hi i know its been a long time since i have posted art and i just want to say that i dont feel comfortable posting here again until i have finished all the art i owe, i am still here and i do check this place every now and then- i just want to say thank you for all the new watches and everyone who has stuck around

hi! im trying to get back on this horse and ive been good with getting shit done! expect posts again soon!

i have more stuff up on my tumblr MeatDemon

so the file i had where i had all my like info for comms is corrupted and wont open??
like it had all the peoples like refs and emails and whatever on it
my notes are like hell right now so if you are waiting on something please send me a new note

thank u

https://meatdemon.tumblr.com/post/1.....illed-me-i-met

all the info is here, its not likely he will do anything but im pretty shaken up about it

id like to hear your honest opinion on working with me
i wont be replying to any of these as i dont want to clutter the comments

So awhile back alec lost his job and we lost all our income, he has been looking all month and we have nothing. i didnt want to say anything because i thought it would be fine and he would get a new job soon enough but i was fuckin wrong lmao
i have a week til rent is due and i need about 300$ STAT

i am still doing comms but sitting down to draw is so fucking draining idk why
any donations will help!!
Paypal is SqueamishJam[at]Gmail.com

please pass this around if you can, i hate waiting last second like this but i genuinely thought he would be able to get new employment sooner

IF YOU WERE SUBBED TO IT BUT DIDNT RETURN THIS MONTH UR INFO IS GONE SO I CANT DO YOUR WORK
PLEASE NOTE ME

i am a big dumb and i forgot the email i used for it and the password lol, its gonna take awhile to look for it
im just a lil overwhelmed rn with my queue and i keep drawing other shit for myself
then getting stressed
and then drawing things for myself to calm down

endless cycle

okay so i ended up buying sai my DAMN self so i didnt have to use another wonk ass version of the program- that was fun to buy
then after that i got REALLY SAD about a lot of shit i shouldnt be emo about
then i went to PAX SOUTH and had MULTIPLE PANIC ATTACKS and the people i did bump into didnt seem happy to see me at all

i sat at my pc set up at pax for an entire weekend while on and off arguing with my bf the whole time

got to touch the switch tho

the version i got wont let me save things anymore so i cant draw for a bit till i get a more reliable version

kinda. i still have some left but not as much as i would of liked to have because my bf lost his phone somewhere a few nights ago and i NEED to be able to contact him. so i threw my 200 that i had at him and im left with around 45$$$

PROOF for the people who might doubt me

http://sta.sh/024nsbvqmkdi
http://sta.sh/01qnzj329c6z

the reason i have been silent the last few days is because i worked so hard this last week and the fact i have gotten ZERO payoff has put me into a slump
like whats the point of working to save for something if i DONT SEE ANYTHING FROM IT? ( aside from my fucking internet bill or whatever)
it fucking sucks and i wish he would take care of his own belongings
we were at a birthday party last night and he left his new-ish 3ds somewhere in another room
( im not calling these people theives but neither of us knew some of the party boys friends and they could be petty theves who knows??)

either way i dont know if i want to stream for a bit because i feel like nothing i do really matters in the end.

Going to my moms to do laundry, clean my old room, get stuff for my cat, then bring home the cat, bathe it, and then sleep maybe

Idk man

sai doesnt have text things and i need an actual sheet QQ
anyone know how to do it?

http://toyhou.se/70826.ginger/gallery

comes with 22 pieces of art and other sketches ive done

not sure how much id sell her for bc she was my first real baby on here- i just really want a cintiq

a lot of you seemed to like it when i had my mic on and just chatted while drawing, would doing vidya games be intresting to anyone?

like i know how to do it on other websites but FA is weird and everything i try isnt working

help

they wont be done till im done with my current comms but i want art of my new deer babs!

May http://toyhou.se/728606.may

Clementine http://toyhou.se/719163.clementine/gallery

i will only take two for now
i will be offering a single fullbody flat colored drawing! ( im tryin to better line art )

MUTUALS ONLY

http://sta.sh/22b51l2wdwks
#2 is still open!

to buy her go here
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7995701/

if u end up liking her and getting her for urself LET ME KNOW
i love the design and id like to draw her!!

you can get 2 coloured sketches or 1 lined piece

http://sta.sh/22b51l2wdwks
i rlly want #2 or #20

i will draw u 2 fullbody flats tysm

also i found my tablet pen- god bless

not sure what went wrong but the last few days have been hell- im feeling better now but i dont want to push myself too much

Fullbody 10$

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21778653/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21790318/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21797904/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21808279/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21832500/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21856540/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21863582/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21931839/

Chibi 5$
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21666105/

3 outfit ref (including nude) 40$
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21948664/

because i throw away so many sketches i do whenever i draw ( much to the dismay of anyone who watches me draw)
i just got the idea of using patreon as a digital sketchbook? you would get (almost) daily posts of drawings i did that day and whatever doodles as well

at diff teirs you could get sketch pages and other specials idk
you would get full acess with donating 1$ ofc

that sounds like a lot of fun and would make me want to actually save the things i make.

maybe patreon only stream with some raffle freebs*
y/n?


*not rlly freeb but a heavily discounted comms lol

I hate seeing vauge posts about me (even though im a fucking hypocrite)

If you have beef fucking tell me. Dont block me just so you can turn around and talk shit. Tysm

im so thankful that my period pain only happens for the first two days BUT BOY HOWDY SHIT WENT HORRIBLY WRONG
okay not that bad but p bad
so the bf needed an updated licence so we can get the apt ezpz right?

WRONG

he has had 3/4 tickets from 20 fucking 12 that are around 200+ EACH that they never brought up the last time he went to get a new ID????
NOW ID LOVE to have some proof of it but im NOT comfy askng my bf "hey can i post ur traffic tickets online so people dont think im a liar?"
even worse is that if he doesnt start paying for them (he is dont worry) he could go to jail for up to 6 months!!! that freaks me out so much


in short we wont be moving on the 7th as planned and it will either b at the end of this month or the start of the next


but bc im in 0 pain anymore im READY TO DRAW AGAIN
i have 2 more spots open and then i can stream for you all!


**** all of this is from what he told me with his words and whatever he had on his phone , i do not know SHIT about old tickets and arrest or litterally anything about the US laws with traffic shit***

i havent had period cramps make me cry since round may this year and it all just hit me like a truck yesterday

sorry i took a day off without saying anything first