I dyed my hair red..... good bye brown hair... :x

I finally canceled my wow subscription :D

and moved on....
to FF XI again... X3

<3

Things have been crazy for me, like an up and down roller coster. Somethings going good then something breaks and repeat about 6 times :x
My boyfriend and I are doing fine, he found a job up here now just working his ass off, the same goes with me. But the christmas rush is finally over. So it's slowing down and saving all my christmas money for bills.

Little Rant:
Bills, bills, bills. Well mainly doctors bills and of corse they don't tell you your health insurance doesn't work until they bill you. Lets not talk about that. School is a bust since they pulled my student loan out from under me saying they don't do them anymore and we cant fund you the money. The dryer is slowly dyeing but in a funny way.... reminds me of the robot from robot chicken humping the dryer as it squeals its pain as it tries to dry. The oven today made a big boom >>; Kinda creepy but still works. Oh and lets not forget about the chair I broke. My cats been a dick and thats pretty much it. Oh no one tells you when your boyfriend moves in how much he hogs the 360... D: by the time I get to play I'm already fast asleep on the bed... But I love him to death and we're trying to share... But my motivation for drawing has come to a standstill. There's no doodles, notes, or anything but stress coming from my head. Also odd dreams of drowning and falling threw ice while a duck looks on and said I told you so. Then walks away. Sleep now is my hobby and my life is just work. the only time I have is at 5 am when I wake up thinking about things I would love to do.... Ohhh how I miss the kill streaks and the people of xbox live.

Pretty much....
Shits been going down and working on getting the commissions done asap. Sorry for the wait. Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and have a wonderful New Year.

<3

This is going to be my first open commission so I'm going to start off slow and take only 5 slots.

These Cup Cakes are Free So send me a Message with the colors, toppings, cup cake paper, eyes and mouth.

1)Zaldar
2)GabrialFox
3)NordicCXA
4)
5)

To pick look at your choices go here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3018227/

6 More days till i see my hunny and he never has to leave <3
My boyfriend  nex-gen_hero is moving in with me on the 15th of this month.
I'm just.....so happy <3

I've been working really hard, trying to get enough money as I can and find a second job. All because my boyfriend will be moving up with me around October 17th. (hopefully) The main thing I'm working on now is just to scrap up enough money for a bed. Right now I finished paying all my doctor bills when I got kidney stone. God if I knew xrays and dye were going cost like 700$ I would have just stayed home. Other then that there's not much more to update. Been doodling comics and little things put until everything is up here and put in place I probably wont post anything.

Sorry <3

Todays been an awful week and it's not even Friday yet.

What Bad Stuff Happened:

- One of my pet frogs died.
- The pools hose broke and lost about a foot of water into the yard.
- My cat was missing for a few hours.
- Got a phone call that my dad fell threw a roof.
- Been getting horrible stomach and side pains.

What Good Stuff Happened:

- Going back to collage \o/
- Went shopping and found out that I like to shop in the boys section. \o/
- Got a retro Transformers tee \o/
- Boyfriend is moving in with me in 2 months <3

computer is being so gay that it eats rainbows and shits out glitter.
Have to take it back in since when they put the hard drive in the mic is messed up and cant open programs again.....uggg...

So for the past 2 1/2 weeks I've been spending time with my bf since he came up for the 4th of july and it was amazing. <3
It's sucks he's gone now but now is the task for saving up for an apartment now so then we can live together. He's still coming up for major holidays such as christmas and maybe halloween. But until then I gotta start working my ass off and finish school.
Other then that my hard-drive went to shit after my bf left so I had to get a new one and finally I got my computer back. Good news everything works fine, the bad news I don't have photoshop anymore. Well until I go back to school :(

There's not much to do up here and since my boyfriend is coming up he wants to see what's around here....

there's not much really. I mean I can show him the falls but thats about it...

it's been a while since I posted but nothing major has happened but my scanner is a failure and my fish sushi isn't doing so well.

But from 1-14th of July my boyfriend is coming up to see me before he heads off to the Navy <3 I'm so proud of him.

But other than that I got a stack of doodle waiting to be scanned and some sl stuff I would like to post here cause the sockies I made are awesome, just gotta find time for it between the 360 playing hours XP

I know I haven't been around for a while I've been still taking care of my grandmother with her stroke and calling over now and then to check up on her. I've been also spending alot of time with my bf, who is going to come up and see me for the 4th <3 it's gunna be so much fun I can hardly wait.

hehehe he makes me so happy <3 and having him come up for the 4th for a week is going to be amazing. I just cant wait.

But that also means I'm not going to go to AC this year. I'm sure I'll be there next year <3

Anyways, hopes to talk to you all soon.

<3 Roxxie

So I went and seen the watchmen movie friday night, it was alright it followed the comic book and was good. Just got annoyed with the kids sitting around and laughing at a boob or a penis. but all in all it was a good movie.

side note:
just watch this, it's just amazing-ly funny XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDDHHrt6l4w

Yay! 21 at last. Woot X3 ok now I'm off to the DMV to get my new license.

Everything is going so well now after they Tuesday/Wednesday Scare.

Basically a intern nurse told my grandma she could go home before even looking at her sheet.
She wasn't sapose to go home yet, Which got my grandma worked up and her blood pressure up. So after talking to the doctors and checking her blood pressure for about 7 times and everyone pleading with her to stay she went home. Now she's on 24 hour care for a few months. So we've been taking this slow and everyone been going over there. But it seems things have been falling back into place slowly but surely.

Actually it's kinda nice since I spent tuesday and wednesday over there I got me and my grandma got to talking about things and I learned a lot from her.

Also my uncle and aunt decided to take off of work on sunday and monday to give me some days off from being at my grandmas and to enjoy my birthday.
I don't mind it but I just I would rather stay and take care of her...

I'm only going to say thing (er rather post this) for everyone to read and know what's going on after that I just....I don't really know..

Thursday my grandmother was sent to the hospital, they said we got her there just in time. She was going to have a major heart attack or stroke but we got her there before it happened. Friday I went to see my grandmother and to just see her there so lost and drained from the pain made me feel so ill. But then one of the many doctors came in to speak to the whole family. My mom said he was like "the bad news doctor" He told us what happened and what was wrong. Turns out my grandmas lungs were filled with fluid and that 1 of her heart values were clogged so bad that they needed to operate while another heart value was leaking. It's up to my grandma weather to have surgery or take pills to "mask" some of the pain. I know my grandmother doesn't want surgery again. So she's going to take the pills. But before all that can happen another doctor came in. A Neurologist
thats when we found out she had a stroke. So that puts everything on hold till they find out what to do next and how badly she needs surgery. If she pick surgery she has a 20% chance of death. So until then it's a waiting game. And I'll mostly be up at the hospital.

To everyone on sl that knows me:

I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being gone so long. I always wanted to be around with you guys and hang out with you, your the bestest friends in the world and always make me happy. I don't know when I will be back and I don't want you guys to worry.

To Oddy:

I'm sorry but my birthday party is going to be canceled. I promise you guys that I will and still owe you that trip to Dave and Busters but until things get better or calm down I dunno what to do..... Call me if you like but I'm not really in the mood to talk to anyone. Please tell Amanda I'm sorry and I have to cancel again it's nothing personal. She's a very good friend.

To Zaldar:

I'm gunna have to cancel our birthday trip too. To spend our birthdays together. I'll talk to you later when things cool down maybe we can do something else...

Everything else is just waiting.....


Fuck Birthdays I just want my grandma to be alright...

I sit here waiting, watching the screen.
Listening to those sweet words you say to me.
Every time I hear them I smile so sweetly.
Every time I feel them I hold them so dearly.
You came into my world on a simple cord.
But every time I hear you, you make my heart sore.
Your the sweetest thing that I have found.
Now that your hear I feel more lost then proud.
You changed something in me that I never knew I had.
Because hunny you change my world to good from bad.
I can't think how to tell you how much you mean to me.
But by holding you close to my heart it's always pleases me.
Someday I will tell you.
Someday may come soon.
But until then I have found you.
Until then your not mine.
But you have taught me the most important thing.
You taught me how not to cry.


I haven't been on lately. Not really on anything, between drama and other things that been going on I've been hiding from and locked away. I haven't drawn or spoke to anyone in a long time. My reason being is that....I found someone.....

Ok to some it might be a stupid reason but he just swept me off my feet. He's so sweet and innocent and so kind and caring. He can make me blush and make me feel amazing. I don't know what's really going on but we've been staying up late and been sleeping during the days. Chatting all night and watching movies together. Playing games and making jokes....

Just this is true bliss for me.....

and right now I sit here thinking about him while he sleeps. How I can't wait to see him tomorrow and just be able to spend time with someone thats not gunna drool all over my breasts.

Christmas was ok this year I guess.....
I dunno just this year I felt just plain awful...

Things I got:

-Wii system
-Wii play
-Animal Crossing
-ipod home
-new chair
-COD:World at War
-new mouse
-new headset

Things I'm going to return today:

-the new headset
-Wii system
-Wii play
-Animal Crossing

why because after playing with the Wii I just feel like I wont play it enough to get the 300$ use out of it. Hell I played my 360 till it's death.....the Wii I played till I got bored in 2 hours. I dunno maybe I just lost my thing for nintendo, or (how I feel) it's like getting monopoly for christmas and having no one to play with. I dont really know anyone else with a Wii that plays online and I would rather just go on my 360..... I feel just awful cause I wanted it so bad.....then I get bored with it in 2hrs....

I dunno if I should keep it and get better games for it or just stick with my ds and 360. Cause I think my friend was right, it's a party system....

Even tho I haven't had the time to post anything in a while I do have a nice handful to scan. As soon as I stop working so much e.e;

But yes I've been working two jobs now around the craziness of the holidays... Only thing that gets to me is the parking and the angry people you can never make happy... no matter what....

Oh well time to go to work.... Tonight or Tomorrow I should have a bunch of nice little uploads....

and I think I put to much sugar in my puff-rice....

So there's two games I pre-ordered but I only have enough for one. Untill I get my paycheck....so what one do I pick up first? CoD: Word at War or WotLK?

18 or lower means you're not stupid.

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[-] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
[-] You have ran into a tree.
[-] It IS possible to lick your elbow
[-] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[-] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[-] You just tried to sing them.
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[-] You have choked on your own spit.
[-] You have seen the the Matrix and still don't get it.
[-] You didn't notice that in the last question "the" was spelled twice
[-] You just looked at it.
[-] Your hair is blonde/dirty blonde.
[x] People have called you slow.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[-] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[-]You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You've fallen asleep in class
[-] If someone says "fart" you laugh.
[-]You just laughed.
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[-] You tell a story and forget what you were talking about
[x] People are often shaking their heads and walking away from you
[-] You are often told to use your "inside voice".
[-] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[x] You have eaten a bug.
[-] You are taking this test when you should be doing something important
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it
[-] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand or pocket
[-] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't even when you know it won't happen to you.
[x] You break a lot of things.
[-] Your friends know not to use big words around you
[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you're confused
[-] You have fallen out of your chair before
[-] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling
[x] The word "umm" is used many times a day.


I got 15 :D

Taken From  Tyr_Perhaps

my 360 just broke...... :(

this is just a horrible day.... and now nothing to do but wait for it to get fixed

The Manager From My Old Job Asked Me To Come Back :D

I've been looking for a second job for more money and I walked into eb games and the manager (good friend too) asked me to come back cause they need more help :D

I love you guys...... <3

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

1. I play way to many video games.
2. I never scan or ink 70% of my drawings. Gah I'm just lazy.
3. I'm so shy I'm terrible at making friends.
4. I normally never wake up past 2pm. X3
5. I really don't like cake, pie, muffins, donuts or sadly even cookies.
6. I always feel like I'm in the way or bugging people
7. I am a naturally kind and caring person and like t give with no questions asked.
8. I am a fool, and I always think there is love out there for me.


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 xpfoddball

 vaalkk

 kytec

 HunterAbrams

 hooland1303

 GabrialFox

 Sera

 Sohjin