It's kind of like those chicken salad sandwiches from Panera Bread. They were always my most favorite thing on the face of the planet to eat, because they were just so wholly perfect in every way. It was a small solace, a small comfort in knowing no matter where I was, or what I was doing, something in life was still the same for me. The same as it was in happy times, in mindless times, in times I took it completely for granted because at that time, I didn't need to be thinking too hard on what was gonna come next. So I didn't.
A lot of things change for me, often. Gypsy blood runs thick and wild through my veins, to the point where I couldn't even tell you the name of my hometown, because..well, I was never really in one place long enough to consider it as such. And even if I was in a place long-ish enough, I haven't been back since, nor do I ever intend to. How then can I tie myself there?
The last year or so was pretty big for, for being so small in existence. Yanno, I think I first realized it was happening when I went to Panera Bread, for the first time in this new town I was residing in. As my constant, I ordered a Chicken Salad sandwich. And yet, when I bit into it, I was horrified to find that it had changed. Panera changed their chicken salad recipe to include grapes and nuts. No chicken salad should ever be crunchy, ever. But it struck a deeper cord in me than just the fact that my favorite restaurant had completely changed my favorite sandwich.
One of the primary constant variables in my life had changed. It was different, and foreign. And I was..a little afraid. It made me realize for the first time how lost I was in the proper places of society, how often I'm somewhere and then suddenly, I'm not. And it's as though I was never even there to begin with. Hell, I'm not even sure I left a mark in most of the places I've been. Where, then, is my mark on the world? In the same breath, where is the world's mark on me?
It's not that I'm a lost sheep or anything, I know where I'm going and I know what I want. And I'm not afraid of that. I'm not scared of things I don't know yet. I'm scared of things I know, things I rely on mindlessly, changing one day, forever. Leaving me stranded and stunned on an indescribable crossroads that might not even exist. Tell me, which road do I take for comfort, when none of the signs read home?

Sometimes, I just feel like a little leaf, caught on the surface of a mighty big river.

why do you have to kick me in the balls?

because I got, like, 7 watches in the last 24 hours. XD

So this is a fuckin' THANK YOU, and hello to the new comers <3 welcome welcome. Welcome to the family. Yes, this is a family. We'll love you here. Unless you hit on my girlfriend, then I'll eat yer head. But I don't foresee that happening.


Anyone~ wanna introduce themselves? Does everyone wanna introduce themselves? Even if yer not new? XD Tell me things! I like things.

Here, I'll start:

Hi, my name is Jam. I'm a 19 yr old insomniac with a wicked bad addiction to DS games. I like to draw on occasion XD and the rest of the time I go to class. My fursona is a snow rabbit and I am fucking Sanrio obsessed.
I also say fuck a lot.

YER TURN. READY, AIM, FIRE!

Okay, for the record, I never actually played any pokemon games until SoulSilver. I watched the show when I was younger, and a few times when I was not-so-much younger, and collected the cards for eeevvvvaarrr.
But when I finally decided I wanted to play a game, my girlfriend was all "noooooowait until this game comes out, yer pokemon can follow you around! :D"

So I did.

And I love this fucking game XD Omg I've barely put it down in the last 24 hours, not exactly a good thing. BUT OMG. ;v; I love it. I am a super sucker for grass-types, AND FLAAFFY <3

My heart sings with joy. I only wish I had an internet connection to trade with muh baby~


Aha, pointless journal is pointless.

here's a new one <3

omg today has felt like the longest day ever. Because I had to smoosh two classes worth of anatomy (including tests) into one class this morning. I hate anatomy on the best of days, today it nearly wiped me out. Plus I forgot that I have to work on our 10 page paper for the Caucasian project, we're doing vikings @^@ I wanted the Asian project, boo.

So I came home afterwards and napped until 3, now I just feel a little groggy and shit. bleh. But I am going to draw, -GASP- I know, right? So amazing.

But yeah. Imma go do that now. -thumbs up-

If anyone want to say something about their day, drop it here, now's yer chance. I am listening.

GREG


NICOTERO

HERE, TOMORROW

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-GASM-

He'll be doing a seminar in the morning and looking at the third and fourth semester's stuff. Then after lunch, HE'S COMING TO TALK TO US. ;A; I think Imma die. I've been sculpting like crazy all day cause I just started on my movie monster assignment and I want to have a little more done than what I have now before he comes to see us. euugghhhhhh-spasms-Grrrreeegggggggg Imma diieeeeeeee I wanna nom on his heeeaaaaddddddd<3

I may go to Tom Savini's school, but Greg Nicotero is a GOD of our trade. If you have no idea who the hell I'm talking about, let me hump your brain with some wisdom.

He worked in just the make-up department (usually key supervisor) on such titles as:
The Book of Eli, Surrogates, Jennifer's Body, Final Destination, Public Enemies, Inglorious Bastards, Drag Me to Hell, Last House on the Left, The Unborn, Mirrors, Narnia: Prince Caspien and Lion Witch and the Wardrobe, Hostel 1 and 2, The Hills have Eyes 1 and 2, Transformers, Diary of the Dead, Death Proof, Disturbia, Land of the Dead -takes deep breath- Kill Bill 1 and 2, Thirteen Ghosts, Unbreakable, The Green Mile, From Dusk Til Dawn, The Haunting, House on Haunted Hill, Scream, Pulp Fiction, Tales from the Darkside (movie), Creepshow 2, and Day of the Dead

literally, just to name a few. And those are just movies he worked on with make-up effects, that doesn't count the ones he did with special effects.



Tomorrow, I will most likely try to touch this man....

everywhere.

my power's back on, lol.


and I love you, guys. Seriously <3 We should do something, right now. ummmmmmmmmm-oh! How about Q&A?

Ask anything~ and everything~, I don't care if it's what I ate for breakfast or why the fuck there's an incense stick poked into the forehead of the sculpture I did of my pooky. It can even be suuuper personal (but that doesn't mean I'll answer lol). Have at it friends<3

I may even ask a few things of my own -wink-

was tagged by


1) Post these rules
2) Post 8 true things about yourself
3) At the end you must tag 10 people and post their icons
4) Go to their page and send them a message saying you tagged them
5) NO TAG-BACK


Truths
1-I am a huge Sanrio nerd.
2-I am addicted to DS video games, they're portable fun <3
3-My iris is smudged.
4-Kittens are my biggest weakness.
5-I miss the older, more brazen me (and am trying to get her back).
6-Half-deaf in my left ear.
7-I hate myself for only being able to draw cute stuff.
8-I love sewing <3

Tagging~
and..ummmm

like, seriously. But I am so uninspired ;_; -baww-

If anyone would like to inspire me, please do so. Motivate me, get me going. I'd appreciate it.

<3

okay, so when I said small hiatus, apparently I meant long hiatus XD;; yes, a week is long for me.

I do apologize, I have simply been so wrapped up in classes, homework, hanging out with friends, and random other shit to really even get online at all. I've spent the last five nights hanging out at the guy's house XD which is a thousand times more fun than hanging out here in solitary confinement (aka, my room).

But let this be a declaration that I will try to post SOMETHING up this week :3 just for you guys~<3


side note: has anyone here seen the movie Bitch Slap? because if you haven't, YOU TOTALLY SHOULD. SO MANY LESBIANS. 3| it made me want my boo.

At least, according to my sculpting instructor. Anywho~random, unimportant update on my life, right here, all for you:

I hate Anatomy and Anthropology class. It's not that it's hard or anything, but our teacher is hella weird. Not to mention there's nothing more boring than zygomatic arches attatched to temperal bones that mold into the mastoid process at eight thirty in the morning until one thirty in the afternoon. So fucking BORING. I nearly conked out twice, and that is no exaggeration.

But I was struck with a completely dopey feeling of happy belonging again today, like a dork. A small group of us went to go get some bagels during first break (you have to walk there, in tha snow and cold). It was about five girls and three guys, myself included. The guys broke off to go buy cigarettes, but were waiting for us when we left the bread place, smoking of course. And we all walked back together. It gave me that stupid warm feeling |3 Because we all seem to be getting comfortable with each other, finally, since we'll be together a while.

Fyi, 'we' being my class at school, we're all one class, same schedules, same everything, we don't have classes with any other students, just us.

I think it rocks, prolly since I've been so cut off from proper socializing for so long. It feels good to have friends again. And it's comforting that we're all going through this together, and we're all on the same level, regardless of our ages and stuff. X3

I'm gonna stop sounding completely mushy now. No class tomorrow!

in disgusting abundance when the weather conditions are right, which they apparently are. Eugh, I've even switched meds, and I think this stuff is working better, thank god. It's, like, dislodging the mucus so I can hack it up, and sound ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL as I do it.

XD And I'm keeping my room door open so everyone else can hear it because I am such a bitch.

-sigh- It astounds me that it's only almost seven, at four it felt like it was nine or ten, I was falling asleep directly after hanging up with my pooky. Who, in all her adorable wonder, is sewing me a plush X3

And though I have no class tomorrow, I have a lot to do: movies with Emily, meet up with my Anatomy group, and Movie Night with my make-up teacher. Last week it was American Beauty, this week it's Zombieland.

OH! OH! How about, my fucking boring ass Anatomy and Anthropology teacher completely stereotyped us today in class! Like, twice! I don't know if anyone else cared, but it sure as hell irked me.

1-
"And if you'll see here, on the inside, it sort of looks like bat wings -shows inside of skull- If you were my graphic design students, I'd say butterfly wings. But you Savini students like bats more, so bat wings."

My thoughts: 'I like butterflies.....'

2-
"Now, the facial bones are easier to remember if you make up a little diddy to go with it, like 'Zebras Lay (in) Nice Valleys Not Plains Munching...uh, Maggots!'* Yeah, you Savini kids are all into maggots, you'll remember that."

My thoughts: '......wtf ew...'

I understand Tom Savini is pretty famous for his horror films, be it the make-up he's done, or directing, or even acting. But that doesn't mean that all we 'Savini Students' are total OMGZOMBIEBLOODGOREOMFGDEATH-foamgasm-

Sure, I -like- horror films, I enjoy them, And I wouldn't pass up the opportunity to work on one simply because I wouldn't pass up the opportunity to work on -any- movie right now. But that's not what made me want to come here.

I'm more of a sci-fi person, fantasy, mythology. This is what I hope to work in, not every other blood gore film. Why the stereotype, Ms. Weirdo, why? As our teacher at this school, shouldn't you know that the job range out there is vast? And zombie movies aren't the only ones that require special effects. Thank you, please think before you speak next time.

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*Facial Bones:
-Zygomatic
-Lacrimal
-Nasal Bone
-Vomer
-Nasal Conchae
-Palate
-Maxilla
-Mandable

I feel soooo cruddy right now. My allergies kicked themselves into limit drive yesterday and I am still suffering the effects. Going to class today was dreadful, I was blowing my nose and sniffling throughout all of getting clown make-up done on me, and doing the make-up for someone else. To make things worse, I ran out of tissue in Sculpting. My nose hurt so baaad. fffff, as soon as we were released, I practically sprinted to the store to buy some more

eugh, this irritates me because I never get sick or anything. But thank god for DayQuil Sinus; hopefully, tomorrow will be better.

Oh, and I would once again like to re-state how much I love my teachers. Where else do you get to play the vagina game in class? And once we got started, lol, we couldn't stop.

Big Trouble in Little Vagina
Vagina and the Giant Peach
House of 1000 Vaginas
Hunt for Red Vagina

XD

And my sculpting instructor was sure to tell us that zebras are evil sons of bitches, and never go near a hippo when it shits. -nods- of course.

Oh-and for those who don't know, the vagina game is where you think of a movie title and replace one of the words with vagina. It's -always- funny. Can you think of any?

insanely so. and I can stay up late because I dun have classes tomorrow, just a lecture in the evening.

sooo.....anyone wanna chat? Anyone at all? D: Wanna tell me yer favorite color and what you like to read?

How about Left 4 Dead 2? Aannyyyyone play it? I watched my roomie play it today, my first time seeing it first hand. I wasn't the one playing and it still freaked me out XD it was pretty intense.

I also had Anatomy and Anthropology for the first time today. Booorrriiinnnngggggg ass class, just thought I'd let you know.