I hate this shit. I fucking give up. I am fucking tired of this. I do eerything I can gdo to be with a girl and I lose at the end. i am fucking done with it. Fuck this Sl busness and Fuck this Rl shit. I am goign back single and I am going back to my Rp life and fuck my Rl life. I fucking done with it. nothign left for me. i screwed everythign up in my life and no way to turn back. This is fucking bullshit. If your took time to rread this. Pat your self on the back and DONT FUCKING IM ME BACK. I am pissed upset and beyond hurt. my heart is beyond dropped hurtting. It's in Serve pain. It is gone to hell and it wont be back forsometime. I fucking give up. Goodbye all.

I know her Real name and everything. know a lot fo her for a while. Anywho, I love Crimson Bellic. She has been there for me as I have been there for her. I love her to bit's. I think everything is going to be alright now. I am looking for a job so I can move to her. But I am failing. Where both looking option's for me to move. hehe. But yes my life is getting better and back on track.

I want everyone to know that that I have been trying to get back online as well. I am working on it. My mother took my main cord out of my desktop and Now I think the main computer died on me. I am asking somone if they coudl help me with my compuiter probelm. I am begging atm. I need somone to help me on my computer problem.

Anywho. TTYL. Love ya all. And thank you everyone that has always been there for me. I could make a list of the one's that I mean by this. But there will be some pople upset at me for it.

Don't ask me why or what or anything. But I lost my net as well I lost Sara. Don't ask me please. I beg of you. DOn't ask me. Unless you absoltly have to. It hurt's me. But I found another love that I have been able to pick right back up my feet and move on. I am still hurt from it. But I think I will be fine. I also lost my home computer. My mother ripped the main power cord out of the wall and the cpu. I checked the computer, and it's fine. but she took my desktop and my laptop. She tell's me that the only way for me to get it back is if I move out. Well I am moving. But don't know whem. I will keep you updated ont hat. but I did find a job a temporaly job but it works. I get 9.00 bucks a hour for only the weekend. Anywho, g2g take care and there is my pathetic update. As well the story fo my life atm.

Hehe, what you up to.

Do you think you could tell me what you think respect means to you? If you can tell me in your own words what it means to you. I would like to know.

Oh, I wanted to post that on SL I will be having a baby soon on SL, and in RL, I have a plan to go see Sara my angel a comming weekend. Anywho, ttyl. Have fun hehe

I am getting married on sl, and I am getting engadged in RL as well, so yah. I wanted to tell you all that I am getting married in SL and I cant believet hat but I guess I can. I can also feel that we are going to be really close in RL as well. i love Sara to bits as she loves me for I am. I love you Sara and i will do everything for you.


Proposed on SL 08-13-2009

Alright She loves me nd she said that I am silly for thinking like that, so where still together and I feel happy again tell me desktops OS (Operating System) Died on me, a firend of mine is nice enought that he is sending me 2 Disk's One has the copy of windows service pack 2, than there is the new Linux that he said is really good to have, so I have to ask, which one would you prefer.

The Windows Service Pack 2.

Or

The New Linux.

These are vote's so which ever vote wins will be on my computer by somone, he said that there live diskes and live copies, so I am greatful, but I will loose everything so Iam sorry if the ones on SL but I will not be able to come online anylonger, the only tme I will get on SL is when Sara my love gets on and that will be it. no other reason. hehe well ttyl have fun and please vote, I must know.

Tomorrow, I feel like I will lose my life my light my soul the greatest thing that has ever happen to me to a choice, and I fear that I will lose on the deision, I already feel weak, but I will feel weaker insideif the greatest thing that has happened to me disappear's, and if that happens' I dont knwo what I wil do, I dont know if I can be me again. I warn everyone that if I lose Sara the greatest thing that has entered and has made me once again, I might lose it and will be missed fo ra while, it will hurt my beyound anything I have felt ina long time. I know it hasn't even started but I am already tearing as well fearing for the worst before it even happening. I fear it and I don't know what ot do. All I can go is pray and hope that I win, but I know that I will lose. I love her deeply and I will do anything for her even if it metn the end of the world, I will be there for her and protect her. I LOVE YOU SARA AND NOTHING WILL CHANGE THAT.

Please forgive my message.

*Goes over into the corner and slowly fades away slowly tearing in fear.*

I am tryign to post somethign on youtube, and my music wont load onto your tube can somone please tell me what I am doing wrond or tell me how to fix please.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vVVsdVVUxE

Here si the link.

*Looks around in the skies before placing my paw on top of my heart with a huge smile as well a happy tear drops from my eye off from my muzzle with great happyness.* I am happy once again as well I feel my heart alive in me, I can't thank my love Sara for the great love she is giving me, I feel like I can take ont he world as well I have honor and pride once again, I feel me for once. I never felt myself in years and forsome how I can feel me nothing more. I am to happy. I lvoe you Sara you are my angel my light, I cant thank you enough I love you lots. I love you deeply, more than the worl for you are my world. If I dont have you Sara I would be nothing I anm weak but when I am near you or next to you I am strong and me, I am strong with honor and pride I cant thnak you enough I love you deeply. Your my Anger Sara Thiompson, I love you.

Anywho I am me again everyone thanks to Sara I can be me once again.

*Smiles and breaths heavenly before gazeing into the ski with a huge great smile on ym muzzle before letting out a tear of happiness and greatness.*

Dont worry about the other journal, Its not your burden as well something you should bare or worry about so don't worry. anywho. How are all you? Doing good anything?

You will get this once and only once. If you have nothing better to say to me on MSN or YIM to me about you life being shitty and you want to rp to get rid of it, than talk to somone else instead of bringing me down, I have decided and I didn't want to put this in this in plan, but if you keep at me on this shit I will block and delete me. Want to know a reason why, red this very carfully. I'M WORKING ON A JOB FOR I'M ABOUT TO LOOSE THE VERY THING ABOVE MY HEAD TO KEEP ME ALIVE. Meaning I'm about to loose house and live on street's, I'm looking for a job. If you want to just talk to me than talk but if you want to bitch about your life, get ready for a delet or a block on my MSN or YIM. Because I have had enough of it.

Do it!
1. Your Name: James
2. Age:19
3. Single or Taken: maybe taken by a loveable husky.
4. Favourite Film: To many
5. Favourite Song or Album: Far away By Nickelback, and there is a reason behing the song.
6. Favourite Band/Artist: to many.
7. Dirty or Clean: Clean
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings: None.
9. Do we know each other outside of dA? Maybe don't know
10. What's your philosophy on life? Rather not answer.
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty? It depends on the mood I am in and How the day is going.
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest? No.
13. What is your favourite memory of us? When I danced and gave a kiss with this one girl at the prom before it was the day webroke up as well.
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure? I really don't have one I think lol.
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: Well what you ant to know, I can be weird just being me.
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they? I wished to have the perfect mate as well enjoy the rest of my love with would be wish one, wish two: I wish to make sure I could be able to provide, and wih three: Ferrai Enzo black.
17. Can we get together and make a cake? If you want to.
18. Which country is your spiritual home? Where ever my heart goes.
19. What is your big weakness? Falling in love.
20. Do you think I'm a good person? Yes
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school? Computer tech and Autmotive.
22. Describe your accent: A little bit of southern.
23. If you could change anything about me, would you? Nope.
24. What do you wear to sleep? My undies.
25. Trousers or skirts? Trousers
26. Cigarettes or alcohol? None thank you
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? I would try to comfort your time and see if there was a possible way to help you out, if not than I would try to make you feel better anyway or try to make your forget it if it was possible.
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you? Yes

hey there.


Whats your favorite car of all times?
If you had your car what would you do with it?

just something random for everyone out there thats bored atm.

i have asked nicely and char my dar brother has asked you nicely to be nice and its not turning out very well for him and its getting me more than pissed now i can barly hold back my anger either learn to give back respect or just shut the fuck up and leave him the fuck alone i mean come on people listen to what he has to say and learn how he feels inside if you dont do that your going to have a dragon depresed and hurt inside and its pissing my right the fuck off enough is enough so i ask you stop it. *hugs my brother deeply* i hope son everything mellows out for you my dear brother

Have you ever road your bicycle so fast on the sidewalk and some asshole left something in the middle of the sidewalk and you dodge it a the last second and you get on the grass and the grass is a lil slick so you try to get back on the side walk when you just fly off the bike instead and land on your left side than roled a bit while you head gets banged pretty hard? if so i would like to know how to get rid of thie head ache i have and the pain on the left cheek


*wimpers*

mother has made another one of my days becomes to hell thanks to her so i guess im stuck with no concert and a failed day for me o well i guess thats what happens when you give your hopes up to high

well there is a live concert i got invited to go i hope to have fun time for some two step and country fun i know some people out there doesnt like it but o well i love this kind of thing well talk to you another time laters

im a lot better than i was and i have to thank my brothers and my sisters that have been there for me but the tru ones that helped me and stuck to my side but im sorry you will know who your are real soon but i dont want to put names up here i got that from someone and he was rught about it so i have to thank him later for that as well anywho im better and smiling but im not still myslef just yet but im getting there so thank you again brothers and sisters.

*hugs to all*

im sorry for not haveing a good mood lately its just that something came up and i feel weak in the chest and everywhere else i feel missplaced in this world and im trying to find myself again but i just cant get the strenght to even make good dreams all i see in my dreams is that i sacfriced my life for everyone when there was trouble and im just dead in a casket i dont know why but i just am and thats what i have everynight and im sorry i hope you can forgive me and my actions. and one more thing if this progress anyworse i dont know what ill do. and if you thinking of death to my self than your mistaken just to let you know. take care all hope to be in better mood soon.

there once said a guy: "no one can keep me away" well i guess that was true becasue i have returned and im here to stay for a long time so watch out here comes back a friend in need

well i guess jrnova is right its more like a break than just saying goodbye and thanks bro i guess if it wasnt you i probly have had left it so bro thank you so ill try oooo here is some good new i can get at the libar about an hour a day and chat for a bit and such but i want to chat with the people that i love dearly to me first than the rest can come so yah well my brothers i guess this is a brake *jumps on my couch as i cross my legs* catch you guys when i get back chow

brothers family this is and will be the last time i maypop in once in a while but i have to stop going on here and leave the net life for a while ad im sorry to all. char my brotehr thank you for posting for me but i fi got the couarge to speak and this si what i got to say.. brothers family everyone that i love so dear to me that i cant stopping thinking about you and you know who you are but one person wont get this and if somone ever does fid a way to give it to her plz give her the link so she can read this as well her name is sara... anywho this is a final farewell for all my beloved brothers and famliy that i have i will never forget you and each and everyone of you has either made me heart filled with so much joy and happyness ot showed me the ways to life and better life i could go one by one on here and name each one but than ill never get sleep so you know who you are if not as my blood brothers Char and Jrnova they can tell you who you are. anyway i wanted yo thank you all deeply for being there for me and more ill never forget that and i know that i cant return the favor excpet for comming back asap and that is a promise to you and all out there that i will come back but i promised 4 people they will get the message and for now all take care and ill never forget you all take care and i love you all my brothers and family. *hugs to all as much as i can as i tunr with a tear but stands tall and leaves*

Hey everyone. This is Char.

Something bad had happened to Jjames. He lost his laptop due to his dad taking it. He doesn't know where he went with it but he is looking for him. I'm hoping that he can get it back and it's unharmed.

listen my brother jrnova if starting to feel better but please be easy with him and if you dont ill come over your ass and bitch you out so i ask you once be easy with him or you will piff me the fuck off and my day isnt going to well as it is

I have been watching lately on here time to time and i have seen my brothers and my blood brothers getting hurt or something so my brothers when you get this send them this link.

Alright i have been watching lately like for Char my blood brother you have been giving him your bullshitting crap and i hear it from him everyday so STOP IT or fuck off or leave him alone and go do something else bother somone else with your problems you keep giving him this shit and it just makes him feel bad inside im sorry char brother for doing this but i had enough from this for you now for my brother JJrnova he is another one he helps you out and then your return back to him with bs no not going to fly with me that pisses me off even more when somone helps you or does there best than listen to them and thank them later even if you didnt wanted it ti if you dont weant it than dont tell them a damn thing but enough of that and for my other brothers that i have i could do this all day and name alot of my brothers and each one that has a problem becasue of somone else not retrunning the respect here is a quick lesson respect to have respect you have to give first and whent you give you return and if you dont return than its not even worth the time to help out. now back to my other brothers. Brothers im not always there for you but remeber this i will do my best for to help you out the best ways i can and im sorry for me not being there all the time but i try and this is what im going to do for you and you have to give this peice of info to the asshole nort listening to you. STOP MESSING WITH THEM AND THINK WHAT YOUR DOING ALSO READ THIS JOURNAL THAT I MAKE. if they still dont get tell them to fuck off and ignore them the best you can do and like i said this is for all my brothers out there *hugs to all my brothers* ill try to be there for all of you as best as i can my brothers and you know who you are love ya brothers take care of your self and keep your dragon muzzle or your furry muzzles held high and keep moving.