been figuring out my workout schedule - i go swimming with my folks and we have to shuffle the hours depending on the pool schedule, so it's been difficult to squeeze art in with my awful sleep lately. i.e. i sleep in late, go swimming in the afternoon, then come home too tired to do anything lol

art itself has been a tad frustrating too. with traditional art i'm struggling to do inks without my hand/pen slipping and making errors. tends to happen on paper that has a smooth surface - textures give me far more grip so i'll look at my dozen other sketchbooks to find suitable pages.

but hey, to mitigate this block i'll probably sit at the tablet and work on the OC sketches i promised!

 prettypinkpony is dealing with some unexpected vet bills, her sketch commissions are open in the link below!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11105137/

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For anyone not in the know: it's just a day that transgender/non-binary/agender/fluid/etc. folks make it known that we're still here, living and surviving. The only reason why we're under attack is for political statements and weak macho egos pushed by a mostly-Catholic society. They can keep trying to chain us up by silencing the youth and erasing our history, but those chains are worthless and can't hold down one of the most tightly-knit communities in the world.

Reagan tried it, and all it did was inform us that our system is corrupt and doesn't care about crossfires or collateral damage from the decisions they make. If they wish to continue breaking down a corrupt system, so be it - we have ourselves to support each other like we've always done. If the pandemic taught me anything, alt-rights and other anti-queer groups are a lost cause and deserve to be left alone to burn in the fires they start. Bulls that will continue ramming their heads into things they shouldn't until they break their skulls. We'll continue simply being alive and enjoying our time on Mother Earth.

And just a reminder as an addendum: I'm somewhere in the "gender-extremist" spectrum. Started out as a 17yo questioning and experimenting via cosplay and drawing femboys, as you may have seen recently. After high school, I came out as female - but of course my confidence was below zero, so I still played off like a male to appease my intrusive thoughts. After moving across the country with my family to the west coast, I started growing and soon discovered my hidden detachment from gender entirely. I like being feminine, and my legal gender is female thanks to easy change avenues. However, I'm somewhere in the non-binary or agender ballpark - simply put, I don't really care about my public perception these days.

That said, she/they pronouns are preferred! I get that younger folks in the NSFW community are hip with certain rude terms, but I ask that you not refer to me as a trap/femboy/shemale/herm/futanari/new-half/etc. Just don't, I don't like 'em. And if you're an artist who's not a queer person, I suggest not using those terms in general, as they isolate a good population of your audience who wish to be respected as people and not objects. I understand some cases I see of this come from people who don't speak English, so there's a lesson for you if you need it.

I'm sick of all the infighting at this point, but I feel like it's always nice to check in about this stuff. I appreciate the support from all the good folks who've stayed on board throughout my time here, so thanks, and happy Trans Day! Don't ever let them take you away. C: 🏳️‍⚧️

i don't do promos which is kinda shitty of me bc so many artists use this platform to promote their businesses!!! will start doin this on occasion in that case, or as frequent as i'm willling u.u

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60345915/
first up, check out @lucyskunk's offers! digital sketches and lined art from 15-80USD, her art style is lovely and i love her mixed media approach, her comic is also really adorable and she wants to make more! 🩷🩷

Thanks for the likes and follows as usual! I've been starting a self-care routine for myself - slowly increasing my physical activity and keeping my diet relatively light (not overeating). still taking baby steps and it's not consistent yet, but so far i feel pretty good this week compared to the last! yesterday i went with my parents to the local pool to swim laps, which was truly refreshing and made me feel more grounded as a person - leaving the house without my phone was pretty great for a change!

in other news i'm also starting a loose-ish stream schedule, you can expect art streams on Picarto once or twice a week during the day, and gaming on Twitch in the evening! Links are here and i'll probably start posting notices here like i used to C:

Please stay tuned to see me show up later tonight (10pm-ish pacific?) on my Picarto channel! You heard right...I may be bringing my stream with a pretty messy history back from the dead~ :3c

https://picarto.tv/miyazukini

thanks for the follows recently, i just noticed that i'm slowly approaching 500 here, and while about half of the folks are (likely) no longer active i'm ever grateful for the attention i've had recently!

i've also noticed that i got follows from some particular artists who have a very cozy home-made traditional vibe in their art - i really admire y'all's craftiness and appreciate the followbacks! u.u

i don't care if it's a funny bit, if your username infringes on something discomforting like specific politicians PLEASE either make a new account with a better name or get outta my sight.

EDIT: Forgot to mention by moots i mean mutuals - folks I follow who follow me back. Also for OCs i'll only take visual ref. Sorry for any mixups!

Moots.

Give me characters to draw. OCs or goobers from media. Feeling some backed up pipes lately so I need some inspiration.

TBH There's a small backlog of OCs I offered to draw a few years back, but never got to them. THAT SAID feel free to add to my list bc I really want some creative drive rn.

what it says on the tin - with the highly-recommended FABUI i started a daily queue of old art from 2013! through an FA archive site i was able to recover some art that i accidentally deleted a while back, was very ecstatic to find some pretty old ones that i look back on fondly~

so yea, each day there will be an archive upload! my regular posts will continue in the meantime, i'm trying to spend much less time on socials to focus on hosting this lovely gallery for y'all. 🩷

and uhh just a heads up in the archives i will also copy the descriptions (in italics), tho they will be slightly edited out of anything heinous i said back then. nothing awful just kinda cringy to look back on now haha. sorry if anything seems odd about my paragraphs bc as a teen/YA i was dealing with autistic panics on the reg. oops

but i'm catching up on furry art submissions here! it's easy to sift through and fave thanks to FABUI (better UI)! no slight at FA staff, but this web addon gives this site some quality-of-life features that i really dig. def install it if you want using this site to be a bit faster and more convenient :)

anywho if you see a bunch of faves from me that's pretty much why, i have a backlog of 3000+ submissions and started going through and faving today! you're welcome ;3

It's been a minute since my last long post. Figured that this and dA are the best sites to put out updates on while i still lack a website of my own. SO instead of posting updates on virtual dystopias i'll discuss some stuff in these journals relating to me and the things i wanna do!

just returned from FanExpo Portland! This con used to be a huge comic con known as Wizard World - sadly their budget appears to have shrunk exponentially since their last appearance as WW in 2020. They're now a general popculture con, and don't offer some of the things that I usually look for, but not really a big deal for me.

I dug the vibes a lot! Attended some panels featuring industry artists, who offered a lot of reassurance about managing my life as a freelancer and the future of art as it stands. I feel significantly more grounded after this weekend. being around crowds of people for the first time in a few months gave me back some social chops, so i'm in a steady recovery from some cabin fever caused by an unusually difficult fall season.

in other news, i have to put up with some personal health maintenance this year. the protective layer on six of my upper teeth has eroded (cause not quite known) so I have to 1. get braces to shift my teeth around and make space for crowns 2. get one adult and one hidden tooth surgically removed, and 3. porcelain crowns placed on the effected teeth to maintain a protective layer. steps 1&2 are the only alternative to getting my lower jaw repositioned.

with that said, my progress with this enamel repair project shouldn't hinder too much with my art "career." i'll def be resting easily after the surgery, but my oral surgeon (who i've seen before for the first hidden tooth removal lol) is really efficient at what he does so recovery shouldn't last more than a day or two.

Anywho, let's talk about the art stuff i'm up to rn:
- human sona stuff has pretty much been finalized, from here i'll move on to my other OCs, namely the furry ones you all know! they will be looking different, my style's changed a lot over the last year or so.
- i'm not yet set on the branding, it's tough to find something that sticks! my most recent attempt is really good, but obviously i want to rehash it some more into something more consistent with my current style.
- once i finish branding stuff, i'll be ready to start building the website! i don't have a blueprint per say, it'll be more of a slow fuck around and find out creation. til then you're stuck with my linktree lol
- i have an idea for how i'll organize the print media that i want to sell online and in-person. sorting by fandom/genre categories seems like the best way to go, i.e. anime, games, cartoons, and general pop culture (mainstream?)

that's about it for this update, i'm pretty beat after finishing a local con season! later this year i might be tabling at events again so i'll keep you posted :3

yeah too much gossip about really sad shit, i'm tired of it so you're stuck with me i guess.

To anyone with kind-hearted parents, or even parents who are just sensible and not jerks: Ask them about their experiences with previous power shifts. They should be able to tell you how they managed to survive when things seemed bleak, especially when they were raising us kids. It helped put things into perspective for me.

For one, my dad reminded me to take most of what the 🔴's with a grain of salt, because while they may be able to take power, they aren't smart enough to utilize it against us. Yeah, I realize the big perpetrator did cause a raucous during his years, but he couldn't steal power on his own, because WE fought him. We showed him what (little) he's actually capable of, and how numbers mean NOTHING when it comes to protecting the people you care about from danger.

If you believe that there aren't enough people to fight for us, you're wrong. You saw the map. you saw how close she trailed. Even if she wasn't the ideal, and despite our loss, PLENTY of people recognized the importance of choosing the lesser evil. But even if the numbers were small, it wouldn't make us powerless. If you look historically at previous shifts in power, you will see how relatively easy it was for us to bounce back! Ignorant rich white men in power made some lousy decisions, pissing off a majority of the people who chose them, leaving room for us to make a comeback and set things straight again.

I understand that the future feels very dark and uncertain, I've mourned plenty this week, almost more than I can handle. But you know the stories we digest - action-packed movies and shows with themes of overcoming fear, *Shounen anime* - they don't seem so exaggerated and silly anymore do they? In a depressed stupor, I binge-watched Save Me! Lollipop. While it's one of the campiest rom-coms with action I've ever seen (it fucks so hard a la Ranma 1/2), it allowed me to relearn some important lessons about life in general, and how crucial it is to keep your loved ones near. It made me shed tears multiple times, especially when the main girl had her classic shoujo outbursts. This is just one of plenty of fictional stories that remind us to cling to the light, no matter what happens. Our favorite fictions will always be there for us, no matter who tries to censor it.

Dad raised a great argument against our fears: 🔴's lie through their teeth. When it comes to their stupid policies, they only *act* like they know what their doing. Yes, many places are trying to silence us, but their laws only represent toxic statements. They can easily be challenged. i.e. Taking away federal funding for transgender surgeries...I can't say I've known a single person who got their surgery done through Tricare or Medicaid. Most surgeries I've heard about were either crowdfunded or paid by private insurance companies! It's not to say that trans soldiers had an advantage, but my dad did some research and found zero cases of a surgery being federally-funded. Yes, there are plenty of other trans issues at stake, but again, the laws that they're making are pointless, because they just think that they can micromanage a small portion of the population that they totally fear.

Despite our loss, giving the victors our full attention is exactly what they want. They want us to fall apart over their win so that they can easily take advantage of us. It's like sports: if your team loses a game, they don't just give up, they keep training to eventually make it to the top! Most importantly, keep being yourselves. Not just because it makes you feel good, but also because it'll make them so afraid of us that their grasp on our society and government just falls apart at the seams!

Heya, thought I'd post an update here to let everyone know that I'm okay. Beginning of the month was real rough, but I've coped well with the trauma and my emotions are back to normal. My family's doing well too, including our two black cats Pepper and Emma!

Also wanted to note that after years of indecisiveness I'm finally on the road to being a full-time artist - working on merch and commissions! I'm disabled, so this is the best way I can be productive outside of being an "employee" of my dad's company (he's a healthcare contractor).

For now, I'm preoccupied with commissions for folks who negotiated with me in person, but soon I would like to go public! Stay tuned for more details on that~

Hey. This past week has been really rough, so activity here and elsewhere will be sparse for a while.

Last weekend, I tabled at Portland Retro Gaming Expo, and had a blast. Unfortunately, my dad and I got into a minor car accident on the way to the event Sunday morning, and I was so shaken up that I had to withdraw (my parents cleared out the table for me, bless them). For the record, the accident was very minor - a freak incident. No negligence and nobody was hurt.

All throughout those days, my elderly cat Litta was diagnosed with cancer and had to be put down today. There were some emotions ramping up to the euthanasia, but she passed very peacefully, and I felt much better after leaving the vet.

But now, there is such a huge void in our home that has caused me a night of emotional pain that I may need a few weeks to a month to recover. I'm not feeling well, my family and I are deep in the grieving process now. I heavily mourned our runaway cat Sagwa back in 2017, but in this case, this whole week in addition to a dead pet nearly caused me to break down.

I had to briefly go upstairs and lay next to Mom because I felt...Lonely. This combined feeling of sadness and restlessness. I'm an introvert, but being without a family member is tugging at my heartstrings real hard. Thankfully, I got a moment of clarity and headed back downstairs, then talked to myself and did some deep breathing.

Just another for the record - I'm okay. Things are just really rough and I'm struggling to get back up after running face-first into a wall. I don't know when lighthearted days will return, but I'm doing my best to recover. Self-care is key.

I love all of my friends and family. They've shaped who I am and I don't know where I'd be without them.

Journals here have been retired for the most part, but I think it's worth discussing these topics here!

Firstly, I will be tabling yet again at Portland Retro Gaming Expo (Portland, OR, USA) next weekend!! I'm still selling older stuff, such as prints from last year and hand-drawn art from even further back. Additionally, I will have some new smaller goodies to sell! I have a stronger grasp on how this works so my confidence is significantly better than before - can't wait to see some good folks there~

Next, you may have noticed a good majority of my recent art has been focused around non-Fur content lately. While I would apologize I figure it's a moot point as I'm in a groove lately, and don't feel that I should be sorry for enjoying what I do. That said, since I recently completed a human sona design (who took many months to make), I will try to shift my focus back to my roots! I have plenty of furry OCs who've sadly slipped under the desk since I started experimenting with more humanoid designs and drawing vehicles, and I absolutely miss the days of doodling them and posting to my gallery here. Again, now that the human sona's done, I can move on to other characters like Jiyako and Boo! There's also the piggy, Fionna of course, she's mainly a kink-focused character but I can flesh her out a bit too~

...That no person or their establishment is perfect and never will be.

Listen, we can talk about every bit of dirty laundry that makes people cringe at this site and its staff...But I would still tell you that I believe this site is good. Reason being that I look at things in relation to other things. Compared to the cesspool of AI-generated bullshit flooding deviantART, Fur Affinity is where I thrive, as well as many other furries alike!

Go ahead and badmouth the staff for making a few unusual decisions. Still, I think we can all agree that after every single crisis thrown at this site, the staff came back swinging and quickly got things back on track. These are accomplishments that tower over anything Zuckerberg or Musk have done throughout their entire lives.

Again, I'm respectful towards this site and the people who run it. Are they perfect? No, but who the hell says people running a site have to be perfect? No person on earth who works an occupation knows exactly what they're doing 100% of the time, and expecting that out of everyday people like you and me will only make you out to be like the Karens and extremist groups that we constantly mock.

I'm so sorry for the loss of the most important member of this team, and good friend to many. I hope Dragoneer's family can recover from the emotional and financial turmoil. Fur Affinity staff appears to have bounced back as usual, and I'm super thankful for how quickly they act in a dire situation! Thank you Fur Affinity. I'm here to stay, no matter what.

Apparently the whole mass panic over FA disappearing was a hoax, seemingly started by someone who had beef with Dragoneer and decided to scare Twitter into believing their artwork would be erased from here.

More info here, please inform yourselves: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10925735/

My surprise:
None

I hold the staff of FA in very high regards, especially considering the bullshit their website has had to put up with in recent years. Say what you will about said bullshit, but let's put it aside for a moment and consider the global impact that this site has had in the past two decades.

It's a homemade website, with a built-from-the-ground-up infrastructure that houses a community I will forever cherish since joining in 2013. I can wholeheartedly say that without FA, I probably wouldn't have ventured out into the fandom as far as I have.

I hope Neer's family and friends are doing okay, and am wishing the best to them as well as all FA staff members. Thank you all, and especially Neer, for providing such a loving home to all furry artists and enthusiasts.

bringing the journal out of retirement just for this announcement - i'll be at Furlandia in the Dealer's Den this year! am honored to have made it into their main exhibitors room. tho i'm aware that this year they made the controversial decision to accept mostly new folks which is understandably upsetting for the regular vendors who attend - support them however you can in addition to the up-and-coming artists/vendors who will be there like myself!

as of right now merch production has been halted for a while, sadly due to my own lack of self-management and inexperience with selling stuff. additionally i'm undergoing a minor overhaul in "brand" which has been enjoyable, but also given me some paralysis on making decisions. fortunately, i have a pretty decent selection of items from my last table a few months ago, a few of which will suit the furry-positive vibes of the event!

in the meantime, i'm feeling more confident in drawing so i should be able to crank out some cute original and fanmade stuff for this event! mostly the former, because i'm holding the strong assumption that furcon shoppers tend to be drawn more towards original works! later this week i'll be out of town, but afterwards i look forward to preparations for Furlandia! i attended a couple previous events and really loved the atmosphere, it's really sweet to have a furcon that's close enough to me locally~

yup, i figured most folks who follow me here also follow me on other platforms. NOT leaving, mind you! i just want to try and get a universal update system thingy started...not sure how yet but in the meantime check out my carrd for all the socials i use! my tumblr blog will contain the most worded updates, so i'd recommend you follow that one.

in other news, i'll be at portland retro gaming expo this coming weekend! booth #740, i'm returning from quite a few years of art limbo but lately i've been making strides in my technique and coming up with new ideas! am really pumped~

made an announcement on my socials that i'm going on a vacation to get away from all the CEO/management drama. it's too much for me to witness and i just want to be able to focus on what i want to do with my life that doesn't involve superficial crap.

that said, i'll be sticking around here as the nsfw content is good seratonin for me and i also would like to be able to communicate to an audience somehow, on a site that isn't so convoluted like big tech socials. as usual will be working on art and trying to be more active in posting said art!

so i'm sure some of y'all noticed i was experimenting with a name-change across my socials. it wasn't a bad pick, but unfortunately it didn't give me the same or more serotonin that my current name does. looks like i'll be sticking with what i got, which tbh, is totally fine! change is hard especially on the internet lol

i will go ahead and note that my twitch name has unfortunately been locked from changing, so for the time being i may keep streaming there under the goofy name until it unlocks, or temporarily stream on youtube! i'll let you know what i decide on in the end, the latter seems pretty likely...

next up, what i'll be doing for the rest of the summer and into the fall: i have a table coming up in october! i won't reveal details yet, just in case things fall through. but i'm really looking forward to my return to tabling at events! the one caveat is that i basically have nothing new produced as it stands.

since i grew more reclusive during the pandemic, it's been frustrating to pull myself together and get out ideas that have been stuck in my head for so long. at least i have ideas to begin with, i just need to brainstorm more to get clarity with what exactly i want. but hopefully you can expect stickers, prints, and possibly even acrylic charms! i look forward to making some adorable fanart, as well as start working on original merch featuring my characters~

that about finishes this announcement, y'all have a fun and safe summer!