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Cubs - how we became who we are - A Story by Jester-Tiger.
General | Posted 10 years agoBabyfurs. How we all started.
Many moons ago we were all just normal wild animals.
My litter of Tigercubs was made up of 2 boys and two girls. Nothing out of the ordinary.
Our mother was a 4 year old Tigress, Lived all of her life in the wild, and except for a really cool neckless someone had given her. she was just a normal tiger.
The Cubs. Me, My brother and my two sisters were really cute orange and black cubs. tiny bundles of fur. from what i remember we mew'd a lot. suckled. attacked each others tails. normal Tigercub stuff,
Around 12 weeks old. we had started to explore the cave and outside it.
Mother had gone off hunting for food.
we heard weird sounds.. footsteps that wernt our own or Mothers..
there was a roar from our mother.. a sharp CRACK in the air and then scilence.
its all just memorys these days.. i now know that my mother was shot by poachers.
And that their real aim was to capture us..
the next few days was spent being bundled into sacks. then small cages.
being moved all over the place..
we constantly called for our mother. but she never came..
Sad Times.
we ended up in this large moving cave.. (a big truck)
there were lots of other cubs thre too. White tigers with black stripes. White tigers with blue stripes, Fox cubs, Wild cat Kits, Wolf pups, Husky pups.
Just all Babys, all motherless. all crying to be held and snuggled....
7 days passed before we made it to the destination.
A science Lab in swedden. Miles from our homes..
a Place so sterile or wildlife.
White walls,
White floors,
Metal cages with padded bottoms.
We were fed, watered, washed. not how our mother would of done it. but by these werid furless things..
we all got injections.
Later it was found out that this was a Stem cell Lab, where they were trying to find a cure for a load of childhood dieseses.
we all seemed to get the same dose of injections.
there was other animals there too. the lab was filled with various creatures.
Mice, Otters, Ferrets and some other creatures that i did not know the names..
Time for a change.
In the middle of the lab was a big Machine.
As the days and weeks went by our small cute bodies began to change. some of us found toddling around on our hind paws really easy.
we could hear and almost understand a few words.. a few words of the Humans. a few words from the other animals in the lab.
It must of been 4 weeks before they started trying to fire the machine in the middle of the lab up. it never quite worked.
i had a feeling that the mice had something to do with it not working. they always seemed to have a smile on their muzzles.
then late one night after they had tried and failed for the 7th time to get the machine to work, the accident happened.
something wasnt turned off right. a system was charging. a low humm turned into a buzz, then a whistling sound.
lots of flashing lights, red flashing lights. you could hear screaming from somewhere in the facility.
then it happened..
a blinding flash.
a screaming high pitch sound in my ears.
every muscle and bone in my small cub body felt like it was on fire.
i gazed around seeing all the other cubs rolling around in pain.
the mice were curled up into balls, tails flicking wildly.
cages rattled as cubs shock and tossed around..
and then Darkness. must of been a fuse blow..
most of us must of passed out.
Life Begins again.
i remember coming too. a tail wrapping around me. a soft voice cooing gently at me telling me "its ok Mommy mousey is here".
i rubbed my eyes with my paws.. sat up and gazed long into this almost Human thing in front of me..
She was a 6" tall Mouse. the body of a Human women, but with short fur all over, and a tail. her mousey paws picked me up and snuggled me.
it didnt take me long to notice she wasnt the only thing that had changed.. i suddenly felt like a toddler.. i clung to her like one.
i looked around the lab. doors of the cages were open. there were cubs of all types crawling or toddling around the lab.
but we all had Human traits.
we stood upright.
but we were all around 2-5 years old.
at the far edge of the lab an Otter was sat mumbling about life and how he now had to deal with stuff like engineering and things.
he had donned a Lab coat and went around picking up bits of lab equipment and organising it.
The Mousey Mommy had got a load of us in one place. she had found the bottles for feeding us and with the help of a Lizard, had started to feed the cubs..
what ever had happened in the blast had changed the very DNA of our bodies.
with us being infused with Stemcell's from children already, it had morphed us into child like creatures.
it had also made a few of us change color.
there was this white artic fox. who suddenly had blue bits on his ears and tail.
the Shock of changing though had taken its toll on our small bodys. most of us were sat in small puddles.. cubs were never potty trained anyway... in the wild it wouldnt of mattered, but here..
The mousey got up and wandered off.
a few mins later she came back pushing a lab cart with lots of packages on..
Padded Cubs.
Stacked high on the lab cart were packages of Diapers.
Blue for boys
Pink for girls
Pink/yellow for sissy's
between the adult's in the group they made them fit the cubs. small tail holes were cut into them.
Mousey had started to lay each cub down, clean them and put them into diapers..
most of us didnt fight it. we didnt fully know what diapers were.
but the feeling of being cared for was overwhelming.
after a while there was a destinct sound of crinkling as various cubs got used to their new look.
it made scampering around interesting.
the bulkyness between the legs got in the way of things.
climbing onto chairs was almost impossible.
there was a Baby kangeroo who refused to have anything but the pinkest girly ones put on him.. we all giggled when mommy called him a girl.
it must of been a few hours after the accident.
we could hear sounds from afar. sirens coming in the night.
the Otter stod up and announced that if we found like this, our outcome would be bleak.
the only thing to do is escape.
and he had already sorted most of that cause he was wearing a lab coat...
We were put onto carts and carried by the adults. those that could scamper did so..
wasnt exactly a stealthy escape.. the crinkling was amazing.. and every nw and then one of the cubs would stop, blush, giggle then carry on.
The Escape.
the Ferret/otter (we were never quite sure what he was.. a musklid of some type) in the Lab coat, had found the path leading to the loading bay.
for some reason there were humans laying around getting some sleep everywhere we went. (thats what he told us they were doing. he had a lab coat. there was no reason to ask otherwise)
we made our way into the loading area.
there was a large coach. a truck and a jeep.
whilst some of the adults got the cubs onto the coach, Mommy mousey jumped on the Jeep and started doing impressions of an army person.
she was a silly thing...
the Ferret in the lab coat took control of the jeep and mommy joined us in the coach. a few of the adults took other things there.
we drove out of the loading bay, into the night. it was cold outside.
Frost lay on the grounds outside of the lab.
the tyres crunched on the gravel. sounds we had heard as cubs when we first turned up..
but it was different things time.. we were leaving.
the blast from the machine had done all sorts of things to anyone in the range of it. the guard dogs were now upright with machine guns. most of them were in one corner smoking and playing cards. they missed us driving out..
During the mad rush to escape a few of the cubs had been seperated from the main group. they were in one of the trucks that was with us.
in the maddness that followed. that truck went the wrong direction at a junction..
Most of the adults didnt know how to drive.. they winged it..
We drove on into the darkness. Headlights might of been good. but being Wild Animals at heart, most of us had excellent night vision.
We stopped off in a forest parking area during the day. you would of thought there would of been search teams.
people hunting for us. but no-one ever came. not that we knew of.
A new Home.
The Adults had sent a few of themselves off whilst we were parked up for the 4th night in search for somewhere to live.
one of them had returned with news..
He had found what seemed to be a deserted summer camp. deep in the woods. there was lots of barriers with weird signs on them on the roads leading to it. no sign of any humans in the area. an almost perfect place.
we waited for the other adults to return and made our way to it..
It was indeed a summer camp. laid out in a pattern of huts and cabins in squares.
Linked by wooden pathways. a giant central playware/sandbox was in the middle. a bit overgrown but we could sort that.
the main gates to the place were huge wooden things. things that could be securly bolted once we were in. safe and secure.
the Main building was a large Hall. dinning area, kitchens, a large Indoor play/softplay area. (perfect for cubs)
it seemed to be well stocked. like who ever was here before had been ready for something and then had to leave in a hurry.
Mommy looked around the place. we all did. scampering around looking in rooms,cupboards, lockers.
the place had a Pharmacy. fully stocked. everything a Lab coated Ferret/otter could ever dream about..
the Nursey area had enough stacks of diapers to last a lifetime.. well a few years anyway..
baby formular, bottles, pacifiers, bibs, onesies, sleepers. everything a camp thing needed for young ones. some would need modding. Tail holes for example.
we were tied into pairs.. Mommy thought it would be safer if we were in pairs. little wraps around our wrists to each other. we had fun with it. playing double team tag and tripping the girlys over.
I was paired with another Tigercub. he was different to me. whilst my fur was Orange with black stipres. His was White with Blue stripes. we became firm friends from that point on. although we had the same taste in taking things apart. quite often during diaper changes a screw driver would be found down the front of mine.. it was there for safe keeping.
there was this Wildcat kit who was paired with a baby roo. she was kinda cute and they seemed to just snuggle than go hunting. although the kit wanted all the balls in the ball pit for his own.. and kept throwing them all over the place.
Settling in.
It didnt take long before we had started to settle in.
Cubs would turn up each morning to the daycare part for their diapers to be changed. some of the adults had taken a few under their care. Mommy mousey had taken quite a few of us in her care. she had found a logcabin built treehouse and claimed it as her own. most of the rooms were filled with cub stuff. changing tables, playpens, crib's.
there was a Disco dance hall on the site. the small arctic fox with blue bits found that. wasnt long bfore he was doing all DJ stuff.
we had various things going on on the site. cubs in paddling pools. on the play equipment. in the sandpit. the adults would disappear now and then and return with interesting objects or trucks filled with items.
seems the area was much bigger. a vast empty town lay a few miles away. filled with supplies and stuff.
there was also a Zoo just past the town. a few of the adults had looked in on the place. and there too were animals who had been changed by what ever had happened. lots of Husky males. who seemed to have forgotten about the females and just got it on with each other..
there was a small Penguin with child like looks about her. she was often on her own. playing with flowers. and was brought back to the camp to be with the other cubs.
The Ferret in the lab coat had tried to come up with a cure for the cubs. to help us become potty trained. but to no luck. it seemed also that we had all stopped ageing.
7 months went by and none of us looked any older than we did.
we never aged mentally either.. although we did learn stuff. we could count and stuff, but anything shiny and our attention was disrupted.
we all needed the care any young child would need. regular diaper changes. feeding, snuggling, batheing, naptimes, timeouts, playtime.
If any human had wandered by and gazed in it would of been a surreal thing.
Anthromorphic humanoids. Animals on their Hind legs. wandering around and interacting like humans do. riding bikes. doing chores, working. feeding, caring. we became whats know as "Furries". the smaller ones "BabyFurs".
Here and Now.
Its been 5 years since we found our new home.
Its not been easy. we have had to deal with stuff. attacks by Humans who thought we were some mutated creatures and needed putting down. the adults dealt with that..
all of us cubs have remained the same. some have migrated to training pants. pull-up's. but the majority of us are still firmly in the most crinkliest diapers ever..
its how it will always be.. we are still the same age. still look 2-5 years old. one or two seemed to have aged a bit more. but its a farce. they used adult clothes but are still crinkly underneath.
Would we ever want to return to our Wild Natural state? prob not. although i would love to see my Real Mommy again. she would love this place.
Talking of Mommys. the Mommy Mousie went throw sme weird changes. it was blamed on the Ferret in the lab coat. but i think it was something else.. one day her tail started changing. it went fluffy. her fur coat changed too. from a short mousie hair. to a Husky style coat. over the course of 4 weeks she futen from a Female Squeeky Mouse, to a gruf sounding male Husky, with a passion for chewing tennis balls. He also took control of the security side. whilst this was great for our security. we lost the snuggles, the warm bottles of formular she used to give us as she rocked us to sleep wrapped in her tail. Still we call her/him a Mousky now.. pet name..
Im sat here in the office writing this on a Com....pu...ter.. i shouldn't be in here.. i can foresee a spanking if im found out.. but noone would dare spank a lovable cute Tigercub.. would they?
Stormy and Stormy
General | Posted 10 years agoLook I have thought about this long and hard over the past day or so. and after sitting down and going through the French Stormy-Tiger. its best to live and let live. no matter how pissed off i am that MY Stormy isn't stormy anymore and right now doesn't want to be anything to do with it. its down to him. although washing away years of "jester and Stormy" isn't an easy thing to do.. it is still just "Jeff and Chris". Everyone uses good artists. its like me calling out all the other tigers for them looking like my Marci badge..
S-T looks like he has some great art. an amazing fursuit. and a massive fan base.
It is possible that these two are related though.. through the web of the Anthro, they could of been in the same litter of cubs. born from the same mother and cause they looked so close, called the same thing and mistaken for each other for a while... happens with twins all the time.
I still love my Stormy.. My Chris. all my white Plushys will stay named Stormy.. they cant change names.. it doesnt work like that.
Maybe my Chris needs some time out to re evaluate his position in the fandom.
as for me. I'm going to try and not be such an ass to this other Tiger.. were endangered animals. we need to stick together. (at least were not Lions. although Dentists always scare me)
i have already sent him a Note saying sorry. i have deleted my other journal. i shouldn't of done that.
have to remember this planet is still quite big. people can go for years without knowing they have a doppleganger or a Twin.
S-T looks like he has some great art. an amazing fursuit. and a massive fan base.
It is possible that these two are related though.. through the web of the Anthro, they could of been in the same litter of cubs. born from the same mother and cause they looked so close, called the same thing and mistaken for each other for a while... happens with twins all the time.
I still love my Stormy.. My Chris. all my white Plushys will stay named Stormy.. they cant change names.. it doesnt work like that.
Maybe my Chris needs some time out to re evaluate his position in the fandom.
as for me. I'm going to try and not be such an ass to this other Tiger.. were endangered animals. we need to stick together. (at least were not Lions. although Dentists always scare me)
i have already sent him a Note saying sorry. i have deleted my other journal. i shouldn't of done that.
have to remember this planet is still quite big. people can go for years without knowing they have a doppleganger or a Twin.
Something new
General | Posted 11 years agoWhat an Epic past few days,
Been 6 years in the making. Stormy has said about coming over.. never got a passport, couldn't make a trip, too scared on leaving the country. the excuses went on..
i was almost ready to just fall on the "its never going to happen". well its Happened. He flew out on tuesday. Landed on wednesday morning..
wasn't exactly smooth.. one way tickets are all well and good. but customs doesn't like that.. almost wasn't let in the country.
So glad he was though.
Now i still live with my father.. i had mentioned storm was coming over. ok i may have forgotten to let him know a time scale..
Also forgot to mention Storm is my boyfriend.. (not mentioned that yet)
and how long he intends to stay... (leaving it a few weeks and then we attack the embassy and start to work on Civil partnership and such.. ) I love the guy. i want to spend the rest of my life with him.
But he seems to get on well. im sure my dad isnt stupid. 1 single bed. lots of giggling.. he knows damm well what were up too..
so there now Two tiger cubs in the south of england.. Happy padded crinkly cubs..
cant wait to see what the future brings us both.
Been 6 years in the making. Stormy has said about coming over.. never got a passport, couldn't make a trip, too scared on leaving the country. the excuses went on..
i was almost ready to just fall on the "its never going to happen". well its Happened. He flew out on tuesday. Landed on wednesday morning..
wasn't exactly smooth.. one way tickets are all well and good. but customs doesn't like that.. almost wasn't let in the country.
So glad he was though.
Now i still live with my father.. i had mentioned storm was coming over. ok i may have forgotten to let him know a time scale..
Also forgot to mention Storm is my boyfriend.. (not mentioned that yet)
and how long he intends to stay... (leaving it a few weeks and then we attack the embassy and start to work on Civil partnership and such.. ) I love the guy. i want to spend the rest of my life with him.
But he seems to get on well. im sure my dad isnt stupid. 1 single bed. lots of giggling.. he knows damm well what were up too..
so there now Two tiger cubs in the south of england.. Happy padded crinkly cubs..
cant wait to see what the future brings us both.
Onwards.................>
General | Posted 12 years agoright bollox to the past. the future is what you make of it and all that bollox..
im tired of looking back at whats gone. all the accidents and shit. the recent events have shown me i need to stop worrying and start really living..
2014.. i need a new Fursuit.. i need more art to be done.. explore bigger things for my Tigercub.. (larger playpens etc.. lol).
New Job is going to be the biggest thing.. going full time at the Motorcycle workshop. and getting my MOT licence. means trips away for 3 months at a time are going to be out. but i will enjoy holidays a lot more.. plus have more money to play with.
i need to get my love life in order.. can't still be single this time next year.. i have tried to date others. but im still in love with a certain White Tigercub.. either need to find a way to make that really happen or find a way to get over it..
SL seems to be dieing.. the whole thing is getting so slow and empty.. so i go in now and then to check messages, deal with small stuff and pay my parcel rental.. thats about it these days..
i spend most of my time online on Minecraft..
Anyway Life Post heart failure is looking good.. the ICD hasn't gone off yet.. no alarms in my chest.. the odd twinge and stab of pain. but Betablockers are keeping that in check.. just need to build back into being active again.. cycling to work and stuff helps..
im tired of looking back at whats gone. all the accidents and shit. the recent events have shown me i need to stop worrying and start really living..
2014.. i need a new Fursuit.. i need more art to be done.. explore bigger things for my Tigercub.. (larger playpens etc.. lol).
New Job is going to be the biggest thing.. going full time at the Motorcycle workshop. and getting my MOT licence. means trips away for 3 months at a time are going to be out. but i will enjoy holidays a lot more.. plus have more money to play with.
i need to get my love life in order.. can't still be single this time next year.. i have tried to date others. but im still in love with a certain White Tigercub.. either need to find a way to make that really happen or find a way to get over it..
SL seems to be dieing.. the whole thing is getting so slow and empty.. so i go in now and then to check messages, deal with small stuff and pay my parcel rental.. thats about it these days..
i spend most of my time online on Minecraft..
Anyway Life Post heart failure is looking good.. the ICD hasn't gone off yet.. no alarms in my chest.. the odd twinge and stab of pain. but Betablockers are keeping that in check.. just need to build back into being active again.. cycling to work and stuff helps..
Heart of the matter
General | Posted 12 years agoIt seems i only do an update almost every 4-6 months. so much has gone on since the last update..
Basic things.
Broke up with my long term partner. only to miss him more and more each day. (get a passport and i will find a way to bring you over for a holiday.....thats all he needs to do)
I got a job. a real one.. doing real work.
Following my dreams and loves i got to do 2 days per week at a local motorbike shop. as their 2nd Mechanic. i seem to be well suited and stuff for the job. hoping to go full time in the new year and get my MOT(inspection) Licence for Motorbikes in January..
see everything going really well.
Car running good. life turning into something good. what could possibly go wrong?
well in all this i was seeing a heart specialist. been a while since i had seen one and thought it best to let them catch up with stuff. 16 year break was a tad long for them. so i had blood tests, ECG's 24 and 48 hour Tapes, and i get this letter saying they found something they arnt sure of and i need to go for an MRi scan with a infusion to speed the heart up and some dye. never had that before. but i have had MRi scans in the past. so off i go on the 13th of sept to the London Heart hospital. took the train. walked from oxford circus to the hospital. 15mins it took. nice brisk walk. walking didnt bother me. even cycling down town didnt bother me. climbing a flight of stairs it was 2 steps at a time. i wasnt majorly unfit. i went in. got undressed, went into the room, got the infusion needle put in. climbed into the scanner and laided there for 45mins with the machine making all these fun sounds. then they tell me they are infusing the liquid. at that point it felt all hell breaking loose...
My heart rate started to go UP. its supposed to do this.. felt sick. yup thats normal. headache and head about to explode.. yup thats fine..... Im going to throw up.... they rush in and pull me out. sat up for a few secs. cleared my head. felt better. they stuck me back in. gave me more fluid. i could hear chatter int he background. are you ok? they asked. NO... it HURTS. i screamed back. few more secs. just try and remain calm. how the hell older people with heart problems cope i will not know.
I cant feel my heart rate any more at this point. they end the session and they rush in. mob handed with a crash paddle kit pulled in behind them. drag me out and i was suddenly fine. as soon as i sat up i felt much better. apart from not being able to feel my arms. or legs but that changed after a few moments. the look on their faces was kinda of slightly worried look. but i was sat up talking so it cant be that bad. apparently when they do the test it pushed the heart up to 160bpm thats normal.. mine peaked at 266bpm. which is a tad too fast. anyway they let me get dressed. made sure i was ok and off i went.
the walk back to the station took ages. i couldnt walk. not like i did on the way up. it was so painful. so tiring. i got some energy drinks and downed them. felt better and carried on.. just the after effects i told myself.
got home after a long train journey. felt really tired. had some food, went to bed. had shooting pains all night.
Tuesday i spent most of the day feeling like i had just run a marathon. Tuesday night i had what felt like a heart attack. pins and needles int he left arm. shooting pains across the chest, tightness in the chest, felt sick, felt really hot. couldnt move, couldnt scream. then fell asleep. woke up and called the Dr for an emergency appointment. but it was now Wednesday and i had work, so off i went. appointment was at 11:10am. so had a couple of hours at work. boss kept telling me to relax and take it easy as i kept going white. i drove to the Dr and they did an ECG. i got told he was calling an Ambulance and i needed to get home with the car and it would pick me up from there. and not to panic but it looked like i was having "Heart Failure".... right not to panic. thanks Doc. that really helped my karma.. broke every law on speed to get home.. it wasnt that far but i know i broke lots of speed limits. got home, had enough time to pack a few essential bits into a bag and the Ambulance turned up. walked into the back sat down did a few checks. read the letter and suddenly im strapped in. wired up to god knows what and were racing at full speed to the hospital. full blue lights and everything.. (the letter explained all and was enough to make them go from being really friendly to Oh shit he is about to die mode.)
well to save this being an epic story lets jump a bit. i had multiple tests. got admitted to the Cardiac Care Unit under 24/7 montior watch. given loads of medication and nice painkillers. and they decided the best option was Heart Surgary. well more it was an implantation of a ICD into my chest to keep me alive. seems my heart keeps dropping into VT (ventricular tachycardia) and needs shocking out of it a lot.. and now and then i have had bits of VF which is normally fatal. both of which the ICD shocks you to get you back. VT its a light shock. VF its a big horse kick shock. My heart has problems. its scarred on the left ventricle. its also enlarged on that side. i have a wiring fault. right bundle branch block or something. and possibly a torn hole in the heart between two sides. they arnt too sure on that one. but its healed with rest ...
i had the ICD put in under Local anesthetic. funny thing about all this.. i was the youngest by 40 years in the ward. i got called "the baby in the corner" by a lot of the nurses.. something to do with the amount of sweetys and the tiger plushy my mum got me. and a few other things.. cub things.. when i went down the the operation they even used a teddy bear blanket to keep me warm through the op. a powered heated thing.. i wanted to keep it.. i also had an angiogram at the same time as the ICD fitted. turns out the arteries are all fine.. its weird having something this big implanted into you whilst your awake, its taking time getting used to it being there. its a lot smaller than my grandfathers one though. costs a fair bit more though. £32,000. which is a lot...
i got let out of the hospital the following day with a huge amount of drugs im going to have to take for a long time. im stuck on Betablockers to control the pulserate of my heart from now on. and the ICD is in there watching my heart and should it do anything it doesnt like im going to get a Shock..
a lot of my friends and their kids now refer to me as "Iron Tiggs". so i have had a thought. some artwork im going to have to get done. me in Tigercub form playing at being Ironman, standing around like i always do but with a stick on center bit and holding a torch tied to my wrist as the laser bit.
i was tempted to have the Ironman thing tattooed on my chest, but i have to stay clear of that for a while and magnetic things near me is a bad idea.
I have got back to driving prob faster than they would of liked. 4-6 weeks they said.. cant do that it was driving me nuts not being able to drive.. just almost 2 weeks i lasted.. it feels fine. scar is fully healed. no stitches as it was glued. its healed very fast. although im a lot younger than 99% of the patients who have it normally in the UK.
im still getting "tremors" from my heart. they still wipe me out too. so im still on the road to recovery. going to be a few more weeks before i can get back to work and even then i have to build myself back into things.
i havent mentioned much about my car in all this.. cause if i do this would be a mammoth essay. so will explain in another post in a bit. its going very funky...
Basic things.
Broke up with my long term partner. only to miss him more and more each day. (get a passport and i will find a way to bring you over for a holiday.....thats all he needs to do)
I got a job. a real one.. doing real work.
Following my dreams and loves i got to do 2 days per week at a local motorbike shop. as their 2nd Mechanic. i seem to be well suited and stuff for the job. hoping to go full time in the new year and get my MOT(inspection) Licence for Motorbikes in January..
see everything going really well.
Car running good. life turning into something good. what could possibly go wrong?
well in all this i was seeing a heart specialist. been a while since i had seen one and thought it best to let them catch up with stuff. 16 year break was a tad long for them. so i had blood tests, ECG's 24 and 48 hour Tapes, and i get this letter saying they found something they arnt sure of and i need to go for an MRi scan with a infusion to speed the heart up and some dye. never had that before. but i have had MRi scans in the past. so off i go on the 13th of sept to the London Heart hospital. took the train. walked from oxford circus to the hospital. 15mins it took. nice brisk walk. walking didnt bother me. even cycling down town didnt bother me. climbing a flight of stairs it was 2 steps at a time. i wasnt majorly unfit. i went in. got undressed, went into the room, got the infusion needle put in. climbed into the scanner and laided there for 45mins with the machine making all these fun sounds. then they tell me they are infusing the liquid. at that point it felt all hell breaking loose...
My heart rate started to go UP. its supposed to do this.. felt sick. yup thats normal. headache and head about to explode.. yup thats fine..... Im going to throw up.... they rush in and pull me out. sat up for a few secs. cleared my head. felt better. they stuck me back in. gave me more fluid. i could hear chatter int he background. are you ok? they asked. NO... it HURTS. i screamed back. few more secs. just try and remain calm. how the hell older people with heart problems cope i will not know.
I cant feel my heart rate any more at this point. they end the session and they rush in. mob handed with a crash paddle kit pulled in behind them. drag me out and i was suddenly fine. as soon as i sat up i felt much better. apart from not being able to feel my arms. or legs but that changed after a few moments. the look on their faces was kinda of slightly worried look. but i was sat up talking so it cant be that bad. apparently when they do the test it pushed the heart up to 160bpm thats normal.. mine peaked at 266bpm. which is a tad too fast. anyway they let me get dressed. made sure i was ok and off i went.
the walk back to the station took ages. i couldnt walk. not like i did on the way up. it was so painful. so tiring. i got some energy drinks and downed them. felt better and carried on.. just the after effects i told myself.
got home after a long train journey. felt really tired. had some food, went to bed. had shooting pains all night.
Tuesday i spent most of the day feeling like i had just run a marathon. Tuesday night i had what felt like a heart attack. pins and needles int he left arm. shooting pains across the chest, tightness in the chest, felt sick, felt really hot. couldnt move, couldnt scream. then fell asleep. woke up and called the Dr for an emergency appointment. but it was now Wednesday and i had work, so off i went. appointment was at 11:10am. so had a couple of hours at work. boss kept telling me to relax and take it easy as i kept going white. i drove to the Dr and they did an ECG. i got told he was calling an Ambulance and i needed to get home with the car and it would pick me up from there. and not to panic but it looked like i was having "Heart Failure".... right not to panic. thanks Doc. that really helped my karma.. broke every law on speed to get home.. it wasnt that far but i know i broke lots of speed limits. got home, had enough time to pack a few essential bits into a bag and the Ambulance turned up. walked into the back sat down did a few checks. read the letter and suddenly im strapped in. wired up to god knows what and were racing at full speed to the hospital. full blue lights and everything.. (the letter explained all and was enough to make them go from being really friendly to Oh shit he is about to die mode.)
well to save this being an epic story lets jump a bit. i had multiple tests. got admitted to the Cardiac Care Unit under 24/7 montior watch. given loads of medication and nice painkillers. and they decided the best option was Heart Surgary. well more it was an implantation of a ICD into my chest to keep me alive. seems my heart keeps dropping into VT (ventricular tachycardia) and needs shocking out of it a lot.. and now and then i have had bits of VF which is normally fatal. both of which the ICD shocks you to get you back. VT its a light shock. VF its a big horse kick shock. My heart has problems. its scarred on the left ventricle. its also enlarged on that side. i have a wiring fault. right bundle branch block or something. and possibly a torn hole in the heart between two sides. they arnt too sure on that one. but its healed with rest ...
i had the ICD put in under Local anesthetic. funny thing about all this.. i was the youngest by 40 years in the ward. i got called "the baby in the corner" by a lot of the nurses.. something to do with the amount of sweetys and the tiger plushy my mum got me. and a few other things.. cub things.. when i went down the the operation they even used a teddy bear blanket to keep me warm through the op. a powered heated thing.. i wanted to keep it.. i also had an angiogram at the same time as the ICD fitted. turns out the arteries are all fine.. its weird having something this big implanted into you whilst your awake, its taking time getting used to it being there. its a lot smaller than my grandfathers one though. costs a fair bit more though. £32,000. which is a lot...
i got let out of the hospital the following day with a huge amount of drugs im going to have to take for a long time. im stuck on Betablockers to control the pulserate of my heart from now on. and the ICD is in there watching my heart and should it do anything it doesnt like im going to get a Shock..
a lot of my friends and their kids now refer to me as "Iron Tiggs". so i have had a thought. some artwork im going to have to get done. me in Tigercub form playing at being Ironman, standing around like i always do but with a stick on center bit and holding a torch tied to my wrist as the laser bit.
i was tempted to have the Ironman thing tattooed on my chest, but i have to stay clear of that for a while and magnetic things near me is a bad idea.
I have got back to driving prob faster than they would of liked. 4-6 weeks they said.. cant do that it was driving me nuts not being able to drive.. just almost 2 weeks i lasted.. it feels fine. scar is fully healed. no stitches as it was glued. its healed very fast. although im a lot younger than 99% of the patients who have it normally in the UK.
im still getting "tremors" from my heart. they still wipe me out too. so im still on the road to recovery. going to be a few more weeks before i can get back to work and even then i have to build myself back into things.
i havent mentioned much about my car in all this.. cause if i do this would be a mammoth essay. so will explain in another post in a bit. its going very funky...
Being a Furry.. interesting times..
General | Posted 12 years agoOk. so i was on a mission with a friend recently. driving down tot he west of England to help another friend out.
Now she knows im a furry and a BabyFur. loves the whole idea of the cute stuff..
anyway were driving down through deepest darkest wiltshire and going through a bit of road that has banked sides into woodland. its that time of the year when things are just turning green, flowers are awakening from their winter sleep. and i happen to gaze into a semi daydream out the passenger window.. i suddenly come out with "hmmm Bluebells. i can see myself scamper though them, casing my tail and rolling around being cute".
my friend reply's : I would keep that to yourself. you can get locked up in a nut house for saying things like that..
Thats just the thing. every time i Imagine myself now all i see is a Tiger-cub.. not a human. but a small orange and black tiger-cub with a thick diaper on scampering about being cute.
All my dreams are Tiger related in one way or another.
Everyone around me either calles me Jester or Tiggy. even down to people in professional roles calling me Tiggy. suppose the orange and black striped hair is a give away.
Anyway i seem to have some new friends who i have become very close too recently.. they all adopt the whole cub/furry thing. even to where one of them is a fox..
Im having to re-find myself. Just became Single again. as much as a love Stormy were too far apart and that causes issues. so its a mutual end to it.. he will always be my Brother. and a good friend.
I need to get a new Fursuit.. i need money too. i need to get back into work. but finding something that i can do with my problems is hard. getting job right now is hard for most people with out issues.
i won the lottery for2 weeks running. not a big win. just £20 each week.. but its a start.. would love to win that power-ball in the states $600mil..
talking of health issues. im waiting of several appointments. different things. its like things are just getting really worn out now. parts of me are trying to leave all over the place. pins popping out of places i wish they wouldn't. for the most part i feel normal. when im dosed up with painkillers i can walk around and deal with crap. just things like my elbow leaking fluid all the time is kinda worrying.. its not infected i think.
i just wish it would all stop so i could get on with my life.. maybe genetics can hurry up and sort DNA restructuring and mesh My human DNA with that of a tiger and be done with it.
Now she knows im a furry and a BabyFur. loves the whole idea of the cute stuff..
anyway were driving down through deepest darkest wiltshire and going through a bit of road that has banked sides into woodland. its that time of the year when things are just turning green, flowers are awakening from their winter sleep. and i happen to gaze into a semi daydream out the passenger window.. i suddenly come out with "hmmm Bluebells. i can see myself scamper though them, casing my tail and rolling around being cute".
my friend reply's : I would keep that to yourself. you can get locked up in a nut house for saying things like that..
Thats just the thing. every time i Imagine myself now all i see is a Tiger-cub.. not a human. but a small orange and black tiger-cub with a thick diaper on scampering about being cute.
All my dreams are Tiger related in one way or another.
Everyone around me either calles me Jester or Tiggy. even down to people in professional roles calling me Tiggy. suppose the orange and black striped hair is a give away.
Anyway i seem to have some new friends who i have become very close too recently.. they all adopt the whole cub/furry thing. even to where one of them is a fox..
Im having to re-find myself. Just became Single again. as much as a love Stormy were too far apart and that causes issues. so its a mutual end to it.. he will always be my Brother. and a good friend.
I need to get a new Fursuit.. i need money too. i need to get back into work. but finding something that i can do with my problems is hard. getting job right now is hard for most people with out issues.
i won the lottery for2 weeks running. not a big win. just £20 each week.. but its a start.. would love to win that power-ball in the states $600mil..
talking of health issues. im waiting of several appointments. different things. its like things are just getting really worn out now. parts of me are trying to leave all over the place. pins popping out of places i wish they wouldn't. for the most part i feel normal. when im dosed up with painkillers i can walk around and deal with crap. just things like my elbow leaking fluid all the time is kinda worrying.. its not infected i think.
i just wish it would all stop so i could get on with my life.. maybe genetics can hurry up and sort DNA restructuring and mesh My human DNA with that of a tiger and be done with it.
Insanly cute kitten with STRIPES!!!!!
General | Posted 14 years agohttp://www.zooborns.com/zooborns/20.....servation.html
Sand Cat (kitten) its just Cuteness overload... so small... so cute...so stripey... if had known about the sandcat before i might of not chosen a tiger as much. (although im a tiger at heart anyway) .. sounds almost like a meme.. ceiling cat, Long Cat, Tac gnol. and now Sand (pit) Cat.... i can see loats of interesting ideas being thrown around with this type of kitten.. lets hope they breed more for the conservation program and they get rellesed back into the wild soon... although being rellesed into my home would be far better for them.. more chances of loads of snuggles and treats.
Sand Cat (kitten) its just Cuteness overload... so small... so cute...so stripey... if had known about the sandcat before i might of not chosen a tiger as much. (although im a tiger at heart anyway) .. sounds almost like a meme.. ceiling cat, Long Cat, Tac gnol. and now Sand (pit) Cat.... i can see loats of interesting ideas being thrown around with this type of kitten.. lets hope they breed more for the conservation program and they get rellesed back into the wild soon... although being rellesed into my home would be far better for them.. more chances of loads of snuggles and treats.
Artwork Needed!
General | Posted 14 years agoOk been looking around at peoples art and stuff, seen some really nice looking cub art. (clean stuff. well ish) and reallised i havent really got much in the way of pictures of me. the only ones i have really right now, are a few marci badges (which are hidden at home and i cant find them for some reason) and the ones i got from Auntie Crys. (which are just basic pencil ones). nothing much else.. and everyone else seems to have lots.
The problem i run into is being brave enough to ask people to draw me. and finding artists that are willing to draw a tigercub in a diaper/nappy.
My look doesnt change much. im a orangey brown tigercub, about 2ish years old. in a thick disposible diaper/nappy, with or without dungarees on. normally with a pacifier embedded into my muzzle and toys everywhere. and being around 2ish im always wet or damp at least . (disposible with like pawprints on the sticky part, and blue tabs on the front and tail hole.)
I got marci to base her ones on my Cub avatar from SL. and thats what i ended up with being. its how i like to look anyway. my hair in RL for example is stripped orangey and black. all my plushys are tigers.
so yeah there ya go.. if you know anyone who can do something along those lines let me know please.. i have money for art stuff set aside.. let me know what something will cost..
The problem i run into is being brave enough to ask people to draw me. and finding artists that are willing to draw a tigercub in a diaper/nappy.
My look doesnt change much. im a orangey brown tigercub, about 2ish years old. in a thick disposible diaper/nappy, with or without dungarees on. normally with a pacifier embedded into my muzzle and toys everywhere. and being around 2ish im always wet or damp at least . (disposible with like pawprints on the sticky part, and blue tabs on the front and tail hole.)
I got marci to base her ones on my Cub avatar from SL. and thats what i ended up with being. its how i like to look anyway. my hair in RL for example is stripped orangey and black. all my plushys are tigers.
so yeah there ya go.. if you know anyone who can do something along those lines let me know please.. i have money for art stuff set aside.. let me know what something will cost..
furry olyimpcs
General | Posted 14 years agohttp://www.wscountytimes.co.uk/spor.....pics_1_2737082
Mascot olympics... sounds fun., but bet i could beat them in my fursuit.
Mascot olympics... sounds fun., but bet i could beat them in my fursuit.
questionary thing
General | Posted 14 years agoStormy had this on his journal. so i thought i would copy it and put my own answers in..
STUFFS ABOUT YOU --
*Name: Jester
*Nicknames: Jesty, Tiggy, Kitten, Oi you.
*Zodiac Sign: Taurus
*Eye Color: blue
*Hair color: Brown/white
*Height: 6'2"
*Weight: 13stone
*Someone you look like: same as stormy.. i look like my Dad
*Right or Left Handed: Right
*Right or Left Footed: Right
*Sexual Orientation: gayer than a double rainbow
*Piercings/Tattoos: none
*How many siblings: one sister
*Pets: none at the moment
*Could you make a dollar/Pound in change right now?: got loads of change all over the place.
FAVORITE…
*Kind of pants: Dungerees
*Number: 7
*Color: blue
*Animal: tiger
*Drink: English Tea, Instant Coffee, Powerade Ion.
*Sports: Wackfuck
*Juice: ribena
*Cartoon Character: Tom and Jerry
*Scent: baby powder, oldspice,badedas
*Time of the Day: mid-afternoon
*Car: 1989 Rover mini 1275 or Mitsubishi Lancer GTi
*Bike: Honda CBR919 RRV Fireblade Streetfighter
HAVE YOU EVER…?
*Bungee Jumped?: yes
*Sky Dived?: No
*Made yourself throw-up?: yep
*Gone skinny dipping?: yep *blushes*
*Eaten a dog?: not that i know of?
*Ever liked somebody that you didn’t have a chance with?: yes
*Been in a mosh-pit?: no
*Been on radio/television?: yes
*Been in a porno?: no. although if you count Xtube, then YES
*Been high?: yes
*Been drunk?: yes
*Been on a plane?: yes
*Came close to dying?: yes
*Been in a sauna?: yep
*Been in a hot-tub?: yes
*Swam in the ocean?: yes (did you know fish fuck in the sea??? and do you want to swim in it still??)
*Fallen asleep in school?: yes
*Run away?: yes
*Run-away from home?: yes
*Fell off your chair?: yes
*Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call?: yes
*Saved MSN/AIM conversations?: yes
*Saved e-mails?: yes
DO YOU…?
*Like to eat?: normally
*Like talking on the phone? yes
*Care if different foods touch together on your plate?: it all goes down one hole. who cares..
*Get motion sick?: nope
*Eat healthy?: yes ish. sort of. sometimes. when im not eating junkfood.
*Have an addiction to anything?: Motorbikes. Stormy.
*Call people names often?: Asshole
*Dream in color?: Technicolor... and sometimes in slow motion too
*Have a strange/bad habit?: lots..
*Get turned on easily? yes
*Like your school/job?: yes
*Like filling out stupidly long surveys like this one?: sometimes
WHAT IS/WHAT ARE…?
*Your good luck charms: Lucky rabbits foor, lucky for me, not so for the rabbit
*Your theme song: Bond theme
*The last thing you played with: my nephews building blocks
*The last thing you ate: Bacon and egg samwich
*Items sitting next to you: mug, screwdriver, stanley knife, battlestar galactica DVD, baby powder, stack of diapers.
*The color of your underwear: Crinkly White
*Your greatest fear(s): finding out im not imortal
*A strange food you eat: Hienz baked beans direct from the tin
*A strange drink you like: heinz baby apple jucie
*The last thing to sleep in your bed: me, and my hoard of soft cute cuddly toys
*Under your bed: diapers, baby clothes, pc parts, motorcycle parts, dustbunnys and mosters.
*Your funniest memory: straight lining a non straight linable roundabout on a aging honda cx400 at 60mph.
*The time you usually go to bed: 3-5am gmt
EVER HAD…
*Chicken pox: yes
*Stitches: Shed loads
*Surgery: think im up too more than i can count.
*A broken bone: More than barry sheen.
*Love at first sight: more Love at first IM
THIS OR THAT…
*Scary or Funny Movies: scary/funny like shawn of the dead
*Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
*Root Beer or # Dr pepper
*Skiing or Snowboarding: thats on that cold stuff. eww neither..
*Summer or Winter: SUMMER - broken bones with metal. prefer hot to cold less painful
RANDOM!!!
*Dogs or Cats: cats
*Favorite Flower: one that doesnt make me sneeze
*Have you ever fired a gun?: yes
*Do you prefer travel by plane or car?: Plane
*How many pillows do you sleep with?: 2 pillows. 14 soft toys
*Obsessive Compulsive?: sometimes
*Diseases?: no
*Disorders?: Muscular drystrophy, and a load of others..
*Good Driver?: Yes im a good driver, its every other bastard on the roads that isnt.
*Good Singer?: I would of won X-factor last year if i had entered.
*Do you own a lava-lamp?: used too. it melted when i got pbored and warmed it up with a blow torch
*Do you prefer your toilet paper over-and-out or back-and-under: babywipes direct from packet.
*How many kids do you want?: 2. but no chance of me having them
*What will you name them? Josh, and shawn if boys, or Sarah and katie if girls.
*Bothered that some questions have “:”s and others have “?”s?: no
*Ever been in a fight with your pet? yes. she used to win too
*What book are you reading now? the DIY manual for suspension mechanics and race car design.
*Interesting turn-on or fetish: Diapers, abdl,
*First thing you notice visually about someone of the opposite gender: they have those weird lumps ont eh front and are bitchy most of the time.
*Foods that you LOVE: Cottage pie
*That you HATE: Tomatoes.
STUFFS ABOUT YOU --
*Name: Jester
*Nicknames: Jesty, Tiggy, Kitten, Oi you.
*Zodiac Sign: Taurus
*Eye Color: blue
*Hair color: Brown/white
*Height: 6'2"
*Weight: 13stone
*Someone you look like: same as stormy.. i look like my Dad
*Right or Left Handed: Right
*Right or Left Footed: Right
*Sexual Orientation: gayer than a double rainbow
*Piercings/Tattoos: none
*How many siblings: one sister
*Pets: none at the moment
*Could you make a dollar/Pound in change right now?: got loads of change all over the place.
FAVORITE…
*Kind of pants: Dungerees
*Number: 7
*Color: blue
*Animal: tiger
*Drink: English Tea, Instant Coffee, Powerade Ion.
*Sports: Wackfuck
*Juice: ribena
*Cartoon Character: Tom and Jerry
*Scent: baby powder, oldspice,badedas
*Time of the Day: mid-afternoon
*Car: 1989 Rover mini 1275 or Mitsubishi Lancer GTi
*Bike: Honda CBR919 RRV Fireblade Streetfighter
HAVE YOU EVER…?
*Bungee Jumped?: yes
*Sky Dived?: No
*Made yourself throw-up?: yep
*Gone skinny dipping?: yep *blushes*
*Eaten a dog?: not that i know of?
*Ever liked somebody that you didn’t have a chance with?: yes
*Been in a mosh-pit?: no
*Been on radio/television?: yes
*Been in a porno?: no. although if you count Xtube, then YES
*Been high?: yes
*Been drunk?: yes
*Been on a plane?: yes
*Came close to dying?: yes
*Been in a sauna?: yep
*Been in a hot-tub?: yes
*Swam in the ocean?: yes (did you know fish fuck in the sea??? and do you want to swim in it still??)
*Fallen asleep in school?: yes
*Run away?: yes
*Run-away from home?: yes
*Fell off your chair?: yes
*Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call?: yes
*Saved MSN/AIM conversations?: yes
*Saved e-mails?: yes
DO YOU…?
*Like to eat?: normally
*Like talking on the phone? yes
*Care if different foods touch together on your plate?: it all goes down one hole. who cares..
*Get motion sick?: nope
*Eat healthy?: yes ish. sort of. sometimes. when im not eating junkfood.
*Have an addiction to anything?: Motorbikes. Stormy.
*Call people names often?: Asshole
*Dream in color?: Technicolor... and sometimes in slow motion too
*Have a strange/bad habit?: lots..
*Get turned on easily? yes
*Like your school/job?: yes
*Like filling out stupidly long surveys like this one?: sometimes
WHAT IS/WHAT ARE…?
*Your good luck charms: Lucky rabbits foor, lucky for me, not so for the rabbit
*Your theme song: Bond theme
*The last thing you played with: my nephews building blocks
*The last thing you ate: Bacon and egg samwich
*Items sitting next to you: mug, screwdriver, stanley knife, battlestar galactica DVD, baby powder, stack of diapers.
*The color of your underwear: Crinkly White
*Your greatest fear(s): finding out im not imortal
*A strange food you eat: Hienz baked beans direct from the tin
*A strange drink you like: heinz baby apple jucie
*The last thing to sleep in your bed: me, and my hoard of soft cute cuddly toys
*Under your bed: diapers, baby clothes, pc parts, motorcycle parts, dustbunnys and mosters.
*Your funniest memory: straight lining a non straight linable roundabout on a aging honda cx400 at 60mph.
*The time you usually go to bed: 3-5am gmt
EVER HAD…
*Chicken pox: yes
*Stitches: Shed loads
*Surgery: think im up too more than i can count.
*A broken bone: More than barry sheen.
*Love at first sight: more Love at first IM
THIS OR THAT…
*Scary or Funny Movies: scary/funny like shawn of the dead
*Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
*Root Beer or # Dr pepper
*Skiing or Snowboarding: thats on that cold stuff. eww neither..
*Summer or Winter: SUMMER - broken bones with metal. prefer hot to cold less painful
RANDOM!!!
*Dogs or Cats: cats
*Favorite Flower: one that doesnt make me sneeze
*Have you ever fired a gun?: yes
*Do you prefer travel by plane or car?: Plane
*How many pillows do you sleep with?: 2 pillows. 14 soft toys
*Obsessive Compulsive?: sometimes
*Diseases?: no
*Disorders?: Muscular drystrophy, and a load of others..
*Good Driver?: Yes im a good driver, its every other bastard on the roads that isnt.
*Good Singer?: I would of won X-factor last year if i had entered.
*Do you own a lava-lamp?: used too. it melted when i got pbored and warmed it up with a blow torch
*Do you prefer your toilet paper over-and-out or back-and-under: babywipes direct from packet.
*How many kids do you want?: 2. but no chance of me having them
*What will you name them? Josh, and shawn if boys, or Sarah and katie if girls.
*Bothered that some questions have “:”s and others have “?”s?: no
*Ever been in a fight with your pet? yes. she used to win too
*What book are you reading now? the DIY manual for suspension mechanics and race car design.
*Interesting turn-on or fetish: Diapers, abdl,
*First thing you notice visually about someone of the opposite gender: they have those weird lumps ont eh front and are bitchy most of the time.
*Foods that you LOVE: Cottage pie
*That you HATE: Tomatoes.
cookies need emptying
General | Posted 15 years agonot really a journal update. just something happyfeet sent me on yahoo.. firefox and your cookies... enjoy.. http://i.imgur.com/z84c5.gif
time flys
General | Posted 15 years agohow time flys, every time i post on here its cause something bad has happened... well yeah ok so i did almost cut my little right finger off yesterday, but its not life threatening, but for the most part (touch wood). im ok. and happy... maneged to get over one big hurdle recntly. havent been on two wheels since the accidnt in 2008. but this week went out on the back of my friends bike. felt so amazing. the rush of air, the feeling of power again.. i miss the bike.. however it hurt like hell. my back ached within a few mins of getting on, and my left arm had no power to hold on... i'll stick to 4 wheels for the time being.. or 3..
the workshop out the back is currently full of bikes. got 8 on the go at the moment. all other peoples bikes, brought to me to be fixed. its nice having people trust you to fix something.. beats working in doors on computers. but i had to put a pc into the workshop the other day too so i could plug a moped in to get the ECU remapped. (full injected moped.. goes like stink).
Doing all this out doors stuff, means i havent been on SL as much. i dont know, it just doesnt hold anything for me right now. gone back to doing a bit of warcraft if i need to unwind after a hard days work. (on the US server... Sen'Jin. Alliance. look for Psymoner or Srepmap.. )
i need to loose weight.. tiggy is getting tubby... when i was riding bikes all the time, i kept a nice trim tummy, cuase of needing to use the tummy muscles to hold myself upright.. sitting around lets them get sloppy and fat looking..
doesnt help with others saying "oh you look great with it though.." no sorry not having it, i feel fat, i look fat, i hate it. i know im fat when i run down the stairs and i feel my moobs wobbling... thats not good.. tiggys arnt meant to be wobbly.
I miss being out with corsi and merlot and all my friends out in the states..
talking of which, the leg is feeling a lot better. so my plans of coming back out for a cubby christmas with mommy corsi and merlot are now being put in motion.. time to start thinking about looking at flight times.. it wont be for the full 3 months.. well possibly not... would love to try and include FC in the trip. but thats more money, and we all know times are hard at the moment..
anyway before i run off to go play with bikes again today. i was flicking through yahoo news when i found a interesting story on a news feed... scientists have been messing around with miceses again.. (moomy will love this bit).. they have made mice LESBIAN!!!! changing a gene has made female mice lesbian.. it doesnt work with the male mice, cuase they are born Bi anyway.. (just put 4 males mice together.. orgy city when they arnt fighting.)
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/.....ting-gene.html
right im off to soak my sunburnt back in some aftersun for a bit, then go grind the rear engine hanger down on the 125 traily that i welded yesterday... see y'all in a bit.. TTFN
the workshop out the back is currently full of bikes. got 8 on the go at the moment. all other peoples bikes, brought to me to be fixed. its nice having people trust you to fix something.. beats working in doors on computers. but i had to put a pc into the workshop the other day too so i could plug a moped in to get the ECU remapped. (full injected moped.. goes like stink).
Doing all this out doors stuff, means i havent been on SL as much. i dont know, it just doesnt hold anything for me right now. gone back to doing a bit of warcraft if i need to unwind after a hard days work. (on the US server... Sen'Jin. Alliance. look for Psymoner or Srepmap.. )
i need to loose weight.. tiggy is getting tubby... when i was riding bikes all the time, i kept a nice trim tummy, cuase of needing to use the tummy muscles to hold myself upright.. sitting around lets them get sloppy and fat looking..
doesnt help with others saying "oh you look great with it though.." no sorry not having it, i feel fat, i look fat, i hate it. i know im fat when i run down the stairs and i feel my moobs wobbling... thats not good.. tiggys arnt meant to be wobbly.
I miss being out with corsi and merlot and all my friends out in the states..
talking of which, the leg is feeling a lot better. so my plans of coming back out for a cubby christmas with mommy corsi and merlot are now being put in motion.. time to start thinking about looking at flight times.. it wont be for the full 3 months.. well possibly not... would love to try and include FC in the trip. but thats more money, and we all know times are hard at the moment..
anyway before i run off to go play with bikes again today. i was flicking through yahoo news when i found a interesting story on a news feed... scientists have been messing around with miceses again.. (moomy will love this bit).. they have made mice LESBIAN!!!! changing a gene has made female mice lesbian.. it doesnt work with the male mice, cuase they are born Bi anyway.. (just put 4 males mice together.. orgy city when they arnt fighting.)
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/.....ting-gene.html
right im off to soak my sunburnt back in some aftersun for a bit, then go grind the rear engine hanger down on the 125 traily that i welded yesterday... see y'all in a bit.. TTFN
FREEDOM
General | Posted 15 years agoWoohoo.. *scampers out the hospital as fast as his paws can carry him*
im home again.. got let out on good behaviour this evening.
im still not anywhere near 100% back to my old self, im on the warfrine tablets every day for the next 6 months, bi-daily blood tests, and i cant walk more than a few paces without being out of breath. but im back to my own room, with my own bed and OMG internet connection.
Its amazing how slow life travels without a internet connection. its a wonder people actully lived at all before the web..
my lungs are clear on the scan. although there was a clot ther, its cleared up with the meds they gave me, that or moved somewhere its not effecting me..
the ones in my legs will go with time and the warfrine.
i still cant fly to the states though, i wont get permission to fly for at least another 6 months. which is fair enough. that last episode was a bit close to call for me.. im gonna take things easy for a bit.
so tiggy is back...
and to make me smile. i get home to find my orange footed/hooded/eared/pawed sleeper has arrived. yay. will get pics on soon..
thankyou all for the messeges. they really helped me feel better.
im home again.. got let out on good behaviour this evening.
im still not anywhere near 100% back to my old self, im on the warfrine tablets every day for the next 6 months, bi-daily blood tests, and i cant walk more than a few paces without being out of breath. but im back to my own room, with my own bed and OMG internet connection.
Its amazing how slow life travels without a internet connection. its a wonder people actully lived at all before the web..
my lungs are clear on the scan. although there was a clot ther, its cleared up with the meds they gave me, that or moved somewhere its not effecting me..
the ones in my legs will go with time and the warfrine.
i still cant fly to the states though, i wont get permission to fly for at least another 6 months. which is fair enough. that last episode was a bit close to call for me.. im gonna take things easy for a bit.
so tiggy is back...
and to make me smile. i get home to find my orange footed/hooded/eared/pawed sleeper has arrived. yay. will get pics on soon..
thankyou all for the messeges. they really helped me feel better.
OH SHIT!!!!!!
General | Posted 15 years agolast time i posted was wedensday, just after i got the results of the scan on my leg..
needless to say things have gone down hill since then..
im posting this from the Acute medical unit in redhill hospital, in surrey
on thrusday i had a pain in my side and left lung, nothing major but it was annoying. thursday night i was on sl, kept feeling a bit shit, so logged off and went to lay down.
this is where things went bad. couldnt lay down, every postion hut like someone grabbing my insides and twisting them. not to mention my legs were like ballons. all hot, red and swollen.
called my dad who called the doctors, after a quick chat he advised we hang up and dail 999 for a ambulance. so midnight and the blue lights turn up and cart me off to hospital. spent the next 3 hours being pooked and proded in accident and emergancy. then sent to the AMU ward till i was to have a scan in the morning.. i tried to sleep, being on loads of painkiilers.. my body woke me up with a bang.. couldnt breath, laying on my side, my left lung had collapsed. leading to me gasping for air and in loads of pain. its amazing how fast a nurse can actully run......
was put on 100% oxygen and given a tube into the side via a needle to help reinflate the lung.
and so its been like that ever since, spent the last few days in loads of pain, although the lung is working now, its not right, and hurts when i breath. this is on top of the blood thinning warfrine im taking making every joint hurt and headaches like mad.. note:. blood clots are not a laughing matter. if you even think you may have one, get to the docs and tell tham you suspect a clot. they have to act. in my case Dr molt saved my life. if i had done what the first doc had said, i would be dead right now. (scary shit)
im still on heart attack watch, hocked up to a ECG machine all the time. and having regular blood pressure and oxygen tests.
i only have this connection for a short while. its on a walkNweb dongle from another patient.. works nicly.. will have to grab one mysef..
im hoping to be let out sometime mid week, but im not in a hurry. want to get well and not have to worry about my lungs or heart.
anyway. sorry for the sunday shocker from the tiger.. but thats life.
Love you all, and snuggles
Jester
p.s. thinking of asking the Unit if my tiger Fursuit AV can be their mascot..
needless to say things have gone down hill since then..
im posting this from the Acute medical unit in redhill hospital, in surrey
on thrusday i had a pain in my side and left lung, nothing major but it was annoying. thursday night i was on sl, kept feeling a bit shit, so logged off and went to lay down.
this is where things went bad. couldnt lay down, every postion hut like someone grabbing my insides and twisting them. not to mention my legs were like ballons. all hot, red and swollen.
called my dad who called the doctors, after a quick chat he advised we hang up and dail 999 for a ambulance. so midnight and the blue lights turn up and cart me off to hospital. spent the next 3 hours being pooked and proded in accident and emergancy. then sent to the AMU ward till i was to have a scan in the morning.. i tried to sleep, being on loads of painkiilers.. my body woke me up with a bang.. couldnt breath, laying on my side, my left lung had collapsed. leading to me gasping for air and in loads of pain. its amazing how fast a nurse can actully run......
was put on 100% oxygen and given a tube into the side via a needle to help reinflate the lung.
and so its been like that ever since, spent the last few days in loads of pain, although the lung is working now, its not right, and hurts when i breath. this is on top of the blood thinning warfrine im taking making every joint hurt and headaches like mad.. note:. blood clots are not a laughing matter. if you even think you may have one, get to the docs and tell tham you suspect a clot. they have to act. in my case Dr molt saved my life. if i had done what the first doc had said, i would be dead right now. (scary shit)
im still on heart attack watch, hocked up to a ECG machine all the time. and having regular blood pressure and oxygen tests.
i only have this connection for a short while. its on a walkNweb dongle from another patient.. works nicly.. will have to grab one mysef..
im hoping to be let out sometime mid week, but im not in a hurry. want to get well and not have to worry about my lungs or heart.
anyway. sorry for the sunday shocker from the tiger.. but thats life.
Love you all, and snuggles
Jester
p.s. thinking of asking the Unit if my tiger Fursuit AV can be their mascot..
Update of Update
General | Posted 15 years agoi got the results of the scan. its not good news. but its treatable.
i have multiple clots in both legs and my stomach. the largest of which is in the back of my left knee and is about 3/4 of a inch in diameter.
im on daily injections of 112mg into my tummy and warfrine tablets.
i hate having injections at the best of times, now i got to do them to myself.
when i saw the clot on the screen when they did the scan i burst into tears. its weird seeing the thing that had been causing so many problems in color on a screen.
i have to take things easy but not just lay myself up for the next 6 months, i have to move around. although even climbing thestairs is taking me ages. my body is finding this whole blood thinning thing hard, i get out of breath so easy.
my aim is to get better and then go to corsi's for christmas. i have to have something to aim for.. objectives make things easier.
Dealing with the pain and tiredness is going to be a challenge. but im a tiger ... tigers can sort anything..
i have multiple clots in both legs and my stomach. the largest of which is in the back of my left knee and is about 3/4 of a inch in diameter.
im on daily injections of 112mg into my tummy and warfrine tablets.
i hate having injections at the best of times, now i got to do them to myself.
when i saw the clot on the screen when they did the scan i burst into tears. its weird seeing the thing that had been causing so many problems in color on a screen.
i have to take things easy but not just lay myself up for the next 6 months, i have to move around. although even climbing thestairs is taking me ages. my body is finding this whole blood thinning thing hard, i get out of breath so easy.
my aim is to get better and then go to corsi's for christmas. i have to have something to aim for.. objectives make things easier.
Dealing with the pain and tiredness is going to be a challenge. but im a tiger ... tigers can sort anything..
Major Update
General | Posted 15 years agoJust so everyone knows, the trip to AC this year for me has had to be canclled.
i got diagnosed with bloodclots on the left leg. and its not like 1. its loads
they did the blood test for the clot markers, normally someone with a clot has a rating of around 150
mine was 1631.
im now on anti clotting meds, and waiting for a emergancy scan to find out just how many and where the bloody things are.
It has changed a lot of things overnight, im not allowed to get stressed or have raised blood pressure, so i have pulled back from being a admin in furnation on SL.
Im having to get a refund on my flight to the states in june, as im unfit to fly.
im so scared. shit always seems to happen to me recently.
its why chatting to friends today i have been crying like mad. Crys did a wonderful drawing of me snuggling in her arms crying. brought a sort of smile to me..
im gonna be a very different tigercub for a while..
it never rains, but it pours...
i got diagnosed with bloodclots on the left leg. and its not like 1. its loads
they did the blood test for the clot markers, normally someone with a clot has a rating of around 150
mine was 1631.
im now on anti clotting meds, and waiting for a emergancy scan to find out just how many and where the bloody things are.
It has changed a lot of things overnight, im not allowed to get stressed or have raised blood pressure, so i have pulled back from being a admin in furnation on SL.
Im having to get a refund on my flight to the states in june, as im unfit to fly.
im so scared. shit always seems to happen to me recently.
its why chatting to friends today i have been crying like mad. Crys did a wonderful drawing of me snuggling in her arms crying. brought a sort of smile to me..
im gonna be a very different tigercub for a while..
it never rains, but it pours...
meh....
General | Posted 16 years agohavent done one of these in a long time, think the last post was just after AC this year.
a lot has happened since i got back from the states.
got taken to court for dangerous driving over the accident i had. they went for me cause i had no memorys of the accident, couldnt put a defence up so was easy prey. and they got what they wanted. me guilty , banned from driving for 12months, extended restest before i can drive again. my new favorite word. "Meh". its all just Meh. watching the fuel prices go up over £1.00 per liter, im sort of glad im not having to hunt around to find cash to fill the tank up.
and the weathers turned shite, so i dont have to worry about that either.
just need to pay the fine off from the courts. then start saving as much as possible for flight money, con money, and some cash for stuff when i get back over to the states. the sooner im out this shithole of a country the better.
keep looking around trying to find someone to do a few pics of me as a cub, got marci badges. but thats about it. saw a really uber cute tiger pic done by zen.. so wish i could find someone that talented to do some cubish art of me like that.
Sl wise im mostly hanging around my rented sim furnation fire. it started life as a parklands area, but after a few days of loads of people coming in and messing around, it died off, and for the past few weeks its been dead.
so rented half of it off to nohime, who is running her gun bunnys industries from one half. (i built most of the bunker system though, got well into it)
also set aside a large plot for a community theme area, currently its snowmen/furs. gave a wide theme, anything goes this year. and already got a two snowmen having buttsecks in there, and one falling through a portal.
oh yeah before i go off, Wanted: Honda CX/GL 400 gasket set, im looking for the head gaskets for the cx400 euro-sport, but they are now out of production and im getting desperate. they are a inport in the uk, but normally found in germany/france , japan and new zealand. so if anyone knows of a bike dealer around there that might have some parts. let me know..
a lot has happened since i got back from the states.
got taken to court for dangerous driving over the accident i had. they went for me cause i had no memorys of the accident, couldnt put a defence up so was easy prey. and they got what they wanted. me guilty , banned from driving for 12months, extended restest before i can drive again. my new favorite word. "Meh". its all just Meh. watching the fuel prices go up over £1.00 per liter, im sort of glad im not having to hunt around to find cash to fill the tank up.
and the weathers turned shite, so i dont have to worry about that either.
just need to pay the fine off from the courts. then start saving as much as possible for flight money, con money, and some cash for stuff when i get back over to the states. the sooner im out this shithole of a country the better.
keep looking around trying to find someone to do a few pics of me as a cub, got marci badges. but thats about it. saw a really uber cute tiger pic done by zen.. so wish i could find someone that talented to do some cubish art of me like that.
Sl wise im mostly hanging around my rented sim furnation fire. it started life as a parklands area, but after a few days of loads of people coming in and messing around, it died off, and for the past few weeks its been dead.
so rented half of it off to nohime, who is running her gun bunnys industries from one half. (i built most of the bunker system though, got well into it)
also set aside a large plot for a community theme area, currently its snowmen/furs. gave a wide theme, anything goes this year. and already got a two snowmen having buttsecks in there, and one falling through a portal.
oh yeah before i go off, Wanted: Honda CX/GL 400 gasket set, im looking for the head gaskets for the cx400 euro-sport, but they are now out of production and im getting desperate. they are a inport in the uk, but normally found in germany/france , japan and new zealand. so if anyone knows of a bike dealer around there that might have some parts. let me know..
Post Anthrocon Thingy
General | Posted 16 years agoYay im back in texas, really enjoyed AC this year, got to meet so many of my friends again.
as usual the con rocked, they sorted a few of the problems from last year, shuttle from the hotels to the con, more water for fursuiters.
ran around in the sex kitten merlot suit for most of the con, and then was in the jester tiggy suit for the last day.
so many faces, got a new marci badge too, (upload soon) got piccys and vid's to sort.
the drive to the con was like always, long but interesting, we found cheap airsoft guns at a gas station and had fun with them on the way up. was in convoy with windchaser, and leo the lion driving their own cars.
the trip back was also in convoy, but with a slight hicup when we stopped for a mid way rest. messing around with airsoft guns is fun, but we erm got in a bit of trouble with them, we stopped at cheatham for some zzz's everyone went into a motel bar myself and orim who stayed up messing around. now some old lady had seen us turn up, watched us mess around with the airsoft guns, come to the decision we were gang members and phoned the police to report we were about to hold up the two gas stations and the motel in armed robbery. the point when the cops turned up everyone else had gone to the room, me and orim were sitting around laughing and drinking hot chocolate. i heard orim say"oh shit its the cops" then heard a police mans footsteps. i wasnt holding the gun, it was on the car seat so jumped out the car, to find a loaded and cocked 9mm pointing in my face, (yup oh holy shit) the next thing i knew i got slammed face first into the side of corsi's car. the cop started shouting orders which im not used too.. legs back arms behind back dont move or i will shoot you.
i got kicked twice when i didnt move my legs back enough, my arms got pulled backwards and then i was cuffed tightly. orim was also cuffed and then padded down and sat on the floor next to the police car. i was still face planted to corsis car. my nose bleeding from where i had hit the car. i got dragged off, and padded down, then stuck in the police car back seat. this was all over airsoft guns, yes ok they look like real guns, but the red tips and lack of noise sort of give the game away.
windchaser came over to drag me and orim back over to the motel and also got cuffed. leo had seen that happen and woke corsi who came over in a pink cowboy hat and also got padded down. russell had also joined in, so it was getting interesting, loads more cops turned up. (big thing for a small town)....
everyone else had their ID on them, myself i didnt, my passport was in the back of the car in my bag. so i had fun trying to explain to the sgt, where i was from, and then more fun trying to explain international dialing codes and stuff.
it all ended peacfully, we were told to put the "toys" away in the trunk, the police let us all go without charge. they didnt appologise for my nose or the stream of blood down my face. leo had firstaid training so fixed me up, and then we got the hell out the county,..... nice looking place but no. after that the last place i wanted to stay is there.
so all in all Anthrocon is great fun, will book for next year, but the next trip we are avoiding tennasee and locking all gun looking toys in the trunk,,,,
in the mean time im going to go soak in a hot shower, get this road grime off me, and try to relax a bit without thinking about getting shot by a police officer.. (still scares the heck out of me.)
as usual the con rocked, they sorted a few of the problems from last year, shuttle from the hotels to the con, more water for fursuiters.
ran around in the sex kitten merlot suit for most of the con, and then was in the jester tiggy suit for the last day.
so many faces, got a new marci badge too, (upload soon) got piccys and vid's to sort.
the drive to the con was like always, long but interesting, we found cheap airsoft guns at a gas station and had fun with them on the way up. was in convoy with windchaser, and leo the lion driving their own cars.
the trip back was also in convoy, but with a slight hicup when we stopped for a mid way rest. messing around with airsoft guns is fun, but we erm got in a bit of trouble with them, we stopped at cheatham for some zzz's everyone went into a motel bar myself and orim who stayed up messing around. now some old lady had seen us turn up, watched us mess around with the airsoft guns, come to the decision we were gang members and phoned the police to report we were about to hold up the two gas stations and the motel in armed robbery. the point when the cops turned up everyone else had gone to the room, me and orim were sitting around laughing and drinking hot chocolate. i heard orim say"oh shit its the cops" then heard a police mans footsteps. i wasnt holding the gun, it was on the car seat so jumped out the car, to find a loaded and cocked 9mm pointing in my face, (yup oh holy shit) the next thing i knew i got slammed face first into the side of corsi's car. the cop started shouting orders which im not used too.. legs back arms behind back dont move or i will shoot you.
i got kicked twice when i didnt move my legs back enough, my arms got pulled backwards and then i was cuffed tightly. orim was also cuffed and then padded down and sat on the floor next to the police car. i was still face planted to corsis car. my nose bleeding from where i had hit the car. i got dragged off, and padded down, then stuck in the police car back seat. this was all over airsoft guns, yes ok they look like real guns, but the red tips and lack of noise sort of give the game away.
windchaser came over to drag me and orim back over to the motel and also got cuffed. leo had seen that happen and woke corsi who came over in a pink cowboy hat and also got padded down. russell had also joined in, so it was getting interesting, loads more cops turned up. (big thing for a small town)....
everyone else had their ID on them, myself i didnt, my passport was in the back of the car in my bag. so i had fun trying to explain to the sgt, where i was from, and then more fun trying to explain international dialing codes and stuff.
it all ended peacfully, we were told to put the "toys" away in the trunk, the police let us all go without charge. they didnt appologise for my nose or the stream of blood down my face. leo had firstaid training so fixed me up, and then we got the hell out the county,..... nice looking place but no. after that the last place i wanted to stay is there.
so all in all Anthrocon is great fun, will book for next year, but the next trip we are avoiding tennasee and locking all gun looking toys in the trunk,,,,
in the mean time im going to go soak in a hot shower, get this road grime off me, and try to relax a bit without thinking about getting shot by a police officer.. (still scares the heck out of me.)
its a cub meme thingy..
General | Posted 17 years agook so a few of the other cubs have done this, thought i might as well join in.. makes sense..
Baby/Cub
[X] I have worn/used diapers by choice.
[X] I wear diapers 24/7! (
[X] I love to play with baby toys.
[X] I make a mess when I eat.
[X] I babble a lot.
[X] Pacifiers are a must have!
[X] Cups are for chumps! Gimme my baba!
[] I prefer to wear as little as possible.
[X] I suck my thumb when bored, upset, or just whenever.
[X] Oooh, shiney thing!
[] My blankie is my best security. (My old one was before it go thrown away by my mom two years ago :\)
[X] Plushies everywhere! (my Plushie is my security blankie toy..)
[X] I have to be kept away from sharp/danergous objects because I may put them in my mouth. (like for real? Who would check this box)(Have scars to prove this one.. Tiggys and sharp things dont mix)
[X] Someone else has changed or changes my diapee.
[] I proudly put my finger paintings/coloring pages on the fridge!
[] Toes and feet are for sucking on.
[X] I drool a lot.
[X] Give me cartoons over real life any day!
[X] I hate going to school/working.
[X] I have at least one article of baby clothing that I wear often.
[X] I'm cute!
[X] The bathroom is for baths ONLY!
[X] Walls are for coloring.
[X] I love to hug and cuddle.
[X] Not counting actual relatives, I have a mama/dada/big bro or sis that love me.
Total = 21
Adult
[] I always use the toilet for my business. (being incontinant due to a motorbike accident is a real pain sometimes)
[] I'm NOT cute.
[X] I'd rather be out driving or shopping than playing.(erm hard one, my bikes and cars are my big toys. and they are fun. so ish on this one)
[] I don't own any toys.
[X] I dress myself. (but only cause right now i dont have anyone to do it for me, although recently due to an accident, dad was dressing and washing me)
[] Babies\cubs are gross.
[] I'm way more into adult programming than kid stuff.
[] Feet are for walking.
[] I wear cologne/perfume.
[] I would rather watch after babies/cubs than be one.
[] I can take care of myself.(yeah no cant do this one.. im a disaster if left on my own)
[] I'm a mommy or daddy to a baby/cub.
[x] I love going out and partying with lots of people.(AB/DL/Cub Partys rule)
[] Pass me a beer!
[] I look p.h.a.t.
[X] I can cook and feed myself. (yes but its normally mashed food thats easy to cook in 5 mins)
[X] I have had/still have sex. Masturbation doesn't count. (im a 31 year old guy, even though im a cub, i have urges too)
[] Deep kisses are better than hugs.
[X] I swear a lot.(load of bollox that one)
[] The only cartoons I watch are adult ones. (does The simpsons count??)
[] My underpants are not padded. (24/7 diapered..)
[] I have a job/go to school I like going to.
[] The only things I suck on are naughty.
[] I have my own place.
[] What is a nap?
Total = 5
Yay as predicited Im a cub. well that wasnt hard to work out.. (looks down at his footed jammys he has on)
Baby/Cub
[X] I have worn/used diapers by choice.
[X] I wear diapers 24/7! (
[X] I love to play with baby toys.
[X] I make a mess when I eat.
[X] I babble a lot.
[X] Pacifiers are a must have!
[X] Cups are for chumps! Gimme my baba!
[] I prefer to wear as little as possible.
[X] I suck my thumb when bored, upset, or just whenever.
[X] Oooh, shiney thing!
[] My blankie is my best security. (My old one was before it go thrown away by my mom two years ago :\)
[X] Plushies everywhere! (my Plushie is my security blankie toy..)
[X] I have to be kept away from sharp/danergous objects because I may put them in my mouth. (like for real? Who would check this box)(Have scars to prove this one.. Tiggys and sharp things dont mix)
[X] Someone else has changed or changes my diapee.
[] I proudly put my finger paintings/coloring pages on the fridge!
[] Toes and feet are for sucking on.
[X] I drool a lot.
[X] Give me cartoons over real life any day!
[X] I hate going to school/working.
[X] I have at least one article of baby clothing that I wear often.
[X] I'm cute!
[X] The bathroom is for baths ONLY!
[X] Walls are for coloring.
[X] I love to hug and cuddle.
[X] Not counting actual relatives, I have a mama/dada/big bro or sis that love me.
Total = 21
Adult
[] I always use the toilet for my business. (being incontinant due to a motorbike accident is a real pain sometimes)
[] I'm NOT cute.
[X] I'd rather be out driving or shopping than playing.(erm hard one, my bikes and cars are my big toys. and they are fun. so ish on this one)
[] I don't own any toys.
[X] I dress myself. (but only cause right now i dont have anyone to do it for me, although recently due to an accident, dad was dressing and washing me)
[] Babies\cubs are gross.
[] I'm way more into adult programming than kid stuff.
[] Feet are for walking.
[] I wear cologne/perfume.
[] I would rather watch after babies/cubs than be one.
[] I can take care of myself.(yeah no cant do this one.. im a disaster if left on my own)
[] I'm a mommy or daddy to a baby/cub.
[x] I love going out and partying with lots of people.(AB/DL/Cub Partys rule)
[] Pass me a beer!
[] I look p.h.a.t.
[X] I can cook and feed myself. (yes but its normally mashed food thats easy to cook in 5 mins)
[X] I have had/still have sex. Masturbation doesn't count. (im a 31 year old guy, even though im a cub, i have urges too)
[] Deep kisses are better than hugs.
[X] I swear a lot.(load of bollox that one)
[] The only cartoons I watch are adult ones. (does The simpsons count??)
[] My underpants are not padded. (24/7 diapered..)
[] I have a job/go to school I like going to.
[] The only things I suck on are naughty.
[] I have my own place.
[] What is a nap?
Total = 5
Yay as predicited Im a cub. well that wasnt hard to work out.. (looks down at his footed jammys he has on)
