come watch me rock the game that built the legend of this wolf.....
https://www.twitch.tv/james_bluewolf

The best ideas always flow while at work. great ideas great plot and motivation..while at work...then I get home and notta....geeez thanks brain lol

So I laid in bed this morning trying to further decode and analyze myself as I was feeling abnormal higher amount of emotional pleasantness and strength for a time and I got to thinking.

My moods are a lot like a growing plant....as much as I wish I could I cannot water myself or nurture my own growth despite how much I try and really seek outside aid to help strengthen myself. I however I am no weed my roots are strong and I actively try to seek the “nutrients” I need to keep myself alive so not to shrivel up completely but I try not to be to greedy and take only the bare minimum so not to stunt or hinder the growth of other peoples flowers.

But as much as Im not a weed and can keep my roots strong and stable my stem is weak. Even on lucky days where it “rains” and I find myself rallying and starting to bloom I find it hard to grow and keep standing on my own...I reach out to those around me to help hold myself up but find often very little support.

“hey....look i'm blooming and actually trying to be outgoing and perky”
“thats nice” says the flower that grows in nearby “I not interested in you today” as it looks and reaches its petals and roots to another

“hey look...Im starting to stand on my own”
“thats fine...but you should be doing this” says the other flower nearby before its roots strangle and wrestle precious nourishment away to fuel an its fiery aggressive blossom as if screaming “I deserve MORE!”

“hey look im strong today

I try so hard on these days to fight to stand on my own stalk...but I am weak...and its not long before nutrients are gone...or a cutting quip slices and weakens me or a dark cloud chokes the sunlight from above me. So I return to being face down in the mud withdraw my leaves my petals around me to savor what remains and ration what my roots can manage.

I won't die....but at times I don't think i'll truly blossom either.

This all being said...I do cherish and enjoy the kernels and drops of “nourishment” that at times are dropped on my roots and life is not completely void of those but still it feels like the mud is where I deserve to lay most of the time.

this is not meant to upset anyone nor is it directed at anyone but I needed to vent and I needed to be heard....cause in silence one suffers alone but in vocalization even the whips and stones of criticism and opinions bare a kernel of care.

Imma eat lunch at the mandarin near my house!......you can't talk me out of it....IMMA DOIN IT!

If your sitting here scratching your head.....I'm sure someone whom knows the situation will explain in comments hehe

I wish to start...is there still interest in watching people twitchstream games....games like the metro series and other older but none the less decent games?

is there any games you guys would enjoy watching me stream....and make a fool of myself when I bugger up time and time again trying to get shineys

so yep Im now 31 which is sorta a big deal due to the reoccuring dreams of youth.....as long as I survive my birthday I can officially feel in the clear!....WOOOOOOOOOO!
what will I be doing for my birthday?....a freaking 10 hour shift!...oh well working at a bakery yields high chances of pastry gifts from co-workers :P

A man or creature approaches you in your dreams and offers you the gift of becoming your fursona/inner beast/ ETC. However the trade off is that your current self will die...and basically “ascend” to become your beast, Meaning you'd be leaving everyone you knew and loved behind and potentially leave them the heart break of waking up besides your lifeless form and never know why you had passed on and left them behind. Would you take the offer and become your fursona?

further details was required tho I doubt it would change the choice of many of you anyways :P

when your reborn its not into this world....but another where anthro and the like are common...not science lore where you'd get a visit from a black van and end up on a cold metal table hehe.

Many of you watching me don't know much about me...so I'll make this brief birth familly was defective abusive and abandoning....

That being said the family I have now is made up of close friends of varying degree....acquaintances....good friends.....best friends....mates and those whom I call family...These people are the most important people in my life. My loyalty is never faltering unless given reason....my love is never waning unless abused. My tongue never bears flame to burn tender cheeks unless needed. I will never abandoned or desert anyone I hold dear unless they are the ones baring blades against my strings.

This trust is gained by time and deeds alone...these are the people whom have brought little drama into my life....lifted my chin when my head was bowed in sorrow. People whom have made merit-able efforts and likewise have received my own and not squandered them.

It's cause of family that I survive...that I grow......I pray there never comes a time where my strength turns into a weakness and the pillars that hold me up...turn to mud and drag me down.

A story never told a tale never heard........

the imminent kind?
The half way gone? (head or feet first?)
the head just starting to disappear into the jaws (with paws or no paws gripping in desperation?)
Or maybe the final peek aka prey peeking from back of throat at the camera


So yeah whats your favorite of vore picture/pose

also...not to fluff my own fur or nothing but how many of you would adore being nommed by this particular wolfy?

if you enjoyed peices such as
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19063280/! why not get your own lucky Cai commission....and hey if you join now you might even be able to hear my live commentary as I game away while thile in voice chat with him!

30$ full body shaded....heck!...you might even able able to get a picture with yours truly *wink wink*


Edit: heres the link! cause Im a derp!
https://picarto.tv/LuckyCai

8pm show at englington towncenter?....cheepy tuesday?

I need more people to play killing floor 2 with....if you have such or heck even if your a hard core steam gamer give me a shout I need more gaming buddies

thats right this sunday im the big 30.....wow quite the journey.

I made a weasyl account!
https://www.weasyl.com/~jamesbluewolf

feel free to watch me thar!

Yeah this looks fun I'm interested to see what I get.....and how many horrible ones I get :P
http://ask.fm/James_bluewolf

http://www.twitch.tv/james_bluewolf
Come watch Wolfy piss of night hunters and cork some zeds

I have watched it










My regrets are none






*bows and shuffles off stage left*









*sounds of many things being knocked over backstage echoing slowly from left to right*







*sound of backdoor opening...then slamming shut*

Whose goin :P

Hey guys :P
What kinda plot.....genre.....and setting do you guys enjoy reading. What genre or topics would you.be interested in seeing this wolf write.

I know I know I don't write much anymore but I'm trying to rekindle.

saturday.....14 im freaking 29...damn I hate uneven numbers I maybe I should stay 28 another year till im thirty

Update; think I wanna do all one can eat sushi on Saturday

Launches tonight.......who is amongst our head starters....

Server;
Chara name:
Race:
Class;
Job: (settler for me)

Im playing it....on a none Pvp and leveling server!

who plays it

James_bluewolf is my Live...come join me in pissing off people whom can't transition from call of duty.

AND I ATE IT!........

I'm in it o..o