Have surprisingly gotten me to accidentally unwatch so many people >~>

I go to look at someone after someone posted their art, wind up unwaching because I'm a derp and didn't notice, and thus find myself re+watching.

I...

I don't even know what I want to say... or how to go about trying to say it...

All I know is that right now, for some... undetermined, indescribable, hidden reason...

I feel like the most pathetic pile of garbage this world has known...


The logical part of me is screaming at me that this isn't how I am.. that this is wrong and I /know/ that I'm not... that no reason or logic is behind this emotion...

But another part of me that I just can't silence screams back... and pretty violently... about how terrible of a person I am...

and I don't get it... no medication works... no home remedies work... nothing fixes this... I hit these lows... and... it sometimes takes months to get out of them...

It is times like these... when I'm so... shattered that I remind myself why I want people happy - So that they never have to feel the crushing weight of their own mind tearing themselves apart...

I just...

To anyone out there... to everyone of the few watchers I have... to everyone that watches you and to everyone you watch...

If you need someone to make you smile... to have a joke with.. to just... feel better...

I'm here. I know what a crushing low feels like and Damnit, I don't want to let anyone else feel this for as long or as often as I do...

Please...

Let me make the world a better place in any way that I can, even something as simple as making one person smile...

So you can get the stuff here

Please spread the word <3

I'm a cuddly little thing, and to those who I've watched and those who watch me, feel free, at any time, to note me or add my skype if you need someone to comfort you.

I try my best to put a smile on the faces of the people I run across, and, in this community of adorkable artists, cooky crafters, and wonderful writers, I figured I might as well try to make as many of them as happy as I can.

So if you need a shoulder to cry on, or just.. someone to complain at, I'm here, I'll listen, and It'll help me feel better.

Some of you know that I have serious depression, as well as hefty moodswings as per Bi-polar disorder, and one sure-fire way of cheering me up is to just.. smile around me..

I remember one time, A friend cracked a joke, and couldn't stop laughing at it. I wound up laughing at him laughing, with this weird, kind of 'clanky' sound, and he wound up laughing back, and before we realized it, half an hour had passed were we had laughed and couldn't stop.

Just... Keep me in mind if anyone needs a smile. I'll be glad to help.