with people, so drop me a note any time.

The first 10 artists who comment on this journal will be featured here, along with three deviation chosen from their gallery by myself.

If you answer, you'll have to do the same in your journal, putting me on the first place, completing the list with 10 other people. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone.

1.

Hey everyone!

As I am sure all of you who are watching me are aware I do live pencil drawing sessions on my tinychat.
Free art for those that ask for it, so fee free to stop by and see if there is anything going on ^^

http://tinychat.com/jakspica

maybe now I can stop spamming it >.<

I feel for all yalls lives that suck, drama, blah de fucking blah blah.

I have a lotta caring in me, so it's quite painful not being able to help out as much as I want to, but thus is the reality, don't hold it against me.

Maybe you'll pull yourself out of the gutter, maybe you'll fall and die in it, maybe someone will come along and pull you out, who knows, only time will tell.

one thing I do know for certain it's that I'm tired of hearing about it, but I care too much not to be concerned.

I sincerely don't give a damn what you think about me (although I'll still get on the dance floor and shake my ass for your enjoyment ;3) but know this at the very least:
I'm probably the safest person you'll ever know or meet. if you ever really have a problem that you want to talk to someone about but have no one else to turn to, I'm game to take that on. I'm not a miracle worker, I can't magically make problems disappear, and I'm sure as hell not a shrink.

But I have one thing that I find lacking in this shit world we live in: I know how to keep my damn trap shut. mums the word and sharps the action. confidentiality is the key word here folks. I don't care what it is, if I hear about it I don't go fucking blabbing it to anyone else. This is a pro and a con sometimes, but unless I'm told by the person that I can tell others, I don't. it's as simple as that.

now that I've got that pile of shit off my chest, I'm going to sleep.
for the love of all that is sacred to man and beast, STOP BEING SO FUCKING DRAMATIC.

it just keeps leaking... I can't sleep now.
sure, this isn't like I'm having insomnia or some other sort of mental problems, but shit it's annoying.
I want to enjoy myself, hang out with people, drink, eat and just be fucking merry.
but no. my damn snout is stuffed up and dribbling like a pro basketball player, and I can't sleep for fear of drowning in my own viscous fluids.
on top of that, it's hot and humid in the house, not great for sleeping since I wake up drenched in sweat, and when I do turn the aircon on it makes the room unbearably cold.
now most would just scoff at these complaints, but it's very embarrassing for a furry of my species to be uncomfortable in either of these conditions and that makes it even worse.

anyways, enough being a downer.
wifi is out at the house, nothing to really complain about, but I don't like using anyone elses computer but mine, other people's settings annoy the hell out of me, this font is like 36 right now -_- but once again, I digress.

I'm kinda trying to expand my horizons. It's cool to meet furs on fA and get to know them through their journals and submissions and stuff, I do hope to make a talented friend or five that I can bounce ideas off of or get a commish from, but it's amazingly hard to get people to trust you on the internet, go figure right?

life goes on, I think I'm just going to go play with lego. ugh, it's freaking 5am, went to bed at 2...
I WANT TO GET BETTER.

on a side note, time is running out!

I feel I've finally found something that I love to do.

I'm playing with music, I hope that it works out for me because I love music, and I really want to make a small breakthrough in my life with something that motivates me.

This is the place that will hear my sounds first, so let's get started.

so I have been trying so hard to get on with my school work
but it seems it shall never come to pass
too bad really...

on an unrelated note, what is it with vulpines being cum dumpsters? I mean jesus...