Thought I'd share it here:

https://www.royalroad.com/fiction/1.....f-the-forsaken

I'm around. I don’t do anywhere near as much artwork as I'd like to. Just published a book. Worked on a second one. Going to begin editing it. But mostly just working a lot.

I saw it last Friday.

I haven't had that much fun watching a movie in many years. But this movie has done more than just be damn good. It has become a cultural touchstone, and has become the standard by which all future entertainment in the animated movie industry will be measured. It has crushed Disney into the ground. Toppled the monolithic mouse. And it did so with one simple word: Verisimilitude. Nintendo, was unwilling to bend to the industry standards, and instead used their trademark iron grip to keep the Mario Brand pure, and free of sociopolitical corruption. It pandered not to the critical establishment, and went straight to the fans. The true judge of quality. Thus, by their judgement the movie was found to be an exemplar of quality among the teeming cesspool of mediocre, politically correct, saccharine, drivel that has plagued the animated movie scene now for nearly two decades.

Nintendo. You did it again.

By the way, Jack Black is Bowser. Forever.

I was planning on opening a couple commission slots. but unfortunately Just as that happened Life decided to kick me in the ass. (I'm okay) I still have to focus on my job for the time being, and I don't have room to deal with much Hobby stuff. having to deal with all sorts of crap that decided to fail on me right at the turn of the new year. right at the worst possible time too. but that's how it always goes. I'll try again in a month or so. see if things in my life calm down a little again.

Basically I want to get back in the swing of things. If there's any takers still around I will open a journal announcing the opening.

Have a nice day.

--Jardi

Last time i was here, there was a Forum, Comments could be more than 200 characters, and they denied my upload because it was too big. and stuck all the features that used to be free behind a paywall. I guess it was bound to happen eventually. Not happy about this. its one of the main reasons I left Deviantart.

Basically one of the reasons I haven't been doing much art other than my long-houred job, is that I have been writing a book. It is an epic fantasy novel that takes place on an alien world, and is extremely deep with it's lore and storyline. The amount of research I have had to do for it has been staggering. I wish I could share it with all of you cause I wish I could get feedback on it. But so far trying to get feedback for this thing has been hard cause nobody reads books anymore unless it is a popular book series or something like that.

currently drawing a picture. usually during the week i have an hour a day to do so.

So.


A lot has happened in this world since I last updated here.

First of all, yes. I am still alive. My job has become hard to do since 2020. I'm working a lot of long hours due to the staff shortage that has plagued nearly every business, and because of that, I have become one of the few my job depends on. On that same note I have noticed that the people of this world have changed drastically since 2020. I see a lot more fear. Anger, hate, pain and depression in the news these days. Same ol' shit. But more in your face. lots of violence, and finger pointing. I would certainly appear to not have changed this community much, but I can see that the change has come here just as hard as well.

Did you all forget what Bill and Ted told you? Be excellent to each other. People labeling people over the most insignificant things that shouldn't even matter. people dying over cowardly choices. Honor and integrity, Kindness and compassion are a resource running dry. And I see people lying to themselves so much that they are beginning to believe the lies.

Wake up. Choose life over death, and good over evil. Be magnanimous. and on that day we can start to heal ourselves, and this world.

That's me on my soap box.

Anyway...I'm thinking of coming back soon. I am feeling the drive again. took me years to get over the pain caused me by people I thought were my friends. I'm getting that creative spark back. so lets see where that will take me. thanks for reading, and I'll see ya when I see ya.

--Jardi

I have pretty much moved on from this community. I may post the odd update every now and again. So I'd like to thank you all for your well wishes and stuff, and it was mostly a fun ride. some people in this community really got under my skin. One in particular made it really hard for me to say anything in almost 2 years.

But now that I have had plenty of time to reflect on things, I decided to write them down here. it's as good a place as anywhere I suppose.

To the one who abandoned me, and betrayed our friendship. you know who you are. I forgive you, and I'm sorry I couldn't be a better friend to you.

But now you have lost me forever. And being the self-hating monster you are, you have to live with that, but I'm sure you'll be fine. You're used to it, and I know for a fact I'm not the first one you have done this to. Those pieces I made for you, all that time we spent watching movies and TV shows together. all the things we did. It's like it all meant nothing to you, and I should have known that's how it would be in the end. But it doesn't matter anymore.

I draw again. completely for myself and nobody else. I'm happy, and live in a nice house surrounded by people who love me. I make a living and I work hard. I'm not afraid to drive a car, and I socialize with people and manage to even make them laugh. I have changed these few years. And because of what I have learned about myself, I no longer feel like I can do the things I used to. it's not that I outgrew them, it's that they are things that do not allow me to grow.

Bruce Lee said it best. "Absorb what is useful, discard what is useless and add what is specifically your own" If i went back to this site now, I would feel it a useless endeavor. my art wouldn't have the creative spark it once did for the confining subject matter of this site. I make so much more than anthro art. I am a story teller, and this community doesn't truly reflect what I am anymore.

I am not saying it is beneath me. I'm simply stating that it's not really what I am anymore. So thank you for those who made my time on this site feel special.

If any of you are even remotely interested in the art I make now, you can find it here: http://farmillia.webcomic.ws/comics/first/

I update it occasionally when I have time. And have a wonderful day everybody.

I have been away for a long time. But I feel like returning. I just don't know how. My life has changed dramatically. I haven't really drawn more than a picture or two in nearly two years. I have spent all this time working and paying bills.

There was also something else that caused me to leave this community. someone rather. kind of a last straw sort of thing. First My friend Hans Died. then I moved form Cali back to Albuquerque. Did it for my Dad. got easily distracted alot. kept getting pulled away from my computer. had a hard time chatting with people. andstill do. Play steam games on invisible cause I just don't feel like talking most of the time. pushed a lot of people away.

Now I'm surrounded by people who really don't get this kind of art. they are not into the things im into. But because they live in my house I care about their well being and wish to get along with them.

Anyway, yes, I did consider quitting this community permanently. but that's honestly really selfish of me, and thinking back to all those times I honestly spoke out against artists who take down their work just because it is theirs and they have the right to do so doesn't make it any less selfish. And it makes me feel like a hypocrite for doing the exact same fucking thing.

so with that, I have re-enabled my account. I don't know what I will do with it really. it's going to remain pretty devoid of new content.

Sorry everyone.

Still the same shit. Got more hours at my job. less time to myself. I think I worked 50 hours this last week. My job really fits me. but don't think i have forgotten you guys. I just don't have much to say lately.

Holy shit it's been over a year.

Well I got my own house. Got a job, got all these responsibilities and shit. the one thing I don't have very much of is time to myself now. I miss doing art. don't know yet if I'm fully back but I'm tired of not doing anything constructive with my free time. But also, My account on here is going to turn ten years old soon. I can't believe it's been that long.

The reason I suddenly disabled my account was because I fell into a depression. Basically I have this feeling of anything I decide to put my time into isn't worth it. so I put my time into nothing.


I no longer wish to feel like this. Been under that rock too long.

just wanting to make sure people know that.

Now i have too much. my plate is full of all sorts of things to think about and worry about. how do you deal with it all?

made a poll for those who are fans of the elder scrolls games:

http://www.strawpoll.me/10844887/

Holy fucking shit.

God damn that was fucking amazing.

Best Disney movie I have seen in years. Enjoyed it more than Toy story 3. I think the last time I enjoyed a Disney movie this much was when I watched Aladdin.

I'm not just saying it as a fan of furry. It was genuinely good.

Watch that shit.

Today was a very fun day. I wish this would happen more often.

Somebody came over with a box full of unopened card packs, and me and 7 other people all drafted decks to play. we held a tournament and gave prizes and stuff.

I didn't win a single game. But I still had fun.

Early on when I first started using this site it was because i was driven away from Deviant art due to a stupid mistake I made.

that stupid mistake made me snap, and I caved in on myself, and from that cave in, I made a new name for myself. a throwaway persona named Jardenon. And it was to be a place for me to dump my vent art. mostly sexual in nature. And it has now become my main persona.

I didn't care at the time. But people started to like my work. so I began to draw more things. and then i started getting requests to draw famous characters in sexual situations. some I was even paid for. some were requests.

during that period, I drew a picture of venus D'milo of the ninja turtles in a sexual manor. that picture made me feel a little disgusted. so ever since I have made a list of things I personally will never draw in a sexual situation.

this list includes but is not limited to:

Anything that appeared in a Don Bluth Movie. (Littlefoot, Fivel, Mrs. Brisby) any ninja turtle character. Good guys or bad. any character made by Ozamu Tezuka (Unico, Astro Boy, Kimba the White Lion). Or Akira Toriama. (Goku, Piccolo, Chrono) Anything from the Transformers, Silverhawks, or Thundercats. Nobody from He-man. Especially He-Man Himself who is totally asking for it. There are quite a few others but these are the main ones.

So yeah, don't request these ones, cause I won't do it.

I have been in a pit of despair for a couple of months now, and I'm finally getting out of it. I am eager to get back into my art, and I thank everyone for their patience.