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Screw You, Disney! (SPOILER ALERT!!!*)
Posted 3 years ago*Contains spoilers about Zootopia+ episode, "So You Think You Can Prance"!
So Zootopia+ is finally up. I'm gonna talk about just a one episode, "So You Think You Can Prance". Yup, the one with Clawhauser and Chief Bogo. Exactly about that already famous dancing sequence. It turned out... it was just a Clawhauser's dream! A freaking dream of that dumb fat cheetah! I was like "Of course! That's why Bogo wasn't grumpy anymore in front of Clawhauser". 😕
I didn't expect Disney will confirm Bogo and Clawhauser as gay couple as currently they do everything to avoid issues with homophobic countries but changing everything into a dream? Really?!? 🤦♀️
I love when big companies like Disney, make us hyped for something... only to disappoint us with saying "OK, guys! You can go home now! It was just a dream so that was NEVER happened!!!". Disney once again prooved us they have no balls at all. 😔
Shame on you, Disney! 😡
So Zootopia+ is finally up. I'm gonna talk about just a one episode, "So You Think You Can Prance". Yup, the one with Clawhauser and Chief Bogo. Exactly about that already famous dancing sequence. It turned out... it was just a Clawhauser's dream! A freaking dream of that dumb fat cheetah! I was like "Of course! That's why Bogo wasn't grumpy anymore in front of Clawhauser". 😕
I didn't expect Disney will confirm Bogo and Clawhauser as gay couple as currently they do everything to avoid issues with homophobic countries but changing everything into a dream? Really?!? 🤦♀️
I love when big companies like Disney, make us hyped for something... only to disappoint us with saying "OK, guys! You can go home now! It was just a dream so that was NEVER happened!!!". Disney once again prooved us they have no balls at all. 😔
Shame on you, Disney! 😡
I Have Two Jobs Now!!!
Posted 3 years agoThat's right, guys! 😉 That girl just signed a contract and joined to an important project as an Educator. Until June 30, which means for 8 months, I'm gonna educate groups of people about knowledge about autism. I hope I don't have to remind you I'm autistic (Asperger's Syndrome). Anyway, I'm so proud and excited... 😁
Update!
Posted 3 years agoI've made some important changes on my bio:
It was:
"I have Asperger's Syndrome, the mildest kind of autism."
Now is:
"I have an autism (Asperger's Syndrome). I have an OCD as well." (The stamp has been changed too)
It was:
"In real life I'm not a girl but a guy who's a gay or trans (woman in man's body in my case). Anyway I prefer guys. Jane is just my alter ego. Despite of that I'll appreciate if you tell about me as "she/her"."
Now is:
"I'm a trans woman. I didn't have any form of transition yet. I'm sure I'll never make any surgery 'cause just afraid of them. Thinking about start of taking hormones and blockers."
I believe from now I introduce myself more properly than before.
It was:
"I have Asperger's Syndrome, the mildest kind of autism."
Now is:
"I have an autism (Asperger's Syndrome). I have an OCD as well." (The stamp has been changed too)
It was:
"In real life I'm not a girl but a guy who's a gay or trans (woman in man's body in my case). Anyway I prefer guys. Jane is just my alter ego. Despite of that I'll appreciate if you tell about me as "she/her"."
Now is:
"I'm a trans woman. I didn't have any form of transition yet. I'm sure I'll never make any surgery 'cause just afraid of them. Thinking about start of taking hormones and blockers."
I believe from now I introduce myself more properly than before.
My Friend Is NOT Gay
Posted 3 years agoHey guys! This time I have a very important message for you. Yesterday my friend 
Welcome_to_JollyVille was very upset and wrote this:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10271291/
I decided to talk with him and I learned despite of drawing naked guys with exposed feet... he's straight. The thing he was upset about, is people thinking he's gay just because of his artwork. During that talk with my friend, I realized he doesn't like naked guys in sexual way and he draws them just for fun without being into them.
I think the problem Jolly's talking about, is caused by the fact usually an artist who draws naked men is gay or bi at least, especially here on FA where most of people are gays. It's easy to forget when some guy draws naked guys doesn't have to mean he's gay and he's into guys. Believe me or not but artists can draw naked guys no matter they're straight like my friend in this case or gay. If some woman draws naked women, also doesn't have to mean she's a lesbian, right?
The thing Jolly wants, is not reffering him as gay 'cause it hurts him, not because he minds people being gay but because he's not a one simply. Look at his profile page! He NEVER wrote he's gay, right? Please don't call him "gay" just because of his artwork! I'm asking for that in his and my name as well. Thank you...
Welcome_to_JollyVille was very upset and wrote this:https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10271291/
I decided to talk with him and I learned despite of drawing naked guys with exposed feet... he's straight. The thing he was upset about, is people thinking he's gay just because of his artwork. During that talk with my friend, I realized he doesn't like naked guys in sexual way and he draws them just for fun without being into them.
I think the problem Jolly's talking about, is caused by the fact usually an artist who draws naked men is gay or bi at least, especially here on FA where most of people are gays. It's easy to forget when some guy draws naked guys doesn't have to mean he's gay and he's into guys. Believe me or not but artists can draw naked guys no matter they're straight like my friend in this case or gay. If some woman draws naked women, also doesn't have to mean she's a lesbian, right?
The thing Jolly wants, is not reffering him as gay 'cause it hurts him, not because he minds people being gay but because he's not a one simply. Look at his profile page! He NEVER wrote he's gay, right? Please don't call him "gay" just because of his artwork! I'm asking for that in his and my name as well. Thank you...
FINALLY!!!
Posted 3 years agoJust bought Disney+ and guess which movie have I seen as first... 😉
Yup! Chip 'n Dale: Rescue Rangers (2022) is already checked on my "Must have to watch" list. 😁 It turned out it's a movie for someone like me - a girl who imagines that cartoon characters can live among us IRL!! 😲 It has a Who Framed Roger Rabbit's vibe for sure (Roger Rabbit himself got his cameo as well of course 😉)!
The movie itself doesn't seem to break the fourth wall BUT... First, the fact the place of action is nowhere but... IRL but with cartoon and other fictional characters. Second, Disney (even though it hasn't been told directly) is a corporation which was hiring Chip, Dale, Monty, Gadget and Zipper as actors. Finally, existance of characters outside Disney like those ones from WB, DreamWorks, Nickelodeon, etc. DAMN! 😮
For me, the most shocking moment is realizing there are also cameos from... 13+ and even 18+ cartoons like Butt-Head (Yup, that one from Beavis & Butt-Head) or some guy from... South Park. Get it? Characters from 18+ cartoons in PG rated Disney movie!!! 😲 I know nothing 18+ happened in the movie but it doesn't change the fact characters I just mentioned about, belong to not so family friendly franchises. 😜
I'm mind blown... 🤯
Yup! Chip 'n Dale: Rescue Rangers (2022) is already checked on my "Must have to watch" list. 😁 It turned out it's a movie for someone like me - a girl who imagines that cartoon characters can live among us IRL!! 😲 It has a Who Framed Roger Rabbit's vibe for sure (Roger Rabbit himself got his cameo as well of course 😉)!
The movie itself doesn't seem to break the fourth wall BUT... First, the fact the place of action is nowhere but... IRL but with cartoon and other fictional characters. Second, Disney (even though it hasn't been told directly) is a corporation which was hiring Chip, Dale, Monty, Gadget and Zipper as actors. Finally, existance of characters outside Disney like those ones from WB, DreamWorks, Nickelodeon, etc. DAMN! 😮
For me, the most shocking moment is realizing there are also cameos from... 13+ and even 18+ cartoons like Butt-Head (Yup, that one from Beavis & Butt-Head) or some guy from... South Park. Get it? Characters from 18+ cartoons in PG rated Disney movie!!! 😲 I know nothing 18+ happened in the movie but it doesn't change the fact characters I just mentioned about, belong to not so family friendly franchises. 😜
I'm mind blown... 🤯
OMFG! Disney Really Did This!
Posted 3 years agoApparently Disney "unintentionally" showed Paramount a middle finger with using their old design of Sonic the Hedgehog in the recent Disney+ movie Chip 'n Dale: Rescue Rangers. The same one which was needed to be fixed as it's became a one big fail! Thanks to Disney, at least in Sonic's case it's definitely more than just internet never forgets. 😛 I really hope they actually asked Paramount for something like that and no sue is gonna be on the horizon. 😉
If anything, I havent't watched Chip 'n Dale: Rescue Rangers yet as my country like the other ones from Central and Eastern Europe (except Russia from some obvious reason I'm not gonna talk about here), is gonna get an access to Disney+ with June 14 (FINALLY!) so I need NO SPOILERS about the movie, OK?
If anything, I havent't watched Chip 'n Dale: Rescue Rangers yet as my country like the other ones from Central and Eastern Europe (except Russia from some obvious reason I'm not gonna talk about here), is gonna get an access to Disney+ with June 14 (FINALLY!) so I need NO SPOILERS about the movie, OK?
I'm Back!!!
Posted 3 years agoI'm back, guys! Did you miss me?
Out For a Week
Posted 3 years agoHey guys! 👋
Tomorrow I'm gonna travel to Egypt with my mom and her friends and I'll be back on April 16. I'll be less active if not active at all for this time.
See ya... 😉
Tomorrow I'm gonna travel to Egypt with my mom and her friends and I'll be back on April 16. I'll be less active if not active at all for this time.
See ya... 😉
I Can't Be Silent Anymore!
Posted 3 years agoHey there, guys...
I think I just have to tell you how shitty the current situation is, thanks to some asshole who rules Russia but it's gonna be from the perspective of person who lives in a country which is a direct neighbour of another one which has been attacked.
Some of you may don't know about it but I'm Pole which means Ukraine is my eastern neighbour. Currently my country's getting more and more and more refugees from Ukraine and we do all we can to make those poor people safe. I work in Starbucks at the center of the country's capital. Before the war in Ukraine has been started, at least half clients were foreigners. Now a half of clients are refugees from Ukraine exactly. It gives me a mixed feelings 'cause from one hand I'm so glad they're already safe but from the other hand it reminds me how tragic the situation is in their home country. I can't even imagine what if those people will have nowhere to go back...
Another consequences my country has to deal with now, is things like its currency (PLN) is the weakest in its own history. In my case it means commissions I usually buy in USD, are more expensive. Before the war 1$ was for 3,9. Now is for 4,5 but just 3 days ago it was even for 4,7. Not even to mention things in my country become more and more expensive as well... but you know what? I just FUCK it! I'm glad I'm still alive! I'm glad I don't have to run out from my home country 'cause some Russian soldier after brainwash which turned him into brainless and heartless machine to kill and doesn't even know who actually sent him, can kill me no matter am I a man, woman or even kid! People from Ukraine live in such a nightmare, not from my country... and our country, like many countries on the world, helps them, especially they're our eastern neighbours.
Please don't worry about me! In opposite to Ukraine, my country is in NATO and EU so theoretically, at least for now, nothing bad's gonna happen to me and its other citizens. I'm gonna worry only when things are worse, not long before they're worse. I believe for an actual WWIII is still a far way...
Take care of course!
I think I just have to tell you how shitty the current situation is, thanks to some asshole who rules Russia but it's gonna be from the perspective of person who lives in a country which is a direct neighbour of another one which has been attacked.
Some of you may don't know about it but I'm Pole which means Ukraine is my eastern neighbour. Currently my country's getting more and more and more refugees from Ukraine and we do all we can to make those poor people safe. I work in Starbucks at the center of the country's capital. Before the war in Ukraine has been started, at least half clients were foreigners. Now a half of clients are refugees from Ukraine exactly. It gives me a mixed feelings 'cause from one hand I'm so glad they're already safe but from the other hand it reminds me how tragic the situation is in their home country. I can't even imagine what if those people will have nowhere to go back...
Another consequences my country has to deal with now, is things like its currency (PLN) is the weakest in its own history. In my case it means commissions I usually buy in USD, are more expensive. Before the war 1$ was for 3,9. Now is for 4,5 but just 3 days ago it was even for 4,7. Not even to mention things in my country become more and more expensive as well... but you know what? I just FUCK it! I'm glad I'm still alive! I'm glad I don't have to run out from my home country 'cause some Russian soldier after brainwash which turned him into brainless and heartless machine to kill and doesn't even know who actually sent him, can kill me no matter am I a man, woman or even kid! People from Ukraine live in such a nightmare, not from my country... and our country, like many countries on the world, helps them, especially they're our eastern neighbours.
Please don't worry about me! In opposite to Ukraine, my country is in NATO and EU so theoretically, at least for now, nothing bad's gonna happen to me and its other citizens. I'm gonna worry only when things are worse, not long before they're worse. I believe for an actual WWIII is still a far way...
Take care of course!
The Poll on DA Is Ended (Thank You All)!
Posted 4 years agoHere are the results of the recent poll. I'm reminding I asked you about the very first comic with my new OC:
19 votes
68% - Yes
32% - No
I eventually decided to upload this comic (it's here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45459439/). Another thing which helped me to make up such a decision, is every time I was checking the poll, I saw more "Yes" votes.
Thank you everybody who gave me a vote, no matter was it for "Yes" or for "No". See ya! 👋
19 votes
68% - Yes
32% - No
I eventually decided to upload this comic (it's here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45459439/). Another thing which helped me to make up such a decision, is every time I was checking the poll, I saw more "Yes" votes.
Thank you everybody who gave me a vote, no matter was it for "Yes" or for "No". See ya! 👋
The Poll on DA Is Gonna Be Ended Soon...
Posted 4 years agoThe poll I talked about here (https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10100937/) is gonna be ended in some hours. Until now I've got only 15 votes so I would be glad if I had received more of them!
New Poll on DA
Posted 4 years agoHey guys!
I have a question to you. Please go here:
https://www.deviantart.com/janemj/p.....429881-8094311
Thank you... ^^
I have a question to you. Please go here:
https://www.deviantart.com/janemj/p.....429881-8094311
Thank you... ^^
Summary
Posted 4 years agoSo 2021 passed away. If about me, I feel like that year gave me more than took. First of all - new job in Starbucks since June. Second, I became a self advocate and advocate of people with ASD at least in my country, thanks to project of a local foundation which helps people like me in my country since 1990. And finally...
I've never told you about it here but after I quit my job at SOME cafe for people with autism in April 26 2018 (more details here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8711972/), in the same year I had to give evidence against my ex-boss as a witness on police 'cause that woman got into serious trouble with some national organization she asked for money for her cafe. Until yesterday I was sure that case has been redeemed but I was wrong. Just yesterday I've got a letter which says on March 16 I have to give evidence against that woman again but this time on court. I'm sure she's gonna lose this case like she already lost two other ones against her (I just learned about that yesterday as well). My only question is will she finally get into jail...?
Anyway, for me 2021 passed away almost as fast as that freaking 2020. Also, the pandemic is still on, thanks to at least a half people on the whole world. Yes, I'm talking about those damn anti-vaxxers. If not them, today the pandemic would be already gone. Instead, we still have to deal with this shit. Also, my country is a one of those ones which deals with the pandemic the worst. I'm sick and tired of telling how stupid are politicians from the current goverment which say about vaccination but at the same time they do everything to not make anti-vaxxers angry with them 'cause their political support is more important than people's lives, right? Just great! 😔
Happy New Year 2022 AKA The Year of the Tiger!!! 😁 I really hope the last year with this coronamess... 😉
I've never told you about it here but after I quit my job at SOME cafe for people with autism in April 26 2018 (more details here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8711972/), in the same year I had to give evidence against my ex-boss as a witness on police 'cause that woman got into serious trouble with some national organization she asked for money for her cafe. Until yesterday I was sure that case has been redeemed but I was wrong. Just yesterday I've got a letter which says on March 16 I have to give evidence against that woman again but this time on court. I'm sure she's gonna lose this case like she already lost two other ones against her (I just learned about that yesterday as well). My only question is will she finally get into jail...?
Anyway, for me 2021 passed away almost as fast as that freaking 2020. Also, the pandemic is still on, thanks to at least a half people on the whole world. Yes, I'm talking about those damn anti-vaxxers. If not them, today the pandemic would be already gone. Instead, we still have to deal with this shit. Also, my country is a one of those ones which deals with the pandemic the worst. I'm sick and tired of telling how stupid are politicians from the current goverment which say about vaccination but at the same time they do everything to not make anti-vaxxers angry with them 'cause their political support is more important than people's lives, right? Just great! 😔
Happy New Year 2022 AKA The Year of the Tiger!!! 😁 I really hope the last year with this coronamess... 😉
Happy Holidays!!!
Posted 4 years agoHi there!
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas to everyone! 🎅
Until January 2 I have no job. That's right, guys! 😉 I'm on a leave now. My current job in Starbucks is wonderful and I really love it but it's very nice I can be free for such a period like this one. I kinda feel like I'm a kid again. 😁
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas to everyone! 🎅
Until January 2 I have no job. That's right, guys! 😉 I'm on a leave now. My current job in Starbucks is wonderful and I really love it but it's very nice I can be free for such a period like this one. I kinda feel like I'm a kid again. 😁
Another Canine Victim in the Horizon!
Posted 4 years agoDecemebr 14 2021. The very first trailer of DreamWorks' brand new movie - The Bad Guys is up... and with this moment Nick Wilde, Legoshi, Shirou Ogami, etc. realized they've got a new rival if about hot canines from mainstream animations... 😲
I've already known about the Australian book series called The Bad Guys written by Aaron Blabey, thanks to my friend, thosekidsnextdoor101 just a short moment before the same guy informed me DreamWorks is gonna make an movie adaptation of it. Let's just face it! The studio which made such a cartoon hits like Shrek and Madagascar, changed almost everything! The characters' desing is only a one of changes we can see in the trailer. The titular Bad Guys got something like a backstory which the original book series doesn't have, Legs who's a tarantula guy, has been replaced by his female version known as Miss Tarantula (I really wanna believe this change has nothing in common with PC tendences Hollywood suffers recently 😮) and now the main characters are the only anthro ones as DreamWorks decided to add humans for some reason.
At least some characters, mainly Mr. Wolf of course, are looking much more sexy than in the original book series (if anybody in the book can be considered as sexy). Yup, sexy 'cause damn! Now Mr. Wolf is a very hot guy! 😲 ❤️ And yet, we're still talking about "a typical PG rated family cartoon". It's like a creating Beast from Beauty and the Beast exactly like Disney did in 1991 but today, after furries officialy announced him as a sexy character. Seriously! I really won't believe guys from DreamWorks didn't realize they were creating their version of Mr. Wolf as sexy! 😲 In the other words, sexualization of anthro characters (also those male ones) is still in a very good condition.
Considering up a whole this "mess" with Mr. Wolf's character, bunch of Rule 34 art with him on sites like this one for example, was only a matter of time. "Good boy" line said by some random granny is already a viral when it comes to fanarts with him so our wolfie got a reputation of a badass who's damn adorable at the same time every time he hears "Good boy" no matter who said that. The fact the trailer let us see which underwear this guy wears (of course, it had to be the most cliched type of underwear in the whole filmography), thanks to some... wardrobe malfunction which also killed his team's evil plan of robbery, made things only better (I mean for us, not for Mr. Wolf 😛).
If not the fact Zootopia had its premiere almost 6 years ago, maybe I would be even able to call The Bad Guys as DreamWorks' reply on Disney's movie which pleased furries so much. Besides, the studio was known in the past from showing a middle thinger to its rival (at this point, we have to remind original creators of DreamWorks are Disney's ex-workers who were enough of their previous employer).
The movie seems to have its premiere on the very next year (if some coronavirus won't change it of course)...
I've already known about the Australian book series called The Bad Guys written by Aaron Blabey, thanks to my friend, thosekidsnextdoor101 just a short moment before the same guy informed me DreamWorks is gonna make an movie adaptation of it. Let's just face it! The studio which made such a cartoon hits like Shrek and Madagascar, changed almost everything! The characters' desing is only a one of changes we can see in the trailer. The titular Bad Guys got something like a backstory which the original book series doesn't have, Legs who's a tarantula guy, has been replaced by his female version known as Miss Tarantula (I really wanna believe this change has nothing in common with PC tendences Hollywood suffers recently 😮) and now the main characters are the only anthro ones as DreamWorks decided to add humans for some reason.
At least some characters, mainly Mr. Wolf of course, are looking much more sexy than in the original book series (if anybody in the book can be considered as sexy). Yup, sexy 'cause damn! Now Mr. Wolf is a very hot guy! 😲 ❤️ And yet, we're still talking about "a typical PG rated family cartoon". It's like a creating Beast from Beauty and the Beast exactly like Disney did in 1991 but today, after furries officialy announced him as a sexy character. Seriously! I really won't believe guys from DreamWorks didn't realize they were creating their version of Mr. Wolf as sexy! 😲 In the other words, sexualization of anthro characters (also those male ones) is still in a very good condition.
Considering up a whole this "mess" with Mr. Wolf's character, bunch of Rule 34 art with him on sites like this one for example, was only a matter of time. "Good boy" line said by some random granny is already a viral when it comes to fanarts with him so our wolfie got a reputation of a badass who's damn adorable at the same time every time he hears "Good boy" no matter who said that. The fact the trailer let us see which underwear this guy wears (of course, it had to be the most cliched type of underwear in the whole filmography), thanks to some... wardrobe malfunction which also killed his team's evil plan of robbery, made things only better (I mean for us, not for Mr. Wolf 😛).
If not the fact Zootopia had its premiere almost 6 years ago, maybe I would be even able to call The Bad Guys as DreamWorks' reply on Disney's movie which pleased furries so much. Besides, the studio was known in the past from showing a middle thinger to its rival (at this point, we have to remind original creators of DreamWorks are Disney's ex-workers who were enough of their previous employer).
The movie seems to have its premiere on the very next year (if some coronavirus won't change it of course)...
My Right Ear's Back to Normal!
Posted 4 years agoHey guys!
It's over! The visit at doctor's helped me as I expected so I'm back to normal.
It's over! The visit at doctor's helped me as I expected so I'm back to normal.
My Right Ear (UPDATE!)
Posted 4 years agoI just got a term of my visit at doctor's. It's November 18. That's right! Only week and there's a chance after this my right ear will back to normal.
Cross your fingers, guys!
Cross your fingers, guys!
My Right Ear Stopped Working
Posted 4 years agoHey guys! No good news this time... 🙁
From last weekend I almost can't hear with my right ear and it's a damn terrible feeling. With my OCD (yes, I have OCD as well) it's a pretty disastrous mix. 😔 Currently I'm getting a doctor. If I know the term of my visit, I'll let you know.
If I don't upload anything here, it's because of problems with my right ear which make me feel uncomfortable enough to make me unable to focus on anything. Thank you for understanding... 🥰
From last weekend I almost can't hear with my right ear and it's a damn terrible feeling. With my OCD (yes, I have OCD as well) it's a pretty disastrous mix. 😔 Currently I'm getting a doctor. If I know the term of my visit, I'll let you know.
If I don't upload anything here, it's because of problems with my right ear which make me feel uncomfortable enough to make me unable to focus on anything. Thank you for understanding... 🥰
Why My Current Icon Looks So Weird
Posted 4 years agoHello everybody! 🙂
I believe the most of you (if not everybody of course) noticed recently my icon is nothing but this sentence written with a red font:
"Can't use a female character here 'cause people think I'm a guy and that character is my crush."
Why does my icon look like this and why this sentence? Let me explain...
For long time, I used icons with women and female characters like Cindy Crawford, Madonna, Princess Aurora, Marilyn Monroe, etc. I believed in my naivety they'll represent my gender (a female one in my case). However, I realized I was wrong. I noticed in most cases guys use a female characters as their icons and girls do the opposite (they use a male characters as their icons). Some guy who (of course!) has a female character as his icon, confirmed that with telling me that "guys have cute girls as profile pictures, girls have guys and kids have sonic or something edgy". I wasn't happy about it... 🙁
Why does it matter me so much? I have written this in my profile page but for someone who skipped reading this for some reason, I'm gonna tell I'm a trans which means I'm a girl in guy's body. However, in real life I didn't make any gender correction, you know, no surgeries, no even hormones... Nothing! In real life I'm a guy who's a gay. I also live in a country I need to hide my true identity 'cause Poland is the most homophobic and transphobic country in UE and if about the whole Europe, only Russia is worse. 🙁 Sites like DA and FA (especially FA I believe) are the only place I can be truly myself and in this case I mean being a straight woman. I'm so happy because of that and I can't be more thankful for such a luck. 🥲
I hope I explained my weird icon the best I could...
I believe the most of you (if not everybody of course) noticed recently my icon is nothing but this sentence written with a red font:
"Can't use a female character here 'cause people think I'm a guy and that character is my crush."
Why does my icon look like this and why this sentence? Let me explain...
For long time, I used icons with women and female characters like Cindy Crawford, Madonna, Princess Aurora, Marilyn Monroe, etc. I believed in my naivety they'll represent my gender (a female one in my case). However, I realized I was wrong. I noticed in most cases guys use a female characters as their icons and girls do the opposite (they use a male characters as their icons). Some guy who (of course!) has a female character as his icon, confirmed that with telling me that "guys have cute girls as profile pictures, girls have guys and kids have sonic or something edgy". I wasn't happy about it... 🙁
Why does it matter me so much? I have written this in my profile page but for someone who skipped reading this for some reason, I'm gonna tell I'm a trans which means I'm a girl in guy's body. However, in real life I didn't make any gender correction, you know, no surgeries, no even hormones... Nothing! In real life I'm a guy who's a gay. I also live in a country I need to hide my true identity 'cause Poland is the most homophobic and transphobic country in UE and if about the whole Europe, only Russia is worse. 🙁 Sites like DA and FA (especially FA I believe) are the only place I can be truly myself and in this case I mean being a straight woman. I'm so happy because of that and I can't be more thankful for such a luck. 🥲
I hope I explained my weird icon the best I could...
I Stay!
Posted 4 years agoHi, guys!
With August 31 I'll end my three month trial period at Starbucks but now I can tell you my contract's gonna be extended. I would lie if I had said I didn't expect that but I'm so happy I have no words to describe that. 😄
Thank you all for cheering and believing in me... 😊
With August 31 I'll end my three month trial period at Starbucks but now I can tell you my contract's gonna be extended. I would lie if I had said I didn't expect that but I'm so happy I have no words to describe that. 😄
Thank you all for cheering and believing in me... 😊
These Two Deserve Each Other
Posted 4 years agoHey guys! Today I'm gonna talk about two artists - 
dreamandnightmare and 
antidev. They're friends to each other and... both of them blocked me. :/ If anything, I'm totally fine with being blocked by these two but I'm not fine with the way they did that and this what I'm gonna talk about here...
These guys I'm talking here, are awesome as artists and there's no doubt about that. Unfortuantely, they're not so awesome as people, well, at least in my opinion after how did they treat me. Like I said on the beginning if they want me being blocked by them, I'm totally fine with that. It's their choice after all... but how did it look you may ask. Well, I'll start from the guy who blocked me as last - Dream&Nightmare. I only asked him about his friend who blocked me as well and no, not about unblocking me by him but just about him and he blocked me with no word. It's really concerning 'cause such a behavior suggests me I did something wrong but at the same time I don't feel like I did something wrong to him but how the hell am I able to know that if he did gave me no reason why did he this to me. He could just write me something like "Sorry. I just don't wanna talk with you anymore" before he blocked me. Was it so hard to him to type this?!?
Ironically, he blocked me after asking him about his friend I'm talking about here as well, Anti_dev who blocked me in exactly the same way - with saying no word to me about why's he doing that. Again! I don't think I did something wrong to him but if he just didn't want to talk with me (I believe this was the real reason), he could just write me about it before he blocked me.
I believe some of you, especially someone who's not a friend of mine, may think "Calm down, girl! Just leave these two alone! They have a right to block you without telling you any reason as everybody can block anybody whatever the reason is". Well, I'm autistic (in the past I used to refer myself as a person with Asperger's Syndrome) and I just prefer to be sure did I something wrong to person who blocked me or he just don't wanna talk with me anymore and that's all. People with autism including me suffer more anxiety than the rest of people if they're not sure did they something wrong to someone else or not and if about my adventure with DA and FA, many people I meet are autistic too so I think I'm talking about it for the reason. I believe my life would be much easier if people be this way in such situation, not like Dream&Nightmare and Anti_dev. If they're friends with each other, good to them. I just wish them treating other people, especially those ones like me in better way than they currently do.
dreamandnightmare and 
antidev. They're friends to each other and... both of them blocked me. :/ If anything, I'm totally fine with being blocked by these two but I'm not fine with the way they did that and this what I'm gonna talk about here...These guys I'm talking here, are awesome as artists and there's no doubt about that. Unfortuantely, they're not so awesome as people, well, at least in my opinion after how did they treat me. Like I said on the beginning if they want me being blocked by them, I'm totally fine with that. It's their choice after all... but how did it look you may ask. Well, I'll start from the guy who blocked me as last - Dream&Nightmare. I only asked him about his friend who blocked me as well and no, not about unblocking me by him but just about him and he blocked me with no word. It's really concerning 'cause such a behavior suggests me I did something wrong but at the same time I don't feel like I did something wrong to him but how the hell am I able to know that if he did gave me no reason why did he this to me. He could just write me something like "Sorry. I just don't wanna talk with you anymore" before he blocked me. Was it so hard to him to type this?!?
Ironically, he blocked me after asking him about his friend I'm talking about here as well, Anti_dev who blocked me in exactly the same way - with saying no word to me about why's he doing that. Again! I don't think I did something wrong to him but if he just didn't want to talk with me (I believe this was the real reason), he could just write me about it before he blocked me.
I believe some of you, especially someone who's not a friend of mine, may think "Calm down, girl! Just leave these two alone! They have a right to block you without telling you any reason as everybody can block anybody whatever the reason is". Well, I'm autistic (in the past I used to refer myself as a person with Asperger's Syndrome) and I just prefer to be sure did I something wrong to person who blocked me or he just don't wanna talk with me anymore and that's all. People with autism including me suffer more anxiety than the rest of people if they're not sure did they something wrong to someone else or not and if about my adventure with DA and FA, many people I meet are autistic too so I think I'm talking about it for the reason. I believe my life would be much easier if people be this way in such situation, not like Dream&Nightmare and Anti_dev. If they're friends with each other, good to them. I just wish them treating other people, especially those ones like me in better way than they currently do.
I Have a Feeling I've Been Ignored
Posted 4 years agoTwo days ago I wrote this: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9912380/. I can't believe nobody didn't want to help me. I thought my meaning is bigger here but seems like I was wrong... *sigh*
Patreon? Ko-fi? Whatever?
Posted 4 years agoHey, guys!
I was thinking about this some time ago but recent event which caused me lost 90 bucks (I talk about it on my two previous journals) made me to finally ask you can I have a Patreon or Ko-fi.
I see almost every professional artist on DA and FA has a Patreon. However, in my case is a problem 'cause... I'm not an artist. I'm not crazy enough to use commissions I bought from other artists as my potential Patreon Rewards as I realize it would totally unfair to them. Not even have to mention I use my money for buying commissions for myself so using them as a Patreon Rewards for you would be almost like buying your commissions for my own money and I definitely don't wanna do that. I don't know how do things look with Ko-fi. Can I have it at least or I should forget about it like about a Patreon?
I was thinking about this some time ago but recent event which caused me lost 90 bucks (I talk about it on my two previous journals) made me to finally ask you can I have a Patreon or Ko-fi.
I see almost every professional artist on DA and FA has a Patreon. However, in my case is a problem 'cause... I'm not an artist. I'm not crazy enough to use commissions I bought from other artists as my potential Patreon Rewards as I realize it would totally unfair to them. Not even have to mention I use my money for buying commissions for myself so using them as a Patreon Rewards for you would be almost like buying your commissions for my own money and I definitely don't wanna do that. I don't know how do things look with Ko-fi. Can I have it at least or I should forget about it like about a Patreon?
Some Explanations...
Posted 4 years agoI'm writing this 'cause I actually didn't say everything on my problem with (https://www.deviantart.com/asakuism) yet. Yesterday I wrote this journal entry (https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9909682/ - I very recommend to read this one as first for having the context). Now I'm gonna explain what went wrong step by step...
After two commissions I asked for another comic at the artist and he agreed but on the next day he suddenly said this:
"I'm sorry but upon closer consideration I have decided that I can't accept this commission, the reason being, a naked guy chasing down a woman may be taken out of context and can ,consequently, get me into troubles with certain kind of people. I could do it if it were in a sexual context but I fear that's not the case."
I was trying to find a solution. First, I asked him:
"If you're so afraid about that, we can make this comic as private and no of us will upload it. Will it be OK then?"
...but he said:
"I'm sorry but this is not up to discussion, if you have another idea Im happy to review it and see if I'm capable of drawing it, but if really want this one Im sorry but I cant draw it"
Then I said this:
"I need your help 'cause now I don't know what can I ask you for and what I can't. I also need to avoid something and in my case is another dnial."
He said:
"You´re making this bigger than it is, I cant help you with that"
Isn't that nice of him how "cooperative" he is? :/
Finally, I asked him for "fixing" the story of my comic so he could do that without any problem. He said:
"Sure, Ill send a sketch later"
...only to say this later:
"Sorry, I don´t think I can fix it, I thought I could do it by changin just a panel and some dialog but I was wrong, do you have another idea that you think I can draw?"
So I gave him another idea but after that he said this:
"I see nothing wrong there but I still dont think I can draw it, sorry most likely its just my problem I cant seem to get motivated to draw those characters anymore.
I cant accept to draw it, sorry, but good luck finding somebody else it seems you already are doing that anyway"
The message was clear - I'll never buy anything at him anymore. I was so mad I've decided to ask him for a refund of my money for the previous commissions (90$) with an explanation I can't even look at his works he's done for me so I don't need them anymore if he's gonna stop doing anything I ask him for. I knew he's not gonna refund me anything but his reaction was quite painful to me:
"Thats not how it works, I could refund you if you paid for something and for some reason I wasnt able to complete the job but so far I have finished all what you paid me for, if you think Im being unreasonable jusk ask any other artist or friend, Im pretty sure they'll side with me on this. Im really sorry but if you keep being this unreasonable I'll have to ban you from my commissions, expose you as an ill intentioned client and report you as a thief, because you're essentially suggesting that you are going to take money from me."
If he had been a nice guy, would he say such a cruel things to me like this? Anyway, I said I just wanted to show him how mad I am on him 'cause I feel lied by him, especially he's the one he started this kind of relationship as he replied on my announcement. He stayed totally insensitive on my feelings and decided to block me with saying how terrible client I am.
Later, I discovered these tweets on his Twitter:
https://twitter.com/asaku_05/status.....51701352882188
https://twitter.com/asaku_05/status.....51524500049931
See? They're all about me! I don't care he didn't use my name there. Just imagine how mad was I after reading all of these. He's definitely proud of how did he treat me. Also, his words give us no doubt about his policy. He can deny every commission, even those ones which theoretically don't brake his commissions' terms in any way like in my case for example. Thanks to that, I have no doubt he's definitely not the artist I was seeking for so why the hell did he reply on my announcement? To lie me? To make me disappointed? Did he think he can make just 2-3 commissions and then I'll just leave him alone? Damn! I thought I've written "I Seek for Artists", not "I Seek for Artists Who Are Douchebags".
I realize some of people are gonna hate me after reading this but I'm not writing this 'casue I'm a bitch who say only bad things about people. For example, recently I was talking with another artist who replied on my announcement and that one is really nice. A one really wanted to work for me but unfortunately, it turned out he's definitely too expensive for me. However, after my explanation I wrote on my announcement "One page (6 panels) in color can cost 80-100 bucks", that artist had no problem with that (I mean a one didn't feel disappointed by the fact I'm not able to buy anything at a one). See? Everything depends on which people we meet.
I'm still mad. I've wasted damn 90 bucks on that bastard. Saying this I mean I've removed his commissions from my PC and I'm gonna order the same ones but at someone else. I know it's almost like buying a thing but in double price but he left me no choice. I don't wanna know him anymore! I wanna pretend I've never met him before!
That guy I'm talking here, said to me "If you think Im being unreasonable jusk ask any other artist or friend, Im pretty sure they'll side with me on this". So I'm asking you - Are you with me or with him?
After two commissions I asked for another comic at the artist and he agreed but on the next day he suddenly said this:
"I'm sorry but upon closer consideration I have decided that I can't accept this commission, the reason being, a naked guy chasing down a woman may be taken out of context and can ,consequently, get me into troubles with certain kind of people. I could do it if it were in a sexual context but I fear that's not the case."
I was trying to find a solution. First, I asked him:
"If you're so afraid about that, we can make this comic as private and no of us will upload it. Will it be OK then?"
...but he said:
"I'm sorry but this is not up to discussion, if you have another idea Im happy to review it and see if I'm capable of drawing it, but if really want this one Im sorry but I cant draw it"
Then I said this:
"I need your help 'cause now I don't know what can I ask you for and what I can't. I also need to avoid something and in my case is another dnial."
He said:
"You´re making this bigger than it is, I cant help you with that"
Isn't that nice of him how "cooperative" he is? :/
Finally, I asked him for "fixing" the story of my comic so he could do that without any problem. He said:
"Sure, Ill send a sketch later"
...only to say this later:
"Sorry, I don´t think I can fix it, I thought I could do it by changin just a panel and some dialog but I was wrong, do you have another idea that you think I can draw?"
So I gave him another idea but after that he said this:
"I see nothing wrong there but I still dont think I can draw it, sorry most likely its just my problem I cant seem to get motivated to draw those characters anymore.
I cant accept to draw it, sorry, but good luck finding somebody else it seems you already are doing that anyway"
The message was clear - I'll never buy anything at him anymore. I was so mad I've decided to ask him for a refund of my money for the previous commissions (90$) with an explanation I can't even look at his works he's done for me so I don't need them anymore if he's gonna stop doing anything I ask him for. I knew he's not gonna refund me anything but his reaction was quite painful to me:
"Thats not how it works, I could refund you if you paid for something and for some reason I wasnt able to complete the job but so far I have finished all what you paid me for, if you think Im being unreasonable jusk ask any other artist or friend, Im pretty sure they'll side with me on this. Im really sorry but if you keep being this unreasonable I'll have to ban you from my commissions, expose you as an ill intentioned client and report you as a thief, because you're essentially suggesting that you are going to take money from me."
If he had been a nice guy, would he say such a cruel things to me like this? Anyway, I said I just wanted to show him how mad I am on him 'cause I feel lied by him, especially he's the one he started this kind of relationship as he replied on my announcement. He stayed totally insensitive on my feelings and decided to block me with saying how terrible client I am.
Later, I discovered these tweets on his Twitter:
https://twitter.com/asaku_05/status.....51701352882188
https://twitter.com/asaku_05/status.....51524500049931
See? They're all about me! I don't care he didn't use my name there. Just imagine how mad was I after reading all of these. He's definitely proud of how did he treat me. Also, his words give us no doubt about his policy. He can deny every commission, even those ones which theoretically don't brake his commissions' terms in any way like in my case for example. Thanks to that, I have no doubt he's definitely not the artist I was seeking for so why the hell did he reply on my announcement? To lie me? To make me disappointed? Did he think he can make just 2-3 commissions and then I'll just leave him alone? Damn! I thought I've written "I Seek for Artists", not "I Seek for Artists Who Are Douchebags".
I realize some of people are gonna hate me after reading this but I'm not writing this 'casue I'm a bitch who say only bad things about people. For example, recently I was talking with another artist who replied on my announcement and that one is really nice. A one really wanted to work for me but unfortunately, it turned out he's definitely too expensive for me. However, after my explanation I wrote on my announcement "One page (6 panels) in color can cost 80-100 bucks", that artist had no problem with that (I mean a one didn't feel disappointed by the fact I'm not able to buy anything at a one). See? Everything depends on which people we meet.
I'm still mad. I've wasted damn 90 bucks on that bastard. Saying this I mean I've removed his commissions from my PC and I'm gonna order the same ones but at someone else. I know it's almost like buying a thing but in double price but he left me no choice. I don't wanna know him anymore! I wanna pretend I've never met him before!
That guy I'm talking here, said to me "If you think Im being unreasonable jusk ask any other artist or friend, Im pretty sure they'll side with me on this". So I'm asking you - Are you with me or with him?
I've Been Lied by an Artist (MY WARNING!)
Posted 4 years agoI haven't been so upset for a long time like now! 😡 Everything thanks to this artist from DA (https://www.deviantart.com/asakuism). Let's start from the beginning...
Recently I wrote this journal (https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9878717/) where I'm telling about seeking for an artists. A couple of them actually replied on my announcment and the artist I'm gonna talk about, is a one of them. However, after two commissions he suddenly started to decline my orders and he didn't give me any reason for doing that. When I tried to ask him for something else he said this:
"I see nothing wrong there but I still dont think I can draw it, sorry most likely its just my problem I cant seem to get motivated to draw those characters anymore.
I cant accept to draw it, sorry, but good luck finding somebody else it seems you already are doing that anyway"
See? A guy who offered me his services on his own, I mean he contacted me as first, suddenly's throwing directly into my face such a shit like "Find somebody else". WTF?!? 🤬 Also, he admitted by himself it's "just his problem" and he has no motivation. So why the hell did he reply on my announcment?
It's not over yet! I was already prepared I'm gonna resing from his services but... the bastard was first:
"At this point it doesnt matter, you been a terrible client and I refuse to work with you anymore, Im blocking and banning you from my commission, wish you good luck finding somebody else to draw for you"
So according to the guy who offered himself on my own, suddenly I'm a "terrible client" only because I have some expectations, right? At least, thanks to him, now I'm able to tell you why's seeking for an artists is such a pain in the ass in my case.
Fortunately, other artists replied me on my announcement as well ("...good luck finding somebody else it seems you already are doing that anyway"). Anyway, I'm seek and tired I've just met another emo who probably suffers depression which makes him not available of doing things like commissions for example. I mean I've already met a one in the past. Some girl who always said "Today/tommorrow/very soon I'll send you a WIP" on the day of giving her and order only to keep me waiting forever. Of course she's an emo who suffers depression as well. Of course, I've been blocked by her too but I don't regret it as I prefer to avoid such a people who actually can't work for me and anybody because of their illness.
Unfortunately, now I've met an another artist who's probably dealing the same shit like that girl I just mentioned about. As a human if he actually suffers depression, I'm really sorry but as a potential client I have a right to expect something from the person who claims a one's able to do commissions. If a one actually isn't able to do, then should stop offering commissions instead of making a mess like that guy did. At the same time he's too confident ("I dont need a logical reason to deny a commission").
If anything, I can prove you it's not like something's wrong with him. I already know also those artists who are really awesome not just as an artists but also as people. Otherwise my gallery wouldn't look like it looks now.
I'm writing this also to warn you. Better avoid that artist I'm talking here. I don't need more people disappointed by such a douche... 🙁
Recently I wrote this journal (https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9878717/) where I'm telling about seeking for an artists. A couple of them actually replied on my announcment and the artist I'm gonna talk about, is a one of them. However, after two commissions he suddenly started to decline my orders and he didn't give me any reason for doing that. When I tried to ask him for something else he said this:
"I see nothing wrong there but I still dont think I can draw it, sorry most likely its just my problem I cant seem to get motivated to draw those characters anymore.
I cant accept to draw it, sorry, but good luck finding somebody else it seems you already are doing that anyway"
See? A guy who offered me his services on his own, I mean he contacted me as first, suddenly's throwing directly into my face such a shit like "Find somebody else". WTF?!? 🤬 Also, he admitted by himself it's "just his problem" and he has no motivation. So why the hell did he reply on my announcment?
It's not over yet! I was already prepared I'm gonna resing from his services but... the bastard was first:
"At this point it doesnt matter, you been a terrible client and I refuse to work with you anymore, Im blocking and banning you from my commission, wish you good luck finding somebody else to draw for you"
So according to the guy who offered himself on my own, suddenly I'm a "terrible client" only because I have some expectations, right? At least, thanks to him, now I'm able to tell you why's seeking for an artists is such a pain in the ass in my case.
Fortunately, other artists replied me on my announcement as well ("...good luck finding somebody else it seems you already are doing that anyway"). Anyway, I'm seek and tired I've just met another emo who probably suffers depression which makes him not available of doing things like commissions for example. I mean I've already met a one in the past. Some girl who always said "Today/tommorrow/very soon I'll send you a WIP" on the day of giving her and order only to keep me waiting forever. Of course she's an emo who suffers depression as well. Of course, I've been blocked by her too but I don't regret it as I prefer to avoid such a people who actually can't work for me and anybody because of their illness.
Unfortunately, now I've met an another artist who's probably dealing the same shit like that girl I just mentioned about. As a human if he actually suffers depression, I'm really sorry but as a potential client I have a right to expect something from the person who claims a one's able to do commissions. If a one actually isn't able to do, then should stop offering commissions instead of making a mess like that guy did. At the same time he's too confident ("I dont need a logical reason to deny a commission").
If anything, I can prove you it's not like something's wrong with him. I already know also those artists who are really awesome not just as an artists but also as people. Otherwise my gallery wouldn't look like it looks now.
I'm writing this also to warn you. Better avoid that artist I'm talking here. I don't need more people disappointed by such a douche... 🙁
