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Hello there! Update and Maybe YCH Commissions 2-22-24
Posted a year agoHello Jenkitty here!
Finally an update from the Jenkitty! I'm thinking of trying to actually open up for YCH commissions in the near future since the Husband and I are struggling financially. I hate to put it out there and I know a lot of people are but doing commissions on here helped me a lot when I used to do them back in the day [Like 2007-2012?]. I just don't know if I would have any interest as It's been a long time since I have been active on here with my own art.
I'm currently going to start doing summer markets/craft shows [hand lettering and illustration [not furry art] in hopes it gets me noticed from my side business. So I'm hoping that leads to something too.
I just feel I need to start busting my butt and find other ways to make an income to help out with things. Today's economy and things being so expensive now it's ridiculous which of course doesn't help.
I just hope my Daughter [She's only 3] doesn't have to financially struggle too when she gets older because we can't help her at the moment.
Anyway enough of my rambling let me know your thoughts and if I do YCH commissions if anyone could keep sharing as well.
Finally an update from the Jenkitty! I'm thinking of trying to actually open up for YCH commissions in the near future since the Husband and I are struggling financially. I hate to put it out there and I know a lot of people are but doing commissions on here helped me a lot when I used to do them back in the day [Like 2007-2012?]. I just don't know if I would have any interest as It's been a long time since I have been active on here with my own art.
I'm currently going to start doing summer markets/craft shows [hand lettering and illustration [not furry art] in hopes it gets me noticed from my side business. So I'm hoping that leads to something too.
I just feel I need to start busting my butt and find other ways to make an income to help out with things. Today's economy and things being so expensive now it's ridiculous which of course doesn't help.
I just hope my Daughter [She's only 3] doesn't have to financially struggle too when she gets older because we can't help her at the moment.
Anyway enough of my rambling let me know your thoughts and if I do YCH commissions if anyone could keep sharing as well.
R.I.P. My precious baby Luna Kitty <3
Posted 2 years ago*Long read**
The Husband and I sadly had to put our precious kitty Luna down on Friday 4.28.2023. We tried everything we could do to get her better. The vet tried to do everything as well. It was a very hard decision to make, but I know she's not in pain or suffering anymore.
She was fighting Hepatic Lipidosis (fatty liver disease). What alerted me to something being wrong was that she was throwing up too much than the normal hairball. We had hoped she would recover. It was a rough 4 weeks. The 1st two weeks after she was in the vet for 4 days she ended up with a feeding tube and a couple of meds to give her. We had to feed her a special intensive care food with high calories 4 times a day through her tube. It was a powder you mixed with water and gave to her through the tube from a syringe. On top of an antibiotic and a liver support pill at first.
Sunday April 16th after she got a steroid and anti-nausea pill. Monday she ended up throwing up all the food and along with it the feeding tube. I had to have my Husband take her to the ER that morning while I took our Daughter to daycare. All they could do was remove it. We got her into her regular vet that day. Husband took her in and they decided it was best to leave the tube out and give her an appetite stimulant. Her blood results didn't come back good but not worse that week.
So she was actually eating on her own and acting more like herself. We thought she was on the mend. But this past week she just went downhill fast. She caught a respiratory infection we think. She was sneezing blood and her eyes got cloudy. Then later in the week her right leg/paw got swollen. She started getting bursted blood vessels in the white parts of her eyes and looked like bruising/splotches in her ears. She started to lose her appetite again. We tried force feeding her with the syringe too so she had some nutrition/calories in her.
She stopped acting like herself. No happy tails at all. She just left her tail slumped and just wanted to sleep, drink water and try to go to the bathroom a lot but not actually doing anything. Which makes me think it turned into kidney failure next. The vet never said that though but I think she was.
I dropped her off at the vet Friday morning April 28th just to see if there was anything left we could do. Her vet called me later in the day before lunch and said there is nothing else they could do. We had already thrown every medicine we could at her. She was just withdrawn and her jaundice was worse. Right then and there I knew she wasn't going to make it.
I had to make the dreaded call to A Gentle Farewell (an in-home euthanasia service/vet in Elyria, OH) to come out and let Luna cross the rainbow bridge at home. 🌈😿💔
It was a very hard day. We gave her all the pets and love she would allow before they showed up in the afternoon. We could tell she was just done. She felt so warm and all she wanted to do was rest.
We loved her so much and will really miss her. My heartaches so much. I already miss her meows, purrs, lap cuddles, leg rubs, head boops and Luna taco cuddles. (We called it the Luna taco because she would be stretched out laying basically in-between the bottom of our legs when sitting on our recliner couch). ❤️
She was the most affectionate kitty. She loved on everyone. She definitely wasn't a fan of kids. She's running free playing with her favorite mouse toy now. 😿❤️
10.21.2016 - 4.28.2023
Luna Pearl Greive ❤️🌈
The Husband and I sadly had to put our precious kitty Luna down on Friday 4.28.2023. We tried everything we could do to get her better. The vet tried to do everything as well. It was a very hard decision to make, but I know she's not in pain or suffering anymore.
She was fighting Hepatic Lipidosis (fatty liver disease). What alerted me to something being wrong was that she was throwing up too much than the normal hairball. We had hoped she would recover. It was a rough 4 weeks. The 1st two weeks after she was in the vet for 4 days she ended up with a feeding tube and a couple of meds to give her. We had to feed her a special intensive care food with high calories 4 times a day through her tube. It was a powder you mixed with water and gave to her through the tube from a syringe. On top of an antibiotic and a liver support pill at first.
Sunday April 16th after she got a steroid and anti-nausea pill. Monday she ended up throwing up all the food and along with it the feeding tube. I had to have my Husband take her to the ER that morning while I took our Daughter to daycare. All they could do was remove it. We got her into her regular vet that day. Husband took her in and they decided it was best to leave the tube out and give her an appetite stimulant. Her blood results didn't come back good but not worse that week.
So she was actually eating on her own and acting more like herself. We thought she was on the mend. But this past week she just went downhill fast. She caught a respiratory infection we think. She was sneezing blood and her eyes got cloudy. Then later in the week her right leg/paw got swollen. She started getting bursted blood vessels in the white parts of her eyes and looked like bruising/splotches in her ears. She started to lose her appetite again. We tried force feeding her with the syringe too so she had some nutrition/calories in her.
She stopped acting like herself. No happy tails at all. She just left her tail slumped and just wanted to sleep, drink water and try to go to the bathroom a lot but not actually doing anything. Which makes me think it turned into kidney failure next. The vet never said that though but I think she was.
I dropped her off at the vet Friday morning April 28th just to see if there was anything left we could do. Her vet called me later in the day before lunch and said there is nothing else they could do. We had already thrown every medicine we could at her. She was just withdrawn and her jaundice was worse. Right then and there I knew she wasn't going to make it.
I had to make the dreaded call to A Gentle Farewell (an in-home euthanasia service/vet in Elyria, OH) to come out and let Luna cross the rainbow bridge at home. 🌈😿💔
It was a very hard day. We gave her all the pets and love she would allow before they showed up in the afternoon. We could tell she was just done. She felt so warm and all she wanted to do was rest.
We loved her so much and will really miss her. My heartaches so much. I already miss her meows, purrs, lap cuddles, leg rubs, head boops and Luna taco cuddles. (We called it the Luna taco because she would be stretched out laying basically in-between the bottom of our legs when sitting on our recliner couch). ❤️
She was the most affectionate kitty. She loved on everyone. She definitely wasn't a fan of kids. She's running free playing with her favorite mouse toy now. 😿❤️
10.21.2016 - 4.28.2023
Luna Pearl Greive ❤️🌈
Update on my sick kitty Luna 3-31-2023
Posted 2 years agoLuna has been in the vet since Tuesday. Wednesday they did an ultrasound and she had inflammation on her liver and a few spots of inflammation in her intestines. They saw that she still had food in her stomach from Tuesday. They think since she's weak and sick like she is that her system is being sluggish so they had to give her meds to get her digestive system to speed up. Her blood results came back with high levels liver and gallbladder [which was expected with the jaundice she had] everything else was within spec.
Thursday she still refused to eat [I think she's probably stressed from what has been all going on and not being at home]. Her needle biopsy of the liver came back as they expected but I'm assuming no toxins, bacteria, etc. Which it's good. Nothing critical or life threatening yet so I managed to get her into the vet in time <3. They think she is deciding to be anorexic. Which they told me when cats don't eat it can cause the hepatic lipidosis which they diagnosed her with.
They had to keep her again overnight last night to put a feeding tube in so she can get the nutrients/food she needs to recover from this. I'm hoping she gets to come home today.
She will have the feeding tube for a couple of weeks maybe months when she comes home. The vet recommended when she comes home to keep food at all times in her dish. We have the surefeed dishes which only open for them with a tag on their collars so I hope we can still use it. If not I have to keep my other cat Wheatley away from her. I'm not really sure what caused her to all of a sudden stop eating at all. But I'm hoping once she comes home she will start eating on her own again when she's feeling better, but we still have to feed her through the tube for a couple of weeks.
Hoping she'll recover. She's still too young to lose her :( . She's only 6 years old and I'll be very very sad if it ends up getting worse and we have to put her down. I will if I have to even though I don't want to. Because I love my pets just as much as I love my family and if I lose her I don't know how I'll be able to cope.
So please still send prayers for her that she recovers to the fullest and doesn't become life threatening.
Thursday she still refused to eat [I think she's probably stressed from what has been all going on and not being at home]. Her needle biopsy of the liver came back as they expected but I'm assuming no toxins, bacteria, etc. Which it's good. Nothing critical or life threatening yet so I managed to get her into the vet in time <3. They think she is deciding to be anorexic. Which they told me when cats don't eat it can cause the hepatic lipidosis which they diagnosed her with.
They had to keep her again overnight last night to put a feeding tube in so she can get the nutrients/food she needs to recover from this. I'm hoping she gets to come home today.
She will have the feeding tube for a couple of weeks maybe months when she comes home. The vet recommended when she comes home to keep food at all times in her dish. We have the surefeed dishes which only open for them with a tag on their collars so I hope we can still use it. If not I have to keep my other cat Wheatley away from her. I'm not really sure what caused her to all of a sudden stop eating at all. But I'm hoping once she comes home she will start eating on her own again when she's feeling better, but we still have to feed her through the tube for a couple of weeks.
Hoping she'll recover. She's still too young to lose her :( . She's only 6 years old and I'll be very very sad if it ends up getting worse and we have to put her down. I will if I have to even though I don't want to. Because I love my pets just as much as I love my family and if I lose her I don't know how I'll be able to cope.
So please still send prayers for her that she recovers to the fullest and doesn't become life threatening.
Update on my kitty Luna
Posted 2 years agoI haven't heard any new news of yet but yesterday we got her blood results. Her levels for her liver and gallbladder were high which was expected because of the jaundice present. Everything else my Husband told me was in spec. Nothing critical at this point so the Doctor does say she should make a recovery but we are still waiting for the needle biospy results they did on her liver to check for bacteria infections, etc.
They did do an ultrasound and she had small inflammation on her liver and some on her intestines. They also found out the food she did eat Tuesday was still in her stomach Wednesday. So they did end up keeping her overnight again for a 2nd night to give her meds to help move things a long.
Hopefully hear some good news and she gets to come home soon. I miss her :(
They did do an ultrasound and she had small inflammation on her liver and some on her intestines. They also found out the food she did eat Tuesday was still in her stomach Wednesday. So they did end up keeping her overnight again for a 2nd night to give her meds to help move things a long.
Hopefully hear some good news and she gets to come home soon. I miss her :(
Please pray for my cat Luna
Posted 2 years agoMy cat Luna I had to take to the vet this morning....the past two weeks she has been vomiting. Way more than usual than the occasional hairball or eating her food too fast. So I was really worried and knew something was wrong....
She had jaundice. So they did an x-ray. She had no obstruction but the Doctor said she had hard stool in her intestines. I had to leave her at the vet while I go to work so they could keep her to make sure she goes to the bathroom. They had to give her an enema.
Now just waiting for her blood test results...I'm so worried sick about her. :( I knew something was wrong and I wish I would have taken her to the vet sooner. Something did keep telling me to take her to the vet. It's definitely the Mom instinct.
She's still my baby and I'm so heartbroken.
Please keep her in your thoughts! <3
She had jaundice. So they did an x-ray. She had no obstruction but the Doctor said she had hard stool in her intestines. I had to leave her at the vet while I go to work so they could keep her to make sure she goes to the bathroom. They had to give her an enema.
Now just waiting for her blood test results...I'm so worried sick about her. :( I knew something was wrong and I wish I would have taken her to the vet sooner. Something did keep telling me to take her to the vet. It's definitely the Mom instinct.
She's still my baby and I'm so heartbroken.
Please keep her in your thoughts! <3
Update 3-23-2023 YCHS? etc
Posted 2 years agoHello,
I know I don't get a lot of people recognizing me on here anymore but would anyone be interested if I started doing your character heres again? I only ever did very few before awhile ago.
I just feel I need to start making money again on the side and doing furry art I actually made more money doing them back in the day then I am with my design work. I'm making $0 with my design work. I even have a website shop and nothing from that either ever.
Just wanted to know your thoughts. I miss drawing furry art to be honest and like I said already I swear I made more money doing furry art commissions than anything else.
It's hard to get my self out there when I don't post as much as I would like. It's tough when I'm a mother now and have a full-time job but I know if I started something again I would be motivated to take the time once my daughter goes down for bed to work on art.
Even though I have a full-time job I still have a lot of debt I have to pay off because of being unemployed for 5-6 months from Sept. 2021 to February 2022. Only freelancing at the time. So it has racked up still even though I have a job and I need to find a way to get financially stable again.
Losing a new job I pursued only in 8 days in 2021 really f**ked me over. So I'm still hurting from it even though I finally have a job making more than I ever have the 10+ years I have been working.
Of course with the economy and everything happening through the pandemic it's been tough. I was really hoping for the student debt loan relief but I'm having doubts that is even going to pass....it would have wiped my loans out and I would have had that money to use towards my stuff. I'm getting really nervous when I have to start paying those again. I was paying on them through the pandemic from March 2020-September 2022 at least. But I haven't for awhile after I hd to consolidate some credit card debt and that payment now.
It's sad. If I was making what I am now a couple of years ago I would have been financially comfortable by now.
I know I don't get a lot of people recognizing me on here anymore but would anyone be interested if I started doing your character heres again? I only ever did very few before awhile ago.
I just feel I need to start making money again on the side and doing furry art I actually made more money doing them back in the day then I am with my design work. I'm making $0 with my design work. I even have a website shop and nothing from that either ever.
Just wanted to know your thoughts. I miss drawing furry art to be honest and like I said already I swear I made more money doing furry art commissions than anything else.
It's hard to get my self out there when I don't post as much as I would like. It's tough when I'm a mother now and have a full-time job but I know if I started something again I would be motivated to take the time once my daughter goes down for bed to work on art.
Even though I have a full-time job I still have a lot of debt I have to pay off because of being unemployed for 5-6 months from Sept. 2021 to February 2022. Only freelancing at the time. So it has racked up still even though I have a job and I need to find a way to get financially stable again.
Losing a new job I pursued only in 8 days in 2021 really f**ked me over. So I'm still hurting from it even though I finally have a job making more than I ever have the 10+ years I have been working.
Of course with the economy and everything happening through the pandemic it's been tough. I was really hoping for the student debt loan relief but I'm having doubts that is even going to pass....it would have wiped my loans out and I would have had that money to use towards my stuff. I'm getting really nervous when I have to start paying those again. I was paying on them through the pandemic from March 2020-September 2022 at least. But I haven't for awhile after I hd to consolidate some credit card debt and that payment now.
It's sad. If I was making what I am now a couple of years ago I would have been financially comfortable by now.
WOOT! Update 3/29/2022
Posted 3 years agoI'M SO EXCITED! I finally got a new job that is going to pay very well and has awesome benefits. This is going to help me and my family so much! It feels so good. I recently applied to working at a fast food restaurant that opened in my area March 7th. I applied out of desperation because I was unemployed for 5 months and was getting so far into debt that I still have to pay off.
I never thought I'd only work there a month and already find a better job that will help me out! Only 3 days left of current place I'm at and I'll be onto bigger better things! FINALLY.
Right now the job will be hybrid. Not sure how that's working out yet right now but I know I have to physically go in my 1st day which isn't until April 11th. So I'll have a nice little staycation at home relaxing for a week before I start my new job. Well I have to go clothes shopping for some business casual outfits. I have never had a job where I had to dress up so I never really bought much. Hopefully I can write it off on my taxes. lol.
Anyway life is finally looking up for me and I am feeling much better.
I never thought I'd only work there a month and already find a better job that will help me out! Only 3 days left of current place I'm at and I'll be onto bigger better things! FINALLY.
Right now the job will be hybrid. Not sure how that's working out yet right now but I know I have to physically go in my 1st day which isn't until April 11th. So I'll have a nice little staycation at home relaxing for a week before I start my new job. Well I have to go clothes shopping for some business casual outfits. I have never had a job where I had to dress up so I never really bought much. Hopefully I can write it off on my taxes. lol.
Anyway life is finally looking up for me and I am feeling much better.
Life really sucks - Update February 2, 2022
Posted 3 years ago4 months being unemployed now....I'm only working 10 hrs a week freelancing at home on weekends for one job and another one only getting paid per design now [which is whenever they decide to e-mail me to make shit]. It's barely enough to pay my car payment, school loans and credit cards.
As a designer I'm so tired of being underpaid and under appreciated. Over the years having shitty jobs I honestly am starting to hate being a designer. I haven't had any jobs that are helping my career at all.
I started my own side hustle because the previous toxic job I left was unfulfilling and boring [which 8 days in the new job I did pursue let me go.] Plus was always talked about behind my back, always got stuck doing other people's jobs. I was burned out. There was no possible growth or advancement whatsoever. But my side hustle still isn't anywhere near what I want it to be. I was hoping to be making it a full-time career/income by now. But unfortunately it's still not and I'm still trying to work on that because that is my dream....I have never felt fulfilled in life. I don't enjoy my life. Of course I love my Husband and Daughter but I'm missing everything else. The career fulfillment. Being able to go on vacations and make memories. I haven't been happy for a long time. I don't want to be stuck hating my life forever and have regrets. Especially before I go blind...I don't know if I will and that's the scary part about my eye disease. I absolutely have no idea. The uncertainty of it.....as an artist it's devastating because art is my life. It's what I love to do....
Anyway haven't had any luck finding a job at all and I'm at my wits end. I feel like I should start doing commissions again. Though it's been a very long time since I have now. I haven't drawn much furry art in such a long time besides re-drawing some of my own personal work. But we will see. Maybe I'll do my preset commissions where i had a theme. I seemed to always get more with those. Though the only thing with having a child now I don't have a whole lot of time.
Sorry for my rant/journal update. I just need to get it off my chest once in awhile. I can only tell my Husband so much. I am doing therapy over the phone through my Husband's insurance [thankfully it's free]. Not sure if it's really helping yet or not. I have an upcoming doctor appointment the end of the month which I might discuss with my primary care doctor, but not sure. I have good days and have bad days. Sometimes more bad days than good....I'm so tired of the bad luck. My life has been shit the past 5 years. Only good thing out of the 5 years was my daughter being born. Im so proud of her. Watching her grow and learning new things. I just hope I can get a damn job soon so I can be able to buy things for her again that she needs. My Husband doesn't make enough to help me with my bills too.....I was the one buying her clothes but that had to stop since I'm barely making any income now. I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this.
As a designer I'm so tired of being underpaid and under appreciated. Over the years having shitty jobs I honestly am starting to hate being a designer. I haven't had any jobs that are helping my career at all.
I started my own side hustle because the previous toxic job I left was unfulfilling and boring [which 8 days in the new job I did pursue let me go.] Plus was always talked about behind my back, always got stuck doing other people's jobs. I was burned out. There was no possible growth or advancement whatsoever. But my side hustle still isn't anywhere near what I want it to be. I was hoping to be making it a full-time career/income by now. But unfortunately it's still not and I'm still trying to work on that because that is my dream....I have never felt fulfilled in life. I don't enjoy my life. Of course I love my Husband and Daughter but I'm missing everything else. The career fulfillment. Being able to go on vacations and make memories. I haven't been happy for a long time. I don't want to be stuck hating my life forever and have regrets. Especially before I go blind...I don't know if I will and that's the scary part about my eye disease. I absolutely have no idea. The uncertainty of it.....as an artist it's devastating because art is my life. It's what I love to do....
Anyway haven't had any luck finding a job at all and I'm at my wits end. I feel like I should start doing commissions again. Though it's been a very long time since I have now. I haven't drawn much furry art in such a long time besides re-drawing some of my own personal work. But we will see. Maybe I'll do my preset commissions where i had a theme. I seemed to always get more with those. Though the only thing with having a child now I don't have a whole lot of time.
Sorry for my rant/journal update. I just need to get it off my chest once in awhile. I can only tell my Husband so much. I am doing therapy over the phone through my Husband's insurance [thankfully it's free]. Not sure if it's really helping yet or not. I have an upcoming doctor appointment the end of the month which I might discuss with my primary care doctor, but not sure. I have good days and have bad days. Sometimes more bad days than good....I'm so tired of the bad luck. My life has been shit the past 5 years. Only good thing out of the 5 years was my daughter being born. Im so proud of her. Watching her grow and learning new things. I just hope I can get a damn job soon so I can be able to buy things for her again that she needs. My Husband doesn't make enough to help me with my bills too.....I was the one buying her clothes but that had to stop since I'm barely making any income now. I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this.
Update [LONG] 12-5-2021
Posted 4 years agoSo it's been a year now since I have updated everyone. I wish I was more active on here with my art. I really do miss making furry art. It's been a busy and rough 5 years and couple of months.
I wanted to update everyone and this is probably going to be a long long journal. I don't expect anyone to read it all but here goes. So the Husband and I had our daughter December 14th last year. She's been a handful for sure. Those first couple of weeks were so hard! Parenting has been hard in general. Especially even more so during a pandemic. We didn't have any help and still don't.
When she was born and I was recovering from my c-section I started back to working 4 weeks after because I couldn't not work. I was still working from home at the time so it didn't really hurt me all that much. I actually was feeling more normal and myself after 4 weeks. Though I still feel I did too much while I was supposed to be recovering.
I don't miss the newborn stage at all but I do miss her being small already. After about a month I started doing a sleep training method I had a lot of people recommend doing. Moms on call was the name of it. I didn't strictly follow it at the beginning but it helped so much to get on a routine/schedule that really helped so much. It got better as the months went on. Her naps and night sleep started improving. After getting through the stage of her not sleeping at night it was bliss to actually sleep longer than 2-3 hours. We got her sleeping through the night more consistently around 5-6 months. Now I'm glad I did the sleep training method. She still sleeps like a dream only not when she got sick for 3 months.
in September I finally pursued a new job...I got hired. They only have me 1 week to give my previous job a notice.......so I was stressing out what to do about my daughter. I was so iffy of putting her in daycare because of the pandemic still but we had no choice to put her into daycare. The job I was hired for was full-time remote. They were based out of Illinois. My daughter got sick the 1st week being in daycare so she went to daycare for 2 days and then had to be home for 3 days. Thankful for my Husband's job when they let him work from home for 3 days to take care of her while I worked. Then she was sick for 3 months! She kept getting sick all the time. :( 1st it was cold/flu, 2nd time she got hand foot mouth. Then she got cold/flu again.
Well 8 days into that new job.....they let me go because I wasn't a good fit and taking too long. Which was absolute bullshit. I was so mad...it was a job that was finally going to help my family financially and help my mental health. They never gave me any indication whatsoever that I was doing so bad. Didn't give me any warning. Didn't give me any deadlines.... They were so nit-picky and everything I did was wrong or not what they wanted. So since September 20th I have had no job.... I was unemployed for 3 weeks only making $200 a week from my freelance job that I still have been doing for 10 hours.
In October I managed to get another freelance gig for at least 20 hours with someone I connected with through the owner of our favorite local gift store that did direct to garment t-shirts on the side. But now that I'm a 1099 working these two freelance jobs for only 30 hours I'm making $1,100 less than I was a month and it's really hurting me financially. I can't pay off anything like I used to at all. It's been making me so depressed. Racking up debt and I can only afford to pay my minimum payment on everything. I have been doing therapy for the last 3 months too finally...but it hasn't helped me at all and even with the unemployment rate it's still expensive and I can't keep paying for it.
Not only that after I lost that job I contacted my previous job in hopes I'd get my previous job back....but of course they didn't ever get back to me. Told me they were discussing it and get back to me in a few days and never did. Still haven't heard shit from them so that gives me their answer. It's been 3 months and still nothing. Which super pissed me off. Could have had the decency to say no.....I knew they wouldn't want me back. I didn't want to go back anyway though. It was toxic...and I just don't know how any of my ex co-workers can't see that. A place that keeps saying they would do things and never do.
But anyway so far my eye disease I have has been ok too. I haven't noticed anything different so hopefully my eyes are still stable. I'm still scared of going blind from this....and I still want so bad to go full-time freelance with my own work. But that still hasn't gone anywhere. Last year and into this year I kind of got burned out. So I wasn't as active in doing any of it. Recently I have been trying to get my work out there more again. But I feel I'm most likely going to have to start doing client work.
Oh and the week of Thanksgiving. The Husband, daughter and I all got covid. :( We thought she only had a cold that was just taking forever to go away. She had a runny nose and was congested. It was going on week 3 and I was going to take her into the doctor anyway. We had her in the doctor October 31st I believe. Got her tested then and it was negative. But then my Husband started getting sick the week after? He tested negative twice though the week before Thanksgiving. So we thought he was just getting a sinus infection. Urgent care told him when he got tested Thursday that if he developed a fever to get tested again. So the Saturday November 20th he got a fever. Tested positive the next day when he went and got tested.
I had started getting a sore throat Saturday night myself. I thought it was just from drainage and being dry in the house. But I remember Sunday morning sweating for no reason and feeling clammy. But I felt fine. My Husband got up and went to go get tested that Sunday morning the 20th. Sure enough he was positive. So I then had to go get tested that morning as well. I think I tested too early though because I tested negative but was having symptoms. So now we are freaking out and worrying about our daughter. I was feeling well enough and had to take her to urgent care to get tested. While I was there they also prescribed antibiotics for her. Which giving her that helped out he runny nose and congestion. So we still don't know if she actually was having symptoms of covid or not. We got her results that Monday the 21st and she was positive too. :( I was so scared for her. I was so worried. But I think she did better than both of us. I only had symptoms for about a day and a half [Chills, sweating (no fever) and fatigue]. My sore throat took 4 days to go away and my taste and smell was off for about a week and a half. I didn't know it was off until I ate chips and a hot salsa that night. My Husband on the other hand had symptoms for 7 days. The worst of it is that he got the rare case of getting an infection in his balls/scrotum. Not sure how else to say that. Tuesday night the 22nd he was in excruciating pain. I had no idea what was wrong I thought he was having a heart attack. He had to drive himself to the ER that night because they were swollen. We already had our daughter in bed so I couldn't drive him to the ER myself. He had masses when they did an ultrasound so he got prescribed antibiotics, oxycodone if he needed it for pain and anti-inflammatories. So honestly I recommend getting vaccinated. It's no joke! and for men it can affect your balls! I wouldn't want that on anyone.
I'm glad we are vaccinated because it probably could have been much worse if we weren't. Of course I still worry about my daughter if she'll have any issues health wise down the road from getting it....after us being so cautious too....which sucks so bad. You feel like a failure. But we did everything we could. We think she got it from daycare and she gave it to us. I feel like it's going to be one of those things it's inevitable to not get and everyone will get it at some point. And I hope for those that do will have mild symptoms and no long lasting issues with it. :(
I just wish everything would get better already that's for sure. I'm definitely so over everything. I haven't had the best luck the past 5 years and now the past couple of months and pandemic has made it so much worse and I know I'm not the only one going through all this shit. I know I'm not alone in any of this. I really do wish people would be more kind. I still see so much hate out there and people refusing to get vaccinated....if people don't it's just going to keep mutating. I'm hoping it's not getting worse and the damage is lessening. But we might be living with this forever now...
Anyway that's about where we are at now. I really feel like I should start being active again on here and do commissions again. I really need to make the extra money somehow so bad. We will see. It's been tough getting anything done. By the time the evening comes around when I do have time to do stuff I'm exhausted I just want take a nap.
I hope everyone of you are still healthy and safe. Keep your family close!
I wanted to update everyone and this is probably going to be a long long journal. I don't expect anyone to read it all but here goes. So the Husband and I had our daughter December 14th last year. She's been a handful for sure. Those first couple of weeks were so hard! Parenting has been hard in general. Especially even more so during a pandemic. We didn't have any help and still don't.
When she was born and I was recovering from my c-section I started back to working 4 weeks after because I couldn't not work. I was still working from home at the time so it didn't really hurt me all that much. I actually was feeling more normal and myself after 4 weeks. Though I still feel I did too much while I was supposed to be recovering.
I don't miss the newborn stage at all but I do miss her being small already. After about a month I started doing a sleep training method I had a lot of people recommend doing. Moms on call was the name of it. I didn't strictly follow it at the beginning but it helped so much to get on a routine/schedule that really helped so much. It got better as the months went on. Her naps and night sleep started improving. After getting through the stage of her not sleeping at night it was bliss to actually sleep longer than 2-3 hours. We got her sleeping through the night more consistently around 5-6 months. Now I'm glad I did the sleep training method. She still sleeps like a dream only not when she got sick for 3 months.
in September I finally pursued a new job...I got hired. They only have me 1 week to give my previous job a notice.......so I was stressing out what to do about my daughter. I was so iffy of putting her in daycare because of the pandemic still but we had no choice to put her into daycare. The job I was hired for was full-time remote. They were based out of Illinois. My daughter got sick the 1st week being in daycare so she went to daycare for 2 days and then had to be home for 3 days. Thankful for my Husband's job when they let him work from home for 3 days to take care of her while I worked. Then she was sick for 3 months! She kept getting sick all the time. :( 1st it was cold/flu, 2nd time she got hand foot mouth. Then she got cold/flu again.
Well 8 days into that new job.....they let me go because I wasn't a good fit and taking too long. Which was absolute bullshit. I was so mad...it was a job that was finally going to help my family financially and help my mental health. They never gave me any indication whatsoever that I was doing so bad. Didn't give me any warning. Didn't give me any deadlines.... They were so nit-picky and everything I did was wrong or not what they wanted. So since September 20th I have had no job.... I was unemployed for 3 weeks only making $200 a week from my freelance job that I still have been doing for 10 hours.
In October I managed to get another freelance gig for at least 20 hours with someone I connected with through the owner of our favorite local gift store that did direct to garment t-shirts on the side. But now that I'm a 1099 working these two freelance jobs for only 30 hours I'm making $1,100 less than I was a month and it's really hurting me financially. I can't pay off anything like I used to at all. It's been making me so depressed. Racking up debt and I can only afford to pay my minimum payment on everything. I have been doing therapy for the last 3 months too finally...but it hasn't helped me at all and even with the unemployment rate it's still expensive and I can't keep paying for it.
Not only that after I lost that job I contacted my previous job in hopes I'd get my previous job back....but of course they didn't ever get back to me. Told me they were discussing it and get back to me in a few days and never did. Still haven't heard shit from them so that gives me their answer. It's been 3 months and still nothing. Which super pissed me off. Could have had the decency to say no.....I knew they wouldn't want me back. I didn't want to go back anyway though. It was toxic...and I just don't know how any of my ex co-workers can't see that. A place that keeps saying they would do things and never do.
But anyway so far my eye disease I have has been ok too. I haven't noticed anything different so hopefully my eyes are still stable. I'm still scared of going blind from this....and I still want so bad to go full-time freelance with my own work. But that still hasn't gone anywhere. Last year and into this year I kind of got burned out. So I wasn't as active in doing any of it. Recently I have been trying to get my work out there more again. But I feel I'm most likely going to have to start doing client work.
Oh and the week of Thanksgiving. The Husband, daughter and I all got covid. :( We thought she only had a cold that was just taking forever to go away. She had a runny nose and was congested. It was going on week 3 and I was going to take her into the doctor anyway. We had her in the doctor October 31st I believe. Got her tested then and it was negative. But then my Husband started getting sick the week after? He tested negative twice though the week before Thanksgiving. So we thought he was just getting a sinus infection. Urgent care told him when he got tested Thursday that if he developed a fever to get tested again. So the Saturday November 20th he got a fever. Tested positive the next day when he went and got tested.
I had started getting a sore throat Saturday night myself. I thought it was just from drainage and being dry in the house. But I remember Sunday morning sweating for no reason and feeling clammy. But I felt fine. My Husband got up and went to go get tested that Sunday morning the 20th. Sure enough he was positive. So I then had to go get tested that morning as well. I think I tested too early though because I tested negative but was having symptoms. So now we are freaking out and worrying about our daughter. I was feeling well enough and had to take her to urgent care to get tested. While I was there they also prescribed antibiotics for her. Which giving her that helped out he runny nose and congestion. So we still don't know if she actually was having symptoms of covid or not. We got her results that Monday the 21st and she was positive too. :( I was so scared for her. I was so worried. But I think she did better than both of us. I only had symptoms for about a day and a half [Chills, sweating (no fever) and fatigue]. My sore throat took 4 days to go away and my taste and smell was off for about a week and a half. I didn't know it was off until I ate chips and a hot salsa that night. My Husband on the other hand had symptoms for 7 days. The worst of it is that he got the rare case of getting an infection in his balls/scrotum. Not sure how else to say that. Tuesday night the 22nd he was in excruciating pain. I had no idea what was wrong I thought he was having a heart attack. He had to drive himself to the ER that night because they were swollen. We already had our daughter in bed so I couldn't drive him to the ER myself. He had masses when they did an ultrasound so he got prescribed antibiotics, oxycodone if he needed it for pain and anti-inflammatories. So honestly I recommend getting vaccinated. It's no joke! and for men it can affect your balls! I wouldn't want that on anyone.
I'm glad we are vaccinated because it probably could have been much worse if we weren't. Of course I still worry about my daughter if she'll have any issues health wise down the road from getting it....after us being so cautious too....which sucks so bad. You feel like a failure. But we did everything we could. We think she got it from daycare and she gave it to us. I feel like it's going to be one of those things it's inevitable to not get and everyone will get it at some point. And I hope for those that do will have mild symptoms and no long lasting issues with it. :(
I just wish everything would get better already that's for sure. I'm definitely so over everything. I haven't had the best luck the past 5 years and now the past couple of months and pandemic has made it so much worse and I know I'm not the only one going through all this shit. I know I'm not alone in any of this. I really do wish people would be more kind. I still see so much hate out there and people refusing to get vaccinated....if people don't it's just going to keep mutating. I'm hoping it's not getting worse and the damage is lessening. But we might be living with this forever now...
Anyway that's about where we are at now. I really feel like I should start being active again on here and do commissions again. I really need to make the extra money somehow so bad. We will see. It's been tough getting anything done. By the time the evening comes around when I do have time to do stuff I'm exhausted I just want take a nap.
I hope everyone of you are still healthy and safe. Keep your family close!
[SOLD ] Huion KAMVAS GT 191-V2 Drawing Tablet with Scree....
Posted 5 years agoHello, I'm selling my Huion 19" drawing tablet. This is the version that doesn't need the stylus pen charged. I switched back to a Wacom Cintiq [which surprisingly I got only for $400 like new on facebook marketplace!!] it was a steal so I couldn't pass it up.
There is nothing wrong with this one at all still like new and it is good screen drawing tablet for a budding artist who doesn't want to pay the wacom cintiq prices. I still have the original box and everything that comes with it.
Facebook listing
https://www.facebook.com/marketplac.....6184066291009/
Ebay listing
http://rover.ebay.com/rover/1/711-5.....;kwid=902099&mtid=824&kw=lg&toolid=11111
$360 + $25 shipping as I know with the weight it'll be quite expensive to ship. Only will ship to someone in US. Only accepting Paypal or Venmo for payment if you use my facebook marketplace link and not ebay. Thanks!
Please share! <3
There is nothing wrong with this one at all still like new and it is good screen drawing tablet for a budding artist who doesn't want to pay the wacom cintiq prices. I still have the original box and everything that comes with it.
Facebook listing
https://www.facebook.com/marketplac.....6184066291009/
Ebay listing
http://rover.ebay.com/rover/1/711-5.....;kwid=902099&a
$360 + $25 shipping as I know with the weight it'll be quite expensive to ship. Only will ship to someone in US. Only accepting Paypal or Venmo for payment if you use my facebook marketplace link and not ebay. Thanks!
Please share! <3
[SOLD] Selling Huion KAMVAS GT 191 V2 Drawing Tablet
Posted 5 years agoHello, I'm selling my Huion 19" drawing tablet. This is the version that doesn't need the stylus pen charged. I'm getting rid of it because I would like to go back to a wacom. As I was more used to using one. There is nothing wrong with this one at all still like new and it is good screen drawing tablet for a budding artist who doesn't want to pay the wacom cintiq prices.
Facebook listing
https://www.facebook.com/marketplac.....6184066291009/
Ebay listing
http://rover.ebay.com/rover/1/711-5.....;kwid=902099&mtid=824&kw=lg&toolid=11111
$400 + $25 shipping as I know with the weight it'll be quite expensive to ship. Only will ship to someone in US. Thanks!
Please share! <3
Facebook listing
https://www.facebook.com/marketplac.....6184066291009/
Ebay listing
http://rover.ebay.com/rover/1/711-5.....;kwid=902099&a
$400 + $25 shipping as I know with the weight it'll be quite expensive to ship. Only will ship to someone in US. Thanks!
Please share! <3
Brianna Gene has Arrived! <3
Posted 5 years agoI never did get to update everyone! 
transporter and I's daughter has arrived into the world! She's our precious little early Christmas present. <3
Brianna Gene has arrived December 14th, 2020 at 9:56 a.m. via a scheduled c-section because I had gestational hypertension and she was breached with head up and feet down. It has been a rough two weeks that's for sure.
I spent 3 and half days in hospital recovering from c-section. Got to go home the afternoon of Thursday December 17th. But ended up back in the hospital Saturday night into Monday morning because of high blood pressure. Which they diagnosed me with having preeclampsia after having her. Which is rare to happen after pregnancy but it can. I thought it was most likely it because my feet swelled up like balloons friday night. It scared me.
I also had a panic attack Saturday night where I got chest pains and a really bad throbbing back. I thought I was going to die. They had to have a rapid response team come in and do an ekg. Everything came back fine on it, which I'm glad! I never want to experience that again. That was probably my 1st ever panic attack and I definitely don't want that to happen again. It was awful! They had to put me on magnesium for 24 hours which was bad too. :( It made you feel like you had the flu the whole time. Gave me a headache the whole time. But I did manage to get more sleep in the hospital. I was so thankful I could have my Husband and daughter with me too. I had to ask for formula also while we were there because I wasn't feeling up to breast feeding. But have also found out she isn't getting enough breast feeding either. So now we have been using formula as back up.
I was so glad to finally go home Monday afternoon. It figures though once we got home we realized we forgot my blood pressure pills and diuretic the prescribed me at the hospital. My poor husband had to drive 40 minutes back to the hospital to get them. I had a meltdown at home because I was getting frustrated trying to breast feed her. Thankfully when he got home he told me to take a long hot shower as needed.
I'm slowly recovering now. Not my normal self yet that's for sure. The bloating is the worst. Taking the blood pressure pills too have been also making me feel super weird, I ended up making an appointment to my obgyn to get my blood pressure checked for them to go and tell me that it's normal to feel the way I was and that it can take a week for them to start working. it's the 3rd day on them and I think it's finally feeling less weird taking them though. Which I'm glad. I'm so not used to my heart rate being as low as it has been with the meds.
Now I just have had weird taste and super dry mouth from all the meds I'm on. I told my Husband I feel like an old lady. lol.
Anyway here is a lovely professional photo of our daughter! https://www.dropbox.com/s/gno26uoue.....609_o.jpg?dl=0
done by Little Bear Photography in Medina, OH. We had a newborn photoshoot of her on Wednesday and I can't wait to see her other photos. She's so cute :) I can't get enough of her! and I'm glad we have formula now as back up so she sleeps as she should and I can catch some Zs while she naps.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I hope everyone stays safe and healthy this holiday. The Husband and I are spending it at home ourselves and cooking. We will be facetiming family opening presents. My parents were nice enough to stop by yesterday to drop off presents and cookies. It's definitely different this year but I have the most precious gift ever. <3
transporter and I's daughter has arrived into the world! She's our precious little early Christmas present. <3Brianna Gene has arrived December 14th, 2020 at 9:56 a.m. via a scheduled c-section because I had gestational hypertension and she was breached with head up and feet down. It has been a rough two weeks that's for sure.
I spent 3 and half days in hospital recovering from c-section. Got to go home the afternoon of Thursday December 17th. But ended up back in the hospital Saturday night into Monday morning because of high blood pressure. Which they diagnosed me with having preeclampsia after having her. Which is rare to happen after pregnancy but it can. I thought it was most likely it because my feet swelled up like balloons friday night. It scared me.
I also had a panic attack Saturday night where I got chest pains and a really bad throbbing back. I thought I was going to die. They had to have a rapid response team come in and do an ekg. Everything came back fine on it, which I'm glad! I never want to experience that again. That was probably my 1st ever panic attack and I definitely don't want that to happen again. It was awful! They had to put me on magnesium for 24 hours which was bad too. :( It made you feel like you had the flu the whole time. Gave me a headache the whole time. But I did manage to get more sleep in the hospital. I was so thankful I could have my Husband and daughter with me too. I had to ask for formula also while we were there because I wasn't feeling up to breast feeding. But have also found out she isn't getting enough breast feeding either. So now we have been using formula as back up.
I was so glad to finally go home Monday afternoon. It figures though once we got home we realized we forgot my blood pressure pills and diuretic the prescribed me at the hospital. My poor husband had to drive 40 minutes back to the hospital to get them. I had a meltdown at home because I was getting frustrated trying to breast feed her. Thankfully when he got home he told me to take a long hot shower as needed.
I'm slowly recovering now. Not my normal self yet that's for sure. The bloating is the worst. Taking the blood pressure pills too have been also making me feel super weird, I ended up making an appointment to my obgyn to get my blood pressure checked for them to go and tell me that it's normal to feel the way I was and that it can take a week for them to start working. it's the 3rd day on them and I think it's finally feeling less weird taking them though. Which I'm glad. I'm so not used to my heart rate being as low as it has been with the meds.
Now I just have had weird taste and super dry mouth from all the meds I'm on. I told my Husband I feel like an old lady. lol.
Anyway here is a lovely professional photo of our daughter! https://www.dropbox.com/s/gno26uoue.....609_o.jpg?dl=0
done by Little Bear Photography in Medina, OH. We had a newborn photoshoot of her on Wednesday and I can't wait to see her other photos. She's so cute :) I can't get enough of her! and I'm glad we have formula now as back up so she sleeps as she should and I can catch some Zs while she naps.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I hope everyone stays safe and healthy this holiday. The Husband and I are spending it at home ourselves and cooking. We will be facetiming family opening presents. My parents were nice enough to stop by yesterday to drop off presents and cookies. It's definitely different this year but I have the most precious gift ever. <3
Update 11-2-2020
Posted 5 years agoHello! Hope everyone is doing well and healthy. The Husband and I have at least been lucky this entire year of not catching covid. Which I am very thankful for. Though who knows if we have been asymptomatic too. As far as I know my family has been ok too. Only one person I know on my Husband’s side of the family who has had it. Thankfully they have recovered and only had mild symptoms. But I knew they would his side of the family travels and don’t social distance or wear masks around each other. Kind of why I refuse to want to get together for Thanksgiving with them.
Anyway pregnancy is going well for the most part. I’m in my 3rd trimester. Been dealing with more heartburn and achy hips and legs trying to sleep. My obgyn has diagnosed me with gestational hypertension (though I have been averaging 123/65) which means they are going to end up scheduling me to be induced or have a c-section at 37 weeks. December 14th. So I’ll have my daughter earlier than expected. Which will be our early Christmas present. ❤️ I’m excited and can’t wait to hold her. I still have to see if a c-section is a safer option for me because of my eye disease though. I would feel more comfortable about it that’s for sure. Since I have been noticing more spots and stuff while pregnant. I did have a hemorrhage in the back of my retina back in June in left eye. Thankfully it healed up and went away. I’m so glad that it didn’t leak into my eye. I really worry about getting a retinal detachment if I have a natural birth. So I have to see what my retinal specialist says when I go in soon for my follow up. 🙏🏻 I have to get a note from him to do the c-section.
Other than that I’m so hoping life can eventually go back to normal. I’m so ready to be able to go out without having to wear masks and worry about catching a bad virus. 😔 but I know that won’t be for awhile. I’m just hoping I’ll still be working from home into next year. I don’t want to have to worry about daycare during all this crap. I don’t have Parents that are retired to be able to help out nor does my Husband. I also don’t want to miss anything while she grows up with this being my first child and only child I plan on having. I don’t know what is going to happen to my vision in 10-15 years because of my eye disease. So I want more than anything to sooner or later work full time from home doing my own work. I just feel like it’s never going to happen. Hopefully my dream comes true someday 🙏🏻. It’s definitely something so important to me.
Please everyone continue to be safe during this time! Hopefully someday we will overcome it.
Anyway pregnancy is going well for the most part. I’m in my 3rd trimester. Been dealing with more heartburn and achy hips and legs trying to sleep. My obgyn has diagnosed me with gestational hypertension (though I have been averaging 123/65) which means they are going to end up scheduling me to be induced or have a c-section at 37 weeks. December 14th. So I’ll have my daughter earlier than expected. Which will be our early Christmas present. ❤️ I’m excited and can’t wait to hold her. I still have to see if a c-section is a safer option for me because of my eye disease though. I would feel more comfortable about it that’s for sure. Since I have been noticing more spots and stuff while pregnant. I did have a hemorrhage in the back of my retina back in June in left eye. Thankfully it healed up and went away. I’m so glad that it didn’t leak into my eye. I really worry about getting a retinal detachment if I have a natural birth. So I have to see what my retinal specialist says when I go in soon for my follow up. 🙏🏻 I have to get a note from him to do the c-section.
Other than that I’m so hoping life can eventually go back to normal. I’m so ready to be able to go out without having to wear masks and worry about catching a bad virus. 😔 but I know that won’t be for awhile. I’m just hoping I’ll still be working from home into next year. I don’t want to have to worry about daycare during all this crap. I don’t have Parents that are retired to be able to help out nor does my Husband. I also don’t want to miss anything while she grows up with this being my first child and only child I plan on having. I don’t know what is going to happen to my vision in 10-15 years because of my eye disease. So I want more than anything to sooner or later work full time from home doing my own work. I just feel like it’s never going to happen. Hopefully my dream comes true someday 🙏🏻. It’s definitely something so important to me.
Please everyone continue to be safe during this time! Hopefully someday we will overcome it.
Update 8-26-20 (Gender reveal)
Posted 5 years agoI forgot to post on here! The Husband transporter and I found out August 17th that we are having a girl!!! Her name is going to be Brianna Gene Greive.
She is named after my Uncle Brian that passed away on New Years Eve from esophageal and liver cancer and my Grandpa Eugene that passed away in April due to stage 4 lung cancer and covid. It was definitely meant to be and my due date changed to December 31st. Which will be very weird if she is actually born that day.
We can't wait to meet her!
She is named after my Uncle Brian that passed away on New Years Eve from esophageal and liver cancer and my Grandpa Eugene that passed away in April due to stage 4 lung cancer and covid. It was definitely meant to be and my due date changed to December 31st. Which will be very weird if she is actually born that day.
We can't wait to meet her!
Update June 7 2020 - Announcement - GOOD NEWS for once
Posted 5 years agoHello! I know I'm not active on here posting much art but I wanted to share some good news today. The Husband and I are expecting a little one! <3 we are super excited. I'm due around January 4th 2021. Of course the timing is awful but I pray that we continue to stay safe and healthy during this crazy year. I believe that my Uncle and Grandpa are watching over us to make sure everything will be alright.
I thought it was never going to happen to for us. As some of you know I have had it rough for a good 3-4 years. Stress, anxiety and being depressed because of my toxic job and my eye diagnosis stuff. But since I have been working from home currently from said day job I have been far less stressed out. [I think stress had a lot to do with it not happening for 8 months] I'm doing better. Of course not 100% but I'm definitely doing better than I was. Having a little one changes a lot of things. I still strive to continue my dream of becoming a full-time freelancer. It's always something I wanted to do and having a little one on the way makes me want it even more. I have been feeling extremely happy even during all the circumstances happening in the world right now. But it's that something that I want to hold on to, to try and make it through it all.
I hope everyone continues to be safe during these unprecedented times. <3
I thought it was never going to happen to for us. As some of you know I have had it rough for a good 3-4 years. Stress, anxiety and being depressed because of my toxic job and my eye diagnosis stuff. But since I have been working from home currently from said day job I have been far less stressed out. [I think stress had a lot to do with it not happening for 8 months] I'm doing better. Of course not 100% but I'm definitely doing better than I was. Having a little one changes a lot of things. I still strive to continue my dream of becoming a full-time freelancer. It's always something I wanted to do and having a little one on the way makes me want it even more. I have been feeling extremely happy even during all the circumstances happening in the world right now. But it's that something that I want to hold on to, to try and make it through it all.
I hope everyone continues to be safe during these unprecedented times. <3
Update 4/19/2020
Posted 5 years agoMy Grandpa passed away April 6th, due to his lung cancer and catching covid-19 during the transfers from Hospital to nursing home to the hospital again. I never got to visit him before he went into the Hospital..he died while a nurse held his hand.with no family around him. They stopped letting anyone in hospitals have visitors soon after he was admitted. They had a viewing still for him that I didn't risk going out to. I could have taken precautions but I was too scared to go out. The thought of going out anywhere makes me have panic attacks where I feel like I can't breathe. My Dad did a video chat with me so I could see my Grandpa at his viewing. It was so hard....I couldn't get any words out. I haven't been productive in 2 weeks since then...been keeping myself distracted with animal crossing and art. It's all I can do. I do check up on my family members...they are all still healthy. And it's definitely the worst timing too. Now my Husband's Grandma is having memory issues. Losing her mind? I guess you should say. She's coherent about some things, but then she'll say random stuff that didn't happen. Everything has had the worst timing. :( Trying so hard to not have a mental breakdown. Everything is too overwhelming.
Update 3/17/2020
Posted 5 years agoAs of Friday 3/13 I am now working from home from my day job until further notice. I recently got a freelance part-time contract job last week so I'm really hoping I can keep continuing to do that as well. My day job cut our hours which means I'll be losing money now as I know everyone will be hurting from all this now too. I'm trying my hardest to not have a mental breakdown. My Uncle passed away New Year's Eve and now My Grandpa was recently diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer and it has spread. He has been in the hospital since Friday and is supposed to be starting radiation and chemo. I can't even go visit my Grandparents because of possibly putting them at risk. Even though I have been feeling fine besides the past two weeks of being nauseous and had my stomach get upset yesterday, which I think has been nerves/stress related. I have been in the house for 4 and a half days. The past couple of years have been so hard.....I just hope we all get through this! it's going to be tough and I really hope the government stands up and does something! As much as everyone else I'm worried about still having a job after all this. :( I want things to go back to normal as soon as possible. Between my eye diagnosis, my uncle passing away and now my Grandpa dying and this contagious virus going around it's been so hard....
Update 1/12/2019
Posted 7 years agoHello everyone, I know I'm not very active on here anymore. I post every once in a blue moon. I don't draw a whole lot of furry art anymore at all. My time has been spent doing hand lettering and pattern design for the past 2 years. I really want to draw furries again once in awhile. Probably won't be all the time it's very hard to stay active on everything I do. Been trying my hardest to someday go full-time freelancing doing graphic design, illustration and hand lettering.
Anyway I just wanted to let my followers know...that the end of last year I found out I have lattice degeneration. So far all I know it's in my left eye....it's the thinning of the peripherals of the retina. It's very scary. It can lead to holes or tears [there is a low risk of a retinal detachment but I don't know how low when I already run a risk of that being so nearsighted already] but I don't know how common that is to happen. I have been scared to death finding out about it. For a whole year I knew nothing about what was wrong with my eye. It took going to get a 2nd opinion from a different retinal specialist to find the problem.
Back in February of 2018 I started seeing a black speck in my vision. Then in March I start seeing a spot in my vision as if I looked at something bright and looked away and it was still there. It freaked me out so much when I noticed it. I went to an ophthalmologist and and retinal specialist then. They found nothing wrong whatsoever so I was fine for the year not worrying about it...then in November I went to my normal eye doctor for contact and glasses. I then started seeing like lightning bolt flash when I moved my eye to the right or down when I looked at a bright wall or screen. I went back to the same retinal specialist. They still found nothing wrong [They even looked in my eyes with lights and took pictures of the back of my eye and everything] Then a couple of says after that I swear I started seeing more floaters and thought maybe I had a tear in my eye because the flashing seemed to have got worse not disappeared. Which I honestly still don't know if I'm just now noticing it or what. I'm being told I'm probably just more aware of it so I'm going to see it all the time now. I went to a different specialist to get a 2nd opinion and that's when I found out what I had. Then for a month I was seeing this flashing and I got scared so I went back to get it checked. There is still nothing serious they said.I'm pretty sure they would have noticed a tear....and those floaters I haven't seen for awhile so I don't know if i was just noticing them more or what. But I don't see them anymore. I was told that what it doesn't really progress...that it eventually stops. It's only something I see against bright walls when looking quickly to the right and down where I think my thinning is. They still couldn't tell me why I see it though. They told me it's more serious if I was seeing it no matter the time of day and that I would also be seeing it in the dark in which I don't. So I'm guessing it's fine. It's so hard to say. As far as I know my vision hasn't changed at all so that's a good thing I think.
Being an artist and designer I'm definitely paranoid about my eyes. Finding out having an eye disease now is really scary and I can't stop thinking about it. I still have not accepted it...it's very hard to. I have been trying so hard to not be scared everyday and trying to distract myself with drawing more, reading, and watching my favorite movies and tv shows. Sometimes it helps. I think I'm more scared when I'm full-time job all day.
Figured I'd give everyone an update and to warn you if you ever see anything wrong with your eyes get it checked! and if your not satisfied with one persons answer get a 2nd opinion! It took me getting a 2nd opinion from a different retinal specialist to find what was wrong. One that looked at my eyes and took pictures never even noticed it!!! Which believe me makes me so mad. I'm doing the best I can. I keep praying and hoping it doesn't get worse or serious. I have to believe in modern technology that they can save my eyesight. :( But even just thinking about eye surgery is scary! plealse keep me in your thoughts and prayers as well. I'm in so much need of a support system.
Also I'm thinking of possibly selling my wacom cintiq 13hd drawing tablet. I have been having so many issues with the drivers lately. I don't think it happens too often on macs. I think I might eventually get the Huion Kamvas GT-191 V2. I have always wanted a bigger one and the new one they came out with you don't have to charge the battery. So if anyone is interested let me know. Not really sure how much to sell it for yet I've had it since 2012-2013? when it was first released. It still works great! I think it has 1 or two dead pixels or dust under the screen but doesn't effect anything at all with it.
Anyway I just wanted to let my followers know...that the end of last year I found out I have lattice degeneration. So far all I know it's in my left eye....it's the thinning of the peripherals of the retina. It's very scary. It can lead to holes or tears [there is a low risk of a retinal detachment but I don't know how low when I already run a risk of that being so nearsighted already] but I don't know how common that is to happen. I have been scared to death finding out about it. For a whole year I knew nothing about what was wrong with my eye. It took going to get a 2nd opinion from a different retinal specialist to find the problem.
Back in February of 2018 I started seeing a black speck in my vision. Then in March I start seeing a spot in my vision as if I looked at something bright and looked away and it was still there. It freaked me out so much when I noticed it. I went to an ophthalmologist and and retinal specialist then. They found nothing wrong whatsoever so I was fine for the year not worrying about it...then in November I went to my normal eye doctor for contact and glasses. I then started seeing like lightning bolt flash when I moved my eye to the right or down when I looked at a bright wall or screen. I went back to the same retinal specialist. They still found nothing wrong [They even looked in my eyes with lights and took pictures of the back of my eye and everything] Then a couple of says after that I swear I started seeing more floaters and thought maybe I had a tear in my eye because the flashing seemed to have got worse not disappeared. Which I honestly still don't know if I'm just now noticing it or what. I'm being told I'm probably just more aware of it so I'm going to see it all the time now. I went to a different specialist to get a 2nd opinion and that's when I found out what I had. Then for a month I was seeing this flashing and I got scared so I went back to get it checked. There is still nothing serious they said.I'm pretty sure they would have noticed a tear....and those floaters I haven't seen for awhile so I don't know if i was just noticing them more or what. But I don't see them anymore. I was told that what it doesn't really progress...that it eventually stops. It's only something I see against bright walls when looking quickly to the right and down where I think my thinning is. They still couldn't tell me why I see it though. They told me it's more serious if I was seeing it no matter the time of day and that I would also be seeing it in the dark in which I don't. So I'm guessing it's fine. It's so hard to say. As far as I know my vision hasn't changed at all so that's a good thing I think.
Being an artist and designer I'm definitely paranoid about my eyes. Finding out having an eye disease now is really scary and I can't stop thinking about it. I still have not accepted it...it's very hard to. I have been trying so hard to not be scared everyday and trying to distract myself with drawing more, reading, and watching my favorite movies and tv shows. Sometimes it helps. I think I'm more scared when I'm full-time job all day.
Figured I'd give everyone an update and to warn you if you ever see anything wrong with your eyes get it checked! and if your not satisfied with one persons answer get a 2nd opinion! It took me getting a 2nd opinion from a different retinal specialist to find what was wrong. One that looked at my eyes and took pictures never even noticed it!!! Which believe me makes me so mad. I'm doing the best I can. I keep praying and hoping it doesn't get worse or serious. I have to believe in modern technology that they can save my eyesight. :( But even just thinking about eye surgery is scary! plealse keep me in your thoughts and prayers as well. I'm in so much need of a support system.
Also I'm thinking of possibly selling my wacom cintiq 13hd drawing tablet. I have been having so many issues with the drivers lately. I don't think it happens too often on macs. I think I might eventually get the Huion Kamvas GT-191 V2. I have always wanted a bigger one and the new one they came out with you don't have to charge the battery. So if anyone is interested let me know. Not really sure how much to sell it for yet I've had it since 2012-2013? when it was first released. It still works great! I think it has 1 or two dead pixels or dust under the screen but doesn't effect anything at all with it.
Update 5/15/2017
Posted 8 years agoJust a little update! I'm starting to come to the conclusion I might not be very active at all on Fur Affinity anymore. I will probably still post and comment on things here and there but I don't know if I will ever open for commissions again. I have started to go into a different direction with my Graphic Design career and that's going into doing hand lettered pieces on the side along with my Full-Time job. Having a full-time job and trying to do other things it takes up a lot of my time. I haven't really drawn anything besides letters for the past 2-3 years. I still love to draw and I hope to create cute art still it just definitely won't be as often anymore. If I do ever feel to open for commissions again I probably will it just depends on what my new direction will take me. We will see I am very excited to try and do new things! I honestly hope to be successful from it and possibly start working from home. I think that is every designers wish! Don't have to deal with driving to work Monday-Friday sitting at a desk all day. We will see! :D
Update 1-28-17
Posted 8 years agoOn weekends I'm such a night owl! so here I am posting an update on things. Just got my raise finally after my probation period at my new job! it's a decent raise. I'm back to making the hourly amount I made at my previous job from 2 years ago which isn't bad. I feel like I'm getting less taxes taken out. Anyway I'm so excited using the Wacom Cintiq 22hd at work I love it so much I wish I could afford my own for home! sigh someday! I don't even want to leave work because I want to be on the tablet all day! We just all need to win the lottery that would help things so much! lol Other than that there really isn't anything else that has been exciting to share except for I love my kitty furbabies so much. They are so cute but a handful sometimes. I'm very content with them until the Husband and I ever decide to have children if not maybe we will just adopt? it all depends on how life takes us.
I hope everyone has been good and I really want to try my best and try to get more art out there and stream again! I have been inactive for so long that it's killing me because I wish I could get some side commissions again to make the extra money I'm not making from my good job I got laid off from. Still mad about that but nothing I can do I at least still get to do chalkboard hand lettering stuff on the side here and there for others so it's not too bad I am enjoying life again that's for sure. I hated being so depressed for the two months I was unemployed. Again I hope everyone has been good! maybe tomorrow I'll try to draw something and post up here! :)
I hope everyone has been good and I really want to try my best and try to get more art out there and stream again! I have been inactive for so long that it's killing me because I wish I could get some side commissions again to make the extra money I'm not making from my good job I got laid off from. Still mad about that but nothing I can do I at least still get to do chalkboard hand lettering stuff on the side here and there for others so it's not too bad I am enjoying life again that's for sure. I hated being so depressed for the two months I was unemployed. Again I hope everyone has been good! maybe tomorrow I'll try to draw something and post up here! :)
So excited! soon will be getting a Cintiq 22hd at work!
Posted 9 years agoSo the Owner where I work decided to get some new wacom tablets for the company I work for and she let me pick a wacom cintiq 22hd to use! I did mention how I work more efficiently and faster with one since it's what I'm used to. Going back to a small bamboo fun has been a learning curve again because of the disconnect. I'm so excited to finally try out one of these! I have only ever used my 13hd. Trying out a bigger screen is going to be awesome. I may not have the same perks as my last job but this new job has been awesome and I feel sooooo much more appreciated. It makes you love your job! :) Which every place needs to do! Makes your employees love their job more!
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Posted 9 years agoHave a fun and safe Holiday!
Kitten question? anyone that has had cats.
Posted 9 years agoI adopted Kittens back in October. Wheatley I had to take the vet as soon as I got him because I think he had a respiratory infection because he was sneezing a lot. Got him antibiotics and he has been fine ever since. Luna never had any problems. Now yesterday the Husband and I noticed that Luna's left eye is cloudy. She doesn't seem to be having any pain or rubbing it. Doesn't seem to have any impairment of seeing out of it. I was just curious of what it could be. I'm so worried about her and my Husband got food poisoning too he's resting it off so now I'm worrying about him today really can't catch a break. Today Luna's eye looks a little better when I got home but doesn't seem to be dilating the same as her right eye. It still dilates but not equally if that makes sense. I do have a vet appointment for her tomorrow evening. I'm just freaking out before her appointment and I wish I knew what was wrong....I'm hoping it's something minor. I have been worried about her all day her behavior hasn't changed either so I don't know. I'm really hoping it's just a scratch that caused it and that it will heal on it's own. Wheatley and Luna do play a lot with each other. So maybe Wheatley scratched her eye? I'm a nervous wreck. My furbabies are my babies! I love them so much and for there to be something wrong with her makes me so sad....=( I am a first time kitty Mommy so I'm freaking out!
Happy Birthday to me!
Posted 9 years agoYesterday was my last day in my 20s! =D I'm 30 years old now AHHH!! just kidding. I sure don't feel 30 or even look 30. It was a fun day and the birthday festivities have only just begun!
Feeling great! =3
Posted 9 years agoI just wanted to let my followers know that I am feeling great the past month! I can honestly say that the two months I was unemployed sucked so bad I was beginning to be unmotivated and depressed. I never mentioned this but I had suicidal thoughts and I did not like that at all! I hate that feeling so much, I didn't even want to get up and do anything. All I did was sleep late and binge watch netflix everyday.... I have had those thoughts a long time ago being depressed in back high school [which was 12 years ago] but I have never ever once attempted anything because I know there is too many people I have to live for. That's why the Husband and I decided to get the furbabies when we did. Just having them brightened up my mood so much! I felt more confident and positive. The week after adopting them I got a new job! I feel like adopting them was my good luck charm it's wonderful to be employed again! Since we got the kittens and I have a new job again doing what I like to do I'm loving life and very thankful to have my Husband, family, our two furbabies and a house over our head.
I really hope to never have to feel that depressed again. Anyway positive thoughts and feelings! Crossing fingers to get a decent raise after my 60 day probation is up [I'm really hoping to get back to what I was making before so I can save money again] but the weeks leading up to Christmas I'll be working 60 hrs 5 days a week which will be some very nice paychecks! I just have to mentally prepare myself for those 12 hr days. I have done a 13 hr day before but it was usually only once a week back when I was working in fast food. I'm looking at the money I will be making which will definitely help with the credit card debt I accumulated in just two months being unemployed buying things I needed and for kitties plus Christmas and birthday presents I had to buy for the Husband and family. Can't wait for the festivities in the next coming weeks! I love Christmas time even when I was down in the dumps I usually always loved Christmas just getting together with family. Oh and my 30th birthday is coming up on December 1st! AH!!! lol I don't feel 30 at all. I probably could still pass as 20-25. lol.
I hope everyone else has been having a good end of the year! I know it's tough. I know all too well how tough life can be, but we just have to have family and friends help us through it! <3<3
I really hope to never have to feel that depressed again. Anyway positive thoughts and feelings! Crossing fingers to get a decent raise after my 60 day probation is up [I'm really hoping to get back to what I was making before so I can save money again] but the weeks leading up to Christmas I'll be working 60 hrs 5 days a week which will be some very nice paychecks! I just have to mentally prepare myself for those 12 hr days. I have done a 13 hr day before but it was usually only once a week back when I was working in fast food. I'm looking at the money I will be making which will definitely help with the credit card debt I accumulated in just two months being unemployed buying things I needed and for kitties plus Christmas and birthday presents I had to buy for the Husband and family. Can't wait for the festivities in the next coming weeks! I love Christmas time even when I was down in the dumps I usually always loved Christmas just getting together with family. Oh and my 30th birthday is coming up on December 1st! AH!!! lol I don't feel 30 at all. I probably could still pass as 20-25. lol.
I hope everyone else has been having a good end of the year! I know it's tough. I know all too well how tough life can be, but we just have to have family and friends help us through it! <3<3
