Not sure its worth sticking around. Still very much not ok but i'm trying. Deactivated my twitters. I may come back but honestly don't know.

Tired of seeing how bad the fandom and community is. Theres a lot of people who ignore red flags or evidence of abuse or toxic behavior, and I'm not just talking about my ex. There are so many artists, makers, suiters, and just people in general who do disgusting things and yet people still flock and defend them despite overwhelming evidence of shitty behavior, scamming, abuse, grooming, lying, cheating, etc etc etc...

I just can't deal with it anymore. Theres also so much entitlement in the fandom and it makes my stomach churn.

I'm done. I can't. I'm struggling to just take care of myself and be ok without having to see all the deplorable behavior that floods the community.

Do better people.

Sorry for being mostly inactive.

Had a bad break up and dealing with a lot of trauma, old and new, that the toxic relationship brought up.

I mostly just lurk. Maybe I'll come back one day. Sorry

My good friend is holding a raffle for hitting 15000 watchers on Deviantart!

Check it out here to get a chance to win some amazing art!

https://www.deviantart.com/antidark.....ners-764965486

Oh man, it been a while. 2018 has been a hell of a year, both good and bad. So here we go!

Mom update

So shortly after MFF 2017, I found out my mom was placed in hospice. I devoted the first half of 2018 traveling to visit her as well as try to help her, going down about every 2 to 2 1/2 weeks on one of my days off. She lives 3 1/2 hours from me and since I generally don't have two days off in a row, each visit meant 7 hours on the road in one day. This was very costly and I'm so thankful for all my friends who helped me out so I could afford to go down as often as I did as well as help with some comfort items for my mother and going out to eat with her.

Mom eventually improved enough to be taken off of hospice but she still needed to stay in the nursing home to keep from relapsing as it was only from her care at Village Manor that helped her health stabilize. I eventually took a month of FMLA leave so that I could go down for longer stretches of time and try to help organize Mom's possessions and figure out storage plans. This was derailed slightly, as about half way into my leave, I found out my mom was refusing to pay her full rent to the nursing home and owed several thousands dollars to them. After much hassle over two weeks, my aunt (her sister) and her brother were finally able to get financial power of attorney to sort out the money issues and make sure she didn't get kicked out of the home.

Another thing that happened while on FMLA leave was numerous hospitalizations. My mother has osteomylitis, inflammation and destruction of the bone around her right hip implant. The bone was dissolving and has been affecting other areas aside from her hips. Because of the condition, she is prone to infection and have been on many strong antibiotics to combat it. Anyways, getting back to the point, mom dislocated her hip multiple times, having to be sent to Salina regional hospital and eventually to Wichita for revisions. This happened several times. By the end of it, they removed the hip implant hardware, leaving Mom with just antibiotic filler and 100 percent wheelchair bound.

Towards the end of the FMLA leave, while dealing with the Power of Attorney stuff, I was reminded how truly paranoid my mother is as well as abusive. She truly believed that everyone was out to get her, to go through her personal documents and steal her money and possessions. On top of that, my mother has a history of playing the victim card and of gaslighting. She is emotionally abusive and seeing how she reacted during the two weeks my aunt, uncle, and I were trying to get power of attorney reminded me how bad it was and left me stressed and crying. After talking with my aunt for a while, I made the decision to leave the power of attorney between my aunt and uncle and to step back from dealing with my mother.

This is the best decision I could have made. Mom is safe at Village Manor. My aunt keeps in constant contact and we message each other for updates. Mom has discontinued all antibiotics and insisted she be on comfort measures only but she is well cared for and thats all I can ask for. Stepping away allowed me to recovered from the stress of the situation and also served as a firm reminder as to why I originally walked away from her in the first place. And while I have not visited my mother since, the light contact via phone and texting seems to work out while I try to gain control of my own life. Once her health starts declining or if I get any serious news, I will resume visiting her but for now, I have to focus on myself.

Seirei Creations and costume making

As expected from everything with my mom this year, I haven't been able to work on much. I made a quick set of legs, feet, and a tail for a small friend cosplay weekend I did with my best friend and cousin as I haven't been able to go to any cons and see alot of my friends. However, I did start playing with Sculptris, a 3D sculpting program. My roommate, Steube, has been nice enough to help me with prints and with that, I've been able to mold and start casting foam bases.

I currently have 2 bases available for sale, a chocobo and a canine. I plan on some bird bases as well as a dragon one, a feline, and some experimental ones. They are all toony style and I'm super excited to start offering these as I rebrand Seirei Creations into a fursuit part company with the occasional premade.

If you're ever interested in a base, they start at $75 plus shipping. At $100, the base can be carved out and custom eyes made to go with the base. And at $200, the base can be full prepared as a ready to fur base though this is only offered with the canine currently.

Feel free to message me if you're interested!

Other stuff

So with me stepping back form visiting Mom all the time, I've been slowly trying to work on my commission queue. I have 2 full body suits almost done and a tail for a past suit to make. There is another full body commission on my queue but I plan to refund them them when I am financially able to (hoping by early 2019).

I will also be at 2 out of state cons this winter and I can not wait. Cons are how I relax and get to see a lot of my friends so my depression has been through the roof and mental health just a mess in general. But look for me at DaishoCon in Wisconsin and MFF!

Finally, I've been talking to and dating  Shadowsedge for quite a while~ I'm so thankful to have this Derg/Serg in my life and for how understanding and patient he is. Long distance is hard (A little over 3 hr drive) but we're making it work the best we can. I always look forward to when I can visit him <3

Anyways, I think thats it for now. I do have the feraligatr up for sale on Dealersden though I need to relist it so look for the link in the comments!

Thank you all for sticking with me! Till next time~ <3

Hey guys! Its been a while! Figured I'd give an update.

Mom is still kicking so far. I'll be visiting her tomorrow to visit as well as prep for FMLA leave. I'll be taking leave from work so I can focus on spending more time with my mom as well a help with paperwork and getting preparations in motion.

If you want more updates, you can check here: https://www.gofundme.com/being-there-for-my-mother

Any and all donations are appreciated as FMLA is unpaid leave and I will still be doing weekly or biweekly trips to visit my mom.

Alternatively, you can send donations to my paypal: paypal.me/PandoraSins

Finally, I've posted the feraligatr up for sale! Its SUPER important she sells as funds from her will be paying for bills and food while I'm on leave. Please boost if you can!

https://www.thedealersden.com/listi.....ullsuit/132869
https://www.thedealersden.com/listi.....ullsuit/132869
https://www.thedealersden.com/listi.....ullsuit/132869

Sorry for the messy update. Till next time!

Oh wow, so its been a while.

Things have been busy. 2017 has turned into the year of self care as I've been tackling my mental and physical health. I've been going to therapy for about 3 months now for my anxiety, depression and PTSD as well as going to the gym for about 2 months to get in better shape.

I'm still working full time and trying to manage some craft time when I can and hope to be mostly caught up with commission by the end of the year. Regarding commissions, they will be closed indefinitely as I want to stick to mostly personal projects and premades after this. I just don't have the time and energy to work on commissions reliably and I'm sorry but also incredibly thankful for my friends who trusted me to bring their characters to life. Lesson learned!

But yeah, I guess that its for a quick update. Not much has changed otherwise.

Keep being awesome people!

-Tiamatt

This was initially posted on FB yesterday. But I have decided to share this with everyone here too in case anyone is curious as to why I am so withdrawn and to potentially help anyone else who may be currently or in the past have been in a similar situation.

Without further ado, here is my story.

So I've had a lot on my mind as of late and been thinking a lot about something I'm so grateful to be out of. I don't talk about it a lot and its only within the last year that I've really been opening up about a certain event in my life but I feel its important that I talk about it. I hope it lets people not only understand me better but also help those who have faced similar situations or are currently in one.

5 years ago, I was in an abusive relationship. Its only within the last year that I've come to realize it for what it is and try to wrap my head around it. Its definitely not your typical abusive relationship that you see or hear about. And even to me, the person who actually lived it, it doesn't seem real cause its so strange and just.... really fucked up. I guess a part of me facing it is me opening up publicly about what happened.

I dated someone I knew in high school for a while. I really liked him but we split ways after a few months. We tried again at some point before once more, splitting up but this time for a couple years. He eventually contacted me and I admitted I still had feeling for him and we started dating again. At one point, we were even engaged but due to my insecurities and my anxiety, things fell apart. I tried communicating and tried to fix things but things spiraled and for a long time, I blamed myself for it. But then I learned some disturbing things.

Now before I go further into what I discovered, let me go more into my ex. He was very intelligent. Probably the most intelligent human being I have ever met personally. But... he had multiple personalities. Six of the seven loved me. One of them didn't care for me and its how I ended up with a hand to my throat at one point. I still remember how his eyes would change when certain personalities would rise up and I remember how unnerved I was by the way the 7th one would look at me. Regardless, I still cared for him and I was willing to cope with all his personalities for his sake.

Now back to the really messed up shit. The year after that final break up was rough as I continued to try to talk to him in the hopes of fixing mistakes and working things out. But I suddenly started getting text messages from two strangers. They would directly reference my messages to my ex and.... while it creeped me out at the time, I finally see just how screwed up it really is. They monitored his texts, his emails. They watched mine as well. I eventually was able to talk to him in person and they had linked into a microphone through some electronic in the house and were texting both of us simultaneously as we talked.

My ex had taken his obsession with a shared favorite book series and made the information network from the books a reality. He made his own personal J.A.N.E that watched over him but....as I came to find out, also monitored me. But not just for that year or the last time we were together. Oh no, it was more then that. They watched me in the time we had been split up prior to him contacting me. They pulled strings and directed my life in the way that he wanted it. Yet in the end, I was unable to be shaped into what he wanted. Go figure.

I have no idea how much of a certain point of my life was my own decision. I don't know what was my choice or his will. I know I was kind of a blank slate due to my situation growing up and I know it was obvious to him, its why he tried to shape me into what he wanted. But in the end, not even he wanted me. Its fucked me up for years. Any time I find out someone has been monitoring me, its very upsetting and I get angry and I did have someone about a year ago do that.

A friend of an ex friend monitored my facebook and then would proceed to message me on FA. It creeped me the fuck out and it took me a while to understand why cause I was still cooping and learning to accept what happened with my ex had been real and not some weird sci fi shit. I've since talked to the person and we're on good terms but they have no idea of my past or the fact that what they did was a reminder of it.

All my life I have known neglect and abuse. And I'm still learning to accept the abuse for what it really is because its so far out there that my mind doesn't want to call it abuse. It doesn't know what to call it other then manipulation. But the one thing I do know is that I can finally say that I am no ok with what happened. I am still dealing with the repercussions of my ex's experiment and have been for years. I know it'll continue to be a problem but at least I finally feel ready to try to face it.

I hope that opening up has helped people understand me a bit more. I hope that opening up helps me face this and accept it fully for what is it. And I hope it helps other who have been in abusive relationships. Its hard. Its so so hard to leave an abuse relationship. It hard to move on from it. Its hard to accept it. Its hard to face it. And more then anything, its hard to recover from it. But I'm learning, and I hope others learn as well, that its ok to NOT be ok with the abuse. Its ok to NOT be ok with the abuser. I'm naturally a forgiving person and I thought that I could forgive him but I'm learning that I can't and you know what? Thats ok. After what he did, he doesn't need to be forgiven. Because what he did was not ok.

If anyone ever needs to talk to me, please don't be afraid to. I know its hard. Its taken me 5 years to get to where I can really try to comprehend my abuse. But please know you're not alone and please please please, never give up hope of having a better life.

Thank you to anyone and everyone who took the time to read this.

Stolen from

BASICS

What day are you getting there?
Sometime Thursday afternoon

How are you traveling?
Riding with the wonderful and

Where are you staying?
The Hilton

Who will you be rooming with?
PAAAARTEEEEE! and

How long are you going?
From Thursday afternoon to Sunday night


PERSONAL

What do you look like?
average height, shoulder length brown hair. Plain, boring.

What is your gender?
Birb

How tall are you?
5'7"

Can I talk to you?
Of course!

Can I touch you?
I'm generally ok with hugs if its mutual. About as far as I go for touching

Can I hug or snuggle?
Hugs as long as its mutual. Snuggles are reserved for special people~

Are you nice?
I'd like to think so????


CONVENTION

Will you be fursuiting?
Yep! I'll mostly be in my feraligatr but I'll be in Crow for a bit as well.

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
I'll be wandering around with friends or spending time with those I haven't seen since last year <3

What is the best way to find you?
twiter works! https://twitter.com/tiamatt_seirei

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Just come up and say hi! If we've talked before and I don't immediately remember your name, please dont get discouraged. I tend to remember faces and situations better untill I get to know you better.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
Not really a panel goer but we'll see.

Will you be going to parties?
No thanks. I plan to get a drink with a few old friends but thats about it.

Will you be performing?
just as my characters in suit~

What/where will you be eating?
We hoarded food for the room so probably just there.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Please just ask!

Can I visit your room?
If you're a close friend, you can come by for a quick visit but our room is already packed.

Can I buy you drinks?
I mean, sure. Go for it. I like fruity stuff~

Can I give you stuff?
If you like. But please don't feel obligated. ^^;

Can I take your picture?
Only in suit please! No one wants to see my ugly face.

What are your goals for the con this year?
Hang out with friends. Reconnect. Make new friends and try to relax!

First off, holy shit its been a long time since I've made a proper update and for that, I apologize. I was hoping to get to where I could update regularly but that never happened. I'm very sorry for that. I've got some important things to talk about that I've put off for way too long cause I wasn't sure how I wanted to handle it but its better to be straight forward then skate around it for any longer. Thus, this update.

THE YEAR IN GENERAL
2016 has been a doozy. So much has happened and frankly, its been very overwhelming. The year started off with my car dying and me having to get a new vehicle. I absolutely love my new car, don't get me wrong but the costs of making car payments plus insurance threw a wrench in my plans for the year. I was hoping to finish the last payment on my Saturn and then take the time to put money back for a new care AND use money to go see a chiropractor in town. This didn't happen. All my money essentially goes to my Kia and what money I do save goes to the few cons I've made it to this year.

As this year has gone on, I have found out three members of my family are very sick. My Grandma JoAnn as hospitalized before being released to a nursing center after being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. She passed away June 20th. My Uncle Mike was also struggling with pancreatic cancer. He passed away September 13th, not even a week ago. I have another family member who has an ongoing list of health issues piling up on top of each other like extreme anemia, severe infection in the bones around a joint, and a developing autoimmune disease. We're waiting for blood test results from a hematologist/Oncologist for further information.

My own health is also not the best. I've been battling anxiety and depression big time as of late and the issues with my neck and back are steadily getting worse as I can't afford a chiropractor. The reverse curve/scoliosis in my neck is pinching my axial nerve, resulting in constant but varying degrees of vertigo as well as headaches/migranes that never truly fully go away. The scoliosis in my lower spine also causes pain and discomfort from time to time and I don't remember the last time I got a well rested sleep that wasn't a result of me passing out from complete exhausted. Any more I have to "sleep" 8 to 10 hours a night but I constantly wake up and have to rotate from side to side and laying flat on my back to keep the stiffness when I wake up low. Those who have migranes and/or live in constant pain and discomfort know it can be very draining. I've been told several times by my roommates that I look like I'm about to faint and I always look exhausted. But until I can apply for insurance this November, I have no way to even remotely seeking help, be if from a chiropractor (which I likely will still not be able to afford due to having to go to multiple session) or a doctor to seek help for pain management, my anxiety and depression, or any other health issues that may develop. Its all very frustrating and I wish there was an easy solution.

And I never did mention the fall I took just a couple weeks ago. I admit I can be a klutz but I happened to fall down a full flight of wood stairs while trying to get ready for work. It kept me down for about a week and half as it hurt to walk or stand. But, after biting the bullet to go to the ER (NOT looking forward to that bill), I found out I only heavily bruised the area and nothing was fractured.

COMMISSIONS AND PROJECTS
Ok, on to the REALLY important stuff! This year, with everything going on, has been hard on me in the ways of trying to get anything done. Due to my health issues and the things going on this year, I am constantly exhausted and am drained of all energy by the time I come home from my full time job. The last project I completed was a quick personal project that included remaking Crow's (my Dutchie) head. And its still not officially finished. I've been helping friends with their own projects this year, worked on an art trade, and have been making slow progress on commissions, and finished a couple premades started last year. My big personal project for the year hasn't been touched since June.

I'll be honest, even though I know I don't have alot to do, because of my health, the recent family health issues, my energy and motivation have been low. I get home and I don't want move cause I hurt and I just want to zone out. I feel like having a crafting night with friends would help alot as it seems like the only time I can work now is at the monthly Artist Jam but thats not a good way to do things unless I can figure out how to do a crafting night regularly with friends to keep me motivated and moving.

That being said, I will have my commissions done this year. I promise that. I'm super bummed that means my Feraligatr will not be finished cause I've wanted nothing more then to work on her instead of constantly stressing about health, exhaustion, and commissions. But they will be done. I can no apologize enough for taking so long on everything. I wish I had more space to work with. I wish I could organize regular crafting parties with friends so we could all work on stuff in a timely manner (plus social interaction! yay!). But I'm doing what I can right now, to make things right and save my sanity and health while still getting what work I can done.

IN THE FUTURE

Now that this is all said and done, here's the last bit I'd like to talk about~

After 2016, I will likely not take commissions. I will finish projects I promised to friends but outside of that, I will stick to personal projects and premades. Speaking of personal projects, I am only working on 2 new ones before I stop for an undetermined about of time due to my health. I have a collab planned but it will not be started till my friends are ready.

Commissions will not be continued after my queue is completed due to wanting to focus on my own mental and physical health. I have anxiety and depression, I need to focus on making myself better and keeping myself happy and healthy before I can do more for others. Constantly stressing out over my health, family, commissions, money, and my own projects is just... too much so if I can eliminate one factor, I hope it'll help some.

Going back on the topic of my health, on top of discontinuing commissions, I've been questioning how long I can continue attending conventions and costuming. Its hard on my back and neck though attending cons has generally, always been a fun thing that actually helps my mental health. I just need to find a balance.

On to projects and commissions, here's what I'm hoping to do~

- COMMISSIONS
-Granite will be finished by the end of September
- Snowflake Kigu and Volibear Kigu will be finished for Nebraskon
- Velcrow will be started once kigus are at least half way done
- Silver will be a partial by MFF

-Personal Projects
- Fixing up Crow the Dutch Angel Dragon (Finish head, new wings, paw pads) will be done by MFF
-Taki the Feraligatr (original completion dated for July, pushed to November) will be done by NakaKon
- Kweh the Chocobo 3.0 be finished Spring/Summer of 2017

FINALLY....

If anyone has any questions or concerns, please feel free to reach out to me. This year has been a mess and I know I wrote a shit storm of stuff in my attempt to explain whats going on. Again, I'm so sorry for all those who have been waiting for things or just haven't heard from me in way too long.

Thank you for taking the time to read all this!

~ Tiamatt

Had to list the Silver tabby back up for sale. I really really would want to just see him get a new home at this point so I've reduced his price. Please boost if you can!

https://www.thedealersden.com/listi.....at-head/122798
https://www.thedealersden.com/listi.....at-head/122798
https://www.thedealersden.com/listi.....at-head/122798

Alright so been a long time since I've posted anything.

Things have been up and down lately. I have several family members who are extremely ill, two of them who will be lucky to last a year. My job has been keeping me busy and honestly has only added to my stress levels but I'm doing the best I can. Regardless, my anxiety and depression have been....dangerous to say the least. I've had to come to terms with alot and its honestly killing my motivation to do anything with foam or even art so I'm stepping away from that for a bit till I don't have to force myself to work (lets face it, forcing yourself to do anything results in sloppy results).

I did end up being a guest at a small local con and held a intro to creature suit fabrication panel (definition of a creature suit, choosing materials and where to find them, etc). I also made my first kigu and honestly enjoyed it enough to want to make more while I wait for my spark to work with foam to come back and in between working on another commission.

Here's my first kigu!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19790984/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19790984/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19790984/

Interesting in one? I'd be more then happy to make a couple more! For now, I'm just opening two slots. The base price is $100 and depending on complexity (as complex or more complex then the example in the picture), could be more. No deadlines please! I'll try and get this done as soon as possible and make sure they get to you in a timely manner! I also request you pay for shipping. Also note that depending on how many people show interest, I will be choosing which designs to take on. Please note me if you are interested!

SLOTS
1: PENDING
2:PENDING

EXTRA:
3: PENDING


COMMISSION UPDATES

Granite- Resin base and fur received. Waiting on new eyes. Will be adding elastic to the head and painting the jawset

Sterling- Foam base ready, fur mostly ordered (waiting on one), parts recieved

Twist- waiting on payment

To everyone who has helped with my car situation, thank you.

I should be able to get through the major pains of getting a car without selling my Tiamatt suit. However, I willing be kicking my butt into gear to finish a premade or two to cover plates and taxes so i dont have to repost my suit up for sale.

Thank you again everyone!<3 <3 <3 <3

Figured it was time for an update!

First off, I'm going to be working full time retail again here in about a week. I'm excited to have benefits back so I can take care of my back and neck issues as well as just general health stuff. On the brightside, it means more money towards cons and materials but less time to work on things but I used to work full time prior to the move so its manageable.

Also, thanks to an unexpected bonus from work, I now own an airbrush system! I will be playing with this to familiarize myself with it and get some practice with it before I start using it on big projects and commissions. But yay! Airbrush!

2016 will be an interesting year full of potential! I'm excited to try new things and continue to improve!

For an update on Commissions, please check here! - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7249564/

I'll be updating this from time to time as I either take new commissions or as I update them. For those who have commissioned me, be sure to check here from time to time to see updates!

UPDATED AS OF 01/12/2016

Current Commissions

Granite the Wolf Semi Realistic head
-Fur ordered. Should arrive soon
- Eyes ordered as of 01/12/16
- Blank ordered as of 12/18/15


Stertheder Full Suit
- Quote given
- DTD tmade
- First payment received.
- claws, nose, and pawpads ordered as of 01/12/16


Pending Commissions

Anti-Dark Heart "Velcrow" head
-quote given.
- Waiting for information on resin blank.
- Will be ordering fur swatches next paycheck

TwistGryphon Full suit
-quote given
-DTD made.
- materials to be ordered once payments start

CoffeeBean the Java Bird Partial suit
- Ref received
- Researched needed on materials


Personal Projects

Bubbles the Glowing Deathclaw
-Concept drawn
- currently researching materials
- Planned Debut late 2016?

Kweh the Chocobo 3.0
- Need to draw new concept
- Finish researching materials
- Planned Debut late 2016

Midwest furfest this year was pretty nuts! But in a good way!

My wonderful roommates this con were:  Stertheder  Twistgryphon  CanineHybrid  Pox.azraelis  rukamae  ImDoinFlipsnlsh


Sterling, Twist and I arrived Thursday evening and left around noon on Monday. I didn't suit nearly as much as I originally intended but it all worked out well as Twist and Sterling wore my suits in my stead for the Parade. It was so much fun to watch them run around and experience the joys of suiting on stop of just watching my characters being brought to life in front of my eyes. Thank you both for giving such wonderful personalities to Kweh and Pandora!

I had a great time hanging with  Keeatah and am eternally grateful she allowed me to help out with her Kandorian Creations photoshoot. It was such a wonderful experience and her works inspires me to continue to improve!

And I'm so happy I got to spend time with my con family though I wish we could have gone out to eat or hung out a bit more then we did. You all are so amazing and I'm so grateful to have you all in my life.  Keycaliber1  Arech  Kenovawolf  Foxeh~  Granitethewolf  aurawolf

Extra huge thanks to Granite and Aura! You two are truly family to me and I wish we didn't live so far from each other! I miss you both so much already but I hope that I can come visit you this year with Key in tow!

My only regrets this con is not being able to hang out with some of my awesome roommates more (Riley, Pox, and Ruru) and also not being able to hang out with  CalicoCougar and  LadyShar and  Apari outsides of just moments in passing. I also really wish I could have hung out more with  Clawshawt and  SkyRyd3r but I'm happy I got to hang out a bit and chat with them while I could!

Overall, this was a great year! I can't wait for MFF 2016!

UPDATES

Alright so I've been in my new location for roughly 3 months now and I'm quite happy here aside from a couple little work related things. But its all manageable! I have more time to work on suits and have a couple foam bases ready to fur that will be up for sale as premades in the future.

As things stand now, I have a few small commissions I'm working on as well as a couple personal projects I'll be working on throughout 2016. I'll try and keep everyone updated on this since I may be able to open up a couple small commission slots if things go well!

Now where cons are concerned, I am taking the first half of the year as a break from out of state conventions. I have a local con I will be attending in April but I am taking the time to work on small commissions, premades, and personal projects.

As it stands, here is my current list of conventions for 2016!

Conventions to find me at: 2016 Edition

Congregation - April 24-26th
Cosplacon - June 16-18th
O-Comic con - July 8-10th
Anime Iowa - July 29-31st
Archon 40 - September 30-October 2nd
Anime Nebraskon - November 4-6th
Midwest Furfest - TBA

Pox who collects rocks, Nox who wears socks, and the Fox with the locks will go to the docks to purchase some clocks only to be in shock of the clocks needing to be restocked.

Pox shares his rocks with the Nox who wears socks and the Fox with long locks as they rock out to Bach in the box named Fort Knox. Maybe later they all go for a walk and talk to a hawk about Mr Spock

and the Jocks who wear crocs and go down to the docks to talk about flocks!

While building with blocks

and then suddenly.. someone knocks at the door

still struck with shock, they drop their rocks, locks, and clocks to all say, "bullocks"

They then met an Ox who was selling cornstalks so that his Hawk named Jacques could squawk about stocks further down on the boardwalk without worrying about woks raining from the airlocks.

This was a random collaboration of many people in Riley 's stream

Stolen from Last years meme

Arrival and Departure:
Sometime early Friday and leaving Sunday

Staying at:
a hotel

How are you traveling?
Chocobo powered motor carriage

Who are you rooming with?
My boyfriend, Christie, Twist and Sterling!

Where will you be? Whats the best way to find you?
If I'm not in suit, I'll be hanging with the pokemon league people getting my geek on!

Who will you be with?
Various friends through out the con!

Which suit(s) will you be bringing?
Kweh, Pandora, possibly Crow

Are you going to Cosplay?
The chocobo is technically a cosplay suit. I lost the boots to one cosplay before the move D:

Do you do free art?
no sorry D:

What is your gender?
WE ARE BIRD

How old are you?
26

How tall are you?
Tall enough

Can I talk to you?
Sure! I try to be as easily approachable as possible ^^ feel free to come and say hi if you see me!

Can I hug and/or snuggle you?
Yes to hugs! If you're a close friend, you shouldn't need to ask cause I'll already have my arms open. If a stranger, just ask!

Are you nice?
I try to be ^^; As long as you're nice to me, expect the same in return.

If I'm talking to you, what topics should I avoid?
I'm pretty open minded so nothing bugs me much.

Are you cliquey?
Not really?

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
If I'm in suit, call out Kweh or Pandora and tap my arm gently or stand in front of me. If I don't respond, please be patient. Out of suit, well, if you recognize me, just call out Kweh, Tiamatt, Tia, Pandora, or if you know my real name, that works too.

Are you fursuiting?
Yep.

Will you do something for the camera if I ask?
Maybe, depends on what it is But I'm kinda shy and clutzy

Can I buy you drinks?
No thanks, I buy my own drinks

Can I buy you food?
depends....

Can I buy you something?
Thank you but I'd feel like I'd owe you something in return ^^;

Can I follow you around?
please don't =/ I've had issues with stalkers in the past so unless I invite you to join me....just don't

Can I follow you to your room?
Again....only if I invite you.

Do you attend room parties?
Maybe. I have several friends hosting parties this year

Can I take your picture?
You may but please ask before hand.

What panels will you be attending?
not sure on Panels. I mostly wander the halls

Is there something you are really intent on doing at this convention?
Hanging out with friends, playing pokemon and mostly having fun!

Can I give you gifts?
Thank you but again, I'd feel like I owe you something in return

Year 7 Is a go!

All new icon made by the wonderful ! Go check out his shit and go throw money at him and stuff!

Alright so! Finally an update! I've been moved in for a week now and honestly, its been very comfortable! Its just an extension of home to me and I'm happy to know my housemates are awesome and willing to put up with my shenanigans!

For the most part, everything is unpacked and sorted with the exception of the basement/workroom. Stuebe and I will be tackling that over the course of the next couple nights around work and his schooling. In the meantime, I'm working on my next personal suit by getting the resin base prepped and making sure all my templates are ready. I hope to have her as at least a partial by Nebraskon!

Other then that, the move went smoothly and started working at my new store yesterday. It was just a transfer within the company so it all went smoothly. I'll be trying to get more accustomed to my new city but I'm sure it'll be fine as I have alot of friends here to help show me around town!

Also, going to start adding a tracking list of commissions owed to me. I know some of these are delayed due to life but theres a couple that I'm afraid were forgotten and I'll be contacting those I commissioned shortly.


EDIT: tracking list is just for this journal only. Just needed it for my own sanity till I can run for a dry erase board to track it. I've edited the list to simplify it.

Waiting for...
-traditional piece
- badge
-icon
-cell shaded
-flat color

So I was hoping to buy the last 2 yards of light aqua seal fur from Imstuffedfur but sadly it sold before I had appropriate funds. Is there anyone who has a yard or two they are willing to part with?

Raptor is sold and will be delivered to their new owner this weekend. I'm excited to see their reaction to the cutie in person!

Monday is the move from Central Iowa to Nebraska. I'm more excited then nervous but it still hasn't sunk in that I move in a couple days. But it'll be a good fresh start for me and I'm excited to get moved and settled!

The Friday after the move, I'll be going to Archon in St. Louis. Not sure what suits I'm bringing but I'll be around regardless!

Once I'm back in town, I'll be starting at my new job on the 5th and trying to work on a new personal suit and maybe another premade before the holiday!

Regardless, the rest of the year will be busy for me as I get moved and settled in my new home. I'll still try to stream when I can so just look out for links every now and then!

My move is at the end of the month! Everything is set up and good to go! Just need to focus on cleaning and packing till moving day!

Things have been hectic with prepping for the move, boss being on vacation and just bouncing back and forth between the two on top of screwing my back up pretty bad for a while. Once my living room is mostly clear, I'm going to try to build a quick something since I haven't had time to so expect pics in the future!

Gonna keep moving forward and focus on improving not only myself but my life. LETS DO THIS!

So....I got home from an almost 9 hour day at work and immediately went to check my mail before heading upstairs to my apartment and found this.....

https://www.facebook.com/madison.ra.....57997469876956


Such a cute little guy! But don't worry! I didn't keep him in there! He only stayed in there long enough for me to find a tin to usher him in so that I could take him outside.

Here's his release video!

https://www.facebook.com/madison.ra.....52879167824813

As to how that little mouse got into my mailbox, I haven't a clue. I surprised him as much as he surprised me but at least he's outside now where he can forage for food and make a proper nest, preferably not in my mailbox.

Goodbye George and stay safe!

Holy hell! What a crazy last couple weeks! But I'm gonna try to recap them real quick!

Anime-Zing

Thursday night, Lizz and I arrived at the hotel and unloaded the behemoth that is Bahamut into the room. We still had work to do so we went ahead and worked on him for a while before calling it a night.

Friday, we got our badges and I got to meet the wonderful LaVies! They were such sweethearts and I'm happy to have met them. After a panel, we went back to the room to work on Bahamut.

Saturday morning and early afternoon was pretty much a repeat of Friday. We put the beast together finally and headed down to the mainstage for judging. Lizz wore her Lulu but didn't get judged for craftmanship at the time. And with the size of Bahamut, we asked to go on last to avoid holding the other contestants up. Finally, we were called up. It took several minutes to get the beast on stage and the wings attached but we finally got him on stage. Towel in hand, he was summoned on stage by Lizz's Lulu. And by the end of the night, we were awarded Best in Show! Well....Bahamut was anyways. XD He was a nightmare to make with what little time Lizz and I had to make him but we still made something gigantic!

Sunday was our lazy day. I actually got to wander the con and explore some while in Kweh. It was nice to have a day not stressing over a suit! But like any Sunday of a con, we eventually had to head home. But not before a trip to Steak N Shake!


ANIME IOWA

Anime Iowa was another stress filled con! I was on staff this year for cosplay and worked around 20 hours over the course of the weekend AFTER having to find someone to cover for me since I had a panic attack early Saturday. Between working staff duties and working on Tron Tia, my weekend was full of mayhem and me running around like a chicken with its head cut off. NEVER AGAIN. I will not work on a suit at con like that ever again after AI and Zing. I slept all over.....10 hours over the course of 3 nights. Saturday was running purely on an hour of sleep!

But I did manage to get Tron Tia done enough for a test run. I learned alot and am already planning some changes to her. Yes, she's rushed. Yes, she looks sloppy but.....I learned a ton from working on her and with the EL wires and paneling! I will get her up and running 100 percent sometime this year. And I need to make sure I buy back up EL wire since one strand I bought died completely soon after it was sewn into the suit. I also want to make fur light lines as back ups for when the EL fails. And make housings for all the wires and battery packs! Like....holy shit! All those wires were a nightmare and them not having a proper housing is why I had so many technical issues. But I'll get them fixed!

But despite spending my con working and well, working, I had alot of fun with my friends and some of the Omaha crew. I'm even more excited about my move now that its only 2 months away.


That being said, I gotta focus on my move now. My summer cons are over and, with the exception of a premade, my suit building will wait till after the move.

Gotta keep moving forward!

Holy hell, here we go again! Last weekend was Anime-Zing and this weekend is Anime Iowa!

I'll be debuting the Tron suit this weekend but mostly I'll be busy running around doing staff stuffs! Just as long as I'm not the sole person maintaining the department again this year, I don't mind x.x But I can't wait to see all the awesome people there!

Sadly, on AI is done, my vacation time will be over and I have to return to normal work. Boo! But hey, 2 months till moving date! Woot!

See ya all when I get back from Anime Iowa!

If you're going to be there, here are the suits to look for!

Kweh the Chocobo (Formal Ball ONLY)
Crow the DAD
Tron Tiamatt
Tiz Arrior cosplay