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The Bun Rambles, Volume 3
General | Posted 9 years agoI'm not shy about my mental illnesses, but I try very hard to not use them as an excuse. They are the reason for some of my reactions, but I'd like to think that I'm doing better & and can be mindful of when I'm having an episode or my anxiety is getting bad. If anybody is curious about what they are, I'm happy to answer polite questions.
I'm slipping into a really rough depression episode, with the end of a relationship, stress within the family, my seemingly never ending cycle of never being able to get out of debt nor get my license back, and not having a college education. This used to be my favorite time of year, and when I go outside, I do have little blips of "Yay, it's not balls hot!" but it's definitely not the excitement that the Autumn used to bring.
I'm frustrated and wanting to go back to school, but I am so overwhelmed that I don't know where to start. My sister is off in the Air Force, kicking ass. My brother is in the process of enlisting because he's ready to go. With as much as school costs, I'm thinking I'm better off going for a certification program to get a career started, & continue towards a degree. I qualify and was accepted into my dream school for my dream program...but it's just so expensive. I get the feeling I'm going to have to suck it up and just do the local community college.
I just don't know. I'm feeling very helpless, like I'm just spinning my wheels, so to speak.
I'm slipping into a really rough depression episode, with the end of a relationship, stress within the family, my seemingly never ending cycle of never being able to get out of debt nor get my license back, and not having a college education. This used to be my favorite time of year, and when I go outside, I do have little blips of "Yay, it's not balls hot!" but it's definitely not the excitement that the Autumn used to bring.
I'm frustrated and wanting to go back to school, but I am so overwhelmed that I don't know where to start. My sister is off in the Air Force, kicking ass. My brother is in the process of enlisting because he's ready to go. With as much as school costs, I'm thinking I'm better off going for a certification program to get a career started, & continue towards a degree. I qualify and was accepted into my dream school for my dream program...but it's just so expensive. I get the feeling I'm going to have to suck it up and just do the local community college.
I just don't know. I'm feeling very helpless, like I'm just spinning my wheels, so to speak.
Giving myself a serious story time warmup (Freebies Inside!)
General | Posted 9 years agoWho'd be interested in a short story, themed Autumn or Halloween? Any rating, but some topics are off limits (I'll get a comprehensive no fly list up soon, but we can talk about in notes if you're interested). I'm feeling like 3.
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Bloodyflame
2.
Lekamo
3. OPEN
Signal boosting always appreciated.
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Bloodyflame2.
Lekamo3. OPEN
Signal boosting always appreciated.
Preparing a story is like cooking a well balanced meal
General | Posted 9 years agoWhat started out as a short story concept is now blossoming into a full world development and I'm thinking it is going to get the full novel treatment. I'm pretty excited about that. It's set in approximately current times, maybe closer to the 90's-early 2000's, in a timber town in the Yukon. LOTS of northern critters, and one horribly unprepared Corgi.
I'm tempted to offer cameo spots in it for fanart, because I like being able to see the characters I'm writing. It helps me keep everybody separate in my head past "different voices". If you're interested or know anyone who would be, I'd be thrilled to hear back on it. :)
Our Corgi hero is Henry Baines, a still wet behind the ears Junior Acquisitions Supervisor for Fisker Holdings, who's going to be completely lost on his first major assignment, on the opposite side of the world from his cozy flat in the borough of Brent in London.
I'm thinking for some of the side characters that will be prominent in the book, I may give them short stories here so people can get acquainted with them if they'd like. Any opinions on that? In the long run, I definitely want to submit this to Sofawolf or Jarlidium. Big dreams, but hey, everybody has to start somewhere.
Would love feedback on this journal <3
I'm tempted to offer cameo spots in it for fanart, because I like being able to see the characters I'm writing. It helps me keep everybody separate in my head past "different voices". If you're interested or know anyone who would be, I'd be thrilled to hear back on it. :)
Our Corgi hero is Henry Baines, a still wet behind the ears Junior Acquisitions Supervisor for Fisker Holdings, who's going to be completely lost on his first major assignment, on the opposite side of the world from his cozy flat in the borough of Brent in London.
I'm thinking for some of the side characters that will be prominent in the book, I may give them short stories here so people can get acquainted with them if they'd like. Any opinions on that? In the long run, I definitely want to submit this to Sofawolf or Jarlidium. Big dreams, but hey, everybody has to start somewhere.
Would love feedback on this journal <3
The Bun Rambles, Volume 2
General | Posted 9 years agoHome from San Antonio and SO SO SO proud of my sister. She's officially a United States Airman, a proud Warthog (XD That was her training squadron mascot), and headed off to her tech school at the AFB in Biloxi MS. We went to the San Antonio Museum of Art and made fun of nudes together (both of my siblings & I can be immature even though we really appreciate art), watched an AAA league game between the San Antonio Missions and the Corpus Christi Hooks, & did part of the Riverwalk. It was an amazing few days. I miss the kid, & I really hope she gets to come home for Xmas/Hanukkah.
Now my brother is thinking about joining up too. I personally think it'd be good for him, he admitted himself while we were down there that he's felt like he's lost & floundering since he graduated college with his GM Master Mechanic certification. The kid is a genius with things in his hands. & having that degree would give him a higher rank coming out of Basic than some of the other recruits, so higher paygrade there lol.
On to me. I had my shoulder x-rayed today, not sure what that's going to do since I'm sure this is a soft tissue injury. But I want to start working out again, I hate how I feel and I need to lose weight for health reasons. When I was in show choir & then wrestling, I was doing great and my weight was under control. But between moving from the city to the country, stopping my major workouts, & my medication, I gained a hundred freaking pounds in a year. I've started out and dropped about 10 lbs on my own by trying to cut back on soda and portion control, but it's not doing enough. I don't want to count calories but I don't think I'm going to have a choice. My new general practitioner is going to refer me to a nutritionist, so maybe I can get some guidance there. Until I get results back on the shoulder, I can't really do upper body stuff. But I'm thinking yoga or pilates & cardio & lower body workouts can start at least. I'd like to bribe Dad into getting me a gym membership too. If anyone has any suggestions or ideas for healthy easy recipes or good workouts or really anything on this topic, I'm all ears (ha bun pun).
Besides that, I'm wanting to go back to school. Even though I've been accepted to my dream program at a good school for it, I think I am going to have to put that on the back burner because of $. I don't know how I'd come up with the money for my current idea, beyond financial aid & loans *shudder* but I think I've got a good one going... I've already taken several of the classes needed & I have a good chunk of the credits necessary. I think I'd like to go back and get my massage therapy certification and see about license for the states that I like to travel to or am thinking about moving to... I could work for sports teams, cruise lines, resorts, private clinics, or in-home options. Hell, I'd even look into doing it at cons.
So at this point, to get myself back on track, I need to make a timeline and create schedules for myself. Still looking for a better job too, because I'm just about done with the BS at my current one. I just want to be better and do better. So I have to make concrete decisions. Mental health, physical health, creativity, and keeping my mind sharp need to be my priorities. I have people that support me and love me, so it's time to buckle down. Wish me luck lol.
Now my brother is thinking about joining up too. I personally think it'd be good for him, he admitted himself while we were down there that he's felt like he's lost & floundering since he graduated college with his GM Master Mechanic certification. The kid is a genius with things in his hands. & having that degree would give him a higher rank coming out of Basic than some of the other recruits, so higher paygrade there lol.
On to me. I had my shoulder x-rayed today, not sure what that's going to do since I'm sure this is a soft tissue injury. But I want to start working out again, I hate how I feel and I need to lose weight for health reasons. When I was in show choir & then wrestling, I was doing great and my weight was under control. But between moving from the city to the country, stopping my major workouts, & my medication, I gained a hundred freaking pounds in a year. I've started out and dropped about 10 lbs on my own by trying to cut back on soda and portion control, but it's not doing enough. I don't want to count calories but I don't think I'm going to have a choice. My new general practitioner is going to refer me to a nutritionist, so maybe I can get some guidance there. Until I get results back on the shoulder, I can't really do upper body stuff. But I'm thinking yoga or pilates & cardio & lower body workouts can start at least. I'd like to bribe Dad into getting me a gym membership too. If anyone has any suggestions or ideas for healthy easy recipes or good workouts or really anything on this topic, I'm all ears (ha bun pun).
Besides that, I'm wanting to go back to school. Even though I've been accepted to my dream program at a good school for it, I think I am going to have to put that on the back burner because of $. I don't know how I'd come up with the money for my current idea, beyond financial aid & loans *shudder* but I think I've got a good one going... I've already taken several of the classes needed & I have a good chunk of the credits necessary. I think I'd like to go back and get my massage therapy certification and see about license for the states that I like to travel to or am thinking about moving to... I could work for sports teams, cruise lines, resorts, private clinics, or in-home options. Hell, I'd even look into doing it at cons.
So at this point, to get myself back on track, I need to make a timeline and create schedules for myself. Still looking for a better job too, because I'm just about done with the BS at my current one. I just want to be better and do better. So I have to make concrete decisions. Mental health, physical health, creativity, and keeping my mind sharp need to be my priorities. I have people that support me and love me, so it's time to buckle down. Wish me luck lol.
The Bun Rambles, Volume 1
General | Posted 9 years agoHey, so...I have some new watchers, that I've not known forever. Hi everybody.
This is mostly to bump the furredwords blog journal off the front page since I've been too down to post anything like I should. I'll kick start it again someday I just...meh. I'm good at getting myself hyped and then when I get zero feedback it takes the wind out of my sails.
Anybody who's wondering why I took my relationship info down from the profile, I was politely asked to. So...yeah that's a thing I guess but I'm trying to not think about it too hard. Still poly, still looking to make new friends and meet new people though lol.
I'm really okay, I've been through much worse depressive spells than this. I'm just stressed because I was supposed to be flying to Texas to watch my sister graduate from basic training this next weekend, but then found out I have to be the ride along in the rental car with my dad and brother. I get carsick, and this is an 18 hour each way trip. Suddenly, I'm not as excited, but I'm still stoked to see her. She's 8 years younger than me and is a total little badass. I could never do a lot of the things she does, and while every once in a while I catch myself moping about that, I just remind myself that she can't carry a tune in a bucket and isn't artistic to save her life. She painted her room salmony orange and pepsi can blue for chrissakes lol. We are such wildly different people it's not even funny.
Umm, let's see. I plan on going to Midwest FurFest this year with one of my boyfriends, hoping to see old and new friends there. Hoping to get a few more quilt commissions before the end of September so I can have spending money too. (If you're interested, PM me. I plan on getting example pics up and a pricing journal soon.) Also thinking about opening up writing commissions too, but I'll keep posting freebies I guess... Hoping that when
Candy is feeling better we can work on our super secret collab idea. But I want her happy & healthy more than I want to work on that. <3
So yeah. Jazmine signing off for now. Later fuzzers.
This is mostly to bump the furredwords blog journal off the front page since I've been too down to post anything like I should. I'll kick start it again someday I just...meh. I'm good at getting myself hyped and then when I get zero feedback it takes the wind out of my sails.
Anybody who's wondering why I took my relationship info down from the profile, I was politely asked to. So...yeah that's a thing I guess but I'm trying to not think about it too hard. Still poly, still looking to make new friends and meet new people though lol.
I'm really okay, I've been through much worse depressive spells than this. I'm just stressed because I was supposed to be flying to Texas to watch my sister graduate from basic training this next weekend, but then found out I have to be the ride along in the rental car with my dad and brother. I get carsick, and this is an 18 hour each way trip. Suddenly, I'm not as excited, but I'm still stoked to see her. She's 8 years younger than me and is a total little badass. I could never do a lot of the things she does, and while every once in a while I catch myself moping about that, I just remind myself that she can't carry a tune in a bucket and isn't artistic to save her life. She painted her room salmony orange and pepsi can blue for chrissakes lol. We are such wildly different people it's not even funny.
Umm, let's see. I plan on going to Midwest FurFest this year with one of my boyfriends, hoping to see old and new friends there. Hoping to get a few more quilt commissions before the end of September so I can have spending money too. (If you're interested, PM me. I plan on getting example pics up and a pricing journal soon.) Also thinking about opening up writing commissions too, but I'll keep posting freebies I guess... Hoping that when
Candy is feeling better we can work on our super secret collab idea. But I want her happy & healthy more than I want to work on that. <3So yeah. Jazmine signing off for now. Later fuzzers.
I have a furry centric blog!
General | Posted 9 years agohttp://furredwords.blogspot.com/
Every Monday, I spotlight an artist (that goes for visual artists, crafters, fursuit builders, and musicians!) so if you're interested in being spotted or have a suggestion of someone who should be getting more attention, let me know!
Thursday is textile day, where I show off my quilts and such that I'm working on. Right now, you'll get to see the Craft Lab being built, along with commissions, and my Midwest FurFest art show entries in progress!
Saturday (although it got uploaded on Sunday the first time oops) is Furry Literature day. Short stories, snippets of longer projects, poetry, whatever I feel like putting out there that's furry.
Please go have a look, and let me know what you think! <3
Every Monday, I spotlight an artist (that goes for visual artists, crafters, fursuit builders, and musicians!) so if you're interested in being spotted or have a suggestion of someone who should be getting more attention, let me know!
Thursday is textile day, where I show off my quilts and such that I'm working on. Right now, you'll get to see the Craft Lab being built, along with commissions, and my Midwest FurFest art show entries in progress!
Saturday (although it got uploaded on Sunday the first time oops) is Furry Literature day. Short stories, snippets of longer projects, poetry, whatever I feel like putting out there that's furry.
Please go have a look, and let me know what you think! <3
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